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bloodymiso · 26 days

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Hi hi~! I was wondering if I can have a male stardew valley matchup please?

I’m a 25 year old female. I’m 5’4 with dyed burgundy hair and big green eyes. I also wear glasses and have a few piercings (nose and lots of ear piercings). I’m also a little on the chubby side.

Personality: I’m very shy and awkward around at first, but once I’m comfortable with someone I’ll warm up to them fast. I’m also more talkative, bubbly, giggly, sarcastic and a tad bit moody. I can also be mischievous and cause some chaos when I’m bored. I also suffer from anxiety and depression, so I need Simeon who can be patient and understanding. I hate confrontation, so I’ll avoid it as much as possible. I’m not a physical person as touching makes me anxious at times. But I’m very touchy and affectionate with loved ones. More of a reserved and calm person and rather watch my surroundings than participate in socializing. I’m also very sensitive and kind of a hot-head. I can be social if I want, but I’d rather keep to myself and stay home. Sometimes I don’t act my age because of how playful and youthful I come across.

Likes/dislikes and hobbies: if I see anything cute and fluffy I will absolutely melt! I also love kids and would like some in the future. I have two cats of my own, so an animal lover is a must! I enjoy playing instruments, gaming, watching trashy shows, traveling, doing my makeup, banter/teasing and naps! I can literally sleep all day long with no interruptions. Also enjoy spooky things and going on ghost hunts. Absolutely hate spiders, loud abrupt noises and crowds.

Thank you so much and I hope you have a good day/night~!

i ship you with..

sam!!

okay hear me out hear me out. when i started reading i honestly thought “oh def seb or harvey” but then i remember sam exists.

hes really immature for his age but willing to listen to anyone’s problems. he cant just turn on and off adult-mode but he can in the right situation. whenever you need comfort or a hug, he’s there.

i feel like you would have met sam through an injury. you were walking down willow lane when he was skateboarding and hit you like the dumbass he is. rather than going to harvey’s he brought you into the house with the help of jodi. as he *cough*jodi*cough* patched you up.

“sorry for the scratch..”

he actually felt so bad though like legit puppy eyes. he always saw you walking down willow lane to get to the beach or to yk any other part of the town but he never dared to even make eye contact with you. ever since that day he’d say hi. at some point that “hi” transformed into various conversations.

once you two got closer, BOOM jamming(not that jamming as in music jamming what are you thinkiny) sessions. like literally every day. expect seb to join you on saturdays. he invited you to the saloon and introduced you to the group. you and abigail would def do your makeup together, i can see you two vibing. you and abigail would go ghost hunting in the forest, sam would sometimes join but get ready for endless screaming. i can imaginr you and seb being complete gaming rivals

he always dreamed of starting a band with sebastian but now, he dreams of starting it with both of you. sam knows he cant hide his feelings forever, eventually he confesses in the middle of a commercial break as you were watching a movie.

after that you got together but completely forgot to tell the group. one night at the saloon, before you left you gave sam a quick peck on the kiss and left. the others stared for a quick two seconds before screaming at the top of their voice “WHAT.”

he thinks your piercings are soo pretty(i would too) he’d always giggle when he’d kiss your nose and feel the soft tingle of your metallic piercings on his lips. ever since you started dating you two have been complete menaces to the group. literally the best dumb jokes duo ever. jodi loves you, vincent thinks youre “stealing” sam from him.

sam would absolutely love youre cats, the problem is..they dont feel the same(protective much.) he’d try his best to get him to like him, but i guess it takes time:)

thanks for the request! i had a lot of fun with this . reblog if you can:3!!

#stardew valley #stardew valley x reader #sdv #sdv x reader #matchups #sdv matchups #sdv sam #sam sdv #sam x reader #sam x reader sdv #( ˘▽˘)っaki writes

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okamirayne · 2 months

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Firstly…. AHHHHHH!!!!!!

I’m so excited about this new chapter! I appreciate all the hard work and thoughts you’ve put into this amazing narrative!

I am one of those readers who occasionally (okay maybe like twice a month) refreshes ffnet to see if there’s an update. This new chapter did not disappoint!

As always, you’ve blown it out the water! Naruto POV!?!? More Genma!!! Love it! ❤️❤️

I do have a question though, if this is four months after the war, and based on the new chapter we’ve got like a month tops before crap hits the fan with our boy Shikamaru. Also, based on the Naruto POV, Shikamaru was in regular med care before being transferred to critical-lockdown-ANBU-chakra-sealing-fun-town. So, did Shikamaru’s new issue with the chakra happen super quickly or did it slowly get worse and worse over the months?

Thank you!!! And I, once again, am amazed at how many awesome words and plot can come from someone’s mind! Keep up the amazingness, whether that’s BtB, Original Works, or just thought processes! You’re amazing!

Dear Anon,💜💜

Firstly….

Feel'eth the love. Thank you so very much, for your warm message and the incredibly awesome reception of the latest chapter. Given that my brain told me posting another chapter after so long away would be tantamount to being hunted for sport by anxiety, it was tremendously soothing to my frazzled nerves to receive such kind feedback💜

I’m so excited about this new chapter! I appreciate all the hard work and thoughts you’ve put into this amazing narrative!

I sincerely appreciate you taking the time to leave such kind words. 💜🥰 I'm so happy to learn you had a new chapter waiting for you given your ffnet refreshes. Bless you. Aw. Yes, Naruto's POV has finally walked onto the BtB stage. *nervous grins* I'm chuffed you enjoyed Genma's return. Poor bastard has been roped into another round.

[..] So, did Shikamaru’s new issue with the chakra happen super quickly or did it slowly get worse and worse over the months?

The latter, luv. It crept up on Shikamaru, slowly getting worse and worse (which isn't unlike how the sickness operates before one gets better) before he took a sharp turn for the worst rather than recovery, which shocked medics and required him to be transfered.

Thank you!!! And I, once again, am amazed at how many awesome words and plot can come from someone’s mind!

Ha! Aw. Well, I tend to do this to my brain a lot...

...I either shake something lose or give myself a migraine. 😅😅It's a legit coin toss.

Keep up the amazingness, whether that’s BtB, Original Works, or just thought processes! You’re amazing

💜 You are such a sweetheart. Thank you so much for your kindness in leaving me this awesome show of support. This goes miles in my world and I appreciate you insanely. 💜💜💜

#btb reader kindness #reader kindness #awesome readers #awesome readers are awesome #btb readers #thank you readers #thank you anon #awesome anon is awesome #anon kindness #reader feedback #chakra to my system

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hlmowrer · 9 months

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Week 25: "Casino dealers are trained, I'm just some putz from Utah!"

Well...that was interesting. This week felt like three weeks in one, just from the amount of stuff that happened. Amazing how our brains perceive time that way. I felt like I made a lot of progress from last week! Embracing President Peckham's council about how we should prioritize listening to the promptings of the Holy Spirit above all else has served me well, and miracles and blessings have come from it.

The first couple of days were pretty hard, but on Wednesday we really decided to just go all in and try to track down some people missionaries past had lost contact with. We had our entire 3 hour primetime booked out to do this...on a whim we decided to go south, and stopped by a lady who opened the door for the first time in nearly a year. We talked to her for a few moments, and she expressed disinterest in meeting with us again. We began to walk away, and I got a very sudden and strong thought to go back and give her the card in my hand (we had written a card with our number in case she wasn't home). I didn't see why she would need a card, but we turned around anyway...thereby launching a TWO and a HALF hour long conversation. She had a massive amount of concerns and anxiety about her faith and about us, but inch by inch we helped her feel better and listened as she opened up to us. It was a precious moment for all involved, and we're going to go see her again this week.

On Friday, our zone leadership informed us that there would be a weekend challenge (a scavenger hunt in which we get a prize for completing certain tasks, ranging from "call 20 people" to "do a yoga pose with your companion"). Elder Sines and I have struggled with not having direction while filling our days, so we were excited about this. We were literally just playing cards in McDonald's while we waited for them to send the challenges (we've been trying to at least get out of the house when we feel like crap, which has been a good policy) and while we were waiting I guessed I bugged Elder Sines one too many times about his shuffling skills because he blurted out "Casino dealers are trained, I'm just some putz from Utah!" in comedic frustration. We've been playing cards a lot, it's a really quick and easy way to take a brain break and build some companion unity...at least when I'm not being a butt. We don't use them to gamble, don't worry. Crushing your companion's dreams when you win is better than money.

On Saturday as we were trying to blast through the challenges, we were trying to find a lady who requested a Bible but ended up running into her sister who really dislikes the idea of a single "true" religion but was very intrigued by the idea of the Book of Mormon! We had a really interesting conversation with her, and we hope we can meet her again. Then we had a nice lesson with Kami (who's doing great still, thankfully) and as we were leaving Kami's we decided to try and stop by someone the missionaries stopped teaching a long time ago. The street looked completely abandoned, and the house that we had on our map was just a grassy lot. We kinda wanted to just move on, but we decided to knock each house on the street to see if we could find the right one. Nobody answered (I legit don't think anyone lives on that street) and we were walking back to our car when a car drove up to one of the houses. We almost kept walking but we decided to take one last crack at it and talk to the person in the car...and it was the guy we were looking for! And he was down to meet with missionaries again! He then told us that he doesn't actually live at this house, and it was super lucky that we ran into him there. If we had just moved on after the address was wrong, we would have missed him. It was a great blessing for our due diligence. And then on Sunday, that guy came to church! And as he left, he asked if we wanted to meet more than once a week and if we had any Wednesday night activities! Seeing miracles happen like that is by far one of the best things about full time missionary service.

That's enough for this week...my fingers are becoming weary.

Until next time <3

-Elder Beren Mowrer

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hustlemeanokay · 10 months

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People need to stop thinking that being "down" or "sad" is depression. Because it fucking isn't. Depression is a lot more than just feeling blah or not feeling down with hanging out today. Or being tired because you didn't sleep well last night.

Also, you can have anxiety and not have depression. You can also have panic attacks and not have depression or anxiety. All of these things do not have to go hand-in-hand. They are not basket-buddies. They can be but one can exist without the other or any combination thereof.

I'm so sick of kids thinking that if you're nervous about presenting in class tomorrow that it must mean you have anxiety FOR ALL and not just for tomorrow. And that if you have anxiety then OMG, you have depression too! And then omg, you might get a panic attack, watch out! ZOMG! Like... calm down. I know it's young people's natural prerogative to get dramatic about things but y'all need to chill the fuck out.

