#medium if I really wanna scale back

[raccoon-eyed-rebel]

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A reverse harem vampire AU ft. Mikey, Marshall, August and Sherlock

Series summary: Somehow, you've managed to live with your boyfriend and his roommates for months before finding out they're vampires, but the real shock first comes when they find out you have a special quality. A quality the guys would love to make use of...

Warnings: Mentions of blood, biting, feeding, sex, some kinky shit, angst. Think that's it. It's pretty fluffy. It's Mikey, so there's boobs involved.

Word count: 1.4k

A/N: We're moving into kinky stuff territory. Still medium scared to post this.

@geralts-yenn I couldn't resist...

@deandoesthingstome @summersong69

“Are you still mad at me, Sweetcheeks?” You felt the mattress dip in the place where Mike sat down next to you. You wondered how you were supposed to answer that question. Were you mad? A little. At him? Not really. It was mostly at yourself, at this point. Of course you could blame your parents for this, but you always felt that their information was off… Why did you never look into it yourself? “No, just a little overwhelmed.” Overwhelmed and tired. And not completely comfortable with how this afternoon had gone down, if you were perfectly honest about it. You’d learned a lot, that’s for sure, but it wasn’t as if all your questions had been answered. Maybe some cuddles from Mike were exactly what you needed right now…

“Can I join you? I missed your arms around me today.” Instead of answering him, you lifted the blanket by means of an invitation. Mikey immediately crawled in beside you, sighing deeply as he laid his head against you and pulled you against his chest. “Hmm, my baby.” He nestled his face into the back of your head. “I love this.”

You decided then and there that he hadn't changed. The fact that you knew what he was made absolutely no difference: He was still the sweet, loveable idiot... who was absolutely inappropriately obsessed with your boobs.

“Mikey!” You squealed when both of his arms slipped around you and immediately grabbed your chest in a way that told you he wasn’t about to let go of you.

“Mine! My boobies.” There was no escaping the iron grip he had on them, and you could only pretend to hate what he was doing for so long before giving in to his touch. When his lips brushed past your neck, you shivered. You felt utterly humiliated when you realized there was a substantial part of you that wanted him to bite you, just to find out…

“You wanna know what it feels like, don't you?” How did he always know? You didn’t let the thought occupy you and turned your attention to denying his claim. Of course he didn’t buy it; you were a terrible liar and generally curious by nature.

“Baby, it's super normal to be curious about it,” Mike said softly. It sounded like he meant it, but you didn’t trust him to be sincere. For all you knew, he was just trying to get a bite out of you… Still, your curiosity won out once again.

“Does it hurt?” Let’s see, does it hurt when someone sinks their teeth into you hard enough to draw blood? What could the answer to that question possibly be?

“The general consensus is 'yes, it does',” Mike said – and you weren’t surprised, “but I wouldn't be me if I didn't know some kinky fuckers.” He laughed. In fact, you both did. You already knew that he did: Mikey was one of those kinky fuckers, and he'd been doing a really good job at having you join that club, too. “And they say it's no worse than a good spanking. God knows you enjoy those...” You felt your cheeks heat up. He wasn’t lying; you’d tried it out a few times and you definitely liked them, even though you doubted that what you’d been doing qualified as a ‘good spanking’ on the seriousness scale.

“Are you trying to convince me to try it out?”

“I'm telling you to allow yourself to be curious.” That was Mike for you, always down for trying new things, always telling you to push any feelings of shame you had aside and just go with it, enjoy things…

“And you're up for it?” The question was redundant; his eyes told you more than enough, but you still felt like asking. Mike was a ‘try most things once’ kind of guy, and he’d definitely agree to something he wasn’t one hundred percent up for, just to try it out. You’d mentioned before that that made you insanely uncomfortable, and that you were only willing to try new things if he was entirely on board with it.

“Oof, hell yeah!” His eagerness made you whip your head around to look at him. It was a rather uncomfortable position to be in, so you just decided to turn around in his arms. That was a fight he didn’t let you win, and you ended up on your back with Mike’s cheek on your chest.

“That was some unprecedented enthusiasm, Mike, explain.” You couldn’t help but laugh when he snuggled tightly against you. All your life, your parents had been telling you vampires were vicious monsters, but Mikey was just about the most adorable thing you had ever run into.

“Oh, oops. Sorry!” Mike laughed, too. “It can be really... eh… hot.” Now that didn’t sound like the word you’d use to describe biting someone, but you obviously weren’t the expert here. Then again, the conversation with the boys hadn’t exactly made it sound like it was a fantastic experience, either.

“Yeah, so…” Mike sounded uneasy. You weren't used to that; he was usually very sure of his idiot self. He hummed softly as you gently pulled your fingers through his dark curls, your touch seemingly putting him at ease. When he spoke again, you had to put in some serious effort to catch some of what he was saying, as part of it almost got lost in your cleavage. “Alright, cards on the table, I guess. It’s a thing, in like… a sexual way… and it happens to be something I'm into. It's intimate and it can feel pretty awesome.”

“Awesome for you or awesome for me?” It was a good thing you blurted that question out before thinking it through, because otherwise you probably wouldn’t have dared to ask him. Mike thought about his answer for a minute.

“Well, it’s obviously awesome for me, I mean… God, how do I explain this?” He returned to his pondering, taking a little longer this time before he continued: “I wouldn’t suggest that to, like, a one-night stand. But with someone I trust… It’s just awesome. There’s lots of closeness involved, lots of care. The pain aspect makes it kinda kinky, and you know me… Let’s bring back the comparison with spanking, okay? You like that, even though it kinda hurts, and I like that you like it… But like I said, it’s a really intimate thing, and just generally another sensation to add to everything else. This isn’t a very coherent story, I’m sorry.”

“That’s okay,” you said before kissing him on the top of his head.

“Oh, and there’s the fact that every time I bite you in like a playful, sexy kinda way, I’m holding back, and sometimes it can be really nice to not have to,” he added. “There are a few risks to it though.” You shot him a quizzical look, and it wasn’t long before he continued.

“Alright, first one would be the pain. And you not liking it. Which means – hypothetically, if we were to ever… y’know – you would just tell me to knock it off, I would, and you would obviously never have to try again. I mean... If you don't want to. And the second one would be that technically you could die.”

“Mike! That sounds like the one you start with, you moron!” You laughed, because – again – this was so incredibly typical for him.

“Well, no. I said: technically.” You secretly hated how entirely à la Mike it was to really dispute the seriousness of a possibly deadly situation on the basis of technicalities. That being said; you were fairly – but only fairly – sure he wouldn’t have so much as suggested it if the risk of dying was significant. Or genuinely present, even.

“I'm sorry, could you stop discussing technicalities when talking about a situation that might kill me?” Maybe by now you were just playing with him a little…

“Sweetcheeks, ease up, would you? And let me finish,” Mike said. “Alright. Yes, technically you could die. If I decide to drain you.”

“Wait, couldn't you technically decide to do that any time?”

“There we go: technically.”

#mike hellraiser fic #mike x ofc #mike hellraiser #mike (hellraiser) #hellraiser mike #mike hellraiser fanfiction #henrycavill fanfic #henry cavill characters #henry cavill fanfiction #henry cavill

[phantomram-b00]

So I know I’ve dip my toast or made some post about this theory, I know most have talk about it. But since I’m back, I do want to finally out in more of a cohesive thought surrounding the theory, that you may love, you may hate, it might spook you maybe, let talk about The Coffee Theory.

Look I’m pretty sure we’ve all heard about this theory more so than the kiss itself. But just incase if newer fans of this show stumble about this. Look no forwards as I’ll explain it, basically the Coffee Theory is the theory that surprisingly MatPat haven’t got his hands on where it theorized that Metatron miracle-d/spiked/drugged Aziraphale’s coffee to make the process of taking him to heaven a lot smoother as well as manipulate him further more. Evidence about this theory goes between the almond syrup being small to then metatron saying “hefty amount” as he give it to aziraphale, aziraphale mannerism during that scene to metatron’s shift to being a war hungry voice of god to a simply “innocent” voice of god. I’ll go more in depth with this but this is basically what it is.

Now before if you scroll down to my haunted page, I’ve always stated that I was bipartisan or neutral about this topic. Most because I wanted time to consumed my overall thoughts but also was a bit afraid I might be alone for not liking it. But then seeing most sides and as well as seeing I wasn’t alone at all. But before anything let me make one thing transparent, if you believe in this theory, that’s okay, more power to you and you’re valid. If you don’t like it, you’re also valid. Regardless of what I’ve said, you still valid, that the beauty about discussion everyone have different opinions or theory. so without further or do, let get into this.

Does the coffee theory work?

Let me go in depth of the evidence before I give my overall thought in this question. So let break it down as I do realize just having a paragraph block after block probably doesn’t work so let me just go by number after number.

1. The Almond Syrup

So, this is the defining characteristic when talking about the theory; it was also emphasized within the show about the almond syrup in the last episode. As when Metatron is ordering the coffee, he asked for a small amount of almond syrup. What does raise eyebrows is when metatron then give him the coffee and said “hefty” amount vs the small amount he asked. Which okay to give it the benefit of the doubt, that does raise Red Flags. As in why would Metatron ask for small and then lie to Aziraphale about the amount of better yet, why give him a specific amount of the syrup at all? Because he could’ve just told him that the coffee just had Almond syrup rather than saying the specific amount. And given that he is the voice of God, I don’t think he would ever forget something as simple as that.

Now granted, it could be that the UK does have a different measurement scale than the US/other places. And look, I’m not British nor European. Plus they weren’t specific on how much pump was specifically used. I can say as from my experience from working at a coffee-fast food place, seeing how it seemingly a medium cup, the average would be three pumps with the small being two and the large being four pumps. I’m not sure if UK has the same or different syrup pumps, I’m not going to pretend like I know, so maybe it could very well be hefty for them or small for them. I mean if to give a more leeway, metatron could’ve very well have put more inside the coffee than how it was originally intended. But why? Especially since it seem weird that he never asked Aziraphale what he wanted in his coffee to begin with (remember this. This will be important). Especially since for three pumps, you can very well taste it unless you REALLY wanna get the full taste of it than taste the coffee. (Now look. I fucking hate Coffee, I’m more of a Hot Chocolate person than anything so I could be very wrong but I have tasted it tho). So this is where people think he most likely miracle or put something more in the coffee, spiking it if you will, and now Aziraphale may be naive but he’s not stupid he would most likely notice the coffee isn’t right, he’s an angel after all, he would most likely sense it. So that could make sense for the syrup to mask the taste of it, sound like it could very well be a good cover.

