#life altering for me specifically

[ree-duh]

#ri✨talks #life altering for me specifically #overwatch #hanzo shimada #ramattra

[kitamars]

enmi gintoki…………… orz

#bfy altered my neurons entirely that movie is actually crack made for me specifically #THE ANGST IS SO SO SAD. BUT SO SO GOOD #i’ve had these for soooo long but i just forgot to post them lmao #i think about him. a lot. Too much #enmi gin appeals to the part of my brain that thinks markings (smtiii remnant) and bandages are fucking cool #i LOVEEEE THIS DESIGNNNNNN ACK #it makes me feels so. hngh #his faint smile when he’s finally beaten and is near the end. someone wants me dead #fun fact though i couldn’t take them saying virus seriously bc of the fucking ill smith episode #i’ll be trying to listen to plot but everytime they mention viruses i start giggling incessantly #anyways #BE FOREVER YOROZUYA RUINED MY LIFE AND IM VERY GRATEFUL FOR THAT #sakata gintoki #be forever yorozuya #yorozuya yo eien nare #gintama #ok bye

[multishipper-baby]

Loowynn fankid unleashed... A chaotic daredevil with delusions of grandeur, ready to conquer the world with nothing but their singing talents, a waveboard and this cool book about dark magic and shadows they conveniently found in their father's room. Surely nothing wrong can come out of that.

I'll think more about their backstory later... For now, have a sketch of the back of their hair and a lil drawing of the kiddo with Ray to celebrate my boy finally having a half sibling.

#fnafhs #loowynn #myart #myocs #I put a lot of effort into it and it still turned out ugly. rip me #when will my ability to draw come back from the war 😔 #also I don't actually think ae would be from the same universe? timeline? as rayray because I have a very specific idea #for how eak and owynn's relationship would progress during his life #and owynn having a kid with someone else would RADICALLY alter that lmao #but I can imagine them together for the fun of it #oc ken brooklynn #fnafhs oc

[dragons-and-yellow-roses]

Me, while manically cleaning my room at 3:27am: I should make several large, life-changing, irreversible decisions.

#so ive been in a bad mental state lately #because of many things. but the biggest being (yes i know ive complained about this in multiple other posts) #that my best friend and my ex gf were fucking. without even asking or telling me. i got no heads up. just figured it out on my own #which sucked and now im not speaking to either of them #and when i first found out i was in a bad place physically too #i had a terrible ear infection that was so fucking painful #and i realized i could concentrate on both things. so i focused on healing #and then i remembered ny family is coming to visit for Christmas #and thats a lot to deal with. so now im focusing on cleaning the apartment. specifically my bedroom #so im manically cleaning at 3:30am while angry and stressed and trying not to focus on this thing that makes me really upset #and in the middle of cleaning ill suddenly think 'should i quit my summer camp job?' or 'should i move states again?' #its not good. but i havent acted on anything #AND in the middle of cleaning i found all of my meds #i havent been taking them for months. but i decided im gonna start taking them again #i have a few refills left but then ill have to find a psychiatrist. i dont want to. but its definitely for the best #im trying to get my life back on track and build and better it #but then something hits me and completely derails everything and makes everything so hard #so anyway im gonna go do some more cleaning and try not to make life-altering decisions. and maybe build a desk #btw i have to get up at 9am to take out my puppy. and at 11:35 i have to get ready for work. again its 3:30am #and im full of manic energy #tomorrow is going to be very bad but at least I'll have a semi-clean room

[harbingersglory]

honestly i feel like chiori is a snarky sassy power bottom and that actually makes my service stone top ass fold every single time i honestly need her so bad

like you want me to pleasure you? yes maam fingers ir mouth or strap???

would go on all fours for her any day

starting to think ya'll are reading my mind!! get out of there its loud enough as is /j

i was literally doing the chiori story quest earlier today (im late, i know, but im lazy) and lord. the grip snarky femmes have over me is crazy i was folding immediately like yes ma'am anything you say ma'am. assertive women are so attractive it got me acting up like lordddd.

