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herrscherrofyatta · 2 years

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Oaths (part 2)

Senku x F!reader

Summary: a secret you've been keeping has come to light, appearing in front of everyone and with the help of Yuzuriha, Senku is reunited with you after so long

Inspired by spring fest from Honkai Impact

A/n: Little artificial friend goes by little Y/n to not confused y/n with the little friend, they're two different beings

pixiv id: 604299

Senku walks into your hospital room with the sound of soft humming as you sit on the bed, working on something.

"♪♫♩~" You grin to yourself, unaware of his arrival as you work on some of the scripts you'll put into your creation.

"You seem lively today." The tablet in your hands jump as it fumbles before Senku catches, he takes a peek and hands it back to you. His words were true, these last couple of days wore you out due to the amount of checkups and meditations you're required to take.

You smile at him, "yup, that's because I'm working on your gift!" You answer happily as you go back to work, leaving Senku to his thoughts.

He's staring and you're not at all bothered, after all, he was your boyfriend and moments of affection with him are rare.

The boy couldn't help but notice the IV in your arm, he remembers the day you fainted in the science room after school, unresponsive as he led you up before someone ran to tell a teacher.

He sighs as he closes his eyes and you notice, he could hear you moving around before opening his eyes to see you move to one side of the bed.

"What are you doing?"

Patting the empty space beside you, he feels his face heat up a bit as he looks away from your pleading face as you stare at him, waiting for his answer.

After a few minutes, he finally gives in and you cheer as he climbs onto the bed, laying down next to you, hesitating to look at you, embarrassed.

Smiling to yourself, you lay your head in the pillow as he does the same. The sound of the monitor beside you was heard until he finally mumbled, "your bed is comfortable."

"Yup, I miss my old bed though." You say, grabbing your tablet again and the rest of the day you two were just sitting on the bed until visiting hours were over.

Around 8, a nurse knocked at the door and peek inside, "visiting hours are over." She paused, blinking at the scene of Infront of her before grinning to herself, closing the door behind her.

"I guess letting them sleep for another hour is fine."

She walks away from your room, letting you and Senku sleeping as you curled up against as you slept, his arm wrapped around your waist.

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"Yuzuriha, you've come at least." The girl sweat at the serious time you used as she walked into your room a week later, it was a short notice since you needed her help with making something and she had the perfect skills to help you.

"Y/n, it's nice to see you." She smiles at you and you tell her to take a seat.

"It's been almost two months, how is everyone at school?" You say as she begins to take out the yarn and needles to begin.

"Everyone is waiting for you to come back, healthy and fine!"

You smile, "you said you needed help with something important?" She tilts her head as you feel a bit embarrassed as you pull out a bed from underneath your blanket.

"Senku called and said he wasn't able to visit so I thought today I would ask if you could help me," you open the box, show it to her and she looks inside, "with him."

Her eyes light up, you flinch at how her head snapped to look at you, "Y/n! You created this!?"

You nod your head, face flustered.

"Does Senku know?"

You shake your head, "no, I'm working on for him."

She begins to squeal, "that's so cute! You'll both be having matching dolls!"

The box begins to move a round as a tiny hand pops out, making her eyes open out her skull. "I-it's moving?!"

A pair of ruby eyes stare at her, "I'm afraid he's not a doll." You pat him on the head and he looks up at you, "it's okay, you can go back to sleep."

You look away, "I needed help to make some clothes so I called you."

Her face lights up, "for him? I can do that! Would type of clothes would you like?"

Senku stood there in disbelief, staring into the ruby eyes that stared at him back, it seems to be holding a bag of something in his hands.

"Senku....what is that?" Everyone stared at the scene in front of them, two identical Senku, although one was way smaller, like the size of little Y/n.

Yuzuriha is standing behind him, her eyes wide as the little being looks at her before running away.

"Hey, run after it!"

"No, leave him." They all look at her, confused by her words but she just smiles before looking at Senku. "There no need to worry, I can always make more." Senku frowns, glancing back to where the being was just at before shrugging it off.

"If you say so."

Everyone gets back to work, Yuzuriha stands there for a moment before going back to make more clothes that were just stolen.

"What do you mean she's not responsive?" The girl is devastated upon hearing the Doctor's words as she arrived at the hospital to check up on her friend.

"I'm afraid she fell into a coma over night, what caused it, we're still trying to figure it out."

She took a moment to sit down, the box in her hands fell to the floor, spilling the contents inside.

The doctor walked away, leaving the girl to her thoughts, a hand to her mouth as she stared at the floor.

"..y/n.."

Her mind wonders to Senku and she felt like crying, how would he react to this?

It took some time but the hot air balloon was finally ready and the selected people were ready to fly out.

Everyone watched, clearly amazed to see it fly off, some crying tears of joys and Yuzuriha smiles at this.

As everyone was heading back, she walks towards where she makes clothes only to hear some bushes rustle and she stops. Looking over, her eyes met a pair of ruby ones and she gasps only to see how this startled him.

She quickly runs over and follows the tiny being running into the woods only to run deeper in, making her stop at some point.

"If you need anything, you can home to me." She quietly yells and a bag is thrown to her feet, looking down, she pick it up and finds the stolen clothes inside.

Looking back up, the being was gone and she sighs.

It doesn't take that long for her little thief to return, that same night where everyone is asleep, she's still up working when she notices a few blankets moving.

"?"

She walks over to it and pulls the blanket up, "oh, you're here again."

The small version of Senku looks up at her, nodding his head as she picks him up and places him on the table.

"...you're still wearing the same clothes Y/n put on you.." she mumbles before her eyes lit up, "wait, if you're here, then does that mean she's close as well?"