Now another key point as well is that Almond have a religious implication in it. which does hold more weight. Now from what I’ve look, it symbolism is “watchfulness”. In Jeremiah 1:11-12, God/Metatron (either or) asked Jeramiah what he see? He responded with, “Branch of an Almond tree” to which God/Metatron replied with “You have seen correctly, for I am watching to see that my word is fulfilled”. Yeah look biblical symbolism does not make a lick of sense, and I went to two religious school.

“Phantom why bring this up?”

Well, because it might give the syrup a more symbolic effect of the coffee. I mean, if we’re talking about angel and demon, so Gaiman could’ve very well had a symbolic reasoning let alone a religious symbolism. Especially since, with this context, metatron could be using almond as a tactic to remind Aziraphale He’s an Angel and Must fall back in line in an indirect way. Or even to remind Aziraphale, “God is always watchful, so you must come back “home” now as we must do the ineffable plan”. Now this might not be spiking it as it more or less is a threat tactic. Which is true, so the symbolism can be used as a threat against Aziraphale. I mean why else would he make a point to mention Aziraphale and Crowley’s relationship, maybe to say “whatever you have must come to the end, she is watching you.” Or more dangerously “I am watching you”. Granted if this does seem going too deep, I don’t blame you, I mean religion let alone the Bible does wild, I mean we’ve seen the Job episode which I swear if that not how all Bible story sound like in the nutshell I don’t know what is because even Job, his wife and his kids was confused af. But I do think this doesn’t seem far off, especially with how this show does have many symbolism. Not all religious based but if this does have symbolic significance, it not so far off.

But at the same time, what make this fall flat is that, even if he covered it, Aziraphale would’ve still sensed that Metatron put a miracle inside the coffee. Especially as he drinks it. And also he doesn’t seem to drink it a lot at least from what we’ve saw, so the miracle wouldn’t have fall through and he would’ve notice it. Like especially since it is implied that Aziraphale does go to the shop way back in episode one of season 2, hence why he know his name “Mr. Fell” so, I think he’d immediately got suspicious seeing that it wasn’t like how Nina normally make her coffee. But also, I feel Nina was already suspicious with Metatron so i think Metatron would’ve played more smarter if trying to not be a walking red flag than he already is. So I think the almond syrup is just convenient and is to make the coffee sweater for Aziraphale especially since he doesn’t even know what he drinks. Is this a stronger point for the theory, I’ll admit it, yes it does, however this point does have gaping holes. Especially since Aziraphale while he does have his moment where he made poor choices (cough cough Season 1 before the fire). But Aziraphale is more clever: he figured out the location of the Antichrist, figure out what "chose your face wisely" was indicating, find clues about Gabriel being in Edinburgh, and so much more. he not one to be fool THAT easily regardless of his final decision at the end of season 2.

2. Aziraphale’s mannerism after the coffee

So, many people pick up on his mannerism after said coffee. Some saying when he’s talking to Crowley during that scene he sounds not like himself. Giddy even about going back to the one place that not only tried to kill him but what negatively impacted him both emotionally and possibly mentally. Most mention the smile Aziraphale gives during the end credits scene. This does link up to the potential of Metatron spiking the coffee to mind control him either temporarily or even permanently as he going to be working as an Supreme Archangel after Gabriel got his happily ever after with Beelzebub. Which might’ve explain why he emphasis how Heaven is the good guys and say how Hell (while unintentionally calling Crowley) the bad guys despite that in 1941 episode they established they both the shades of grey as well as they stop armageddon. Why would Aziraphale still uphold this belief even after saving the world with Crowley? It seemingly does imply that this is out of character for him after all that have happen. So I’ll give it this credit.

However, I’m going to say this, this also fall flat. Why? Because Aziraphale main reason of being giddy, was because he is granted something that he see might fixed heaven’s broke system. While yes, in the beginning he was derailing the conversation by saying “well what about everything here?”, but at the same token, Aziraphale still look at the positive, because one thing about him is that he is an optimistic person to a fault. He can be skeptical or have doubts but he still will focus on the good vs everything that is negative. Not only this, but got the green lit that he can appoint Crowley there. So that both of them combine will fix Heaven from the broken system that was built since The Beginning Of Time.

But like Crowley said “it would be just as dead as if hell ended things on earth”, aziraphale in this situation is not looking at things in an overall bigger picture. He not understanding that Heaven is just as toxic as Hell is. I mean minus the fact they almost died execution style because they wanted the save earth, they fear mongers a lot with Aziraphale. I mean not to bring up Job episode as I felt we’ve all talk about everything in great details, but he did have a breakdown where he let a part of his mask fall as he was scared he will fall just for not “letting Crowley kill the kids”. Also who know if they always mention the book of life. So I don’t doubt Aziraphale saw this one positive opportunity and take it and not understanding fully what is happening. That’s why during that very scene his mask is slipping and even more so after the kiss. He barely had time to even process what is happening (hence why Rob Wilkin describe Aziraphale’s face express as “do it again” and “I am trying to understand what is happening”) because even when metatron goes to collect him; he still is trying to detail by asking about the bookshop and everything. Metatron already have everything figured out, he appointed Muriel, he already place his chess piece and won. Aziraphale realize he made a mistake as he look out at the window he even tries to say so, but can’t.

And then when the second coming is revealed, he takes a look back at Crowley. Mostly to get one last look as Aziraphale knows he won’t come back. Now he has to figure out how to stop this back in Heaven. See, the thing about this is, i do see how people can see the shift; but i see this as a sense that while this is a trap and a threat simultaneously; this was still Aziraphale’s choice to go back to heaven as he want to fix things vs trying to run away with Crowley. (Which I know I said I am proud of Crowley for sticking his ground. I still am. Go speeding demon! However I can’t say Aziraphale’s an asshole for wanting to fix things vs running away. I might go in depth with this). So in a sense, he’s not choosing heaven over Crowley but rather choosing to protect the thing he love and Crowley over his own heart, and especially now he know about this, he now has to figure out how to stop everything from ending on earth. Just on his own.

3. Metatron’s shift from season 1 to 2

Last time we’ve seen Metatron was in episode 4 of season 1. Funny how both metatron only appear once in both seasons. So, I’m not sure if people talked about this; maybe they did, but imma talk about this as this does contribute to both of the evidence. So when we first met him, Aziraphale want to talk things out and see if he can stop it by talking to God, however, Metatron is on board with this project. He want things to end just as much as the other archangel; and want Aziraphale to come back immediately. Here, while he not overtly crass of aggressive, he is very different to his delivery and want him back. And Aziraphale was able to detail him and try to set thing with with Crowley to avoid going back. Sure Azirpahale did accidentally discorporate himself in the process however; he still would rather go back then be apart of the war. Even going as far as possess something, which I’m sorry, that still get me to this day.

And now, Season two, we see Metatron again. And this time, he came baring gifts, aka coffee. Not only that, this time, he have a more gentler approach to Aziraphale. To which Aziraphale saw no qualm. And you know this is relatable as I can be just as naive; not to mention he almost died in 1941 by his nativity. So you know it tracks. But here, we see he not asking to come back into war but to be promoted to Supreme Archangel as a direct parallel to when Beelzebub want to promote Crowley to Duke of Hell. Sure Aziraphale like mention before had qualms with this but Metatron was able to pull some strings. Even going as far as telling Aziraphale he can bring Crowley. And even after everything, he was still while in a hurry was patient with him. Metatron’s display of gentle kindness was what made Aziraphale more likely to accept vs how his tone was back in season 1. I mean he still have it as he gave Crowley the dirtiest look with Crowley’s honestly don’t care after everything and just want to have a nice restaurant date with his partner and finally be able to love each other.

Now, I can say, this one does make sense along with the Almond Syrup as it is interesting with his shift. But but but but but, it fall flat on the technicality that, he still won. He was able to get Aziraphale because Aziraphale himself can’t get out of this even if he tries; sure it was his own choice but he can’t take it back. As mention in the syrup segment, he mention his and Crowley’s relationship, even with his gentle demeanor he was still threatening him to come back. And again, he look at Crowley with the dirtiest look possible, he knew what he was doing when giving him that look. And he was able to get him to the elevator, because he know Aziraphale wouldn’t go by himself especially after the kiss. He was there by his side, for a reason, to make sure he doesn’t run away again. Checkmate if you will for now.

But can it still work?

Okay so even though I gave this the benefit of the doubt and their credit because I do see where people are coming from. No. I don’t think it can still work.

Because as stated, some of the evidence fall flat and have holes. Also, it doesn’t fit Gaiman (and Terry Prackett)’s vision of Good Omens. Sure even though there’s Religious Symbolism with Almonds so that might’ve given the theory more justification and support; however, in terms of writing, this doesn’t nothing. If anything it damage character growth of Aziraphale; now I’ll admit I did give it some hope since I wanted to believe that Aziraphale wasn’t leaving Crowley on his own terms, but after some time and retrospect and during the break; I’m realizing, it truly wouldn’t matter if the coffee was tampered with. Because he still choice this path. He still made that executive decision to leave everything to protect everything he love; even if it mean he won’t be able to see the things he love again. Or in a funny case will have to see Sound of Music-

But also, I feel there a more nuance in depth reason as to why He wanted Aziraphale specifically. Because for all we know, he could’ve very well appointed Michael, Uriel, or any of the other Archangel we’ve seen. So I don’t think he would try to tamper with the coffee to get Aziraphale, there have to be a specific reason why him. I mean why appoint someone that love earth and would most likely refused for the end of the world to happen again. It make no sense at all.

Another thing, the coffee could’ve just been a gift to break down Aziraphale’s guard, I mean most people like gifts and it bring them happiness so him getting Aziraphale’s coffee could be a tactic to show no animosity between them. Even though again, he hesitantly toke the coffee and honestly, I headcanon that he doesn’t like coffee at all. He still toke it and was able to have a peaceful-ish conversation regarding the promotion. Before we jump to one of the most devastating conversation of all time.

So personally, now. I’m no longer neutral, I really don’t like the coffee theory as a whole. I can see the evidence, but that doesn’t matter. But, if you do believe in the theory, tell me all about it, if you agree or disagree with me also tell me about it. Hope you guys like my insane ramble la of this show. Because my gosh, this hyperfixation will be the death of me. But tell me what you guys thing and sure, tell me what other theories you dislike. Now, imma go haunt somewhere else. Have a boo-tastic day.

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[askthemysterkids]

What kind of HTTYD dragons would they train?

Okay so! I had to get help from the wonderful Misty for this one! (Thank you so much!) All of the thoughts on this one is from her. She put a lot of thought behind this and it's quite impressive.

Lili: The Snaptrapper is a mystery class four headed Venus flytrap like dragon that has green scales and is one of the most plantlike dragons. It's kind of pretty but also one of the more deadly ones, seeing how it lures it's prey in with a very sweet scent. It's three-way unhinging jaws are also pretty badass. All in all, something Lili would enjoy and would take the time trying to train. Though it wouldn't be easy.

