#me as an alter specifically

[ashtraysystem]

get me outta heeeerrrrrreeee

this kind of class is not my forte. I can't think in terms of open ended, I'm a specific task kind of guy.

I would work on my mythology homework but the printer won't work, and I need the physical media in order to properly process the content for it. Most other classes it wouldn't matter, but this one has so much reading that I have to. I meant to print them on my home printer yesterday but forgot and didn't have time to before I left. Didn't know I'd have so many problems with printers today.

I'm behind in what I wanted to accomplish today and its pissing me off. It's makin me spiral in a stupid angry way.

We are low on spoons and high on forks and knives. Our body hurts. We need food. We need quiet. We need our preconceived schedule to not be messed up by printers failing at their jobs. We need people to be specific, to speak the fuck up when they are talking so that we don't have to pretend we heard them when we have no fucking clue what they said. We need to just fucking chill.

#if it weren't for thc fucking with my meds i fucking would #but i've realized it messes with my meds too much for me to really use it. #they do have some cbd only versions that I could get though and probably will once I get my paycheck #bc god fuckin damn #cole🥾 #vent #rant #spiraling #low spoons #high forks #high knives #how am i both under and over stimulated rn #like aaaaaa #i'm just so dooooonnneeeee #me as an alter specifically #not speaking for the whole system here just me #but we are too low spoons for anyone to switch in it seems

[ree-duh]

#ri✨talks #life altering for me specifically #overwatch #hanzo shimada #ramattra

[ofswordsandpens]

"the Gabe and Sally dynamic in the show is abusive" and "the way they've portrayed Gabe in the show is distinctly different from his book counterpart and fans can criticize that" are two discussions that can coexist

#I understand that this is hard topic to navigate #but me saying that /they've changed Gabe and that's consequently altered the dynamic he has with Sally in way I don't like/ #is NOT me saying I don't think what they've portrayed onscreen is non-abusive #or that I WANT to see him abuse her??? #its just the guy in the show while clearly controlling and abusive (emotionally and financially so far) #...I don't believe he's the guy who's presence was so horrid and disgusting MONSTERS avoided him #I wouldn't call him /Smelly/ #in the book his abuse (all forms) is much more overt #(and just to be painstakingly clear: abuse doesn't have to be overt to be abuse) #but the guy in the show does not have the same presence as the guy in the book #book Gabe is menacing #he growls and he threatens and both Sally and Percy have developed very specific responses to deal with it #I've seen one take saying that people can't recognize the abuse in the show because its not physical (yet?) #but even disregarding the physical abuse entirely #if you compare the book scene and TV show scene of Percy arriving home and he and Sally readying for Montauk #there is a pretty stark difference in tone #and in how both Sally and Percy interact with Gabe #in the book Sally goes out of her way to avoid /provoking/ Gabe and asks Percy to do the same until they can leave for Montauk #and Gabe is just itching for any excuse to keep them home #and imo if Book Sally had said the things that show Sally did to Gabe #Gabe wouldn't have let them gone! #and again im not saying that the show's depiction is nonabusive #or unrealistic #im saying its simply /different/ than the book #and im upset that it doesn't feel like dynamic depicted the book #and no book sally is no simpering wilting flower #but she's also not what they depicted in the show either #pjo adaptation #sally jackson #pjo

[papertowness]

wilson you are so strange baby

#said with so much affection you would not believe it #he’s genuinely the funniest motherfucker on the show #i hate that this tactic would probably work on me . specifically only if it was him though . #something about floppy haired nerds with the more gorgeous eyes you’ve ever seen alters me #this ENTIRE interaction had no right being fucking hilarious #house #house md #james wilson #gregory house #greg house #hilson #medical malpractice #lgbtq #lgbt

[kitamars]

enmi gintoki…………… orz

#bfy altered my neurons entirely that movie is actually crack made for me specifically #THE ANGST IS SO SO SAD. BUT SO SO GOOD #i’ve had these for soooo long but i just forgot to post them lmao #i think about him. a lot. Too much #enmi gin appeals to the part of my brain that thinks markings (smtiii remnant) and bandages are fucking cool #i LOVEEEE THIS DESIGNNNNNN ACK #it makes me feels so. hngh #his faint smile when he’s finally beaten and is near the end. someone wants me dead #fun fact though i couldn’t take them saying virus seriously bc of the fucking ill smith episode #i’ll be trying to listen to plot but everytime they mention viruses i start giggling incessantly #anyways #BE FOREVER YOROZUYA RUINED MY LIFE AND IM VERY GRATEFUL FOR THAT #sakata gintoki #be forever yorozuya #yorozuya yo eien nare #gintama #ok bye

