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117luv · 10 months

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THE PARENT TRAP — LHS | CHAPTER 6

synopsis: jungwon and ni-ki met each other at a summer camp and found out they were fraternal twins. this leads to events where the two ex-lovers, heeseung and yn, are reunited after 14 years by their children.

genre: exes to lovers, smau, fluff

pairing: lee heeseung x fem!reader

warnings: cursing, poor attempts in humor, grammatical errors, marriage, pregnancy, parenthood, miscommunication

taglist: CLOSED!

a/n: hi my loves! apologies since it took LONGER than my usual sched for updates which is average of 2 days, it just i have many things in mind and im having a minor writer's block hence the slow update but rest assured my update sched will be consistent since its my final week of school T.T ne ways enjoy n love ya <3

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Having dinner with your ex is an awkward event, especially if it's your own kid who asked for the event to take place. Yn can't say no to her son, whom she hasn't been with for almost 15 years; it's the least she can do for him. As she got ready, the boys waited for her downstairs as they watched a show on the TV. A doorbell rang just after she went downstairs. She opened the door and met the eyes of the man who is not only the father of her children but also the guy she still deeply loves and cares about despite being apart for more than a decade. They got in his car and drove to the restaurant. The car ride was filled with the boys playfully teasing each other as she looked at the rear mirror. She was met with a scene she didn't think could be possible after all these years. Her twin sons are playfully bantering as Heeseung hums to the tune of the song playing on the radio. It felt like a family enjoying the weekend and having dinner together. A complete family she had wished she could have fought for in the past.

They stepped into the restaurant and sat at their table. The boys were busy looking at the menu while the two tried to avoid each other's glances. As the waiter got their orders and, after awhile, came out with their food. They peacefully ate while the boys shared stories while they were in the camp. She can see that the boys indeed have a bond with each other despite being apart for such a long time. It pains her that this could have been their reality if things had turned out okay. It was time for dessert, and Heeseung excused himself to go to the restroom, which she quickly followed as she instructed the boys to wait for them. As she found him, she quickly grabbed his arm and asked him if she could talk to him in a private area.

"What do you want us to talk about?" he asked. "I think we should tell them; I can't bear waiting any longer to see them not know about their situation, she responded. Heeseung gave her a reassuring smile and said, "Okay, if that's what you want, then we can tell them. They deserve to know about it." — "Thank you. We should wait and tell them when we arrive in my place since we are still in public, to which he nodded and agreed. They got back to the table, and the boys were just talking as they saw their parents. She told them that her and Ni-ki's dad would tell them about something. The ride back was silent as the boys felt nervous for what was about to happen.

"So, what do the both of you want to tell us?" Jungwon asked as they all sat on the sofa. "Okay, me and Heeseung have been hiding something. I know this might come as a surprise and if you two are angry or feel betrayed by the both of us, its completely understandable. Jungwon and Ni-ki, the both of two are twins. Ni-ki, I understand if you feel hatred towards me. I been nothing but an useless mom to you. I failed to give you the right to experience to have a mother. I as your mother would like to apologize deeply. I know my apology doesn't make up for the 15 years but I hope you know that I always have you in my mind. I prayed everyday that you and your dad are safe. That you're eating well and growing into a respectfully man. I'm always proud of you and I'm grateful to be your mother." as she spoke Ni-ki cant help his eyes to tear up. He finally found his mom, the woman for whom he had longed for a long time. He can finally have someone he can call 'Mom', or someone who will shower him with affection. The day had come, and he was the happiest he had been for the longest time. "Can I hug you?" he spoke to her, and she opened her arms as the boy hugged his mom. "I've been wishing to feel your hug for the longest time. Whatever reason you and dad have, you can just explain to us next time. I just want to hug right now. Also, does this mean I can call you 'Mom' and taste your meals?" the boy finally looked at his mom, who shared the same tearful eyes as she looked at him: "Yes, Sweetheart. You can call me 'Mom, and I will cook you anything that your heart desires. Anything for my baby." as she placed a kiss on his forehead.

As the scene unfolds in front of Jungwon. He can't help but look at Heeseung, who is sitting near him. His dad is within arms reach; he can't believe he can finally meet him. He got up and hugged him tightly. "I can't believe I can finally hug you, Dad, he said while the older male hugged him tighter. "Me too, Kid. Me and your mom want to apologize about everything. The both of you don't deserve this but we can't undo the past anymore. Let me make for years I wasn't there for the both of you." Heeseung replied, "Thank you for telling us. As Ni-ki said, just explain to us next time. I want to be with you, I really want to be close to you." he said as Heeseung caressed his hair and placed a kiss on top of his head while hugging him. The day ended on a good note. There were many emotions poured out, and the four of them hugged together. The family is finally complete.

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httpsuniverse · 8 months

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fine line [ christian pulisic ]

after finding out the secret you’ve been hiding for years, christian made it his mission to be with his own family and of course, to be with you despite your careers and other obstacles that’s keeping the both of you apart. things are moving too fast and it’s starting to worry you. but don’t worry—“we’ll be a fine line”.

[ 𝗣𝗔𝗜𝗥𝗜𝗡𝗚 𝗔𝗡𝗗 𝗖𝗛𝗔𝗥𝗔𝗖𝗧𝗘𝗥𝗦 ] — christian pulisic x ex!reader; oc!emily, oc!ezekiel, oc!andrew . ⊹ ✶ ㄔ 🫂 °. *

[ 𝗗𝗘𝗧𝗔𝗜𝗟𝗦 & 𝗪𝗔𝗥𝗡𝗜𝗡𝗚𝗦 ] — insta au, im not really good at dates but just imagine the setting is during the summer lmfao, christian & y/n softlaunching (are they really though 🤨) . ⊹ ✶ ㄔ ℹ️ °. *

࣪˖ 💭 .. 𝗘𝗬𝗔’𝗦 𝗡𝗢𝗧𝗘𝗦 ⌕ YEAH so ive only got this for now, i haven’t finished writing the narrative scenario BUT FOR NOW enjoy this <3 ALSOOO belated happy birthday to my man who isn’t my man but is my man ❤️🖤

this work is purely fictional. names, characters, places and incidents either are products of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously. © httpsuniverse, 2023. do not steal, repost in other platforms, translate and/or claim this work as your own.

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cmpulisic summer for the books ✌🏻 ready to go 🚨♟️

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user wait what

user since anyone isn’t mentioning anything about the 4th and 8th pic, i will. DID I MISS SOMETHING OR....?

user girl you’re wrong, everyone’s talking about it

user you mean, did WE miss something? yeah, we definitely did

user yall maybe that’s just his nephew or something 😭

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user captain america ❤️🖤

masonmount congratulations brother 🤝

benchilwell my man 🫡

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yourusername what a crazy summer it has been 🌻 til next time florida!

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emilyemmons 💗 enjoy your journey to milan, my loves!!

yourusername come visit us when celeste is a bit older 😚💗

emilyemmons oh we definitely would 🫶 celeste definitely loved having her godmom around 😌

yoursistersig hot mamas!! 🥵 emilyemmons yourusername

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emilyemmons this summer is the most i’ve seen y/n wear bikinis and she’s the HOTTEST

yoursistersig ikr! that’s what i've been telling herrr 😫

yourmomsig zekey holding the flowers 🌷 enjoy milan, my love 🤍 wishing you all the best

yourusername 🥹 see you soon mom!!

emilyemmons those are from ********* 🤭

yourusername emi!!!

yourmomsig well, they’re beautiful! he definitely remembers which flowers you like 😉

deedee_pulisic come back soon with zeke ❤️

yourusername of course! he and avery can be playmates 🥰

user wait a minute...

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user is THAT christian 😭

user GIRLLL the tattoo, the beard !!!! it IS christian

YOURUSERNAME HAS SET THEIR ACCOUNT TO PRIVATE.

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user wait what

user I KNEW THAT KID IS HIS

user we’ll never know unless he confirms it him babe

user girl are you not convinced already lol look closely at the pictures of the kid on the mom’s posts, he clearly looks like christian when he was a kid

user still not convinced

user you do you ig

user “very special people that i’ve recently reunited with” omfg exes to lovers i think

user GIIIIIIIIIIRL 😭 dont do this to me

user dont blame me i finished a lot of movies today

user i dont know which one of you bitches just lied to me and told me i have a chance with this man ... APPARENTLY HE HAS A KID

user this has got to be the funniest shit i’ve read today 😭

user yeah that girl and kid is definitely connected to him, i surrender

user she’s definitely the girl he dated during his dortmund days

user i cant complain though, she’s gorgeous and i dont blame christian for being private with his relationship right now especially if they have a kid together

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hearts4golbach · 2 months

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The Night Shift.

Johnnie Guilbert x Fem!Reader.

part 19.

"No, no," i laughed. "im not going to make you help me." i shook my head, continuing to work on the huge order i had received the previous night for a wedding.

"You're not making me help you. I want to." he slid his hands over the glass case, gripping onto the edge.

"You wholeheartedly want to help me?" i raise my eyebrow at him, "im fine by myself. It's not a big deal."

"Exactly, it's not a big deal. if you teach me how to make drinks and shit we can get this order done 2 times faster." he looked at his phone, "we only have 2 hours to complete it, anyway."

my stomach dropped. "theres only 2 hours left?!" i sighed heavily, "fine. let me go grab an apron from the back."

i grabbed a spare apron and quickly brought it back out to him. i tossed it to him and watched as he quickly put it on.

"Well, get your ass back here." i beckoned him, "dont worry, I'll pay you for helping me."

he immediately shook his head, "dont, im volunteering."

