#just cant process anything

[mwagneto]

let's say hypothetically i couldn't take it anymore

#idk why but the first shot of them just sitting there is the one that did me in like i #genuinely cant process it or anything that happened after that. wall in my mind #jesussssssschrissttttt duuuuudeetheyre literally sitting there. help me #ofmd #our flag means death #ofmd s2 #ofmd spoilers #ofmd season 2 #ed x stede #stede x ed #blackbonnet #gentlebeard

[masterofiodine]

i absolutely adore that photo of ben and i just had to draw him (/cap) like that

#ik it's the same since bsn is in costume and everything but i just felt like this is cap #idk if it makes sense #also im aware that i wasnt able to capture the essence of that photo but well i cant do anything about it now #im not quite satisfied with how it turned out #i really have to work on backgrounds and shading and stuff #but this is part of the process yk #so enjoy #also #why did i chose something that is so hard to draw #like the shadows there are so strong since he's sitting in front of really light window and it just doesnt look right #bbc ghosts captain #bbc ghosts #bbc ghosts fanart #the captain #moi is arting

[beaulesbian]

Trigun Stampede s01 || Vash + the reflection on his glasses

(edit: added one i missed)

( @crazymadredfox​ thank you for the mention of this part!)

#cant believe i missed this one when i specifically rewatched the whole season for this :') #trigun #vash #vash the stampede #trigun stampede #trigunedit #mine #gif:trigun #so i thought the reflective effect appeared in more episodes but it was only episode 1 #and then it kinda reappears when vash is not vash anymore in eps 11-12 #the first episode had a lot of bright lights (desert sun and then the lights from the plants) #which made the reflection seem natural to happen but it was interesting it happened quite a lot as a storytelling tool almost #like it helped to push across this introduction of vash bc at first we dont know anything about him (first time fans like me heh) #so they hide his eyes in important moments including his first appearance #and it goes possibly for how that reflection is how vash doesnt know meryl or roberto yet so it takes a while for him to trust them #and see whats their deal #i like that 7th gif with comparison of rosa beside vash.. you can see her go on a whole journey with just her eyes #but vash's thought process is hidden until the last moment where he doesnt want to fight the julai guys who want to take him #the last one is so creepy.. he's an empty husk! there could be pain or numbness or multiple other emotions in his eyes #but the glasses put them behind a barrier and only the movement tells us more that hes floating there trapped emotionless #its so sad.. uff i love this show

[235uranium]

I haaaaate when ppl treat ford being upset over his identity being taken and his house getting turned into essentially a mockery of his research was completely unreasonable

like, was stan doing his best with a terrible situation? absolutely! would ford kicking him out be an actually fair option? fuck no!

but he's been in this dimension for probably 12 hours. god knows the last time he's slept. he'd been nearly dead prior to going thru the portal and now has to deal with the fact that he's lost everything. he doesn't even have his own identity anymore.

I honestly don't even think half the shit ford says to stan is truly about stanley or ford's opinion of him, so much as it is about his own issues and how weighed down with guilt he is.

I think its worth noting that ford only ever says mean things about stan when he's pissed off- when he's not angry, he's much more willing to actually discuss things and try to find common ground (such as when he invites stan to play d,d&d).

it honestly comes off more as him not knowing how to communicate anger outside of hurting people than it does genuine malice towards stan. and also I don't think ford ever really internalized that stan was homeless in the duration of the show

#☢️.txt #ford pines #gravity falls #like again its an asshole move but the sentiment (im upset that you brought me back to the apocalypse i caused and i cant even have my name #isnt like. abnormal?? #ford is really really bad at just fucking telling stan how hes feeling and instead chooses to be vague and then explode #and again its not stans fault! he didnt have a whole lot of choices! and what ford said WAS hurtful #also yeah i genuinely do not think ford has processed like anything stan has said about his past #like hes told about it while having a psychotic breakdown and again after nearly getting killed #and then getting dragged back into his own dimension and realizing that bill is almost certainly going to win #hes not processing 'i was homeless' all hes thinking is how he personally has doomed everyone in this room #he has the realization at 4 am months later and feels Fucking Terrible #90% sure the reason i read his actions this way is my autism tends to make me do this #and having a dad with anger issues teaches you to have worse anger issues so that hes fucking sick of dealing with you

[corffee]

THE FUCKING PRIME TRAILER IM SHAKING SO HARDDDD

#DUDDDEEEEEEE #I CANT PROCESS ANYTHING #WELL THAT JUST HAPPENED #sonic prime #sonic prime s2 #sonic the hedgehog #shadow the hedgehog #sonic #sth #sonic central

