#like girl you dont have anything else to say?

[lixielovess]

"and i still dont care, i only care about you and how you feel. if it meant that I'd have to kill everyone in the world except for you and then myself just to prove that i love you, then I'll do so."

hyunjin x fem!chubby!reader

warnings: reader is insecure about her body, implied ED, swearing

genre: angst, fluff

hyunjin was a childhood friend of yours, you always hung out with him and you enjoyed being around him. but you were always considered the 'ugly' friend by your other friends, sometimes your family and you yourself agreed sometimes.. ofcourse he never did, he thought you were absolutely beautiful, tough he never said it.

when you were in junior high school, you could never be friends with anyone without someone shipping you two, but with you.. everyone always considered it as a joke. like you were a joke, people kept teasing hyunjin about liking you and he always denied it, and you believed him. he was never harsh about it he was genuinely nice, he was always polite with it but it always seemed to hurt you. you loved him, and deep down he knew he liked you aswell.

he was the handsome popular guy and you were just another one of his fangirls who just happened to be one of his friends. though you did have girl friends alot of girls seemed to hate you because you were friends with hyunjin, saying that you only hung out with him to distract yourself from how fugly you actually are. and honestly you thought the same, it was to the point you starved yourself and had to go to the hospital because you didn't eat the normal amount of food a healthy person should eat for about a month, but despite not eating almost anything at all you still looked like that.

and suddenly when you were in highschool in senior year when in the schools garden, he stood infront of you, bouquet in hand looking straight into your eyes "y/n y/l/n i-... i loved you.. i always have.. so please-" you cut him off. "is this some sort of joke..?" he froze up, confused, time seemed to stop as he just stared at you completely confused "what?"

"did one of your friends force you to do this? did you lose a bet? do you think its funny 'confessing' to the ugly chubby girl?" you we're used to it, guys confessing to you, going out with you because it was a dare or a jokey joke. but its happened to you over and over again for too many times to the point where you couldn't tell the difference between that and the real thing... and when someone actually had feelings, that someone being hyunjin, you turned him down because you didn't trust anyone that said they liked you, either way if it was true or not.

"Y/n-" "save it." angry tears welled up in your eyes as he just stared at you in disbelief "listen! please- im not joking! i genuinely do-" you grit your teeth, holding in your tears as you try not to break down sobbing "i thought you were my friend, hyunjin."

"i am! and i want us to be more than that-"

"Liar! you don't like me, i know you don't. you denied it since we were 10 and even until now you still do. feelings don't change overnight. i cant believe i thought you were my friend, never talk to me again you piece of shit" you ran off into somewhere, you dont know where you just walked. a few hours later you somehow arrived home, you waltzed into your room and just locked yourself in there.

days go by and you return to school completely ignoring him, everytime he came to talk to you, you just brushed him off like he was nothing.

your friends still hung out with him, and they brought you along when they hung out with him, but what else could you do? not hang out with your friends who've known you for years..? no. eventually you forgave him and tolerated him, and started hanging out with eachother more and more.

it wasn't until recently when you guys were alone, he took your hand and looked straight into your eyes when he confessed, again. "i.. i just wanted you to know that it wasnt a joke, i genuinely did love you back then and i didn't care about how you looked you were absolutely beautiful regardless. and i still dont care, i only care about you and how you feel. if it meant that I'd have to kill everyone in the world except for you and then myself just to prove that i love you, then I'll do so."

#stray kids #hwang hyunjin #stray kids angst #hyunjin x reader #skz x you #writing

[ukiyowi]

Sick of seeing posts abt Gemini Venus which are like, they're not loyal 💔💔 they always have wandering eyes 👁️👁️ man stfu 😭

Anyways last exam today 💪

#taa ily ! #i have 3 gemini Venus friends #me included #and i on top of thay have gemini venus in the THIRD so its gemini Gemini #the most untrue statement actually #the mental stimulation part i get but they find ways to stimulate themselves by getting involved in their partners hobbies and sharing the #hobbies also share their own interests w their partners etc like stfuu #everyone needs to stop this shit im tired of it saw a huge ass post talking abt venus signs and gemini venus was only abt being disloyal #like girl you dont have anything else to say? #i also have gemini mars so these ppl will say I'm even more disloyal ig idek #like all the venus sigjs were like omg so pretty gorgeous strong caring and gemini was just “they're not genuine #they seem disloyal“ #they're “surprisingly” loyal with “the one” girl tf you mean surprisingly stfu lmao #leave fr

[haunted-xander]

