#just really fucking tired rn

[riddle-me-ri]

not me coming out of my wee depression hole to celebrate new stills for a game that's been in development for a long time rip...I see big bad wolf husband I get excited...but now I must go back still not quite 100%

#ri rambles #ever feel like #when shit happens in rl #you gotta get your rl situated first #THEN whats going on online #felt like i had whiplash and was scared to wake up and find something else happen #but im okay #just really fucking tired rn

[adriancatrin]

katara sees her brother and bff approaching something that can make them happy and says no interruptions

based on this photo from the live action cast

#my art #i learned SO MUCH about digital coloring while working on this. i can’t wait to try to put it to practice from the start and on purpose #instead of stumbling upon leagues of info when i was already 95% done lol #anyways #zukka #idc about tagging rn tbh i’m tired #fuck backgrounds dude #hate that shit #i need to do lighting studies fr tho #i can’t do interesting light i just. don’t have the knowledge #makes me sad cuz lighting really makes or breaks pieces it seems #also lol i started this then stopped for like two hours and just sketched katara a fuck ton #what i landed on here isn’t my favorite but i liked the soft + gently amused emotion she’s showing #ok whatever i’m done rambling #post

[thekittyokat]

you ever just have a lot, a LOT of feelings all at once about a character and not even remotely enough words or brainpower to FORM the words to describe everything you're feeling. so it feels like you may explode. yeah

#sorry i got really into my feelings about mark hoffman again #the very specific version of him in my brain that i really really wish i had the time and energy to properly share with you guys #saw #well until i muster the energy to explode all of my feelings out into a fic. if you want to TRY and understand #know that my three biggest hoffman fic insps right now are as follows #your best kept secret hoffman. a series of mistakes hoffman. and rushed like a dreadful wind hoffman. #there is a very clear throughline just know i am extremely emotionally compromised rn #thinking about theee fics vs the canon path hoffman spirals down #something something the absolute tragedy of watching a man's descent into madness #the transformation of a man into a monster #and what could have saved him from himself and kramer's corruption #sorry i'm rambling so much oh my god i was just having such a crying fit out of nowhere about this #do you think he could feel it happening. do you think he was aware he was losing his mind. #the script version of him fucks with me so bad. the crazed rankings and the longer hair and him not being well kept anymore #it's impossible to think he didn't know he was deteriorating #fuuuck okay i need to either chill or write a whole longfic rn #i project on that guy so much i truly don't know if i could properly write my vision of him #until i do something more substantial the full extent of my hoffman exists for me and my boyfriend only. they get me like no one else #well ginny and jenna also get me. please read best kept secret and a series of mistakes Oh My God #where am i going with this. i like tag rambling actually this is a nice way to do it without forcing EVERYONE to read my delirium #anyways if you've read all of this i think i love you? feel free to dm me about hoffman and my very specific headcanons and aus #maybe soon i'll try and start writing my fics about this tragic man #i could never say any of this on twitter btw they'd string me up for my opinions on him as a sad wet beast who could have been fixed #if only he hadn't been weaponized first #god i'm too tired to even be as embarrassed about this as i should be. thought i unlearned cringe already #but i've been spending way too much time on twitter and they HAAATE hoffman there #rip. i know it's not that serious but i'm sensitive rn and hate feeling lonely in my thoughts #ok bye for real otherwise i'll never shut up. i might tag ramble more often bc this was therapeutic in a way i needed badly #cat chat

[minty364]

DPXDC Prompt #70

Danny and Damian are twins and they are unfortunately forced to fight each other for title of heir at the age of 5. Danny dies after losing and Talia desperately throws him into the lazurus pits. He doesn’t come back out.

5 years later they throw a one Jason Todd into the pit and he also doesn’t come back. But Danny does now 10 years old but he has white hair and glowing green eyes. Oh wait it’s back to normal black hair and blue eyes now. Talia is majorly confused and she grabs both of her sons to take them to live with their Father and gives Damian the order to protect Danny from harm.

Jason wakes up in front of two kids one wearing a red cap and the other was goth as fuck. What the hell happened and how was he here?

I was basically wondering what would happen if Jason and Danny where thrown into the pits and turned on the portal at the same time and what if they swapped places.