"Whatever," i gave in, knowing I'd end up paying him in the morning. "we need to make a couple of batches of croissants and a shit ton of hot chocolate. dont ask me why someone would want that for their wedding, but i dont judge."

"Easy, so how do i do that?" i rolled my eyes at him.

"Come with me." he followed me back into the kitchen. "Grab the 2 biggest pans over there on the rack." he did as told as i took the bucket of pre-made dough out of the fridge.

i dumped it out onto the counter, taking a rolling pin and beginning to work the dough. i rolled out half of the dough to be flat and cut the other half off.

he set the pans onto the counter next to me. "Now what?"

i handed him a knife, "Cut this dough into triangles like this." i took his hand gently and showed him how to cut the dough.

"Easy enough," he smiled at me before getting to work. concentration washed over his face as he worked hard, trying not to disappoint me.

i began to roll out the other half of the dough, occasionally bumping him with my elbow, causing us both to giggle. "So, come here often?" i say, awkwardly trying to fill the silence.

he looked over and smiled, "occasionally. so, is this some special family secret dough or something?"

"Yeah, actually. my mom likes to add pinches of random seasonings to whatever she makes, and this one kinda stuck. but i'm not telling you the secret." i smirked, nudging his elbow.

he dramatically rolled his eyes, "Fine, i guess." he replied sarcastically.

after all of the triangles had been made, i taught him how to roll them up. "we gotta make this shit quick, we got an hour left, and that's just enough time. we still have to hustle." i dusted off my hands, "i'm going to go prepare the hot chocolate. i trust you to do this, can you?"

he nodded quickly, "Yeah, it's pretty simple."

"Okay," i said cautiously, "i'll be back."

i walked out to the front part of the kitchen, the part that's visible to the public, and began the big batch of hot cocoa. i boiled exactly a gallon of milk and added, per usual, my mothers hot chocolate mix. i always thought my mother was crazy, making everything by hand. but it was her passion, and i dare say it rubbed off on me, too.

i glanced into the kitchen, watching how johnnies hands quickly rolled up each croissant. his eyebrows were slightly furrowed together. i heard him humming to himself softly, and the sight made butterflies erupt in my stomach. i realized Johnnie was the most handsome and kind person i had ever met.

while waiting for the hot chocolate to finish brewing, i stepped back into the kitchen. i approached johnnie quietly, startling him as my hand patted his back. "You did really well, actually. That was super quick." Feeling as if i was about to throw up from the mix of butterflies and anxiety, i leaned over and kissed his cheek.

his face turned red as he tried to stay focused. "t-thank you." he shot me a soft smile before stepping back and washing off his hands.

i lined them up neatly on the tray, making sure to put just enough spacing so i could fit larger portions on the two trays. everything surprisingly went smoothly, and i slid them in the oven.

i sighed contently, "At least we got all the hard work done. now, we just gotta let everything cook, and then we can pack it. Does that sound okay?" i checked with johnnie.

"Yeah, of course." he took the apron off and hung it back with the others. "That was actually really fun." he admitted.

i scoffed, putting my hand on my hip, "you thought it wouldn't be?"

he rolled his eyes, "im just saying,"

i ran my hand down his arm as i walked past, "i know, johnnie. im messing with you." i pulled a couple of boxes out of the cabinet and set them up. i tossed him a stack of cups. "Would you mind pouring the hot chocolate?"

he caught them and agreed, walking over to the counter and getting straight to work. as he poured all of the drinks, i checked on the croissants and pulled them out of the oven.

i set them aside to cool enough so i could put them in the box. there was roughly 15 minutes before the man was going to pick them up.

with johnnies help, we finished everything with 5 minutes to spare. we stacked the boxes and put at least 50 mugs of hot chocolate in holders. we stood back to admire our work. he sighed heavily, "i think we did it."

i smiled. "You think? i really wouldn't have been able to do it without you."

he turned to me, stepping closer so that we were face to face. "i dont know, i think you would've made it. there's not much you can't do." he encouraged.

i stayed silent, staring into his bright blue eyes as i smiled. he pulled me in for a hug, his hand smoothing out my hair, holding my face closer to his chest. "Thank you so much for your help."

"Anytime. can i help again sometime?"

"Only if i can pay you." i caved.

"i dont- y/n," he pulled away, "i dont need the money. i actually like helping, i dont wanna be paid for that."

i hesitated, "If you insist." A man walked in dressed in a tux. "Hello! are you here to pick up the wedding order?"

"Hey, beautiful. yes, i am. are you the same woman i spoke to over the phone?" his voice was soft, almost forcibly soft as he spoke.

i glanced to johnnie, notcing how jealousy was written all over his face. "Yeah, i am." i nodded towards the stack of items. "heres your order."

"You're much prettier than i imagined. do you think i could get your number?" he smirked, pulling out his phone.

i glanced to johnnie, silently asking him to help. i was scared to reject the man. "i-"

johnnie spoke up. "She's taken, sorry."

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love-islike-abomb · 4 months

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Calling Dr love: chapter 1

Roman reigns x Anastasia (OC)

Warnings: fluff, flirting, Errors I may have missed

Word count: 1.2k

Tag list: @reignsangel444 @acknowledge-reigns @mandeelemons @mindfulofmani @niknakbucks92 @queengreenarrowmia89 @reignsxlove @afterdarkprincess @marchm-langdon @msbluehaz3 @pittieprincess22 @shadyprincesslife @salirophiliac @lonewolfy45 @thesamoanqueen @vintage-pvssy @weirdgirl16355 @windhamsrotunda

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New York City! The place every young woman goes to find herself, her Career, maybe get famous or infamous, meet mr right or Mr right now, maybe even Prince charming. But me? I came here to get away from everyone as strange as it sounds. My family lives clear across the country in Washington State and though I missed them i wanted to finally find myself without having my mom constantly pushing me to find a guy and have babies. Don't get me wrong I've always wanted kids but not with the first guy I see and certainly not because my mom likes him. I love my mom but she has horrible judgement of character! Don't ask it's a long story!

Countless dates led me to almost giving up hope. Empty promises of sweeping me off my feet nearly made my head spin. None of those men were for me! They were boring, lacked creativity, spontaneousness, some even lacked intelligence! I not only want a good looking man i want a man who can stimulate my brain! Make me laugh, think outside the box, but also whisper dirty things in my ear when we're in public, give my ass a little squeeze, boss me around in and out of the bedroom, let people know im yours and your mine.

Sadly none of them ever could. One passed the intelligence part but he was a prude! Another passed the naughty part but he was dumb as a dodo! I felt like I was in a revolving door I was never going to get out of! New York was to big for there to be this many boring men in it!!

Or maybe I was the problem! Did I know what I wanted to well? Was I asking to much? I mean there was that hot guy at the grocery store who looked incredibly familiar and the muscles he had!! He could've picked me up and thrown me on a bed! That's hot! Snapping out of my thought I realized I was still in this internet cafe sipping on my coffee. Looking at my watch I saw I had 10 minutes left on my break so I packed up my stuff and headed back next door "see you tomorrow Rick!" I yelled to the cashier. He was such a a sweet old man! Always tried his hardest and when someone got roudy because he was moving to slow other customers would step up to help him. I get that people are always in a hurry for their coffee first thing in the morning but that's really no reason to be rude to that poor old man. I always tried to help him as best I could and he'd graciously thank me.

I walked into my store and put my things down in the back. I always carried my backpack since my laptop was in it but made me an easy target. Thankfully my store was only 2 stores down from the coffee shop! I came out and saw the hot guy from the grocery store sitting at the bar and looked at my coworker "when did he get here?!" I whisper yelled "about 10 minutes ago" she said smiling "he asked for you!"

"me?" I nearly fainted on the spot "Kate he could be some crazy serial killer! Please tell me you didn't tell him I worked here?!"

"ana I'm sorry! It slipped! He's quite a charming guy!" She said as i face palmed myself.

"great now I have to talk to him! It's not like I'm shy or anything Kate!" I said grabbing an apron and walking out to the dining area "I'm sorry" she mouthed through the area where we set orders. Kate I love you but why do you do this to me? I thought. I took a deep breath 'now or never' I mumbled to myself. I up to him and smiled at him.

"my coworker told me you were looking for me" I said with a smile, trying to hide the fact that I was slightly dying inside at the fact that I couldn't flirt with him since I was at work. He stuck his hand out to shake my head "my name is Roman" he smiled "what's your name beautiful?" He asked.

Turning on the charm already! I'm so fucked! "I stuck my hand out"Anastasia but everyone calls me ana" I smiled. He grabbed my hand like he was gonna shake it but then lifted it to his lips and kissed the back of it. There was only 2 other customers here so I heard Kate squeak in the back and made a mental note to kick her later. I felt my fave get hot "your friend always squeak like that when you meet a guy" he asked.

I'm gonna kill her "n-no s-she just um..." I couldn't think ""you cute when you're flustered!" He smirked. He was everything I had been looking for! Intelligent, very handsome, dirty minded, obviously I hadn't seen it all since we were in public but he wad obviously very flirtatious and I liked that.

"i wanted to ask you if maybe you'd like to go to dinner with me sometime" he smiled. I think he knew the answer already but he just wanted to hear me say it.

"I'd love to" I smiled.

"well we're right here and I know it's short notice but why not now and then next time I'll take you on a fancier date" he smiled.

