#my boy is so neurodivergent just like me

[lafilleestmorte]

the thing is, toey never initiates emotional intimacy with q. he'll wonder for a year what kind of music q listens to but never even think to directly ask. he'll bug q about all sorts of tips to make his art better without revealing why he chose to pursue art at all. he'll collapse onto q's lap when he is drunk and extremely tired but won't ask to sleep next to him or even try to come up with an excuse to when he's sober. he doesn't actually ask q to come with him to the park - he asks peem and then peem asks q. toey will nag q with his tone or with his teasing or with his eyes? but never ask for what he actually wants

but even when q (or peem, or tan) takes initiative to make their intimacy possible, toey just seems happy and content to be held as close or as far as q is willing to have him.

If q came all this way to teach toey how to shade, if q is worried about toey being in the studio alone at night, if q (maybe) wants to learn how to skateboard, if q is worried about toey getting kicked off of the bed by peem, toey interprets it as exactly that and nothing more

#my boy is so neurodivergent just like me #i am wondering if he actually doesn't want to initiate the fake dating #NOT because he's scared that q doesn't care #but because he knows that q cares (in a way that is smaller and less willing) #and is scared to hurt q even that much #toey could have his entire heart broken and wouldn't even try to ask q to help #this is a Terrible situation that requires the intervention of Mom™ Chain and Co. #this also sounds like someone who truly has been bullied and is scared of expressing their wants or needs #qtoey #we are the series #q #toey #i woke up today morning and decided that my job in this hellsite will be to write qtoey angst takes and honestly??? valid of me #gmmtv 2024 #i am quite sure a significant amount of this is pure conjecture

[candyskiez]

Okay since mp100 is on Netflix how much do you wanna bet that people are gonna go into it expecting a comedy, knowing Reigen from the memes, not aware it'll snap your spine in half and then gently piece it back together and give you instructions on the healing process. Like I watched it expecting a fun comedy show I could bond with my friend over. I feel like we've given everyone a very incorrect idea of what mp100 is about and I'm very curious as to how many people will watch it for the jokes and then accidentally get hooked on it. Which tbh I'm very excited for. And also same. Come closer this is an innocent funny action show it won't leave you reevaluating how you view your relationships to other people and how you view your relationship with yourself. It will definitely not hit every neurodivergent weird kid square in the jaw. Come closer.

#by neurodivergent i dont just mean adhd and autism. btw. #mp100 #this is just me rambling #because like. oh boy. #season three isnt out on netflix yet. hopefully its coming soon #come closer guys this wont kill you. you will be so normal after this show. trust me. take my hand.

[thelonelymuffin]

#dndads #dndaddies #dndads s2 #dndads season 2 #dungeons and daddies #taylor swift (not that one) #taylor swift dndads #taylor dndads #lincoln li wilson #lincoln dndads #scary marlowe #scary dndads #normal oak #normally oak swallows garcia #normal dndads #haha guess who my favorite is guys.w aog. (its surprisingly not taylor) #i lvoe all the kids this season theyre so.. gruhgfhjkg #i like it when kids get to be kids!!!! yay!!!! #theyre so unapologetically cringe sometimes i lvoe them #normal is my favorite btw love that little guy #normal i get your name has Ls in it but you dont need that many 😭 #love hihm honestly failboy boyflop real #doormat wet slop my boy right there #hes neurodivergent your honor #theres a lot of taylor in here specifically because hes a weeb and i lauve that abt him #like pop off little guy!!! u go little man!!!!! not to mention the fact that he?? canonically knows japanese?? #and his own little manga series ohghh im sick.. hes just like me in elementary.. #i love mainly english speaking characters that also speak japanese sometimes it lets me practice

