Hm. I dunno if I wanna do the Recon By Fire and Violence and Timing missions in my fanfic for a few reasons.
One, they're perfect as is, I don't really need to add any of the shifter aspects to it. Yes, it'd be nice to see Farah shifting to catch up with the convoy, but there's not really much of a practical use for the other shifted forms there.
Two, I kinda wanna fill in what happened between Hardpoint and El Sin Nombre. Because there's that downtime there, that we just have no clue what happened! It is headcanon central and I wanna take full advantage of that.
Three, both of the missions are lengthy, and I am not trying to completely rewrite MWII. I just wanna expand off the base I was given with my au, but the only way I can do that is by cutting out some missions, just like I did with everything up to Hardpoint. Timeskips are your best friends sometimes.
But on the other hand, I feel like I'm excluding Gaz and Price if I do that (especially Gaz) when I'm not, I'm just not trying to have people experience the game in a different format (fanfiction and AU in this case) but Gaz is still gonna have plenty of time to shine...even though he's not the main-main characters in the fic. I dunno, I'm conflicted.
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Having bpd to me is like I'm the loneliest person on the planet, no matter how many people I talk to, no matter how many connections I make or have, I'm a lonely void who will die alone. I have to be talking to someone or with someone every second of every minute of every day. I love people so much, I need people. There's so many people out there with different things to teach you. And then, if I have to talk to one person for more than 6 seconds today, I'll kill them. I'll kill myself. I need to be left alone for the rest of the day, I need no one but myself to be happy. I don't want to partake in anything with anyone because it's all draining and taking out of my alone time. Everyone is the same, they're all boring and self-absorbed. Every conversation feels like I'm forcing myself to be actively present. I just want to be alone in my room with nothing or no one. I don't see a future where I'm happy with anyone other than being by myself.
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Genuinely don't know what to do abt this shit anymore man. I've been on tumblr for so long, have had so many blogs, have lived through all sorts of wild shit that staff does. I have nowhere else to go either. Nowhere else can provide what this platform does for me. But this treatment of trans folk has me legitimately scared for the future of this place if something thats clearly visibly a joke can get you banned for life. When hateful terfs can just say whatever they want and not have problems if they get reported. I mean this isn't fucking twitter. I just. Fuck dude. Idk. I'm worried and angry and as a trans person I'm scared to even make jokes abt this situation lest i also get banned for "death threats" or something. This is insane. And it's gone on for a while now. And fuck. Tumblr needs to do better. Seriously.
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you got what youve been asking for
[ID: First image shows two sketches of Fierceteeth from Wings of Fire. A thin nightwing dragon with horns that curve downwards. The sketch on the left show's a bust shot from the front of her looking frustrated while her eyes look off to the left. The right sketch shows another front facing shot of her screaming in anger. The background is red. The second image is the same except the background is grey]
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Story reached a point where i have to introduce a new conflict and i do have it fully worked out but its stressing me out whether it'll come off good or not, i'll take a nap and try to figure it out tomorrow
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I’m here
It’s been a couple months. My mom restricted tumblr from my phone and uuuh, I can’t download anything without her knowing so that’s cool. I’m tired. I’m tired but I finally figured out the screen time passcode to my phone so I thought I’d talk with you all because I think some people might care 🤷♀️
It use to be bad (my mental state), but it’s mellowed out, I got use to it I guess. That being said I’m not sure about creating content too much, finding the time and motivation to is very difficult. It hurts coming back here and not feeling at home anymore. I don’t feel the same about art and I feel bland. Really meh. I want to go back but even if I tried to I think I’d just get beaten into the ground again (<- not literal please don’t call the cops).
That’s it I think. I love you very much and I hope you’re doing better than me right now.
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Been reflecting a bit on the announcement i gave in early February about just coming clean about all the details of Oz au and not keeping anything hidden and how i posted that cuz the constant questions i received asking me to reveal Sonic’s backstory made me feel really guilty about keeping it under wraps
So to cut to the chase im not planning on revealing all the backstory of oz au right away anymore cuz the idea of just straight up revealing it all isn’t appealing to me and im trying to unlearn the belief that i personally owe ppl content and stuff and remembering that im sharing this for fun
Im just gonna revealing aspects of it when i feel like it (which is honestly for the best cuz there are so many different parts of it involving different ppl and it’s like a big domino effect)
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