And the last of the qualities I look for, spontaneousness! He had it all! "Y-yeah I'd love! Let me go get some menu's" I said as he gently grabbed my arm and lulled towards him "I'd like to eat you later" he growled. Oh sir you have no idea what you've just started!! Control and! I bit my lip and I'm sure he saw it.

"are you always that dirty on the first date?" I smirked.

"no but you seem like the kinda girl who likes that and it appears my hunch was right" he smirked back.

Touche sir! The rest of lunch we laughed and talked and i hadn't even realized it was almost closing time. Barely anyone had come in today which was a little weird but it may just be an off day.

"I'd like to see you again if that's ok with you" he smiled.

"I'dike that to" i smiled back. "Can I have your number I'll text mine to you"

"sure" he smiled as we exchanged numbers. I liked him m. He was the first guy I'd felt safe around in a while and he had all the qualities I was looking for in a man! Did I hit the jackpot?

"I'll see you Saturday at 6? Dress to impress" he said, snapping me out of my thoughts. "Will do" I smiled back as he walked out of the store to his car and drove off. I ran to the back to tell Kate everything that had just happened! She was gonna be so happy!!

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thethreeeyed-raven · 7 months

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hi could you do a ruby matthews from sex education x g!p g!p fútbol reader enemies to lovers trope?

Angst to fluff

If so here’s my request: y/n is a new transfer student and has a class with ruby and it was y/n who started their rival/hate for each other on accident. Then as time went on they began to get closer slowly, then at a party y/n drunkly confesses to ruby how much she likes her then ruby says she feels the same but then ruby is too afraid to go public, so y/n agrees to be a secret (you could add smut after if you want up to you!) As time goes on y/n starts to get annoyed because ruby in public starts to treat her crap and acts as if they’re still enemies. So y/n got fed up and confronted Ruby about it in front of the untouchables which Ruby tries to deny everything which leads to y/n saying they’re over and leaves. To which leads to y/n not going to school for a while which worries ruby, so then ruby goes to her house and finds out that y/n moved (for whatever family or financial reason) which causes her to breakdown and stuff. Then after weeks of trying to find y/n she does and then ruby explains why she did what she did then the fluff happens then the end

Im so sorry this request was long😭😭 I’ve just been thinking about it for a while now I just needed to get it off my chest LMAOO

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navigation | warnings : mentions of sex, slight homophobia?, ruby being a bitch, angst | a/n : hopefully you enjoy! (i did. change a few things) | tags : @lost-in-fiction-like-ur-mom , @fangsp1der-2099 , @knight-of-flowerss

You weren't sure when you made an enemy of Ruby Matthew's, or when you began to catch feelings for her.

Ruby Matthew's wasn't sure when she made an enemy of you, or when she began to catch feelings for you.

Ruby and You started a secret relationship a few months ago, emphasis on the secret.

It all started when you drunkenly confessed to her at a party, not expecting her to take you into a closet and give u the best fuck you've ever had.

Being in a relationship with Ruby came as a shock to you. At school in front of others, she was mean and spiteful, but when it was just you two...it was different.

Cuddling and kissing was quite frequent, whereas in front of her friends, you were both pretending to hate each other.

But you were getting tired of pretending.

You approached Ruby with confidence, deciding that today you would confront her.

"Ruby."

All three of them turned to look at you, Ruby looking slightly surprised and Olivia and Anwar clearly not trying to hide their disgust.

"What do you want?" Ruby replied brazenly.

"I want to talk." You said as you adjusted the strap of your backpack.

Olivia and Anwar looked at Ruby expectantly.

"About what?"

You rolled your eyes, why was she being so difficult? "You know what. And I'd personally like to do this in private."

"Whatever you have to say, you can say it here." She motioned to her two friends, then crossed her arms.

To say you were angry was an understatement.

"Fine." You stepped closer. "Me and Ruby have been in a relationship for exactly four months, since Otis Milburn's surprisingly alright party, when she took me into a closet and fucked me like she meant it. And I don't want it to be a secret anymore."

You reveled in the sight of Anwar and Olivia's appalled expressions, until your gaze fell on Ruby, who looked crushed. You felt slightly guilty but then you realised she deserved it.

"And now it's over between us."

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bigdsgirl · 6 months

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hello, yes I am here and I am revved up. let's do episode 8:

Restarting where MIL beats down evil mom - pure bliss

"blatant favoritism to your child" -- okay pot meet kettle

HA SHE CALLED HER OUT!

I hate him I hate him I hate him - "as a family"

Me: I wonder if they are going to follow the webtoon, *sees the bar scene* oh yessssss

The dad making dinner to resolve things - oh sweet summer child

This man thinks he's so slick, when all they are doing is outing that he, evil mom and Yoo Ra are working together.

WAIT HE HAS FOOTAGE. OH MY--

Are you suggesting we watch it as a family? YES GRAB THE POPCORN

cAlled out - "it was 20 years ago" oh NOW HE WANNA SWEEP IT

I am personally not a fan of the "we told you to stop fighting" - seriously, one is EGGING THE OTHER ON.

Chairwoman said "we are doing this, old school" *succession theme song plays*

"I don't want to stress him out" - my ANGEL

the way he slightly opens the door to let her know that he's home GOOD BYE

THE HUG. THE SAFE SPACE.

he needs to make sure she eats I am losing it

"let's leave it alone" - yeah because we know who did it and it will make you even worse

I love Do Guk just beat down the ex -- truly brings me joy on this glorious Sunday

HAHAHAHH HE HAS THE FOOTAGE - threaten his ass

Turn in Yoo Ra - oh boy you are speaking my language

"when you mess with my wife" that's right, keep my wife's name out of your mouth!!!!!

Yi Joo - take those gloves off and slap them silly

the literal "oh the water tastes great" - nailed them heheheheh

Wait. Wait - they are eating together??? oh oh oh

Yi Joo in the stripped shirt is so effortless and gah i love her she is gorgeous

Jamie babe, please just say it (for those that's don't know please ignore)

AS FRIENDS *sobs*

wait! wait! what dish does she want to learn! is it for Do Guk?? PLS SAY YES.

The burn the burn yes, let's talk about it.

Love the massage chair moment - iconic

ohmy god is the food for the chairwoman??? IM CRYING she just wants a FAMILY

"the meals that Do Guk makes are so good I want more" - YES YES YESSSSSSSSSSSS!!!

oh the cut to a previous conversation, here we go. oh this is why she asked Yi Joo. and oh my gklajgfdkjag

"I spent my life building homes for other people. But I couldn't do it for my grandson" oh my GOD i am sOBBING

the JEAN SKIRT, Yi Joo I am just a baby bi, please don't do this to meeeeee *dies*

oh my god my heart is shattering - "Yi Joo is alive" the fact that she says that just makes me want to burn the world for her

ARSENIC??????? Oh I am ready to go to war; this is just awful.

Auntie is a spy and I love that for her. She is a blessing, I am so happy Yi Joo had someone in her corner, even if it was such a short period of time.

oh hey look. an article about a FIRE, HUH?

HOSTILE TAKE OVER LFGGGGGG!!!!!!!! Grandpa, you get +2 points

failed acquisition! yeet! truly music to my ears

Do Guk that shirt looks sooooooo good with your hair

BRO STOP PROTECTING YOO RA

HAHAHAH DO GUK JUST LOVES DROPPING THE MIC

sir - listen to your advisor, i bet you all my dollars she's right and you should be careful

oh here we go, i love this for the ex; get what is due. You deserve to feel like shit for eternity!

"order for me" babe, that's not enough

uh oh uh oh little sister is is bring troubleeeee

DO NA!!! I would do anything for this woman. her and Yi Joo have my heart

the rock music in the background, truly a baddie!!!!

YOO RA THIS IS ALL BECAUSE OF YOUUUUUU -- too little to late good sir

"You volunteered to do this" oh this is sweet and I can't wait to see everything explode for all these shitty people (including you Yoo Ra hehehehe)

Oh we are getting the full apology here. hmm. hmm. still don't accept :) go to hell ya turn. AND YI JOO DESTROYED HIM - "these are my terms" - yes queen.

The board meeting; stupid men. And Do Guk; he game with RECEIPTS.

I just love this power couple so much. they are the light of my life.

this is me rn:

more important public opinion??? I knew it was going to be a serious about the construction work, but a tiny part of me was hoping for a photo of Yi Joo like:

again keep my wifes name out of your mf-ing mouth

Yoo Ra - the first thing you need to learn about revenge, you have to take care of your minions. this is very important

MIL THAT OUTFIT HOLY SHIT, she did not come to play

"please do not call me that, it's unpleasant" - I am WHEEEEZING

babe, Yoo Ra, you cannot say "he's the first guy I liked im sorry, i just went a little 🤪crazy 🤪" that will not work

oh ew, bringing business into this??? oh ma'am. oh now he's sick. hmm. HMMMM. I wonder why.

oh the "is it upsetting you?" MIL you are an angel and I thank you for caring for our Yi Joo.

hell yeah! throw the pills on the floor! someone grab them!

stonks are plummeting! ohhhhh noooooooo

aw shit the conservatorship oh nice, bribery. f u mister lawyer.

oh evil mom is scheming too - it's about to get spicyyyyy. oh no she gave him like.... 6 pills. oh that's not good.

OH YES YES YES ITS HAPPENING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

now I can seeeeeeeeeeeeee my HALLOOOOOOOO

oh fuck that trailer is FIRE LETSS GOOO! (I spy a HUG!!!)