The tiny Senku shakes his head and she sighs before noticing that he drawing something on a paper.

Peeking at it, she begins to understand his situation. After a few minutes of his drawing things, he looks up at her to see if she understood what he's trying to show.

Placing a hand under her chin, "so Y/n is still a stone and hidden in a cave somewhere, for the last couple of years, you've been watching over her.....wait." He blinks as she taps his head gently, "in your case, you're not like little Y/n who witness everything. You both were turned to stone but she got out way earlier and you barely got out for the last couple of years." She didn't notice the way his eyes slightly lighten up at the mention of little Y/n

She hums, understanding everything and he confirms her words with a nod of his head. "The clothes you stole, they were for her?"

He nods.

"but you have them back, did they not fit?"

He nods once more.

She thinks for a bit, she never made clothes for the h/c haired so she can't quiet get the measurements right. "How about this, you show me where she's at and I'll make some clothes for her."

He thinks about her words before agreeing, "great, I have to make an excuse to leave for a couple hours."

She feels a tug on her dress when she begins to walk away and she looks back to see him holding a design.

She blinks, "you....want to design the clothes?" He nods, "well....I guess it can't hurt."

The next day, she leaves when Senku hasn't came back. Telling everyone she was going to walk around a bit to get inspiration.

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Senku hadn't noticed Yuzuriha change of schedule, wondering into the forest for things until he heard the girl talking to herself in the middle of the night.

"I don't think this design would work....are you sure about this?" She asked no one.

A moment of silence before she spoke once again.

"I see! It's like sleeping beauty in a way." He stops, wanting to hear the rest but no other words are said.

The next morning, he catches her walking towards the forest with a couple things in hand and he stops her.

"Where are you going?"

"I'm working on a personal thing, nothing to worry about." She says before running off.

Yuzuriha was back two hours later, what was she carrying was gone as she directly asks Senku a question that makes him a bit confused.

"Senku, do you by any chance have any purification liquid?"

"Only a bit, do you need it?"

The brown haired girl looks down, "well, I think I found someone who could be a great use." She explains and they both set out during the afternoon to go see this someone she was talking about.

They finally reach a cave that seem to be covered up with vines and they look inside to see the same tiny being from days ago, standing there before pointing towards somewhere deeper inside.

"Senku, I have something to tell you. Y/n didn't also create little Y/n but she created him as well, I guess like a prototype."

She explains, unsure on how he'll react to this new information. Well to begin with, the h/c haired never intended on keeping it a secret, simply because she couldn't tell him before everything happened.

He stands there, quiet before his feet take him inside the cave, ignoring Yuzuriha's sudden call of his name as he runs.

'It that's here, then she must be nearby.'

He thinks and just as he predicted, he was right, in the middle of the cave, laid Y/n, unmoving on what seemed like a bed created by leaves.

Taking a step forward, Yuzuriha and the h/c haired's small creation follow close behind as he rushes by the h/c haired side, taking in her figure still in stone.

Grabbing what was left of the purification liquid, he gently pours it and waits anxiously. Embracing half of the girl.

They both hold their breathe before cracks start to form and it shatters, h/c haired flow in the air as Senku feels the warmth he hadn't felt in so long.

Stone covering Y/n's face break, exposing her slumbering expression before her eyes flutter open slightly, showing tired e/c eyes staring at him.

Yuzuriha could see Senku starting to tremble slightly before a hoarse voice is heard, although it's quiet and tiny, she recognizes as her friend's she missed all this time.

"...why..are you crying?"

A tired smile appears on the girl's lip as she slowly reaches out for Senku who's tears are falling on her cheeks as she's caressing the side of his face.

Oh how Senku missed those e/c eyes, it's been so long and the sound of her voice was like music to his ears.

Yuzuriha was silent, she couldn't help but think of this as a beautiful reunion and the way Senku was holding the h/c haired girl, 'it's so romantic!' she thought to herself.

It wasn't look till Senku stood, Y/n in his arms, her face leaning against his shoulder as her eyes were flutter shut. It seem like she was exhausted but when the familiar sound was heard from her creation was heard, her eyes opened back to spot the little being standing a few feet away.

Another smile grew on her face as she lifted her hand in his direction, a sign for him to come to her.

And he did, Senku didn't say a word, just watched as the prototype clutches onto her with a firm grip.

"....you stayed with me this whole time." She mumbles.

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Opening your eyes, you move your head slightly to the side to see Senku sleeping next to you before you slowly sat up, although you felt very weak and light headed.

Looking around, you're a bit confused and look down to see the type of clothes you're wearing. It was a white dress that fit you well and you spot what seem like a crack on your arm going down to your hand.

"You're awake." You look back to Senku looking at you before he sits up and wraps his arms around you.

"What's gotten into you?" You say with a teasing tone and you were so confused, he never once showed this physical affection towards you out of no where. Normally he would ask you just so he wouldn't make you uncomfortable.

"...no that I don't mind," you add as you touch his arms, smiling to yourself.

There's a moment of silence between you two before Senku finally spoke.

After listening to his words carefully, you close your eyes, "don't blame yourself, no one knew what was going to happen. You don't have to force yourself to show me affection, I just want you to be yourself." You say before turning to look at him.

"Now, care to explain everything that's happen?"

You two lay back down, he fumbles with a strand of your hair as he explains everything, how he woke and how many years it's been. You learn of his kingdom of science, the friends he's made.....he tells you everything.

Frowning at his words, you learn that Byakuya and everyone else on that space ship was gone.

Placing your hands on his face, you lean forward and plant a kiss on the tip of his nose.

He knew you were trying to comfort him in your own way, never was the type to get physical with you, never held your hands so maybe he'll allow himself to melt in your touch just this once.