Well, I guess you didn't have much of a choice either

#sooooo fucked up being a teenage boy just messing around with friends one day #and the next weird monsters are after you #and suspicious guys youve never met before start telling you you shouldnt even exist #and even the gentle girl who seems to know SO much that you met #says you have to disappear #all for the sake of this one boy youve never heard of #who apparently everyone loves and wants back #even if it means essentially killing someone else(you) #and youre expected to just. follow along and sacrifice yourself for him #even though you are also a real perosn with real friends (or so you believe) #and at the end you do it #because youre tired and confused #and part of you feels like it should do it #that its the right thing to do #even though you still dont know anything bc no one will tell you #except for the girl but everyone always goes out of their way to stop her #anyway im rambling the kh2 prolouge is so fucked up when u think about it #roxas #sora #kingdom hearts #kingdom hearts 2 #kh #kh2 #art #my art #xanders art #digital art #fan art

[milf-harrington]

its so fucking disheartening realising that no one actually sees me as a guy, they just pretend to - and yeah its great being called theo but its less great being lumped in as one of the girls in the same breath

#i dont mind being the only non-girl invited to something (like my sisters hens for example) bc that just feels like a Gay thing yknow #but when the invite is 'hey girls' its kind of hard to consider that you see me as anything else #and i think the worst part - and this is probably the part of me that lacks self respect - is that i get it. #i have long hair i dress 'fem' and the only steps ive managed to take in my transition are wearing a binder and going by a different name. #so sure. but its still gutting and makes me feel fucking /gross/ makes my stomach hurt and my skin crawl #because like. theyll call me theo and a brother and an uncle and a son but?? do they even mean it?? #do they actually believe what theyre saying or is everyone just going along with it because they dont want to look like assholes? #i almost prefer my uncle whos at least UPFRONT about not understanding it #like at least hes honest at least when he calls me a girl i expect it #i just wanna curl up w my nephew and read bc at least he doesnt even understand gender yet #to him i AM just his uncle and thats all he cares about #captain speaks

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

the desire to do comms vs my inability to remember that i got a message FIGHT-

#its like 'oh a message! i will respond later' #and then later never comes cause i have no damn object permanence Or working memory #then its like... what do i even say #'hi sorry i ghosted your simple question for two days i forgot you messaged me' AGH #or especially lately #i mean to do things and then i get a New piece of distressing information about the way my life is going #which then consumes my thoughts and leaves no room for anything else #ahaha thanks! ill claw my eyes out now!! wow!!! FUCK! #trying to keep up the things i enjoy is. so tough rn #but ill flounder w/o em so! hard work that i am mostly failing at but i Keep Trying #yes i wanna do comms. yes i wanna draw. yes i wanna talk to people. can i? mmmmm...... #can't wait for this chapter in my life to be over. goddamn. #ive been in a perpetual state of intense stress since early childhood #but my fucking duck things lately have been taking the cake #absolutely unprompted #oh no this is turning into a vent post Look Away #well my mother called again last night and was all 'im getting you a car' #and uh. i started physically shaking while profusely thanking her (lying through me teeth) #GIRL!!! I DONT NEED A CAR THATS TOO MUCH RN!!! #she's always mentioning how the collective We are tight on money #and that rn i need to focus on making decisions and getting a job ill hold for like. a month #and then she slams this down outta left field??? thats so much extra stress i dont need right now??? #now i gotta worry about parking and maintaining it and gas money i dont have And And And- #i cant exactly tell her Dont Fucking Do That bc then she'll blow up in my face and call me inconsiderate & ungrateful again #me and my stepdad dont have the fucking TIME to get one! and then she was like 'oh i can always come down to help' #please dont. do not do that. i cant deal with you in person right now that sounds hellish #anyway. case in point #cant even think about messages and stuff i Want to think about bc all this bullshit is taking up my entire mind #metaphorically slamming my face into a brick wall till theres nothing left. aaaghhahsbkjadadj #its too much its Too Much everything is so much and its too much and can i be let be for two fuckin seconds please

[demadogs]

i hate people who think theyre so cool for not liking or refusing to engage in insanely popular things like has it occurred to you that it might be insanely popular……… because its good?