Exaggerating what's going on with you to your doctors and getting on meds is not okay. Those kinds of medications are not to be fucked with and it's not "cool" or "trendy" or "in" to take them. So many people today are complaisant about depression and anxiety medications but y'all need to remember that these things legit fuck with the chemicals in your brain. And can have serious side-effects and long-term after-effects. And if you don't really need them and just take them because you watched some fucking tik-tok that made you think that just because you're worried about wtf to do with your life after graduation and now you think you've got full-blown anxiety? Holy fucking shit.

I mean, seriously - people should have to go to a counselor before they are given these kinds of medications. See if they actually need them or if this is something temporary that they can work through on their own and learn coping mechanisms like we all should fucking have. If they can't cope? Like legit? Then yeah - fucking sign them up for red and blue and purple pills. But if they can? They're just freaking out like everyone does at certain times of their lives then they shouldn't fucking get them nor should they get a rando diagnosis of depression, anxiety, etc. Because trust me when I say you do not want that diagnosis if you don't actually have it. Because shit that pops up later can easily be swept under the depression rug. "Oh? Your muscles hurt? Well, it says here that you were previously diagnosed with depression. That can be a symptom of depression and yeah, I know you say you're not feeling any other symptoms right now but depression - ya know, it comes and goes." And just like that - your muscles screaming for no god-damned reason gets ignored. Which means you've got to doc hunt and deal with the stigma of mental health and possibly as someone who's just seeking meds - which you very well could not be because as, assumptively, at that time you'd be an adult - you would be seeking a real doctor for a real diagnosis of something that is really bothering you. But oh - that thing you blew way out of proportion when you were seventeen, eighteen is fucking it all up.

I'm not even fucking kidding. And no - though I'm sure people won't even make it this far - I'm not saying to not believe kids when they seek help for things like anxiety and depression. What I'm saying is that before they get RX'd drugs, they have to go to a counselor - adults, too! That regular doctors shouldn't be allowed to just pelt us with pills like they're feeding fucking monkeys at the zoo.

#rando musings #depression and anxiety in the youth #depression #anxiety #meds #ranting raving and everywhere in between

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friendlystarfruit · 1 year

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That one anon who said 'this generation is so sensitive' has a point but also no logic because if you bully a teenager I would say the ages of 15-19 (even though technically 19 is also a adult) of course they would be affected they are not exposed to the world like that anon who is probably in their 30s there's not a reason to make a comment like that. Some people are just naturally emotional and you cannot really take away the personality they were born with and that anon doesn't understand that there's people who get affected by things/triggered by things easily like if someone has experience online bullying [Severely] of course they would be very untrusting to people or maybe even defensive but that anon isn't in that person's shoes so they think 'Oh people are emotional these days' when really logically people have there reasons it's almost like if someone says 'people are lazy in this generation' when that's not completely true because some people have a very hard time job hunting or finding a job with good pay and it's definitely not that they're lazy. Same with this situation saying people are emotional in this generation is a bit insensitive knowing dang well people go through things and people aren't going to think the same so if one person thinks 'you are rude' another may think 'I'm not rude' there's a disagreement and that doesn't necessarily always mean someone is wrong it could just be because us humans don't all think the same one may have said something kind of harsh but maybe that person who they are talking to is emotional so there's no wrong it's all about respecting the boundaries of others and a lot of people online don't know how to do that but also a lot of people online aren't fully aware of social media or even the real world (speaking more about the younger people)

I agree about the topic of 19 year olds being classed different to other adults (anyone under 21 is a learning adult) even though I think older people can still be classed as vulnerable our brains are still develping until we our 25.

I do agree with the anon that sensitivity may indeed have increased over the younger generation (including my own generation ) just if they are complaining about those people (then no I disagree with that (other than oversensitivity that is shallow like the example I give of wanting to censor a male bottom ) and imo a lot of it is to do with the complexity of the growing up in the modern world with social media, adult content at a click of a button , filters and photoshop its a mixed bag of good and bad but definitely zoomers and younger millennials are growing up in a world that creates social anxiety and (body and facial) dysmorphia and LGBTQ people have more outlets to express themselves but also have a culture war trying to keep them from expressing themselves. (that is even weaponized to to get people to click stuff *woke person says Oreos racist for example is a fake headline to get people angry)

The thing is there are over sensitive as in unfairly aggressive and unnecessarily censoring stuff (Karren types ) but there are legit people who are sensitive because of the rise of mental health issues .

So whether sensitivity increased for people under 30 I think is irrelevant, being a sensitive and vulnerable human being isnt a crime and if we are to see people getting emotionally stronger complaining about them wont do anything.

I do think some sensitivity is a good thing though (compassion and empathy)

#ask #anon

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nightlight-stardust-and-rain · 3 years

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So I was thinking about pjo if the characters were actually ADHD (Btw, whoever came up with the idea that latin demigods have dyscalculia instead of dyslexia, you're a genius and I LOVE this idea) because I know Rick means well but... It looks more like godly instincts that looks like ADHD to outsiders than legit ADHD you know?

Honestly I was thinking that Nico ending up in another country when he shadow travels could be because he's distracted and thinking about other things.

But specifically I was thinking about the camp and how it would be spefically built around ADHD children/teens. Like I think there has to be chalk boards kinda everywhere, for when people have a sudden urge to write something down so they can remember it later or want to share something witty or funny. The boards are wiped every two days by the hmmm they're called cleaning harpies aren't they? And wiping out something someone else wrote or drew is considered immensely disrespectful and hurtful (¾ of the camp has rejection sensitivity so...) and it's a BIG TABOO if you do it you'll have to deal with Chiron's disappointed glare and half the camp ganging up on you in training exercises. There's a routine for every camper to check the boards before going to bed, so if they wrote a reminder for later but forgot they wrote it, they can see it and remember.

There's an unspoken rule to remind things to each other if someone seems to forget something. Solidarity!

There's fidget toys, like everywhere. A lot of them come from the camp that just seems to... Produce them like it produces strawberries. The dryads in the trees actually like to carve fidget toys out of wood, they usually hide them for the demigods to find, like a treasure hunt. A lot of the training weapons are made to have a nice texture or like, bumps that you can rub your fingers on. Also the hephaistos cabin is pretty much up there in term of making stim toys. Some of them explode, but the Ares kids like that. To each their own.

A lot of things like clothes, blankets, sheets and such are made in different textures so the kids can choose which one feels right.

There's like three silence places. It's just fully soundproof. It's enchanted so you can't make any noise nor hear anything in there. Obviously they are open space because being confined somewhere where you can't hear attacks coming? Haha no. It's for the ones that don't like loud noises or are overwhelmed or those who repetitive noises give anxiety to, so the others can make noises or listen to loud music and do echolalia without disturbing those that are disturbed by it. People are different! (personally I repeat words a lot but hearing someone else repeat words gives me anxiety so I thought about a double edged solution)

Kinda like that?

In the hypnos cabin's backyard there's a sort of.... Enormous nest of blankets, so large that at least two cabin's worth of people could fit in there and all the blankets and pillows are sinfully soft. It's a open nap place (cause usually the hypnos kids sleep in their own nest like beds, this is for everyone else) where you can sleep or just sink into the blankets while rubbing them between your fingers.

A lot of the chairs in the mess hall or the camp in general are rocking chairs so that people can rock easily and without making much noise or damaging chairs.

There are noise canceling headphones in every cabin, how many depends on how many kids there are.

The instructions for the chores are written on the boards in the mess hall in very detailed steps for those who need to be told exactly what to do otherwise they won't get it or for those who have anxiety and are afraid to mess it up.

There's a lot of study groups (because I think there are... Classes here right?) to work around the executive dysfunction for homework and studying - and also to help each other but mostly to spur each other into action (97% of the time, the ones who aren't struggling with executive dysfunction right now will spur the others into motion but very rarely it happens that everyone is struck by executive dysfunction at the exact same time so no one can start the thing and it's just a bunch of mentally paralyzed people groaning over their textbooks and being stuck between two motions until someone else comes to put them out of their misery. It's pretty funny to remember once it's done)

Again about executive dysfunction, there are actually small alarms for that. If you can't do something, there is a very specific whistle tune that you learn means "can someone who has free time just help me do something?" and given that there's a lot of people in there, usually someone does have the time (it goes quite often like this : *whistle* "yeah?" "Oh thank the gods please help me get up and then tell me to go do the thing I have to do" (I have found out that making my mother tell me to do my homework works better than trying to psych myself into doing it)).

Not only feel free to add, but please please do add!!!! It feels very good for me to think about about a camp specifically made for ADHD people so I'd like to hear your ideas!

#pjo series #pjo headcanon #adhd community #adhd things #nico di angelo #dripping stardust #pjo #percy jackson

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coffintownkids · 2 years

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As promised, Song Lan deserves a post of his own for what goes down in Ch. 40.

Long Post Below

We first meet him when he first meets AQ and treats her much the same way as XXC did when he first met her. Except for one difference:

Ā-Qìng tilted her head. Sòng Lán had already walked over, put his whisk over her shoulder, and guided her off to the side, saying, “There’s less people by the roadside.”

LOL! SL's fear of touching people meant he used his whisk to literally sweep her off to the side of the road so that he wouldn't touch her directly. I never picked up on that my first read through.

Of course, AQ takes him to go meet XXC, only for him to learn XY has been staying with them. The novel, like the show, confirms XY has been there a while.

He then began to ask Ā-Qìng, “That man, Xiǎo…when did the dàozháng rescue him?”

His tone was grave and Ā-Qìng realized this was no small matter, her responses becoming equally grave, “He saved him quite a while ago, almost a few years.”

And

"...Oh! He and the dàozháng Night Hunt together!”

Sòng Lán’s eyebrows rose with the utmost anxiety, also feeling that Xuē Yáng definitely wouldn’t have such good intentions, “Night Hunt? What do they Night Hunt? Do you know?”

Ā-Qìng didn’t dare to be careless. She thought about it for a while, saying, “For a while, they were hunting after zombies. These days, they hunt down stuff like spirits and livestock hauntings.”

He's like how cats supposedly domesticated themselves. Seems like he gave up on torturing XXC and was just...legit Night Hunting.

When SL, who can't figure out what the hell is going on, asks if XXC and XY get along, AQ goes and breaks my heart.