#perfect marriage revenge #kdrama #live blog #lb #pmr #heidi watches perfect marriage revenge

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Hiiiii if you dont mind I would LOVE to hear more of your pearlina moms propaganda its so good thank u. ps your off the hook magnum opus series is AMAZING

!!!!!!!!!! hang on let me think up some REALLY GOOD HEADCANONS just for you anon im so sorry it took me so long to notice this ask and also answer it,,, (it has only been a few hours)

just like with all my moms posts (tm) this got super long it’s going under the cut. have a good meal anon

pearl and marina kept the fact that they were going to have a baby very much under wraps. tabloids spread rumors, but they just got shut down by off the hook personally. like, an article titled “off the hook spotted buying maternity wear- are they gaining another member?” gets posted on twitter or something and pearl reteweets it and she says “no, it’s for family.” or something

of course, the article was right. it was just a secret. until they very much couldn’t hide the twins anymore… when they were five years old and had to be enrolled in school. don’t ask me how they did it.

i think it would be super sweet if everything was planned out from the start, so that’s how i write my pearlina moms.

pearl and marina talked for a very long time about having a baby. it took three years to decide on yes and another two to get everything ready and for marina to get over her nerves…

but everything turned out okay! :]

when the twins are still super small, pearl likes to carry them in her sweatshirt pockets or her purse, cause they fit in there and it’s nice and comfy for good naps. if you think of her octo expansion outfit and look at her sweater she’s got a pocket there, that’s where she puts them. like a momma kangaroo!

even when they’re teenagers pearlie still has them go swim form and crawl into her pockets when they get sleepy in public.

even before haruko and marley were born, their moms sang to them. pearl used to press herself up to marina and sing into the light, super softly, just to make sure her babies got sleep too. it very quickly became their lullaby, not to mention it accidentally got marina to sleep too, oops…

pearl thought it was super super cute. she has videos.

to marina holding and/or cuddling the twins is like a weighted blanket for her. it’s absolutely one of the most comforting things she’s ever experienced. she stims by scratching their backs, super gentle, and she’s very lucky that it makes both of them just melt and hug her and purr. they can’t reach their backs to scratch them, so marina doing it makes them very happy.

octolings like to play-fight and wrestle i think, so especially when they’re little marina fake-fights her twins with just her hands to keep from hurting them and to teach them to play. once haruko bit her and marley got very upset when she pretended to die…

pearl did a lot of googling throughout the whole thing. like, take the amount that popped into your head when i said “a lot of googling”, and maybe quadruple it. and then take that amount and triple it. that’s about how much googling she did. she wanted to take the absolute best care of her wife she could, so she decided she was going to learn everything she could- good places to take her, comfortable clothing options, the bestest softest blankets to get, homemade ice cream recipes. marina would have felt a little bad, but pearl didn’t let her.

haruko and marley are pretty much the spitting image of both their moms, so much so that once their aunt callie managed to genuinely mistake both of them for their moms at a glance more than once! they have never let her live this down <3

marina used to cradle the twins in her tentacles when she had her hands full. she owns a baby sling, she just never decided to use it. pearl gets more use out of it than she does.

one of the first things pearl says to marley when she meets him and is no longer completely shellshocked by him existing is “why didn’t you let us see you, little guy? were you too shy to say hello?”

(his response: rolling over and going to sleep.)

i could say so many more but im getting carried away.

#pearlina #splatoon #pearl houzuki #marina iida #pearlina moms propaganda #the pearlina twins #my trash sculptures #weheheh.

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are you with me - quinn hughes.

inspired by nilu: are you with me.

warnings: mentions of death. swearing. angst. shitty/toxic man.

Word count: 3.6k +

translation:

duvshanit: honey in hebrew.

—

Wake up, stay with me

Through the flood and through the fear

Right now I need you here

—

I looked over at Quinn from across the bar, and sighed before running a hand through my hair. I didn't get him, I didn't get this, I didn't get us. I never had. We had been seeing one another for 7 months, on the down low. Only his teammates knew about us and that's who he was with right now. I was at the bar ordering another drink and not once did he look over to make sure I was okay like I had seen the other guys do with there girlfriend or fiance. Again, none of it had made sense. In his words, "We work well together. This works well because we know it's nothing serious." Yet the way he treated me behind closed doors, made it seem like we were so much more. Like he actually gave a damn about me. My friends saw the way he was in public and when it was just them at our place. They didn't understand it and had given up doing so. I looked down at my ringing phone and looked at the name, my dad was calling. I made my way outside the bar and picked it up. "Hey dad." I asked rubbing my arms up and down, during this November night. "Hi y/n..." He said trailing off before I realized it, he was crying. "Dad what's wrong??" I profously asked, trying to get him to speak. "Is mom ok? Jane? Ryan?" I questioned about my immediate family. He sniffled, "Yeah, yes they are all fine. But it's grandma.." He trailed off, me already putting the pieces together for my last living grandparent. I shut my eyes and started to sob as I leaned back against the bar wall. "Im so sorry dad." I sobbed, wiping my own tears. "She's no longer in pain, sunshine. Let me know when you want to come home, Ill get you on the next flight home." He breathed and I nodded. "Ill let you know dad, love you." I spoke before hanging up.

I wanted to be anywhere but here. I huffed as I walked back inside to grab my coat from our area. I didn't speak to anybody nor did I look at anybody. I grabbed my jacket and walked right back out. Not like he would of noticed anyways, he just didn't do that when we were around strangers. I hopped in my car, and drove off towards my apartment that I had with one of my closest friends, Ava. I texted her that I was coming home early, and what had happened. It was like the world wanted me to be in the car for an un godly amount tonight. It took me 35 minutes instead of my usual 20 minutes. After making it up my way into elevator and zipping to floor 6, it still hadn't really hit me. Not until I walked into my apartment and saw a text from Quinn. He was annoyed that I had left without speaking to anybody. I ignored him and went to hug Ava, who was standing there with her arms out wide. In that moment, I allowed my pent up tears to fall. Allowing grief to begin and settle in.

It was around 2 am, when I felt the bed next to me dip and a pair of warm muscular arms wrap around me. Instantly I knew who it was, but I didn't care. I didn't care that he was shitty half the time. I didn't care that he would 'forget' plans or that he would run late for our dates that he would infact make. I didn't care that he put on a persona to the world, and then in private he was a worshiper. I didn't care, all I cared about was that he was here. I felt warm salty tears fall out, as the realization hit me again that my grandmother had passed. Quinn held me tighter, allowing me to cry for a few minutes. I looked up to him he wiped the last few tears from my cheeks. His hazel eyes twinkling as he was riding out his alochol buzz. His eyes met mine, and I internally crumbled. "What's wrong duvshanit?" He murmured softly, as he could tell I was in the most fragile state he'd ever seen me. He searched my eyes for anything that would tell him what was going on. "My grandma, she passed away." My voice breaking at the end, as he pulled me in as close as he could. Hoping and praying that I wouldn't break in his arms. "Please...don't leave me in the morning. Please stay, I need you." I softly whispered, wondering if he could hear me. "Ofcourse duvshanit, i'll be right here." Yet, he didn't stay.

—

I need you to stay strong

To remind me where I came from

And where I belong

—

It was three weeks later that Quinn followed me from Vancouver to Seattle Washington for my grandma's funeral and wake. Despite him leaving that morning, I again didn't care. I wanted that anchor, that companionship that I knew I needed. Ava and my other friends objected as soon as I mentioned it, but they don't know him the way I do. Yeah, the sometimes stolen glances we had in public made up for it when it was just the two of us. As soon as we stepped into my parents home I was bombarded with hugs and words of hope. My grandmother would have never wanted us to be sad, or sad for very long. She had one hell of a life and wanted us to celebrate it. My family had never met Quinn, so this was the very first time they were meeting. Quinn had a odd confidence about him. He took that first meeting in his hands, and charmed them like he had charmed me the first time we had met at a buisness meeting almost 9 months ago. yes, it took me 2 months to say yes to a date. I pulled Quinn further into house, saying hi to my aunts and uncles, and our closest friends. I was incredibly grateful for the support system we had, my grandmother would of been happy to see so many come and show there love for us. It was hard growing up, always stressed out and running to place to place. My parents didn't have much free time growing up, so we stayed with my grandma and grandpa most days after school. My grandma always had something freshly baked for us and my grandpa always having a dad joke prepared. Quinn and I took a seat at the kitchen counter, greeting and introducing him to everybody before we all settled into a comfortable conversation.

It was later in the evening when I went to show him my childhood room, that was filled with sports trophies and awards from my time with soccer and theater. Quinn took it all in, as I sat on the edge of my bed. Ryan my younger brother walked in and made chat with Quinn for a few minutes before I walked out. I made my way downstairs towards my parents. They were sitting on the couch with my aunt, a beer in there three hands. I sat down next to my dad and he wrapped an arm around me, "You ok?" He questioned and I shrugged. "I think im acting stronger than I think I am." I confessed and he set down his beer and gave me his full attention. "I think im putting on a front, especially with Quinn around. And it's exhausting, and Im sick of it." I explained and my dad nodded. "Well you're here. You are with us, where you can be exactly who you are. No front, no persona. Just y/n y/mn." He smiled and I nodded. "I haven't felt this genuinly comfortable since I moved out to Vancouver last year." I murmured nonchalantly and my dad picked that up. I met Quinn a month after moving here and I thought maybe he'd help me settle in and grow comfortable with the city. But no, the opposite happened. I always felt on edge, especially since I didn't get what was going on between us. "Im not sure..if Vancouver is for me." I said for the first time out loud. My dad was taken back because of what I had said over our weekly phone call. "Yeah, it doesnt add up to what i've told you and mom. But grandma knew, she knew it all." I breathed as he pulled me in closer as I began to cry. "Don't worry sunshine, you belong here and you always will." My dad said as I was slowly beginning to shed my persona.