#you can still have your niche interests youre not gonna die if you love something that millions of people also love #this is about wednesday like if its not your vibe ok then watch something else but stop being like I WILL NEVER!!! WATCH THIS!!! #i see this with literally every show and every artist and ever book #like call me fucking crazy but if a show becomes super popular and its of a genre i like im gonna watch it?? #and if i dont like it then ill stop watching it how CRAZY!!! #also i saw someone say ‘im not falling for that queerbait’ YALL JUST BE SAYING ANYTHING THESE DAYS HUH #TWO GIRLS OR GUYS THAT WOULS BE CUTE TOGETHER BUT ARENT CANNONICALLY QUEER DOESNT MEAN ITS QUEERBAIT #IT JUST MEANS YOURE GAY #so glad i wasnt dumb as hell in 2016 when the entire world was talking about a new show called stranger things #and decided to watch it instead of thinking im so cool for refusing to watch it #i saw one gifset and was like ‘that looks good’ and i watched it that night #and do not even get me started on people doing this with taylor oh my god #wednesday #byler #taylor swift

[transxfiles]

one of my top 10 hobbies has to be getting added to a large group chat and then people forgetting i am there.

#my ex just admitted in front of everyone and the eyes of god that she has not gotten any since we broke up #in spite of trying really hard to get. anything. and talking about how she desperately needs to get dicked down. GIRL. what. #responded to the message with R I P in letter emojis uhm. i dont think anyone will even #notice tbh but its funny to me. personally. #funniest thing is i kinda knew that this was happening but im like well now i have confirmation from the source i guess lol #HONORABLE MENTION OF ANOTHER SITUATION IN THIS GENRE: my friend is a dancer #with a really competitive dance group and she's in a small group of like 13 people who she #interacts with every day and she had a sort of falling out with them thats too complicated to get into here. #but before the falling out they added her to a shared photo album. and right before she decided she was done with the whole thing #she woke up one morning to a notification saying that there were 50+ new photos added to the shared album #and thats how she found out they did a holiday party where they invited everyone but her... BATSHIT. and shes like holy shit #thats petty. and made a whole game of going through the photos with me and some other frieinds. #ballet drama is something else let me tell you holy shit #cricket.chatterbox

[spacedlexi]

i Need to draw more clemviminnie shit but how am i supposed to do that when minnie only exists alongside them for 2 episodes then dies

#its why i alive her for some post s4 stuff just so i have more to work with 😔 #but i dont Love doing that....she sealed her fate..she was lost in the sauce... #but theres so much there.............. #the way minnie was concerned for vi while betrayed!vi and clem were fighting in the cell she def still had feelings... #they still wouldve been dating if she was never taken like...... #ITS SO MESSY I LOVE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #like while i Do think there was some tension in their relationship somewhere bc that line in the woods didnt come from nowhere #no matter how changed she was by the delta that sentiment had to come from somewhere. maybe she could just never say it #but idk if they wouldve broken up over it and there was no reason for violets feelings to change either. she just grieved her 'death' #vi says the real minnie is gone and that she'll do what she has to to keep everyone else safe but like.... #theres no way shes not still conflicted on some level like you can see it on the boat she cant leave her. esp since she kinda blames hersel #minnie being clems dark reflection but clem is minnies reflection just as much (obvs) the tension is palpable between them #clem being the part of herself that she killed when she killed sophie...the symbolism of killing your own twin... #and how much does clem remind her of sophie too like whos clem Really mirroring here #THERES SO MUCH MEAT THAT IM CHEWING ON THIS IS A GRAND MEAL #and i cant fucking do anything about it 😭 seriously how do i work within these constraints #there isnt even a 2 week jump like there is in ep2 theres no unaccounted for time in eps 3 and 4 ITS KILLING ME #i bet in a betrayed!vi route minnie was glad to see her when they made it to the boat. and vi feeling betrayed by clem was a perfect target #totally susceptible. minnie gets in her head that its safer to give in instead of fighting back... and now theyre together again... #vi betrayed by clem falling right back into minnies arms OOF girl get away she is Fucked Up..theyre both fucked up 😭 clem u broke her #betrayed!vis reaction to hearing minnies confession about sophie..girl must have been so emotionally fucked in that cell #mmm toxic yuri mmmmm :) #god clemvi really has it all.............................................. #why would i need anything else...when clemvi is here #twdg #it speaks #still cant believe my fave girlie really got it all :)

[girlcrushau]