Although she was rather unwilling to admit it, Ā-Qìng nevertheless went on to confess, “I think the dàozháng is really unhappy being alone…at long last he has someone that does the same work as him…That’s why, it seems like he’s really fond of listening to that rotten bastard’s wisecracks…”

A dark cloud covered Sòng Lán’s face, furious and unable to withstand it. Within that unbearable confusion, there was only one message, loud and clear:

He absolutely cannot allow Xiǎo Xīngchén to find out about it!

Even SL doesn't have the heart to tell XXC his friend isn't his friend ;_; (or so he believes...)

Of course SL leaves to confront XY and

Ā-Qìng said, “Dàozháng, are you looking to fight that bastard?”

Sòng Lán had already gotten quite far away in pursuit. Wèi Wúxiàn thought, "More than looking to fight, he was gonna skin Xuē Yáng alive!"

XY is not happy about this development.

Suddenly, Sòng Lán’s icy voice rang out up ahead, “Xuē Yáng.”

It was like being splashed right in the face with a bucket of cold water or being woken from a dream with a slap in the face. The look on Xuē Yáng’s face immediately became incomparably nasty.

This scene is quite long so I won't share the whole thing. Some choice bits, like XY's greeting.

Xuē Yáng pretended to act surprised, “Oh my, if it isn’t Sòng-dàozháng? What an unexpected guest! Have you come to beg for a meal?”

Taoists and monks often relied on charity to gain their meals, so XY is being especially sarcastic about it. He also continues to 'politely' call him Sòng-dàozháng the entire rest of the fight, which I found to be an interesting tidbit. Like this:

Sòng Lán angrily shouted, “Tell me! You’re such scum, are you even capable of helping him Night Hunt out of the goodness of your heart?!”

The sword aura brushed past and inflicted a cut upon Xuē Yáng’s face, while he didn’t startle, saying, “Sòng-dàozháng, you actually know me so well!”

After SL keeps demanding XY tell him why he's stayed with XXC all this time, and XY warns him he'll go crazy if he finds out (and gets stabbed in the arm for his trouble), he goes ahead and explains his scheme with the corpse poison and cutting out tongues to get XXC to kill living people.

SL...does not take that well.

“You animal…you’re less human than an animal…”

This is the line you may have seen as "you're a beast lower than a beast." The original is written as 你这个畜生……禽兽不如的畜生……

畜生 more literally means like a domesticated animal/beast of burden. It can also be used to mean as someone brutish. 禽兽 means birds & beasts but can also mean someone that's inhumane. So basically SL is saying XY is so brutally savage that not even an animal would act that way.

XY stays true to himself and indulges in banter in response.

Xuē Yáng said, “Sòng-dàozháng, sometimes I feel that you educated-types are at a disadvantage when it comes to cursing at people. Because you all repeat the exact same few phrases and lack any sort of ingenuity and any sort of ability to do any damage. I was already seven when I stopped using those couple of curses on people.”

Weird edgelord flex, but we'll allow it.

SL is dismayed at XXC being taken advantage of because of his blindness. XY felt this was the perfect opportunity to bring up why XXC is blind in the first place.

“Who are you to criticize me? His friend? Aren’t you ashamed to call yourself Xiǎo Xīngchén’s friend? Hahahaha, Sòng-dàozháng, do you need me to remind you of what you said to Xiǎo Xīngchén after I slaughtered the Báixuě Monastery? He was worried about you and came to help. What sort of expression did you give him back then? What did you say?”

Sòng Lán’s state of mind was in disarray, “I! Back then, I…”

Xuē Yáng blocked him head-on and countered, “Back then, were you full of grief and resentment? Total agony? Absolutely heartbroken? Full of worry with nowhere to direct your anger? So you were angry at him? To be fair, I really did slaughter your monastery because of him. Taking your anger out on him was understandable in that situation and it was exactly what I had in mind.”

Each word landed a critical hit!

And as they fight, with SL slowly losing ground.

Xuē Yáng said, “Yes! When all is said and done, who said ‘there’s no need for us to see each other again’? Could it be that was none other than you yourself, Sòng-dàozháng? He honored your request and after he dug his eyes out and gave them to you, he never appeared before you again. What did you come running here now for? Aren’t you going to make things awkward for him? Xiǎo Xīngchén-dàozháng, what do you think?”

Hearing this, Sòng Lán froze and the might of his sword faltered!

This dirty trick was also able to fool him.

We all know what happens next, so I'll just end it here for now and we'll just pretend SL goes on to live happily ever after instead.

#mdzs #ctk reads mdzs #mdzs translation #my translation #song lan #xue yang #yi city #this chapter is such a major ouch

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shoujoinvestigation · 3 years

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Our 2020 Drama Recs

What a year 2020 has been - a time of tumultuous change, anxiety and reflection. During this time, dramas have certainly become a safe space for comfort and entertainment. Fortunately, we’ve also seen more and more quality dramas released in 2020!

As we head into 2021, here are our top 2020 dramas picks:

1. Winter Begonia 鬓边不是海棠红 recommended by Admin JY

The story of two seemingly polar opposite characters in 1930s China - a feisty traditionally-trained Beijing opera star and a wealthy Western-educated businessman in a setting where Western influence meets Chinese traditions. Yet when they finally cross paths, their parallels in fact draw them closer to each other. The main characters shine and sparkle both as independent characters with their own depth, flaws and quirks and with their ever-so-natural chemistry interacting with each other, in what could be the most healthy and balanced relationship dynamic I have ever seen between leads.

Winter Begonia presents brilliantly written three-dimensional, human yet relatable characters growing with each other through a time in history of change and uncertainty, in addition to great acting, beautiful costume design, production value and showcase of Beijing opera. If you are looking for a show with drama, history/culture, comedy, family, action (and tragedy), look no further than Winter Begonia for an entertaining yet reflective story of growth filled with all the *feels*.

2. A Murderous Affair in Horizon Tower 摩天大楼 recommended by Admin JL

What’s your idea of a feminist drama? An ensemble of badass, confident female cast kicking ass and bonding with each other? For Horizon Tower, it is to be concealed in a mystery. Two detectives take us through the life of an attractive cafe owner after her death, retracing it through the eyes of people new to her and old ones who had known her well. They all have various things to say about her - each have a different piece of the full picture. What part of the truth do we trust? How do we, or can we judge her? While women are often expected to be the “perfect victim”, Horizon Tower says, the simple truth is, a victim is a victim, and a crime is a crime, regardless the conduct of the victim.

Horizon Tower is a sophisticated, brilliantly written and directed story. It’s fast-paced, compelling as it plays with multiple facets of the truth. There is no simple dichotomy - of black vs white, of women vs men. Instead, it fundamentally embraces the complexity of human nature - which is what makes it feminist. For me, this drama will stay in my heart as one of the most powerful and brilliant feminist stories to exist. In a time of feminist movements, it feels extra important and meaningful for China to have produced such a drama this year. Thank you for being the voice we all needed, Horizon Tower!

Watch the official episodes, subbed, on Youtube.

3. Hyena recommended by Admin JY

Not quite simply a law drama, nor a “badass” law drama turned into a sweet romance drama - Hyena is great for its culmination of confident writing featuring strong and unique characters that break stereotypes, balanced with a refreshing focus on morally ambiguous law cases.

Just as much as the focus was placed on the well-paced and exciting stakes in the legal cases featured, the drama always gave space for the characters’ legit explosive chemistry to shine through and be developed further. While KDramas have been attempting to write “badass” female leads, Jang Geum Ja always stayed true to her anti-hero and morally grey character, with her gaudy, loud masculine style, unscrupulousness and shameless ambition to the end - a truly strong and admirable female lead who may not be fully likable. Yoon Hee Jae as the male lead also deserves praise as a more sensitive and softer portrayal of a privileged and powerful male lead, without ever overshadowing others or overstepping his boundaries.

Even as someone who struggles to watch purely-law/detective dramas, there was much to appreciate and enjoy from this drama, with its quality acting, writing and even memorable OST that can only be fully appreciated by watching.

4. The Bad Kids 隐秘的角落 recommended by Admin JL

This is China’s year of high quality, sophisticated suspense dramas! Alongside Horizon Tower, The Bad Kids is certainly the one which had first carved out that status. Before it was named one of the Best International TV Series of 2020 by Variety, it had already achieved a phenomenal status in China with plenty of good fun memes and incisive meta created.

The success of The Bad Kids, in my opinion, represents creativity and the heart for storytelling triumphing over rigid, spartan censorship. It’s a testament that witty and thoughtful writing is what you need to tell a good story - and even censorship can’t get in the way of this (sometimes). It told a compelling and introspective story threading into moral fallibility while opening up questions to audience about what we perceive and know. This is a rare accomplishment when so many other recent cdrama stories are increasingly sanitised. The auteur-level of directing was vital in shaping the experience as well, down to the quirky selection of music.

So, do you believe in fairytales or reality? :)

5. Brutally Young 十八年後的終極告白 recommended by Admin JY

How far would you go to hide the secrets from your past to protect your present? - that was the simple but solid foundation that this HK Drama delivered.

A group of high school friends are forced to reunite after 18 years to unravel the mystery of a recently discovered corpse, related to their shared pasts. Through this premise, mystery and suspense unfolds as the characters’ complex motivations and hidden pasts are revealed.

Despite the wide ranging cast, many characters are given good depth and personal arcs for development, and even decent romance feels. The pace of the story is also kept tight and remains consistent and realistic throughout. Definitely an unexpected dark horse from TVB’s 2020 lineup, worth checking out!

6. Candle in the Tomb: The Lost Caverns 鬼吹灯之龙岭迷窟 recommended by Admin JL

Okay, after two heavy suspense dramas from me, is there anything more lighthearted to watch? I’m usually not an action/adventure fan, but I’ve been a fan of the remakes of Candle in the Tomb directed by Fei Zhenxiang along with his team, following after the prequel adaptation last year, The Wrath of Time.

This time, we have Pan Yueming as Hu Bayi, forming the Iron Triangle with Pangzi and Shirley, embarking on a tomb-raiding treasure-hunting adventure. Director Fei makes action digestible and fun to watch, on top of the witty script, great character-writing and performance - true to canon (as far as possible). As far as old fans of the franchise and new ones of the drama know, this is the best remake so far. I’m looking forward to the next instalment, The Worm Valley, likely out early 2021!

Watch the official episodes, subbed, on Youtube.

Let us know what your picks for 2020 are!

Written and gifs by Admin JY and Admin JL, unless stated otherwise.

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astormyjet · 3 years

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Winter of 2018 - Summer of 2021 TIME FILES WHEN YOU’RE IN YOUR 20s!!!!

