#just mentally and physically and emotionally drained

[cherie-doll]

𓆩♡𓆪 Headcanon : When They Come Back

✧˚ Ghost, Keegan, Soap, König, Phillip Graves

˚₊· ͟͟͞͞➳❥Fluff for you suckers -hope you enjoy the word vomit ;(

Working under constant danger put a strain on them, at moments when it seemed like the world was nothing but shambles and havoc they’d close their eyes and remember what brought them warmth. There was a certain feeling they yearned for and were only satisfied when you were near.

There is something special in knowing someone is waiting for you.

Ghost

This man comes back completely drained; physically, mentally, emotionally…

At first, he was hesitant concerning your worry about him

“If you won’t let me take care of you, who will?”

Might be a little distant at first, it takes time for his mind to come back

No going out, at all

You say comforting phrases to him

“You’re not at war anymore, you can come home”

He’s been through a lot, a warm meal and hugs are all he needs for days afterward :(

It takes some time for him to recharge

When he feels better he lets you know much he appreciates everything you do for him

Takes time to admire you; he silently takes in your facial features

Affectionate gazes that flicker between your eyes and lips

He knows you aren’t obliged to it yet you make an effort for him and that makes him feel like he’s earned a much better reward than money or glory could give him

Keegan

Saying this man missed you is an understatement

It’s like you placed a spell on him the moment he met you

If it were up to him, he wouldn’t want to be a moment away from you

He’ll miss you in silence, won’t send letters or texts or anything knowing it’ll make his heart ache more

But when he walks through the door he falls to kissing you

Bites your lip just for the taste of you on his tongue

His lips leave yours for breaks in between intense kisses to whisper “I love you”

He feels empty without the intimacy and closeness of you

He doesn’t care what you do or don’t say, doesn’t expect anything big either, he just wants to see you with your arms open for him

Soap

No matter how bad it was this time, he always comes back with a smile on his face when you open the door

Even behind that loving smile, you catch the subtle dimness in his eyes

Peppers you with kisses all over your face

Extremely clingy

Needs to be reminded that the world can be kind and gentle

Needs you to dote excessively over him

You give him a shoulder massage as he washes up in the bathtub

Convinces you to join him

Afterward, you crawl into bed with him, cradling his head on your lap

Both of you turn into couch potatoes for a couple of days watching cozy films

König

Keeping up a stoic demeanor can be tiring, so he easily drops the poker face as soon as he buries his face into your neck

No matter how much prying you do, you won’t get him to open up about what disturbs him

He’d rather keep those horrors locked away from you, you’re his most cherished possession

A lot of quiet moments where he’s just content to be with you again

Little is said between you as tender and passionate kisses are exchanged

Don’t think he’ll leave your side for the next few days, you’re attached at the hip

As you trace the scars on his back to his shoulders, you feel his body tremble beneath your fingertips

Your touch is addictive to him; soothing him into a tranquil sleep

Phillip Graves

He’s had to deal with a lot of crap so he’s relieved to finally come back to some peace, and most importantly; you

At first, he didn’t want to overwhelm you with issues that aren’t yours, but as your relationship progressed he started opening up more

Oftentimes, he’s in an irritable mood when he comes back

You listen to him rant if that’s what he needs

Other times it gives him too much of a headache to even think about

He adores you for understanding him without words being spoken

With so many enemies he has, he feels undeserving of you, someone who’s like a warm ray of sunshine in his austere life

When he falls silent you know that’s your cue

A sort of haze entrances him as you trail soft, torturous kisses along his jaw

Your scent obscures his mind as he gets drunk on your affection

He can’t even remember what he was mad about

#cod fanfic #cod headcanons #simon ghost riley #ghost cod #ghost x reader #keegan p russ #cod keegan #keegan x reader #john soap mactavish #soap x reader #cod soap #konig x reader #konig cod #phillip graves x reader #phillip graves #phillip graves cod #call of duty #call of duty fanfic #headcanon

