#just depressed

[wild-karrde]

I promise I'm going to get back to reading at some point. This design review last week was the BIG one, and I'm so relieved it's over. Ever since the last layoff in February, it felt like a mad scramble to pick up the pieces and get prepped, and I got good feedback on my part of the presentation. So that part at least seems to make it slightly worth the amount of stress.

And now, we brace for potentially another layoff in the next few weeks (the rumors are already swirling... and this will be the third one in 6 months).

Hey, if I get laid off, that's LOTS of reading time.

It's fine. Everything's fine. I'm not losing sleep over this at all.

#I don't know what I'm doing here #other than promising I'm not disappearing #just depressed #and doing my best #weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee #such a fun time to work in tech

[timothylawrence]

so depressing being arab. genuinely never realized how little western countries give a shit abt anti arab racism and islamophobia like you can quite literally spew the most racist vile shit and people just shrug .

#ewbie.txt #just depressed #to delete

[fairycosmos]

depressed depressing ive got depression etc etc

#just depressed

[hippophobia]

NEW NOISE BOYS???

#christmas miracle #also hello i am not dead believe it or not #just depressed #dropout #make some noise

[starborncthulhu]

Hooray depression

#just depressed #depression mention

[weirdpastelflower]

Smile For Me Week! Day 6: For you

“A sweet tooth, for you...” -sweet tooth by cavetown

yeah I know I’m waaaaaay late!! my mental health took a huge turn and crashed into a wall, I was unable to draw for a long time! I’m feeling better now and back to posting! and damnit I will finish this prompt no matter what!!!!!!

this picture is a re-draw of this piece here. I just love these two together!

@smileformeweek

#smile for me #smile for me fanart #smile for me week #smile for me week 2022 #dr. habit #boris habit #dr. boris habit #clover mcluckin #smile for me oc #oc x canon #lucky tooth #☘🦷 #weirdpastelflower #sorry this is late #i'm not dead #just depressed

[thornybushybrambles]

Idk why I even bother watching videos about "lesbians" on YouTube sometimes. Token TIM deciding scissoring isn't real and gold star lesbians as a concept are bad, bisexual woman outright stating she's attracted to men and wishes she got a chance to sleep with a man before marrying her wife, the ole' "being a fetish gives you privilege over gay men" argument like, jubilee has got it all. Sample size of 7 and they can't even round up that many lesbians...

#christ this doesnt even make me angry anymore #just depressed #Youtube

[cute-girls-from-vns-anime-manga]

It's days like today where I'm glad that I have a ponytail tag, cause I'm feeling quite depressed and need a good shot of dissacociation from my pain and for whatever reason no matter how sad or numb or angry I get I never loose my pure love of the form beauty and adoration for ponytails

#my ramblings #i have no point #just depressed

[knightofleo]

A former stray very happy to be inside

#just so it's not all depressing shit #vigorous biscuit making #unmute

[calamitys-child]

What's everyone's favourite flowers that aren't like. The normal ones. Like everyone's a fan of roses and sunflowers what's a more niche one. One you don't get in gift sets. Mine's sweet peas

#other good ones are crocuses and lilacs #one time I was ill and depressed and my mum brought me a lil milk bottle full of fresh cut sweet peas from her garden 💖 #i like that theyre colourful and i like climbing plants and they smell amazing #posts brought to you by me going to the park on my lunch break just to see all the crocuses

[disc80s]

#is being predisposed to having depression/general feeling of sadness through your whole life an actual thing? #or do I just have undiagnosed high functioning depression #txt

[theshadowrealmitself]

I like to think that Vulcans who come to understand that Humans just can’t try to process emotions the same way as them, it’s just healthiest to let it out in harmless ways, decide that venting and stuff should be taken just as seriously as Vulcan’s meditation time, and will encourage the Humans around them to complain about what’s upsetting them

People who are used to aloof Vulcans who avoid Humans at all cost running into one comforting a Human

“-and then they said my cheesecake was subpar, and they didn’t even bring a dish!!!”

“The purpose of this event was that every participant brings a food item of sorts, correct?”

“Yeah!!”

“And they did not follow this rule while insulting dishes that were brought?”

“Mostly just my dish but yeah >:(“

“How illogical”

“That’s what I’m saying!!!”