He lays his head on your chest, listening to your steady heart beat as he begins to doze off, feeling your fingers running through his hair.

"Get some rest." You say quietly as he shuts his eyes, maybe next time, he'll be the one to comfort you.

You press one more kiss on his head before he drifts off to sleep, engulf in your warmth he yearn for so long.

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#dr stone x reader #dr. stone #senku fluff #ishigami senku #senku ishigami x reader #ishigami senku x reader #senku x reader #senku x y/n

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yellowbentley · 18 days

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fuzzy and the terrible horrible fuckass testday he did NOT wantt to to but had to anyway

I DID NOT FORGET I PROMISED

reader bewarb this this shit is long may or may not be hard to follow because i talk about (my) degree jargon

ok lessgo

to begin. you need context. theres an organization (one for every country im assuming) that issues tickets stating "X CAN WELD" or else some schmuck with a helmet can walk in and work.

theres a ticket for every process in every position and then some. it was these tickets i was testing for today and i was WILDLY unprepared. it isnt the first time ive done them but i was super out of practice. they are flat, horizontal, vertical and overhead.

so cut to february, the last time we did tickets. remember when i wanted to end it all because i failed a test i spent a hundred dollars on? yeah this was one of those. i failed my horizontal so this time around i thought "i dont wanna do my fuckign horizontal cause last time i failed and i felt like shit so im gonna do my vertical instead"

what no one told meeeee was that you have to get your tickets in position order. and i KNOW i take forever and a day, hence me only doing one.

well i didnt do one. i did two. i have no idea if i passed or failed them and tbh im too scared to check because i was completely out of fucks two beads into my vertical.

but lets not get ahead of ourselves.

the test sheets had to be reprinted twice because the first go around they missed imputting someone into the system and the second time around someone got lost, and then got registered twice. great lovely. so because of this all of our test plates were wrong because we all got new assigned numbers.

we finally get our sheets we go and pay and while im in line in the bookstore to pay for my test (remember this) guess what fucking hit me. the cramps i had spent all night hoping for. at 8:30 in the morning. litterally 2 hours behind schedule. i was FURIOUS. so now i had that to deal with all day thankfully ive had worse but because they didnt arrive on time i have full permission to bitch as much as i want.

so back to the shop. i was trying to set my peremiters for my vert so i hadnt even started yet when my instrucor pokes his head into my booth and says "(tester) wants to see you" so i go and thats when i find out that you have to do the tests in order. so i tack and stamp up some new plates which was probably the least annoying part of the whole day

so i do the new plates first. welding it out goes relatively fine. it took forever to find an instructor to verify it but whatever.

AND THEN I GO TO GOUGE THE BACKING STRIP OFF.

i could not. for thee fucking life of me. unscrew the cutting tips from the oxy torches. ive seen people do it. ive done it. it is Not Hard. i used a wrench n all on all 3 tables and it would Not Come Off. so i said to hell with this and went to the carbon arc room.

carbon arc cutting is using specialized electrodes to vaporize metal. you drag it over metal and it carves into it. fast and easy.

but i of course had a hell of a time doing it like i do anything and it was Not Working. by the time i did figure out what i was doing wrong there were carbon deposits coming out the yahoo and it which are difficult to gouge through. so i had half of it very nice and the other half a melted amalgamtion of metal and didnt gouge very much off. great.

so i finish that. away i go back to my booth. to grind for the next i dont even know how long because oh my fucking god SO much grinding. im not big enough to use the 7 inch grinders so i have to use a 5 inch one which is yk what let me just show you

these are all cordless but you get the fuckin gist.

what everyone else got to use vs what i got. dying.

so i finally fucking got it flush. cut it. not a big deal. onto the second one at 1:30. i feel like i should mention that at this point everyone else has been done for like two hours.

i didnt even start welding until like 10ish so i was already 2 hours behind everyone only doing one plate. most everyone else did 2 and so did i BUT I ONLY WANTED ONE

my vertical was so bad i was way too hot and shaking and i didnt put them in in a very good order i would genuinely be surprised if it didnt snap. i needed a practice one but i had No Time so it was messy and the cap was large and my rods were sticking so i was frustrated aND OH THATS SOMETHING IM FORGETTING

some electrodes need to be baked/stored in an oven to keep moisture content low. when i ran out i went to get more and the oven was empty so ithought i'll be a good samaritan and fill it up AND I GOT THE BOX THAT SAID. 3/32ND. MATCHES THE OVEN. AND I OPENED IT. AND IT WAS THE WRONG KIND OF ELECTRODES.

and once you open these they cant be resealed they need to be either used or cooked within 4 hours.

so i started stuffing as many electrodes into the oven as i could and in my haste i sliced both my fucking hands open. i didnt even notice the cut on my right palm because the one on my left pointer finger was just gushing blood all over soaking my glove and getting over the electrodes (absolutely my fault btw i should of been wearing gloves. i deserved this one) and so i stopped and said i need to handle this. so away i went. bandaged now all good. just again. annoyed. and i still didnt have any 7018s.

i found some. eventually. fuck.

i finished my second test at idk 2:30 or maybe a bit later, begged one of the instructors to mill the back off for me because i was NOTTT doing the carbon arc/ grinding for forever again. once it was done bc time crunch i p much just got to look at and get excited over the smooth mill peices before my instructor whisked it away to grind/cut himself. which - i understand completely time crunch im slow i get it im not bothered.

and then we cleaned up. and i was talking to the tester a little bit before i left and he said "glad you paid because theyre checking who didnt hoho"

now. guys. recall at the start of the post where i said that 2 tests are a hundred bucks. and i only paid for one.

i did one of my tests for free afusdiaksoqondiakdka. he said he'd get the paperwork later and he never did 😭

then. fucking FINALLY it was 3 and i got on the bus and came home and i was so spent i had an alcoholic freezie. i dont drink.

i should of fucking stayed home.