#asks #Anonymous #minors dni #not a fic #im just saying if miss chiori wanted to tie me up to use me solely for her pleasure id thank her #her entire quest had me sweating i wanted to pull her so badddd but im saving for arle im in shambles #geo women in fontaine r soooo pretty it makes me lightheaded i will bark for them if they ask #i see a femme and my brain gets blended i start chewing on drywall literally bouncing off the walls barking like a dog #being stone w a snarky femme is a life altering experience i think id explode #so glad i found my target audience (lesbians but specifically other butches) #i need to write more dom!reader content i feel awkward writing sub!reader HSKDJFHKJS #like idk what im doing here im stone um

[48787]

New Transmission The fucking Scientific Instrument Class Pseudocons apparently developed what they're calling "Hetero Sapience" and are corrupting the brainmodules of the non-Pseudo 'cons around them by using annoying xenophilosophy words. Soundwave tells me they're 'Greek' and 'Latin' words, apparently. Cool, I guess? Anyway, if you see any SI Class 'cons causing... issues, just try your hardest to turn your brainmodule off before you start getting infected with their weird lingo, alongside all the other issues pertaining to letting the SI Pseudocons transmit data into your brainmodule in their own weird ways. Thundercracker, on a bet with Starscream, tried to get into an argument with one of them and his head literally exploded when it started talking about Alpha Trion's "Mythological Origins" in its weird dialect. He's mostly fine, CR Pods are working at 'peak' efficiency, but the facial reconstruction is apparently impossible due to some kind of corruption. I thought it was just some weird prank but there weren't even any scorch marks or anything. Just exploded. So yeah, just avoid optical contact and auditory contact to the best of your ability and you should be fine. Otherwise, try to force-shutdown your brainmodule if you can. Shockwave is working on a cure right now, mostly because I know he had something to do with this in the first place so he's going to be the one to fix it. He probably wanted a greater justification to do that weird data-transfer idea he mentioned previously. But it also explains the weird Thunderwing hypotheticals he's been asking me lately... Can I go one fucking cycle without someone trying to "Perfect Thunderwing's Work" or whatever other idiotic drivel that I keep finding our limited energon reserves siphoned into?? It's not even a Shockwave thing, it's like every damn Cybertronian these days thinks they have the "Missing piece of the puzzle" or whatever. In fact, Shockwave might be doing this as a weird threat against the other R&D 'cons to cement himself as the one and only Decepticon "Allowed" to have resources wasted on projects like that. Ugh, now that I think about it, that's probably a correct assumption and he's probably gonna expect me to thank him for it later. Ugh, and he's probably literally right. Ugh. At least his repairs both to himself and to his lab seem to be mostly complete so further research into the SI project should hopefully come along a little faster. Both Shockwave and Soundwave think the SIs could potentially be used as some kind of specialty weapon, but we'll have to see how they work on sparkless lifeforms, like biological lifeforms or xenomechanical lifeforms. The SIs don't seem to corrupt each other, but Shockwave keeps reaffirming that they're not "Sparkless Lifeforms" because they "were never lifeforms to begin with"... but I think he's trying to hide something. Usually Soundwave is the one to pick up on that kind of technological obfuscation, but he actually agreed with Shockwave and offered to send Ratbat to try to work out exactly what each "sapient" SI is now capable of on a personal level. We could have just had regular Cybertronians aboard to fill the role SIs fill. I would've preferred K Class to fill any role an SI could fill in all honesty!! But no, constructing cold wasn't enough, we just had to try to learn how to "Construct Frozen" and the "Absolute Zeroes" just had to be put on my ship. Whatever. I've probably said too much already. This was supposed to be a warning for my ship crew, but it's looking like it'll end up being transcribed on the golden disk as well so when this new Scientific Instruments of Destruction project backfires in some absurdly bombastic way there will at least be something remaining that says I was right. End of Transmission

New Transmission Okay so I was right, but so was Shockwave and Soundwave. Or, well, they were right just enough to make sure the backfire is postponed for at least another handful of cycles. Ratbat is still in CR from the investigation, but the cure Shockwave developed seems to be effective and Thundercracker is out and aiding the repair effort. Shockwave is now in contact with one of the SIs digitally and the other few are... integrating due to the personal efforts of Soundwave. I suppose now would be pertinent to mention not all the SIs developed the "Hetero Sapience" condition, many of them are safe for interaction. Soundwave is also currently monitoring their presence, Ravage is tasked with the regular SIs and Laserbeak is tasked with the "Sapient" SIs. Shockwave probably knows exactly what caused this event but he is preoccupied with the one he no doubt is either indoctrinating or ruthlessly interrogating. Report to Soundwave if you see any suspicious behavior, he has been working very hard to ensure the SIs have their purpose clearly defined (And closely monitored). And, Starscream, stop trying to convince the SIs that you are the leader of this ship. Not only have the majority of your efforts been wasted on subsentient automata, the only one you have actually found who possesses the ability to truly listen to you immediately came to the bridge to complain about you. They were the first sapient SI I communicated with directly and it was because they felt the need to complain about you. I almost feel embarrassed for you. Come back to the bridge so you can apologize to it or so I can teach it how to laugh at you. It's practicing right now actually! This moment of chaos should hopefully be largely under control now, the actual "population" of Scientific Instrument Class Pseudocons was actually quite fewer than initially expected due to an indexing error incorrectly labeling certain shells as SI class. At the very least, we have some more specialty warriors because of it all. End of Transmission EOF