#dp x dc prompt #dp x dc #dc x dp #danny fenton #danny phantom #danny and damian are twins #poor danny #writing prompt #Danny and Jason swap places #I kind of figured Danny wouldn’t be spared if he was just some random kid so hence twin au #The was I’ll handle character death is #is it described at all? If it goes into great detail than yes but if it’s just casually brought up by Danny then no #I’ve had a bad depression spiral lately and I know I need to look for a new job but I’m also so fucking tired of life you know? #My mental health is really bad rn lmao

[betweenblackberrybranches]

Part 3 of the comic

Part 1 Part 2 Part 4 Part 5 Part 6

Meeting an old one

Moon sometimes forgets that as an automaton he can easily break humans if he doesnt hold back. Luckily Y/N got away with only a bruised arm and not any of their bones were broken

#dca fnaf #daycare attendant #fnaf sun #fnaf moon #moondrop #sundrop #daycare attendant x y/n #fnaf sb #my art #automaton au #i am so fucking tired rn #i really hope the panels arent too dark #if it isnt clear y/n is talking to the old one in the 4th panel #just now realized that that might be unclear #had fun with the last panel

[iknowwhereyousnoozeatnight]

couple of mello + near doodles

#death note #mello #mihael keehl #near #nate river #meronia #bright colors #eyestrain #been having fun w colors recently :3 #these are the product of me really really really not wanting to do some discussion boards #like i don’t even hate discussion boards but something about them has been filling me with dread i’d rather just do exams tbh #i'm like dragging myself through the rest of this semester but it's different from last semester last semester i was losing my mind #this semester i've been able to sleep more than 4 hours a night and go outside bc it's not freezing but also i'm just so fucking done #with school i've been here too long i'm tired but i'm always tired and will always be tired it's tragic honestly i think i'd be more cool #with school if i weren't living how i am rn w my family but eh i don't have the money to move out so it's whatever and it doesn't really #help that i know i'll have to get at least a master's to really do anything in my field and the though of doing more of this makes #me so tired i think i might take a gap year after i get my bachelors this fall idk #anyways enjoy my doodles or don't if you don't want to i'm not the boss of you

[rapidhighway]

#okay sorry for venting but i’ve been processing that session for months #like im the one who fucked up that session because i couldnt make myself say anything and actually naming any problem i have #felt like im begging to have a bunch of excuses #and god that paychologist really made me feel like i imagined all of that for attention and now im back here again and im once again #realizing my brain is just fucked up and what do i do now because if i went to a session now #i would be in the same situation where i can’t say anything that actually bothers me #so i guess im in deep shit forever or at least until i stop having some fucking mental block or whatever #im just fucking tired bro……. #she told me everyone is a little bit autsitic and that’s it WHAT #bro if i had little enough symptoms of whatever that i could do stuff by myself anyway i wouldnt fucking be ghere paying 200zł for the most #ruining hours of my life thank you so much. #instead i have to use everyone in my life as a crutch because i literally just can’t function without help IUOUOUGHHH #god im so sorry okay im gone im just really going through it rn #vent

[dollypopup]

like. . .are any other Polin fans out there that do not give a singular flying fuck about Debling? we should form a club lol because from the very bottom of my heart and with my whole chest: I could not care less about him. Not sorry, I'm tuning into S3 for Pen and Colin and Pen and Colin alone

#polin #penelope featherington #colin bridgerton #like. . .i keep seeing all these theories about debling and i'm going '. . .and?' #someone: what if debling- #me: don't care. when is colin back on screen? i miss my boy #because really. . .who gives a fuck? he's a random oc who's gonna be gone by ep 3? #frankly i don't give a shit about him in any capacity #and tbh. . .like it's not even a contest for me. colin is SO much more attractive and appealing than debling #no shade to the actor i'm sure he's lovely but guys. . .luke newton is SO fucking fine #tired: colin gets jealous of debling because he's courting penelope and thus disapproves of them #wired: colin distrusts debling because he's a vegetarian and colin the foodie cannot trust a man who cuts out an entire food group #inspired: colin is friendly to debling and can always hype pen up around him but debling isn't listening because he's queer and likes him #y'all just 'care' about debling because he has no traits rn and you can turn him into your perfect male oc prize for penelope #'i ship pen with options' and i ship pen with colin. . .you know. . .like a polin shipper. . .crazy how that's. . .how it works #anywhoozle i am first and foremost a hater #fellow haters come join me we meet up on tuesdays and we have snacks