#if you read all this i commend thee #adventures

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reckzieblogs · 10 months

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WEIGHT UPDATE

actually over the moon right now i can see myself getting skinnier and i’m not super low on energy, it’s been quite hard at times but definitely worth it

I weighed myself on the 4th July and i was 153lbs

weighed myself today (13th july) and i’m 146lbs!!

obviously you can’t mathematically lose 7lbs of fat in just over a week but it’s very nice to see the scales go down and clothes fitting looser

Ive been eating roughly 500-1200 calories - most days i’ve stuck around the 800 mark.

I think my biggest tip is taking my movement into account and adjusting my calories based on how much ill be on my feet and moving around in the day because of work and stuff - eg if i’m working an 8 hour shift i will probably eat 1200 cals and if i’m off for the day and have nothing planned ill stay on the lower end of the scale

also been making sure to burn at least 350-500 cals a day - tracking this with my apple watch

but yeah i’m so happy right now / definitely expecting the loss to slow down but it won’t discourage me, i’ve got this :)

#thinspø #anadiet #sna #anamia #ed relatable #ana rant #ed meals #ana diet #ana trigger #low cal ana #bulimik #ana ed #ed food log #ed things #tw ed diet #tw ana diary #tw ed talk #ana weightloss

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cody-apexart · 1 year

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Day 26

on the plane today for my ~24 hours of travel back to nyc.

I started reading the apex fellowship book while in the airport, it's titled 'the apex fellowship: an experiment in vertical cultural integration.' honestly i only know the term vertical integration the way american apparel used to use the term. i.e. in reference to their factory building where they dyed, cut, and sewed fabrics, had a direct to consumer store, designed products, shot marketing campaigns, had their offices, etc.

i don't feel like i was vertically integrated into saigon. i feel like i would have needed a job or something, and maybe at the least not a service apartment in a very hip neighborhood where people washed my dishes for me. i feel fairly disconnected from daily life here-- though i saw a lot of daily life, i did not necessarily get integrated into it.

anyway, the book is a pre-panny collection of essays from different perspectives and different types of people involved with the fellowship. in some ways i feel kinda shorted, a lot of the activities outlined in the book i didnt have on my sched. i didnt have a cooking class, meet with any professionals working outside of art, or volunteer besides the trash clean up weekend. i dont think i did 8 tours either. and the only physical activity i did was a couple dance classes and capoeira, once a week, not twice a week as its mentioned in the text, it would have been nice to have a little more variety in the types of physicality.

the one thing that seems to connect these essay together, the one thing the all fellows are guaranteed to receive, is increased confidence. i think its true. i never knew i could do something like this, and i never would have had the opportunity to find out without the apex fellowship. ive got a lil transformative feeling, but cant really think so idk how to direct that energy. im going to sleep for now.

#Cody Herrmann #Outbound to Ho Chi Minh City

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saucymalum · 2 years

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The Daily Grind pt.16

coffee shop!au Calum Hood x fem!reader x fem!OC

Originally posted on my Instagram

Summary: Y/N has worked at this coffee shop for almost a year when her coworker makes a group chat. Little did she know that would lead her into so much trouble.

pt.1, pt.2, pt.3, pt.4, pt.5, pt.6, pt.7, pt.8, pt.9, pt.10, pt.11, pt. 12, pt.13, pt.14, pt.15

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All-day I’ve been a flurry around the kitchen. The cashiers at the grocery store have seen my face at least 4 times today because I always end up needing something I didnt know I was out of. I woke up at 6 am for this woman and not for a single second have I regretted it. After hearing her talk about her awful day I went home determined to make it up to her. Seeing her cry was the worst thing I’ve seen in months. At that second I made a promise to myself that I would do anything to prevent those tears from falling again. Ive made a whole plan for today. I just hope she likes it.

As my phone chimes with a text from Lilah saying she just parked my heart starts racing. I wipe down the counter and check the oven once more before the doorbell interrupts my rambling thoughts. I hurry to remove my apron before almost sprinting to my front door. I open the door to see Lilah standing with a small smile at the doorstep.

“You could’ve just walked in you know. You usually do.”

“Yeah but what’s the fun in that when I get to hear you run to the door.” She giggles.

My cheeks heat up and I wordlessly step aside to let her in. The oven timer chimes and I rush to take the muffins out to cool.

“You made muffins?” she asks softly staring down at the muffins still in the baking tin.

“Yeah! I also made chocolate cake cause I know you love it but rarely get it for yourself. Pizza is on the way and Harry Potter is on the tv when youre ready. I know how much you love those movies. I also got some bath bombs if you wanted that because you always say my bath is way better than yours even though I’m not entirely sure how true that is.” I ramble while placing the muffins on a cooling rack.

She stays quiet for a moment and I look up to be met with a pair of watery brown eyes, “Oh my God tears. What’s wrong? Is it too much? Cause we can totally do something different if you want. I mean I can always give the muffins to-”

My words are lost as her lips lock with mine. I freeze for a moment before melting into her hands and leaning into the kiss. My hands rest on her hips before pulling her closer. We pull away after a few seconds and I look back into her eyes.

"So I take it that it's safe to assume those were good tears then?"

She chuckles and rests her hands on my cheeks, "No one has ever made this much effort to make me happy in my life. Thank you."

The words I couldn't have possibly begun to form die on my tongue when I see the sincerity in her eyes. The care warms my heart in a way I’m unfamiliar with. Her eyes gaze into mine with a warmth that I never want them to lose. I could probably spend hours looking at them.