#me? about to use tumblr as a diary again? in 2024? unfortunately:/ #but here have a waterfall i saw on a hike last week as payment #i am sO tired and exhausted emotionally after dating #there's this guy that i fr thought was going to last and be around for a long time. we spent like every moment together that we could for 2 #months straight and if we werent physicaly together we were texting or calling or on ft . just every part of our day had the other in it #not once did i ever feel unwanted undesired or uncared for. not once did i feel that i wasnt sure of his intentions. i felt safer with him #in those 2 months than i ever did with any one else i could think to compare to. #until one day he just didnt think it important to communicate any more. after 3 days of nearly nothing .. hardly any talking . i asked if #he was ok if we were ok. what was going on in his head. he said some ive just been with my buddies and family and havent been on my phone #and just. immediately thats heartbreak yanno. thats :// thats what they say when theres a new girl. but there'd never been a reason to think #there was another girl so i was like ok we're gonna trust bc this dude has been So good in every way. so i said imy but i understand. enjoy #your time with your buddies and with your fam -- i cant wait to hear about it (and hold you) #and i havent heard from him in the 3 weeks since. just randomly #so last night #i send the dreaded 'i miss you' text. #i dont expect to hear back and i accept the hurt that will come with that and the confusion that i've felt settles deeper into my heart #until this afternoon i hop on ig and see a hard launch that was posted an hour after my text was sent #that shit kinda hurt different. but also sent me into a bit of a delirious state where all i could do is laugh bc are you for fucking real #did she see my message? i know it. bc i know him and i know that he wouldnt hide anything from the person he's giving his heart #and his softness to. i can almost imagine how he showed her and promised her theres nothing to worry about #and there really isnt anything to worry about because he genuinely is the type to give his all to the relationship he's in #which feels silly to say after what happened w us. like no there wasnt a title ever #it sucks to call it a situationship because a month ago we were laughing in bed together about how we could never bc we were all in. #just the timing of the hard launch makes me giggle. did my text push them to have a conversation about what they are. was she really the #reason that he went away on me. #im trying not to blame myself . trying not to think about the phone calls i didnt answer. about what i could have done differently. trying #not to think about where we would be if i didnt let my anxieties hold me back. if i wasnt scared about what he'd think of the parts of me #that i keep hidden just a little bit longer than the rest. #and at the same time im trying not to put him on a pedestal. but that pedestal is just where i wholeheartedly believe he belongs #he set the bar for me. he set the standard. i was never too much. i was never too little. he made me feel perfect just as i am

[maddy-ferguson]

i think the reframing of girls disliking pink and other stereotypically feminine things as internalized misogyny that you should overcome by the time you're an adult woman is an immense feminist loss

#retrospectively... #and like i say: brf slt #like when you think about it. the needing to overcome it. that's crazy?😭 because in the end what are you ACTUALLY encouraging #do i think a lot of girls reject pink at some point growing up in part because it's associated with girls and girls and by extension things #associated with girls are seen as inferior yes...but i think that's kind of a superficial analysis? like maybe it's not just bc we hate #being girls it might also be because liking pink and whatever else is FORCED upon us. and pink itself isnt a big issue its a harmless color #but when you apply that logic to other big things women are encouraged to do...i dont KNOW but SOMEHOW we've come right back to women being #encouraged to like pink and makeup because if they don't they're antifeminists and 'not a girl's girl'? 😭 #i want you to know that as i'm writing this i'm wearing a skirt and tights with hearts on them i dont even have a vested interest in people #thinking stereotypically feminine things like stereotypically feminine clothes are like bad #but yeah when you think like that about pink it's kind of whatever because yes pink/blue is the simplest most basic gender dichotomy #but its not like theres anything actually wrong with the color pink. but when you extend that to things like say shaving and makeup things #that cost women time and money......if you think any critique of that is misogynistic because a lot of women do it/because its things #only women do (almost)...you just have a problem with not just critical thinking but with thinking in general. it's just...very frustrating #and i've thought like this in the past i think it's kind of a step when you're getting into feminism and going hm...this is kind of fucked #up...but i think it's still very superficial and i guess it makes sense that it has a lot of appeal Because it's superficial? #but it's like if you don't think anything needs to change and if you think women who aren't following gender norms as much and who aren't #interested in ''''''reclaiming''''' femininity (bc it's literally just doing what's asked of us 24/7 from birth) are misogynistic for #it...like it's actually crazy you do realize that at the end of the day you're saying you should promote/praise gender roles #and if you disagree you hate women #like at least acknowledge that liking makeup and shaving your legs isn't just about personal taste and liking how smooth legs feel when #in your bed it drives me crazy when people refuse to acknowledge that i remember in high school i told my sister like if you were on a #deserted island would you like heels and she was like yes i would :) and i was like NO we had this conversation for years then she had #sociology classes in high school and she was like okay i see what you mean...like yeah of course you do because i'm right #of course people who think like that are like its about respecting everyone's choices!!!! but they're also very much saying stereotypically #feminine things is the best choice and i think it's so insidious to be expected to get over your distaste (like that's literally just. #what's expected of girls/women in general. not liking things when you're a kid is frowned upon but you're expected to grow out of it and if #you dont then it becomes a real issue) and not being allowed to CRITIQUE IT from a feminist lens is literally crazy like it makes me unwell #they're like um only women wear dresses/skirts why are you implying that pants are more practical and advocating for women to be able to #wear pants do you perhaps hate women especially women who are brave enough to embrace their inner traditional femininity?

