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A Glory of A Fallen Angel

A Glory Of a Fallen Angel

First part of Mammon Trilogy ; (2) Up Above , Down Below (3) -

Summary : An angel once renowned turned into a disdained demon. Yet somehow, Mammon was given a chance to lift himself from shame.

A/N : First and last post this month because I’ll be taking a good hiatus and our research defense is next week basically means my death putanginang SSC tulungan nyo koh sa manuscript myghad so enjoy! By the way, I know Mammon have this accent but I’m really lazy to emphasize that point im so sorry–

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It was too bad. Too harsh. Too much.

Mammon tried to imagine his life if he didn’t follow Lucifer- if only he had chosen Michael’s side. If he listened to Raphael, if he gave in in Simeon’s plea and he didn’t go against his father, would he be happy? Would he be Luke’s brother figure? Would he still have his golden halo around his head instead of his pointy black horns? Would he still have his big, comforting and bright wings instead of his dark bat-like ones? Would he still have the same overflowing grace instead of the aura of greed and death? Would he still be the same angel who was cherished, looked up upon and loved by many instead of the downgrade, good-for-nothing avatar demon?

Mammon let out a sigh while staring at the fireplace. It was just him in this cold empty house- as his brothers went outside for dinner. He was invited by Beel but he refused. Lucifer tried again but he refused once again so the brothers decided to accept his refusal and eat tonight without the Greed.

There was only silence- crack of the woods and the gentle whistle of wind surrounding Mammon. He doesn’t know why there’s a big part in his heart that regrets his choice of siding with Lucifer and his brothers for their sister’s faith. A big regret he can’t understand that he wasn’t supposed to feel. He knows there’s nothing to regret about. He’s happy in his life right now.. Isn’t he?

Mammon is not happy yet not sad either. He can’t understand the feeling of regret from his strip of glory yet he feels the regret of calling out and helping Lucifer. He can’t understand why he feels that he wanted to go back to the home he used to call, Celestia. He doesn’t know why he badly wants to see Michael despite the things the seraphim did to him and his brothers. He doesn’t know why he wants his father to forgive him.

He doesn’t know why he badly wants to go back to his glory.

It has been two weeks.. Two weeks full of loud and regretful chaos. Mammon being the stupid second born he is caused yet again a big ruckus. Apparently, this little excuse of a demon tried to steal the demon king’s ancient golden glass- something that was passed to each king that rules Devildom- something more sacred than the crown itself.

“Mammon.” As soon as the house’s door closed, Lucifer called out the white hair demon who stopped in his tracks. He turned around to meet with six different gazes, gazes that tell him he is nothing but disappointment.

Mammon knows where this is going. He faced his brothers, not making any eye contact.

“W-What?” He asked, staring at his shoes as if it’s something valuable or just something that will save him from Lucifer’s wrath tonight.

“Dang guess we’ll be hearing cries tonight” Leviathan said trying to hide his smirk. C’mon, it’s Mammon we’re talking about! Leviathan hates him from the Celestia and back at least what they both believe.

“Geez, Mammon can’t you hold yourself back for a bit?” Satan shaked his head and sighed. Asmo snakes his arms around the fourth born which seems like Satan doesn't mind.

“It’s Mammon Satan.. No matter how much you say that it won't get through his tiny, greedy brain~” Asmo said, giggling.

Beel and Belphie said nothing but they both know that what Mammon did is too far. Lucifer could tolerate it if it was just something small but it’s a sacred symbol for pete’s sake! Something valuable!

Mammon stayed silent, his head still hanging low, his eyes not leaving his leather shoes. He ignored the other’s comments, concentrating on what excuse he’ll say to Lucifer. Should he lie or tell the truth? Will Lucifer even believe what he’ll say?

“I could let it pass if it was a golden spoon, a grimm, a photograph of mine, or Leviathan’s figurines,” Lucifer started. Leviathan frowned at the mention of his figurines that the second born had stolen but said nothing. “But what you tried to steal and sell is the goddamn royal cup!”

“Mammon look at me” Lucifer’s voice was chilly and intimidating. Mammon flinched but followed what the first born had said.

Ocean blue meets fiery red. Mammon feels small under Lucifer’s gaze.

“Do you know what you did?” The venom in his older brother’s voice was enough to have his tears cloud on the side of his eyes. He’s not crying because Lucifer is angry at him. He’s not crying because his brothers look down on him. He’s not crying because he was embarrassed in front of the angels earlier. He’s crying because the brother who he thought would understand him the most is just as close minded their younger brothers are.