[dollypopup]

the more I think about it and rewatch his scenes, the more I cannot help but realize that Colin is coded as a neurodivergent character. At least, I can very clearly see how Luke Newton, a neurodivergent actor, is playing Colin as a neurodivergent character

a special interest in Greek mythology? in traveling? neurodivergent

taking people's word at face value without 'reading between the lines'? neurodivergent

not being able to read Penelope's feelings regardless of how 'obvious' they are? neurodivergent

brain constantly bouncing around from one idea to the next (as in the books)? neurodivergent

not saying the 'right thing' and admitting to having to rehearse important conversations? neurodivergent

all that rejection sensitivity and regret he had well over a year after his engagement blew up? neurodivergent

masking in public? the whole 'charming facade'? neurodivergent

the man straight up STIMS, I mean how often do we see him fidgeting or playing with something? he has an oral fixation like no one's business, always eating, rubbing his mouth, licking his lips

I just can't unsee it

and, one day, i hope our fandom is going to be ready to recognize how many of the things we've unjustly called him an 'idiot' or 'stupid' for is actually just him existing with a neurodivergent brain and how hurtful that can come across to us neurodivergent peeps who identify with him

#colin bridgerton #polin #bridgerton #luke newton himself has ADHD like i'd eat my HAT if he's not playing colin as ND #sure maybe colin doesn't have the words for that in the time period he's in. . .but nd folks have always existed #even when the language for us doesn't #hell. . .even his reaction in S2 when no one is interested in hearing about his travels #TELL ME THAT'S NOT AN ND RESPONSE??? how many of us have infodumped about our special interest #and had no one listen to us? it really does hurt!!! it discourages!!! and we get upset about it just like he did!!! #we stop talking about it *just like he did* #we dismiss it- JUST! LIKE! HE DID!!!! #anyway 'colin bridgerton is an idiot' is my villain origin story #we're leaving that shit in 2023 #colin bridgerton is a chaotic little gremlin is SO much better of a trope #also also cause it's just on my (neurodivergent) brain. #a lot of the polin shippers who have been made to feel unwelcome in polin tend to be colin fans. . .and a lot of us are nd #inch resting #colin is a neurodivergent character #he is my baby boy #and i'm tired of the ableism #and even if he ISN'T explicitly ND- a lot of the behaviors we call him stupid for. . .are relatable to many ND people #and seeing the reaction be a blind 'he's so dumb' is really sad #we're not stupid- our brains just work and process differently #that's all

[sncwonthebeach]

this vid currently sits at 377,330 views and I'm convinced that half of them are just me rewatching this clip over and over again .

#in which i'm shane #shane always have to fidget with whatever's in his hand #hes just like me fr #ryan getting hit in the head with it anyway was so funny tho 🤣 #the ghoul boys are neurodivergent i just know it #they gotta be a little neurospicy #mystery files #shane madej #we are watcher #watcher network #ryan bergara #ghost files #all hail the watcher #dish granted #steven lim #puppet history #too many spirits #let it remain a mystery #mystery files season 2 #and this coming a DAY after my other post ?? #did i make the aliens start sweating? #shane saying “mommy vommy” 😭😭😩 #shane just fucking talks fr

[elmaxzz]

i think i could either be sapphic or aro but either way one thing i know for certain is that i definitely do not like boys

#juli speaks #my oldest sister kitty has had loads of boyfriends and never shuts up about what actors she thinks are hot #and my little sister lottie is always telling me about this boy at school called jacob or whatever - i don’t really know - that she likes #but honestly ive just never related to them in that way #and i often don’t relate to them as im neurodivergent and they are not but this is different #lgbtq #lgbt #sapphic #lesbian #aro #aromantic #asexual #aroace #if someone could help me out in any way that would be so appreciated!

[theghoulboysblog]

put this in my drafts because i expected spring break to be my time to lock into my shane and ryan hyperfixation, but i ended up locked into my stardew valley hyperfixation instead 😔✊

i said “i’ll just play for a few minutes!” and now i am at 98% completion in that game with apsolutely no shane and ryan compilations, edits, or fanart completed 😔✊ so upsetting.