#yippie peace through tyranny!! #nemesis posting #Decepticon High Command Slice of Life rambles #Matrix Visions #I like this “chat” font I think it's cool #spacebridge still needs more time in the oven unfortunately #I'm also procrastinating on that because I can't seem to wrap my head around guestmount but do not want to send backup files one at a time #wegh. It'll get done. Eventually. #I'll have so much more bullshit once I actually finish the damn comic my wife radically altered my life with hehehe #I cannot wait to start posting about Alpharius Trionicon. He's the fucking worst if you couldn't tell by name alone and I love him so much #Anyway I just had a very specific joke/pun in my head in the shower then it turned into a whole *thing* like it usually does. #I usually don't explain shit but the shower idea centered around getting the SI acronym to work for hyper specific jokes. #Still can't decide if I want to lock in on “Scientific Instrument” because it fits *so well* for *so many reasons* #But “Synthetic Intelligence” is more generic in a more understandable way... Eeh.. It's a little *too* generic. “Instrument” is cooler. #Once my wife helps me understand her lil fucker more I'll come up with an even shitter joke using “Y/N” so I can do Y/N x SI x SI bullshit! #Oh! The matrix triune project is coming along slowly as well!! I think I mentioned that microphone project once or twice now hehe #I'm gonna make so many shitty covers of songs once I get the soundproofing to start focusing on vocal training stuff #It's been quite a fun time aboard the nemesis!! There's so much to “Blog” about that it's hard to really know when to start *or* stop hehe! #And the fact that all these projects are all interwoven is so fucking wonderful!! I FINALLY feel able to fully grasp my own focus!! #My brain is like a particle collider for certain interests now. I can reliably just.. Spit things out and tie it into the other interests! #It's sometimes exhausting but in such a new way. Like a relieving exhaustion? #Still figuring that part out!! #Anyway that's enough personal project vagueposting I should really be getting back to work hehe this was fun

[commsroom]

I hit memoria in my wolf 359 relisten and I’m so so unwell. spinning Hera around and around in my brain.

ough, memoria is like... i'm always worried about over-hyping it to people who are listening to the show for the first time, but it really is that good. one of those pieces of media that fundamentally alters the way you think. hera is so so important to me.

#not an exaggeration to say the particular way i connected with memoria. and hera in general. altered the course of my life #it gets to me in so many very specific ways and then has the audacity to also have some of the best sound design in the show #character expression and development through sound design ... i think about it so much #(... enjoy your relisten!!) #asks

[freepassbound]

Look on my works, ye mighty, and despair!

(because you do not have cookies 🤭😁)

#and specifically *these* cookies #proud owner of (for now) 42 of these delicious little guys #easily my finest creation #(if alteration to an existing recipe can be called creation) #but for now I am heating up mac & cheese #because I forgot to the get the ground turkey out to thaw to make the lasagna 😅 #(which was supposed to be yesterday's meal) #(but I had all that leftover pizza left to fill me up) #(so was going to have Boxing Day lasagna) #(now it'll just be Wednesday lasagna I guess?) #free life

[compacflt]

wow very cool. as a european i am learning a lot about the us navy and defense and everything from your blog haha! idk if you've answered this before but what made you wanna work in defense?

Russia invading ukraine on my birthday lol. though i was always interested in military history/military fiction even as a kid. that was just the watershed moment for me personally

i don’t want to work IN defense though. I want to write ABOUT defense. still not sure what that looks like exactly for me. move to DC definitely. maybe get a position at one of the twenty trillion trade publications there are around here. Or comms job, govt job, journalism job… not sure. hopefully i will figure it out ! would love to write fiction for a living but im realistic enough to know that’s an oxymoron

(Also, side note, i am very flattered, & i know i say this somewhat often but i feel the need to repeat it every once in a while… please don’t take anything i say on this blog / ESPECIALLY in my writing as fact. i misrepresent stuff and get stuff wrong all the time, sometimes on purpose for story reasons. I try my best but i simply lack experience & worldview and have spent functionally zero time being an Adult or having to deal with Adult topics [still do not know what a 401k is!]. for instance if you even mention the words “security clearance” or “congressional confirmation hearing” in the general vicinity of my fics, the plot, nay, the entire CONCEPT, goes up in flames, as i discuss in this post. i really appreciate this comment don’t get me wrong But there are definitely better/more accurate places to learn about these topics than a 20y.o. A&D intern who is only just beginning their career & is still confused about many of the basics of real life. I have a lot of growing up still left to do & you really don’t have to listen to me)

