#makes me depresso

[smilesrobotlover]

Do y’all think about how Four’s dad in the manga thought his son was dead and do you think about how Four thought he killed his father when they had to fight do you think about that or are you emotionally stable

#smiles rambles #I’m thinking about them #and it’s too sad for me bruh #i like the Japanese version of their fight with Dad more cuz #they thought he was an illusion #which is why they attacked him so #however he wasn’t an illusion and they thought that they just murdered their own father #it makes more sense character wise to me anyhow #Blue isn’t heartless but I don’t think he’d ever willingly kill his father #even if he didn’t want him to be used like that #I just like the illusion bit better #anyways #yeah Dad thought his son was dead #makes me depresso #even tho the manga didn’t show him depressed lol #i wish there were more moments between him and his kids #guess I gotta do that myself 🙄

[separatedleoau]

let👏🏼my boy👏🏼stab👏🏼people👏🏼

(and Donnie to finaly use his leathal weapons)

@0ddbugs @coffinpal I don't know much of you guys au but I'm in love with the boys' designs (i wanna draw them properly when i have the time) also i love the comic you did<3

@less-depresso-more-espresso your Raph is *chef's kiss* i love her

the @tmntaucompetition is just gonna become a reason for me to make crossover art with other aus

#this poll is just introducing me to more AUs to get obssesed with #i cant believe this is the first fanart i do for less-depresso's au #tho is not the first time myy first time making fanart of a fandom or a specific auu turns out to be something silly instead of something #more refined like i would like to #anyways both aus are on my list of 'as i want to make fanart of' #the list is getting too long now #slau art #slau crossover

[seagull-scribbles]

But tonight, I’ll need you to stay

#tmnt 2012 #raphael hamato #casey jones 2012 #rasey #I usually have some sort of scenario or story to go with the things I draw but urhhhhh I got nothing #they have different sleep schedules after all but Raphs always been a napper in his free time #urgh idk #does anyone want to come up with something for me? #the smudged face paint I stole from less-depresso-more-espresso #I loved the idea it’s so good for story telling and I wanted to give it a try #and one day I’ll draw these guys in a different style not a messy one\ #but they do suit the grungy look #the last ones of these where still neater and better rendered but idc it’s fun and easy and works #i have been consumed by these two since feb but the first thing i posted was really hard for me to do so to just spam you all now is healin #the caption is from a skng rena sent me who hasnt seen 2012 but based on me talking about Casey thought it would fit #hello rasey fandom i am here on the rasey tag making my small mark

[keets-writing-corner]

One thing I noticed is that Lucifer doesn't disassociate when singing, and what's one common factor in his songs? Charlie, so I like to imagine that in these instances he's so focused on her that his depression temporarily takes a back seat because he loves his kid so much that he forgets why he's sad in the first place.

ooh I like your headcanons!

hmm I guess we could look at this a couple of different ways (some of what I'm about to say comes from personal experience which may be different than what some other people experience so idk feel free to agree or disagree with my musings)

So dissociation doesn't [technically] affect your ability to speak, it affects your ability to focus. The way I was talking about it in my analysis was that it nerfed Lucifer's conversation comprehension, with him being unable to follow along the entire time (and consequently either has NO idea what anyone is talking about or only gets half the picture).

The only times Lucifer really fumbles his words is when he gets nervous around Charlie either cuz he's trying to make a good impression

Or when he realizes his depression is biting him in the ass and he just missed crucial pieces of information and cannot bluff his way through the conversation

Although shout out to that one time we caught him realizing he needed to bluff and stumbled a little

But otherwise, he articulates himself perfectly fine, cuz again, dissociation isn't about speaking ability so much as it is about focus. Even in my bouts of dissociation I can verbalize myself just fine for the most part, it's whether or not what I have to say is relevant to the conversation, which uh Lucifer also showed off at some point when he thought Charlie was asking him about the hotel's appearance rather than her actual plan to redeem sinners and comments on the railings. (Or idk there is another interpretation that he was avoiding the subject, maybe it was both he disassociated while Charlie was explaining everything to him but did catch that she wanted to redeem sinners at some point, but didn't quite understand what she was asking until she clarified? he didn't seem surprised when she did clarify so I'm assuming he ended up catching it at least once)

So I'm bringing this up because it ends up being kinda hard to tell whether or not he is or is not disassociating when he sings, cuz the dissociation wouldn't affect the singing at all.

