#ive always wondered what happened

[skitskatdacat63]

Cannot stop thinking about how Fernando was the first one to hug Seb after Monza 2008:

#two men who are not afraid to hug with both arms sjfklfl #but seriously fernando especially is always going full in on hugs(rather than the typical one handed) and i respect it #BUT GODDDDDD THAT HE WAS THE FIRST!!!!!! LITERALLY MURDERED ME #ive literally watched this race before and i didnt even notice #i think i wanted to see if there were pics of them from before 2009 and came across this and was so OH????? #fun fact if you look at my gallery from during the past gp + #its literally a mix of sad reaction pics and vettonso pics. what singapore does to a man. :') #but god i feel so abnormal about this hug. its just veru sweet to me okay!!! #vettonso is fun bcs theres not as much content so every little bit is very precious and important to me <3 #likeeeeee how close they hug each other and the way theyre still close when they pull back to look at each other!!! #i wonder what theyd be like if they hadnt been rivals. but tbh on the other hand their animosity is why I like them ! #but ofc very sweet to see them when the slate was blank bcs then im like hmmm how long until 'fuck you my boy' happens #well! you guys know theyre my brainrot nowadays :D #watching 2010 will be fun bcs its literally primetime for all my ships #f1 #formula 1 #sebastian vettel #fernando alonso #vettonso #we do a little bit of f1 #2008 italian gp

[alchemiclee]

daily bladie 19: new lore drop!

I like to think of my itty bitty bladie as real blade's asexually reproduced tiny clone child who formed from the time blade got a finger cut off and left it there...blade regrew a new finger,,,,,then the finger tried to regrow a new blade. but there wasn't enough material to regrow a whole new man. and that's how little bladie was born!

#itty bitty bladie #hsr #hsr blade #blade hsr #honkai star rail blade #honkai star rail #hsr meme #star rail meme #honkai star rail memes #i have to make ridiculous lore for the ridiculously tiny and silly bladie #i always wonder what happens if blade loses parts and then leaves them there. so i made up the lore for it. it creates tiny bladies #its canon now ive decided!!! 😆

[isabelguerra]

finished chapter 5. zack is the strongest person alive for All That

#look i have my opinions. we all know this. but im understanding them a lot more recently. with the whole story you wrote as a teen thing #and wanting to expand your stuff more and grow #ever since i started working in comics ive started to view zack as like. a weird coworker. who is mildly older than me. #rather than Comics Lord Supreme (14yo vision) #like paranatural changing has become like. a friend dropping a fanfic of theirs you really loved. but ultimately you love your friend more. #am i going to always miss it Yes. am i going to always love it Yes. am i going to wonder what could have happened Yes. but like. #are you enjoying being alive? does this hurt to make? does this different way you make it... feel better? #who cares if i have a graphic novel coming out. comics is people. if i could make a paranatural guest comic someday. that'd be enough for me

[caffeinatedopossum]

Thinking about how far I've come from being that terrified 18 year-old, fresh out of an abusive household, having flashbacks and hiding in closets while I cried and panicked for hours

#the ptsd is always worst right after you get out #thankfully i had wonderful roommates and friends #one time a roommate of mine discovered me having a flashback in a closet and asked me if i was okay #i answered honestly and said no and they were just so accommodating and understanding #they asked if i needed anything or if i wanted to be alone for a bit and i said i wanted to be aloe #i was so scared of everything. so scared of people. so scared of being discovered #i was so embarrassed that my roommate had seen me like that but when i finally ventured out about an hour later #i discovered my roommate had told another one of my roommates what was happening and she made me tea and soup #and encouraged me to talk to her #it was so nice #ive been through a lot of pain but ive also been through a lot of healing

[hella1975]

assigning a character the highest honour like *adds go home by julien baker to their playlist*