#it’s the stardew valley update’s fault #i’m very happy about it! #don’t get me wrong #but i have a GHOUL BOYS BLOG TO MAINTAIN GODDAMMIT! 😔✊ #my hyperfixations bring me much joy #but they feel like a full time job in a way #and most ppl would just simply stop being so obsessive about their interest #BUT I LITERALLY CANNOT 😭 #i cannot engage with things in regular amounts #it is either ALL or NOTHING #idk any other people struggle with this??? #prolly the neurodivergent brain ig but idk

[tin-can-iron-man]

GOD sometimes it genuinely irks me that stories like Orpheus and Eurydice or even Adam and Eve are criticized under a purely logical and heartless eye. "Why did Orpheus turn around" because he loved her. "Why did Adam eat the fruit" because he loved her. They both chose love over God. And they were punished for it and eternally cemented as fools.

Do you really think that Adam doesn't know what the one goddamn thing he's not allowed to eat LOOKS like? Do you really think that Orpheus would feel better if he hadn't turned around only to find Eurydice's cries for him were real? These stories are about pure love. They're about being punished for the sin of a love that conquers all else. They're both about forsaking God(s) to that end.

TLDR: If a God is going to forsake you for love than they are not a loving God. And they are directly to blame.

#it's controversial thoughts like this that got me time outs in empty dark rooms in primary school! #jokes on them I'm neurodivergent I liked being left alone like that #tw: religion #just in case #not marvel related #good news for the gays tho #diversity win! God hates EVERYONE! including the straight couples! #anyway this is a wildly different genre of post than I normally make but I've literally been bugging myself to make it for *years* #I could go on to talk about the blatant disrespect these stories give Eve and Eurydice #(ahem their importance in the stories boil down to women = bad women = weak women = stupid women = evil seductress) #but there's so many posts like that already I'm sure so I just wanted to shout out my boys Adam and Orpheus #who just love their wives. so goddamn much.

[hauntedpearl]

cas doesn't just chew holes into the collars of his own shirts, he also chews holes into the collars of dean's shirts, and dean is so insanely happy about it.

#and post #listen is this a neurodivergent thing idk but I've chewed holes into all of my sleep shirts and it's a thing so cas does it too #destiel #weird boy best friends and all that #spn posts #doe is taking again #like they'll be sitting in bed together or something and he just pulls the collar of dean's shirt into his mouth and starts chewing #it's important for me that y'all know he's chewing holes into dean's shirts while dean is wearing them! and not later! #doe is talking again

[wineanddineloseyourmind]

I really wish I could stop having dreams about school :/

#i literally haven’t been in school for nearly 10 years (not counting uni) #and i still have dreams where i’m singled out in the class for not doing homework or where I get lost on the way to class #or don’t have the right textbooks or haven’t been to any classes or don’t know anything that’s on an exam #or i get yelled at and belittled by a teacher or my classmates take the piss out of me #or any other humiliating bullshit #i think im still carrying the pain of being undiagnosed neurodivergent at school with me #at uni no one cares and it’s not a big deal #but at school they will make you feel like the biggest piece of shit alive for being a little bit weird #vent #personal post #i just woke up from having another fucking school dream #ugh #i also went to an all boys school so i think that fucked me up a little bit too #thank fuck my egg didn’t crack back then. I don’t know if i would have survived.