—

'Cause I'm starting to think

That I never actually had you

—

It's been 2 months since the funeral, and 2 months since Quinn had seen a very vulnerable side to me. Since then Quinn and I had barely seen one another. Maybe it was for the best? Maybe it wasn't? Yet, I couldn't just throw away 8 months of us. That would mean, that it didn't happen. As I sit here in my apartment on a saturday evening, I think about the reality of us. Did I even have you? Did I matter to you as much as you mattered to me? Didn't seem like it since you acted like we were just friends in public but in private we acted liked girlfriend and boyfriend. It was exhausting not knowing if you were gonna text me after we hanged out or if we were going to see one another aside from the buisness meetings you had at my office. In a way, it was almost sad to think that I was pining for you and you could have cared less.

My friends were worried about me, and knew that going home to Seattle would be for the best. I was going to be surrouned by my family, which was exactly what I needed. So I put in my 2 weeks, started packing and sending things over to the us. I then shipped my car, and that was the final thing. That's when reality hit, as Ava and I had one last italian saturday 12 am dinner. A staple when we first moved in together. And in the morning, she'd be dropping me off at the train station where I would wallow in my feelings for 3 in a half hours, going over and over the time I had spent with Quinn. And how he met my parents, and how he stopped trying as soon as we got back. Maybe I was too emotional or too vulnerable with him that weekend. Yet, that's the toxicity talking. My grandma died, I didn't over react. He was just a shit dude. And it kills me to say, that I probably never had him the way I thought or wanted him.

—

Don't give up, not yet

No matter how hard this gets

—

Ava dropped my off at the trainstation, and an hour in I recieved a text from him. I sighed, unsure if I should read it or delete it. I had every right to delete it. But I wanted to know what he had to say. I opened it up, and saw a simple "hey". I rolled my eyes before responding, "Don't text me anymore Quinn. Ive moved back to Seattle. It's a good thing we were never really together, so this isn't as hard as it could of been. good luck with hockey." and with that I shut my phone off and fell into a small nap.

I thanked my parents for the ride over to my new apartment near the downtown. My mom was a godsent and had started to put things away into there spot, hoping to ease any anxiety for me coming home. It was around 8:30 at night when I was in the middle of eating my takeout thai food, that I got a facetime from him. I rolled my eyes, declining and went back to watching The Holiday. My phone kept blowing up, each and everytime I either let it go to voicemail or I declined. It was on the 10th time that I growled, accepting the facetime call. Quinn appeared on the other side, his hair a mess - as usual, his hazel eyes buzzed - as usual and his stupid face beautiful as ever. It took him a second to realize that I had actually accepted the call. "Quintin." I spat, trying to get his attention. His focus whipped towards me as soon as he heard my voice. A sense of visual relief dawned his face as I patiently waited for him to speak. "Y/n, god you are one hard lady to get ahold of." He said sarcastically, hoping i'd crumble and laugh at his dumb joke. I stared at him, hoping he'd say what he wanted to say before I hung up. "Quinn, what do you want?" I said taking a sip of my hard liquor. His forehead creased with confusion before speaking, "Why did you move away?" He asked. I sighed, running through the amount of excuses I could say. "Because, I didn't feel like myself there." I confessed and he looked confused. "The version you saw of me was filled with anxiety and a persona that looked like I had my shit together. In reality, I was fucking struggling. I barely knew anybody besides Ava, Jackie and Lizzie. I didn't feel comfortable living in the city, didn't enjoy my job as much. I didn't have a support system like I do back home." I exclaimed, sipping some more of my drink. Confusion washed over his face again, "But you had us. You had me." he retored, and I laughed akwardly. "Oh my god, Quinn! Youre gonna sit here and say that I had you when you know god damn well- I didn't. You could never tell that I was head over heels for you, when you were in love with something else. You were in love with idea of being 'untouchable' the idea of having girls fawn over you, hoping to get a rise out of me, or the feeling of knowing that you had some sore of status in the city. So no, don't sit here and say I had you because we know that to be false." I snapped, downing the rest of my drink.

Quinn watched as I did, and heard my murmur to myself as I got up to get more. "Y/n- are you drinking?" He questioned and I laughed, the fucking nerve. "So what if I am?" I mused setting the phone down and propped it up. "Y/n - duvshanit. I know you are having a hard time but please, be safe." He pleaded and I stopped pouring the drink. I turned towards him and glared. "Don't give up on Vancouver. Don't give up on us please." He begged, "There was never 'us'. You made sure of that. I get the feeling that I never had you in the first place, Quintin." I huffed before ending the call.

—

We're not equal parts

Light and dark

—

I stepped off the plane and walked into the Vancouver airport and spotted Ava immeditly. "AHHHH Y/N/N!" She screamed, running towards me as I walked outside. I laughed as she wrapped her arms around me, god I had missed her hugs. "Hi A! I missed you too!" I giggled. She pulled away, almost dragging me towards her car. "Where are we going?" I questioned as we drove off. "Somewhere fun." She smirked getting onto the expressway. "Oh geez." I said hesitantly and she stuck out her tongue. We drove towards downtown and made our way to one of the bars we used to frequent with the four of us: Lizzie, Ava, Jackie and I. "Lucys?" I grinned as we hopped out, and she nodded- again almost dragging me towards the door. As soon as we headed towards the back of the bar, Lizzie and Jackie shrieked and pulled me into huge hugs. I had left in late December and now it was the beginning of April. I had missed these girls, and everything that accompanied them. "Hi babes." I mused, as we sat down to shots of tequila. We downed them instantly, whilst Jackie went to go get our usuals. "Hey- isn't that Quinn?" Lizzie whispered as quietly as she could to Ava who only nodded. I looked up towards the two and bit the inside of my cheek. God, he still had something over me. Yeah, I had gone on a few dates since moving back to Seattle. But fuck, this stupid boy still held something over me. And I for sure know it's not in a good way.

We are complete opposites, and could easily get on eachothers nerves because of it. I was sunshine and daisies, and he was cold and broody. He was the storm to my sunshine. Yet,in a way we fit together because of it. We shared some of the same beliefs or morals but at the end of the day, we were just so vastly different that it became like a chore sometimes to keep him from getting annoyed or angry. We hadn't spoken since the night I had gotten to Seattle and wanted it to stay that way. Maybe it would.

I had changed, and hopefully he had too. You could see it in the way I dressed, the way I spoke and presented myself. After snagging a amazing journalism job at The Seattle Times, things started getting better. I loved my job, and for the first time in a year, I felt like myself. Never again, would I allow myself to 'settle' or compromise who I am for a boy who barely acknowledged me unless we were in one of our apartments. It's sad, but I am glad I went through what I did. Because if I hadn't, I would not be where I am today. Completley and utterly in love with my life.

—

Are you in or are you out?

—

It was September of the same year that I had made my way back up to Vancouver to cover a international philanthropy event. I didn't have anything planned for the time I was there. Partially because The Seattle times hooked me up with the four seasons and took care of all the costs while I was there. Which meant, I had a couple dates with the spa and coffee cafe within the hotel. Yet Ava and the girls wouldn't let me do that. We sat down at an exclusive restaurant and bar, excited to catch up and make plans for the time I was here. "Ill be back." I stated picking up my glass, and heading over towards the posh bar. "Hi, can I have a expresso martini please? That table over there?" I asked the bartender and he nodded. I took a glass of water he sat down, and I sipped a bit before putting it back down. "Y/N?" I heard to the side of me. I looked over and saw the incredibly charming brunette boy I had fallen for. He smiled once I realized who he was, and didn't make a run for it. Which, I was still considering. "Hi, Quinn." I said stepping closer to him as he waited for his drink. "How are you? How's Seattle?" He questioned, a genuiness washed over his face and I swallowed. He saw the hesitancy written across my face and body language. "It's um, it's great. Im great, just up here for an event I am covering. How are you? Excited about the season?" I questioned taking the maritini with a thanks. "That's great! And yeah, I am. Should be a good one." He mused and I nodded, unsurely. "Well, you have a great evening." I mused before stepping past him. He grabbed my arm softly, and I looked into his eyes trying to read him. Thankgod for the dark ambience and secluded bar, or else this would be even more embarrasing. "Can I convince you to stay?" He softly questioned and I could feel the excitment building in my body. Don't do it Y/N.

A few minutes later we were in his car, driving back to his place. We were high on excitment, a little buzzed from alochol and the feeling of 'we know this isn't right but fuck it.'. He grabbed ahold of my hand and kissed it as he drove, butterflies growing by the second. We made it to his apartment, and hurried inside. As soon as we got into his room, he wasted no time in taking off my dress and me with his button up shirt. We couldn't get enough of one another.

A little while later, we laid in his bed talking about what we both had been up to since December. I grew quiet and Quinn noticed instantly. "What's going on in that pretty head of yours, duvshanit?" He said almost, as sweet as honey. "Just thinking about everything that went down between us." I sighed, sitting up and grabbing my clothes. "Are you leaving?" He questioned throwing on his shorts and I nodded slipping on my dress. "Wait, why don't you want to stay? Did that mean nothing to you?" He questioned as we faced one another. "Thankyou for the offer Q, but I will happily decline it since you don't mean anything to me anymore." I mused giving him a quick peck on the cheek before walking out. There would never be an us, ever again. Quinn simply did not deserve what I had to offer and give in a relationship. I was over trying to persuade him to be with me. It didn't work before, it sure as hell would not work now. So don't settle ladies, it'll just hurt you in the end.