[lemongogo]

can i ask.how u guys practice ur creativity <3 how u practice ur imagination or like.. how u experiment with ur art, how u come to ideas and how u develop them.<3 pretty please <3

#smthing i have always struggled w.is feeling like i can only draw things that r handed 2 me. #as in.an idea or concept that already exists #chara or conflict that already exists.Scene that alr exists. #and i think it can be soo limiting bc when i have that sort of creative desire but nothing 2 reflect off of it #i feel like im unable to do anything/get anywhere bc im unable to do that mental legwork myself ykwim #like comic artists r SOOO JAW DROP INSPIRING TO MEE bc not only are u envisioning ur own sequences/situations #but u are able to imagine even the most MUNDANE interactions within those scenarios u know #like the transitory panels and the quiet moments and the every day stillness #and i feel like.its not even a poor attempt on my behalf its like.i cant Even attempt it.like my brain is soo empty #and soo static and noiseless that i am like gauhh...... #i can practice lines all day long and practice colors and practice anatomy or Whatever bc its something concrete #and its in front of me and i can pry apart the physical technicalities until i understand it better #but my MIND???ABSTRACTION>? THOUGHTS .ough its so hard #and i really want to push past that but i dont know how and its so .. demoralizing to think that ill get there One Day but i feel #one million and two days away.and not making active process towards it. #i know the first step is to build ur visual library and i feel liek. idk i FEEL LIKEEE theres more 2 it that im missing #but also im depressed as hell n my job is killing my creative drive and the seasonal stuff isnt helping #so maybe i just need 2 give it time (true) but i also like.man i dont know. i want 2 do something w my hands #but everything ive been doing so far has felt soo .hard and fruitless and i definitely dont want 2 turn art into such a stressful thing #fruitless as in like.i dont get any personal satisfaction w it.idgaf abt monetization or algorithms or any of tht #but smtimes thats just what happens and i have 2 weather through and know ill be more equipped 4 this some other time #SAWRYYY IM ALWAYS GOING ON AND ONNN im nromal im normal<3 i just rly like art and it sucks balls whn it feels out of reach #sigh cry fart scroll.(:salute:)

[xysidhequeen]

Current count since I last slept: 41 hours.

I think I've capped out at 46 before, I'm not sure because my worst fit of insomnia had me in no position to check times. But I'll say 46. So if we hit 48 we're setting personal records!

#i do not want to actually be awake #my body just physically cant process stress #'oh zee why cant you be in a car?' #this. this is why #and you might think: 'oh this cant be because you were in a car!' #it is. it so totally is #and also stress #but mostly i blame being in a car #everytime i get in a car i get sick #motion sickness vertigo dizziness insomnia #my body is violently against automobiles #which is actually so annoying because i finally own one of my dream cars #and wanna know when i last drove my baby? #A YEAR AND FIVE FUCKING MONTHS AGO #Also please for the love of fuck do not suggest anything to help me sleep #i. have. tried. it. #when im dealing with insomnia like this the only way it stops is preceiotion strength meds or my body calms itself the fuck down #no teas no melatonin no meditating no lettuce water no hot milk NOTHING will work #and also even prescription strength meds dont always work when its like this i have woken up like two hours after taking some b4 #when my body doesnt want to sleep it will not sleep #you can tell how little sleep im running on based on how unhinged these tags are

[ickypuppi3]

steve walking in on billy fixing his hair and asking if he’s getting ready for their date

only he doesn’t say it like that

what comes out instead is

“you getting yourself all dolled up for me, baby?”

and billy has a moment

#billy who prides himself on his appearance #he’d lose his mind #steve harrington #billy hargrove #harringrove #so much babygirl steve not enough babygirl billy imo #steve calls it dolled up when billy gets ready #and billy has to take 3-4 business days to process it #steve doesn’t call billy handsome or anything like that he calls him pretty and beautiful #steve makes a joke about buying billy makeup #billy has another moment #who’s to say if his lips are any pinker the next time they see each other #who’s to say if his eyelashes look even longer #who’s to say #(steve) #listen #steve’s been with girls his whole life right #it just makes sense #that he’d be all *like that* #you cant tell me #he’s not smooth #this fucker was called king steve #you cant tell me he doesn’t sweet talk billy at every opportunity #you simply can’t #billy is a pretty princess and i need to talk about it #so does steve

[chronicowboy]

there's literally no way buck's subconscious could ever craft an intricate believable life for buck that doesn't include eddie diaz though. there's just no way. these two motherfuckers are so intertwined they can understand each other without words, eddie is a part of buck so there's no world in which eddie is entirely absent. and honestly the in another life of it all is making me a little feral because idk what's going to happen. but, god, i think my favourite idea so far is that eddie's just there. there's no explanation for it, he just keeps popping up randomly and buck's like "idk who tf you are and its honestly kind of creepy that you might be stalking me but im too afraid to say anything that would make you go away because it feels like you're supposed to be here with me".