[hella1975]

im being so serious besties i am not cut out for academia

#like yes i know ive had a very uniquely shit experience in doing a degree i actively not only hate but also am BAD AT #but also i just. cannot hack it #'but hella you go mental and pessimistic every single exam period' i know that but. im right also #like the other day i said to my mum how much ive just been enjoying my job recently #and how huge a deal that is bc i HATE my hometown and ive never ever considered my time here as possibly being good #and my 20s will hopefully be a lot of travelling but in between that to save easier im gonna live at home #so i dont have to worry about rent so alas that means when im saving up for my next trip I WILL BE IN MY HOMETOWN #and as excited as i am for my twenties that is one huge downside to me but i was really cheerfully saying to my mum #that literally for the first time ever ive considered it might not be too bad bc lately i have just enjoyed my job #like i enjoy the people and the work and the lifestyle of it and while it's never gonna be ideal as a means to an end it's actually good #and instead of focussing on that she went OFF on one about how she wants me to stay in education and keep getting qualifications #and she was like 'you could do an english degree you've always wanted to do english or how about open university-' #and i was just sat there blinking at her like girl.... no #like i could FEEL myself shutting down like the terror of having to return to this environment when ive got my sight so set #on that 'one more year and im done one more year and im done' mindset like that has been the only thing getting my through #is that im halfway through the course now so im closer to the other end than i am the beginning and if i can just push through #ill be free from it for the rest of my life. so the thought of immediately returning to academia even for a subject i adore? i felt ILL #and my mum apologised the next day without me even having to say anything bc she realised she kinda bulldozed me there #but i just know whether it's the adhd or ive actually been traumatised by this econ degree #(<- and im being serious there like ik 'traumatised' is a big loaded word but idk what else to use #and this degree has done so so much damage to me like it has convinced me that i am fundamentally a stupid person #to the point i refuse to add up bills when with friends or do answer any sort of intellectual question even if i KNOW i know the answer #bc ive just gone so so long of being bad at the only subject im studying like just SURROUNDED by it and being bad at it relentlessly #and i dont think people realise how damaging it is to very simply just... feel stupid all the time. but oh my god i used to be so confident #and bright and now i wont even do basic addition in front of people) #i really truly dont think i can do this again in any capacity. like the constant exams and studying and assignments #i just cant do it. maybe i just need a year or two away from it after this degree but my goddddd rn i cant see it #yes it's exam time for me can u tell. it always makes me existential and on the verge of vomiting at any given moment #i hate it here i hate it here i hate it here i dont care about iterated deletion of strictly dominated strategies shut the fuck up #hella goes to uni

[yooniesim]

Girl... I aint reading all that

#ceci speaks #nonsims #text #negative #gif warning #keep crying stalker #refresh my tab and go write another nonsensical rant just like i said u would lmfao #or finally get over it girl cos no one cares #glad i got u hella mad and ranting at nothing... as usual #thats how stupid and easily led you are #good luck with that school u got going on... #ppl pls dont send me anything else from this stalker theres nothing they have to say thats valuable or the slightest bit intelligent #delete later #also dont say ur lowkey sorry to me when ur on my dick 24/7 #obsessed and thinking racism only exists for you personally #cos you cant handle anyone disagreeing with you #cos if u really thought i was racist u wouldnt have been liking my cc posts #and dming me apologies for getting me hate up until a few months ago when i blocked u #ur ego got hurt when i blocked u and that is the ONLY reason u rant about me every other business day #same thing with all your weird friends that were nice in my dms and sticking around in my server until a few months ago #now all of a sudden im a vile coon that they never liked to begin with #only AFTER I blocked yall after catching yall talking shit out the other side ur mouth and not to my face #youre cowards plain and simple just trying to act tough and hard and morally right #when in the end you just look fucking goofy #for swearing i was antiblack whilst being buddy buddy with me #what does that make yall then? #birds of a feather and all that right #you just dont know how to not like someone without trying to villainize them and that is cowardice #otherwise you wouldnt ONLY call someone problematic after they blocked or personally offended you

[soldier-poet-king]

I am not obligated to argue with people on the internet. The internet is not a good place for debate or genuine discourse.