—

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Happy Friday!!

I have so many projects going on man I'm going crazy lol. I think some of the projects need put on hold until I save up for a decent sewing machine though.

But I've got my garden going again, and my coworkers gave me a deadline to write a childrens book based on doodles, and Im working on my zine that for some reason I can only open in chrome(???), and I wanna do a little research with my punk 101 posts, and also I need to do research that Im not really in the mood for so I can make that music map.

Oh and also I'm going to see Radium Girls (a play) tomorrow with a friend, and I'm debating if I'm going back to my college sunday for my friends graduation, but I dont really want to cause its gonna be raining. And also also, Some (different) co-workers wanna play dnd with me, but I dont think I'd like playing with them just from knowing them for a few months but I dont know how to be like 'no', but also Im on a HUGE dnd kick (I got new converse I need to show off btw) but have no one to play with and that makes me sad, but I dont want to play with people who will make it not fun for me :(

But how are you? How was your week? Any fun plans??? (side note: do you like dnd, just out of curiousity?)

I ain’t making people scroll though this

My week has been… better. Better than last week. Monday I took a day trip to Virginia Beach by myself to kind of clear my head and my soul, purge some of that pain and negative energy. Last night when you sent this though it kind of just… came back… which is why I didn’t answer this then.

Tomorrow I’m going out with my family to some botanical garden that only opens like 4 times a year or something to the public. We’re bringing lunch with us so I guess we’ll be eating together somewhere, maybe at the gardens.

I’m counting down the days until I fly back to CT to go see Electric Callboy with my friends, and then hopefully go to the aquarium with my gf + friends. Other than that I don’t have any plans for that trip. I still have to tell my brother + my other friend when I’ll be up, I just feel like any spare moment I have I use to recover some psychological HP.

I’m going from working 30+ hours a week to only 3 days a week soon because we’re getting self checkout on Monday. Hopefully I can use that time to work on some things for @prideful-things-shop, mainly the snowglobe tumblers (don’t worry, you’re getting one of the Eeveelution ones).

I’m still waiting to hear back if we can go to that concert and trying to book my tattoo appointment for that Friday.

I LOVE Radium Girls, I read the book, it’s one of my favorite books. I know they turned it into a play and a movie, but I haven’t seen either of them. I actually grew up near one of the locations in the book. They put a mall right next to it, so that’s where I used to go to the mall. I’ve never been to the clock factory, but it’s a museum now. Maybe I can add that to the list of things to do when I go back home. It’s also right across the highway from one of those defunct Jesus theme parks. I’ve wanted to visit that too.

I’ve never played DnD, but my friends made a game that’s similar and I was part of the pilot test group for that, and apparently they’re still playing all these years later. It’s been almost a decade.

My mom wants to make raised beds but we haven’t gotten that far yet. She wants a saw, just hasn’t been able to spare the money for it yet. I’ve offered to get it for her but she declined. We were looking at them while I was looking for the drill I bought for the tumblers. She has a lot of potted plants though lining the porch, including some herbs, and I think she’s planning on some carrots and cherry tomatoes.

I’ve been studying the sub-genres of metal music for a while, basically so that I can ID a song/band by it’s genre and guide people towards recommendations based on what they already listen to (country, pop, rap, etc.). The idea of making a music map sounds really exciting, I would love to do some research for something like that (like I said, I’m already using spare time to do that on my own anyway).

I’m really hoping once I have more free time I can also go back to working on my patch pants. My grandma bought us a sewing machine from the thrift store she works at, and she taught my mom how to use it, and my mom has used it to make pillow cases for outside pillows, but she didn’t buy outdoor fabric and they faded quickly. This year I paid for some outdoor fabric we picked out together along with some more fabric for my patches, so I’m turning our front porch into a fruit-themed area, which my mom isn’t really thrilled about but I’m the one paying for everything, so…

The other day there was a big snake on the front porch and my mom had to kill it. It was a pretty rough experience for both of us. We have a cat that lives on our front porch which is who found it, and then our neighbor has a cat who lives on her front porch, and we’ve had snakes get in the house before, and now we have indoor cats, so it’s just a risk we can’t take. It made me reflect a lot about city vs country life and a lot of things tied to that (poverty, race, queerness, etc.).

Here’s to hoping we can both have a relaxing but productive summer, and I’ll see you soon xoxo

#punk gets mail

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your wizards are seriously so awesome tell. me. everything

WOW this ask looks so broken on mobile for some reason but YAYYY YIPPEEEEE WUNCLE WORLD ^_^ surprisingly fleshed out for a world where literally the only two characters I've been able to think up names for are the titular Wuncle and Earnest.

Wait im gonna put this infodump under a read more. Just in case. Yeah it's a long one.

ANYWAYS it's from a concept I came up with some time last year I think? (GOING BACK AFTER LOOKING UP WHEN I FIRST TALKED ABOUT THEM. IT WAS THIS YEAR. LOL.) Earnest is this miserable kid in the 'real' world whose parents died in a ~MYSTERIOUS INCIDENT~. One day out of nowhere their deadbeat uncle Joe (who they barely remember, hasn't seen him since the death of their parents) yanks them into the MAGIC world where he reveals that he and Earnest's mom come from a super long line of extremely powerful wizards, that Earnest's mom only moved to Boring World to be with the cringe fail love of her life or whatever 🙄, and that Earnest should basically come live with him in his AWESOME WIZARD TOWER instead of the STUPID REAL WORLD so they can study under him to become the next great wizard in the family or whatever.

Instead of being super hyped for this opportunity like Joe THINKS is gonna happen, Earnest is like. 'Dude what the fuck? I barely know you. I don't care about this. Take me back. I miss my Nintendo DS.'

To this Wuncle Joe responds 'ohhhh ummmm actually creating a portal to boringland is incredibly difficult and can only occur like once every ten years when the planets align jussst right so basically you're stuck here anyways 😁👍but don't worry it's cool I'm cool we're cool.' And thus begins Earnest's involuntary apprenticeship 👍

Other characters Wuncle World include:

Wuncles' Familar: Wuncle Joe made a deal with this demon essentially stating that in exchange for his soul (after he dies ((a powerful wizards soul is a rare and tasty treat for a demon))) she works for him and basically does whatever. Basically his assistant. Very silly very goofy VERY VERY EVIL. but cant really do any SUPER evil stuff unless joe says so. At least until he dies :). She's capable of shape-shifting and typical demon stuff but her default form looks like this (old drawings <3) vvv

DRYAD KID: a little ways away from Wuncle's Tower, which is surrounded by a dense and super magical forest, is a secret town of various naturey creatures. Dryads, Nymphs, Satyrs, Pixies etc etc etc. Earnest learns about it through the Dryad Kid, who at first is like 'OH FUCK yes new kid in the forest', then Earnest is like 'yeah I moved into the wizard tower. With my uncle. The wizard.' And the Dryad kid is like. '.........ohhhhh 😬 that guy.'

Dryad Kid acts as Earnest's primary guide to the magical realms as well as their first glimpse into the fact that Wuncle Joe isn't just some deadbeat fool, but a public nuisance at best and a malicious force in the realm at worst. If Earnest isn't busy doing stupid wizard shit with their uncle, chances are they're hanging out with Dryad Kid.

HONORABLE CHARACTER MENTIONS (even less flushed out guys but still important):

KING AND PRINCE: king of the big main kingdom. Wuncle Joe's old boss. Also not a great guy but it's less obvious at first. His son is the prince who acts as like. A rival to Earnest before they both realize they're kind of in similar boats and become friends.

WIZARD COUNCIL: grand council of wizards that controls. Well you know. Wizard stuff. Fate of the world shit. They fucking hate Wuncle Joe. Hardasses but not necessarily evil.

EARNEST 'S MOM: very very very powerful wizard. Clearly had some crazy beef with Joe before she died but most of the specifics are unknown to Earnest until later in the plot.

Overall plot is like. Earnest gradually discovering that Wuncle Joe is actually the primary antagonist of this world. They have to Outwizard and Outscheme him before he can destroy everything basically.

Thank you for asking about my wizard world Austin in lives in my head rent free <3 this essentially only scratches the surface of its Whole Deal. But this was already super long LOL

#zipmode answers #giggles and frolicks until i accidentally run headfirst into a wall #wuncle joe #earnest madision #my ocs

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dongpound · 4 months

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i demand to know more of your oc's (also im trying to catch up on your space au fic its been so long since i last read it)

OH MY GOD IT DIDNT GET EATEN BY TUMBLR

Anon™️ I’m using your ask as like a sticky note of oc ideas specifically Tundra dude there’s SO much I’m so sorry I got into the hyper focus zone

Tundra’s name is actually Alejandra Citlali Osorio-Cruz and through the series she’s just about to turn 16 in season 1 and roughly 19-20 by Season 5 (give or take how the fuck you think time works in 2012 bc I think it takes place over 3-4 years season 5 included)

Tundra came about as a nickname when she was a kid and got super hyper-fixated on professional wrestling and like. She made an entire persona and lore. Alec started using her wrestling name as a silly nickname and it stuck.

Yes I did come up with a stupid cute reason behind the name Tundra bc I can not handle the fact I chose such a BAD oc name for a LION but like I can’t change it NOW!! I MADE HER IN LIKE 2015 SHES TOO OLD TO CHANGE IT

Xever did just think for the longest time Tundra WAS her name. He also just assumed that Alec and Chris adopted a child for fun.