Raz: Get that guy a typhoomerang. It's large, powerful, overdramatic, fast, and breathes a cyclone of fire. Not as agile as some dragons, but it is one of the strongest, and it just fits him so much better both in style and vibes.

Wybie: Wybie would have a hotburple. It's a medium sized boulder class dragon that's similar to a gronkle in many ways, except it's larger, more bulky, and considerably lazier. It likes eating iron ore, and according to an expert dragon hunter, it's the only dragon capable of eating through dragon proof cages. It's a pretty easy going flyer and isn't good at making sharp turns or smooth landings, but that's okay since Wybie doesn't seem the type to do trick riding. It's surprisingly great in battle because it goes into some kind of frenzy mode when threatened. It's also a great partner for a blacksmith, which he would be assuming this is a question for a HTTYD au.

Coraline: Coraline gets an armorwing. They are dragons that are naturally very vulnerable, so they build an armor coating out of spare scraps of metal. I can see her adopting it when it tried to raid an armory and gave it a metallic gift to lure it out. It has a highly magnetic body, and is surprisingly agile. I just wanna give Coraline an armored dragon and it sounds really neat.

Norman: Ah, the Skrill. Or, as I like to call it, the dragon that ACTUALLY should have had the title of "the unholy offspring of lighting and death itself". It usually only comes out in lighting storms and is so epic looking, especially the lighting patterns on it's wings Very aggressive, very solitary, and very good at holding grudges Give one to Norman. Other than the lighting connecting it to Aggie, it is a very isolated dragon that is feared and lonely. He could relate to it. If he saved one and bonded with it, I can see him being the only one understanding and patient enough to earn that dragons trust.

Neil: Neil with a snafflefang. Like rain cutters they are very friendly. It's an energetic bolder class dragon that loves geodes. Very sweet dragon for a sweet guy.

Greg: Greg with a Raincutter sounds cute. They are pretty easy to train and are happy and playful dragons that love rainy cool days and eat worms. They tend to be very trusting dragons, sometimes to a fault as one of note was known to leave her eggs with any human, even dragon trappers. They aren't huge but bigger than some. They are also stated to be intelligent.

Wirt: I am so, SO tempted to give him a Hobgobbler. It's a little, very cute dragon that is known for it's big appetite and strong jaws. It can eat just about anything. He wouldn't have a whole pack of them, but I can see him having one. It's known to be mischievous and lazy, but are very strong and ferocious. A very adorable, laid back protector that causes messes from time to time. It's also known to cover itself in it's own slobber to slip through tight spots

Mabel: Mabel deserves a Hobblegrunt. It's a chameleon like dragon who's color changes based on their mood. They're considered lucky dragons because they seem to have an ability to predict things good and bad a split second before they happen. They're calm, sensitive, and quiet that love good belly rubs.

Dipper: Dipper's the one with the Stormcutter. Imagining him with a large, intelligent, curious, owl headed dragon is fun. Plus he deserves an epic dragon.

#ask the mystery kids #mystery kids #mk #ask the mk #coraline #ask #gravity falls #psychonauts 2 #psychonauts #coraline jones #Coraline Jones #Dipper Pines #Mabel Pines #Razputin Aquato #Lili Aquato #Raz Aquato #Wybie Lovat #Paranorman #Norman Babcock #Neil Downe #Over the Garden Wall #Wirt #Greg #How to Train Your Dragon #HtTYD

[d1et-cok3]

Hey so i know i haven't posted in a month or two and im sorry about that but for like all of November Ive been in a binge cycle and i cant stop its genuinely scares me how much i eat and im constantly hungry i an feel my body begging for food and Ive recently started looking forward to meals which is terrifying i can see myself getting fatter instead of skinnier and it makes me wanna die i just want to stop eating but its getting so fucking hard to even skip one meal then i get home i eat more its like all my self control is gone and all my progress is going down the drain im horrified of getting back into the 170s i was so huge and at least right now im not as big as before but Ive been smaller even though i never really been small in the first place Ive been fat all my life and i need to break the cycle and be the skinniest one in my family and friend group i want to look pretty in clothes and be able to shower without wanting to drown myself right then and there and i cant help but notice how many times Ive said im getting back on track but it never works i miss my honeymoon phase when i dropped like 15 pounds in a month then it all just kid of froze and i gained and dropped the same weight for like 3 months and now im gaining even more and it feels like im suffocating in it in all of the food i eat and my fat i miss almost passing out when i stood up and always being dizzy i miss the dread when it came to eating not me squealing like a pig in excitement i can tell its bad when i finish my food or get seconds or eat faster or let myself get dirty plus i broke my phone so i cant track everything as efficiently especially because of school and its been really hard and i don't have a scale and i can feel clothes that were getting looser getting tight again and its mortifying i want to die or just bleed out i want to cut all the fat out of my body and just be skinny i know i need to love the process but its hurts and this cycle has hurt me worse physically and mentally then starving ever did i miss bruising easily being pale and looking like i hadn't slept or ate in days i wish that i didn't give in so easily its embarrassing how sometimes i ask if someones hungry and they say no but i eat anyway my brain still judges people for being fat when there skinnier than me and it hurts because i wish that i could be that skinny and eat food without gaining its not fair people in my school say that they wanna be fat or gain lots of weight and i tell them why they don't but they don't understand how much worse literally my whole life is because of it sorry about my ramble i just am struggling to cope with his and a lot of shit is happening in my life and me losing control is not helping i hope this is the last time i have to say this but i am going to be getting my life together and i will be skinny my goal was to be skinny by Christmas while i know that cant happen now kms but i can be skinnier and i can be better then now i hope to weigh less than my sister for once and get the smaller size unlike now when i bet a size bigger every time people will buy us stuff and she gets a small and i get a medium and there like i hope it fits like im not that fat damn but there right Jesus that was a lot to type anyways wish me luck and i really hope this works ill try and update you on my progress but i might forget lol. bye thank you.

November 29th 2023

#tw ed diet #tw ana trigger #tw disordered eating #tw ana diary #an0r3c1a #thinspø #pro a4a #ed not sheeren #ed no sheeran #st4rv1ng #rant #im not okay #sk1nn1

[kwangyadetective]

🗄️ Mystery in Seoul Teaser Thoughts Part 1

Part 1 of my initial thoughts of what happened in NCT 127's Mystery in Seoul teaser series before the MV release. I divided this into two parts and two member units,

Reality (Nighttime)

Taeyong, Doyoung, and Haechan

In Between

Taeil

Dream (Daytime)

Johnny, Yuta, Mark, Jungwoo, and Jaehyun

Read the Dream (Daytime) unit here.

Explanation on why Dream is daytime and Reality is Nighttime etc.

Also!! Note that I will focus on some members more than the others because of their character significance and mostly on whom I have more ideas on. Hence, some would only have brief overviews or combined in one paragraph so that this note won’t be too long to read too.

Taeil

I wanna start off with Taeil, which I found the most interesting.

Initially I thought Taeil was in the Reality (as shown to be in the night in the very beginning). But then I realized that to indicate where he really is is by looking at the lighting color, which is actually the Reality to Dream Transformation Color Scale.

He was in a nightclub but in his own world. Contrasting to the club music, he appears to be surrounded by classical music. Plus he is on his own, sitting down with tea, as if no one notices him. Whenever he is shown in individual shots, the lighting is Green, hence he is in between Dream and Reality. Then he moves on to the Dream stage by entering another room (Red lighting). There, he was greeted by a bald man who then offered him a cup of tea. The bald man seemed to be expecting him already and offered him a handful of sugar and a green folded note on top of it. I have my suspicions about this bald man because FIRST OF ALL there is a SNAKE tattoo on his head.

It may not be Black Mamba since aespa defeated them but Taemin’s Criminal did hint at the existence of 3 snakes, this may be one of them. Plus the presence of a snake in the Neo’s Universe had been around since Favorite.

The tattoo ‘Real Eyes, Realize, Real Lies’ was also on the man’s head; considering that Taeil had been in his own world this whole time, does he actually know where he is? What if the dream he was in is actually a corrupted dream (a lie?)? Did the snake set him in a trap or is it setting all the members in a trap through the message given to Taeil? Well, I hope the MV will reveal something about this. Honestly, it is weird too that Taeil was grinning along with the man..

Nighttime (Reality) Members

Starting with Doyoung, he appears to be working in an aquarium shop. This is HIGHLY fitting for the lore because recently Doyoung has always been associated with water, which is supposed to represent Ether. This goes way back from NCT2021 in YearDream: Stage 1 - Seeing Myself in a Dream and even in Golden Age MV (water falling out of a glass in between DY's piano scenes). He closed his eyes for a moment then there were flashes of scenes of buildings and a passing train, the fishes, and more(?). As if he was given glimpses of the future? But note that this scene is pretty similar to the YearDream video. In a theory post I wrote of the YearDream, I speculated that someone was contacting him because Ether is a medium that connects people. So is this a similar situation?

As for Taeyong and Haechan, there isn't much that I want to talk about. Taeyong's situation was confusing because I still don't know why he appears to be working as a money changer and is seen slacking off. But one important thing to note in his teaser was the part when he was given a key, reminding me of Golden Age MV. The person that gave it to him was apparently one of the queueing customers and wasn't shown anything significant? Though the key got me thinking that perhaps it is used to open a room to this?

This is a mobile filing cabinet that has wheels on the side to lock it. We have an Exhibit & Storage ver. pictures, so perhaps it has something to do with that?

Haechan seemed to be constructing a device similar to a laptop.

Looking at the screen, especially the Ouija and the Validation screen, the device is like a computer but specifically to look up answers and check the validity or accuracy of something? Literally 'Factchecking'. Perhaps what makes it different than regular computers is its ability to look from deeper sources?? In the end, he received an email from a still unknown source (probably from the others for a meeting?) and he left like Taeyong. Now that I think of it; Haechan also received a message like Taeil, but unlike him, Taeil's source is questionable.

That's all that I have for this unit! I will wrap up this teaser series' thoughts in the next post. The final conclusion of the theory will of course come after the release of the MV.. and that also depends on whether it has a plot or not...

(Part 2) Read the Dream (Daytime) unit here.

