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hexagonalhavoc · 4 months

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Sapphic Surprise

Carla Dosa x Fem Reader

[Author’s Note: This has been floating around in my head since yesterday and it’s too funny not to do. Also I’m fleshing out Lionel’s character because I think he’s a little neat and could have definitely had a redemption arc if he lived]

Secrets of Legendaria was supposed to be their biggest hit, a game that would be remembered for centuries. The pressure was on and everyone was overworked and tired.

Usually Lionel and Carla were good at keeping their arguments behind closed doors but this was different. It’s hard to keep your anger to yourself when the only thing keeping you sane is root beer and energy drinks. They were meaner than usual, going for each other’s throats without mercy. Everyone in the building kept silent, pretending to be busy as they listened in.

“That design is completely impractical! How the hell is she supposed to fight in that!?”

“Oh come on it’s a fantasy game! The clothing isn’t supposed to make sense! You’re always nagging me, I swear this is why you don’t have a boyfriend.”

This wasn’t the first time Lionel had made a comment like that but usually Carla would bite her tongue and just ignore him. She didn’t like hearing that talk, especially not from someone she once considered a friend but she remained silent for your sake. Unfortunately she had enough of her boss’s snooty remarks and right now she lacked common sense.

“Im gay and I’m dating your sister, you dumb fuck!”

Lionel choked on his soda, the contents almost spilling to the floor as he put his hand over his mouth. A few people in the room stopped pretending to be busy as they turned their heads towards the arguing pair. Everyone in the room felt some satisfaction seeing Carla take him down a notch.

Everyone knew who you were. You didn’t have any programming experience but you would occasionally come over to visit your brother or help him with his finances. You were well liked by his employees because you were the complete opposite of him. Unlike Lionel, you knew how to build a good rapport for yourself. You were easy to get along with because you didn’t care about status. You treated yourself like you were just another person, not the boss’s sister.

He was dumbfounded for a moment, putting his soda cup on some random persons’s desk. “You’re what!?”

“You heard me.” Carla puts down her drink as well and crosses her arms over her chest. It looks like they might fight and plenty of people already have their phones prepared if that ends up being the case. “We’ve been dating ever since middle school and you never noticed. Please don’t tell me that it bothers you that much.” The smug smile on her face showed that she was savoring this victory. Initially you both agreed to keep your relationship a secret because you weren’t sure how your parents would react but now you were on your own and didn’t rely on them for anything. Now seemed like the best time.

Lionel is seething, it’s getting harder for him to keep his cool. Especially after everything Carla had said. “It doesn’t bother me that my sister is gay, it bothers me that her standards are so low!”

He could understand why you wouldn’t tell your parents, both of you were raised in a very strict environment but he felt a little hurt that you never opened up to him about it. Unfortunately he’s been very influence by his parent’s views but your his sister and he would rather take your side than the parents you guys shared. If they couldn’t accept you as their daughter then he wouldn’t accept them as his parents, easy as that.

Lionel turns to look at all the people staring at them as if silently waiting for them continue grilling each other. “And what are you guys staring at!? Get back to work!”

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Getting a call from your brother this early on in the day was unusual. He was at work right now, surely he should be working on games or participating in important business meetings.

Regardless of the sudden call you accept it and put your phone on speaker.

“Hello?”

“How are you doing?”

You don’t need to see his face to know that he’s mad at you although you aren’t sure why. It was normal for you two to get into the occasional argument but you don’t think you’ve done anything to piss him off.

You stop what you’re doing to pick up the phone and start pacing around Carla’s apartment. You’ve stayed so many nights there that you’re starting to forget the layout of your own house. “I’m doing good.” You say with a hint of nervous confusion. You’re a little worried about your brother’s sudden hostile tone towards you.

“And how’s Carla doing?” He asks with that same interrogating tone of voice. You feel like you’re being put on trial. Your stomach drops and you feel that sliver of anxiety crawl down your spine.

“Why would I know how your employee is doing? Is this a trick question?” You retort, playing dumb as you slip on one of her hoodies that’s lying around.

“Well I think you know her better than I do considering the fact you’re at her apartment right now!” He raises his voice and you lean away from the loud sound coming from the phone. “If you’re going to try to be sneaky at least turn off your gps.” He lets out an exasperated sigh as he leans back in his chair.

You put a hand on your forehead, already feeling a headache coming on. You were scared of something like this happening. You never told him because you didn’t want to have to choose between your brother or your girlfriend. You didn’t want to have to make a choice, you wanted them both to be in your life. And that includes Lionel, even if he was sort of a pain.

“Are you mad?” You anxiously pace around the apartment. You knew you would have to tell him eventually as Carla was the one you planned to spend the rest of your life with but you didn’t want it to be like this.

There’s only silence on both ends as if he’s actually taking your question into account. “No, I’m not. I just-Why didn’t you tell me? I’m not thrilled about the fact that you’re dating Carla of all people but I’m not going to hate you for it.”

This was a rare moment where Lionel was actually having a heart to heart conversation with someone. There’s no shouting coming from him. Even if he is insensitive and a little ignorant you can tell that he cares and a part of you feels bad that you haven’t told him sooner. Your brother confided in you about almost everything but you kept so many secrets from him.

“I just wasn’t sure how you would react.” You fumble with the drawstrings of Carla’s hoodie. It’s all you could muster as you stopped pacing and just stood there. Lionel can’t really blame you for feeling that way as he isn’t really sure how to react with the sudden news either.

“I want to talk about this in person, come see me tomorrow.” It’s very sudden and it’s oddly mature of him but it’s better than him throwing insults and accusations. He actually seems like he wasn’t to talk to you about this in a collected way. “I’ll see you then, I guess.”

He hangs up and you stand in silence for a moment as you process that conversation you just had with him.

This seems like it can be a turning point for Lionel.

#the hex #the hex game #the hex game x reader #Carla dosa x reader #There might be some grammar and spelling mistakes #I’m eepy but I still wanted to write it

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useyernamesteven · 3 years

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(Needed some goofy fluff to distract myself from the angst im writing so buckle up, its long. Based on that one post I cannot find so if anyone can help a homie out, much appreciated)

Raya/Namaari Accidental Marriage Proposal

Its not a far stretch to assume that the different tribes have different practices and rituals. And given the 500 year gap in communication its also easy enough to assume that the tribes don't know about each others differing customs.

For example: marriage proposals. In Tail its as cut-and-dry as asking. Talon people propose with rings and jade coin. When you propose in Spine you chop down a tree to show your commitment and strength.

The Fang propose with blades. Fang people love their knives, daggers, spears, and other pointy weapons, so if you want to ask someone to marry you, you do it with a blade.

I like to imagine it'd be because offering a blade to someone- who isn't family -is the equivalent of trusting your life to that person. I like to think the Fang value not only a person's strength and honour, but their ability to care and protect their people. So giving a blade to your chosen love is like saying, "I'm giving you this weapon because I trust you with my heart, literally and metaphorically".

But again, 500 year old divide means others have no clue what giving a knife to someone from Fang entails...