#saying this only bc I myself am trying to learn from those better sources #the whole concept of ‘Guy who is closeted even from himself’ doesn’t work when a core part of his job is specifically being asked #‘if an enemy government discovered your secret gay lover & threatened to expose it would you betray the US to keep it secret’ #no idea what ice as i have written him would respond tbh #and just that alone is enough to deny his clearance LOL he’s cooked #anyway—ugh don’t get me started on how conflicted i am about my career #as of posting this i have finished my first aerospace & defense internship/job #would do it again #freaking out about what that means for my own personal politics #w/e i have 2 years left of college. not gonna worry about this now. #I have a lot of growing up still left to do. #thanks for the ask anon i think i know who you are. <3 love you. #i could talk about my experience with the nyc ukrainian community for a week straight tbh #getting involved with them was genuinely life-altering stuff #compacflt has finally figured out how to internally link to previous posts on mobile: hallelujah

[dilfkuza]

watching Nishitani's death scene always leaves me devastated. like noooo king you can't die you haven't gotten your rocks off in a decent fight yet

#jokes aside the first time i saw that scene I wasn't ready for it. he's such an earnest guy who embodies this wild persona fully -> #and when the audience may believe he'll go wild again or pull some shit to save himself what does he do? #he tries to run for his uncle and shields Majima from the bullets. #he didn't have to give up his life but he saw something in Majima that he wanted to protect. a reflection maybe. #that line he says about “why couldn't we have met earlier” and chiding himself for being sentimental... goddd i need more of him #it makes me wonder specifically what he would think of the Mad Dog persona. #would he be proud that Majima took after him? glad to have someone that understands? #or perhaps downtrodden that Majima could follow his direct footsteps into an early grave himself? #i mean we've seen Majima throw himself into situations where he could die any minute. its not wrong to say its a miracle he's gonna see 60 #but is that also something he learned from Nishitani? that he can sacrifice himself if it means the ones he loves will thrive? #ughhhh mr nishitani i miss your silly ass... literally altered Majima's brain chemistry that day in the jail cell.... #also not to be too theorist or anything but like. i wonder if anyone tried to get Nishitani help or if they let him die. #bc his men were in the (unlocked) cell with him; one of them could have run for help or a medic even if it was too late #but would he want that? or would he have wanted to be left in peace with his only family member- dead by association with him? #grrrr i need more info on him..... but at the same time i love that they left him fairly vague... #we get just the hint of his attitude being a persona and thats it.... GOD i need to rip something up im consumed with blorbo thoughts #nishitani homare #bulletin board

[aeon-knight]

relistening to the trial arc makes me ILL bro /pos

its just. the way its so unfair. the way it feels so inherently wrong. how both we as the audience AND glenn learn about nicks true character, setting him up to fix these problems and properly connect with his son, only for everything to be ripped out from beneath our feet. its jarring. it feels like everything is going too fast. any shred of hope for a second chance is gone. glenn tried, goddammit it he tried, but he fucked up, and he was never given the chance to fix it. i cant express how dreadful that is, to realize your mistakes just too late, knowing full well the negative effect they had on the person you love most, right before that person as you know them is taken from you forever. you have to live every day seeing that person and thinking "you used to be mine" and knowing that your relationship will never be the same. and nothing you can ever do will change that. what the fuck.

#dungeons and daddies #fucking. i think about glenn a lot #specifically post-meth bay glenn #imagine seeing your fucking child but hes not your child anymore #the person you love most #the last remnant of your past life #virtually gone from your life #ofc it does end up working out in the end and hes still part of nicks life #but his decisions forever altered that relationship #as well as nick himself #i see ppl say that they dont like the trial arc bc of how it gave nick actual personality before not doing anything with it #but i actually love it #it really makes you feel how glenn must've felt in that moment #learning these things about his son for the first time and then being helpless to do anything about it #it makes me feel so much dread in an “holy shit this is good storytelling” kind of way #mia mumbles

[p1anether]

they put crack in the music you liked in middle school

#i miss the lorde pure heroine marina electra heart lana del rey ultraviolence era of my life #one direction midnight memories 5 seconds of summer self titled album ariana grande my everything #the 1975 self titled album arctic monkeys AM #halsey vampire weekend troye sivan …. #this list of albums is not universal this is specific to me #like whatever album u listened to too much at ages 12-14 #permanently altered ur brain chemistry

[walkawaytall]

Look, be considerate of people and don’t purposefully trigger someone’s PTSD and anxiety, but if the only thing holding someone together is you managing their anxiety by altering life choices that have nothing to do with them…babes, that is just simply not your circus nor your monkeys.