“Listen Lucifer I didn’t mean to! It- It just- I felt like I wanna grab it! I tried to–”

“No matter what excuse you’ll say, that’s not gonna save you from your punishment.” Mammon swallowed the lump that was piled on his throat before clenching his fist. Who damn cares about that? He’ll take it wholeheartedly since he knows what he did was wrong but won’t he listen? Why won’t Lucifer listen to his side?

“I don’t care about that punishment, I’ll take it. But liste–”

“No one will listen to you,” Leviathan chimed, making Mammon look at him. “I- I mean, all you tell were lies so do you expect we’ll believe what you’ll say?”

“I know you’re stupid Mammon but I didn’t expect your stupidness to go that far..” Beel’s head immediately snapped at his twin who suddenly talked. Mammon is their older brother, can’t he say it with respect?

“Right…” Beel somehow wants to punch himself for agreeing. It felt so wrong yet he knows that it was correct. Mammon was indeed stupid for letting his sin take over.

Mammon went silent before smiling. “Yeah right..” Beel wanted to say something- somehow wants to apologize but what Lucifer had said made his brothers stop.

“I wonder if Lilith was the one with us right now.. Surely it’ll be better if you’re the one who died instead of her.” Lucifer’s eyes are wide but his mouth won’t stop moving. “I must say that I’d rather have Lilith in your position and would rather have Lilith here instead of you”

The whole house was enveloped by silence, no one dared to move or speak. Mammon’s eyes stared at Lucifer’s shocked ones.

“Is- Is that what you think.. What you feel towards me?” Mammon tried his best not to sound broken. The pain hitted all of them like a truck.

“No- Wait that was–”

“You know, I often think what I'd be right now if I chose my real brother instead of you,” Mammon chuckled. Satan’s brows knotted.

“Huh? Real brother?” The wrath asked, totally confused. Mammon turned to him with a small smile. “Lucifer wasn’t originally my brother. Not him, not Leviathan, not even Lilith”

Satan blinked for a while as realization hit him.

“They’re not the siblings father put me into. It was- I was originally under Michael’s wing.. Until Lucifer entered the picture and broke our bond”

“Mammon–”

“What is it, dear brother Leviathan?” Mammon asked in his happy-go-lucky voice. The white haired demon forced his smile yet Leviathan saw through the smile. He can feel it.. The demon is envious of something.

“Michael.. Neglected his responsibilities as my brother. He barely had time for me and when I tried to interrupt his meeting with other seraphim and archangels.. That was when I first met Lucifer” Mammon said, making eye contact with Lucifer. “He was the one who calmly asked me to go out and spend time with me after. It was something Michael and I haven’t done for years. Since then, I started to follow Lucifer like a dog, then he introduced Leviathan and Asmodeus to me.”

Leviathan looked away and Satan felt Asmo’s grip on his arm tighten. Satan feels out of place yet he badly wants Mammon to continue his Celestial Realm story.

“Years later, the triplets were made” Beel and Belphie firmly stayed silent. Afterall, it was about them and their beloved sister. “Lucifer and his brothers made me feel the warmth of the family I didn’t feel when I was under Michael’s custody. So then I asked father if I could be under Lucifer’s wing. Thousands and millions of years had passed and being with all of them was the best.. Michael could go around and screw me for wishes I didn’t fulfill.. For the mess I made but I don’t care because I’m with everyone!”

Mammon laughed as tears left his eyes. Satan only stared at him while the others remained silent. Mammon has been a mystery to the Avatar of Wrath. The earliest memory the wrath could remember is that it was this laughing white haired demon. The first person who talked to him in the darkest days of all the brothers. The person who accepted him and helped him. The white haired demon who used to smile and annoy him. The white haired demon he looked up to.

“I’m not the only stupid in this family.” The sudden change of the tone of Mammon made everyone alert. Of course, he’s still the second born. The second rank and the second strongest after all. It’s not often to see the Avatar of Greed angry but once he is, it’ll be a good mess. “Tell me Belphegor, am I the stupid one or Lilith?”

Belphegor’s ears twitched and he suddenly turned into his demon form. What in Devildom’s name? Why is Lilith suddenly dragged here? “What the fuck Mammon?! What are you saying and Lilith?! What does Lilith have to do with your stupidity?!” Belphegor angrily shouted.

Beelzebub was as sensitive as Belphegor about Lilith. He felt his twin’s anger, as well as Satan. Beel looked at Mammon with a glare, “Please don’t mention Lilith in this.. Lilith isn’t stupid!”

“Really? Then what could have been the reason for our downfall then?” Mammon asked, which made the whole room silent once again. “Tell me Beel? What is the reason we fought father?”