So maybe its been a few months or so after the Druun have been vanquished. Raya is still re-learning how to be a 'princess' while playing liaison between the tribes, with Sisu as her partner in crime. She likes it because she still gets to travel and she gets to see her new friends from the other tribes: Boun's business is booming, Noi has started talking, and Tong has become the new Chief of Spine.

Then there's Namaari.

Six years of playing cat-and-mouse together (or rather angry kitten and homeless puppy) can be hard to overcome. At first it was a struggle. And incredibly awkward. Namaari, too guilt ridden over what she'd done, and Raya, still angry and socially stunted, could barely hold a conversation together.

Eventually Raya, fed up with the weird awkward talk, dragged Namaari to Fang's training grounds and challenged her to a sparring match. And only when it was over, the both of them exhausted and laying on the ground, did they start talking, actually talking. About what happened with the gem, with Sisu, what they can't let go of, not yet, but what they hope they can move past one day.

It made things after easier because it was familiar ground for them, but it also opened up new paths too. Now in the months since they saved the world and having spent that time working together, Raya would like to consider Namaari a close friend.

Which is probably why she's so surprised when Namaari off-handedly mentions her birthday is next week. Namaari, who's less than thrilled about her mother's plans for a big celebration, doesn't even notice how much Raya's caught off guard. Namaari doesn't really care for her birthday, much less when her mother makes a big deal about it, but she still brushes her hair behind her ear when she asks Raya if she's going to attend.

Raya recovers, nudging Namaari saying that she's obviously going, and boasting about the amazing gift she's going to bring.

Which then leads to her dragging Sisu to Talon in search of the perfect gift (Sisu being the only 'person' she knows who can help being that she's a master gift giver... Sisu's words, not Raya's, but still). They run around Talon for ages, with Sisu practically buying everything in sight (with the Heart Palace Credit of course) but Raya can't find a single thing she thinks Namaari would actually like.

And then she spots a Fang vendor selling blades.

The woman is nice and she asks Raya if she's looking for something in particular. Raya says she wants to get a dagger for 'someone special' from Fang (not wanting to rack up the price if the woman knew who it was for, but also completely unaware to what she's just implied).

The vendor seems a little surprised but she easily walks Raya through picking out the perfect dagger for her 'someone special'. Raya ends up buying a pretty, yet functional dagger with a dragon engraved in the blade and an ornate box to keep it in. As Raya's leaving the woman gives her a pat on the shoulder and says, "All the best for the both of you and I'm sure she'll say yes," which Raya can't really make sense of so she shrugs and leaves to go find Sisu and her mountain of trinkets.

So now its the party, and when Namaari said Virana was making a big deal about it, she really meant it. People from all the tribes are attending and Sisu's brought her brothers and sisters and there's music and food and fireworks...

And Namaari stands beside her mother in a beautiful dress that makes Raya's heart thud erratically (it's totally platonic). Her and her Ba walk up to them and start making small talk before her Ba and Virana break off to chat with other dignitaries, leaving Raya and Namaari together.

Raya likes how Namaari relaxes around her when its just them, despite the room full of people. They talk and banter and tease and laugh, but more than anything Raya just likes being with Namaari. And when Namaari mentions how much she hates formal wear, how dresses don't suit her, Raya makes it a game to see how many times she can mention how beautiful Namaari looks while they're talking, just because it makes Namaari flush and do the hair thing she does when she's shy. No other heart-related reason.

Its not until much later when Raya suddenly remembers the gift she brought and she runs off to fetch it. When she returns she hands Namaari the sleek box with a smile and a sheepish "Happy Birthday dep'la".

And Namaari's blushing and smiling as she takes the box, telling Raya she didn't have to as she opens the box-

And immediately slams it shut. Her face turns bright red and she whorls on Raya with wide eyes and a panicked, hissed "whatareyoudoing?!" And poor Raya's totally thrown, so sure she'd picked out the perfect gift. "You don't like it?" But Namaari shoves the box back into her hands, with another frenzied whisper "thatsnotit!"

Well now Raya's a little miffed because "You didn't even look at it" and before Namaari can stop her she's pulling the dagger from the box and offering it back to Namaari.

Meanwhile the room goes incredibly quiet as everyone from Fang suddenly notices what's happening between the princesses. Virana nearly spits out her drink. Everyone else carries on like normal, but a few people watch their new Fang friends with curious looks, completely out of the loop.

So now Raya's essentially down on one knee without realizing it, Namaari's about to have a heart attack, everyone from Fang is on the edge of their seat, and the dragons are having a rousing drinking contest with people from Spine.

So the party is going great.

Raya (oblivious to the world save for Namaari) is giving Namaari her strongest puppy dog eyes because she'd spent so long looking for the perfect gift dep'la, and "You're pretty special Namaari, special to me, and you deserve it."

Namaari, as red faced as she is, softens at Raya's admission, smiling a little to herself before she takes the dagger from Raya with a soft "it's lovely dep'la".

And suddenly the room's loud again as people from Fang start clapping and whistling. Everyone else is lost but soon they join in as well, despite having no clue as to what they're cheering for. Namaari's back to being flustered and she grabs Raya's hand and hauls her toward Virana and Benja. Raya, finally taking in the room around them, is confused as to why people are congratulating her and Namaari.

Virana has recovered by the time the two approach and if no one knew better it might've also appeared she was trying hard not to smile. Namaari hisses something to her mother Raya doesn't hear, and she shoots her Ba a questioning look. Benja looks a little pensive but he's got a quirk in his lips that Raya knows means mischief.

Virana gently pats her daughter's shoulder before turning to address the room, excusing the four of them. They turn to leave but not before Virana calls out to the crowd, "And it goes without saying you're all invited to the wedding as well," and then ushers her horrified daughter, her baffled betrothed, and Benja out the door.

Instantly Namaari's in hysterics, asking her mother why she'd say that when Raya obviously didn't know what she was doing. Virana, quite obviously playing ignorance, asks why Namaari accepted the blade if she knew what she was doing. And poor Namaari can only gape, red faced and no come back.

Raya has finally caught on to what she's done and yeah, okay now it all makes sense. The vendor, Namaari's (gay) panic, the congratulations... she just proposed to Namaari. She just proposed to Namaari. In front of most of Kumandra. Oh toi!

Benja, still smirking to himself, ruffles Raya's hair before turning to Namaari and Virana and saying, "To be fair... Namaari did propose first."

Marriage proposals in Heart are an exchange of necklaces. So when Namaari had given Raya the Sisu pendant back when they were kids, they'd essentially gotten engaged and since Raya kept it, they've technically been engaged for the past six years.

(Too) Long story short, Raya and Namaari get engaged, get married, fall in love, and live sapphically ever after.

End.

(Okay, I'm done. Back to angst.)