#nct 127 #fact check #taeyong #haechan #doyoung #nct #nct theory #mystery in seoul

[reyescarlos]

10 things for 2023

tagged by @welcometololaland  @reyesstrand @marwani-strickland and @pragmatic-optimist @rmd-writes thanks guys 💕

a fic idea you want to write (or read): i would like to work on the soccer au i’ve been daydreaming about since...what? 2020? other than that, i’d like to pick at the college exes fic. i don’t plan on writing much tarlos this year so that’s all that really comes to mind for the time being

a place you want to go: well, i'm going on my first real proper vacation in ages this year which i’m excited about!  im going with my sister and niece on a cruise to the bahamas. outside of that, it would be great to go to ireland or something. that’s been on my bucket list for so long and now i feel more comfortable with the idea of serious travel since the pandemic hit so that’d be dope

a book you want to read: oof so many books but i’m excited for ander & santi were here by jonny garza villa. that’s the most recent preorder i did. oh! and prince harry’s book. 

something fun you want to do: i want to make good on learning how to roller skate. i got as far as purchasing a pair of skates and teetered around a little bit but i didn’t stick with it last year. maybe now that i’ve moved, i can look into seeing if there are any classes or meet ups. would also be a nice way to meet new people in this area. i also really want to do a consistent book club bc i’ve sadly fallen off with reading books

something you wanna make: this ties in with the first prompt but i want to finish those stories, yes, but i definitely want to branch out and make new stories for other fandoms. i feel like i’ve hit a wall and it’s been making me question my writing abilities way too much. hopefully a fresh pairing or two will make me feel more in sync and get that confidence back

a habit you want to start: getting more organized and having a better routine for both my personal life and work. i'm such a procrastinator, it drives me nuts

something new you want to try: i want to try crocheting, it’s something i’ve always wanted to do but never made any attempts to learn. i really should get a beginner’s kit soon

something you want to finish from 2022: i refuse to drag myself onto goodreads just yet by going on there and seeing how many books i started but didn’t finish bc YIKES. but ideally i would like to complete those books. i’ve hit such a snag, i will not even bother with setting a challenge this year lol

something you want to stop doing: so many things, but definitely would like to scale back on my screen time. my phone is ALWAYS in my hand. it’s so unhealthy 

something you want to keep doing: i want to continue spending less time on here. i’ve become far too attached to popping on to tumblr and tbh it’s truly having a very negative effect on my writing and me in general. so yeah, i think less time on here would be a good thing. i have started with making use of the queue function which, after having this account for 11 or 12 years, i started using for the first time in 2022 and it’s proving to be a happy medium. i still love the show but gah yeah, not really feeling this space in the same ways i have previously and i don’t want that to bleed in to my outlook on the series when it starts back later this month

not tagging anyone as this has been making the rounds already~

#games

[sinosauropteryx--prima]

Life in the Middle Triassic

(first row: Euparkeria, Tanystropheus; second row: Nothosaurus, Nyasasaurus; third row: Thalattosaurus (top), Mastodonsaurus (bottom), Cynognathus, Longisquama; fourth row: Shringasaurus, Sharovipteryx, Placodus)

Art by:

Tanystropheus, Nyasasaurus - Mark Witton

Thalattosaurus - Nobu Tamura

Nothosaurus - Johnson Mortimer

Mastodonsaurus - Vladislav Egorov

Sharovipteryx, Longisquama - Julio Lacerda

Shringasaurus - Ntvtiko

Cynognathus - Gabriel Ugueto

Euparkeria - Taenadoman

Placodus - Sergey Krasovsky

The Triassic is a fantastic time if you’re interested in weird creatures and it’s a shame that it often gets overlooked in favor of the more dinosaur-rich Jurassic and Cretaceous. The main reason for the abundance of Triassic weirdos is that the time period was bookended on both sides by mass extinctions: The end Permian mass extinction had just left the planet empty, with lots of opportunities for evolution to go crazy as the the few survivors refilled niches. At the end of the Triassic however (Spoiler alert), another mass extinction wiped out most of the newly established forms, which is why they look so foreign and strange to us - bizarre anomalies that only existed for a brief period of time and didn‘t leave any successors to help us understand them better.

One of those weirdos is leg-winged Sharovipteryx. Because yes, while every other vertebrate on the planet decided that arms are pretty good for flying, Sharovipteryx wanted to not be like other girls and used its legs instead. While it wasn‘t capable of powered flight (only birds, bats and pterosaurs ever accomplished that), it was probably a decent glider (Dyke, 2006).

From the same fossil beds as Sharovipteryx comes another unusual critter: Longisquama. At first glance it might look like your typical little lizard - if it wasn‘t for its back being covered with those long …scales? Feathers? Maybe just plant leaves that somehow fossilzed next to the animal? We really are not sure what exactly is going on with the back of this little guy. Although it seems like the most recent idea is, that those appendages are not feathers in the sense that birds have them, but that both feathers and Longisquama‘s structures might be homologous, meaning that they come from the same origin (Buchwitz, 2012). As for what were they doing with the structures? Probably sexual display, which is the paleontology version of saying “we‘re not sure, but unless you‘ve got a better idea, we‘re sticking with this one“.

(Oh, and btw both Longisquama and Sharovipteryx are prime topics for David Peters, self-proclaimed paleontologist that apparently loves to spread misinformation and seems to have beef with the entire paleo-community - so be cautious when you see something written by him. Man, I really don‘t wanna be involved with paleo drama. I wasn‘t even aware there was paleo drama)

The placement of both Sharovipteryx as well as Longuisquama on the family tree is pretty uncertain, but most likely they fall somewhere around the base of the Archosaur lineage, a group that you will hear a lot about in the future, as it includes the flying pterosaurs, everything related to crocodiles, and of course the dinosaurs. The earliest of those you might see around this time in the form of medium-sized average-looking bipeds like Nyasasaurus.

Also settled around the base of the archosaur line is long necked Tanystropheus (although some of its fossils were believed to be flying pterosaurs for a long time because its neck vertebrae were mistaken for wing finger bones). With a length of around 5 m it was pretty big for the time. It most likely lived a semi-aquatic lifestyle, staying on the shores while it used it oversized neck to catch fish from the water.

During the Triassic we see quite a few reptile groups going for more aquatic lifestyle. While some, like the Thalattosaurs were relatively short-lived, others dominated for most of the age of reptiles. One of the most prominent groups are the Sauropterygia. The name (which translates to “lizard flippers“) might not sound too familiar, but this is the group that will later contain the Loch-Ness-monster looking plesiosaurs and their shorter-necked cousins, the pliosaurs. In the early days of this group the animals weren‘t quite as well adapted for the waters yet, but you can already see were the journey is going. Nothosaurus for examples, lived probably similar to seals, while Placodus was more terrestrial and only spent time in the water to forage for food.

Most of this was all very reptile-focused. That is because by now the synapsids, those early cousins of our own lineage, that roamed the world as giant beasts during the permian, had lost their positions at the top of the food chain. For the most part, they were now constrained to small burrows and dark nights, to the shadows of much larger creatures. Their story does of course not end here, but for the next 170 million years our planet truely was a planet of reptiles.

#paleontology #paleoblr #infodump #triassic #longisquama #sharovipteryx #tanystropheus

[fae-iii]

It's New Year's eve! I made a post last year (on Cohost) that I think I deleted cuz I was kinda spiraling pretty hard, but I thought I was doing "really well" at the time, lol. Deleted quite a while ago cuz it embarrassed me and I don't want a ton of personal stuff on my main account. Anyway, here's a ton of personal stuff!

In a lot of ways I've gotten better this year! I've done less crazy things that I don't wanna talk about and I've done more crazy things that I do wanna talk about! Uh, but first:

My physical health is kinda worse right now than it was this time last year. From a low of ~260lbs, I'm up ~40 this year. Upset about that, but from my absolute high of ~400+, it's not too bad and I think my original method was kinda all over the place for various mental reasons and I've very recently gotten back on the saddle. So I'm not gonna reach my desired weight this year; that's insane, but I am gonna be more active and try to make better food decisions. Try and prioritize physical and mental health, seems like a novel idea.

Oh, mental health… I wanted to get a therapist this past year. With work going into crunch time, I don't think I'm gonna have the time to commit until mid-April rolls around again. It's trending better though! I've felt less scared and less alone for the past few months than I have in a long while and I've let go of some delusional thoughts. Regardless of the therapist situation, my mental heath has improved, and I'm really happy about that!

Speaking of improvement: pixel art! Felt very inspired and jealous seeing other's stuff, from small pieces of art to more ambitious projects come to fruition and feeling very unfulfilled with my own place in life, I finally started doing pixel art, which is something I've always had romantic thoughts of, but the low-confidence thought of "I'm not a good artist and I'm too old to start at the age of (13~23) and there's lots of people who're better than me so why even try" and my penchant for kinda abandoning things at early stages had held me back.

I think the being able to stick to a diet and exercise of the prior year helped discipline me, even if it was a little intense and that kinda stemmed from another delusional thought, so I had the fear that this was all being built on a weak foundation. I've gotten good enough at it that I don't have this fear anymore! Well… only a little.

I'm pretty conservative on my goals for it right now. I eventually wanna make some kind of big creative endeavor, not gonna be this year. I've had an idea for a much smaller scale, less elaborate pilot project. After "Weasel Wednesday"s denouement, I might- I will play with smaller sprites and read into GB Studio and see what I can come up with. I'm thinking something Zelda-like. Like a singe, medium-large dungeon, maybe? I could probably design something passable. Idk if anything will materialize this year of it, but I'll at least experiment.

It'd be cool to maybe contribute to or work on a project with other people eventually. I don't really expect that in the upcoming year, but maybe further in the future. I've got some lofty dreams, but I'm also a believer in not taking on bigger workloads than I can handle alone (mixed results).

I think that generally covers my resolutions. Probably a lot of goals under that "mental health" banner that I neglect to mention. Happy New Year™!! !!!!!! ! !! !!!!!

#new years resolution #happy new year!

[puppy-the-mask]

Mutt- literally just standing there

The creator of his world having a one sided enemies to lovers moment up in the clouds because the more they loathe him, the more they think about him, the more they wanna smooch his stupid handsome face

I’m talking about myself :))))))))) realistically if we ever met I’d probably not like him but he wouldn’t even know who I am until something happens that we end up around each other more- like working at the same job or something. Thus- one sided enemies to lovers.