#and by honour i mean pointing at them like TRAUMATISED! TRAUMATISED! TRAUMATISED! #like yeah relating to this song is a red flag actually. yeah it's one of the most personal songs in the world to me #and i actively am not allowed to listen to it some days bc it makes me significantly worse #even if im in a GOOD mood because of the layers upon layers of emotions ive associated with it #yeah i literally wont even blorbo post to this song even if it's accurate to a character because it's so personal #so they have to be REALLY FUCKING SPECIAL AND FUCKED IN THE HEAD to get this honour. enter touya #i made him a playlist im going crazy like yeah actually of course i was always gonna be weird about him #like he's got fire themes. he's got body horror. he just wanted to be good. he's ethel cain coded. he's georgia coded #he's got mommy AND daddy AND sibling issues. he's the only other character ive let even come close to mary on a cross #he's a waiting room girlie. he's an archer girlie. im tearing my hair the fuck out of my scalp #why does the first character ive latched onto this hard since CHUUYA have to be from mha of all things #like that's embarassing for me im embarassed to be here. and yet #touya todoroki #the thing that makes me sick about touya is yes the abuse he went through via his quirk and his dad etc etc #but also bc sekota peak happened when he was 13 right? and he's 24 now? that's 11 years unaccounted for #like ik it's confirmed his burns put him in a coma for 3 years and all for one and the dr guy just stapled his stubborn self together #which is something else i will YELL MY HEAD OFF ABOUT WHAT THE FUCKKKKK HE WAS A CHILD STOP IT STOP IT STOP IT #but im pretty sure it's confirmed that after 3 years he goes off again on his own? which still leaves him as a teenager? #like he straight up burns himself alive at 13 wakes up at 16 and reappears at 24 with dyed hair and piercings and a bad attitude #and im not supposed to wonder? or get upset? like i absolutely am leaning into the 'he was on the streets' angle bc i hate myself #and that's devastating and also what alternative is there logically like he has NOTHING #no home no money no name that he can feasibly use not even an appearance that will warrant anything but more cruelty #so youve got this child on the streets with injuries that absolutely cause insane amounts of pain daily he's literally STAPLED together #and he's completely alone and the only thing getting him through is this growing hatred and rage #like id set all my plans around killing the guy that put me there too actually just to fucking get me out of bed in the morning #I CANNOT STOP THINKING ABOUT HIM. WHERE WAS HE FOR THE PAST DECADE. HORIKOSHI PLEASE #I WANNA GO HOME IM SICK THERES MORE WHISKEY THAN BLOOD IN MY VEINS MORE TAR THAN AIR IN MY LUNGS #PIERCE MY SKIN NEEDLES TO WORN OUT RAGS THE FOLDS IN MY ARMS THE SICKENING BLACK AND I HAVENT BEEN TAKING MY MEDS #I KNOW MY BODY IS JUST DIRTY CLOTHES IM TIRED OF WASHING MY HANDS GOD I WANT TO GO HOME

[grasslandgirl]

THE THING THEY DONT TELL YOU WHEN YOU START A LONG FORM NARRATIVE PLOT-FOCUSED FIC FOR THE FIRST TIME AFTER ONLY WRITING RELATIONSHIP-CENTRIC GET TOGETHER FLUFF IS THAT YOU DO ACTUALLY. HAVE TO FIGURE OUT THE PLOT. AGONIES UPON AGONIES!!!!

#noble pining au #i dont!!!!!! know whats going to GODDAMN happen next. if im honest #ive been putting off deciding on what the climax and culmination of act 3 is gonna be til i get there and. uh oh! guess whos there! #AND STILL DOESNT KNOW HOW THIS THING IS GONNA END #and i dont wanna leave it open ended at the climax like i did w my bb21 fic bc like. i found that unfulfilling of an ending personally as a #writer. and i dont want that for noble pining bc ive spent three years working on it slowly #and i want it to have an ending that is fulfilling to me and to the reader and for the characters. #and lik eive been figuring out like individual endgames for all the characters for where they'll END but like. i dont know how to GET THERE #augh. anyway #if anyone has any suggestions or advice #or if any beloved mutuals w a lot of free time on their hands wants to read it and give me some feedback and actionable plot-based suggestio #that would be genuinely wonderful. but mostly im just venting and spitballing here #and im sure an idea will come to me eventually. they always do

[the-kipsabian]