#raya and the last dragon #ratld #rayaari #rayamaari #raya and namaari #oof i lost steam halfway through this #sorry its so terrible #i just didnt really feel like actually writing it out

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filmnoirsbian · 5 years

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Happy pride month here's a list of my finest moments as yr friendly neighborhood lesbian flight attendant

When a guy at the hotel bar whom i thought was being nice and genuinely wanted to talk abt superheroes suggestively asked what my room number was and i, in shock, replied "gay"

When a man on the plane grabbed my necklace (a musketball, roughly the circumference of a quarter) and loudly asked "is that a ball gag?" And i, in shock, replied "no im gay"

When a ramper gave his number to the gate agent and told her to give it to me and i said "oh no tell him im gay" and she laughed and said "yea i get that" and i said "no i really am gay" bc heaven forbid she think im straight lol and she said "yea me too"

When a 12yo boy confessed to me that he was nervous abt coming out to his dad as trans so i had a 2 hr long conversation w him and gave him 20 bags of pretzels

When a butch lesbian asked if i was local and i said "no im just here for the night" and she said "oh, what kind of a night do you want it to be? 😘"

When i told the other FA (straight woman, 40s) i was gay and she immediately launched into an emotional story about the sapphic love affair she had at an away camp when she was 18

When my captain told me he was in a ldr and i said "oh me too" and he said "yeah, my partner's a man tho" and i said "oh mine's a woman" and he had a look of surprised gay elation

When the whole crew went out for drinks and realized all but one of us were lgbt and we all turned to the (straight) captain and he looked like this: 😬

When a butch ramp agent found out i was gay and gave me her number and i said "oh im taken" and she said "that's fine i just need more gay friends"

When i came out to my (straight) captain and he said "but......you don't wear pants..."

When i (drunk) and my first officer (drunk) started gushing abt how much we love our girlfriends and our captain (not drunk) said "you two should have a double wedding" so we spent the rest of the night planning one and made a joint wedding registry on amazon

#tcp #the world only spins forward #work stuff

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kideternity · 4 years

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Rory Regan!

YAAAAAY my mans rorys !!!!!!! ^_^ under a readmore once again

Sexuality headcanon: Gay LOL though I do think it took him like a really really long time to come to that conclusion and he's spent like most of his life dealing w internalised homophobia. But yes he kisses men

Gender headcanon: transgender man, transitioned, he got top and bottom surgery after his time in the military when he returned home

A ship I have with said character: Bluerags 💚💚💚💙💙💙 danny and rory should have made out got married and had a honeymoon in Shadowpact im just saying, bill willingham fuckin missed out on a great opportunity

A BROTP I have with said character: already mentioned it but Zauriel also really hardcore heavily w Eve Eden ^_^ they're sapphic/gay solidaritys. I think rory is in general bffs w the entire Shadowpact and I think he'd also get along rly well w other jewish heroes like Atom Smasher or Kate Kane, they celebrate Hanukkah together and stuffs

A NOTP I have with said character: If theres an off chance someone shipped Kate and Rory together from that one nu52 crossover they had I will find you and I will hunt you for sport you fucking freak. Other then that i dont rly see ppl ship anyone w rory, so I guess i'll just go w Rory x any woman but especially that romance they tried implying in Shadowpact w Eve, mister writer afte willingham they're not straight :/

A random headcanon: Rory is an incomprehensible typer. All of his text messages are a garble of keysmashing typos and emojis and nobody knows what the fuck he's saying ever unless they get him on a phone call or video chat.

Idea for a story: If dc wasn’t a coward I think you could do a really awesome horror comic book w Rory????? Like a comic book where it’s split up in two narratives- Rory's pov usually in the guise of his everyday life, and then his activities as ragman, as shown through the eyes of the ppl he's stopping, like the criminals and villains and stuff. In his later appearances they like took him more lighthearted but rorys whole thing is rly scary??? He literally ABSORBS your souls leaving you in this like purgatory hell its TERRIFYING. I would also like to include a lot of scenes though of how Rory as ragman does still often and consistently help ppl out, bc yannow hero and stuff, but yea dc hmu already

Unpopular: I have no idea if ppl still actually like that comic but the reboot they tried doing w ragman in 2017 was SOOOOOOOOOOO antisemitic and evil.... it was a garbage nonsensical comic book and whoever was writing it was a clear fucking antisemite, imagine having a character whose entire thing is that his rag suit was created by rabbis under a time of oppression to fight for the disenfranchised and turning it into “ITS AN EVIL HAUNTED SUIT LOOTED BY A TEMPLE MADE BY DEMOOOOONS HEHE”..... AWFUL also the redesign was fugly too

Favourite moment: theres a scene in his solo like the 90s one where hes sleeping peacefully and then his friend walks in and he goes super serious “if you try to wake me up i will break your legs” and then he goes back to sleeping peacefully as the friend walks away angrily JWJSJAJW

First impression: The 70s version was really weird, 90s comics good but the second one is like bordering on super racist, and he's great in shadowpacts era

Impression now/General opinion over the character: not super different I adore him and I wish more people acknowledged he exists >_< he's such a fun inchresting character and its always nice to see a character whose so focused on Judaism in his lore and character and its not done badly in a medium began by jewish men

#rory regan #ragman #dinu yells in the void #chek's posts #dinu's wild headcanons #ask meme #asks answered #🖤🖤🖤

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punkbirdwitch · 5 years

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Sweet Mother Sappho

A longer poem about learning through history, self-discovery, etc. It’s a rough draft-- I’m not 100% satisfied with the storyline-- but, eh, here ya go.

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Oh, Mother Sappho, though I’m not sure who you are,

I just found you in the trunk of my dad’s old beat-up car,

In a pile full of other stuff he used to want but doesn’t,

So I figured now would be the time to give myself a present.

I must admit that I’m not well-versed with verses,

Haven’t seen stanzas since Kwanzaa, and my rhymes could use work-- but!

Your face is on the cover and you look like you’re nice, so

I think I’ll come and read you-- only once or twice, I swear!--

And only when I’m curious about Aphrodite’s weaving,

Or carpenters and roofbeams or Gods who like deceiving!

I’d hate to be a bother with all of my incessant reading,

There’s just something ‘bout your passages I can’t help but find intriguing--

But maybe it’s just that my curiosity took

When I noticed finely scrawled within the tiny nook

Between the front cover and the page--

Faded some with age--

In graphite on the page, it reads, “Steph…

...

I hope you like the book.”

… My name’s Chris, by the way.

Oh, Mother Sappho, I know it’s only been one day,

But after our first meeting I can’t tear myself away!

And on top of that I realized that I’ve been a little flippant.

Dad always says that when I talk, my brain gets sorta distant.

My name is Chris, as I surely said before,

I’m 15 years old, born in the year Two Thousand and Four,

Which to you must seem like, I dunno, a billion years away--

If only you could see all of the stuff we have today!

My dad’s a docent-- uh, which means he works in a museum,

And I remind him he’s a nerd just about every time I see ‘im.

He takes folks ‘round to see the history, the time when you lived--

And money can be tight, so sometimes he works the graveyard shift.

I guess they save some headache by keeping the same guy

To glide across the floors by day and scrub ‘em by night.