TGIS IS PLAUGING MY BRAIN AS AN ACTUAL STORY IDEA GDMIT though I’m more a ‘Karmatic Medium’ faceless/formless entities that interact with the world through the scales of Karma. They are allowed to interact with those with good karma through small acts of kindness and those with bad through minor to major inconveniences. Some KMs decide to stick to those with bad karma and focus on doling out justice while others focus on positive things and spreading kindness, others drift and affect the world as they see fit or sporadically. You are one such morally grey KM- you drift through the world watching mortals, becoming attached to one of the many ladies that Mutt just so happens to break the heart of- when he keeps showing up you decide to follow him to see if he’s really so bad as he seems and develop a vendetta against him. Then one day you’re watching him and waiting for an opportunity to cause an inconvenience when there’s a break in, him and Rant almost get shot but in a fit of rage you grab the end of the gun and crumple it like a tin can- nebulous form becoming visible as you say that this you’re the one in charge of this one’s judgement. The guy pulls the trigger and it backfires- literally. Gun explodes out the back and the dude’s blood paints the walls in the shape of your sillouette as you look back at the two skeletons- eyes aglow with supernatural light. Then you vanish. Back in the incorporeal realm you quickly capture the whole badass scene on a vision sphere- recording the last couple moments- stick the orb in your chest where it absorbs and joins your other things in your pocket dimension of clutter- and you close your hand, recalling the blood back into the guys body and teleport away to dispose of it so that they don’t end up in jail for murder. You then decide to teleport back to your favorite person but end up back at the bro’s apartment- your superior, a rather cold KM named Daniel, has bonded you to Mutt for the rest of his mortal life as penance for influencing the corporeal world and killing the criminal. You argue that all you did was break the gun- it’s not your fault he still pulled the trigger- but it’s all in vain. You’re now stuck with him, you remain Incorporeal and invisible- avoiding them as long as possible so that they don’t even know your there and you can wait out this sentence, but you can’t be completely unseen by Mutt- he can still see you in reflections. Things come to a head when he goes out to a party one night and encounters another Bound Pair. The mortal notices a faintly glowing ring around Mutt’s left wrist that even he couldn’t see and brings it up. The man sitting next to him is Kenny- his bound KM, a chaotic neutral KM who actually likes watching those with bad karma and attached himself to his mortal willingly. He knows you because you’ve lived in the same areas and chats with you even before you become corporeal. Which only happens because unexpectedly- while you were explaining your situation to Kenny- his Mortal told Mutt all about KMs and to prove it had him recite an order that forced you into a corporeal state. Now you’ve been discovered! And Mutt doesn’t hate this set up all things considered- it may be a punishment for you but it’s quite the gift to him. There are restrictions of course- he can order you to do anything but you can still refuse. The only things you have to follow are ones that coincide with Karma, so if he tells you to be a dick to someone with bad karma you gotta do it. Or if there isn’t a specific person being affected, if the order helps him to gain good karma then you have to do it to, as a way of helping your bound to be a better person. He can also summon and make you incorporeal by reciting an order in a dead language but you bypass it by rewriting conditions through making contact with his bracelet and ‘rewriting’ it with your magic so that it’s more a message at the back of your head telling you he’s calling you than a warp straight to his lap. After making that revision you walk away to at least drink some at the party.

Kenny tells Mutt that he probably shouldn’t let you touch his bracelet- explaining what it allows you to do- and follows you for more teasing about your situation because ‘it’s so amusing when they’re angry- they’re even cute when they murder people *looks happily at the vision orb you copied and gave him of the gun scene*’ Kenny’s Bound mentions that apparently ancient mages found ways to alter the contract too through either bracelet (you have a similar bracelet btw) but it’s a lost art. You end up continuing your life of wandering around and watching your favorite people but then mutt bothers you enough for you to pop in and yell at him- he’s on the couch so you wrap over into a position where you’re standing on the cushion, in his face, and have your hands on either side of his head as you yell ‘what the fuck do you want!?’ It scares the shit out of him and he jumps before recovering and saying he wants you to show yourself to his brother so that he knows what’s going on.

That’s as far as I got with scenes but some more tidbits are that in this world KMs are the basis for lots of myths and religious creatures, having been recorded in many different ways as guardian angels, regular angels, demons, even djinn if you stretch it. Since the KM enacts magic at the bound’s behest which could look like wish granting- though depending on the scales of karma things might not go as planned, they might not have through the repercussions of such a request, or the KM is just tricky like that and thus the stories of djinn granting wishes with nasty consequences. KMs can take any form and change it at will. a KMs magic can do seemingly anything but that’s only on the incorporeal plane- if they want to affect the corporeal world it either has to follow the whims of karma or, while corporeal- to follow what is possible with Normal magic. Those that are bound can do whatever their Mortal companion commands, even if karma is against it- the conditions from before are ONLY if the KM DOESN’T want to follow the orders, meaning orders that fit those conditions would have to be followed regardless of if they want to or not. This gives a Bound KM much more influence over the corporeal world but strictly as their Mortal sees fit. KMs can bind themselves to mortals on their own, or be forced by someone stronger than them- but only if they commit a crime by KM standards, which depending on the KMs superior can fluctuate wildly. the time that they are bound is dependent on the severity of the crime. In the story You get bound to Mutt because you killed someone for him- the punishment essentially forcing you to own up to it and making you go all in- if you killed this person for him then now you have to stay by him for the rest of his life. And in this AU Monsters live a LONG time. The incorporeal realm is basically just where KMs exist while invisibly floating around the Corporeal realm. In Art terms- if the corporeal world is the base layer than the incorporeal realm is the layer above it- you still see both but the 2nd layer is overlayed on top without touching the 1st. The 1st can’t see the 2nd but the 2nd can see the 1st. All this to explain how you essentially just go invisible to mortal eyes. Also- the only reason you saved Mutt is because you can’t make him suffer your wrath if he’s dead. So you saved him just to cause him bad luck and minor inconveniences until you were satisfied and felt you’d done enough to him for hurting one of your favorite mortals. In the story you get attached to lots of mortals- never bounding yourself to anyone. You like to keep it free and not get tied down, which is why Kenny was so surprised to see you connected to the guy who had broken one of your pet mortals’ heart. KMs live forever and are nigh impossible to kill so they tend to be curious about death since they can’t experience it- this is why you’re so nonchalant about the gunman exploding right in front of you because of what you did- death is a mortal and foreign concept to KMs that may peak their interest but could never incite fear into them unless it’s fear of a mortal’s death but even that is rare as it’s been so long that they’ve all been alive that they’re all used to watching mortals die

All KMs have their own pocket realm/room for storage if their things that changes depending on their will. Yours is that overgrown/woodland library from your dreams with the big leaf hammock overhand in the center area, there is no center part of the ceiling and it opens up to a beautiful vivid twilight sky with shining stars all across it- the stars actually being your massive collection of vision orbs. Aside from a few you keep floating around the library or right up in the hammock to calm you as you drift to sleep. In the story you get close to Rant and allow him entry- shifting to a bigger form before hugging him- basically ‘absorbing’ him into your body similar to the vision orb and acting as the portal to get him there. He’s fascinated by all the ancient books and stories and Plays in long dead languages- he wants to learn them. You end up making and entrusting him with a key that allows any door to become a gate to your room, the only caveat being that Mutt isn’t invited and can’t go in your room with him since at the time the two are still at odds.

#DID I NOT POST THIS!?!? #Anyways- this is Karma’s Karma #world building #Karma’s Karma #Mutt #Purpfell!Papyrus #My mixed feelings for this man somehow spawned an entire AU and storyline #that’s how strongly I feel about him

[elizabeths-writing-corner]

"Cockwarming Asmo while he does your nails 💅" Obey me! Asmodeus smut

☁ This was just a loose idea that popped into my head and I really wanted to write some Asmo smut because I neglected him up to this point :p

Asmodeus x gn!Reader

tw: cockwarming, quickie, teasing, unprotected sex

+18, minors please don't interact with this post, thank you!

wc: 725

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Painting your nails is something that Asmo does quite often. And it's not rare for you to sit on his lap while he does so but this time he had another idea.

While his arms snug you from behind to reach your hands, he leans forward and places his chin on your shoulder, much to your approval.

"Y/N," he chirps melodically which immediately warns you he has something dirty on his mind and wants to drag you in. "Would you wanna try something fun while I paint your nails?" he asks.

You feel Asmo moving on the chair which makes you slip off his lap so you're now between his legs.

"Cockwarm me, okay?~"

He knows how to get what he wants with his soothing voice and sweet words, charming you into following his fantasies but it's not like you don't think it would be fun - the thought of having his cock inside you for so long, usually doing your nails takes about two hours, makes you all fuzzy inside.

The demon smiles mischievously when you finally give him a positive response.

He unzips his pants and slides them down just so slightly that his dick can spring free from his underwear. It's of a medium length, on the thinner side but that's on a demon's scale - for a human, such as yourself, it's still pretty challenging to fit in.

You lift yourself up, careful to not mess up the work he has already done on your nails, and align your hole with the tip of Asmo's cock. Without further ado, you sit on it.

He's stretching you nice and slow, making sure it brushes against your walls and makes you gasp for air from time to time when it hits the right spot. Your mouth stays slightly parted in a silent moan until you reach his balls and bite your lip from pleasure when your thighs meet.

"Good job," he coos, which makes your walls clench around his length. "Now stay still so I can paint your nails, okay?" he adds like nothing happened.

You're trying not to move but the urge to wiggle on Asmo's lap and feel a little bit of sensation in your lower bits keeps growing.

The Avatar of Lust however looks absolutely unbothered. You know he's just messing with you and in reality, would like to thrust his hips upwards into your hole but he's not doing so to hear your pathetic pleads.

You're barely three nails in and your back is already strongly arched in order to position yourself in a way that brings you the most pleasure when Asmo's tip pokes your walls.

Just then, when adjusting himself on the chair, the demon's cock thrusts into you which makes you jump in surprise.

"Oh, look what you've done..." he whinges with an undertone of irony. "Stand up and bend over the desk. I see we can't finish your manicure when you're acting so reckless."

You do as Asmo said and stick out your ass in his direction whilst being careful not to mess up your already done nails, which would make him mad... Maybe that's exactly what you'd want.

One quick move and his cock is already balls-deep into you and fucking your slutty hole. Sloppy sounds of your skins slapping and lewd moans fill up the room.

"You look so cute bend over like this~," Asmo whispers next to your ear when making his chest touch your back and while he squeezes the flesh of your ass, which he loves so much.

He's pistoning his hips at a regular speed until he decides to speed up and make your whines louder and louder. You grab the other edge of the desk which now moves rhythmically with Asmo's every hard thrust.

"You're close, aren't you? Oh, yes you are..." he coos while his arm wraps around you and his hand travels down to your sex to then run his soft fingers upwards. Your legs tremble when your sudden orgasm approaches. "Yes, let it all out," he encourages you sweetly.

Your chest's going up and down, your vocal cords produce only high-pitched whines while you're desperately trying to catch your escaping breath.

Asmo smiles and admires the view of your hole dripping with his cum, before he sits again on the chair you previously cockwarmed him in.

#obey me #obey me smut #obey me shall we date #obey me anime #obey me asmo #obey me asmodeus #obey me asmo smut #asmodeus smut #asmo x you #asmodeusobeyme

[artbyblastweave]

BLASTWEAVE what does steven universe have in common with watchmen?

Both Steven Universe and Watchmen are groundbreaking entries in their respective genres that demonstrate a deep understanding of the appeal of the genre they’re working in, and engage with their ideas on a previously unheard-of level for the medium. That breaks ground and clears the way for what other works in the genre can get away with. 