#I know this is highly specific #but realizing I was ‘keeping the peace’ by managing someone else’s anxieties for them #by altering life choices that do not actually affect them #has at least helped me not get into heated conversations about these topics #because I can now see the attempts to manipulate situations and conversations to try to convince me to do xyz #due to their personal anxieties from like a mile away

[jcbs-posting]

the worst thing about realizing you have a great narrative opportunity to kill off one of your characters in a meaningful way is trying to argue w yourself about it and, through this, only making it more narratively interesting likeglkjdlfkjf

‘god, not them, anyone but them’ -> the weight of the meta emotional loss matches the stakes

‘but they’re connected to the people around them, they’re an essential part of the story and other characters’ -> the weight of the in universe loss matches the stakes, and enforces the themes of loss and the violence of systemic institutions and how losing one person effects all of us

‘they’ll leave behind someone who loves them’ -> and that person will fight for their memory now, won’t they? that will effectively set up act 3, won’t it? avenging your love (who did everything to save you, who gave it all up so you could still be breathing, and it isn’t fair, it isn’t fair that they fought for you and gave up their own life so you could stand here, alone) is often a more effective motivator than avenging yourself.

‘this isn’t supposed to be a tragedy’ -> bestie babe YOU are the person who put a dozen people in a government torture facility what the fuck do u think you’re writing

like girl help me ghlkjblkjsf

#i do not want this person to die but ohhhhh god. ohhhhhhhhhhh god #me who Needs this character to live and have a full life vs me who goes Apeshit for this specific kind of tragic lovers #plus the final words would be so good. im so upset about this #i would essentially be pulling a pyrrha nikos w the person im considering killing off which is GUTTING #but like.ghlksjdfjdf thats the POINT #the point is that this horror has stolen years and abilities and peace from hundreds of lives. and now its taking LIVES too #it cannot be ignored it cannot be escaped it has to be defeated #and like. someone Has to die narratively at the end of pt 2 to fully realize those stakes #otherwise i think everyone will be too exhausted and afraid to fight back ghbkjgh #act 2 needs to end in a future altering horror that demands the anger and action of act 3 #but i will restate. oh god not them gwhlkjksghljkjg BUT THE TRAGEDY OF IT MY GOD #IT WOULD LINGER WITH ME. IT WOULD HAUNT ME LIKE ROGUE ONE YKNOW #biting and screaming and clawing at the bars on my cage #my post #liminal #tragedy fans when they have to write the tragedy like aur naurrrr

[branzycrafted]

I just lost braincells reading someone stating the opinion that alters in a bodily afab system can't be transfem like NAAAHHHH BRO WHAT

#That took so many years off my life #Buddy. Pal. Body gender/agab does not affect alter gender identity <3 It doesn't mean they can or can't identify a certain way <3<3 #WHAT #Also they specifically said female body but I would like to say afab instead #Lord help me #Proudly stated transphobia I guess yikes #How are you gonna tell people they can't be trans just cause they're in a system with a certain bodily agab #[''roll the dice!'' | 🎲.txt] #UUUHHHH I will label this syscourse I guess????? #// syscourse #// transphobia #I count it as that very much

[ladychlo]

x

#@not to publish anon #you absolutely resumed it at the end #but this is really important and your concern and thinking is so valid #moving out of state is not an easy decision or something to brush off like idk changing a phone or something #its life altering decision and its altering your life specifically bc you exist outside of them and being outside of being someone's friend #no matter how long lasting it is lf a friendship your concerns are actually reasonable and healthy to have #bc you as you said you have other things in your life than these friends you have your family your stuff your whole self outside lf them #and I think its only fair and absolutely necessary to have a proper conversation about this its really fair to demand to have a proper talk #about this #and they should understand and listen maybe for them felt right to move out of state maybe you dont feel that way #it should not compromise a friendship or a relationship #I just need you to remember that your reasons are valid no matter what #whatever makes sense to you is valid and I hope they dont make these reasons sounds silly or not important #and I hope they get to understand them as they should and give each other the time to properly talk about this #thank you for sharing this with me #I hope it all goes well for you and trust your guts and how your brain reason it cause at the end its also about you individually #xx