But hey! I’m not complaining, and neither is he,

‘Cuz Empty Halls + Father/Son = Happy Memories.

I spent a lot of nights playing next to history,

Though how I (almost) never broke stuff still remains a mystery.

I played tag with the Huns, roshambo with Tommie Smith,

(A game I always won since he would always raise his fist).

My father told me tales from ancient times-- (Never quite PG)--

Then quizzed me on Mythology ‘til my mind was at its apogee!--

I’d hunt with Davy Crockett and paint with Vince van Gogh--

Might explain why a dead poet makes the second-best friend that I know. Ha!

But my favorite-- yes, the best-and-kindest figures of all

Were the warriors whispered about in the Women’s History Hall.

This was before they spread the female figures throughout the exhibits,

But in that hallway you could sense there was rebellious spirit.

Wollstonecraft and Curie, Shelley, Earhart and d’Arc,

I danced with Josie Baker, had some chats with Rosa Parks--

I fought entire wars with them as a tactician of sorts,

Then settled it with kindness, like you read about in books--

And it’s true that my childhood would have been less sleep-deprived

If I stayed at home while daddy made the money to survive,

But I’m a night owl through and through, a real child of Nyx-- (Still got it!)--

Which is why I’m sitting here with you at, like… 3:06.

… A.M. Yikes-- Mother Sappho! I’ve got to get to bed,

But thank you oh-so-kindly for the poetry I’ve read.

I hope that you don’t mind if this becomes a regular thing,

Like when I used to read soliloquies to Dr. Martin Luther King (‘s statue)--

God, with all that museum time, it’s weird I never met you.

But without further ado,

I’ll say good night to you.

… But Mother Sappho-- one thing keeps me awake,

A little shred of curiosity that I have yet to slake.

It pulls me in like the aroma from the master dish of a chef,

Oh, Mother Sappho…

… Who’s Steph?

Oh, Mother Sappho! Julie’s coming by tonight,

And whenever she comes over she just has to steal the spotlight!

Not that I mind-- I’m cool with being quiet at the table

While my childhood friend fills my open head with fables.

Our Hellish Elementary formed our crucible as friends,

And though it sucked, we only came out stronger in the end.

A nerdy girl, a “cissy” guy, playing sci-fi with dolls--

Didn’t really resonate within those tiny halls.

And of course I’d be remiss to not show her my new find--

I always try to have a new conversation topic each time

That she comes over-- Which she’s done quite regularly

Since she became my friend when no one else

Would hang out with me.

… But anyway-- She says she loves you, which is not a surprise,

It’s always been dead-dramatic ladies for whom she’s had eyes--

Not saying you’re dramatic, Sappho, I’m just trying to say,

That I’ve recently been wondering if you might’ve been gay?

I’m just saying! that’s the conclusion that I came to next

When the subtextual did floweth over into the text.

(O it makes my panicked heart go fluttering in my chest,

for the moment I catch sight of you there is no speech left

in me--) You see? You can’t blame me for thinking

That it was rainbow-colored nectar you and your friends were drinking.

And while Julie’s father has a chat with my dad,

I tell my lifelong friend about the conversations we’ve had--

And I can’t help but hear our fathers talking in the afternoon air,

Two strong voices rising through wood and laughing as a pair…

Though what they talk about’s a mystery-- dad says it’s “Nothing much--”

It’s rare for friends to have their dads like each other this much,

Aaaand I just rhymed “much” with “much”-- I told you I’m rusty!

But I think I’m getting better, you’ll-- just have to… Trust me?

Ugh.

Oh, Mother Sappho, I’m addling my brain--

If I don’t find out who this “Steph” is, I might just go insane--

Short for Stephanie, I’m sure, but why is it in my father’s hands?

And why would he discard in the back of our sedan?

Is there some pain within my father’s past he’d rather I not know?

...

You know-- I never had a mother, Mother Sappho.

Oh, Mother Sappho.

I spoke with Julie today, Oh, Mother Sappho.

Sweet Mother Sappho.

I had something to say, “Oh--

“You know,” I said, “I think that I would like to be a girl,

Even if not for forever, I’d still give it a whirl.

I’m unversed in verses-- It’s hard

To explain in the wrong key

But I get the feeling that not everything

Is quite all right with me.”

And she turned to me and smiled and said “Silly-- you can be.”

Oh, Mother, Sappho.

I’m addling my brain.

There’s something here inside my heart that I just cannot contain.

It doesn’t feel right--

And yet

It doesn’t feel wrong.

It just feels like I’ve

Never quite

Belonged.

And now I’m not sure where I’m at or what to do.

Mother Sappho, I don’t know what to do.

Oh, Mother Sappho…

…

Sweet Mother Sappho…

(Oh, darling daughter, I hope you know that you are strong

And that as you sat there rambling, I was listening all along.

Please pardon my language-- I’m afraid I’ve not rehearsed.

In this meter, I’m afraid that I’m the one unversed.

(You’re green and dainty, child-- what better thing to be?

And though your heart is violet, you’re as sturdy as the tree.

I hope you know I love you, no matter who you are,

For your soul is far more radiant than all the highest stars--

Now show them who you are--

My child, show them you are.

...

(And know

That you have nothing to fear.

You’ll know

When you understand how near you were

And are

To people just like you.

To people who love you.)

Oh, Mother Sappho, I hope you know you haven’t been misread,

And I think I found the meaning in that thing that you last said.

I realized what before I would not have believed in, ‘cuz--

“Steph” is short for Stephanie-- but is also short for “Stephen.”

I think my dad and I might need to have a talk--

In the morning. It’s 2:04, and I’m still sort of in shock.

Maybe once I tell ‘im, I can help him get a date.

Ha! Maybe…

It’s late.

Thank you, Mother Sappho, and just to set things straight-- (Which I guess I’m not, now, huh, Ms. Sapphic?)

You can still call me Chris-- it’s gender-neutral, yeah? It almost feels like fate.

Oh, Mother Sappho, I think that this feels right.

Thanks, and-- good night, Mother Sappho.

(Good night.)