[strrwbrrryjam]

im so tired, i just want to live

#im exhausted lmao #just mentally and physically and emotionally drained #i want to feel better #strawberry speaks

[alwaysneedyforsir]

is a hug too much to ask for

#seriously #i’m jus #so so goddamn touch starved #like i would do insane things to just get a hug rn #a proper hug that lasts like two seconds #so so tired #physically but also #emotionally n mentally drained rn #tired n exhausted n straight up numb #i get myself out of this shitty place n then fall right back into it again #just #a proper night’s sleep where i don’t wake up exhausted and dreading the day ahead #n a fucking hug #seriously when did a hug become too much to ask for #i’ll probably wake up n be horrified n delete this so enjoy my rambles for the next like #3.5-4ish hours before i’m awake again? #fml! #it’s fine i’m fine everything’s fine #i just need someone to hug me while i sleep a full night #and the chances of me finding that anytime soon are #too low to even try n pretend to calculate #goodnight y’all #wishing y’all the hugs that i can’t seem to get #me #my thoughts

[astranauticus]

(spoilers up to orv chapter 270) (sort of?)

you ever just kinda. suddenly realise what you're listening to

#omniscient reader's viewpoint #omniscent reader #orv spoilers #orv #kim dokja #yoo joonghyuk #art i made #the first hyperlink is to the song on youtube the second one is to my translation btw #that caption was not an exaggeration i was deadass like walking back from class with my spotify on shuffle and kinda like #tuned back in to what was playing in my ears and just had a kinda. HOLD UP WAIT A FUCKIN SECOND #honestly the whole song is kinda yjh if you squint and like for what its worth literally the only reason this is tied to like #that scene from 269 specifically is bc i literally just read that part today so it was really fresh in my brain #god the process of making this was so strange too bc i did it in almost one sitting except i had a fuckin SPORTS EVENT of all things #in the evening so it was like. 3 hours straight of doing this 2 hours of playing sportsball of all things then another 3 hours of this #so now i am physically mentally AND emotionally drained! genuinely couldntve had a more exhausting consecutive 8 hours if i tried #btw fun fact in the spirit of like. making life easier for myself all of yjh's flashback frames or whatever are webtoon panel redraws #except for that last one obviously cuz the webtoon isnt there yet (which. wow the processing of drawing that was. very painful) #but its like. I AM THE WAY THAT I AM if given the chance to draw to my knowledge one of the most tragic moments from the story I WILL DO IT #ok looking back theres a bunch of editing errors but also i just. really need to go do my ACTUAL FUCKIN WORK LMAO #god my arm hurts #hmmm i might clean up that 10 scenario sketch later on. i kinda like how the wings turned out #and also kdj's dipshit expression.

[xysidhequeen]

I was in a car for 14 hours because, if anyone is unaware, I recently became aware of the fact that the man who was my father in everything but blood passed away in 2020. I am NC with that side of the family, and for my own physical and emotional safety, I had to cut everyone off. I couldn't chance reaching out and leaving a trail for my abusersers to follow. Not when I already had to change my number three times and move four times just to ensure they couldn't find me.

That didn't mean I couldn't visit his grave, though, and I did. It was. Hard. Seeing his grave made it real. Up until that point, I could tell myself it was a trick or it was the wrong man, until I saw that grave.

But, I spent 14 hours in a car, had to see the grave of someone I loved. Perhaps the only family member on that side I still loved at all. And now I'm once more stuck in insomnia. It's been, 30hours no sleep because my body can't handle stress in any capacity and is now throwing a full blown tantrum.

There's not much of a point to this post. I'm not aiming to garner sympathy or pity. I just needed to talk about it even if no one sees it. I don't like to talk about my issues to people close to me, I don't like to complain. Sometimes, it's easier to let these things out when I'm hiding behind a fake name and a fake face.