[bravevolunteer]

1:30am. plagued by thoughts of michael and everything going on in his tiny 10-13 year old head :(

#like obviously. problems and issues then on and before SKDJFMG #but yeah while a lot of his behaviors as a young teenager are influenced by home life (ranging based on portrayals but i always make sure #it’s got similar roots and feelings) as well as social standing a LOTTTTT OF IT is very extremely tied to mental illness that did not get #acknowledgement or treatment.. that was the age his very intense depression started to come in Swinging along with increased anxiety/panic #and. neurodivergence is still a greyer area because it’s definitely there in the way i write him but how it mixes with ptsd #(plus the question of how much of that is just. Me LMAO) always has me ??? about making the call i’ve talked about this #BUT YOU GET THE POINT THERE’S A LOT!!! #he’s gutwrenchingly depressed and in pain and has been TAUGHT by observance and emotional neglect and [insert other aftonisms here] to Bury #that and is so convinced his emotions are a sign of weakness and That’s Why He’s Not Good Enough so he compensates however he can #and there’s no excuse for what it snowballs into but ohh my god JUST GET THAT BOY ON SSRIS #he didn’t even have the words for so much of it but there were so many aspects of himself that he was utterly convinced made him wrong #his actions become as drastic as they do because it’s EVERYTHING around him reinforcing the root problem #how am i supposed to sleep when im sick about him #⁂ ･ﾟ: i was looking for a job‚ and then i found a job‚ and heaven knows i’m miserable now ➛ ooc

[pantestudines]

having a "former gifted kid" type mental spiral

#i say this because the spiral is actually about how much i hate the word and the general culture around giftedness #mostly because its incredibly inconsistent between schools so people often mean different things when they say it #but also because in my specific case its certainly not a gift but like. what am i supposed to call it. #its literally a neurodivergence in my case that has had many effect postive and negative on my life. but its also a school club. #and its also nothing! before the advent of like modern standardized public education i wouldve just been a curious kid #Without modern public education im not sure i wouldve even been different from other kids. maybe a little socially awkward still but idk #and like. Am i really different from other kids? am I now as an adult different from my peers? Occasionally i will get told as such #how the fuck am i suppose to talk about how much being seperated from my peers and held to higher standards sucked #when the name of the reason why this happened might as well be 'gods specialist little boy' #none of the things that make people think im smarter are really all that useful day to day. and most non-gifted people are like. still smar #i happen to be good at memorizing the kind of facts schools test you on as children #but is that just because i was told as a kid to be good at school and so i tried hard to do that? #even if I am uniquely good at that #does that really make me more intelligent than the high school dropouts who can fix cars like its nothing? #in fact i would say they are at least wiser than me for picking something practical to be smart at #at my school being gifted usually implied you were a little neurodivergent and bad at socializing #often our gifted kids were actually failing classes because they were smart enough to realize they didnt matter #(not me but still) #but at some schools being gifted just means you were an avid reader or were pressured by your parents to maintain perfect As at all times #so if i say. wanted to talk about how being 'gifted' has often made some aspects of academia like hating emails and having time blindness #and not having a good friend network and having many unadressed issues around not really knowing how to make friends #if i wanted to talk about that. and i say 'I was gifted growing up and this sucked' #the person on the other end might hear 'oh woe is me im so smart and this makes my life so hard' #AND FURTHER STILL #on tumblr especially 'former gifted kid' has kindve become parlance for 'guy whining about nothing' #or even 'person who they were told was smart but is actually kinda dumb' #which... yeah! theres a reason many former gifted kids are like that! thats kindve my issue with the program in the first place! #it takes otherwise relatively normal if well achieving kids and tells them they are gods specialist little children. #THIS CANNOT BE HELPFUL TO ANYONE? like whatever chance the kids had at seeming normal has been stripped away #and they now also think they are the smartest person in the room in every situation

[drk-of-light]

Some dude has been stalking me and block evading me by making new accts on furaffinity for the past year and ive reported him SO MANY TIMES and nothing changes :/ always comes back within a few months. Im fucking exhausted man.