#my stuff #my poetry #sapphic stuff #ocs

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aurorasandsadprose444 · 5 years

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y’all i’m fucking crying

my 5yo nephew Y and his little like 7yo friend J keep walking down to the basement (where i’m sitting on the couch in pitch black darkness on my phone brightness down white point reduced) they turn on the only light they can reach without me seeing them by reaching super far around the corner. and now they keep running down here every time, they run back up the stairs after quick council about someone being asleep. and now they’ve come down here and are chanting “wake her up! wake her up! wake her up!” and they put a sound making toy down here with me to ‘wake me up’ and i’m just keeping quiet the whole time. it’s hilarious. now they’re down here. disrupting my not-sleeping. i’m high asf right now. this isn’t happening. Y came back to get his pretzels and said good night and we yelled i love you’s. This Is Why I’m In The Closet. i just don’t know how me liking girls will affect the smallest things. i don’t think they’d be kept separate from me or that i wouldn’t get to babysit them anymore or hug them. i knew that. but if i was out, i would wanna be really out. like making lesbian comments and jokes all the time just like we do straight comments. our friend D is gay but he just isn’t the same if my brother-in-law is around. i wouldn’t have to be like that because he’s the interrogative type, military, always quizzing us on knowledge and opinions he knows nothing about. the boys would be okay. my nephews would accept me and understand. they love me. my sisters would love me and allow to be my full self, wlw g-rated lesbian comments during dinner, family time, tv/movies to assert my sapphic tendencies periodically and frequently. i know myself. i’m not afraid of initial reactions as much as lasting, awkward ones, which i’m afraid might occur with my mother. whether condescending or attempting to connect, it would make my skin crawl. i love you’s to and from my mom catch in my throat and abbreviate. i can’t stand the feeling of her touching anywhere on my body. i’m fine with showing affection to anyone else. literally. as a kid, i constantly hugged my girl friends and boy friends alike. i didn’t mind having girls sit on my lap (ohmigawd im gay) on bus rides or at snack time. but something happened. the summer i was 18 i lost my virginity while post shower intoxicated and then weeks later was sexually assaulted (not raped) while very intoxicated. with the loss of my virginity came the blossoming of a friendship in the form of ‘i had sex 10 feet away from your sleeping form.’ R still doesn’t know to this day that i lost my virginity that night. then one night, a battle between a drunken, hazy okay? and a sober, eager yes! had me losing the only virginity i had left. kissing virginity. the guy who unknowingly took my virginity, didn’t kiss me because (as i would find out) he had a girlfriend. then i got really, super, ‘drunkest i’d been to that day’ drunk and let a guy carry me home. he kissed me while she showered then dropped me off to go try his luck with her. when she said no, he came back and forced his way into my bed. offering warmth during and icy rainstorm to my near incoherent self. we kissed and used his hands and that’s it, but the next morning he called by a name that only vaguely sounded like mine but one that happened to be the nickname of one of my sisters. i stopped trusting and sharing everything with my best friend R because she didn’t bunk with me that night and she rejected the guy who then invited himself into my not private hotel room. i don’t mean to. i want to trust her but she’s a whole different person after a year. so we at least started somewhere happy, but now you know the tale of why i’m a lonely useless lesbian who keeps a secret from everyone she wants to be close with. i know that it makes no sense. but i can’t do anything about it. not yet.

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sappho-give-me-strength · 6 years

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Ok so im a bi girl and for the longest time ive had this crush on this straight girl who happens to be one of my closest friends and like i think she was the reason i finally realized that i like women so i really cannot let go of her. All through my senior year i was crushing on her and i was like literally never hiding it. I was always jokingly hitting on her because she used to be very insecure and i was always like bitch why you pretty af (thats actually how the friendship started) 1/?

2/? And she always flirted back you know? And like i knew she was joking but i was always like what if she isnt tho? Which ik is silly and bad because i was only getting my hopes up. But she also showed so many signs of internalized homophobia like when i say she was pretty is because she IS pretty like she was always being followed by guys no kidding like i left her alone at a party once and i came back and i almost drown on testosterone bc a circle of no less than ten guys was around her

3/? And like every and each of her guy friends has had a crush on her at least once, some even twice but she always rejected them??? Because “it didnt feel right” and im like honey thats gay??????? But i never actually did tell her that but like they were perfectly good guys that even i would be with and she was just like :/ “im waiting for the perfect guy” skdlfjañf and then she was always just like “why cant no guy treat me like you do?” And im just like send help pls

4/? This bitch spent most of prom with me instead of her actual (BOY) prom date and like when i was on vacation i took some nudes bc i was on a cruise and there was literally nobody that could see me through the windows and when i get back and tell her about it she goes all “why didnt you send them to me?” And i am shooketh to my core you have no idea, and so bc i am deeply sapphic i take out my phone and show her the pics and she fucking zooms in and im like :)

5/? And thats not even the gayest thing shes done like she constantly talks about how she wants to move in with me to some cottage in the woods and have a happy life together and im like you!!!! Cant!!!! Tell!!!! Me!!!! That!!!!! Shit!!!!! And anyways the whole point of this is that we were on a dinner party this friday and i got drunk and i began serenading her with you belong with me by taylor swift and she said im already yours and idk man i want to stop liking her bc shes straight but ?????

Okay, first of all, this was a ride from start to finish. Like, I think all WLW, have that sort of experience where we fall for a straight girl and we can’t tell if she’s only joking or if she might be flirting with us and there’s the hope that maybe she’s not so straight after all. I know it’s hard not to get your hopes up, I’ve been there but honestly, this is on another kind of level.

Obviously, I don’t know you and I don’t know your friend so it’s not like I can say for definite but this doesn’t read like how a straight girl would act or things that a straight girl would say. Your friend doesn’t only seem pretty gay but it also sounds like she’s totally into you. And a lot of what you’re describing reminds me of my own experiences with internalized homophobia, like sure I thought I was into men and that I could date one but he would just have to live up to my totally impossible standards first.

I can see why you wouldn’t be able to get over feelings for her, especially the way you two behave; I mean what straight girl ditches her prom date to hang out with her friend? That’s kind of gay. Honestly, it seems like the best thing you can do is talk to her; I get it that you won’t want to jump straight into it all out confessing you have feelings for her or anything like that. And I get you can’t really say, oh, by the way, I think that you might not be straight but you haven’t realised or aren’t open about it because of internalized homophobia.

But maybe you could find a way to broach the topic of sexuality? Maybe you could ask if she’s ever had a crush on a girl as an easy starting point and go from. I’m not sure, maybe some of my followers will have more experience with this sort of thing. If it does turn out that she is straight then obviously you don’t have to stop being friends though if that’s the case it’s going to be tough getting over her.

Also, I’m sorry if this isn’t what you were looking for or if this isn’t very helpful. But as a clueless Lesbian, giving advice isn’t exactly my forte but I hope this is something.

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rancid-jester · 2 years

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i just choked on water for ten minutes and when I was done coughing I turned to my friend and said "I should be a lesbian again", something is wrong with me (no I dont want to detransition, no I dont even want to date women, im just talking to a sapphic about anime and my brain went "lesbians are good stop being trans and aroace maybe" and then the thought immediately faded and was replaced by gay fanfic i need to write)

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dykedykegooses · 6 years

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i'm askin u every single even numbered question for the lesbian ask game

at least you didnt bother with the algebra this time, for which i am thankful

Femme or butch?

i’m more femme but i try to act butch sometimes and i just end up failing hopelessly. ‘look mom i know how to put air in a tire!!’ ‘peyton thats like… not even right’ or ‘oh SHIT look at that blitz!! that was cool’ ‘peyton that was a sack’ ‘oh’

Do you have a “type”? If so, describe it

not really, mostly just like… humor. if u funny we click

Plaid button-ups or leather jackets?

why not both?

no but seriously plaid tbh

Describe your style

um yes

converse, (ripped? sometimes) jeans, and whatever top i feel is appropriate for the Big Aesthetic today

Describe your aesthetic

yes

ive tried going more punk but its just kinda , not worked

my physical aesthetic is very adultolescent. i got chub and look like a freshman but ive been told i pass as a college senior so like

my Big Mood aesthetic is yes

Favorite article of clothing?

either my converse or my “”combat boots”” (theyre not and it makes me sound like an edgelord just saying that) (can you tell im gay)

OH WAIT I FORGOT ABOUT MY JEAN JACKET its like baggy and light and ive started sewing patches from my favorite bands on it (super punk right)

Favorite pair of shoes?