Her thumbs rub against my cheeks before her smile grows wider. “You have frosting in your hair, Love”

#calum 5sos #calum hood x you #calum hood x y/n #calum hood x reader #calum hood #5sos fanfic #5sos fic #poly!5sos

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magnoliamyrrh · 2 years

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"capitalism leads to more innovation" is a lie for so many reasons but a particularly tragic and obvious one is that it doesnt lead to more innovation, it just funnels most of the innovation into the higher classes & corporations

in terms of artistic, day to day innovation at least, this was much more accessible back in the day. not only could one make a reliable or semi reliable and anyway, decent living being an artisan or knowing a trade; which sometimes you were born into sometimes you could learn, but peasants had the access, time, and resources for the creation of unique products and items of personal/family use (things also used to have spiritual and religious value at some point but whatver were way past that now). whereas, today, art, craft, creation, etc. are often innacessable to the lower and middle classes because of both cost and, again, lack of time. whereas, today, everything is mass produced and imported and exported for pennies by massive inhumane corporations; and despite how theres such a push to commodify every possible talent you have and every minute; competing and making a living from artisanal talent - necessary for much of traditional culture to survive - is quite hard (making a full, complex, traditional costume, from scratch, or a complex rug. - things that used to be so common. whose gonna pay that much money and then wait - what - 1-2-3 years for it to be complete nowadays? whats gonna keep you alive in the meantime? so the traditional costume becomes more and more simplified so that it may be mass produced and also probably commodified for tourism, bc this is the only way it can be profitable enough vs the time invested) (im pretty sure by this point, if i were to have the skill to replicate one of the full traditional costumes i have. and i werent to undervalue the work and time, it would cost way more than buying an old one did; bc ive seen new blouses which were more complex but.. not very, go for at least 150 (more like 200+) dollars. which may sound like a lot, but, doing the math; for the wage to be at least 10 dollars an hour (lower than the min wage here by 5-6), the whole blouse would have to be completed in 15 hours. which... maybe can happen with w a machine. but a hand made, hand sown, somewhat complex blouse is going to take much, much, much longer than that. so, what you end up with is that at least in the online market of today where youre most likely going to be trying to sell this thing... a blouse which through the will of god alone you managed to complete in only a week and a half (10.5 days of 8 hours of work per day, 84 hours total), would be at least 840 dollars. which is an insane price mostly nobody is going to pay you and also, youre not gonna finish that thing in a week and a half anyway....and so. what. a full costume would cost, easily in the thousands of dollars? even if we do the calculations on romanias minimum wage of 15.2 ron/h, approx ~3 euro/dollars, a blouse completed in a week and half would cost ~ 250 dollars; which already means you likely wont be able to consistently sell them every week. and a costume you could complete in 5 weeks of working 8 hours a day, would cost at least 1000 dollars anyway already, on a 3 dollar wage...maybeeee this would b profitable living in the balkans and selling in euro and dollar and not working alone but even then i dont know whose paying this much money when old ones of similar complexity would be exponentially cheaper. these arent fursuits lmao theres no market for this. and thus, uniqued innovation and artisanal craft, cannot survive, in the face of mass scale Capitalist Innovation from Hell)

#someone needs to take my phone away from me #enough of the tumblr marxism enoUGH #to be fair tho im waiting for these samosas to bake and i guess. this is what i do instead of finding something else productive to do in 20 #min

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mistressoffandoms-alt · 1 year

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My Top Posts in 2022:

Odd things I’ve seen walking off the bus today: a Casio keyboard

0 notes - Posted September 8, 2022

this is bullshit ive slept for like probably 14 hours today and i am still so fucking tired this fucking cold is fucking bullshit my brain is jello and my body feels so achy I want to go back to sleep but I cant because my brain is too wired to sleep but too sleepy to try and catch up on all of the lectures I’m behind on

0 notes - Posted September 7, 2022

Hey @staff

Why did you make it so that longer posts do this on mobile?

How do I change it back?

I just want to read the long posts please

0 notes - Posted April 26, 2022

Hello world

I am not capable of doing things today

Please stop requiring me to do thing today

Please just let me lay in my bed trying to take a nap and failing so as to maintain the slight level of calm that I am currently at

This is greatly appreciated but is also undercut by a continuous current of knowing that at some point someone is going to come up to me and tell me to do things

Which is not appreciated

Because as stated above I am not capable of doing things today

1 note - Posted May 18, 2022 (This is still accurate to this day)

My #1 post of 2022

It’s been a while since I’ve had to use this

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and--you-are-weightless · 2 years

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8/19/22

okay. i gotta get serious abt losing weight again. like its getting back to the point i feel uncomfortable in some of my clothes again, especially my bras. so im gonna start doing nightly journal entries taking abt what i ate today, any exercise i did, how i felt, and what my plans for the next day are. if i count calories or purge ill put that here too.