#sami rambles #god i cant put anything going through my skull into coherent words so yall are just gonna have to trust me on this #my thoughts are moving to fast for me to process fuck #911 spoilers #911 show #911 fox #evan buckley #eddie diaz #buddie #buck x eddie #911 spec

[the-meme-monarch]

well that's the worst nightmare I've had in a while

#we were at the grocery store and a shooter came in. my sibling and i were separated at the time. #they died. and i was theone to find their body afterward. so. that fucking sucked. #woke up and strted to cry bc i thought it was real for a second #dream journal #edit bc i dont eant to reblog it to say this but ive had time to process it now #i was the only fucking person who cared that xe died. the dream cut to after the shooter was arrested and we were preparing for xer funeral #i think the dream implied that yhe shooter was an ex employee at the store and my dad and i were trying to like. talk to the owners about Y #Your Ex Employee Killed My Fucking Sibling #and the manager or boss or ehoever just. didnt care. didnt have any sympathy #my dad was there. but he didnt speak. i had to beg the managet to feel anything for the child who was shot and killed in his store. #to pay for xer funeral? i dont know. #we were there getting a blind bag toy xe had talked aout going to get irl since it was a short walk there really #i was looking for those pink chocolate chips. #to make cookies fro my friends #thats why i eoke up thinking it was real i think #most of my set-in-reality nightmares hinge on something that Cant happen anymore. this one was based on Recent Events and Planned Events #i had woken up just before six. when xe gets up for school. so i stared crying bc Oh My God Xe's Dead Xe's Never Going To Go To School Again #i dont think ive looked them in the face at all today.

[p4nishers]

"ok so WHAT IF aziraphale ACTUALLY–" what if aziraphale had religious trauma and was brainwashed for thousands of years and what if he can't escape the thought of wanting to do good and be good and what if he was shocked by the kiss and hated himself for liking it so fucking much and what if there were no coffee poising and brain control and secret plans and body switch but only a character with flaws making mistakes bc he thought it would mean finally being FREELY together with the demon he wanted for more than 6000 years. what then?

#my take on every bullshit theory i've seen on tiktok and on here #ik yall just want the ending to hurt less but why cant we just accept that sometimes characters makes mistakes and hurt their loved ones in #the process? aziraphale didn't do anything remotely wrong he thought this would be the solution to every problem they ever had and he #thought he could finally make heaven enough for crowley and make HIMSELF enough for them and like seriously just accept that he still has #a lot to learn and mistake to make and he can only do that by making them #good omens #good omens s2 #aziraphale #azicrow #aziracrow #go s2 #good omens season 2 #good omens meta

[skitskatdacat63]

Hello guys!!!!! Aforementioned project is finally finished 🫠 It was meant to be just a simple weekend project, and ended up being 30+ hours over the period of like four days. I don't think I'm an actual normal human anymore. This is the project that caused everyone in my life to question my mental and physical wellbeing and health. But I'm super excited to share this all of you!!!! Please enjoy!!!! Even if you don't like vettonso, I hope this is still interesting????

If you make any, please reblog this or tag me in it! I'm excited to see what other people, other than just me suffering alone in my bedroom, make out of this!!! <3

#jesus christ i cant believe i actually made this 😭😭 #originally earlier last week i was like ahhh i wanna draw more of them in different eras(like the timeswap au) #and then randomly wanted to draw every single racesuit(nightmare) #and then im like WAIT I CAN MAKE A PICREW OUT OF THIS #no joke when i say i dont think i was a human this weekend #it was truly: eat. sleep. draw. eat. draw. sleep. draw. eat. draw. draw. sleep. #the screentime count on my ipad is soooooo fucking bad im ashamed dhfjfkkg #i dont think picrews are meant to be made in the span of a weekend #*weakly* i did it~ #again as i said in the description. please request if you want anything added!!! #i dont know if ill get to it immediately bcs i just spent 30+ hours psychologically torturing myself #i actually feel so ill JSJFKGLGLG but im happy w it and i wouldnt have gone back and changed any of the process #tho the evolution of 'im having so much fun' to groaning every time i opened up my ipad again was so funny #thank you so much to suzuki i could have never have done this without your support and encouragement 🥹🥹 #hoping this picrew works as a blood sacrifice to the good health and wellbeing of the amr24. the car that is launching today! #also istg i am going to dm shill and self reblog this with no shame. it is my magnum opus(as of now) #now i am going to sleep and not touch my ipad for a while djfkkglg #f1 #formula 1 #sebastian vettel #fernando alonso #catie.art. #vettonso #normal posts that catie normally makes in a normal fashion

[vypridae]

Next Extermination comes around and this time Velvette is the one who saves Carmilla’s kids. She plays it off like “When the exterminators are down here it’s us against them,” but Carmilla knows.