#star trek #Vulcans #Humans #not based on a specific thing #but I used to know this annoying couple that were ‘family friends’ #who would show up to potluck dinners and the like and would either bring nothing or bring something really just. out of left field? #like a bag of frozen chicken to a bbq #and then proceed to make sure they are first even if it was stated to let kids go first #would take HUGE amounts before anyone else got a chance to get a plate #and then make off with the leftovers again even if they were already claimed for #and it wasn’t a food insecurity thing trust me I would never speak bad about a person getting food if that was even a remote chance #the adults who raised us knew them really well and we’d been to their house a ton of times #they were just dicks #and yeah. they’d occasionally insult the food. while eating the MAJORITY of it. #it was so weird at their home they would go out of their way to get the healthiest options possible #you know the really bland tasteless expensive stuff that apparently was healthier #but then if they were visiting our house they would. eat all our unhealthy snacks. #that always pissed me off so much as a kid because we actually had a food insecurity thing going on #and also a variety of other reasons that are a bit too depressing to bring up on this post #but anyways we’d hardly ever get to have nice snacks #and this couple would just take them all??? even after we’d tell them repeatedly that it was ours and those snacks weren’t gonna be #replaced #hated that couple #if you’re wondering why they were ‘family friends’ it’s because the couple who raised us #(it feels weird to type it out like that but apparently legal guardians doesn’t fit since they never finished petitioning 💀) #liked having them around because it made them look like ‘such great Christian’s’ being nice to the people #that no one else wanted to be friends with #I always thought that was a really weird and fucked up reason to be friends with someone #this got long sorry 😭

[stil-lindigo]

lead balloon (the tumblr post that saved me)

if this comic resonated with you, it would mean the world to me if you donated to this palestinian family's escape fund.

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no creative notes because this isn't that kind of comic.

I know I don’t owe any of you anything but I still felt compelled to write about my long term absence. And I feel far enough away from the dangerous spot I was in to be able to make this comic. I have a therapist now, and she agreed that making this could be a very cathartic gesture, and the start of properly leaving these thoughts behind me. I am still, at seemingly random times, blindsided by fleeting desires to kill myself. They’re always passing urges, but it’s disarming, and uncomfortable. I worry sometimes that my brain’s spent so long thinking only about suicide that it’s forgotten how to think about anything else. Like, now that I've opened that door for myself, I'll never be able to fully shut it again. But I’m trying my best to encourage my mind in other directions. We'll see how that goes.

I am still donating all proceeds from my store to Palestinian causes. So far, I've donated over $15K, not including donations coming from my own pocket or the fundraising streams which jointly raised around $10K. In the time since I made my initial post about where this money would be going, the focus has shifted from aid organisations to directly donating to escape funds.

If you'd like to do the same, you can look at Operation Olive Branch, which hosts hundreds of Palestinian escape funds or donate to Safebow, which has helped facilitate the safe crossing and securing of important medical procedures for over 150 at-risk palestinians since the beginning of the genocide.

#cw: suicidal ideation #cw: suicide #cw: self harm #cw: mental health #cw: depression #i made the balloon the main representation of my self destructive urges for a reason but im not going to explain it #i tried to keep a lot of the details in this vague #it would be my worst nightmare if this comic encouraged someone to hurt themselves #so. please dont #for a long time even the thought of making this comic felt so insipid and narcissistic #with the state of the world as it is #having the only threat to your life be yourself felt so privileged and trite and shameful #but doing this comic made me sit down and process things in full #and im just. very grateful i didn't give in to my thoughts back when i sincerely felt i'd be more useful to the world dead #i also feel the need to say that this wont represent everyone's battle with mental illness. its unfortunately different for all of us #there is no fix-all #and im afraid this might be one of those comics that either resonates a lot or misses the target by a mile #i made it for myself foremost. and now that its done im glad i did it #thank you for reading #and please stay alive #stillindigo art #stillindigo comics

[lil-tiger-lily]

. . .

#sigh #dont mind me #just depressed #and emotional #bed time #for me #eh... #😔

[melxhunter]

I feel like there are a lot of people out there who needs to hear this:

If you dropped out of school because of diagnosed (or undiagnosed) ADHD, Autism, ADD, OCD, Dyslexia, Anxiety, Depression, Bipolar disorder, psychotic disorders, schizophrenia etc… You did not fail. The education system failed you.

#neurodiverse stuff #i cannot say this enough #neurodivergent #actually adhd #adhd problems #autism #just autistic things #actually autistic #actually bpd #actually mentally ill #actually disabled #depressing shit #this gave me more emotional damage than my dad #i am going to rant #i am going insane #dropping out #school problems #send help #you can do this #you cannot convince me otherwise #you can't change my mind #you can do it #i believe in you #i believe in their healing powers #i believe in myself #academic assignments #assignmentwriting #assignment help #in this essay i will

[misery-over-dispute]

Fav band is playing near me in December. Maybe life is worth living after all.

#just depressed