ill start them all w the date and tag them all "#shellys day" so u can black list that if u want. i know i havent reblogged pics in a while but ive just been in such an awful binging cycle and also getting most of my th1nspo from insta lately

anyway

today was really bad. i went to work decided on panda express for lunch. i always get kung pao chicken (290), chow mein (510), and some crab rangoons (190), so for lunch i had about 1,000 calories. it wasnt even very good and even tho i was full half way through i ate the whole thing anyway cuz im a disgusting pig. i spend the rest of my shift at work wishing i had got some poke instead so naturally even tho i wasnt hungry i stopped and got poke after work. i have no idea how many calories are in it, i at least get the poke salad option so theres just lettuce instead of rice but it was still way too much and again even tho i was full half way thru i made myself eat the rest. i also got some fried rice balls cuz im a fucking cow and decided to really make myself feel worse than i already did. after i ate i just laid down and kept feeling worse and worse til i went to throw up like maybe an hour or an hour and a half after eating. i still have two rice balls left i really want before i go to bed. i dont have any more easy high calorie foods left in the house other than the cookies my dad made but hopefully hell give those away to friends before i binge on them. im gonna try to do better tomorrow. im gonna go to the gym with my dad in the morning if i can make myself get up in time. im also supposed to see one of my partners tomorrow evening and he always orders taco bell super later at night so i know ill end up eating something there but if i can have a little discipline itll be the only thing i eat tomorrow. then starting saturday night after whatever i eat w my partner im gonna start a 36 hour fast. im gonna allow liquid calories but nothing crazy, just its ok to put a little creamer in my coffee or a spoon of sugar in my tea i mean. if i mess up im gonna restart til i make it thru the fast. once i make it thru im gonna go back on a low-carb diet and focus on protein and veggies again. carbs are always my downfall. once i start on pasta and potatos and bread and sugar i always ruin my diet and start binging on everything. maybe ill make more balerina soup again. idk but im gonna fix this. my current achievable goal is to lose 20 lbs by december. if i can lose about 2 lbs a week i can do that. i just gotta focus and stop binging. i can let myself have a cheat day every now and then when im w my friends or a partner but i have to stop rewarding myself with food and overeating when im depressed.

#shellys day

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What if Goth Girl has been into occult stuff for a while but after the gate opens in season 1 it sort of. Starts working for her?? Either bc the upside down influenced the town/her for being so near and unlocked that OR bc the component she was missing was like, really believing magic is for real? That way she both knows more about the theory/good practices to experiment with than El but can benefit from El being better at the practical/more raw power stuff. God I love OCs and stranger things has so much room for them

Mine usually have older family members that are also magic/superpowered somehow bc I like mentor characters and it's relatively easy to get them away from their kids when things get dangerous in the 80's. And I want Joyce to have at least One Adult that doesnt dismiss her worries.

Last time I got into stranger things around season 3 (have yet to watch season 4 bc it'll plunge me right back into it and im busy having ofmd brainrot rn) I THINK the general vibe was giving Dustin an older sister that was into the occult/developed weak powers before s1, and then have her befriend a family that was made up of adopted werewolf son (bc. I had also had a teen wolf resurgence around then) and witch mother mentor figure. I dont remember if I had settled on anyone else on the household lol I wanted Werewolf and OC Henderson to be in a bi+ace relationship and then both of them to befriend billy (bc. Im demi and bi and so every character I like is at least one of these. Also he looks vastly less like an unnecesary threat to be friends with when both of them are the same age and can scruff him like a kitten) + maybe some poly later with him once he was in a better place mentally. I also could not decide if they were separate characters or one character that had parts of both, it seemed like too much to introduce multiple ocs but also too many narrative purposes and power to fit in one 16 year old kid so 🤷‍♂️

The mind flayer I think of as like... part of the organism that makes up this fungus. So are the other monsters, and while they've got the whole hivemind thing going even the demodogs can develop personal thoughts (Dustin's demodog did learn it liked snacks and hesitated to kill him without the other demodogs learning this too right??). The mf just has more self awareness than the rest and can command the others, probably it could be that the upside down needs to infect beings from the target world to open tears until "the barrier" between planes is weakened enough to consume it? So the mf's job is to learn how to do that possession effectively and gets more brainpower to do it? Ive forgotten so much i dont know how much sense this makes with canon lmao

OH MY GOOOOD ONCE AGAIN I AM REDUCED TO--

Geniunely starting to think our minds are connected i just took a shower and had ideas about goth girl that line up TERRORIFINGLY WELL WITH THIS SHIT.

Also goth girl now has a name!!! I misheard the lyrics to Emma by Sisters of Mercy earlier today as “Emily” and not “Emmaline”, I’d already settled on a last name for the family and the name “Emily King” has been in my head for HOURS now and it’s just like. Yes. Good. This. so that’s her name now fdgfgds

I’m GENUINELY UNHINGED ABOUT THIS bc while in the shower i decided to move back when she and her family move to Hawkins to when she’s 12 instead of 8. I did the math upon reading this ask-- she’s born the same year as Billy (1967) and in 1979 when the Hawkins Lab massacre goes down she’d be 12. So it works stupidly well. She’s always been interested in spooky stuff but gets more into it as she gets older and she also starts try practicing magic (still can’t decide how magicy the magic should be rip. doing full blown fantasy in st feels weird to me but i’m also planning to add in lovecraft and that feels right and isn’t that just fantasy?? 💀) and she starts to think she’s maybe sensitive.

I was genuinely thinking of a scene just now of her in the byers house in s1 before Joyce goes full on christmas lights and she’s getting Vibes and Feelings and she’s basically the first person to believe Joyce because her skin is literally crawling.

