Hii, this is the long post anon, thanks for replying when you could ☺️ im not ready to dedicate much of time to the fandom again, i used to actively blog before 2016 but i then was having hard time wrapping my head around much of what was happening at the time, especially after the yacht gate from hell happened, that should have tipped me off as to how his solo career would be shaping but instead of trusting my gut i trusted a white man (jk 😂) I kind of fell out of touch with most of my fandom friends bc we all distanced ourselves a bit from the fandom, so it was kinda hard for me to go through ho and revival of babygate alone, this is quickly turning into me-story but i felt like i found a safe place again in the fandom with your blog and some other blogs here so first thanks for that, second if i ever find a time to be here more actively i would definitely like to talk with you in private, much appreciated your opinions, thanks for being brave enough to share them on your space as well. hope to talk again. -C
I teared up reading this because you know… looking back, you feel like a fool and think “my god, the signs of where things were going were literally there and I just ignored them because of ✨hope✨”.
And also, I don’t feel brave but I feel very humbled to know there are some people that find comfort in reading thoughts that don’t really align with the general overview. It makes me feel less lonely, less of a black sheep and even less of a bad person, because I know sometimes i come across intimidating and aggressive when my opinions were very intransigent.
I hope life treats you well, C! It is hard sometimes, but there are so many little beautiful things everyday that deserve to be appreciated by people with delicate hearts <3
I’ll be waiting to hear from you!
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NPMD Tarot - The Lovers
Others from the project: The Devil, The Hierophant , The Star, Strength, The World
A bit of symbolism under the cut, but I'm curious of other interpretations!!
Card that's all about forming own opinions and being authentic to self? Where the Reversed meaning is about hard choices and dealing with consequences? Even if they weren't the main couple of the musical it would've fitted them well!
There are twists in this one - major one is replacing the angel that blesses the couple with Max - still alive, threatening in all of his bully glory.
I kept the "everyone looks at someone who's looking at someone else" circle - Max is threatening Peter, Peter is in love with Steph and Steph is prepared to go after Max for what he did to Peter.
They have more nervous/covered up body language than the original card, since they aren't communicating that clearly. Steph is more open, even if nervous, Peter is on the fence, but willing.
Gun between them, pointing at Peter? You'll never guess what's that referencing :P
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Chuuya who doesn’t let himself want things because he has to put everyone and everything else first, who feels like his own wants shouldn’t matter because he has power so he needs to be responsible and prioritize those weaker than him.
Dazai who doesn’t let himself want anything because the moment he gains it he will lose it, who can’t handle opening himself up to that kind of pain and vulnerability because he’s been taught that that is a weakness.
Both Dazai and Chuuya whose experiences tell them that the moment they want, everything begins to go wrong and they’ll lose the things they care about.
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Yellow
@steddiemicrofic December prompt: pine | wc: 508 | G | cw: none | tags: misunderstandings, pre-Steddie
“Looking good, Nance. Did you do something with your hair?”
Nancy did not.
She knew for a fact her curls looked worse for wear thanks to the raging wind outside. Steve knew that, too – had to, with his in-depth knowledge of maintaining hair, curls or not. Eddie stiffens next to her.
“I’m here to return this,” Nancy pulls out a Breakfast Club tape from her bag with a forced smile.
“Great movie choice,” Steve trudges on with otherwise admirable perseverance. The ugly green Family Video creases inelegantly as he leans forward.
“I think it sucks,” Eddie jumps in. He grins but Nancy knows him well enough to tell how tense he really is.
And isn’t that a wild thought in itself? Nancy would never expect to get along so well with Eddie Munson and yet here he was, dare she say it - her best friend at the moment.
Steve lets out a nervous laugh, red dotting his cheeks as his hand ventures out to rub his neck. Robin’s bright eyes keep darting back and forth between two boys, an unreadable look on her face.
“This is getting ridiculous,” Nancy says once she slips into the driver seat of her car. Eddie joins her on the other side, uncharacteristically quiet. Her eyebrows drop lower. “He’ll get over it soon. You’ll see.”
“I don’t know, Wheeler. He seems pretty dedicated.”
The thing is, Nancy’s observant. She pays attention to her close circle of friends, and that includes Steve. Something about this isn’t adding up – the compliments, the showering with attention. And it’s not only because she’s usually left with a morose Eddie, unfairly pining away, in the aftermath.
It’s been going on for weeks now. Something’s got to give, eventually, she’s sure.
It does, a week later, when Steve Harrington knocks on the Wheelers’ front door in the middle of the day, clad in an ironed shirt and beige khakis.
“Here,” he hands her a bouquet of yellow roses. “They’re for you.”
She makes a point of not taking them. They hang awkwardly between them until Steve drops his hand with a grimace.
“We’re not getting back together,” Nancy tells him bluntly. Steve’s a good guy, he is, but he can be a bit obtuse sometimes.
To her surprise, Steve doesn’t deter her. Instead, he blinks. “What?”
“It’s sweet that you’re trying,” she tries. “But we wouldn’t work out. We just wouldn’t.”
He blinks again. “I don’t-uh. This is awkward.”
Understatement if she’s ever seen one.
“I don’t want to date you, Nancy,” Steve finally says. He winces before adding. “No offense.”
“Then what’s with this?” she points to the flowers. “The compliments? All of it?”
He sighs. “I know we didn’t really end on good terms. And your opinion matters to him- I mean, he's just so-”
“Him?” Nancy questions before realization dawns on her. “Eddie?”
“Wait, does he think I – shit!” Steve’s eyes grow wide as he shoves the flowers into Nancy’s chest and backs out towards the car. “Shit! Sorry, Nance. Gotta go!”
Yellow Roses are the symbol of friendship <3
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