Her bio parents Ixchel and Alejandro were really good friends of Alec and Chris for like. Well over a decade. Ixchel and Alec especially. Ixchel was an actress (like I would say their worlds equivalent of Selma Hayek) and Alejandro worked in music production.

They didn’t have a ton of family they kept in contact with, so Alec and Chris were named Alejandra’s legal guardians if anything happened to them. They sadly died in a plane crash when Tundra was around 1.

This feels like SOOOO edgy and silly to me now but like I literally can’t see Alec and Chris adopting a kid any other way than the guilt of losing their friends pushing them to do it. WHICH SOUNDS BAD. AND LIKE IT IS. However they still love and raise Alejandra as their own, if anything Chris is like. Somewhat distant bc he still has his career but Alec’s like “fuck yeah I get to raise a kid again” and kinda slips from the spotlight. Which is fine by them , they’re like 600 years old they can just have messy fun in the public eye another time

Tundra goes fucking THROUGH IT emotionally through the series. Like goes from would do anything for Chris and Alec (especially Chris who. Again. Was distant and she desperately wanted his approval) to the point where like. She’s yknow. Mutated, to growing resentful of them when Hachi enters the picture (especially when she has to take care of him) to like. Low key betraying the foot and joining the mutanimals in season 3. And then having to deal w Chris being resurrected temporarily in season 5 after a really chill and happy 2 years with her mom and little brother like it’s a LOT.

In season 1 she’s very much a “mean girl” stereotype and slowly evolves into Cool And Gay (but still a little better than you)(she. She gets that from her upbringing.)

Tundra and Karai are seen as like a duo/bffs up until season 2 after the whole “I’m not shredders daughter” thing happens. They grow distant (obviously) until season 4.

So like Alec and Chris are NOT the best parents and like. They did totally just let Tundra take Hachi to live w her and the Mutanimals in season 4. She’d already been in space w him for 6 months and the poor kid really didn’t want to go live in the woods. I have such a specific scene in mind for this and I want to write it out so bad. Anyway tundra basically becomes a teen mom for a little bit. Eldest daughters am I right? *plays class of 2013 by mitski*

Tundra has a modified mini van which she does haul all of her friends who can fit in. Apologies to leatherhead and slash . No she doesn’t have a license

She also has a bike. These two vehicles she did canonically find on the side of the highway and she convinced Donnie and Casey to help her fix them

Tundras in a punk (? Maybe more Pop punk ) band called The Muties (my other characters Jack and Spinstra are in it. also Mondo. Sometimes Raph fills in on drums if Spinstra can’t make it). Tundra and Jack switch off on vocals, she’s usually on bass. They started up in the down time between seasons 4 and 5. They play in Moira’s Menagerie (a mutants only bar and hall) every week on Fridays. Alec comes to nearly all of their shows and also they bring Hachi sometimes when they practice and he’ll play his DS.

Alec will also force their friends (I.e. Apep, Anton, Ivan and Xever) to come watch Tundra w the promise of drinks and she thinks it’s embarrassing every fucking time bc they’re SO LOUD and OBVIOUS and god she could just DIE (but also. Having the support makes her happy)

Alec WILL slam back 3 tequila shots and go on about how talented their daughter is.

Chris got to see her play once. And it was when he was resurrected. And Tundra, frankly, was not thrilled. Another one I wanna write

#thanks for reading all that I love Alejandra and she deserves the world #oc tag #I’m a little embarrassed by how much I wrote but I’ve been in a big tundra mood lately

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darkwater-reservoir · 4 months

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Allergies woke me up super early so I spent my time this morning writing down some of the tsv characters and what I think could be up with them (AKA these are headcanons and character observations based on facts from the webseries)

Tsv's attachment to danyon especially post apocalypse is extremely interesting to me. He mentions both his parents died long before the invasion and that he couldn't get in contact with any of his friends besides danyon. Danyon is all he had and thats why he clung to him so much. I also wouldn't be surprised if he was a major comfort to him after loosing his parents, assuming tsv's parents died later in his life and not when he was just a child. Danyon had always been there for him. Also im still convinced he was in love with Danyon. That man did WAY too much yearning for his feelings to be JUST platonic :/

Nat grew up in poverty and spent a good chunk of her time as a kid either at the public library in her neighborhood or drowning out reality with fiction by reading lots of books. I don't think I've ever seen them post about their family outside of the time their mom became harvested and tried to kill them either. Maybe it's because the memory of them is hard for her because of what happened, or maybe it's because she may have had a difficult or complicated relationship with them. Or maybe it's just not that deep and im jumping the shark on this one lol

Danyon is extremely insecure especially about the fact that he's a coward. He tries to make himself look scarier and bigger than he is by having power over people, when in reality he's just kinda a little bitch. I also think that part of the reason he had beef with tsv isn't just because tsv "pitied him" for what he became, but also because of internalized homophobia

Tucker has PTSD. He also needs so so so much therapy

Theseus has selective mutism and is neurodivergent. Nat mentions watching him stim by clenching and unclenching his hands

#the sun vanished #thesunvanished #tsv #tucker #nat #danyon #liaison!danyon #theseus #im really tired while writing this i literally woke up at like 5:50 and started writing this its now 7:50 (to be fair i DID get distracted #at 6 bc the sunrise looked really pretty #so i only worked on this for like an hour lol)#UPDATE: edited this post bc i realized that theseus' mutism was probably just selective mutism and not ptsd!

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Lol, it is sooo nice to come across someone who still cares about kkm in 2024 😭 just gonna send as an ask so we aren't tag paragraphing back and forth. (Tried just messaging, but you know the tumblr app's reliabilty...)

I have so many thoughts on wolfram and yuuri as people and how they would work as a couple

Re: your original tags i 100% agree that yuuri would be the one to initiate their actual relationship with a kiss he didn't even put any thought into, body just acted.

I've had this vague fanfic idea in my head for the past like... 10 years (i can't believe i first watched it so long ago) that after getting used to wolfram being his best friend and enjoying being around him in that way for a couple years yuuri would start to catch feelings without even realizing it. Then he'd kiss wolfram in some dramatic dangerous context (like your comic) and immediately fall through a puddle back to earth once the danger is over, without getting the chance to talk to wolfram about it.

And then yuuri is just like, stuck on earth for a whole month or 2. Ruminating on the kiss, using 2007 style discussion boards to try to figure out his sexuality (😂 poor kid). Maybe watching some random movie (i genuinely don't have a specific one in mind) and realizing that the 2 male main characters have crazy chemisty, remembering something about shipping from that discussion board, searching male character A x male character B and reading some fanfic/seeing some fanart that makes him go "shit maybe i am into guys." Then he like... reads a real romance novel or something that his mom buys him (a teen book! I should clarify. His mom is quirky but not totally oblivous to what would be appropriate), because she's supportive and knows he'd never buy one on his own. And he talks to her a few times about this realization throughout this 2 months.

Basically, i like the idea of yuuri being forced away from wolfram and all the normalized queerness of shin makoku and still coming to the conclusion that he likes wolfram and wants to be with him. And "hey, im not even gonna be living on earth much past the age of 18 anyway, so why should i care about any of these cultural norms anymore? And my family gets it, so honestly, fuck it."

And then he finally gets back to shin makoku and word vomits/lays this 2 months worth of soul searching at wolfram's feet.

And wolfram is just like, "well it's actually been 8 months or something for me. Glad you figured all that shit out, even though i still don't get what the big deal was, but i definitely panic spiralled into thinking you weren't coming back ever again because of that kiss. So honestly, i'm pretty happy right now. But ngl, you reciprocating my feelings is a little... off putting? No, maybe more like... completely unexpected. I'm in no way prepared for this."

And then their dynamic switches to wolfram being the one who's kind of uncomfortable with public displays of affection (he still likes it, but is noticeably shy/tense). And yuuri just trying his best to not spook wolfram and understand why he's like this now.

And it all just culminates in them having a talk in bed before the fall asleep a couple months after yuuri comes back where wolfram trys to explain how high up on a pedestel yuuri is in his mind and how, to him, it feels like them actually being together is just dragging yuuri down. And how yes, he loves yuuri romantically, but it's also so much more than that. He loves him as his untouchable best friend who he was JUST getting used to always being out of romatic reach when yuuri got spirited away to earth for 8 months. He loves yuuri as his king. He loves him as an IDEAL. So being with him as his actual fiancé is going to be a slow process. It's a lot to recontextualize in wolfram's head.

But yuuri is fine with that because he's like 18ish/still a teenager at this point and wasn't ready to get married immediately anyway.