I love this idea that she has ALWAYS been psychic/had the capacity for powers but it took the Weird Vibes of Hawkins and some more active consideration than just researching for fun for her to realize she can do shit. Like it was just an interesting idea until she met Eleven and then suddenly it was real and now she’s much more serious about learning about this shit and experimenting herself which leads to her learning to do a range of things and working with El on her powers in a infinitely less traumatizing way lol.

stranger things really DOES have so much room for ocs i love it alot. i also love how i feel like i don’t have to make people superpowered if i don’t want to just so they’ll like fit in/be relevant. like it’s nice to have 1 person who is so we’re not relying on the 12yo constantly but even the normies have valid roles to play in the plot which isn’t always the case lol.

this is SUCH a good point. Joyce really does need another adult around who believe her and isn’t a mess writing wise like hopper can be (s3 hopper my beloathed). i’m gonna have to think about this bc it’s 100% not the king parents hmmmmmmmm

nooooo the teen wolf resurgence 🤣 i know that feeling very well i fell out in s3 but if i’m currently in the mode of fandoms adjacent to it i’m like hmmm what if... we love a Henderson oc in this house. A CLASSIC. i also feel about the bi+ace thing, it’s how Emily ended up with such big nb vibes bc it seems i cannot stop myself, also she’s likely bi. and poly. like I’m just attacking myself at this point fdgsfgsd I’ve been keeping the shipping fairly loose in my head while i work on this just so i don’t lock myself into something mentally that later doesn’t work but I’ve been putting Emily with Billy. partially because despite how much they both Suck they’re weirdly positive influences on each other and partially because Emily has a big “I don’t think I can fix him. I think I can take him in a fight.” energy about Billy sdklfgjhsfdkls

I feel you about not being able to decide between one or multiple ocs. one is easier to wrangle when you’re plotting things but multiple feels more realistic and like this singular oc isn’t over powered and over important. so far I’m happy with the king kids because they’re all different and defined and can do different things for the narrative but are also all in the same group so it’s easy to consolidate them down to 1 unit when moving them around the plot.

the Mind Flayer is certainly connected into the hivemind somehow and is pretty clearly at the top of the foodchain. It’s just hard to say exactly what it is currently since for one thing we’ve yet to really see if it has a physical form. even the wiki is saying this bitch is just an evil sentient tornado. which would make being a literal part of the fungus system difficult but i also hold to the Mind Flayer being something like what you’d see out of a lovecraft story. like Yog Sothoth and Cthulhu both have tangible form and do not, they are here and they are not etc etc. so it also COULD be physically linked in. there’s also space alien fungi in lovecraft dsfgdfs

I think there is a certain level of individuality in the hivemind bc I think you’re right about dart???? but i can’t remember completely lol I’m in the middle of a rewatch so we’ll find out!!!

I think requiring some kind of original breach makes sense given what we’ve seen. at least when wondering why it hadn’t tried this shit earlier (tho maybe it has! and other people elsewhere at another time were doing this shit too!)

I’m slowly forming some thoughts about the Upside Down, Mind Flayer and Vecna as I’m rewatching the past seasons. when vecna gets yeeted into the Negative Zone it well... looks like the Negative Zone. not Hawkins. now this could be because in that scene Vecna is in the metaphorical tunnel between worlds or it could be that it was a more primordial space. in Moorcock’s Elric of Melniboné series (one of the HUGE influences to D&D and where the alignment chart comes from) there’s the lords of chaos and order who use mortals as proxies and in one story I remember there’s an old knight who does a Quest and learns somethings and walks into the primordial chaos to make it ordered and structured like the rest of reality as we know it.

I personally don’t think Vecna is the big bad of st. I do think that’s the Mind Flayer. I think Dustin is right about Vecna being the Mind Flayer’s 5star General. I think the Mind Flayer fits perfectly into Vecna’s idea of a apex predator and he would help him. I would not be surprised if Vecna’s power and human mind helped to add form and order to the primordial chaos the Upside Down seems to be when he enters it. it also wouldn’t surprise me if this 1 for 1 mapping of Hawkins is to facilitate the conquest of this world because of blah blah war maps blah blah mirror images in narrative it’s is own post honestly

#answered #stranger things spoilers #lol WHOOPS #god this is HUGE SORRY I GOT UNHINGED AGAIN

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universitaire-maigre · 1 month

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I'm so freaking hungry today and my distractions aren't working at all. Ive studied for a few hours, I've tried reading but can't focus. I'm craving the worst of my snack foods, and I ALMOST caved. My strength is really being tested but I. Will. Not. Give. Up.

October. October. October. October.

It's takes 8 months of dedication. I'm 2ish months in. My birthday is in June and I must be at least 15 pounds lighter. I MUST. MUST. MUST. August is when I typically "restart" my ΞD, so if I can hang this out until then, I'm golden baby. There'll be no stopping me once I get to August.

Log:

Café coffee: 300

Lunch:

Espresso with whipped cream: 45

Sprite zero: 0

Dinner:

7 chips: 75

Homemade brownie: 10

Allowance: 450

Total: 430

Net: 380

Deficit: -902

Oh wow. Yeah, this diet should really help me get deep into these numbers (I hate being at --9, --8 numbers that easily put you back into another bracket). I only feel safe at a --6 number. And I'm taking more steps at work and I have plans to take lots of steps this week. I really want to hit 175 this weekend and if I really stick to it, I should be able to. I'm really gonna rely on protein and low LOW calorie snacks.

-A

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roses-grossness-bones-and-dirt · 3 months

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483 calories [consider this journaling fucking feb 8 2024]

today, excluding the 230 for a monster, i have eaten 483 calories. half an orange, some fries, and popcorn chicken. i didnt really have an appetite at the start of eating. i had tried cleaning mine and my partners room but couldn't focus without getting overwhelmed. i figured the emotional bullshit my brain puts me through when i don't eat was the source so i gave in.

i worked out for over an hour yesterday give or take a ten minute break in between. i didn't feel satisfied at the end i just couldn't feel my legs. i didn't feel like i burned enough. didn't hurt enough.

i weigh 169lbs now. i wont update my bio until i get down to 165, though. theres not enough of a difference in 4 pounds for me to care. let alone 5, 6, or 7. if im lucky, i'll forget to weigh myself when im 165 and find myself at 163. ten pounds. the number is so high, that weight drop sounds so drastic in the time given.