I am not obligated to argue with people on the internet. The internet is not a good place for debate or genuine discourse.

I am not obligated to argue with people on the internet. The internet is not a good place for debate or genuine discourse.

#affirmations for myself on this god abandonded afternoon #girl help. the trads found my niceness post. #its like. the garfield meme. huh. wonder who that's about #bestie it was ABOUT terfs and people being disgusting assholes #like you can hold whatever opinion and whether i agree or not is irrelevant #to if youre gonna treat someone like a human being #and not preach truth in love or whatever bullshit you wanna call ur assholery #would you say this shit to Christ's face???? no??? then stfu #also I DIDNT say niceness was a a virtue #i said mercy and compassion were #but even if i WASNT acting out of compassion and love #i would still choose niceness over whatever bullshit y'all got going on in the name of truth or whatver #literally. always alwayd always always forever and ever i will err on the side of mercy and charity #and not of what yall are calling truth and justice #bc. truly. i dont think thats it. i dont think thats divine justice. #the mercy-justice continuum is more complex. who am i to make that decision #what pride must i have to act as if i understand or speak for the divine #i know what i am and what i am capable of. and it is small kindness above all else #i cant be snarky and sharp tongued and self righteous. i cant stand it i cant abide it #i hate it perhaps more than anything but because i WAS that awful person #im not even sorry for being a little harsh. thats untrue. i am sorry. but im not sorry for believing this callous cruelty to be a injustice #an injustice perpetuated in the name of so called justice and truth

[orcelito]

I got 7 reactions to the post I made on this app 8 whole days ago (when most ppl in my area got 2 or 3 at the most). & Several messages I haven't responded to. Tbh I haven't bothered since that first day, bc I got what I wanted out of it (decided to try a hookup and accomplished it 3 days after deciding it), and...

We've still been texting. Sometimes about things that aren't exactly typical of what you'd think for a hookup (emotionally intimate, I guess?). Today we got on the topic of hiking and I mentioned my fav state park & she said she was planning to go there over spring break and said she'd love to bring me with her... which That is a level of accepting me in her life that I think is not typical of just a one-off hookup kinda thing.

So like... idk if we r skirting around the possibility of a relationship?? Or if we r setting up to be friends with benefits?? Would it be exclusive??? Open??? Assuming there's any kind of relationship at all??????

Idk. It feels like there's Something there. I don't know what she wants out of it. I kinda don't even know what I want out of it. But it'd feel a little weird to pursue smth else when we're in this nebulous area... it wouldn't be cheating bc it's not like we're dating, but I'd also hate it if we Did end up dating (exclusively) and then I'd have to give up someone else........

Idk. I wasn't expecting to hit it off with someone like this. I'm still pretty burnt out on serious romance, so I don't want to just jump right into a new thing. I just know that I like talking with her and I'll probably want to sleep with her again. Beyond that...

I dont know. It's all so confusing.

#speculation nation #i think im bigtime failing at the whole Casual aspect of it 😂 #but i cant help being so alluring.... the girls Love a sweet nerd with a mysterious hidden darkness..... #might be why i have so many reactions too. i am for serious my post has over twice as many reactions as anyone else #idk. i have options. for now im just leaving them open. #it's only been a week now since we started chatting. still way too early to decide anything. #i will simply play it by ear. see where things take me. #we have. we have a spotify playlist. for sharing our favorite songs together. we are sharing music. #i feel like im going insane. this cant be the normal Just Casual kinda thing can it??? #not when shes said at multiple points that im 'the coolest person ever' or that im really kind #oh god am i turning into one of those useless lesbian tropes???? #'help this girl keeps saying im really cool and that she wants to go hiking with me and we are sharing music together #and also we had sex. do you think she likes me?' #fbkdfkshfkshdjd it sounds so FUNNY laid out like that. but the sex rly is just incidental and all ykno? #i dont know how many hookups shes actually had. i dont know how special i am to her #emotionally Or sexually. and i feel like asking would be rude. #so i am simply waiting it out. seeing where it goes. and being pleasantly surprised anytime it goes well. #the thing with the hiking today made me all 😳😳😳😳 bc it spoke of a desire to have me in her life several months from now #it's only been a week. it's only been a week. i have no idea what im doing.