Steven Universe showed that, well, first of all that you can make a cartoon that’s fundamentally ideologically queer beyond a few side characters, but also that you can have an emotionally intelligent and mature children's cartoon where the character nuance and depth and development are all taken very seriously. Watchmen showed that you could write serious and interesting narratives about superheroes if you were willing to roll with the crazy. (Neither of them was the first to do the things I’m ascribing to them, but I do think that they’re what made it stick for their respective fields.)

In doing so, though, both works create/created a catch 22 for all future works in their genre. Part of what made both of them so good is that they were willing to critically unpack and air out the ugly implications of their format that usually get chalked up to suspension of disbelief, and now that that’s out in the open it becomes very difficult not to think about how any other given work is or isn’t addressing those issues- even if they aren’t equipped to address those issues in the scope of the story they’re trying to tell. Watchmen asked questions about who sanctions superheroes, what qualifies you to do that work, where the line is between heroism and fascism or if there even is one, whether the agency to act means you have a right or a duty to act, whether anyone who seriously bought into the superhero thing could possibly be doing it for good reasons, and, if they somehow were, how long you can care with the intensity necessary to be an effective hero without suffering burnout (not long.) I literally can’t think of a single superhero thing worth reading that isn’t in some way in conversation with Watchmen - you now kind of have to answer those questions, explicitly or implicitly, even if your books thesis is “Alan Moore sucks eggs and being a superhero is very sustainable and fantastic.” If you just leave the question of whether your superheroes are justified completely unaddressed, there’s an uncomfortable discordance there, because we’ve seen the extreme end of that sliding scale in the form of the Comedian and if the narrative doesn’t engage with what makes the protagonist not Edward Blake, it can feel worrisome. If they try and then botch it it can feel alarming.

Steven Universe has a similar thing going on, at least for me. It’s the only unironic, non-parodic children’s series that’s really, seriously unpacked how fucked up and traumatic it would be to grow up as the archetypical All-loving Spirited Saturday Morning Cartoon Protagonist, how warped and dysfunctional a household that enabled that lifestyle could be at its worst, and what the future looks like when your whole childhood was centered on a now-ended conflict. ( a lot of cartoons flirt with that last one but don’t commit.) I’ve seen jokes and intended-as-cracky fan theories about this for years, surrounding lots of other cartoons (Ben 10, Pokemon, Powerpuff Girls) but almost never with the assumption that the creators are on the same page as them. I’ve seen stories that are post-modern reimaginings using the same general archetypes or whatever (Venture Brothers) but that’s not this! SU told an entertaining story earnestly, and then engaged with the emotional fallout of the story it told, with an unheard-of breadth and depth. A whole season of unpacking! No other show has ever been allowed to sink that much effort into closure. That’s usually what Fanfic is for.

I think it’s great, and that shows like Infinity Train and The Owl House are able to go as hard as they do largely because of Steven Universe’s precedent- but no matter how good a cartoon is, I can’t watch them without having this voice in the back of my head going “Oh, these children are going to grow up to be broken wrecks, bar an extensive and harsh healing process that kinda hurts to watch, huh.”

The issue is that not every cartoon can be Steven Universe, where the project was to thoughtfully and sensitively unpack this stuff. It’s a fair bet that we’ll probably never see a show with that exact project again (not least because of the loss of novelty value.) You’ve got your own stories you wanna tell that’ll run their own course, mostly aimed at children, there objectively isn’t narrative or financial room for most stories to unpack these assumptions if that wasn’t the goal going in. For example, Gravity Falls had pretty tight storytelling and a narrative that absolutely had room for a post-script "where-do-we-go-from-here” plot- it sped-run the “oh no, childhood’s ending” thing- and it’s pretty telling that the aftermath, healing process, interpersonal relationships and so forth are one of the things that that fandom heavily fixates on. The narrative had such a clean ending that it made people go looking for the mess. That’s not bad! It’s how most storytelling works! But now I look at any cartoon with kid heroes that’s meant to be taken even marginally seriously and go, Oh. Win the battle, lose the war. Then I feel sad. The contrast, of course, is that most superhero works actually can be, and in fact benefit from trying to be like Watchmen, because all the questions Watchmen raises about the ethics of power are also just.... like.... the most interesting storytelling hooks if you want to write a cape thing with real themes. They’re the kind of stories we’d have gotten years prior naturally if not for the CCA boondoggle. Admittedly it kinda creates a different problem where most “good” cape media is inescapably self-referential and draws on picking apart the conventions of a 60-70-year old canon that hasn’t been in wide circulation in years. But! I also think there’s a stronger obligation there to keep superhero fans in check- if your superhero thing isn’t making the reader question the ethics of violence and individual heroism in the face of systemic injustice, you wind up with people who unironically think Frank Castle is a role model to be emulated. We all know that guy. Children’s media doesn’t really produce that guy the same way, although it can draw them in from other corners. Superhero media often needs to be self-critical in a way children’s cartoons don’t always have to be.

#steven universe #gravity falls #watchmen #infinity train #the owl house #also I want to give a shoutout to animorphs for #similarly #engaging in how fucked up it would be to be a power ranger without being too on-the-nose about it #meta #thoughts #worm #parahumans #because lets face it #you know what's on the back of my mind when I'm thinking of works that think about Implications tm #wildbow

[trashyswitch]

Remus's Special Upgrade

Remus recently got an upgrade thanks to Thomas! And lots of people get the chance to try it out.

This fanfic is for all the people that begged to be in a fanfic! Sorry it's short, but I did manage to fit everyone in. Let's just say Remus gets destroyed by a crowd of ler kids.

Remus was getting some work done on his body by Thomas.

“Sorry to say it Remus, but you’re too scary.” Thomas told him.

“I am?”

“Yes.” Thomas plugged some wires into something. “So we need to add something...nicer and more innocent to make you more suitable for kids.” Thomas told him.

“Awww...I thought I was great the way I am!” Remus reacted.

“You are! But...we need to make you extra great!” Thomas told him. “Now, take a look.” Thomas gave him a mirror and let him look around.

Remus started to look around, and noticed there were sensors on him! sensors on his belly, sensors on his sides, sensors on his neck, sensors on his feet, and sensors in his armpits. “What...are these for, exactly?” Remus asked.

“Well...These sensors that I added to you are for something we call...tickling.” Thomas told him.

Remus tilted his head. “Tickling?” he asked.

“Yup!” Thomas replied.

“What’s it for?” Remus asked.

“For fun!” Thomas started wiggling his fingers in midair, in an attempt to get him to react. But Remus...didn’t react. He just blinked. “I don’t get it.”

Thomas walked up to Remus and started to drag a finger across the sensor on his belly. “The sensor is supposed to make you laugh.”

Remus’s face went dumbfounded as the sensor sent signals to his brain to laugh, laugh, laugh! Remus quickly grew a smile, and wheezed out of surprise! “EHEhehehehe!” Remus finally laughed, doubling over. “Whahahat-”

“I gave the sensors stronger, and weaker scales for each spot. To start you off easy, I set the scales to medium and moderate.” Thomas started skittering his fingers on the sides to show him the difference. “Your sides are much more ticklish!”

“BWAHAHAHAhahahahaha! Remus laughed, kicking his feet. “THIHIS IHIHIS SOHOHOHO WEIHIHIRD!”

“And your neck is the only really bad spot on your body so far.” Thomas told him as he scratched the sensor on his neck.

Remus screeched and cackled loudly at that spot.

“And so are your feet.” Thomas added before finally stopping. “Last but not least...I added sensors on your back and upper shoulders so you can enjoy a hug properly.” Thomas wrapped his arms around the robot and placed his hands onto the sensors between Remus’s shoulder blades. These specific sensors caused him to be extra happy and slowly sleepy. “If a person holds onto you for long enough, you might even fall asleep on the spot.”

“This feels…” Remus yawned and closed his eyes. “A-Amazing...” Remus reacted calmly.

“And when I…” Thomas removed his hands and let go of Remus. This caused Remus to perk back up with more energy!

“That was great! What was that?” Remus asked.

“That was a hug.” Thomas told him. “And I made sure to add sensors to different spots so hugs and tickles can be accessed from any position.” Thomas told him.

Remus nodded. “Okay.”

Thomas smiled. “I’ll let you settle in for the night.” Thomas told him.

“Okay.” Remus replied. “One more hug?”

Thomas nodded and gave him another hug. This time, his arms were pressed onto his upper ribs sensors and onto the spine. Thomas rested his head onto the robot’s belly, letting Remus feel the hug.

Remus felt the hug quite a bit! It felt nice to him...It made him wanna jump around and squeal out of pure excitement!

[A few days later]

Remus was spending time with some kids off the stage. He was having a grand old time, too!

“I heard you got something new!” A kid named Violet said.

“Yeah! SHOW US!” Andrew said!

“Okay!” Remus pointed at the sensors on his sides. “Touch them!”

A kid known as Vincent walked up and poked the sensor.

Remus giggled and laughed as the sensor was poked.

“I don’t get it…” Vincent muttered.

“I can laugh at touches now!” Remus told him.

“Wait...do you mean ‘ticklish’?” Vincent asked.

Violet and Andrew leaned in curiously.

“I guess, yea! I’m ticklish!” Remus replied.

A kid with the nametag ‘Insanity’ on it, smiled evilly.

Another kid known as Zahwa also smirked.

It didn’t take long before the kids were all tickling Remus’s different sensors.

“HEhehehehey! Ohohohoho bohohohoy…” Remus muttered.

“Tickle tickle tickle!” Zahwa giggled evilly.

Another kid with the word ‘leigh’ on her nametag, ran up and started tickling his neck.

“EEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHE!” Remus laughed.

“His neck is really ticklish!” Leigh said.

Insanity smiled and started tickling his belly next.

Remus wiggled around and started giggling wildly. “NOHOhohohoHOHOHO!”

“Wow! He’s really ticklish now!” Insanity said.

“If you can call it being ticklish...Normally tickling comes with a feeling.” Vincent mentioned.

“I think it counts.” Andrew mentioned.

“It counts!” Someone said. Everyone looked over, and noticed a girl with the name ‘Jazzy’ written on their nametag. She was tickling Remus’s back. “He laughs when he’s touched, so that counts as tickling!”

Another person showed up with the name ‘Rae’ written on her nametag. “Should we try his feet?”

The kids looked at Remus’s feet with curiosity.

“NO! NOT THERE! PLEASE!” Remus begged.

Roman ran up. “I think he’s had enough. Besides: His feet are the reason he smells so bad.” Roman told them.

“He doesn’t smell that bad…” Rae told him.

“Yeah! He smells like metal to me...but that’s all!” Jazzy mentioned.

Leigh, Luna and Zahwa ran up to Remus’s feet and checked under the shoe. Sure enough, there was a sensor there! And there were even little sensors under the toes.