OH BOY. It’s been three years (or more) since I updated this. “Time is a weird soup!” to quote a fave. I guess I quit tumblr around the time there was a purge of content and creators and a smack down on a lot of the fandom communities. Tumblr has always been something of a crapshow though so I’ve been more productive with my time than I was in some ways, but I’ve also found other ways to waste my time. *cough twitter/netflix/youtube/MTGArena cough*.

General Life Achievements since 2018 -JLPT N3 GET in 2019! -Blackbelt GET in 2018! -TESOL 120 Hour and BE 50 Hour Cert from online provider GET in 2021 -STUDENT LOAN BANISHED (Thank you grandparents) -Survived Apartment flooding in early 2020. -Mystery anxiety related illness and chronic pain in my left leg from early 2020 - Present. -A mythical 6th and 7th year on the JET Programme. -Started posting on Instagram a lot more about my wanderings around Matsuyama/Uwajima. Mainly old buildings and stray cats. @astormyknight -Surviving so far in Japan with old rona-chan.

2018 was rough. I was given an additional school in the first semester (March to July) as we had someone find a better job. I enjoyed it, but it was a bit of a rough go especially when I was transferred that August after three fantastic years at Tsubaki JHS and ES and only a semester there. I legit went through the five stages of grief - which I think is another reason I stopped blogging. I was given my current base school along with four other schools. Going from 2(3) to 5 schools was a bit of an adjustment. I still feel a bit spread out.

That said, I keep running into teachers and students who were at the Tsubaki’s. The teachers shuffle around every April, so it's always a lottery with which new faces are going to be old friends (or enemies…). A couple of kids moved and transferred into my current schools from Tsubaki too. So I have one kid I can say I've been teaching for 6 out of the 7 years I've been here!

One of the kids who was in JHS 3rd grade when I first got here (in 2015!) hangs out around one of my favorite cafes, so I got chatting with him recently. He's in his second year of nursing school - his class nearly broke me in the first year, it was really a trial by fire with those kids. I was 22 then, and he’s 20 now, so it was interesting chatting to him about that first year of teaching. His younger sister was one of my favorite students too, she was in the group of kids that graduated in the March of 2018, the year group that went through Tsubaki JHS with me - they’re newly minted University students now!

This Thursday morning when I was cycling in to work, a kid who was 2nd year JHS when I left (so 2nd or 3rd year JHS now) pulled up with their Mum in a van and got their mamachari out of the back to bike to school. The franticness of it all was hilarious. Their Mum legit sat on the horn until I pulled over. I was so happy to run into this kid, even at social distance and both of us late to work/school - because we both remembered each other and as they were going around the corners they were yelling each time they turned and humming the old elementary school directions chant and pelting me with questions about what I’ve been up to.

I've had so many students and schools now, that everything is kind of running into a blur. I remember flashes of kids faces and voices, random memories of in class or out of class shenanigans out of the blue. Also, I now, more than ever, have issues remembering kids' names, but I still know their faces (even with their masks), whose homeroom class they were in, who their friends were and which club they were in. I get random flashbacks to past conversations with them when I see them on the street or we run into each other. I feel bad because the first thing former students ask is ‘Do you remember my name?’ and I always have to be like, ‘Honestly, no, but I remember you did this on x day, x month in x classroom’.

Socially in 2018 -2019 - a few of our friends went home and things shook up a little. Our DnD group changed a bit - one of our players stepped into the role forever DM (THANK YOU RALPH). From memory the newbies were great - some of them just went home at the start of last month and it’s weird not seeing them around (JESS DO YOUR BEST!). I think we only have one or two people left from that rotation. There’s no 6th year ALTs, and only two 5th years.

Aug 2018 - Aug 2019 was the year of Hiura - my mountain school. Dang man, they were so cool. The students of the JHS and the ES combined barely hit 30, so each class was between 3-10 students depending on the grade. It was easier to get to know the kids, their abilities and their goals than it has been for me at other schools. I miss it so bad, being in nature once a week did my country-kid heart so good! The bugs! The frogs! The river! The mountain! The monkeys! The lizards! The dilapidated houses and hidden shrines!!!! The random crabs in the English room...I forgot that there was such a thing as freshwater crabs, and being right next to a river, the invasion wasn’t as out of place as I first thought...

The area is so picturesque and calming. Every week up there was a small adventure (after getting over my motion sickness from the bus ride up). The kids were constantly pranking either myself or the main English teacher. There was always some new weird bug or lizard in a tank to be educated about. There were chickens on the way to the JHS that used to escape from their cardboard box prisons to run riot on the gardens. There were old people to freak out with my youth and foreignness! The kids also got to do a lot of extra classes, sumiyakai (making charcoal the traditional way), planting and maintaining rice paddies, setting up vegetable gardens, raising fireflies, conserving a special breed of fire lily (only found in this particular mountain valley) and another rare flower, wilderness training ect.

I wish I could have stayed there a lot longer but SOMEONE (read...the BoE) decided that schools had to be shuffled again(thank goodness the dude who has it now was able to keep it from the 2021 shuffle, he's the best fit for the school). I had so many good memories from there, I wish I had been more consistent in writing it down. I do have a bunch of photos and videos from there though, so that's nice. The only thing I don’t miss is the bus trip up and down - not only was it motion sickness, there was a healthy dose of fear each ride as the driver brought us perilously close to the edge of the mountain drop…

2019 - 2020 was interesting. With the school I got given instead of the Hirua’s I was roped into more demonstration lessons which was a lot of pressure because I was also involved quite heavily with the JHS observation and training lessons too. They were somewhat rewarding, the third graders are now super smart 5th graders, but the teachers who need to embrace the new curriculum and ways of teaching really haven’t taken on anything from the lessons....

Outside of work as well, I was given the chance, thanks to an ALT buddy of mine, to join in with the local festival. It's been one of the biggest highlights of my time here, and I am gutted it’s been cancelled for the last two years, but I understand the reason…. I was able to travel to Okinawa too during that summer for an international Karate seminar with the Dojo I train with. I met the head of the style I currently practice and a bunch of people from around the world. I also got to see Shuri castle before it burned down. So that was a stroke of luck. One of the places I want to go when/if we get out of this pandemic is Okinawa. I want to see more of those Islands so bad. Just before the whole pandemic thing too - I managed to see the Rugby World Cup, a Canada vs NZ match, I even ran into Tana Umanga in Oita city!!!

2019 - 2020 was supposed to be my last year on JET, so I was frantically Job hunting. I went to the Career Fair in Osaka in early Feb/Late January 2020. I applied and got interviewed for a position in Sendai in early Jan 2020. In the end though - the Rona hit. We started hearing whispers of it around the end of 2019, then the cruise boats happened, and then Japan refused to cancel the Olympics...every holiday season there is a new wave of infections, my nurse friends in Tokyo are struggling....my teacher friends in more populous areas of Japan are struggling…

JET couldn't get new ALTs for 2020-2021, I took the extra year when it was eventually offered, as the one job I had managed to get a serious offer for was hesitating because with the rona setting in, things were uncertain. There was a lot of time spent adjusting to the new rules surrounding what we could do in class with the kids as well as textbook change. Schools shut on and off during the spring months.

I also got a reminder of my mortality mid May with an unrelated illness which is still smacking me around a bit - stress/age, it does things to the human body it has no right to. It's only been in the last three months I’ve been able to exercise like I used to, I’ve put on a bunch of weight I can't shrug off (one part medication, another part diet) My relationship with food needs to change, and I really need a kitchen that allows me for more than one pan meals. I also need to figure out what to do with a left leg that is in constant pain from the knee down and a heart that misses beats when stressed out (mentally and physically…).

My apartment also got flooded by the guy upstairs at one point, I spent most of late February/early March living in a hotel while my walls and floor got redone - I think this was one of the things that really stressed me out and kicked my anxiety right up a notch, it was right when things were getting REALLY bad with rona-chan in Hokkaido and schools were shutting down here as it was filtering into the prefecture and so Japan closed schools for the first time…

Classes in covid times have been weird. We’ve been wearing facemasks full time since the early stages of the pandemic (March 2020) - so I admit that I get a bit pissed off seeing both Americans and New Zealanders back home bitching about just having to start wearing them full time in public. I have asthma and have been suffering with the things on during the 30*C plus with high 90s humidity summers. Teachers were offered vaccines late July 2021, just days before the Olympics were open - and I finished my two shots in the middle of August. But the overall distribution and take up of the jab has been slow. As mentioned above, we can't play a lot of the games we used to play with kids in classes anymore, and a lot of the activities outlined in the textbook curriculum need to be adjusted too, so we’ve had to be creative. We use hand sanitizer a lot more too. One of the things I miss the most though, is eating lunch with the kids.

Socially from summer 2020 - now 2021 we played a lot of DnD and board games, both online and in person when we could. There were no new ALTs again for the 2021-2022 JET year, and those of us who were in 6th year were offered a 7th. Four out of six of us took it. As a whole we’re down from a peak of 38 ALTs for Junior High and Elementary school to 22 for now. We hopefully will get a new person at the end of September, and 4 more in November. Which will bring us to 27. This has led to ANOTHER round of school shuffles.

Summer vacation has been weird the last two years. With rona-chan, we haven’t really been able to travel. All the summer festivals (all the Autumn and Winter ones too!) have been cancelled, so the changing of seasons just feels, wrong. I dunno. There is so much we all miss from pre-rona-chan, and so much that doesn’t happen that makes this just feel like one long long unending year of sadness, coldness, raininess, unbearable heat and repeat. I’m tired. Time is going so fast, but so.dang.slow.

I lost my favorite school (AGAIN GDI!!!) and gained the school I taught a semester at in 2019....I had my first day there on Wednesday. Schools actually started back on September 1st so there was some drama as the BoE didn’t communicate fast enough about our school changes. We legit got told on the 27th of August (on a Friday) our schools were changing effective September 1st, but somehow some of our schools found out on the Monday 30th August. In July we were told we would be changing schools at the end of September, so.a lot of ALTs and schools were left short changed, not having opportunities to say goodbye to co-workers or students/having their planning for the semester more or less thrown out the window too. I love my job. I really dislike the way the BoE treats us, the Japanese assistant language teachers and our schools.