#tw: death #death #family death #loss of a loved one #tw: abuse #abuse #tw: child abuse #child abuse #its hinted at least #ill cover all my bases #im like three minutes from a full breakdown #im so tired #not just physically #im tired emotionally and mentally too #just #utterly drained #i really am not looking for pity or sympathy #this isnt even the first death in my life #but it was the most important one #he....was so much to me #honestly most of the time i think he was the only adult in my life that actually loved ME for who i was #he was my safe person i trusted him wo much even when i had been trained by my family's behavior to never trust anyone #he was so good and kind and genuine and wonderful #and ill never get the chance to speak to him again because hes gone #and ill have to live with the guilt of knowing I put that rift between us. im the reason i never got to say goodbye. #im the reason i didnt know he was dead. and i have to live with the guilt of knowing if i was given a second chance id do it all over again #because at the end of the day im always going to value my own mental and physical health over anything else. and thats not going to change #but fuck if i dont wish i couldve sent him a letter or an email or something. he died not even knowing if i was alive or suffering #he deserved so much more than what i left him with. and ill never get a chance to make it right now.

[conflitdecanard]

Life threw one of the meanest curve brick at my head recently so I do my best to get back on my feet and sunday night was gorilla therapy ╮（╯＿╰）╭

#gorilla #monkey #ape #goblin #doodles #allsaasart #goblinsona #sona #shroom #also i will be fine please dont worry it was rough but i am fine physically just mentally and emotionally drained but i will be fine

[callixton]

oh i am on the Brink of a mental breakdown. and like a real one. i am going to feel so so fucking terrible and guilty if i don’t go to the first week of mac rehearsal bc i need to recover but i am also getting the sense that i Need to recover. i have never been this burnt out or genuinely terrified of starting a new semester in my life.

#we go back to campus a week early for mac. to be clear #and god they’ll be long days and they’ll be physically emotionally and mentally draining and i genuinely dont know if i can take that #but i am also going to be missing SO much time. and i won’t be there to support the people who i need to #i have also. been thinking a lot about how i’m scared that i think so much abt death bc i’m gonna be one of those people #who seem even more than everyone else like they have a finite time and then they die young #and then my mom compared me to jonathan larson tonight #so maybe that’s some sort of sign that i need to slow the fuck down #i am crying rn. for myself. which happens about three times a year #and yeah one is usually during winter break so we’re on schedule #i don’t know. idk!! i don’t know what to do here #and i still have to do my fucking scene prep for tomorrow #bc i was talking my mom about it and i really needed support which she was giving and then she has to leave for five seconds #and when she came back the entire conversation was just about her own problems again which we’ve already talked about every fucking night bc #- you can’t leave conversations with her and i hate when she fucking drunks i hate it i hate it #i am Not Well. i’ve sort of been avoiding admitting to myself just how badly #but man. i can push through anything until i drop but when i start wishing that i’ll drop so i have an excuse for a break….. not good #ted talks #the west wing

[angeltism]

If I see one more being acting like the term fp is just a word for ywour bestie or partner or whatever I am going 2 throw a chair

#➳ valentin vents #like NO fucking NNNNO an fp is some1 who ywou've developed a big big mentally ill attachment 2 it isn't just ''oh im friends w this being'' #it's fucking ''i will constantly overthink and worry about what this being thinks of me / feels / says / does / etc to the point it'll #mess with my own functioning on a molecular fucking basis'' #beings acting like having 3 fps is swo ''uwu quirky we r such besties teehee!!'' when if i had 3 fps I'd purrobably kms actually #nawt in a ''its a bad thing 2 have more than 1'' way in a ''fps can be so emotionally mentally physically draining 2 have'' way #n like. YES fps r most often partners (r or qp) or close friends but it's nawt like. oh u have a partner that's an fp. or oh you have an fp #it must automatically be ur partner. like no u can have normal relationships w ur friends or partners while having fp-attachments on beings #like family members or such #sigh #ok this js all just 2 say how i h8 beings treating bpd weirdly my god #n misusing terminology or whagever ig idk im tired asf i slept so badly last night hopefully this doesn't come off weirdly or wrong

[canichangemyblogname]

I truly, genuinely, hate my job. I can’t stand working here.