@thetimecrystal asked: 10 -  Make a gifset of a wrestler I don’t talk much about but I really like.

seth rollins & buddy matthews

#seth rollins #buddy matthews #wwe #aew #all elite wrestling #aewedit #wweedit #wrestlingedit #wrestling #night gifs #i could have picked just one. but honestly this entire storyline is the reason i absolutely fell in love with buddy so like #and seth is. probably my all time favorite wrestler #also i did not intend of this coloring to be so blue originally but i stuck with it cause it gave it kind of a vibe #as this is a memory long gone from times i was really invested in this product and this story brought me so much happiness #(not so much how it ended up going and how it ended if you know what happened. but all in all. it was my everything) #also the way these two interact is just. UGH. i love it so much #but yeah if you wonder why im so invested in all the kip shit its cause this happened honestly #ive always been into weirdos with complexes who promise me good things come if i embrace something LOL #no but fr i treated this much the same and it was my lifeline at the time so. good times #anyways ive talked long enough i fucking love these two and i really need to consume more content with them #honestly i should rewatch this entire storyline. these clips alone brought back so many memories hhhhh #my beloved #dorito husband #devil in a fancy suit #(rp blogs dont reblog; saving and other personal use with tag credits is fine)

[kn11ves]

emotional support group for autistics who got called condescending and rude as kids just for responding to things directly and still not knowing how they were being mean

#what did i do #i got constantly told by my mother and step father (and his family) that i always talked like i knew better than they did or that i was #just as mature. i was just fuckjng talking what the hell did you want me to do #why do you feel attacked when a 10 year old speaks to you as an adult????? literally what #i dont know on that note sometimes its just like i dont even feel like ive aged at all #sure i have a giant explosion of time in my head just Gone from my memory because i was getting abused but like i dont feel like ive aged #or really matured ive felt like ive alwats felt #i cant relate when epople are like me when i feel all my ages or i wish i could go back to being x age or being x age everything felt so #different..like no it didnt. or im missing something? #i have never in my life felt like anything has changed. ive always been this old. there is no ''inner child'' and ive never had childhood #innocence or a nostalgia or childhood to go back to. i have no idea what any of you are talking about ever👍 #ugh jst rmemebred skmething that happened with my white step dad's mother #we visited her house and she literally fucking didnt let me go (not physically) until i replied to her with Correct Granmar. what was i #doing? i was reaponding to her by saying ''yeah'' and she kept repeating ''yes'' like telling me to say yes instead of yeah and i didnt #Fucking Get It because guess what you old white cracker i barely fucking speak english and you are just saying things in an aggressive tone #like thats gonna make me get it. and i Didnt i just kept replying yrah to her yes's and then she got tired of it and we left out the door #and theeeeen i got yelled at in the car by being called disrespectful and rude by my parents. WHAT THE FUCK DID I DO????????? #those crackers never liked me LOL i literally know they didnt #ugh i rmemeber this one time my step dads father was like trying to show me some dumb boxing or karate or something punching move and he #told my mother that i was good at it because he felt i had a lot of aggression and then NY MOTHER YELLED AT ME IN THE CAR FOR IT?????? #oh fucking wonder why te kid being abused mighthave aggression but she didnt Know (apart from what She was doing to me) like why would it #be my fucking fault if he thought i had aggression in me HOW IS THAT MY FAULT WHAT DIDBI DO I WAS JUST TRYING TO DO THE MOVE BECAUSE WELL #I WAS TRYING TO GET ALONG BECAUSE THATS WHAT THEY WANTED ME TO DO #she was like do you know how much that embarassed me and WHAT THE HELL HE SAID IT I DIDNT I WAS LIKE #8??? OR SOMETHING???? I DONT FUCKING KNOW!!! I DIDNT KNOW WOMAN WHAT DID YOU WANT FROM ME #mothers when they mother👍

[todayisafridaynight]

harvard a lame school i bet aoki never got woken up at 11PM because his roommates were blasting music cause everyone a square there