The new school I have is used to having an ALT there twice a week, who plans all the lessons and executes them. I’m at three elementary schools. I'm only at each once a week, I want to plan, but being that I miss an entire lesson in between visits, it's going to be difficult to do so. Not impossible, but being that I'm already doing it for two other schools, who are at two different places in the textbook ah…….. From what I have talked to my new supervisor about though, it sounds like the teachers have taken on more of the lesson planning and I'll be able to contribute ideas when I'm there. I just want to and wish I could do more without being confused all the time. (This is all usually done in my second language too, not in English so extra levels of confusion and miscommunication abound).

I feel like this at my JHS too a lot of the time. I want to contribute more, but even with constant communication with my main in school supervisor (who is a badass and pretty much on the same page about everything with me) I still feel about as useful as tits on a bull. Especially now that classes have been cancelled and or shortened, there's less time to do stuff. Any game or activity I plan is usually cut in favor of making up time in the textbook. When I'm in class, I'm back to being a tape recorder, the fun police and general nuisance.　

Also in the last week...my two of my schools were shut due to students testing positive for the rona. This is the second time my schools have had a scare in the last 8 months. And by shut, I mean the students were all at home, but the teachers all had to come into the office. Because why not I guess….. I mean, the cases increasing is really not unexpected with the amount of people who were travelling over obon and the increase of cases due to the Olympics/Japan being slow on vaccinating/delta being the dominant strain/Japan's leaders doing relatively little except asking shops and restaurants to limit people coming in at one time and closing before 8pm. I know my schools weren't the only one shut either - but still High Schools were having their sports days this week. I kept on seeing groups of kids hanging in the park after, so that was a little bit nerve wracking.

It's just frustrating - we’ve been on half days to “minimize the risk of infection” for kids and teachers, as if only being at school from 8am through to 1pm is going to reduce the risk. My schools have only just started testing out Microsoft teams and Zoom lesson equipment. Thankfully our school’s run in this time was contained real quick, the family was super good about informing us when they got their results back, and the fact they needed to be tested. The homeroom teacher and the students from the same class were the only ones tested, and they all came back clear, which was nice. But the information came back so SLOW.

I’m a little irritated because I found out on Wednesday night what was going on, and even if I am vaccinated, I am super worried that I will end up being the covid monkey due to being at different schools three days out of five. I think other than being worried that I will catch it myself and get real sick, my biggest fear is that I will be protected from bad symptoms from the vaccine, but still be able to pass it onto some of my more vulnerable friends and students. The whole thing is a mess.

Other than Covid and BoE drama, life is good. I’ve had a couple of other big changes - both fantastic and not so great, but yeah. I have my health (and health insurance!) for now. I have a job, for now. I have a sense of existential dread for the next 12 months, but we’ll see where we end up. Life post JET is going to be way less cushy and I am TERRIFIED. I mean, I have a BA in Eng/Ling and no idea what to do with it…..because I am NOT suited for academia.

TLDR: Love my job. Don’t like the system. What is life? Future scary.

#life on JET #blog post #life in Japan #jet programme #jet program

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dragonherder2030 · 3 years

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Smaugust Day 9: Galaxy

I’m leaving tomorrow morning, my sister is going to look over the farm while I’m away. Echo Bel and Kory are coming with me, they can help with transportation and have separation anxiety. Xandra is showing me her camp, she has many followers, I’m going to be the first lizard to join it. That fact will be kept secret from the rest of the “humans” as to not cause hysteria, she has done the same with herself, hiding herself as an amphibian. I’m bringing my journal, I need to be able to write my thoughts

See you soon, Niki~

*we find out who the narrator is 👀. Another first person written segment, hopefully this one won’t be as long XD. Also, if by the end of Smaugust I feel there are some odd unintended plot holes or threads that need to be resolved I’ll make sure to do so. Ik it’s confusing right now, but I will continue right where we left off on the last writing segment for easiness*

Half my tea was gone in under a minute, it was jasmine green from what I tasted and was made very well.

“Please do explain what you mean by non-lizard kind though… Are you talking Amphibious sentience?” I ask, leaning back on the couch I had been placed on.

“No not sentient Amphibians that walk like us, I mean a species on another planet called Humans. They are a scaleless race with no tails, and can grow fur at an alarming rate. They can be dangerous to us, but not all of them. If you join me you can meet them, but many of them do not have the best interests of the dragons in mind.” Her creature tightened itself onto her neck. Has it experienced these “humans” before?

“Does that planet have dragons too? Also how do you, uh, go to another planet? Do you have access to a rocket?”

“No, I have something much better and easier to fuel… but you have to commit before learning of that. Keep your questions to a minimum till I finish explaining please, it will be easier.” Saying with a small hand wave. I nob in agreement.

“The planet is called earth and is very similar to ours. But dragons do not live naturally there, and have been brought there by a lizard who wanted a new environment for sport hunting, and didn’t get them all… They ended up breeding and creating homes for themselves, few and far apart. I used to monitor and catch some of the dragons to bring them back when I could along with my brother. When he passed I couldn’t do it by myself anymore, so I seeked the assistance of other lizards to return the dragons to their natural habitat. Not many believed me, and those who did I knew didn’t have the intentions of the animals in mind. So, I decided to start recruiting humans using my magic-“

“Wait wait wait, you have magic abilities?” I ask, needing to know more about this.

“Yes I possess magic, I’m no lizard, but we don’t need to know about that for now. All you need to know is that I can give objects the ability to transform a human into a lizard or amphibian sentient if worn, that’s what I can do,” Xandra says with a sigh. I speculate what she could be, and remember a legend about the creation of our world, something similar to that happening, where a being gave sentience to all of the lizards, and later some of the amphibians. There was another part of it where they wiped out a different race beforehand but I couldn’t remember it too well.

Xandra continued her explanation, “I chose humans because they would do the best capturing dragons in the human planet, since they are not killed on sight when seen… The humans I choose were specifically selected by my familiar, Davey here,” She pointed to the amphibian around her neck, it seemed to smile in admiration of its role.

“They are small enough to avoid detection from the humans, and not popular enough to be sought out, and they are very fast. Easily able to escape a human. I’ve gotten quite the following from animal lovers around earth, and luckily most of them speak English or know sign language, Davey doesn’t go far from our camp.”

“What do you guys Uh, do? Do you go to the human world and just, catch the dragons? And why don’t you just tell the humans that the dragons are an invasive species and, I guess take them back?” I ask, confused what I would actually be doing and why the humans are a problem.

Xandra’s calm demeanor shifted, and her eyebrows furrowed, “Most humans want the dragons, but I know they aren’t safe there. They would be hunted for sport and put in cages. I’ve watched them for thousands of years, they will never accept the dragons as any more then a fantasy creature for decoration. And for some reason now there are more being found, species that weren’t brought to earth from that initial leak. There’s another source, someone from this planet that has access to Earth and is exploiting it to bring dragons there. You can help me find them, and allow me to have more allies on this side. Plus the place I’m keeping the dragons isn’t safe anymore, I need somewhere here I can put them with someone to take care of them.” Her voice had raised slightly, this is a subject she is angry about. She must have witness terrible things. I think it’s an amazing idea, I have the whole farm I could keep the dragons. Acres of land I’m not using right now could be put to this. I didn’t care if she was legit or not, I believed her.

“Ok, I’m convinced… I want to help. I have a farm that can serve as a holding place for the dragons until we can bring them to their rightful places,” I say, trying to hide the excitement in my voice. She smiles at me, looking satisfied.

“My camp, it is all humans, they do not know of our reptilian existence, to them they are the last of the reptile kind. So to them, your just another new human recruit. That means,” Xandra gets up, walking towards the closet I had noticed before, “that means that you have to pick out an accessory to simulate the effect of you being a fake lizard.”

I stand up and walk to the closet as well. Xandra escapes into the inside of it, I follow closely. The inside wasn’t meant to hold more then one person, but it wasn’t uncomfortable. Along the walls is an array of shirts, jackets, pants, hats, bracelets, necklaces, etc. in every color imaginable.

“Take your pick, it doesn’t matter what it is, other then u will need to be able to wear it for long amounts of time,” she says, picking up a hat and dusting it off, then hanging it back up.

I look around the room, spinning in place, then think of something, “Do you have a piece? How do you hide that your not a lizard?”

She thinks for moment, “Davey helps me with that too, as you know they are my familiar, and they aren’t just any normal dragon either. They become a wonderful necklace whenever I need them to. And when I wear that, I become what they would be if they were a sentient Amphibian,” she explained to me. So far she has shown me no proof of the magic she claims to have, and this seems like a simple test. Even if I was all for the cause, no reason not to speculate.

“Could u show me?”

“Of course,” Xandra said, glancing at Davey. The creature climbed to the front of her neck, then sitting still right there for a few seconds. I await the transformation. Then, they stiffen and fall loose, a small chain connecting to their mouth and tail holding them onto Xandra’s neck. Her body poofs into one of an sentient Olm, her body much longer then previously. I stare up at her in awe, it all must be true.

“Wow…” I say, stunned by the display. She smiles down at me and quickly exits the closet, since she had taken up most the room.

“I need to show u our transportation tomorrow, since it is getting late. You will be seeing the camp, and meeting the members. You may stay for a couple of days to get familiar with them,” she says, looking out the window. I understand her reasoning, my sister can watch over the farm while I’m gone, I’ll be returning there soon with suitable dragons.

I return to looking at the room and behind a puffy jacket is a bronze glimmer. I walk towards it and grab it, it’s a tail ring. A dragon spiraling around a few times. And it’s adjustable, I try it on, tightening it to my liking. I decide it would be to heavy to stay on, and I don’t really like these kinds of jewelry. Placing it back in it’s spot, I try on a few other things, including a puffy jacket(after taking my shoulder armor off), a muzzle, and a necklace with an odd diamond like pendant on it. Then another thing caught my eye, a blue bandana with a cool looking pattern on it. I tie it around my neck, I think this one will work very well.

Exiting the room I look around for Xandra, spotting her on the couch reading a book. Davey was wrapped around her wrist and she was back in her original state.

“I have chosen this bandana!” I announce, walking towards her. She looks up from her reading and smiles brightly.

“Oh wonderful sweet pea, I only ask one more question of you before you go home to rest up for tomorrow,” she says, putting her book down.

“What’s that?” I ask, holding my shoulder armor tightly.

“What’s your name?”

“Oh- oh yeah you don’t know me very well yet. I’m Niki,” I say with a smile. She smiles back at me.