When he's having a sing battle against Alastor, sure he's articulating himself well and presenting his points, but we don't actually know whether or not he's following along what Alastor is saying. Honestly, Lucifer vs Alastor just seemed like 2 territorial chickens yelling at each other trying to be louder than the other one. Maybe Lucifer is catching everything cuz his jealous and rage helped him focus for once, maybe he's not catching everything but he doesn't need to catch everything to know that he doesn't like Alastor and he doesn't need to focus to tell Alastor how much he dislikes him.

But what about the other two songs, "More than Anything" and "Finale"?

He is technically outright having a conversation with Charlie in the first one and in the second one, he seems fully aware of the context of the situation and is focusing more on a lifting spirits role

Well it could be a lot of things I think. I don't think it's that the depression or the sadness took a back seat, that's still present. From my own experiences, it is possible to get yourself to focus in a dissociative episode when the subject matter is something you're passionate about or in Lucifer's case, someone that he loves. We know the dissociation was unfortunately strong enough that it was making him miss out on a lot of things Charlie (aforementioned loved one) was telling him, especially in the beginning.

But looking at "More than Anything" what changed in that scene? He was with Charlie the entire episode but that was the first scene where he really managed to hold a conversation. I think it was a combination of: Okay his baby girl is there and she NEEDS him, and he opens up as to why he's hesitant about her plan. He's not explicit with the mention of his trauma, but trauma does make someone more alert. I'd also like to give a special shout out to @in-fair-verona-we-set-our-scene who made these lovely tags on my analysis post

Specifically, I want to talk about that they mention that Lucifer is being a lot more genuine in his song with Charlie, aka he's not masking. He's not trying to hide or bluff how he's doing. He's not putting on a show, he's not being goofy or larger than life, he's being genuine and his genuine self is tired, sad and resigned. Let me tell you, my dissociation is 100% worse when I'm masking.

I think in "More Than Anything" a mix of things are going on, he's not needing to mask for a minute which boosts the focus, he's opening up about trauma and it's being gently received which boosts focus, and he's talking to someone he loves about something he was once passionate about which boosts focus. So ye! It could entirely be that in that song he was not dissociating!

As far as "Finale" I legitimately can't really tell whether or not he is? He's not really having a conversation with anyone, he's just trying to uplift his daughter, and again, in my experiences, dissociation doesn't necessarily nerf your ability to speak. We also know that he knows how to put on a show even in the depths of the dissociation like in "Hell's Greatest Dad" soooo as for that song... -shrug-?????

There is an element here that we have to take into account. Hazbin Hotel is a traditional musical, so we must look at a theater saying, "When the emotion becomes too strong for speech, you sing." Which is more or less what happened in all the songs Lucifer was a part in, so there's definitely some meta technical things going on in that a song wouldn't be very dramatic if the person singing it was dissociating the whole time? I mean I guess it could be done, I've just never seen it? Usually the musical number has to be clear in its purpose. The protagonist of Dear Even Hansen can sing just fine when any other speaking parts he fumbles with his words a lot.

AAAAAAALLL of this to say: Does Lucifer stop disassociating when he sings? -shrugs- I think it really depends on the context, but I wouldn't at all be surprised cuz high emotion can lead to greater focus in a moment. Although it's really cute to think that he doesn't dissociate cuz singing with Charlie is just that much of a boost for him cuz he loves his wittle girl

#Hazbin hotel #Lucifer #Lucifer Morningstar #Dissociation #Singing #Hazbin Hotel spoilers #I'm glad you sent me this ask #I've actually been thinking about this a lot tbh #But I've been so busy writing my depresso lucifer fic that I just haven't sat down to properly mull this over yet #Judging from the replies of my last analysis #I hit the nail on the head with a lot of people struggling with dissociation #So I hope that this will extend here as well #but everyone experiences shitty mental health a little differently as well #so I hope that what I'm using to make an analysis this time still rings true and isn't just a me experience #anyways #love the scrunkly #Very excited for season 2 now #meta #analysis #anon ask

[yukipri]

The Prime Override - Chapter 68 is up!