Thanks for the invite to head canon dump on you. It feels good to share these vague ideas for a story i'll never write with another person who GETS the ship in the same way i do 💞

I'm also eager to hear any head canons/ideas you have about these 2. We're def on the same wavelength in terms of wanting to give the characters in kkm more context and agency outside of it being a silly little fantasy adventure thing (with a weirdly well fleshed out world, to be fair) 😂

REAL....... ur so real for everything here..... i think this is 100% how it would go. love the 2007 forums 😭 hes troubleshooting his homosexuality like its a game bug or smth thats so in-character i also agree w the wolf being startled by the reciprocation thing like he would 100% not be able to handle yuuri becoming "real" to him. like an actual option to date and stuff cuz my hc (bc i love suffering) is that he kind of likes or its convenient? that yuuri doesn't reciprocate cuz its so easy to be devoted when u dont have an actual relationship to talk abt and its one sided. it also gets more fanatical that way (aka yearning is stronger when it is left unfulfilled LOL) i also feel like he doesnt deserve it 2 some degree, not that hes not confident but that it's not his place. i feel like this is common in fanart/fic but where yuuri is like ok so can we kiss now and wolf is like ? kiss? we are a symbolic union between blah blah blah

BUT YEAH...... ALSO I LOVE THEM HAVING TALKS TOGETHER IN BED its just so.... like nice 2me...... the vibe of like having to sleep together.. the heart to hearts in bed is so funny but nice. the 16 year olds having a heart to heart while playing house (as a married couple) like the dissonance between their emotional immaturity and the tension and the closeness between them is so juicyyyy like SLEEPOVER TIME except ur discussing ur divorce arc w a 16 year old boysoldier who wants to die for you So Bad

my personal hcs/pure self indulgent bs under cut

ok first i feel like i have to clarify that i dont think that my hcs are canon i just like to have fun w kkm chars like dolls lmfaoooo..... but here are my self indulgent how-they-get-together-hcs ALSO its been like a solid two or three months since i last thought in depth abt kkm so i might be messing some details up

i kinda like the idea of wolf drifting apart from yuuri (from his constant rejection as well as duty and circumstance) and yuuri never reciprocates during this time (also never realizes) and eventually wolf goes off to bielefelt to do his duties and become the patriarch after everything settles. (i also like greta a lot so this is where she goes off to her own nation and wanders as a knight and alsooooo has a lesbianism with beatrice at around 20? years old..?) ANYWAYS they're in kind of awkward limbo and 2 yuuri wolf is someone he wishes he was closer to like when they were kids but isn't and he also avoids him from the guilt/shame of rejecting his feelings

at this pt yuuri has noticed in hindsight that he was in love w wolf but anyways something happens (like an attack) and wolf and yuuri are stuck living together again, wolf is once again risking his life for yuuri and his actions sort of betray that he's still just as in love w him as he was before they separated, he just decided that it would be better not to burden him with his feelings (at this pt he's self-aware that 16 year old wolf had a lot of baggage and codependency lumped in with love like the deifying stuff) and eventually yuuri reveals that he thinks he was in love with him too and wolf has to confront the fact that he wasn't looking for romance in the first place and also that yuuri is still too bright for him to touch (in his mind) so he's kinda like i do my job and u do urs for the good of this nation. BUT OFC they eventually get together after a lot of awkward divorcedness YAAAYYYYYYYY

OH ALSO unrelated to prev scenario but one thing i love ab ur hc and teen yuuram is the contrast between the world-ending desperation of wolf's love and the teenage first crush sweetness of yuuri's. I LOVE THE IDEA OF WOLF BEING LIKE. "i would die on the cross for you" (wiping the blood from his brow) and yuuri's just like "ok lets take this one step at a time" the part of the ship that's just yuuri getting to be an awkward gay teen and wolf eventually discovering awkward teen crushisms is sooo cute to me. like discovering that holding hands in a romantic context does not at all feel like what they did in the closet!! soo sweet and cute

ok ty for listening THIS IS SO LONG IM SORRRRYYYYYYYYY 😭😭😭😭 feel free 2 throw ur hcs at me anytime...!!! ^^

#i have sooo many hcs LMAO most of them wolf-centric but mannnnnn ask me anytime abt wolf and shinou 😔or ill draw the comic ig....#i havent finished kkm anime actually im one ep away from finishing it but i got caught up and scared to finish it so #txt #i forgor my ask tag #and also my kkm rambles tag #OH WAIT its #gomakkm #cave mail #also ur so right about yuuri's journey of self acceptance as well as the crush thing love to see the sociopolitical differences explored!

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most of the public considers tony the leader because he is the most open to the public so i like to think y/n stark is the fan favorite since she is the most open sec to her dad and is also a choatic little shit and will never hide that fact even on live tv

avengers playing never have i ever

interviewer: never have i ever went thru a other avenger phone

r: i have

i: oh you do thru who's?

r: ... all of them

avengers: WHAT!?

r: yeah 😐... steve looked up ''how to use facebook''

steve: i did not!

r: like multiple times...

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*r making the shippers go crazy by flirting/teasing steve and bruce, cuddling with clint leading to a gag that she can never sit straight*

years later

i: i don't want to be invasive but is that a wedding ring hanging on your necklace?

r sitting weird in a chair: yep romanoff is a stark now

i: wait you're gay!? why didn't you say anything?

r: why didn't you say you're straight?

*audince just losing their shit*

r: like i don't see the big deal why would it matter more if a woman nailed me to the bed over a ma-

i: woah lets keep it family friendly but if you are with natasha then why did you act like that with the men?

r: oh i saw online that people were forming ships saying i look cute with cap, thor or whatever so i decided to throw oil on the bon fire that was starting to form

yeah r basicly trolled the internet for over a decade cause she was bored

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fan: i think i know the answer but who is the biggest diva out of the avengers?

nat: what do you mean you think you know?

steve: yeah who do you think it is?

fan: y/n

r puts on sunglasses: get that bitch off the moniter

r is basicly rdj just younger and more choatic she also cusses the most on tv out of everyone wouldn't be surpirsed if somebody made a count on youtube

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i: truth of dare?

y/n: truth

i: did you ever got the cops called onto you?

r: yeah there was this time when i was like 16 or 17 basicly i was at my friend place we drank some alcohol and then played halo and idk if you know this but halo is like monopoly of the video games so everyone is curssing at each other as if they killed their mom then took a shit on the grave then lit it on fire leaving nothing but a pile of burning shit

r: but anyway my friend shouted something about murder i think and i guess the neighbour heard us cause the cops busted down the door guns and all ready to fight after explaining they told us to be more carefull but the mic was still on and the other team asked wtf is going on and i just turned to the mic and said ''apparently we were raping yo asses so hard someone called the po po on us"

r: they laughed and we just ended up with a noise warning

bro my lungs already aint right from covid and this shit made is worse cuz bro when i tell you i am dying i fucking mean it!!!! im still fucking dying omg

#marvel incorrect quotes #the avengers x y/n #natasha romanoff x fem reader #natasha romanoff imagine #natasha romanoff #natasha #romanoff #avengers #marval

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genderkoolaid · 2 years

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Are we sharing examples or transandrophobia? I want to share especially as an autistic trans man and how that intersect. Tw for like mentions of r@pe but no detail. These specific incidents actually run through my mind almost constantly. I came out for the FIRST time when I was 16: -people refused to use the name I had chosen despite me pointing out that's stupid because out cis male friend had changed his name just because he didn't like it and all I was doing was dropping one letter

-my best friend told me that if I slept with a girl who thought I was a "real" man and after she found out I was trans I would have been a rapist for consensually going down on a girl who "thought I was a real man"

-I had a random girl in my class "ask if my ex bf knew I really had a dick" when I said I was trans

-my parents said "no matter what, you'll always be our little girl"

So, I went back into the closet for the most part. I went by She/They and was always like "im not a girl" but people pretty much brushed me off and I didn't pursue transition bc I was afraid of how people would treat me. I came out AGAIN at 21, this time really putting my foot down that I AM MALE.

-My aunt started to refer to my info dumping as "mansplaining" so I stopped sharing my interests with her

-People began to actively misgender me, whereas before some people would at least try to use they as well as she, I only get called she now and never they

-I started to get harassed in public for holding my partner's hand even tho we're both trans

-People really go out of their way to gender me now. "When I was a girl" nobody ever ma'amed me. NEVER, ever.

-People like to assume I'm mentally ill for being trans or that someone must have pushed me to be trans. Their pea brains implode when I say actually I really struggled to come out in the face of everyone telling me not to and I'm trans because I realized I'd die from trying to harm myself if I didn't accept who I already am

-I got sent a lot of death threats and rape threats. A lot. Mostly online, of course, but it really took me aback the negative reaction I had from the WLW spaces I was in when I said I was leaving because, well, I'm not a woman. Crypto terfs, man.

-My uncle said to me, and I quote "Keep this trans shit away from your grandmother, she has enough to deal with" I asked him what he expected me to do when I grew facial hair and muscles and lost my tits. He didn't answer, he probably didn't care.

-My aunt, who claimed to be the most accepting, still misgenders me and acts personally offended when I tell her she's not progressive for doing the bare minimum to show me respect, and not even consistently.

-My aunt ALSO told me I was the reason SHE wasnt getting HRT for her early menopause because "T is gonna make you angry and I don't want to be around that" (T made me calmer and less likely to EXPRESS my anger, actually. I have to find different ways to let it out now bc I kinda just CANT feel angry or sad the same way anymore)

-None of my family has called me to ask me how I'm doing since i came out. They all kinda avoid talking to me, but won't say it, I've noticed though.

-My partner's mom told me she wanted me to go to therapy. I said I'd go for my PTSD as it was causing problems between her and I, she said "No, I want you to go for 'this'" Meaning, she wanted me to go to therapy for being trans. My partner got upset at this and said that absolutely would not be happening because being trans isnt a mental illness

-cis people look at me in TERROR when they misgender me, like they're waiting for me to freak out at them or physically assault them. It actually really hurts my feelings tbh, out of everything those moments sting the most. People I don't even know very well assuming the worst of me for being trans.

Idk just the pure hatred people have towards transmascs and then for people withing our own communities to act like these things don't happen on the daily and don't drive us to have among the highest suicide rates out of any other demographic... It hurts. It really hurts, I want to cry over it and then still this little voice in my head, the voice THEY put there, says to me "Boys don't cry. if you show the slightest sign that these things hurt you, they won't take you seriously"

Thank you for sharing your experiences.

#m.#ask box #experiences with transandrophobia #rape tw

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