“Oooooh!” A few of the kids cooed at the same time.

“Try the toes first!” Vincent declared.

“Yeah!” Andrew added.

Violet took his foot in one hand and tickled the toes with her other hand. Remus SCREAMED and cackled loudly! “OHOHOHO GAHAHAHAHAHAHA! MAHAHAKE IHIHIHIT STAHAHAHAHAP!” Remus shouted.

“Alright kids, I think he’s had enough. Run along now.” Roman encouraged.

“But robots don’t have lungs. They don’t need to breathe.” Vincent mentioned.

“So...does that mean we can tickle him as long as we want to?” Andrew asked.

“But what about his metal parts? Can’t they overload?” Insanity asked.

“Probably.” Violet replied.

“Okay.” Insanity replied. “Thank you!”

Remus smiled and hugged Insanity. “You’re welcome.”

The kids all said their goodbyes and left Remus and Roman alone to contemplate Remus’s new weakness.

[A few days later:]

Virgil could hear an awful lot of laughter coming from Remus that day. The whole shift was filled with his pleading laughter.

“HEHEHEHEHELP MEHEHEHEHE!”

“IHIHIHIHIT’S SOHOHOHOHO BAHAHAHAHAD!”

“You should’ve thought about this outcome before you stole my glasses.”

“WHYHYHYHYHY?!”

“Because tickling you is fun, and you don’t have lungs like Virgil.”

“PLEHEHEHEHEHEHEASE STAHAHAHAHAP!”

“No.”

Virgil sighed and walked to where the boys were tickle fighting. Logan was currently tickling his toes while Remus was laughing up a storm, dangling upside down with only Logan holding him up.

Right away, Remus sensed someone else was there other than Logan. “HEHEHEHELP MEHEHEHEHEHE!” Remus begged to the unknown person.

“And stop the explosions of laughter filling the hallways? No way.” Virgil teased with a grin.

“PLEHEHEHEHEHEASE! IHIHIHI’LL DOHOHO AHAHAHANYTHIHING!” Remus pleaded.

Virgil sighed and decided to help him out. As much as he loved the laughter, he knew Remus was probably going insane with all the constant laughter. Virgil took the glasses from Remus’s hands, and ran away with him.

“HEY.” Logan dropped Remus right on his head, and sprinted after Virgil. “GET BACK HERE WITH MY GLASSES.”

“NEVER!” Virgil shouted back.

“I AM A ROBOT! I AM SO MUCH FASTER THAN YOU, VIRGIL. SO GIVE UP NOW, OR I WILL BE FORCED TO PUT FORTH DESPERATE MEASURES.” Logan shouted in a low, monotone voice.

Virgil shrieked as he looked back. Logan was RIGHT ON HIS TAIL!

Virgil tried to turn some corners so it would slow down the robot. But instead, it just made the robot faster! It was TERRIFYING hearing hard metal clanging the ground like that.

Finally, Virgil gave up and dropped the glasses. “Fine...You win.”

Logan slowed to a stop with almost perfect speed. “Not yet…” Logan fixed his gloves and straightened his tie. “Someone decided to steal Logan’s glasses. And they are going to pay for that.” Logan said rather calmly as he got closer and closer to Virgil.

“Wait- WAIT!

Logan stopped and waited.

Virgil bit his lip. “Uh…” Virgil pulled something out. “$50?” Virgil asked.

Logan slapped the 50 dollar bill away and dug his fingers into Virgil’s sides and belly.

Virgil squealed and bursted out laughing right away. “WAHahahahahait, dohohohon’t!”

“A proper thievery deserves a judgement call. I sentence you to 15 minutes of tickles.” Logan decided out of the blue.

Virgil giggled and laughed as certain spots were touched. His sides, his armpits, his hips, even his feet were tickled.

“IHIHIHI’LL GEHEHEHET YOHOHOHOU FOHOHOR THIHIHIS!”

“A small reminder that I lack the sensors to be tickled.” Logan told him.

“That’ll change.” Someone said behind them.

Logan widened his eyes and turned around.

There, standing in the doorway, was Remus. “Thomas said he was gonna be working on you next. He claims you ‘lack social skills’ and ‘need to lighten up’.” Remus told him.

Logan blinked in horror and looked down at the floor.

Uh oh…

#ticklefic #ler!thomas #ler!children #ler!logan #lee!virgil #lee!remus

[d-criss-news]

20 Questions With Darren Criss: How Acting Has Helped Him Make New Music

While Darren Criss has graced our TV screens with a range of characters, from high schooler Blaine Anderson on Glee to serial killer Andrew Cunanan on The Assassination of Gianni Versace, he was last spotted just being himself, on our For You Page on TikTok. “I’m walking to rehearsal with a guitar on my back with a Trader Joe’s bag ... I did not bring an umbrella because I forgot that it was raining. I’m rocking that NYC musician life,” the Glee alum explained in the hilarious clip posted three days ago.

While Criss’ acting work has earned him acclaim and stardom, he leaned into making music during the pandemic. On Aug. 20, he dropped a new EP, Masquerade, featuring five new tracks that Criss says were inspired by the different characters Criss has embraced throughout his career. After Criss wrote songs for his musical comedy web series Royalties and Apple TV+’s animated sitcom Central Park before the pandemic struck the United States, he then used those experiences as a precursor to his new EP. As Criss continues to promote his new music, he answered 20 of Billboard's questions – giving us a peek into how his new EP came together, and how growing up in San Fransisco shaped him as an actor, singer and all-around artist.

1. What inspired your latest project, Masquerade?

Although I would have preferred that it come at a far less grim cost, I finally had the time. Before the pandemic, I had written 10 new songs for my show Royalties -- along with an original song for Disney and another for Apple’s Central Park. These were all assignments in which I was writing for a certain scenario and character. Go figure. It was the most music I had ever written in a calendar year. This really emboldened me to rethink how I made my own music— to start putting a focus on “character creation” in my songs, rather than personal reflection. The latter was not proving to be as productive. The alchemy of having this time and having set a new intention with my own songwriting and producing made me put on a few of my favorite masques and throw myself a Masquerade.

2. How do you think your background as an actor complements your music?

They are one and the same to me. I treat acting roles like musical pieces— dialogue is like scoring a melody; there’s pace, dynamics, cadence, tone. Physical characterization is like producing -- zeroing in on the bass line, deciding on the kick pattern. Vocal characterization is like choosing the right sonic experience, choosing the most effective snare sound, and mixing the high end or low end. It goes without saying that it works in the complete opposite direction. Making each song is taking on a different role literally and employing the use of different masques to maximize the effectiveness of the particular story being told.

3. On Instagram  you wrote that “Masquerade is a small collection of the variety of musical masques that have always inspired me.” Which track do you identify with most in your real life?

Everybody absorbs songs differently. Some key into the lyrics, some into the melody, some the production, some into vocal performance. When I listen to songs, I consider all of their value on totally different scales. So it’s hard to say if there’s any track I “identify” with more than any others, since I -- by nature -- identify with all of them. I think I just identify with certain aspects more than others. If it helps for a more interesting answer, I will say I enjoy the slightly more classical, playful -- dare I say -- more Broadway-leaning wordplay of “Walk of Shame,” but that’s just talking about lyricism. I enjoy the attitude of “F*kn Around,” the batsh--t musicality of “I Can’t Dance,” the relentless grooves of “Let’s” and “For A Night Like This.” All have different ingredients I really enjoy having an excuse to dive into.

4. What’s the first piece of music that you bought for yourself, and what was the medium?

Beatles audio cassettes: “Help” and “Hard Day’s Night.” I just listened on repeat on a tape-playing Walkman until my brother and I got a stereo for our room with a CD player in it, which was  when I just bought the same two albums again, but this time as compact discs.

5. What was the first concert you saw?It’s hard to say, because my parents took us to a lot of classical concerts when we were small. But I guess this question usually refers to what was the first concert you went to on your own volition, and that my friend, was definitely Warped Tour ’01. My brother and I went on our own— two teenagers going to their first music festival, in the golden age of that particular genre and culture. It was f--king incredible.

6. What did your parents do for a living when you were a kid?

My dad was in private banking and advised really, really wealthy people on how to handle their money. My mom was, by choice, a stay-at-home mom, but in reality, she was my dad’s consigliere. They discussed absolutely everything together. They were a real team, and I saw that every single day in the house. They both had a background in finance (That’s how they met in the first place.) and were incredibly skilled at all the hardcore adulting things that I absolutely suck at. They were total finance wizards together. So of course, instead of becoming an accountant, I picked up playing the guitar and ran as far I could with it. Luckily, they were all about it.

7. What was your favorite homecooked meal growing up?

My dad was an incredible chef. For special occasions, I’d request his crab cakes. They were unreal. I’ve never had a crab cake anywhere in the world that was good as my dad’s.

8. Who made you realize you could be an artist full-time?

I don’t know if I’ve actually realized that yet.

9. What’s at the top of your professional bucket list?

The specifics change every day, but the core idea at the top is to continue being consistently inconsistent with my choices, and to keep getting audiences to constantly reconsider their consideration of me. But I mean, sure, what performer doesn’t want to play Coachella? What songwriter doesn’t want to have Adele sing one of their songs? What actor doesn’t want to be in a Wes Anderson film?

10.  How did your hometown/city shape who you are?

San Francisco. I mean, come on. I was really lucky. The older I get, the more grateful I am for just being born and raised there. It’s an incredibly diverse, culturally rich, colorful, inclusive, vibrant city. By the time I was born, it had served as a beacon for millions of creative, out-of-the-box thinkers to gather and thrive. I grew up around that. The combination of that with having parents, who were unbelievably supportive of the arts themselves, laid an incredibly fortunate foundation to consider the life of an artist as a legitimately viable option. It’s a foundation that I am supremely aware is not the case for millions of young artists around the world. I was absurdly lucky.

11.  What’s the last song you listened to?

I mean probably one of mine, but not by choice. I know, lame. But I’m promoting a new EP, what’d you expect? But if you wanna know what I’ve been listening to, as far as new s--t is concerned: a lot of Lizzy McAlpine, Remi Wolf, and Charlie Burg.

12.  If you could see any artist in concert, dead or alive, who would it be?

The Beatles is an obvious "yeah, duh." Sammy Davis, Mel Tormé, or of course, Nat King Cole. I would’ve loved to see Howard Ashman give a lecture on his creative process and his body of work.

13. What’s the wildest thing you’ve seen happen in the crowd of one of your sets?

I feel like just having a crowd at all, at any one of my sets, is pretty wild enough.