[w98pops]

i wanted to make a new proper redesign for wendy, and ended up abandoning it because of my fucking episode that makes me not only miserable but also makes me hate my art. so ive made some sketches with my other main characters. idk if ill commit to these designs, we'll see

#fallout #fallout new vegas #fnv #oc: wendy #oc: aletus #oc: sharky #i hate hate hate the mental state im in rn #im just don't know why it gets worse theres literally nothing bad happening to me but i feel fucking awful grrrhrhrrhrh #im really really tired and i dont want it to affect my art because i love my art #and my characters #and i can't enjoy the only thing that keeps me grounded and its haunting #just gotta keep through and stop dumping in tags #i was almost tempted to give aletus a mullet too btw #a devil crafting his masterpiece through my mortal hands

[felizusnavidad]

unpopular opinion but i really miss those days when it was all about the music in taylor swift fandom

#time for a little rant because i feel like i need to get it off my chest rn #i feel so disconnected from this fandom lately #mostly because literally everything is about travis these days #like don't get me wrong i'm really happy that she's happy but #i just don't feel the need to talk about her relationship 24/7 like some of the swifties #and honestly it's all just too much #everything is about taylor and i'm not even excited anymore when i see new pictures of her #because it's just too much??? #i truly love her with all my heart and i always will but even i am tired and i've been a swiftie for literally half of my life #why do people have to discuss every single detail about her love life #and who cares if she's going to be at the game again #let her live maybe #i'm sorry but it's just so annoying lately #this fandom is being too fucking loud and i'm tired and it's not even fun anymore #remember when the eras tour started? amazing times #we were talking about it all the time and discussing every single detail of the tour and the songs and all #now it's all about her new relationship guys it's not... like... WHY. #it makes me so sad because it used to be different #ugh #i might get hate for that but i don't care i just really needed to say that #taylor swift #ts #talking shit for the hell of it*

[chrisbangs]

🐺🫧

Here

Now go to sleep

#m.bubble #🤫 shh... just between you and me i took these #i'm feeling a wee bit nauseous .......... it'll pass (it won't it's actually my love for him and i don't think i'll ever fucking recover) #hesssss pretty pissseddddddd on bubbleeeeeeeeeee #i feel bad... he can't really outwardly say smth either... but he's mad 😭 it's so clear... i didnt expect anything but #an ig post and pics on bbl.. was a surprise #and voice notes ??/$:!:!: 😓😓😓😓😓 my heart .. #gosh i love him . i love him......... #i'm so tired i just want for him to be able to . have 1 normal day lmao #anyway... 😓👍 sharing these before i log off again.. im really just too exhausted rn ... 👎 to deal with anything #chan #soulmate

[iknowwhereyousleepatnight]

doodle/wip

#death note #l lawliet #wip #my art #i’m gonna try practicing lineless again but i don’t have the time/energy for it rn so i made a doodle that i may use as a base #for lineless later #i couldn’t settle on a pose so i just did whatever #hmm #i’m tired #i’m always tired #unsure if this will be better or worse after finals #wait fuck i need to work on my comm sheet again #pricing is hard bc to be completely honest i don’t really see much value in my art but i also want moneyyyyyyy #sigh

[jekyllnahyena]

The problem is that I wanna show characters in scenes but I need dialog, but I don't want to write, so I need to draw comics, but comics take a lot of time and energy, which I don't have, so I get stuck with scenes in my brain and think that I need to draw them before I forget the scene or they keep me from thinking about other things, but I can't, so now I'll explode

#do u see my problen here??? #like im slow #soooooooo fucking slow #and i dont have time #my only solution rn is ti really just put iut the sketchiest littls things possible #and then i have to lock myself somewhere so the perfectionist in me doesnt try and murder the tired lad

[recurring-polynya]

"Captain's Privilege"

I absolutely adore this post about vintage couples portraits, and I wanted to try out doing something inspired by them.

Here's my first attempt! It's not great because it's the only thing I've managed to draw all month and I'm rusty, but at least I got one in under the wire.