“Thank you hun. One more thing though, if you have any drakes I would recommend you bring them with you, they would help with the travel aspect. Tomorrow won’t be a walk in the park,” she says, picking her book back up. I nod, looking to my left and realizing the door is right next to the couch. I mentally scorn myself for not realizing this sooner, and exit the house. I know these woods, and have seen this cottage before. It looks worn down on the outside, abandoned… but making my way home is easy. It was evening by the time I made it back.

I call my sister, “Hi Bryn, I need you to watch the farm for a few days.”

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This was fun, writing wasn’t the best, I was kinda zoned out while writing it lol. My main focus was to explain stuff and set up character motivations, sorry if it’s a bit messy, and like, long dang.

#myart #smaugust 2021 #smaugust #galaxy #heck #this is long #dangit #I hope more then one person comments on it XD #I feel like the story has some merit #and it’s the first time I publish something #;~;

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girls-are-very-pretty · 3 years

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I just read a thing that reminded me that I went on a trip to the galapagos last year which reminded me of my terrible no good very bad morning which was legit crazy so I have to tell you about it because I can’t believe it happened.

So, it was the night/morning of my flight back to America, my flight was going to leave at 1am and we got to the airport at like 7pm, we ate, hung out, I felt very nauseous but it was also kinda whatever, it was the day of the very first covid case in ecuador it had been at the Guayaquil airport which we had been at earlier that week which was a little worrying. I had been wearing a mask on airplanes/airports the entire trip because my immune system is literal garbage and my mom was opposed to the recycled air thing (this’ll be important later). But basically we had to go through customs, tsa, etc then we got to kinda sit and hang out, I filled up my water bottle, I went hunting for a makeup store I had seen at the same airport earlier that week, couldn’t find it which kinda sucked, stole Maya’s french fries and avoided other people because I have terrible anxiety.

About 10 minutes before the plane was supposed to leave me and my teacher were called up for an extra security check, this was incredibly stressful, we were also like the last people out of like the 15 of us who were pulled aside I assume randomly, to do this so we barely made it on the plane in time, it was about 1am I was very tired, I sat down, realized I did not have my mask, subsequently freaked out, my groupmates were like “ask if the flight attendant has seen it” and I freaked for a minute before going up to the flight attendant guy, he looked down at me as I was like “have you seen a little black face mask?” and he was like so thinly veiled pissed it seemed like he was in his head going “ugh, this brat, overreacting about this freaking virus like everyone else” and so I pretty much shame/awkward slunk back to my seat accepting it was probably gone at this point. I fell asleep, and woke up like 3 hours later, I really had to go to the bathroom, but the only flight attendant in sight was the one who I had already embarrassed myself to and the seat light was still on so I just sat there suffering for 20 minutes till another one came by and I could ask if I could use the bathroom. When I came back out, they were serving breakfast or whatever I was hungry, and then! it was like sausage....and I’m a vegetarian....so I was stuck, and decided to go back to sleep.

We landed in the miami airport, I picked up my carry on from under the seat, found my mask right there so like so much stressing for no reason, which sucks, we go through customs, and we have to go through TSA again which is weird but also okay I guess. At this point all I want is to make it through, and get dunkin doughnuts. My morning has already been a bit of a wreck and I am very hungry and still tired so I just want dunkin, I just want a doughnut. I’m like 10 feet from the TSA when I realize I filled my water bottle and did not drink any of it, so I have a minute or less to drink 20 oz of water, I am the kind of person who drinks that much water over the course of like,,,a day,,, so I’m suffering but I do it. I go through the metal detector, so far so good, then my bag gets pulled aside, everyone else in my group has already gone ahead, I’m reeling thinking of anything in there that might have caused it to get pulled aside. My teacher notices that I’m kinda hanging out in distress and comes over and hangs with me while we wait for them to check my bag. The lady goes through it, finds an orange juice box. Now heres the thing, this orange juice has been in my bag half the week since I was on the island and they gave it to me for breakfast but I hate orange juice and I was too nice to say no. This orange juice has been on 2 planes, four boats, 5 busses, and nobody cared until now, but they pulled me aside for this juice box. I wanna cry but I console myself with dunkin.

We get all the way through and start looking at a map, someone tells me there is no dunkin, I seriously wanna cry at this point, there is no god, it is just me and 20 minutes before the next flight leaves. I try to make myself feel better with 2 croissants and some hot chocolate from an organic stand thing I found 2 minutes away from the terminal. I sit down with 5 minutes until we have to leave, I write a yearny little post here on good ol tumblr (the one about being in an airport and how it’s magical because there's so many different kinds of pretty girls, u probably don’t remember it, but I do), and then 3 boys in my group come from the opposite direction, and they’re holding dunkin. Now, it’s pretty well known in the group that the only thing holding me together was the promise of dunkin, so one of them sits down next to me and holds out his cup of doughnut holes to me so I can take some, He was godsent and I will never be able to appreciate him enough. I did cry, but also still got on the plane.

I later got starbucks for the very first time because my throat hurt and it was very good, and Maya braided my hair for me on the last plane to montreal which was fantastic (ever had your hair played with by a girl? 10/10 recommend). At customs I had to keep one of the younger kids from being held (On the way into canada 9 days earlier he had told the customs officer that he had a gun, it was not a great way to start the trip), he was doing so much stupid stuff, Gomez, one of the teachers, was like ‘christi, just...don’t let him do anything stupid” so I held both of our tickets and gave simple succinct answers, smiling and being nice, we made it through by some miracle and safely made it home, but like that whole first part was such a nightmare, and my ear/head had hurt half the week to the point that I ended up crying and the tour guide gave me chamomile tea (he was a fantastic person), and I found out at the doctor 2 days later that I had a double ear infection aka, I had debris in my ear that got infected and like my ear fluid had also gotten infected, so like my head and ear had hurt the entire plane ride and I could have lost my hearing from the 3 plane rides in a row, so it was a train wreck.

Moral of the story, life is crazy, dunkin doughnuts holds my life in their hands, even if this happened, it was still an awesome trip but also crazy.

#rambles

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Ik I don't engage w u much but I'd just really like to talk to an Irish person....this pandemic is shit and its handled badly by Martin here and I just know that we won't get level 3 in march....I'm really fed up with it, I've graduated into a workplace where no one knows what's going on and there's no support. And to make it worse, beast from the east 2 is on the way so it's Baltic here which makes going for a walk a bit shit.

Do you have any tips or recommendations or even have just a good moan about the pandemic, Ireland style?

It’s feckin disastrous with FF and FG and the turncoat Greens in government tbh. Idk what you’ve graduated in but based on your ask it sounds like possibly something in the medical/science industries??? If that is the case I can’t imagine how hard it is rn bc the Irish govt’s lack of support there is evident at the best of times, never mind in a feckin pandemic 🥴 Don’t be shy to DM me off anon if you ever wanna rant!!!!!!! No pressure tho ofc as I know lots of people prefer anon and that’s why I’ve it enabled 💞

I don’t have any tips bc I feel exactly the same in terms of barely leaving the house both bc of lockdown and the weather, it’s near impossible to get out for walks. Like I’m glad we’re in lockdown bc of how bad the numbers were and I’m hoping they don’t just open back up again like they did the other two times we came out of lockdown bc otherwise we’re just gonna be back in the same boat a few weeks/months later yano? But that doesn’t make living in lockdown any less shite/easier. It’s like groundhog day over and over and the vaccine rollout is so bloody slow??????? I’ve pals in the States who’ve pre-existing conditions and have already had their first dose, meanwhile we’re being told all over 70s, who’ve priority next to frontline workers, probably won’t be done til MAY????? It legit feels like all I’m doing is hearing of people going for tests or dying and life is just on pause at the minute with the vague promise of “it’ll be better soon” but no idea as to when. I’m also job hunting atm and p much every industry’s job market is cat bc of the pandemic but my industry was limited in Ireland beforehand anyway, which was why I emigrated, but then the pandemic made me return home and now I’m stuck here and it feels never-fucking-ending!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 🙃🙃🙃🙃

Generally I’m trying to take it one day at a time and truly just survive. Some days are more productive than others (I’ve a chronic illness too that I’ll be waiting to be seen for for god knows how long again bc of the pandemic so some days I’m dragging myself out of the bed just before noon) and I’m trynna be forgiving with myself but it’s hard. It’s my birthday later this week and as someone with achievement/career anxiety turning another year older while unemployed in an unpromising situation is literally giving me chest pains hskskdkskksf 💀 I’m sorry if I went too negative there but I just kinda wanted to be honest and show you (or anyone else who’s struggling atm) that you’re not alone. We’re all in different circumstances and some people’s are definitely worse than others but the current situation is affecting us all in different and harmful ways and none of us are getting out of it unscathed (well except the rich maybe lol 🙃). So take comfort in the fact that you’re not the only one, but don’t let that diminish/invalidate how you’re feeling, if you get me? We’re allowed to be sad and angry and grieve normal life while doing our part to lessen the grieving of people. 💗

#covid mention #covid #coronavirus #lockdown #ireland #community #vibe check #personal #rant #asks #anon

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mostlysignssomeportents · 4 years

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How Marcus Hutchins saved the world and lived to tell the tale