14. What’s your karaoke go-to?

The real answer to this I’ll write into a book one day, because I have a lot to say about karaoke etiquette. I have two options here: I can either name a song that I like to sing for me, for fun, or I can name a song that really gets the group going. The answer depends on what kind of karaoke night we’re dealing with here. So I will say, after I’ve selected a ton of songs that services a decent enough party vibe for everyone else, then I would do one for me, and that would be the Beatles’ “Oh! Darling.”

15. What’s one thing your most devoted fans don’t know about you?

What I have up my sleeve.

16. What TV show did you binge-watch over the past year?

Dave is a stroke of genius. There are episodes that I believe are bona fide masterpieces. Also, My Brilliant Friend is a masterclass in cinematic television.

17. What movie, or song, always makes you cry?

It’s A Wonderful Life.

18. What’s one piece of advice you would give to your younger self?

Get used to sharing everything about yourself and your life now, or more astutely, to the idea that you don’t necessarily get to control how your life is shared. I know it’s not really your thing, but you’re gonna have to get used to it, so start building up those calluses now. And don’t worry, all the stuff you love now will be cool again in your mid-thirties, so keep some of those clothes because you’ll be a full-blown fashion icon if you just keep wearing exactly what you’re wearing. Oh nd also, put money into Apple and Facebook.

19.  What new hobby did you take on in the last year?

I’ve always been a linguaphile. My idea of leisure time is getting to study or review other languages. This past year, I took the time to finally dive into learning how to read, write, and speak Japanese. Other than making music, it was one of the biggest components of my 2020-2021.

20. What do you hope to accomplish or experience by the end of 2021?

I hope I get to play live shows again.

#darren criss #billboard #masquerade ep #press #sept 2021

[aggressivelyclueless]

For the ask game, how about 4, 8, or 28? <3

ok here we go

4: how many fic ideas are you nurturing right now? care to share one of them?

ok. uhm. it's a lot. entirely too many. let's say a dozen, because that makes me sound relatively put-together nvm it's way more than that i just checked the list and holy shit. but! i will share a pitch. it's one that i have been wanting to work on for a while:

circus gothica corpse au. danny leaves the body behind every time he goes ghost, reinhabits it when he comes back. freakshow finds this out, immediately makes an act out of literally murdering this boy. repeatedly. for money. this belongs in the Hey You Wanna See Something Fucked Up? category (a lot of my fic does, somehow).

8: share a snippet from one of your favourite dialogue scenes you've written and explain why you're proud of it.

k im going to be blunt here: dialogue is my weakness. always feels awkward to write; looking at it is less-than-great; getting it to *hit* is extremely difficult for me. maybe idk one or two lines out of an entire convo will be organic but for the most part they feel fake. like talking heads, yknow?

however.

the whole final convo from Stalemate felt a little less-crapshoot-y to write, iirc. this bit in particular vvvv

[wes] ". . . you think I'm not gonna catch you sooner or later, you think you're not gonna get sloppy one of these days and - ?"

"No," said Danny plainly, "Honestly, I don't think you will. Maybe sooner or later you could, sure. You could catch me pulling all sorts of stunts, if you really wanted - but that's just like I could overshadow you at the drop of a hat and make you chuck your laptop off the roof."

Weston paled. "You wouldn't."

Danny shook his head again. "You're right. I wouldn't, and you know enough to believe me when I say that. And you know what else? Maybe this is a game - but if either one of us loses then we don't get to start over and play again."

^^^^ i think really sums up their whole dynamic. danny treats it like a game: he pulls wes' tail, wes pulls his tail back, and it's fair. and he expects that it will stay fair, that neither one of them are supposed to "win."

but then the scales are tipped too far and they both have to make sure theyre on the same page. as it turns out, they werent, not exactly. i also really like this line from danny:

"just so long as you know for yourself, and you're sure you wanted the ending you're after if you come too close to getting it."

basically: a reminder to wes that if he wins - succeeds in outing danny's ghost half - that the consequences of that will be real and that's game-over.

yeah maybe it's bc i like exploring their dynamics in various ways but these two are super interesting together and i think maybe most of their interactions have been fairly easycoming? compared to a lot of the dialogue i write, anyhow.

28: share three of your favourite fic writers and explain why you like them so much

ok first off @floralflowerpower bc i am low-to-medium-key living for the ghostbusters crossover they started

second off @anthropwashere bc it’s all super well-written

and third off @lexosaurus bc the ability to dual-wield angst and shitposting is too powerful. i could never.

[dionysus-is-my-dude]

Getting back into my craft and faith

putting on my pentacle/amethyst necklace after so many years of feeling disconnected from my practice felt like being welcomed HOME. I immediately felt the power, the protection, the comfort it once provided me. It's not my original pentacle necklace, as I had that one for so long that it actually broke. This one is much smaller with a little amethyst pearl attached to it. Amethyst is my birth stone, MY stone. I have so many bracelets and tumbled stones of amethyst.

with college and crappy jobs draining me, I truly fell out of practice of my craft. i'm a divination witch. i combine my love of psychology with the art of reading the cards, reading runes, and using a pendulum. I believe that divination is both a combination of magic and science. I think of the tool I'll be using as a medium between me and my subconscious. because my subconscious works with the world and deities around me, but it's hard to speak with my own subconscious. the cards, the pendulum, the runes, all those things act as a medium, a conduit for my subconscious to speak through to tell me what I need to know. Does anyone else think of their divining tools like that?

something about having a job i actually don't hate, and a good pay, and a relatively ok relationship with my family...things are actually pretty ok for me right now. i finally feel like i'm growing up. i'm even about to start helping pay to live here with my grandma, which will prepare me to move out on my own and pay my own utilities and rent. my dudes, i cannot WAIT to move into my own place. to be able to decorate it how i want, and not have to worry about owning too many things. i won't have that much in the kitchen besides what i really NEED, and i can have as many decorative items in my rooms as i want. i can have a different theme for each room, including the bathroom. i get paid nearly $900 biweekly, and that is AMAZING for me, ok? i was so used to being paid less than $500 biweekly from my previous jobs. and now i might actually be able to afford to move out and get an apartment by this time next year! i really do enjoy my job. i live for the relatively fast pace. i HATE not having anything to do at a job. like, y'all know i HATE being bored.

i'm starting to actually make a real, consistent effort to lose weight. i'm eating less, and i'm gonna work out more. it makes me feel good to watch the calories go down, even though my weight on the scale is kinda stupid. i'm less concerned with the numbers on the scale and more concerned with how i feel when i look in the mirror. really, my only two problem areas are my belly and my neck -y'all, when i realized i have a triple-chin, i 'bout lost my mind. and look, yeah, body positivity, all bodies are beautiful, but i don't feel beautiful the way i look right now, and if i don't lose weight, i risk developing diabetes, and i CANNOT afford insulin. so, eating less, drinking more water and tea, and working out more. i have a routine at the gym, and i wanna get back into dance workouts, too.

I hope you all are doing ok at the end of the year. anyone who is celebrating yule, i hope you have a wonderful sabbat. anyone who is experiencing seasonal depression, be sure to get as much sunlight and vitamin d as you can, and please talk to your doctor if you're really concerned. blessed be

#update #personal

[pancakeke]

hey what do you use for organizing your sewing stuff? ive been getting into it bc the clothes i wanna wear are expensive and im having a hard time keeping my space clean and organizing my projects. thanks for the help in advance!

I mostly utilize stacking bins and my wall space for as much stuff as possible.

Those spool racks are available at Joann Fabrics (use a coupon tho) and Amazon. They have hardware on the back to hang them up with nails or command tabs (use wire hook command tabs though, like these. The plastic hook ones aren't shaped right to fit in the hanging hardware). You can also use those command tabs to hang other things to keep them out of your way, like cutting mats, embroidery hoops, and rulers.

For stacking storage boxes, I bought this huge set from amazon but it's pricey and it's for 12 bins. If you have one nearby, Harbor Freight sells similar bins individually though they're a smidge smaller. Menards sells a variety of stacking bins but you have to purchase them in varying qtys, so check that on the listing before to buy any. I use bins to store medium sized things like zippers, elastic spools, velcro, boxes of buttons, bag of fabric clips, tailor's chalk, awls, bias tape, yarn, some cut fabric I'm putting off sewing, a bag of sewing machine feet, and my shipping scale.

You will inevitably end up with a bunch of bobbins if you aren't using plain bobbin thread so get a bobbin box. I used to use this one but outgrew it and upgraded to this one. Also for pins, I started keeping mine in a jewelry dish so I could pick them up easier. They came in a little snap-top box which was handy but it was hard for me to dig pins out of there. Something with more surface area was more helpful to me because it spread the pins out a bit. It's easier to spill them though lol. I have a bunch of fabric clips too but they're just dumped in a sandwich baggie. They came in a cute little tin but the tin didn't fit in my storage bins so I got rid of it.

Pens and cutting tools I store in some cute mugs. I also have a small basket sort of hidden in the lower right behind that ivy where I keep small things like extra needles and hardware. Everything is organized in there using portion control baggies (get them at a grocery store, amazon prices are awful). I like the "portion control" style because they're tall rather than wide so they fit into that basket nicely and are easy to flip through to find what I need. The wide snack size baggies just form a pile of stuff that's hard to root through.

If you buy patterns keep the bags and put the pattern pieces back inside when you're done with them. But if you're like me and you print patterns yourself a lot, get these oversized plastic envelopes to hold your pieces. They hold a lot and you don't have to fold your pattern pieces a ton to fit them inside. Folding printer paper too much really smashes it up so I prefer these huge envelopes over regular envelopes or folders. Also label your pattern pieces if you're printing them off or making them by hand on paper!! I have sooo many mystery pattern parts right now because I'm dumb and didn't label anything...

If you plan on hoarding fabric, I recommend getting a plastic storage tub to keep everything safe from dust and pet hair. A storage tub also makes it easy to move the fabric around and it's stackable. I keep a small pile of fabric beside my desk on that shelf but everything I don't plan on using soon is in a storage bin in my closet.

This is totally unreasonable to expect of anyone, but I also put a huge industrial shelf in my office to hold all my crafting tools and bulky materials (like rolls of batting, big pieces of leather, and faux fur) lol. But I have like a knitting machine, tufting gun, soldering tools, etc. I also needed to store so I was desperate for a place for it all. A small version of this shelf (like this one) may come in handy if you need more storage space but can't put a 7 foot shelf in your room. Wall mounted shelves are also an option (my wobbuffets are on one of these, brackets sold separately) but it's kind of a pain to anchor stuff into walls safely.

Other than that, to maximize space I use a tabletop ironing board because it's small and easy to store out of the way. I originally got this when I had an apartment and didn't have room for a full size ironing board but it came in handy now that I'm doing all my sewing in my office! Also for space management: if you need a light I recommend a clamp desk light. They're handy because you can bring the light to wherever you need it but the lamp takes up maybe 2 square inches of desk space so it's not wasting space.

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