OHHH THIS IS GENIUS AND IM NGL MY BRAIN IS SLOWLY SHUTTING OFF SO I CANT REALLY THINK OF ANYTHING TO ADD ONTO THIS BUT OH MY GOD!!!! AAAGUAUG

#IM SORRY I CANT ADD ANYTHING AT ALL IM JUST BBFBFBFB #wait bonus points if velvette gets hurt in the process because she was protecting odette and clara #if THAT doesnt say something idk what does #xanbox #hazbin hotel #brokerdoll #carmilla carmine #velvette

[planet4546b]

THE GARDEN GROWS IN BOTH DIRECTIONS

legend: the black garden, destiny (2014)/ garden of salvation, destiny 2 (2017)/ visions of another world, jean-pierre ugarte/ spring in hieron 38: see where you’re standing, friends at the table/ the poetics of space, gaston bachelard/ rhododendron hirsutum, erwin lichtenegger/ floating city, kasumigaura, kisho kurokawa/ annihilation, jeff vandermeer/ garden of salvation, destiny 2 (2017)/ escher’s lizards, song kang/  a conversation between timothy morton and jeff vandermeer, los angeles review of books/ outer wilds (2019), annapurna interactive/ aspect: realis, destiny 2 (2017)/ your fake name is good enough for me, iron and wine/ no. 13, ja paunkovic/ photograph by xuebing du/ invisible cities, italo calvino/ dandelion, shota suzuki/ baitogogo, henrique oliveira/ aspect: gnomic, destiny 2 (2017)/ spring in hieron 3: hospitable to you, friends at the table/ annihilation (2018), dir. alex garland/ superstructure, superstudio/ sensitive survivors, miranda van dijk/ the poetics of space, gaston bachelard/ one that suits me, hop along/ shadowkeep, destiny 2 (2017)/ notes on the below, ada limon/ wild pear tree, kaveh akbar/ legend: the black garden, destiny (2014)

#destiny #destiny 2 #shadowkeep #the black garden #webweaving #im sooooooo normal about the black garden btw. im so normal about it. like completely normal #ugh theres so many other things i want to put in this but while theyre clear to me i dont think theyd quite read as clearly #or i just cant find the right way to fit them #like. theres a handful of other invisible cities quotes and some stuff from the insulinidian phasmid and piranesi and the continuous monumen #that are all vital to how i understand the black garden but just dont quite come across. and also some music that cant go in a visual post #anyways. i love the black garden so much i think of her all the time happy gos is pinnacle week. she is my everything #and also if anything in this post doesnt make sense. hi. i will absolutely explain my thought process. bc im like this

[somecunttookmyurl]

minor repeated annoyance: when you make a payment to paypal credit even for the same day it's just "scheduled" and doesn't even put a hold on money in your bank account/card/funding source 3-5 business days later when they decide to take it only then are funds withheld. so you make a payment and have to like. manually hold the funds back for when they decide they finally want to take it if something else happens in the meantime and some of that balance goes on something else it's "sorry we couldnt process your payment due to insufficient funds" well have you fucking considered processing it when you are fucking asked, mayhaps

#this is the ONLY instance i know of this #literally ANYTHING ELSE if you make a payment on something or buy something #the funds are put on INSTANT hold in your bank #the payment is not fully completed and processed for a couple days sure #but you cant USE the funds because they are in that held processing stage #paypal do not even initiate the held processing stage at the time #'scheduled for today' why is it SCHEDULED just take it! i want you to take my money! take the fucking money!

[kidfoundonstreets]

this is exactly what i hate about myself

#i cant speak without feeling selfish #so many things i do afterwards especially tonight i feel cringe or shame at how i talk and sometimes it doesnt click instantly and i just #everybodys closer than me. everybody is irreplaceable. everybody is valued more. what do i have to offer. what can i do that proves im not #another character in their entire story #why am i so shallow? why cant i feel genuine emotions and when i do show them properly without the fear of vulnerability? #who is this person #why am i me? why do i exist? why cant i do anything right? #you say you love me but youll never love me because i dont know who i am and which side is real. #im stuck #but this isnt about me #vent #happy birthday #i love you a lot even if i cant process it correctly #i hope youre happy genuinely #and that kills me too