#snap chats #hi everyone. #i finished WMA3 :) still couldnt tell yoou what happened but it was still fun.. #love the montage moment... theyre my fave in the WMA movies... #oh right. the post. //screams// #I WAS JUS LAYING IN BED THINKIN BOUT HOW IM GNNNA GO IN THE CITY TOMORROW #AND I FALL ASLEEP AND NEXT THING I KNOW I HEAR MY ROOMMATE AND HER FRIEND IN THE LIVIN ROOM #BLASTING MUSIC AND IM JUST. UU 👁️👁️ #scariest moment was when her friend rattled my door cause apparently she used to stay in my room last semester #BUT STILL MY GOD i thought someone fell so i go out and shes like Are We Too Loud <:) #and i. like any self respecting adult. said no <3 #honestly i probably could sleep through this. my sister used to have parties all the time in highschool and i slept through those #tho those were in the basement...... and theyre right outside my door ☠️ #anyway i hope harvard DID have cool ass parties nd aoki never got invited to any of them and he just kept getting waken up eveyr night #yall think he dormed or did he just live in a house/apartment nearby.... ive always wondered that... #if sawashiro was there with him then i'd imagine a house/apartment #tho would there be a point in getting a dorm if he already lived close by ? prob not #im not thinking about it rn i just wanted to complain LOL

[plutos134340]

i've honestly thought for so long you used he/him. only cuz i have never, at all, gone to your pinned post

okay bye mutual of mine

Wait really

Yes i am a she/her user 😔 🙏/lh but like its interesting that ppl may think otherwise? if that makes sense.

Sorry for the excessively long ramble in the tags

#by that last part i just mean that ive always wondered if ppl would view me as a different gender or anything like that #but like that wouldnt really happen in person. just bc like i fit the stereotypical description of a girl #god idk how to word this i dont want to sound offensive wow #i just mean like ik majority of ppl around me would view me correctly gender-wise. which is good. but ive just wondered #and like #its interesting to see what people think of me without knowing what i look like or how i identify beforehand #if any of that makes sense #and #like i think its cool ppl think i use he/him and view me that way. even if its just like a randomly assigned pronoun to someone u dont know #alr sorry bye sorry for terrorizing yall in the tags /lh #🗣️ #asks

[inkedmyths]

(drags hand down face) When there's Christian proselytizing blazed on the dash...

#ink thinks #christianity mention #the thing is this one is just. sad to me? #like ive had some in the past that are just outright hateful #this one though... this one is less outright and just strikes me as someone who like. #can't bear the thought of losing out on the relationships they've had their entire life? #fuck man i just. i spent so much of my time at church in my last months of going just. miserable. #that part of my family wanted me to be something i'm not. and they tried so damn hard to push me into that shape #yet i often wonder what would have happened to me if i didn't have my mom's non-religious perspective on the world #would i have cracked under the pressure of needing my family and forced myself to be a perfect cookie cutter mormon? #i sure spent most of my last years w/my dad doing everything i could to keep up appearances while i was there #idk man. i hope that poster takes some time to reflect. bc it really does sound like someone doing this #bc if they don't then the people that have always loved them will love them less. maybe even stop loving them. #and also god i hope they realize how much internalized homophobia and transphobia they have christ almighty #...so funny of me to use christian exclamations while complaining abt christianity. anyways

[jaemazon]

hi yttd fandom heres some really old art 😅😅😅

#yttd #your turn to die #the blorbos #kimi ga shine #i want his gender #ive always wondered what would have happened if they won tbh

[forkpigeon3146]

no because time is passing a little too quickly and im getting older and maybe im a little afraid and kind of scared and maybe this is what ive wanted my entire life but no it isnt really what i want

#i turn 15 in two weeks and ive always dreamed of being this old #but i used to dream a lot about things and most of them wouldnt end up happening #and now im wondering what im going to do #when the childhood dreams that i no longer remember in detail and only know by feeling alone #dont come true #poetry #spilled thoughts #my thoughts #spilled ink #poem #eighty first post

[caffeinatedopossum]

Starting to wonder if I have bipolar but then I would literally have almost every mental illness. Like fr I'm not kidding you, I'm a collector and I never chose this