[constantvariations]

V9C7

I am postponing writing a very delicious scene so y’all better appreciate this ;P

Post Ep: these last 3 eps are going to be carrying so much weight but at least we might be working towards Ruby’s decaying arc

Okay, totally random thought while I was watching the OP (I always watch OPs unless they’re particularly awful. It’s a compulsion idk) but I think it’d be hella cool if the blacksmith was Alyx. Whether the real Alyx isn’t the one who made it out or she came back for whatever reason (not dying ever is appealing to some, I hear), it’d be a neat twist

I’m not into 3d animation, so I can’t say a whole lot, but are the textures supposed to be this... weird? Last episode I said Jaune’s house looked like a ps2 game and it just keeps going

“I’m late! I’m late!” Okay, that’s a decent Alice in Wonderland nod. Not overdone or wink wonked, which can be annoying to those who don’t know the joke (man, I should watch Shrek again. The first two movies are masterpieces)

Wait, was that a dammit? Jaune canonically swears now. Huh

“Right on time.” It’s obviously not a time loop so what does this mean? Did the time fruit do more than just send him back in time but gave him even more of a spotlight in Wonderland? He’s a rusted knight, he’s the white rabbit, he’s murbling like he’s the mad hatter; what next, is he gonna be Jesus?

“Hurry! People are counting on us.” Uhhh people counted on you to fight the jabberwock and y’all bailed like frightened horses. I wouldn’t count on you with my fingers, much less my life

PAPER TOWNS MY BELOATHED

Okay, so we’re being hit yet again with the “what are you” question, which wouldn’t be weird if it wasn’t just our protags being bombarded with it. Surely there are some critters who venture over into new areas? Or perhaps new life occurs every now and again? The repetition has been annoying for a while, but it’s venturing into just plain silly “-so that we may serve you.” What. Why. Kill me

While I do like the designs of the paper stars, I’m really not digging the vibes. Sorry stars, you will never be the plupples from the Hot Daga

“Paper pleasers” I hate that I actually like that pun

Why is the team reacting so negatively to the stars being named after them? That’s genuinely fucking sad. Yet another instance of the show zooming by actual trauma for a cheap gag

Dude has spent who know how many years without a genuine personal connection, has been spending that time exploring the area and gaining its people’s trust, AND has shared his home with these people, yet when they talk to him about anything Wonderland related, they act like he’s saying he’s going to make them into shoes or something while having the audacity to be disappointed that he doesn’t have a solid lead on getting out. These girls are deplorable

Why are RWBY so lackluster about doing literal life-saving tasks while Jaune follows a hunch? You’re Hunters, that’s your job. Quit acting like life in Wonderland is beneath you because you don’t understand it jfc

I don’t think I’ve ever seen so many different visual styles in a single show before. There’s the standard 3d, the color silhouettes (solid and textured), some microsoft paint scribbles, a few 2d stills, and now this children’s book style. Feels like an identity crisis

I understand Jaune’s perception of the tree, but I really don’t like how he overrides the autonomy of the villagers. If they’re literally willing to self-mutilate in order to leave, that’s probably a sign that you should let them go

Love how Weiss’s interest in Jaune disappears the moment he shows signs of mental illness. Gives me the warm and fuzzies *smash cut to me barfing in a dumpster*

“Because I can actually protect these people!” That is definitely a response to trauma that fits well with this narrative. Let’s see how MKEK fuck it up!

Jaune kills 2 jabbers in like 0.0003 seconds. Why in the everloving fuck did y’all have to run before?

I’m just realizing this is the first fight I’ve actually paid attention to. No idea why, but every fight previous my eyes have just glazed over. But I gotta say, I think the camera is way too close to the action. There’s definitely some interesting choreography going on but it’s hard to get a grasp on where everyone is at any point, and the bland environment isn’t helping. Go watch John Wick for some pointers

Unsure as to why Ruby is a) the only one apparently traumatized to the point of nearly 180-ing her character and b) why it’s specifically Crescent Rose/combat that triggers her. MKEK know how to throw bones but they can’t dish out any real substance

Someone please give that creature a cough drop or something because I cannot understand a word this fucker says

I thought Neo’s semblance was illusions? Pretty sure it’s called Imagination, which definitely implies it’s not a physical shifting ability. So, if the jabber-Neo had taken a bite of Ruby, would that mean Neo is chomping down? Would Ruby get stabbed with semblance glass? Or did the writers forget their own rules again?