#sebby rambles #im literally so tired of this #im very close to quitting FA entirely at this point #after he was reported and blocked MANY TIMES #he still came back and tried to pretend to be a new person asking to color my art #first interaction this dude gave to me was him commenting that my art Could Be Better but was good for an amateur #so i just blocked him duh what an asshole thing to say #and now hes become obsessed with trying to apologise to me and shit #last time he tried to msg me he was blaming his behavior on... his physical disability and autism ??? #boy im neurodivergent and have tons of ND friends and it doesnt make them act like this #like at this point idc if he sees my art cause FA blocking doesnt hide ur profile from anyone #but i dont want to be aware hes there! dont comment or like my shit.

[grison-in-space]

I've also been listening to the Behind the Bastards series on the Illuminati and Discordians, with bonus digression into the kind of anarchist that thinks that creating confusion and breaking down people's notions of consensus reality leads to something something praxis.

I say this as an academic who literally gets paid to produce ideas, usually at strange hours of the day, for money: some of us have to work in the morning, my dudes! If you confuse people long enough about things they are forced to care about (as opposed to choosing to chase you down trails for), they get impatient and frustrated and then they take your funding away! There's a frustration threshold there and you gotta provide people with opportunities to opt out of it.

#unformed thoughts #my brain is tired and sleep deprived from nightmares so like #be nice to me and my ability to appropriately word here #and hoo boy yes i am WELL AWARE of the hypocrisy of being cranky because someone else is pushing ontological boundaries #but I'm OPT IN dammit #I'm never going to be offended if you block me or express distress and ask me to yammer somewhere else because your head hurts today #idk I'm fully aware of being overwhelmed for other reasons but i listen and I'm just Tired #something something ableism of requiring that much energetic and cognitive investment in theory #something something neurodivergents wind up on both ends

[shoechoe]

i don't really care much about all the character polls going on but it is very funny that DIO is losing on round 1* to Marceline on the bi/pan monarch tournament. he deserves it make him lose

EDIT: i checked again it is actually round 2. i can't read apparently. still though he should lose

#rambles #short posts #on the other hand how the hell is jotaro losing to peridot from steven universe on the autism swag poll... #ive seen you guys talk about jotaro he's like an autism icon on here #have to admit i kinda hope twilight sparkle wins in the end though #i remember when i was a little kid and watched mlp (yes i know. i watched mlp as a 7-year-old boy) and kinned twilight sparkle so hard #well. i am not completely sure if i'm autistic or not but i relate to a lot of the symptoms #i kinda have a peer-reviewed neurodivergence thing going on. my ADHD/autistic friends have gone like ''yeah you have something''. lol #i've also talked to a lot of counselors and therapists who've told me they've just gone ahead and assumed i'm neurodivergent... so #i'm kind of in a state where i think it's ok to just assume i have autism/ADHD but #i feel like i have to put up a disclaimer that i'm not diagnosed every time #that went mega off topic so ANYWAYS jotaro win autism swag poll please

[sage-nebula]

I've had people accuse me of being aggressive during what is, to me, a fun fandom discussion so many times that tbh it stresses me out to reply to others and join in on discussions nowadays. Like I know tone is hard to read over text but honestly one time I was accused of being passive-aggressive just because I used punctuation. I'm so wary of being taken in bad faith that while sometimes I'm just like "fuck it, that's on them not me" (esp if it's MY POST, like don't comment on my post if you don't want a reply?), other times I feel like I have to preemptively apologize just for adding onto a conversation. It's so exhausting.

#tbh this has happened irl too . . . esp when i was younger #i'd say things that i didn't mean in a bad way #like when i commented on how a classmate in 7th grade spoke in 3rd person #but what I said (that he really liked himself) was perceived as antagonistic instead of #unintentionally rude #and so I was bullied for the whole year 🙃 #that's just one example. honestly things like this have made me wonder #if i'm perhaps somewhere on the autism spectrum #but i've never been tested & at this point there's no point in being tested #so I just take my ADHD and CPTSD diagnoses and know I'm neurodivergent at least #(and yes i did apologize immediately to that boy after he got upset) #(but it didn't matter. he & his friends bullied me mercilessly anyway 😔)