“Mammon, you’re going too far!” Lucifer shouted in anger. The others flinched yet the second born demon doesn’t look moved at all. “For what I said earlier..”

Lucifer’s pride doesn’t want him to apologize. But he knows he has to. What he said was a trigger to his brother. Not even him realized what he said until he was finished. It’s as if his mouth has its own life and said what his brain wanted.

“Why? Lucifer tell me, if Lilith didn’t get the damn fruit to give to that damn human– if she didn’t interfere in that man’s death, do we have to fight for her?” Mammon gritted his teeth. He doesn’t want to curse his sister who he cherished the most. “If Lilith wasn’t stupid enough to make that hasty desicion, is there any reason why father have to throw her out?”

“Mammon–”

“You know Lucifer, I followed you because I thought it’ll be for the best. I know you can beat father. I believed your words and I believed that you love me even if I’m not really your brother?” Mammon let out a sad sigh. “Maybe I should have just listened to Michael.. He’s right after all. He’s my brother, I should've listened to him..”

“He’s right about your kindness.. He’s right about what I’ll be if I choose yo–” Lucifer’s fist met Mammon’s face. The younger brothers were too stunned to move or breathe. Mammon now really went too far.

“Are you hearing yourself, Mammon?!” Lucifer lost all his self control and once again punched Mammon. “Then you should choose Michael instead of us! If you regret it that bad then ask for his forgiveness! But we know you’ll never go back to your glory. Your greed is what caused your downfall!” Lucifer let go of Mammon who crashed on the floor. Asmodeus immediately went to him and helped him out yet the greedy demon slapped his hands away with a glare.

Lucifer was about to step on the stairs when a sudden blow from behind surprised him. Mammon had turned to his demon form and now, the house will be in mess with the two elder fighting.

“I know that, you prideful shit. And that’s what I regretted about. I regretted that I helped you out! Fuck it! I was always the clown of this broken family! I was the one who keeped all of you together! I was practically the reason why you’re all getting along with that fucking demon you made out of your anger– I am the only one who fixed this already rotten family!” Mammon tried to punch Lucifer but the oldest dodged it. “I was the one who filled your seat as the oldest because you’re too busy rubbing and kissing Diavolo’s royal fucking ass! If anything caused my downfall, it was you and your brothers! This stupid love I feel! And you know what you’re right” Mammon stopped, making the oldest stop as well.

“You’re right I’m greedy.. I’m really useless and Lilith should have been the one who lived” Mammon stepped on the stairs and made his way through his room.

“What the fuck?” Leviathan muttered, staring at Mammon’s back. The second eldest then stopped and looked back at them.

“It’s no use crying over spilled milk, right? Let’s just forget what happened.. I just need some space. Thanks, I was able to let out the anger I’m holding up until now. I’ll return to being the punching bag of this family but not now” Mammon disappeared in their sight and somehow, the tight atmosphere left as well.

The next day everything was back to normal. It was just that, Mammon returned to his original self like nothing happened last night. Mammon laughs and smiles at them yet they feel like he’s so far. So far that they feel like they can’t reach him.

“I’m really nervous but I can’t pinpoint what it is about” Asmodeus muttered while walking in the hallways with Satan.

“Are you ok?” the blonde demon asked and the champagne haired man shrugged.

“I don’t know.. It really feels so heavy, I can’t breathe properly” Asmo answered and felt the shiver in his spine again.

“Hey I know this isn’t the right time but is there a possibility of fallen angels returning to their glory?” Satan asked. Asmodeus thinks for a while.

“Hm… no. Fallen angels like us can never return. We had rejected our father and we were banished, remember? Our punishment is eternal.”

Satan only nodded and the two continued to the class.

A fallen angel can never return. Whether they did a good deed or they asked for forgiveness. Mammon didn’t. Sure he regretted defying his father but he never asked for forgiveness. He never did a good deed but there was a pull of faith for his father. The same pull he had when he followed Lucifer.

A fallen angel cannot return to its glory. Can never. But why is this white haired fallen angel got his halo and wings once again? And now stood in front of him was the same man he first saw when he first opened his eyes. The same man who cooed and held him in his arms firstly before Lucifer.

Michael reaches his hands over to Mammon with a smile. “Father wants to talk to you”

Mammon stared in horror. He was about to protest but he was dragged to the light and the next thing he knew, he was face to face with his father.

#im sorry for the lilith slander #obey me lucifer #obey me mammon #obey me leviathan #obey me satan #obey me asmodeus #obey me beelzebub #obey me belphegor #obey me angst #obey me mammon angst #a sudden au because im stressed rn-#kay but i really wanna write a fic about michael and mammon;-;

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