ONCE A FUCKING GAIN WE ARE INTERRUPTED LITERALLY IN THE MIDDLE OF SOMEONE ASKING IF RUBY IS OKAY. WE ARE SEVEN EPISODES INTO A TEN EPISODE SEASON GET THE FUCK ON WITH IT

This “don’t ask me because I’m a leader” bit is really strange coming right off the several minute conversation about finding leads to getting home where not one person even looked at Ruby. Like, this was a request for supporting a platitude not a demand for a plan

“Why do I have to be the one to always pick people up?” First of all, no one asked you to, so jot that down. Second of all, bitch you have never been the sole sally sunshine, nor were you the only one helping others with emotions. Yang picked up Blake in V2, Jaune reassured YOU back in V4, Weiss talked to Yang in V5, Qrow comforted YOU in V7 and his main source of kindness was Clover (rip good boy). You’ve had your moments but don’t act like you’re the only one pulling emotional weight

Also, this voice acting is making me laugh I cannot take this seriously whatsoever

Why in the hickory dickory fuck is Blake hiding behind Yang and YANG WHY ARE YOU ACTING LIKE YOUR SISTER IS A FUCKING THREAT

In this scenario, it does make sense why Jaune’s the one who snaps, but holy cannoli batman I cannot stop thinking about how much better Yang would’ve been in this position, especially after the group split in V8. Sure, that conflict was contrite to begin with and its resolution unmemorable (did it even resolve? I’m not subjecting myself to V8 again), but it’d be so much spicier if the family divide grew in absence

Skipping right past Ruby’s breakdown to focus on Jaune’s. Huzzah. At least his is more interesting and grounded than hers

Genuinely impressed with Luna’s voice here. Dude should go bananas more often

I am once again asking if the team knows about Penny or if Jaune’s been keeping that juicy bit to himself. The way the camera focused on his mouth made it seem like he was about to confess, but it was a tease. I got narrative blue balls over here man, get on with it

Wasn’t it usually Yang who tried for positivity in dark times? Or did that get left at Beacon too? Blake’s supposed to be the realist, which maybe that’s what she was trying to do here but considering her track record I doubt it

And R leaves WBY behind! Please let this mean we can FINALLY focus on her shit and not cut away from it? And they better bring the cat back or Else

#rwde #the team should get an award for shittiest friends alive #first yall didnt notice the glaring signs of rubys health fucking off #even piling on w exaggerated assholery #then when she eventually does break you dont even try to say a word? #hopepunk my ass this is an emotional wasteland #outside of bees becoming canon what the shit has even happened this season #like yeah its hard to make the plot matter when this is a very self contained environmetn #but you can still have plot i prommy #because the emotional arcs are garbage thus far #have they even done anything w weiss?? #shes talked abt atlas a few times but like. girl wheres ya fucking family? #who gives a shit abt atlas? we saw some streets a warehouse party a mansion and the school/military areas #its like a lesser version of stuck in the haven house for all season #and hell whatre they gonna do w yang and blake now that bees are canon? #cuz apparently that trumped everything else going on and now that its conquered... whats left? #hopefully its yang remembering shes a sister instead of a coworker #thatd be swell

[lecliss]

Made another new friend in Genshin but man it made me realize I'm no longer cut out for this human interaction stuff. Like it's cool to talk to people, especially ones I get along with and have stuff in common with, but I don't wanna add people on discord immediately and join servers they're in and look at videos they send me and play other games with them. Like basically "You're not getting me to a secondary location" ya know??? Like on here it's slow progression of interaction that becomes messaging that leads to all sorts of other friendship stuff and that's awesome, but stuff that takes up all my time to do other things I don't wanna do is like. Man, I'm old.

#its probably a generation gap too #i just dont have the energy for all that #and fr im not talking about anything on here. its just very obvious that i have aged past the way current teens and kids do friendship #message me once and i'll get back to you in an hour. but i'll feel bad about taking an hour lol. #i dont wanna sit in a voice chat for 5 hours getting unsuccessfully convinced to play something else #youre cool and all but i wanna play genshin. we can play genshin together. i dont wanna join a youtuber's discord server that youre in tho #i dont have the energy for this. everyone tumblr is so slow and low energy (in a positive way) #i was like this as a kid too. its not like i grew out of being a fast paced sociable person like these kids are #i wanna clarify none of this applies to you guys tho. send me 500 funny tiktoks in a row. i will (metaphorically) kiss you for it #(tho i will say it is awesome when the kids think im cool. thats always nice. #and also i hope i never get tired of people being like 'youre a 25yo guy?? with that voice??' #i try to make it a bit deeper and im also upfront with saying that i know my voice is weird even if you think im a girl. its just bad ik) #personal