^^^

oh my black strappy heels, theyre surprisingly comfortable

Current haircut?

ive got a bleached bob rn

Any haircut goals for the future?

i kinda want a pixie cut bc i cant handle long hair however long hair is so PRETTY and wow

Describe the best date you’ve been on

iiiiiiiiii dont really know. ive been on very few. i have a Perfect Date in mind, and i guess my favorite was my first date with my ex. we had gotten back from a successful science competition (HAVE I MADE IT OBVIOUS IM A NERD YET IM A BIG OL NERD) and it was like midnight by the time we got back and we were both starving so we went to taco bell and just sat there talking and laughing and i know we were pissing off the staff, but we stayed til like two in the morning and we went home and honestly we both considered it a date but we didnt like… tell each other it was a date? if that makes sense? idk honestly im triggered

Describe the worst date you’ve been on

ugh oh god i went on a tinder date and this girl like in the DMs was like ‘hey do u smoke weed’ and im like ‘lol no’ and then like we made plans to meet up at a coffee shop and she asks me AGAIN if i smoke weed and im like……………. no and shes like ‘oh right lol’ well THIS BITCH sleeps through the time we were supposed to meet, completely stands me up, and then texts me back like an hour later and was like ‘omg im sorry i overslept!!!’ and it was like….. noon but ok so we meet up after my class and we just sit there really awkwardly trying to make conversation and she asks me AGAIN if i smoke weed im like ‘honey no i dont’ and we just talked about drugs for a while and when i left because i had to gtfo she like gave me an awkward hug and like i sent a text later that night bc im courteous and im like ‘hey i had a great time today’ (i didnt) ‘lmk if you ever want to meet up again!!’ and she just. ignored me lol.

Single? Taken?

im currently in a polyamorous relationship with myself and my anxiety

If taken, talk about your girlfriend/wife!

If single, what are you looking for in a potential girlfriend/wife?

someone who’s able to make me laugh and deal with my bad ideas and will let me cook for her and wants to travel the world with me

Describe your dream wedding

its small. outside. maybe in a field or in front of a lake. i dont personally want a big ballgown, just a short white dress will do. lavenders everywhere. R A I N B O W C A K E. reception where we slow dance to all the sappy romance songs. its great.

Do you want kids?

not really, but ive considered being a foster parent. i feel like im here to do good; i don’t want to have my own biological children, and im not sure i want to have the permanent responsibility of adopting a kid, but i feel i could handle fostering once we’re financially stable and have the room to accept children into our home.

If you could live anywhere in the world, where would you live?

spain, definitely. somewhere in the north. i want to have a small farm with goats and chickens and vegetables and i want to be away from this american mess.

Favorite lesbian movie?

well ysee…………. the only two explicitly lesbian movies ive seen have been ‘all about E’ and ‘blue is the warmest color’ and i didnt like either of the lmfaoooo i prefer watching lesbian television shows tbqh (or, most commonly, just rewriting all the female characters in my head to be sapphic sooooooo dont @ me)

Favorite lesbian novel/story?

i mean same as above, i dont read as much as i like to. however, i did read “georgia peaches and other forbidden fruit” and that was Really Good and i did read another that was slightly better, but i forget the name but it was about a pakistani (?) girl who was struggling to come out to her parents bc they were very traditionalist but she joins the theater and her like really elite school and the girl she had a crush on basically outs her and is a bitch about it and GOD i wish i could remember it because it was really good

Favorite lesbian song?

ummmmmmmmmmmm i just recently listened to ‘honey’ by kehlani and that was pretty good and pretty gay, but my personal favorite is ‘girls’ by beatrice eli bc holy shit what a Mood

Favorite lesbian musician?

i love mary lambert and beatrice eli.

What lesbian stereotypes do you fit into, if any?

ummmmm now that im thinking of them i cant think of any. i used to play softball and soccer? i love cats. i immediately start planning out the next five years of our lives together anytime im remotely interested in a girl?

Ever been assumed to be nothing more than a gal pal?

i mean………………. no

If a woman wanted to woo you, what would a surefire way to accomplish that?

well bake cookies w me and lets go for a walk & go out and watch the stars at night in the bed of a truck

Be positive! What do you like most about being a lesbian?

I LOVE LOVING GIRLS!!!!!! I LOVE EVERYTHING ABOUT BEING A LESBIAN!!!!!! GIRLS ARE FANTASTIC!!!!!!!! WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!!!!!

Are you more of a cat person or a dog person?

why not both

idk ive never had a cat but i know i lov them

Turn ons?

i.......... dont know

yes

im gay

Turn offs?

long nails youch theyre pretty to look at but i mean at what price

not having anything to talk about

putting yourself down like a lot (i went on a date w this one girl and that was all she did like the entire date like......... im sorry ? :(???)

Do you usually ask other women out or do you wait for them to ask you?

if im being honest i would love for someone to ask me out but since that is Very Unlikely, i tend to be the one to message first and initiate dates and stuff

What is your dream career?

i want to be a psychological researcher in the field of social comparative psychology how sick is that!!!!! just play with dogs all day and record whether or not they boop their noses on a screen

also i wanna be a farmer and a bookstore owner but thats Farther down the line like , when im 50

Talk about your interests or hobbies!

im honestly such a psych nerd i love psychology what the fuck!! its so interesting like ppl are weird man idk brains are weird

im also having a really big green day phase like billie .. he so smol... and also anyone who wants to bash warning or the trilogy can fight me ok those are like My Favorite Albums

im going to a concert in february to see declan mckenna, a Giant Meme

im getting a tattoo w some lyrics of declan’s actually its gonna be sick

What is the most attractive quality a woman can have?

yes

idk for me its being able to have quick, witty, skillful jokes i just love listening to girls talk and tell stories and jokes like wow im gay

also long curly hair? thats always a Solid Look

Do you love easily or does it take time for you to warm up to someone?

i mean. do we really wanna open this can of worms rn

too late, its open

i get those microcrushes where you like see a girl and youre like ‘WOW IM GAY DATE ME’ however once it comes to actually being in a relationship i throw my full weight behind it and worry that im being too suffocating or that im pushing my boundaries etc and ive been told that makes me come off really cold and uncaring so lol choose ur own adventure, you decide

Ever fallen for your best-friend?

unfortunately

Ever fallen for a straight girl?

can you even call yourself a lesbian if you havent

The L-Word: yes or no? (love it or hate it?)

i havent seen it, im such a fake lesbian

Favorite comfort food?

mac n cheese

or pizza

or cheesy potatos

OR CHEESY TOAST

scientific conclusion: im a fatass

Coffee or tea?

coffer

Vegetarian? Vegan? None of the above?

im vegetarian!! have been on and off for like two years now

Do you have any pets?

i have one pup sittin right next to me and shes the prettiest girl in the world

Early-riser or night-owl?

yes

idk i get up at like 9 which is early for me but not as early as like. 5. so

more like night-owl. thanks teenage hormones!