#I have little to no issues with my boss #(like. she’s barely ever here) #The work is unchallenging. just tedious #I essentially just get paid for doing lots of paperwork #The work is easy. And it involves helping people get their benefits #what tf am I complaining about? I have healthcare fffs! #I just think I don’t like working. like. at all #no reason I should dislike a steady job like this #I just also really hate government and politics #it’s all truly infuriating #and everyone keeps telling me that they need ‘youth’ and ‘people like [me]’ involved #but— like— they don’t want us here. their actions imply they don’t want us #The job feels useless #And I’m exhausted #mentally. emotionally. and physically drained

[hella1975]

happy eurovison!! do your stretches!!!

babe it's been days since i did my stretches at this point im too scared

#in my defence idk WHAT was going on with my sunday shift bc i only waitressed 7 hours and that's a pretty normal shift for me #like im aware compared to a normal person it would be very difficult to just out of nowhere expect them to be on their feet #walking back and forth the entire length of a restaurant regularly carrying heavy things all the while keeping up ABOVE AND BEYOND socially #for SEVEN ENTIRE HOURS with ZERO BREAK like masking that entire time on top of the 7 hour physical workout #like it's insane if u think about it for more than 2 seconds and im really trying to bc every time i falter i beat the shit out of myself #and like? NO? my job is actually very physically demanding and emotionally draining compared to most people's day-to-day activity #it's gonna have impacts sometimes! #so yeah long story short i finished my shift sunday and when i tell you my legs LOCKED UP in bed that night #like mainly my thighs but it was all in my hips and knees and it was so bad that i lay there until 2am before getting painkillers #bc i couldnt hack it #which is SAYING SOMETHING for me bc im normally both quite good with pain and also a hardass for taking painkillers #ive had that happen once before (again after waitressing lol) & never worried about it but my mum recently got diagnosed with arthritis #and ever since ive been like. Looking at my own joints any time they even HINT at playing up #like i am RENOWNED for inhereting all of my mum's medical shit from mental to physical like i KNOW i'll get it it's just a matter of when #and yeah that was sunday it's now tuesday and my thighs STILL feel bruised #and im like. embarassed about it bc it's not like i did anything spectacular? and idk why it's happening? #yeah idk hiiii rori did u like me ranting about my physical health in ur stretch reminder ask sorry do u still think im hot <3 #ask

[bisexualbvck]

gonna go find an empty field to scream at the sky in. anyone wanna join?

#I've just been feeling drained mentally physically and emotionally lately #don't wanna do anything #don't wanna see anyone #bleh #christina talks #will delete later

[femme-malewife]

I will...hopefully write tomorrow

#if i actually get some goddamn sleep tonight and dont fuck myself over tomorrow #i Am sorry yall. i have so many writing project plans but im just so. Mentally physically and emotionally drained irl #work. sleep deprivation. general irl things. mental illness. #it piles up. it really does. everything i do feels pointless. im so tired of everything. i want to continue writing #having fun. but how can i when it feels like i can die at any time and it wouldnt matter? #lately monas song jinsei wa saikou no hima tsubushi has been hitting me particularly hard

[soufre-de-paris]

.

#my brain is just doing the #the same three thoughts circling the drain #thing #and it's been fucking freezing so of course everything is so much more dramatic than it breeds to be #me: i don't know what to do so until i know what to do i will do nothing #also me: so am i choosing to do nothing? #but i just don't know if #this is the right choice! #is it? #objectively? #rationally? #emotionally? #physically? #spiritually? #mentally? #psychologically? #afk shit is excruciating as always #i had a family tag but i don't know what it is anymore

[books-and-cookies]

anyway thanks for bearing with me through the chaos of yet another taylor album release day, i appreciate the patience

to those who have unfollowed me, godspeed my friends yolo

#mary rambles #i'm so drained tonight #like physically #emotionally #mentally #i'm just drained

[seventh-district]