Rex - The Prime Override, Victory and Death Remix

Really excited to share this chapter, it's been a long time coming!! Most of it was written two years ago *sweats*

I hope you enjoy!!

This Chapter: The dark, smoking spot from a blaster bolt, blooming on her brow.

WARNINGS: Very temporary but major, semi-graphic character death!!!

"In my...vision, thing, you were with Ahsoka," Jesse says, staring straight forward. They're closer than they'd usually sit, and his ARC pauldron bumps against Rex. "You mean I stood there and let you shoot her," Rex says, empty. Jesse frowns, but he's distracted. He shakes his head, several times. "No, no...you were with her. You were on her side. She'd—she'd taken your chip out and disabled the Order. You were free from it."

> > Read Ch 68 on AO3

#ThePrimeOverride #YukiPri writes #AO3 #TCW #the clone wars #Captain Rex #ARC Trooper Jesse #star wars #ahsoka tano #clone troopers #praying i didn't make any super stupid last minute mistakes bc my anti-depressos make me so so SO sleepy #and i have been nodding off for the past several hours while editing ;_;

[wikitpowers]

even julian saw how happy kit made ty & that actually makes me want to fall to the ground and weep :’(

#like actually this makes me fucking depresso lol #that whole scene with julian and kit in sobh in general always messes me up #and the fact that julian didn't even say that line out loud makes it SO much worse #jesus why are kitty ALWAYS so angsty #just let me live #julian blackthorn #kit herondale #ty blackthorn #kit x ty #kitty #secrets of blackthorn hall #sobh #tsc

[oh-gods-its-a-dragon]

Look man I'm tired and lowkey depressed. If a yandere wanted me they can have me as long as I can still see my mom and talk to my friends online. That's it. I have too much love to give and they can have it all. that's all I want.

#yandere x reader #yandere x darling #yandere imagines #this is a joke kinda not really but yes? #dragon.rambles #like seriously tho ik their whole deal is usually like they want all of my attention #but sometimes they just steal y/n bc they're like omg no they won't like me fr i gotta force them #bitch i am DESPERATE and LONELY gou could've literally just asked #and then they jump the gun by making everyone hate u and its just-- #like my guy. if this were me?? i will genuinely do whatever (within reason ig) if u let me see n talk to my mommy. idfc. #and my friends are across the country and sometimes the world just let me text them i will literally sit on your fucking lap as i type #i care abt these ppl and it would make me the big depresso if i can't interact with them every few days so im just sayin-- #i have no self preservation y'all

[tangledinink]

Can we have more info in the egg that are happening in Gemini AU? Mega confusion. So did they like- mingle with someone? Are they unfertilized? Or is it like- asexual reproduction???

"Mingle with someone" is the best term for sex I've ever heard.

No, neither of the Gemini are having any children, asexually or otherwise. The eggs are unfertilized. (Note the line in part one where Donnie explains how they can destroy and discard of said eggs. Please also note the tags of the original comic!) Turtles can lay unfertilized eggs the same way chickens can. Think of it as the reptilian version of a menstrual cycle. This is also why Leo says in part two that it's a repeated event.

I made a whole ass poll about this (apparently this is something the fandom feels strongly about...) and the general consensus that I landed on for my AU was that an afab mutant ninja turtle's menstrual cycle involves a few days of bleeding and ends with unfertilized eggs (think, like, baseball size, maybe a bit smaller.) During the summer, this happens about once a month. The rest of the year, it's much more rare and sporadic.