[metiredlr]

THIS is the exact moment Endou rizzed them both up

#him and his cute ass fangs i just realized like. look at his tiny fangs 😭🙏🏽 #i love him sm his game is unmatched (in s1. fubuki only gets here later) #they mean so much to me. foaming at the mouth tears in my eyes i love them sm. im so normal about this bro #i finished the Brazilian dub so i thought it would b good to restart everything to now watch it in jp #i need subs but its all good. the seiyuus are nice #endou mamoru #kidou yuuto #gouenji shuuya #endou permanently altered their brain chemistry in this moment btw #break trio #inazuma eleven #inazuma 11 #they bonded forever in this specific moment sobbing crying throwing up #ina11

[torchickentacos]

Legends Arceus is such a good game if you try to play it from a character's POV. I personally do it with most pokemon games because it's just a thing I've done since I was like seven I think BUT it just adds FLAVOR. Blorboify your experience.

Like. OK. Say you play as Akari but HC her as Dawn being isekai'd, partial memory wipe maybe if that's your jam. Does she choose Oshawott because it reminds her of Piplup at home, wherever home may be? Does she hear about Almighty Sinnoh and vaguely recall something about adventures with friends, something so close that she just can't quite grasp onto? Does she feel this... unease around Cyllene, even though she knows Cyllene has done nothing but be helpful and stand up for her so far?

Currently in my playthrough, Playing as Drew and having this immense adverse gut reaction to Melli? Frowning at Akari, knowing she seems familiar from... somewhere, assuming Drew and Dawn have crossed paths coordinating. Or him seeing Irida's red headbandy thing and short bobbed hair, and feeling this jolt of familiarity that he feels like he should know like the back of his hand? Picking wildflowers in Cobalt Coastlands, trying to grasp onto fleeting memories of flowers and conversations on far-off beaches?

A funnier option: Playing as Ash, being surrounded by people you vaguely swear you know one way or another but having to deal with the fact that to them you're just some guy that fell out of the sky?

Possibly the funniest: Playing as Iris/Cilan/whoever in Unova and seeing Ingo like HEY WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING HERE

#something something my theory on empathy autistics being good actors is the ability to put ourselves in other's shoes easily #same goes here I think. very easy for me to immerse myself in a game from a specific pov #when I did theatre I never felt like I was acting #I masked a lot in HS and it was just... altering the mask a bit #pla #pokemon #pokeani #anipoke #pokemon legends arceus #legenda arceus #taylor's tag #pokemon may #pokemon drew #pokemon dawn #not tagging everyone here for brevity's sake #vague contestshipping #taylor talks

[piratewinzer]

“you’re too old to be thirsting over middle aged actors” tough shit buckaroo I’m doin it anyway

#specifically this is about Michael sheen for me #he did something to my brain that altered back to simp status #somebody sedate me #michael sheen #saddle up sheenie!!!! #good omens adjacent

[teethmouth]

shoutout to the guy who didnt know we have heart problems

#nobody ask me why our topher alter is native american i dont fucking know either. #NOTE: WE ARE BODILY NATIVE were not one of those people #my art #clone high #topher bus #i ask that you dont use these just bc its art of specifically him #but feel free to reblog #system art #did art #drug tw #drug cw #dissociative identity disorder #did system #endos dni

[lonicera-edulis]

I was writing some random drabble, and instead of writing "I'd like the burger, please" I accidentally wrote "I'd like the burglar, please" and now I honestly can't stop thinking about Thorin making the same mistake

Because a burglar can steal for you more than one burger, that's a real deal.