CW: mention of gun violence (in a nightmare. not IRL)

i know for a fact that my period makes me more apt to cry over things because i can have a vivid nightmare about getting randomly gunned down while waiting in line to pick up a pizza then wake up and not shed a tear but when i’m on my period i can have one (1) bad dream about my father yelling at me and i wake up and promptly begin full-on sobbing into my pillow

#cw gun mention #cw gun violence #cw nightmares #cw menstruation #cw periods #Seven.txt #Seven’s Public Diary #anyways i gave myself a headache from the crying so that’s cool #what’s ironic is that while i was laying there feeling all sad and pathetic i suddenly thought of the Reader x Moon oneshot i wrote #uhhh what was it called i can’t think straight rn #‘when i’ve got no one else’ or smthn like that #and i started crying even harder LMAO #alright it’s midnight-thirty i need to drink some water and go back to sleep #everything’s fine i’m just Stressed™️ right now and yesterday was a long and draining day #i’m almost grateful for my periods making me more emotional actually bc it’s like. easier to just cry and let it all out. y’know? #i used to despise that part of menstruation cause it made me feel weak but you know what? fuck it #maybe sometimes we need to let ourselves feel weak. maybe the inability to let ourselves be vulnerable is actually the thing to hate #being weak sometimes is important in a way #if you can’t let yourself break down sometimes you will like. explode or something. maybe not physically but. emotionally. mentally. #constantly being strong and/or dead inside will hurt you in the end. you gotta be soft and vulnerable every so often. me thinks #okay enough midnight thoughts GOODNIGHT my everything is sore and hurting so i am gonna stop talking now and go back to sleep

[lightningfilledsaber]

missing my close friendships and how I used to have the energy to maintain them while also reminding myself that part of the reason I don’t have that energy anymore/right now is because that very energy was actively exploited by my “best friend” of Several Years for their own benefit

:pensive:

#lol #not to mention that said ''best friend's'' girlfriend didn't have the emotional maturity to own up to her mistakes #and neither gave enough of a fuck to actively do better #like hm why dont i have the energy to maintain my remaining friendships and attempt to become closer to others lol. right. that #your best friend only ever paying attention to you to treat you like a chauffer and otherwise literally avoiding you after you've realized- #-that they're you're FP (bpd stuff) and literally explicitly told them that will do that. lol #then. lol. a half assed apology ''I'm sorry I wasn't there for you'' when i FINALLY get the courage to cut them off. WOW. THANKS SO MUCH. #THAT REALLY HELPS *NOW* AFTER WE ALREADY HAD THE CONVERSATION ABOUT HOW YOU WERE TREATING ME LIKE SHIT *MONTHS AGO* #not to mention that their girlfriend was too much of a fucking coward to face me in person so i could properly cut her off instead of a text #''sorry our schedules didn't line up =( genuinely wish you the best'' #YEAH OKAY #bullshit on bullshit #if you fucking wished me the best you wouldn't have INTENTIONALLY crossed MULTIPLE boundaries #in one case. lol. LITERAL SECONDS AFTER I TOLD YOU I NEEDED SPACE BECAUSE I'M NOT GOING TO SCREAM AT YOU #WHEN YOU HAVE TOLD ME AND I KNOW DAMN WELL PEOPLE YELLING AT YOU IS A TRIGGER FOR YOU. #THAT'S YOU TRYING TO MAKE ME INTO THE BAD GUY DIPSHIT. ''mike I would never do that to you'' YOU ARE LITERALLY ACTIVELY TRYING TO DO THAT RN #and yknow the other reason is that i literally work 12 hour shifts and ~40 hour work weeks so #3/4ths of my time on this planet is spent working or sleeping. like yeah no shit i have no energy #im not only physically drained i'm also mentally and emotionally drained lol #anyway sorry for the pity party i'm just. so fucking tired of avoiding talking about this publicly #mud rambles #like i know i mentioned it before but i havent really gone into any depth so. i deserve to talk about it more