this is a road i've been down before, though. i know the first ten pounds is nothing. you cant see it, you cant feel it. it's water. it's old still digesting food. it's anything other than fat, really. at least, thats how i see it.

i try not to count liquid calories because if i did then the endless amount of flavored drinks would mean im meeting a binge worths of calories [honestly just anything over 1000 in my disordered mind] without ever feeling satiated.

sodas have been cut down to one a day the one a day isnt always diet, though. its pathetic, im aware.

again, i've been down this road before. thats what makes this so much harder. the awareness of what normalcy looks like. knowing the hurt i'd be putting those i care about through because ive seen the hurt before. ive caused this hurt before.

still, i push on. i'll start counting again. steps, calories in, calories out if i can manage. i'll do a smaller work out today and a big one tomorrow. i'll keep how im feeling to my brain and journal on tumblr for release so i can postpone the pain ill put my partner through with this relapse.

im not sick enough for them to know. not sick enough to be worried about, really. not to say i want the worry. id rather be worried about anyone and everyone else than have a single person worry about me. i dont want to be sick i dont want to get sick i have too much to do but i cant take the lack of control or the look in the mirror anymore.

when i quit vaping i gained another 20 pounds on top of the 30+ i had gained from recovering initially. this is problematic as a trans man because i went up a fucking cup size. its hardcore awful.

i hope to be 150 by my 21st bday in a few months. 20 pounds isnt much but its my pre-quitting weight. i hope to be 130 by the time my best friend moves. 20 more pounds isnt much but its my pre-recovery weight. i hope to be 115 by the time my lease is up in december. 15 pounds isnt much at all but that was my lowest weight.

its all so unlikely but its the dream, really.

#mental illness #ana trigger #tw ed diet #@na tips #male thinspi #trans ana #tw ana diary #tw disordered eating #ed bullshit #st4rv1ng

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rainsmediaradio · 4 months

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MFM Daily Devotional 12th January 2024 By Dr. D.K Olukoya – Do Things Differently (IV)

MFM Daily Devotional - Do Things Differently (IV)

The Topic of Mountain Top Life Daily Devotional for 12th January 2024 Is ”Do Things Differently (IV)”

BIBLE IN ONE YEAR: Genesis 34, Genesis 35, Genesis 36, Mark 6, Mark 7, Mark 8 FIRE SCRIPTURE: 3 John 1-6 (KJV) 1 The elder unto the wellbeloved Gaius, whom I love in the truth. 2 Beloved, I wish above all things that thou mayest prosper and be in health, even as thy soul prospereth. 3 For I rejoiced greatly, when the brethren came and testified of the truth that is in thee, even as thou walkest in the truth. 4 I have no greater joy than to hear that my children walk in truth. 5 Beloved, thou doest faithfully whatsoever thou doest to the brethren, and to strangers; 6 Which have borne witness of thy charity before the church: whom if thou bring forward on their journey after a godly sort, thou shalt do well: MEMORY VERSE: Matthew 6:33 (KJV) “But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.” MOTIVATIONAL QUOTES: Health is wealth. Make your wellness a priority! PRAISE AND WORSHIP: Take praise and worship songs as led by the Holy Spirit. PROPHETIC WORD FOR TODAY Receive the Anointing to Enjoy Divine Health and Prosper in Your Spirit, Soul and Body, in The Name of Jesus.

MFM DAILY DEVOTIONAL 12TH JANUARY 2024

Today, we shall round off our discourse on how to do things differently and have a great year. Beloved, you must not neglect your health and wellness. You need them to enjoy your marriage, finances, ministry, etc. When last did you do a medical check-up? Self-medication, unhealthy and poor eating habits must stop. No matter how busy you are, create room for exercise. Find time to jog or walk. You need at least 6-8 hours of sound sleep. Whatever it takes, get it. Refrain from the habit of relying on sleep- inducing drugs to get sleep. Get spiritual and medical help to overcome insomnia. Avoid stress, worry and anxiety. Ensure you achieve work-life balance. Go for vacation annually and spend it wisely to get some rest so that you return to work truly refreshed. I advise you to also avoid overworking and stress. Focus on achieving physical, emotional, spiritual and mental wellness. Your body, soul and spirit must be in sound shape for you to perform optimally in career, business and ministry. The Bible says, “Beloved, I wish above all things that thou mayest prosper and be in health, even as thy soul prospereth (3 John 2). In addition, embrace personal development and make it a priority to produce a better version of yourself with the help of the Holy Spirit this year. This will take wisdom, self-discipline, determination, planning and goal setting, etc. I counsel you to put God first in all your affairs. Make Jesus your Lord and Saviour and serve Him wholeheartedly. Seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness and every other thing shall be added unto you (Matthew 6:33). Be highly organised this year and use your time wisely. Time is the currency of life. Engage in activities that will bring improvement to your life and destiny as well as help you to spend your eternity in heaven. Get a mentor who is godly and has the kind of values that you are proud of. Good mentors are often great blessings to the lives of their mentees. Finally, give generously to God and give back to the society. The Lord will help you. in Jesus’ name.

MFM DAILY PRAYER POINTS 12TH JANUARY 2024

MORNING - I claim divine health and all-round wellness, in the name of Jesus. - I overcome stress, worry and anxiety, in the name of Jesus. - ⁠I receive the comforting and refreshing touch of the Holy Ghost, in the name of Jesus. EVENING - This year, I will prioritise my personal development, in the name of Jesus. - ⁠I receive the grace to reinvent myself, in the name of Jesus. - Father, give me the wisdom to run my life in line with Your will and succeed, in the name of Jesus. - Father, give me a glorious change, by fire, in the name of Jesus. Read the full article

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