#replies #things like this make me wish for a specific type of ytp with altered plot where they have to steal a golden burger from Smaug #also didn't expect an ask of this sort but thank you anyway xD

[heatsu]

not really creative concept art I may or may not do in the future

the quality is just not here lol

#it was inspired By one song #to be more specific #by #jak tu ciemno #(how dark it is here) #by bartosz chajdecki #ITS SO GOOD FUCK #Especially by the lines that translate to #and even though i can hear it shuffling #i know it will never catch me #as my dad will protect me #and throw this thing out of the house #it's from one serie i rly wanr ro watch but there aren't any free sources:--( #also your girlies brajn chemistry has been altered #because i think i kinda bruised my arm artery #but we're alive so lets go 🥴 #heatsu art #hellsing ultimate #iscariot #heinkel wolfe #Alexander Anderson #concept art

[softmutt444]

whumper forcibly cutting whumpees hair off i love you

#or altering whumpees appearance in any way #like the hair specifically gets me #i think thats one trope i include in almost all of my stories whump or not #but other stuff pf the same flavor are also just so good #whump #whump trope #forced change of appearance

[system-of-a-feather]

Forget Nonbinary, I'm a Gender Bender from the Gender Nation

#alter: riku #xivs telling me to tag this with the terf tags to rile them up cause they literally do talk about the Gender Nation and crap i swear #but im resisting the urge #it sounds funny #but hmm #i will only do it if people poke me to #shitpost #transgender #nonbinary #atla #avatar the last airbender #ftm #mtf #ntm #ntf #enby #i will settle with #terfs dni #so that the terfs that DO interact are inherently specifically looking for people to break the boundaries of

[multishipper-baby]

Loowynn fankid unleashed... A chaotic daredevil with delusions of grandeur, ready to conquer the world with nothing but their singing talents, a waveboard and this cool book about dark magic and shadows they conveniently found in their father's room. Surely nothing wrong can come out of that.

I'll think more about their backstory later... For now, have a sketch of the back of their hair and a lil drawing of the kiddo with Ray to celebrate my boy finally having a half sibling.

#fnafhs #loowynn #myart #myocs #I put a lot of effort into it and it still turned out ugly. rip me #when will my ability to draw come back from the war 😔 #also I don't actually think ae would be from the same universe? timeline? as rayray because I have a very specific idea #for how eak and owynn's relationship would progress during his life #and owynn having a kid with someone else would RADICALLY alter that lmao #but I can imagine them together for the fun of it #oc ken brooklynn #fnafhs oc

[dragons-and-yellow-roses]

Me, while manically cleaning my room at 3:27am: I should make several large, life-changing, irreversible decisions.

#so ive been in a bad mental state lately #because of many things. but the biggest being (yes i know ive complained about this in multiple other posts) #that my best friend and my ex gf were fucking. without even asking or telling me. i got no heads up. just figured it out on my own #which sucked and now im not speaking to either of them #and when i first found out i was in a bad place physically too #i had a terrible ear infection that was so fucking painful #and i realized i could concentrate on both things. so i focused on healing #and then i remembered ny family is coming to visit for Christmas #and thats a lot to deal with. so now im focusing on cleaning the apartment. specifically my bedroom #so im manically cleaning at 3:30am while angry and stressed and trying not to focus on this thing that makes me really upset #and in the middle of cleaning ill suddenly think 'should i quit my summer camp job?' or 'should i move states again?' #its not good. but i havent acted on anything #AND in the middle of cleaning i found all of my meds #i havent been taking them for months. but i decided im gonna start taking them again #i have a few refills left but then ill have to find a psychiatrist. i dont want to. but its definitely for the best #im trying to get my life back on track and build and better it #but then something hits me and completely derails everything and makes everything so hard #so anyway im gonna go do some more cleaning and try not to make life-altering decisions. and maybe build a desk #btw i have to get up at 9am to take out my puppy. and at 11:35 i have to get ready for work. again its 3:30am #and im full of manic energy #tomorrow is going to be very bad but at least I'll have a semi-clean room

[problemothic]

me (the evil npd alter) when i start fronting and my face changes to become sadistic and evil:

#actually npd #npd #ableism #system memes #npd symptom holder #npd memes #plural memes #npd bigotry tw #npd stigma #pls tell me if there are other tags ppl use to filter out npd bigotry even if made fun of bc i dont know them but im trying my best out her #hazbin hotel fictive #undescribed #also god i was just trying to find info about specific alters having npd when a lot of the system doesnt #and found these assholes talking about us like theyre telling ghost stories and im like #man im just a normal guy living my life can u not be weird about it lol #but also #ooh am i that scawwy honey #fear me more :3 #red smoke and mirrors