You may recall the Wannacry ransomware epidemic in 2017, when hospitals, businesses and governments were shutting down because their computers were being encrypted by malware that relied on a leaked NSA cyberweapon called Eternalblue to spread. The incidents were incredible, cinematic, even. Whole hospitals shutting down. The worm spreading like a pandemic. And then, one day, it all just...stopped. Then we learned that an anonymous security researcher going by Malwaretech had found a "kill switch" to shut it down. That was wild, and what was wilder was HOW Malwaretech killed it. They'd noticed that infected computers were trying to reach a weird, random, nonexistent domain, iuqerfsodp9ifjaposdfjhgosurijfaewrwergwea.com, and so they'd registered the domain and stood a server up there. They were hoping to intercept some of the comms between infected computers and their botmasters, but instead, they had "sinkholed" the system, turning off the infection in every affected computer in the world. No one's quite sure why Wannacry infections go dormant if iuqerfsodp9ifjaposdfjhgosurijfaewrwergwea.com can be reached. A leading theory is that the malware's author wanted to prevent efforts to decompile and analyze their creation. The first step in such an operation is loading the worm into a virtual machine - a simulated computer inside a real computer, which the researcher can inspect and alter with a thoroughness that is harder to achieve on real computers . Malware in a VM is trapped inside The Matrix, a head in a jar. These VMs are often configured to answer all internet requests from the malware, in the hopes of intercepting traffic between infected systems and command-and-control servers. Canny malware authors can use this to their advantage, writing in a subroutine that goes, "Try to contact this nonexistent server. If it answers, you're in The Matrix, so go to sleep and don't wake up until that server disappears." So, the theory goes, by registering that server, Malwaretech had inadvertently scared every instance of the worm in the world into hibernation by convincing it that it was stuck in The Matrix, and in so doing, Malwaretech had saved the day. Then it got weirder. The press uncovered the identity of the anonymous researcher behind Malwaretech: a British hacker named Marcus Hutchins (many people sent me this thanks to Little Brother, whose hero is also called Marcus - "A hacker named Marcus saved the world!"). Hutchins's other astounding feats of reverse engineering in service of hunting down and neutralizing other worms also gained publicity, and then he booked in to give a talk at that summer's Defcon, and that talk was hailed as a triumph by attendees. And then Hutchins was arrested by the FBI and accused of having written Kronos, a notorious banking trojan linked to ex-Soviet crime gangs. The community rallied around him: a person of color, a foreigner, a hero, trapped in America's meat-grinder of a justice system. They raised money, found him lawyers. Tarah Wheeler cashed in her severance pay from Symantec and used it to bail him out (racing barefoot down Vegas streets to make it to the notary on time!) and she and Deviant Ollam helped get him set up with a place to stay. He got probono counsel from cyberlawyers like Marcia Hoffman - a former EFF colleague of mine - and Brian Klein and settled in for a long legal battle. At first, he denied having anything to do with Kronos and criminal malware. Some of his teen activities - stuff hackers of the heroic era would call "youthful hijinx" - came to light. But then more and more evidence of Hutchins' involvement with Kronos emerged, and then he entered a guilty plea and posted a statement taking "full responsibility." And then, even more miraculously, his sentencing judge gave him time served and let him walk away, a free man. It was an incredible ride for those of us following it from the outside. But the actual story of Marcus Hutchins is, if anything, even more incredible. For the cover of the current Wired, Andy Greenberg turns in a 14,000-word profile of Hutchins that tells the true, incredible tale of his life, his crimes, his adventures, and his vindication. https://www.wired.com/story/confessions-marcus-hutchins-hacker-who-saved-the-internet/ Some details are straight out of the hacker canon, a kind of platonic Wargames ideal: brilliant kid, parents bought him a PC to stop him from disassembling theirs (but he had to build it out of parts), fought with school administrators, accused of hacking school system. Then there's Hutchins' path into petty crimes, driven in part by intellectual curiosity and in part by necessity (just like Woz and Jobs paying bills by selling Blue Boxes door to door in their dorm). And then, the Sneakers turn: getting sucked into some serious crime. Working for a guy called "Vinny" who cajoled and coerced Hutchins into making Kronos. Hutchins balks several times, gets sucked back in, ends up self-medicating with speed to deal with the depression and anxiety he's suffering. This sets up a toxic dynamic where his drug-impaired judgment gets him embroiled in more trouble, and the trouble heightens his anxiety, which drives him to self-medicate further. But then, at last, he breaks free and starts writing anonymous malware analysis. His astounding technical feats start landing him industry jobs and he has a very belated realization that not only doesn't (cyber)crime pay, but going legit pays REALLY well. His life turns around, he saves the world - and gets busted by the FBI. The coda is, if anything, the best part: when the judge who sentences him recognizes all of this, bringing a rare moment of nuance and compassion to the meatgrinder of the US justice system, and lets him walk away. It's the kind of happy ending you rarely get. It's a complicated story of someone who did some terrible and foolish things and some brilliant and brave things, and who paid a price but was not destroyed, and of the community that rallied around him. It's a brilliantly told story of a brilliant security researcher.

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surveys-at-your-service · 3 years

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Survey #289

“life by life / waste to waste / i’m the harbinger, the master of decay”