#it does run in my family since my mom had it #i just wonder because while im almost always suicidal the way that prevents itself can greatly change very quickly #like periodically ill be stuck to my bed very sad very mopy for like 3 weeks to 3 months #and then sudden i get this burst of false energy that is actually severe restlessness #and i NEED to do something when that happens. sometimes i just cannot sleep because ive gotta do something #sometimes i frantically draw or write and ill have these moments where i feel ecstatic and when i come back to normal levels of sadness #im convinced i mustve been delusional to think the thoughts that i had then #usually the sadness isnt as bad during those periods but the suicidality is much worse actually because i become very frantic #and have so much more energy #idk. my theory thus far has been either 1) adhd causing mood dysregulation and hyperactivity #2) fluctuations in my depression and anxiety combating each other. actually both of these. #or 3) DID. just DID. i think thats lretty self explanatory #the interesting thing is that i think what i described with point 1 and 2 would be clinically considered bipolar...? #listen clinicians dont always consider the other factors that contribute to what symptoms the person is having #especially in psychology where the lines are very blurry since diagnosis tends to be made on behavioral observations #and also on self reported symptoms.i suspect im one of the only people who would describe symptoms like 'im having x because i have y' #and not just 'im having x symptom' #skfjfh sorry to everyone who reads my tags 👍 psychology special interest go brr

[fgooooooo]

Nort doodles

#stress drawing is so nice ^^ #tried to draw diff kinds of nort #i wanna one day draw his clown costume #i like drawing silhouette nort #when his hunter form comes out I hope to get chased a lot!! i think he will be so fun but i also have high hopes for his design i hope it #comes out nice #hopefully after exams i can get into lego monkey kid 🥺 and teenage mutant ninja turtles and transformers #and watch the nezha movie and the other movie thats related to that #im also gonna watch a play soon!! im excited it seems like fun i wonder if norton would like plays #im thinking of maybe writing some comfort nort scenarios one day but im not sure yet #ive been tired a lot this week and sleep deprived but i always look forward to doodle a lil bit #norton is like a star #he burns out too fast. hes like a tragic play and despite knowing what will happen.. i still wanna root for him #he burns so brightly and i feel like Icarus and ill gladly fall into the sea if it meant i could see his brilliance #the imagery of a person glancing up in mid air.. mouth open in awe.. eyes sparkling.. before they become swallowed by the sea #the situation will never change. but there was love. and while love might not change anything.. it still existed. #my art #sketch #digital art #identity v #idv #idv art #norton campbell #idv norton

[lhrry]

x

#also really hope louis’ team has something up their sleeves to get fan excitement up for the release week because boy is this weak and they #really should do better to ramp it up #post tiktoks with tiny snippets of the songs and having the fans guess what song it is for example #or something to boost fan engagement because ive been through many impending album releases in this fandom and this is not it #the excitement is quite mild #they did a big push for bigger than me and a lot of it seemed to me to be for promo rather than for the single #there was scarcely anything new for out of my system in the sense that the questions are still the same as they were for btm #they are circulating the same old and it’s not interesting for many people to watch and then they manage to sneak in babygate always and in #quite ridiculous senses like him listening the album first and stuff and while i still think there’s a reason for this (and i’ve spoken #about what i think may be happening with that and with the reasons for it before so i’ll not repeat myself) #but it just alienates more and more people and with the promo being repetitive there’s nothing much to outweight it for many people #and unfortunately since louis himself is saying he does not care for charts the fans are not very motivated to stream and do listening #parties as they used to be when getting to number 1 was encouraged and by the boys and desirable #plus imho they messed up the tour announcement and sale which shouldve come after the album comes out because people will know what they’re #buying tickets for #but anyway i wonder whether there’s something up still with sabotage of louis and radios not playing him and stuff #because despite the emphasis on him being free and in control there are so many old patterns recurring that it’s incongruent #im really excited for the album and the music and the direction louis is going to take artistically and creatively #but some things about his promo still seem very off #especially knowing what an astute businessman he is and just how deep an understanding he has #of his fanbase as well as the GP and marketing #also i really do think it’s purposeful they’re building on chicago and danielle associations and ramping up babygate and that E is out #for good