#renruki #rukia kuchiki #renji abarai #my fanart #also the colors looks better on my ipad but i'm not up to dealing with that rn #it's been really hard to not intimidate myself out of drawing projects these days #so i'm trying to do a little more 'fuck it we ball' rather than spending 1M years trying to make things look nice #so pls just accept this out of friendship for me #will i ever get tired of using tumblr's horrible cursive font for shitposting purposes? no i absolutely will not

[stardust-vi]

Dumb ramble but I hate that you can't critique The Thing you love within a fandom space without some dude breathing down your neck like "Well actually that means you hate The Author and The Thing! And what about all the times The Author did this Good Thing? Checkmate, liberal." as if you can't be critical of something because you love it and want it to be better.

#just. i'm in a rush rn so i'm probably not articulating myself well and i could go more in-depth with my thoughts #at the risk of someone spinning my words into “cringe blue hair pronoun wants to cancel araki!” which... will happen inevitably #even though i don't know how many times i can repeat “i do not hate araki #this is specifcally about jjba btw because like. #look i love it and araki has done some good things (or at least had good intentions in most cases) #but i'm so over the fact he constantly has to reach for some form of traumatizing women in his writing #and I already hear “well it shows they're a villain!” #but does he HAVE to use assault? why does he have to use that instead of demonstrating their villainy in other ways #that don't need to use it as a crutch #i'm not even saying you can't ever write about assault #that's not my argument either. #I'm not even accusing him of being a bad writer or person but just. Can we please retire the overusage of assault for shock value? #i obviously don't hate people who enjoy the series regardless #i'd be a massive fucking hypocrite #i mean i've literally been in this damn fandom for 6 years and just now decided to post my art. #but i'm tired of any time someone brings up legit criticisms of the misogyny in his writing #it's met with “but araki did this-” like it changes anything. #i'm glad he did somewhat improve writing women over time compared to the earlier parts #that said. that doesn't cancel out the blunders he did make or will make in the future #even if he has good intent. #or really any criticism of the writing being hit with “but its not supposed to make sense #anyways rant over. probably going to delete later bc im tired. #tw assault #assault tw

[da-proti-toku-grem]

my mom found this super detailed online test that helps you find careers that you'd probably like according to your answers (ofc we know that it's just a test and it doesn't mean you have to study what they give you, but i just can't find anything that i like and i'm running out of time, so we were like, why not yk) so, i took the test and after 30 minutes of answering questions you know what i got? biotechnology. the same career that i chose last year and the one i dropped out of in january.

idk if i want to laugh or cry tbh

#i mean it gives you more than one option but this was the one with more compatibility #and the other ones are also a big no for me so... #god idk what to do with my life #and atp i can't help but start thinking (again): did i drop out bc i didn't like the career or bc my mental health is SO bad #i think it's a combination of the the two bc yeah i probably would've enjoyed the few months i did at least a bit more if i wasn't depresse #but i REALLY didn't like it #tho then again i don't know what changed bc it WAS what i wanted and then i got there and i went NOPE almost immediately #and like i know your opinions can change and that is good that i dropped out if i realized that's not my thing #but i can't help but wonder if it is really not my thing or is my brain just not letting me enjoy the things i like? #bc every option i've been looking at to start next year is like... No #i can't find anything i think i might enjoy at least a little bit #i found this university that i gives you the possibility of doing the classes and exams online and everything #and that would be to study 'translation and interpretation' with english & french (& spanish ofc) #and since i'm already bilingual in english & i've a certificate in french (not bilingual but is smth) i would be able to skip some subjects #which is good i guess and i like languages but it's also like the opposite of what i've been doing my whole life bc i studied science in hs #and then again idk if i'll like it or not #and i know i won't know if i like it or not until i try it out and everyone is like 'well if it's not your thing then you drop out again' #which i mean is true i Can but god i don't want to go through all this again i need at least a bit of certainity or i'm gonna go insane #also i've been searching for so long w/o findinf anything that my parents are already saying #'well if you don't want to study you'll have to look for a job' #and if the thought of studying a carreer is already scary #if i have to look for a job rn (there are not many options here if you don't have a degree)...... #the thought itself makes me sick :/ #i just don't know what to do and i'm so fucking tired i just want to curl up in bed and not do anything for at least 2 months #(am i having another existential crisis after that panic attack 3 days ago or did the existential crisis not stop since january?) #(probably sooner) #(i guess we'll never know........) #venting #maca speaks