How often do you watch the news? Never. Would you rather read the news online? Yeah. Speaking of being online, what website do you visit the most? YouTube. Have you ever held a snake? Plenty. Ever caught a turtle? What about a crawfish? Turtles, yes, as a kid. Please do not take animals out of the wild for no good reason, people. I never touched crawfish because they looked scary lmao. Have you ever eaten gumbo? Idk what that is. Or do you not like spicy food? I enjoy spicy food, but not nearly as much as when I was a teen. Back then, I loved the adrenaline rush, now I just wanna enjoy my food like a normal person, lol. Do you own a bottle of hand sanitizer? Do you like how it smells? Does anyone NOT at this time? Or even before, really? But anyway, no, I don't like the smell. Do you own a pool table? What about an air hockey table? Or a foosball table? Okay so one of the coolest things we had when I was younger was this table that had different "tops" to change out to turn it into various games like these. Like, it was all in one. I don't THINK we still have it? Do you live with your parents? Are you cool with that? I live with my mom, and right now, it's the better idea for many reasons. I feel like shit about it, though. I'm nearly 25. Even if I was financially independent though, I would not be able to handle living all alone with my depression and all. When did/when do you want to move out? Hopefully when I have a stable job and long-term relationship. Have you ever been on a cruise? No. Are you better at catching or throwing? Probably throwing. I can't catch for shit. Do you ever play computer games? Just WoW nowadays. Did you used to have a lunchbox? Yeah, I went through a few. How often do you/did you bring your lunch to school? Whenever I didn't like what was on the menu. And mind you, I was and still am very picky. What was/is your favorite school lunch? I think the chicken sandwiches. When was the last time you wore a hat? What kind of hat was it? Oh yikes, who on Earth knows. It has to have been years. Maybe a Carolina Hurricanes one to a hockey game I went to with Dad. I don't really wear hats. Have you ever tried to ghost hunt? If so, did you catch anything? No. Do you prefer gold or silver? What about diamonds or pearls? Earrings or bracelets? Necklace or rings? Or are you not a jewelry person? Gold; diamonds; earrings; rings (I think). I don't care all that much about jewelry, though. Have you ever made jewelry? Not really, just kiddy crafts stuff. Do you have any unique hobbies? Meerkat RP. Have you ever broken a window? If so, what with? I don't believe so, no. Have you ever had surgery? If so, what on? Yeah. I had tubes put in my ears as a kid, and I had a cyst removed from... directly above my ass lmaoooo. Pilonidal cysts are awesome. Do you know any boys named Ashley or Lesley or Lynn? I don't believe so. Do you prefer coffee or hot chocolate? Hot chocolate, for sure. Do you like green tea? Tea is gross. Do you like to play Freecell? What about Hearts? Or Mahjong? I only know Mahjong, and I've never played that. I used to watch Mom play it on the computer as a kid, though. Idr the rules. Does your family own guns? No. Have you ever been given flowers? Were they from a relative or someone special? Both. Have you ever ridden on a motorcycle? No, and I doubt I will. I'm not like... really scared of them, as a matter of fact they seem really fun, they're just too risky for my liking. Have you ever seen a dead body? At an open-casket wake, yes. What does your umbrella look like? It's just an ordinary black one. Is anyone you know pregnant? HOLY FUCK, I think 90% of my Facebook friends are preggo. It seems like EVERYONE is expecting. Ha, one of my closest friends is legit pregnant with triplets after JUST having a son... She's in for a ride. Does your family do reunion gatherings? No, we're too spread out. What would you order to drink if you were in a bar right now? A strawberry sangria sounds pretty great. When was the last time you had a first kiss? I'm guessing you mean like, my first kiss with the last person I was with? A few summers ago when we were out on the porch making s'mores and dancing like some cheesy fucks lmao. How many homes have you ever lived in? If you don't count the apartment I wasn't an official resident of or staying with a friend for a month due to homelessness, we just moved into our fifth. Or sixth. It's too early when I'm taking this for math. Have you ever donated money to charity? Yeah. What’s your favourite type of exercise? Swimming. How many jobs have you had? Three or four... I'm not even sure because they were so incredibly short because fuck me and my anxiety, right? Who do you stalk the most through Facebook? Nobody. Have you ever deleted your Facebook, then brought it back? No. Write the first song that pops into your head: Well, I'm listening to "Freak On a Leash" right now. Has anything interesting come for you in the mail lately, besides bills? Nah. What is your main responsibility each day? Making sure my cat has food, water, and a clean litterbox. Do you feel like you fulfill those responsibilities? Yeah. I've slacked on the box before on bad mental health days where I can barely force myself to do anything, but I'm usually on top of it. Were you in the wrong during your last argument with someone? I don't recall what my last argument was. I think something w/ Mom. What bands did you used to love, that you don’t listen to much anymore? Hm. It's pretty rare I leave behind bands I've LOVED, so. Are you counting down to anything? tomorrow crihmus When was the last time you used spray paint? Oh, I have no idea. Maybe for an art project in HS? What color are the chairs at your kitchen table? Brown. Have you ever or do you plan on donating to any charities? Which ones? I've donated to some you would like pass by in the store if I had some spare coins or dollars on me, and when I cut my hair to as short as it is now, I donated it all to Children With Hair Loss. One of my most cherished memories is getting the certificate that it was used. I'm sure there's more, especially for school, but idr them. I 110% want to donate to charity streams when I have my own income source. Do you believe that life only gets harder or easier? I mean, this depends on your unique life. Do you know the middle name of the last person you kissed? Hm. I don't think Girt has a middle name, and I don't think Tyler ever told me because he was embarrassed by it. I know Sara's. Have you ever had sex with 2 different people in the same week? No. Who is the friendliest person you know? Probably my friend Girt. Last song you listened to? "Milk and Cookies" by Melanie Martinez is on rn. Something that annoys you about summer: Just ONE thing???? Just about everything does. The only thing I enjoy is all the flowers. Well hell, that's even mostly a spring thing. It's mostly just... plain green in the summer. At least here. Too hot for damn flowers to survive. Something that annoys you about winter: The fact that if it snows here, we get barely anything at all. e_e Are the doors of your fridge side by side or on top of one another? Side by side. When was the last time you burned a body part other than your hands/fingers? I actually just burned the roof of my mouth yesterday. If you’ve moved out of the house you were born in, do you know the people who live in that house now? Nope. What’s one food that you eat more than twice a week? Definitely some form of bread. Do you like zombie movies? No opinion, really. What's the grossest/worst thing you’ve ever seen in a public restroom? UGH. This one time I was in the bathroom with Colleen (it's a girl thing lmao) at a gas station, she did what she normally does and checks under the seat, aND IT WAS COVERED IN BLOOD. It was fucking disgusting. What’s the most wasteful thing you regularly do? Ugh... use plastic bags when disposing of Roman's "business" in the litterbox. I feel absolutely awful using one every other day. If I wait any longer than that, Mom gets mad. What’s the most difficult apology you’ve ever had to give? Probably to Jason via that letter. That honestly wasn't that difficult after having fully accepted I fucked up too, though. I don't generally find it hard to apologize when I know I was wrong. Have you ever volunteered in a hospital? If not, would you ever want to? Fuck no. They depress the hell out of me. What was your worst Halloween costume? Idk, I don't remember almost any of mine. When was the first time you can remember feeling mature? When I checked into the doctor by myself. Yes, I know how sad that is at nearly 25. Have you ever had a disappointing Christmas, or any disappointing holiday if you don’t celebrate Christmas? As a kid, there was just one where I was disappointed in what I got. SO fucking ungrateful looking back on that shit. I can't even imagine feeling anything like that now. I cherish Christmas deeply, especially now with nieces and a nephew who experience such joy at Christmastime, and I get to see my dad and his wife and stepson, too. At this age, it truly is about family to me. Do you have any character bandaids in your house right now, or just plain ones? I think we may have some princess ones and some "boy" kind for if the kids are ever over. AKA never because their dad is far more concerned about only including his family in their lives. I don't think Ryder's ever even visited our house, and he's like, four years old. My sister's husband's parents live directly down their road, but still. It hurts Mom and I a lot that we don't seem to matter when it comes to visiting *us*. Have you ever had to give a pet away? Yeah, plenty of times with our old cat nest. What's the junkiest junk food you’ve ever eaten? I dunno, probably something at Disney as a kid. Did you play pretend a lot as a child? Were there any recurring plots or themes? Yeah. I had my "good guys" - a family of alligators, deer (um they were married and had kids don't ask me, man), and some Pokemon figurines - and three big dinos that were the "bad guys." How do you feel about runny egg yolks? Egg yolk is fucking repulsive. The one and only way it's going down my throat is in scrambled eggs. Has a teacher ever tried to teach you something that was undeniably wrong? Not that I remember. If for some reason you had to give up one of your hobbies, which would you choose? I dunno, I have so few already... Maybe World of Warcraft? I almost quit it recently anyway because I was bored and yet it took up so much of my time, but it'd be hard now with a new expansion having just come out with soooo much to do. Man... I dunno. Have you ever hidden a relationship from your family? No. How much do you know about first aid? No more than the average joe, really. Which of your relatives do you know the least about? Sadly, probably my dad's oldest daughter. I know only two things about her with certainty. Have you ever meditated? If so, did it do anything for you? Yes, and all it does is make me fidgety and lets me think too much. When was the last time you got ice cream from a truck? Hm... maybe when I was at a beach when I was on vacation with a friend? I was like, a pre-teen then though, so it's been forever. Do you know any sex workers? If so, how do they feel about their job? Not that I'm aware of. And honestly, I have mixed feelings, but I think I lean more towards it being just fine so long as boundaries are set and there are very clear understandings with each other. And you ABSOLUTELY need to be safe about it. I'd far rather people get off with a consenting individual than in... y'know, other ways. It's not my business, anyway. What’s the biggest art project you’ve ever attempted? How did it go? In high school, I did a huge acrylic painting on burlap of meerkats grooming. I am to this day still so proud of it; I worked so hard on it. I love how the fur came out, especially. I do wish I could do over the background, though. What kind of wild animals do you see most frequently where you live? Excluding the obvious birds, there are tons of squirrels, and you see opossum and racoon roadkill a lot, tragically... Every now and then, you'll see deer in fields in the morning or dusk. Have you ever cooked anything other than s’mores over a fire? Yeah, hot dog.s Are there any items in your house that you use for something other than its intended purpose? I'm positive there's something. Probably everyone has an example. OH! Looking in just my room, Venus' terrarium has saran wrap covering the top to help keep humidity in. What do you hope the afterlife is like? Really, I go back and forth between hoping it's like... this state of nirvana and where you reunite with loved ones and experience infinite peace if deserved, or just the entire lack of existence anymore. I wonder sometimes if I'd want to be sentient forever. But, with me believing in a spirit realm, I don't think the latter is the case. What’s the worst behavior you’ve ever seen from a child? I think I once saw a kid smack their parent's arm or something? I don't really know. Have you ever planned an act of revenge? "No, but i daydream about it." <<<< Ha, yeah, I have. Do you and your parents share any of the same hobbies? Yeah. Mom surprised me when she told me she likes writing (even though I never see her do it), and Dad likes video games. Do you have any physical photo albums? Yes. Would you feel comfortable working at a sex shop? NOPE. Who was the worst friend you ever had? It's funny, Colleen did incredible things for me, but she also fits this description, too... Have you ever campaigned for a political candidate, or otherwise played an active role in an election? I mean, I voted, does that count? What’s the coolest hand-me-down you’ve ever gotten? What about the best one you’ve ever given? I have no idea. Do your parents and grandparents get along with each other? Dad got along perfectly fine with his parents, but my mom and her mother had a rocky history. Grammy treated her awfully sometimes. They'd been fine for many, many years, but Mom could never forget some things and always felt like she wasn't "good enough" in her eyes. I'm pretty sure Mom got along just fine with her dad. Do you have any framed photos of your pet(s)? Yes. Do you share photos of your pet(s) on social media? Um, duh. In 3 words, describe the last male you talked to. Who WAS the last guy I talked to... Do you own any of your favorite films on DVD? Which one(s)? No. Have you watched anything on Netflix lately? No. The last thing I did on Netflix was watch the first episode of The Witcher, and even though I liked it, I didn't continue. I just... don't enjoy watching TV, especially if it really requires you to pay attention. Have you ever heard someone snoring and thought it sounded cute? Besides animals, no. Are you particular about what you eat? In what way(s)? Yeah, I'm VERY picky, especially with textures. Is anyone close to you particular about what they eat? In what way(s)? Yes, my niece. She's autistic and has the symptom of being incredibly picky with things like textures, too. She is the one child I have ever known that doesn't really like eating. Is there someone in your life who can always make you smile? Always, no. Have you worn lipstick at any time recently? What color? No. I last wore black forever ago just to take pictures. Do you like wearing eyeshadow to match the color of your clothes? No; in the very rare instance I put on makeup, the eyeshadow is always black. What song reminds you of your childhood? Jesse McCartney songs, for sure. And Backstreet Boys. What’s your least favorite month? Maybe August. I'm sick and beyond tired of summer by that point. Nothing exciting going on. What do you do when you’re bored in class and not paying attention to the teacher? When I was in school, I honestly always paid attention because I wanted to pass. Have you ever baked a pie? No. Last person you shared food with? Mom. Do you know any mechanical stuff about cars? Definitely not. Were you smiling in the last picture taken of you? I don't think so, if that witchy photoshoot was the last time I had a pic taken of me. Do you answer the phones at your job? I did at two old jobs. Were you a hyper or mellow kid? I was kinda hyper. What are you drinking? Would you believe me if I answered "water"????? Did you get any compliments today? No. What last made you laugh? I think a moment in a WoW stream I was watching last night. Which of your friends is the easiest to talk to? Sara. What was your best summer ever? /shrug Do you have a favourite sibling? No. What color is the blanket/quilt on your bed? Navy and black. Favorite milkshake flavour? Just chocolate. Sometimes I'm in the mood for vanilla, though. Best year of your life? 2017. It's funny how that year started with a suicide attempt but wound up being the best year of my life. NEVER hestitate to reach out for help when you need it. How loud do you like your music in the car? Too loud lmao. Prefer to write or read? Write. Favourite apps? Pokemon GO, haha. What is a fruit you refuse to eat? Absolutely refuse? Maybe like, cantaloupe. Would you rather gain weight or lose weight? It'd to fuckin fantastic if I could lose 100 pounds. :^) I gained like thirty since moving... Would you rather gain height or lose height? Gain a tiny bit, I guess? But I'm fine with where I'm at. Are both your eyes the same color? Yes. Do you like glittery things? Yes, but not touching them and getting glitter everywhere. Ever watched a play in the theatre? Yes, at Disney World and also for school field trips. How many followers do you have on instagram? A depressing amount for someone desperately trying to be a photographer lmaooo. I mean I don't post on it a lot, so that doesn't help, but yeah. My secondary photography account (for roadkill/vulture culture stuff) has more than my main one. How about twitter? Don't use it. How much would I have to pay you to get you to do karaoke? I don't know, I'd be terrified of embarrassing myself. Last time you went ice skating? Never. Painting or drawing? Drawing, by far. Art or science? Now that's tough, but art. Dancing or singing? Dancing. History or geography? Geography is interesting. Favourite season? Autumn. Do you watch Supernatural? I did up to the end of Season 6. I loved it, I just was losing interest in TV, and also Jason and I broke up (we always watched it together) so I didn't want to watch something triggering memories. If you could change your eye color would you? Yes, to either a pure sapphire blue or emerald green. Are both your ears pierced? Yes. Are you lying down? Yes. Is there a tv in your room? No. Do you celebrate Thanksgiving? Yeah. Do you like fortune cookies? Yeah, they're oddly tasty. Do you have anxiety? You fuckin bet I do. Favorite clothing shop? RebelsMarket. How do you feel about peeing in a cup at the hospital? Is it embarrassing? No? It's too normal to be embarrassing. I mean I wrap toilet paper around it so you don't actually see, y'know, but I'm not embarrassed carrying that. Do you prefer fruit or vegetables? Fruit, by a long shot. What do you hate being called? "Bee." An old best friend who did nothing but lie about her entire life called me that. What color is the last car you were in? White. Ever studied abroad? No. Ever pulled out a tooth? Yeah, when I was a kid. Three celebrity crushes? Mark Fischbach, Link Neal, Hannah Hart. Ever been married? No. Are you proud of yourself? In most ways, no. Do you like grapes? Yep. How often do you cook for your family? Never. Is anyone in your family a lawyer? My cousin is, actually. Is anyone in your family an architect? Don't think so. Own any crystals? No. Favourite thing to write with? (pen, pencil, highlighter) Pencil. Top 5 favourite alcoholic drinks? I don't know, I haven't tried enough that I actually enjoy. Would you date someone bald? Yeah. Would you date someone who doesn’t want kids? I don't want kids either, so that's the only kind of person I'd date. That's something you can't really disagree on if you plan on lasting. Do you like candles? Sure. Favorite memory with a sibling? I dunno, probably something from when we were little kids playing together.

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