#i know that ive done this to myself #and i cannot blame anyone but me #but i never imagined myself spending so much time talking about ninja turtle reproductive cycles online #jfc #i just wanted to make a surprise!trans turtle comic #@less-depresso-more-espresso did this happen to you when you made ur comic #if not #what did i do wrong #my goodness #i dont even know how to tag this smh #tw menstruation #asks #gemini au asks #anon

[totallynotsarkaz]

Give Absinthe all the hugs and happy memories

toss her to ursus gang to form a HUGE bear hug

#srkzbox #I love my depresso bear daughter #she steadily making friends with the gang makes me happy for her #only time will tell us for them to be out of their misery

[twinanimatronics]

Was gonna share my reaction to the SAMs episode today but after yesterday idk if I ever will anymore…

#people choosing my last post as their platform to spout their bullshit grievances make me not wanna #feeling depresso remembering now #hate the show all you want but make your own damn post instead of hijacking mine to rant how much you hate it

[anidealistatbestburntoutatworst]

kunikidazai and shakespeare,,, what a duo

i leave it to the imaginative little ppl reading this to come up with a preface

dazai: “i love you, kunikida”

kunikida *brows furrowing a yearnfull sadness coming over him*: “dazai- you say you love rain, but yet you open your umbrella. you say you love the sun, but you always find a spot in the shadows. you say you love the wind, but you close your windows the first you hear of its rustling . these reasons dazai, are why i am afraid when you say that you love me too.”

#crying over my own blurb lmao #i can’t escape the kunikidazai brainrot #kunikida x dazai #i hurt my own feelings #bungo stray dogs #i tried to write a kunikidazai fic and made myself so depresso espresso i had to stop lmao #kunikidazai #knkdz #literally made myself sad #bsd kunikida #bsd dazai #bsd ships #this is my comfort ship (makes content that requires comforting) #ah yes unrequited love wooohoo #they’re so special to me #why can’t i just write fluff for them #i chose violence #can’t they just hug or something please #my heart can’t handle it #im crumbling at the thought of them #i quoted this and shocker i do know where it’s from #shakespeare #bungo gay dogs #when will it be their turn to be happy #*sobs so hard into my pillow i forget how to breathe* #bsd anime #bsd #make of this what you will #i am too tired to think of a preface but this fandom will take it into their own hands #god i love them *passes out*

[zinniapetals]

The Famous French Method for the Bite of a Mad Dog

Pairing: Chuuya/Dazai

Rating: T

Words: 20,857 (ongoing)

Notes: SKK harry potter au; Slytherin Chuuya and Hufflepuff Dazai because ~plot reasons~; eventual M rating but for now T;

#skk fic #soukoku #skk #chuuya nakahara #dazai osamu #lizwrites #okay Hufflepuff dazai is so strange but I promise it makes sense bc of plot #also title is a legit potion in hp universe #but also fits chuuya so well #not sure if I should make this a one shot and the other years a series #also my engagement numbers so far on this fic has me feeling expresso depresso #bsd #bungou stray dogs

[lylahammar]

The absolute worst thing about Tiktok is the graphic suicide jokes under any romantic video of a couple in love, and I'm positive that the kids on there will look back at that and cringe someday

#gen z always makes fun of millennials for making a buncha depresso 'I'm trash' jokes but then they pull this shit lmao #like frankly worse #not that the depresso jokes are good either #I just wanted to complain bc I see it on literally any romantic tiktok and it drives me fuckin nuts #it's my least favorite meme that has ever existed #lyla's talking again

[steppenwolfofslytherinhouse]

when i feel a little depresso I like to remind myself that I'd be able to pull Toji on any day as opposed to picking him off the street like a stray dog on his most vulnerable day and babytrapping him☺️

#traumatized people should NOT be having kids. #I'm saying this as a traumatized person trust #my generational trauma ends with me tyvm. #personal ramblings #jujutsu kaisen #toji fushiguro #jjk toji #😇 #depresso is instantly cured ^^ #“ah yes a kid will surely make him a better person and cure his trauma” LOL

[super-mega-ultra-cock]

How to un-mental illness so i can actually fucking talk about ym feelings instead of not feelign them until i breakdown.

#depresso #make me normal #feelings are gross #do i have autism or adhd? #the world will never know #mentally tired #i am insane

[legalize-necromancy]

taco bell 🙏

#the depresso hitting hard #i have two days til i make it thru the year.. #i hope this taco bell fix me pls im trying so hard