What is your sign?

pisces

Can you drive?

yes

can i drive well?

but i do have a sense of direction so thats cool

Who was your first lesbian crush?

tbh.................... my best friend, but i didnt realize it was a crush at the time

the first Gay Crush i had that i knew was a crush was on my close friend at the time, now my ex girlfriend

At what age did you know you were a lesbian?

uhhhhhhhhhh lesbian specifically, like 15-16. queer, i knew in like fall semester freshman year (so like 13??)

At what age did you come out (if you have)?

i mean, i come out to people all the time. first time i came out explicitly as a lesbian was when i was like 15 or 16 (actually i came out to a close straight friend and my ex and they both said ‘congrats’ like it was weird but very nice) and the first time i came out as queer/questioning was to my then-best friend at like 13 and i came out to my mom (involuntarily) at like 17? ish?

Are you crushing on anyone at the moment (celebrity or otherwise)?

yes im crushing on every girl simultaneously at all times

just kidding

(not really)

i dont really have any explicit crushes that i can think of im just really gay

Talk about how your day went

it was fine. got free froyo so that was cool. found out i made an A on my bio practical, so that was cool too. however, i wore a crop top and it was like 55 degrees out and raining so i looked like a total Idiot but yk follow ur slutty gay dreams amiright ladies

Talk about your dreams/aspirations for the future

most of mine are career-centric, but a few are personal.

i wanna go to costa rica in may, i wanna go to yale over the summer, i wanna go to NYC pride in june, i wanna go to spain after i graduate, i wanna go to grad school, i wanna be a psychological researcher, i wanna move to spain or england or hell even france, i wanna have my own farm with the woman i love, i wanna own an LGBT bookstore/library, i wanna just live a quiet life near the sea and not have to worry so much after a while.

Least favorite gay celebrity?

this is a weird one to end on, but iiiiiiim not sure i have one? i can tell you ellen page is probably my favorite, but i cant think of many i dislike so

#grabsthesun #lesbian ask game #i love and hate you

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gay-trans-lgbt-advice · 7 years

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Hey, I run a bisexual blog and I came out to only a few really close friends as bi almost a year ago but over that time I've come to realize that I may not be bi, but gay and it's really eating away at me. I'm telling one of my best friends I came out to before who just so happens to be my crush I'm getting over because she is really straight. I'm terrified, what should I do?

Hi! thanks for sending this in actually, its been quite awhile since I’ve gotten an advice ask. Congratulations on figuring yourself out a little further! I know its all tough, questioning and everything, but you’re doing good.

I would say, that just remember that if your friends were totally accepting of you being bi, chances are they will also be okay with you deciding that you’re a lesbian now. Just be like “hey, remember how I said I said I was bi? Yeah I’m actually pretty sure now that im just gay. Whoops.” If they don’t quite get the “change” or don’t understand how sexuality can be fluid or furthered figured out, you can say something along the lines of “well, I honestly thought I was bisexual, but I’ve put a lot more thought into it and now i’ve realized that I’m actually gay/a lesbian, not bi”, and most people stop asking questions at that point/ seem to get it.

As for getting over a crush on a straight girl… good luck! I recommend gay songs/movies and finding someone else to pine over, even if its just the physical attractiveness of a celebrity. And perhaps someone to vent to, I’m always here. :)

And for the bisexual blog, really the only options are to change the blog and make it more inclusive and turn it into a sapphic or lgbt blog, or just stop posting on it and let it die and fade into the void.

Coming out is hard but you got this girl!!! Good luck, it’ll all work out!

#coming out #ask #anon #thought i was bi

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iconicsapphics · 7 years

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I wanna hear your coming out story!

omg you’re such a bean thank you

(im reading over it and it looks way more dramatic than it is. so thanks for giving me an excuse to vent, hun)

ok so ive been following 123456789098765432345 LGBT accounts since middle school. You know, like straight people do. so I scroll through all these posts like “I am Such A Good Ally!!! Look At Me!!!” But, of course, I don’t comment on anything or tell anyone about my extreme amount of gay accounts that I’m following.

so that’s, like, 2012. Then in like 2014 I start seeing all these “started as an ally now I’m here” memes. but of course that doesnt apply to me.

Then I start high school. And I meet more LGBT people than the three gay men I’d known previously (all of them were in musical theatre. I mean, I knew some not-out people. But really I knew no one). I’m more involved on tumblr. And I start to think “wow. I must be fetishizing the people on these gay accounts. I’m a terrible person.”

And then that summer I went to a self-fulfillment seminar. ANd I met this girl. And OH My GOodness??? I looked at her the first time and it was like she was literally made of light. And everything she did was stunning. And that summer, she figure out her sexuality. I did not figure out mine. but I had SUCH a crush on her. I think about her still. i hope she’s doing okay.

And when school started again, I got a crush on the gayest girl in the school. I mean, the entire GSA was crushing on her. Honestly, she was the one who made me think “oh shit.” so sophomore year, i thought i might not be straight. and i told my mom. and she said “no, honey, you are straight.” and since she’d supported my brother possibly being gay (he turned out to be straight), i thought she knew best.

NOW IT’S JUNIOR FREAKING YEAR. I am in a theatre group that’s like 70% sapphic (i did the math). sometime in september, im thrown into a total angsty questioning tailspin. i refresh @closetedsapphicopinions every two seconds. I check scarleteen.com obsessively. finally, i text one friend a super long message about how confused i am. and she texts back “sorry i was in rehearsal but yeah youre probably not straight” and, honestly, that validation was so great. so like six months after the first time, i talk to my mom again. this time she says “ok yeah and that thing with the girl from the seminar was kinda weird.”

and now im closeted to everyone but like seven people, but my mom has outed me to all three of her parents (dad, mom and stepmom). and she does it in a really invalidating way, and my grandfather said i should choose to stay straight because life is easier that way (i get where youre coming from gramps but it just doesnt work that way???) but all in all even though im a nervous and self-doubting, unsure person at least i have the internet to remind me im valid and family that’s pretty chill. sorry to bother all your feeds with this but if i dont vent here then i guess i wont vent anywhere so. ill just scream into the void for a bit.

#confusedsapphics asks #long post #mod ju #angst

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elvesofnoldor · 7 years

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So, i’m a video team member of my faculty (arts and science, ASUS in short). We had our 2nd meeting this term today and apparently we are not taking on projects like we did last term but we are actually gonna do storyboards and scripts and shits and actually shoot a narrative short video as a team to promote the faculty this term. On that note, our team leaders showed us this promotional video from last year.

Literally 10 seconds into the video, this story was already gay as hell, like im sure even straight people can see this white/white passing girl and this Asian girl are in love. They were having giving each other loving looks, being great friends, having emotional moments, the background soundtrack is a girl singing shits like “She smells like orange, peas and all things nice”. It was just super sapphic and I thought this vid is either gonna be gay or gaybaiting, and at the end the two girls kiss at their graduation ceremony so the vid turns out to be gay and beautiful.

In short, our faculty, one of the largest faculty in the school published a video about a story about a fictional interracial sapphic couple, and honestly i didn’t know we as a faculty and as a school is capable of doing this kind of progressive shit.

It was awesome, but too bad we can’t do another sapphic story to promote our faculty anymore lol

Tbh our school is fucking wild ok. On one hand, we are apparently capable of producing progressive media such as that, but on the other hand, some ASUS people legit wanted to print “makes ASUS great again” on some hats and were mad when they couldn’t do it. ASUS marketing coordinator(also kinda the video team’s boss lol), an Asian woman, was like “Do i actually need to explain to you all how that is NOT an okay thing to do???? are you fucking kidding me???”. Our uni gained fucking national media attention when some commerce students held a racist costume party (it’s Canada, btw, so you all Americans wouldn’t know), but i guess they are not done gaining national attention for the wrong reasons, there is a //some people likes Trump some people likes Hiliary but everybody hates [our uni name]// meme going around bc of that party. Also, apparently a dude on a team running for ASUS executive positions got dragged when their team tried to pitch their ideas in a lecture. Not only were they not prepared bc they don’t even have their platforms to share with the class yet, one of them is a self-identified “menisist” dude. Someone exposed his super chauvinistic twitter account somewehere, and i heard a girl called him out by asking him “do you realize your laptop has a sticker that sexualizes and objectifies women’s bodies?” in front of the whole class while this dude was trying to gain people’s votes with his team. I hope their team has no hope of winning, but it’s still alarming that our school is the kind of school that produces this kind of white straight dude with the audacity to run for positions. Not to mention, a team running for AMS (undergraduate student society) executive positions legit attacked the team my AMS club/organization is endorsing. They said the team my club is endorsing is being a //isolated community// by building their platforms on helping people of colour and minority groups within the student body. Whatever the fuck that means, all i know is that they mention nothing of students of colour, minority students, LGBT+ students in their platform, and attacking the team my club is endorsing that way is their way of justifying the lack of attention paid towards minority groups. When the school newspaper called their ass out, the LGBT+ club/organization email account I’m managing as a co-director received an email from this team. They were legit trying to talk to us and gain our endorsement, it’s actually fucking hilarious how they decided to care about people of colour, LGBT+, minority groups when they realize they need our votes.

Anyways, white universities are probably generally wild af, but the level of drama is really unreal with our uni. I really should have gone to U of T instead of this fucking school, but i got fooled by the ranking and its prestigious appearance....

#long post for ts #yolanda talks #me for ts #not spn

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so i’m a lesbian and i’ve always thought that butch/femme should be exclusive to lesbians, because they’re based in lesbian identity- but now that i found out lesbian meant bi&gay women until well into the 60s i’m doubtful of that. basically my only bother that remains is that there are terms right now that do reflect the experience of bi women/are based in bi identity like tomcat, stag/doe (i know they're not super widespread but language can evolve ect) (1/3)

i’m just confused bc like, my gf says she would like different terms for bi women? maybe it’s good to have different words because they are different experiences, since there *are* different words now. basically my question is since the meaning of lesbian has changed wouldn’t that also change the meaning of butch/femme? (2/3)

and i have another question: after bisexual was established as a separate identity from lesbian, were butch/femme identifiers still used in bi groups, or did they “split” with the butch/femme identifiers? if they continued using them it’s obviously completely fair for bi women to use butch/femme. sigh. i wish lgbt history was easy to come by! (3/3) p.s. id like to clarify that im not approaching with malicious intent or nything! im very curious abt this discourse & i just love our history!

How do tomcat, stag/doe reflect the bi experiences in ways that butch/femme don’t? Those words were made up in reaction to a racist, transmisogynistic, and biphobic expulsion of women and not in a genuine response to what it means to be bi. Like... can anyone even explain in depth what those words mean, where they came from, and what community of bi women (if there even ARE solid communities just for bi women) has heavily adopted it?

Like you, I’m not trying to be malicious with it, I’m just wondering why decades upon decades of bisexual history where in REAL spaces that aren’t full of tumblr idpol bi women HAVE continued to use butch/femme in ~sapphic spaces and appropriately (ie not while in relationships w/ men, not outside of sapphic spaces) should be erased in favors of “Someone on tumblr said you should use these words instead?”

Most of my friends are bisexual and lesbian women, absolutely none of them use tomcat or stag. Not to mention how fucking ridiculous these divides get when we use them to refer to OTHER women--”God, she’s such a hot butch.” Does that mean we have to assume that shes a lesbian. When lesbians say they prefer to date butches or femmes, does that mean they only prefer to date other lesbians? Should they have said “butches and stags, femmes and does” or whatever the fuck?

Especially since femme/butch still exist outside of lesbian culture ANYWAYS. Like... again, it was a part of bi culture. Gay men use it too and similar ways (not the same, no but similar).

And while I understand and am sympathetic to the desperate leave to cultivate language for your own experiences, I’m getting more and more fed up with groups planting their flag in what was once shared ground and saying, “Mine now” without any historical or cultural evidence to back it up besides “I was told it’s this way and it should stay this way.”

Especially when the reason it’s “This way” is radical feminism, especially when it’s transmisogyny, racism, and biphobic.

While you mean well and aren’t trying to be malicious, your question essentially boils down to, “Shouldn’t we maintain the tradition of this more bigoted separatism because we’ve gotten so used to it?”

In the right contexts, separatism is fine. Lesbians deserve their own spaces, language, and whatever else they want. But not at the expense of taking away spaces and language bi women helped cultivate and have lived and used for decades upon decades.

Much in the vein that I turn to bisexual who complain about some things lesbians have and say “Well, create what you want then, do it for yourself.”

I would much the same say that to lesbians who complain about the fact that some bisexual women are refusing to be complicit in the very passive but once aggressive erasure of OUR history and OUR culture. If you think you need this language, create a new one.

But butch and femme were never about the gendered experience when wholly excluding men because lesbians at that time... weren’t defined by their exclusion of men but rather for their love of women. And if bisexual women (who can, y’unno, exclude men from their lives, just to remind y’all) who focus on their love of women, prioritize it, and are, y’unno, currently involved in women and intend to stay involved in women want to use language to reflect their gendered experience of having the choice between the genders and choosing women over and over again and how that affects their presentation, their gender, their lives... can a single person given me a compelling reason for them to stop?

I’m sorry that this ask seems hostile and overly long. I’m in a bad mood (not because of this discourse but something else) and I’m also tired of being made to feel like an invader to my own history, my own culture, my own lived experiences.

#bisexuality #butch and femme #Anonymous

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