#it’s a little bit messed up tbh

[stardust-falling]

Anyway as much as I do appreciate westerners taking an interest in Chinese culture it sometimes feels like my culture is just viewed as an art piece. Chinese people and culture are not artworks on display for western viewers’ pleasure. We are very real people, with very real culture, and as someone who has been overseas and removed from my culture for a good portion of my life it sometimes hurts when CN culture is just viewed as surface level “pretty” or heaven forbid “aesthetic,” when it’s so much more than that.

#like!!! hanfu & calligraphy and Chinese architecture are undeniably very pretty!!! #it’s just… we get treated with so much exoticism and orientalists #I spent so many years being called ‘exotic’ as like. a compliment. #that when I see that same kind of sentiment it makes me very uncomfy #I get that Chinese culture is foreign to westerners but it’s not always about you #there can be appreciation without orientalism #so treat Chinese fashion on the same level as western fashion #and other arts too! #hanfu is to me like corsetry and petticoats are to my fully western-raised partner #things like comparing and contrasting styles and techniques from an equal standpoint is super neat too! #and like. treating art as art is one thing but when the entire culture and even the people themselves get wrapped up into that ‘art’ #it’s a little bit messed up tbh

[solargeist]

they made him study a lot, train, not sleep, and didn’t give him any glasses . It was immediately hell on ice

#along with the whole but you’re special ! you can do it !❤️ pet pet #there are several moments where he is convinced he is going to die and no one takes him seriously #aether has the toxic trait of being overly positive. most complaints from grian ate met with but you can handle it ! you’re stronger ! #you’re special. you were chosen by the universe. no one else is like you. better than other players- #and while it can brush his ego sometimes that’s not important !!!! #hearing an angel call you important can be pretty funky to the brain #anyway it takes awhile for him to learn the enchantment for his eyes so he struggles for a bit #i think all this pressure and harsh treatment turns him into a monster #by that I mean ridiculous. powerful. way too fast flying. he’s quick on his feet. his reaction time #they’re strict when he first joins. but lightens up after his first breakdown. mess with his emotional state a little bit #it’s pretty nice for awhile tbh at that point. stable. #still no autonomy tho 🤷‍♀️ still rules. but better. (their goal)

[potatobugz]

do you think the mess in oshiros hotel is meant to signify that hes been letting his problems pile up until its become too overwhelming to handle.

im thinking about the fact that he's definitely the one who's been making the mess but he doesn't even realize it. he ignores the clutter until it becomes too hard to ignore you know? like when it starts actively blocking the way to the presidential suite. he insists that he and his staff will handle it and that madeline shouldn't clean up his own mess, but he still doesn't do anything about it. does he know that the staff is gone? that it's just him there?

mr oshiro is so hell bent on impressing madeline so that she'll stay in his hotel. he's so in denial of everything. he doesn't even realize he's dead, he still thinks his hotel never got shut down. I think his insistence on her staying is bc he really wants to believe that the hotel is open, and a costumer would affirm that belief. it could also maybe be a mixture of loneliness too. (also, him treating her as a costumer even after she says no is absolutely him being in denial. that man is very unhealthily attached to this hotel,)

and even though it was nice of madeline to clean it up, there's still parts of the hotel she can't fix. the plumbing. the windows. the, hole in the ceiling (oops.) she's not qualified to help him, and that's why I think the chapter ends on a bit of a sour note. madeline is of course not a bad person for wanting to help, the point is that she can't. it is unfortunate but true

anyways mr oshiro is a very good character i like him a regular amount. im normal about that old man

#celeste #celeste game #mr oshiro #oshiro celeste #character analysis #i guess ? #this is my first time making any post like this but i meeded to make it i need 2 talk about hom and his fuckin hotel !!!!!!! #one other thought i have is... i saw a few ppl say that mr oshiro manipulated madeline into cleaning or that he feigned incompetence ? #and i disagree with that. though this might just be me looking at jt w rose tinted glasses bc i do like him a lot #but first of all i dont think he couldve easily cleaned that whole mess himself. i know hes a ghost but like #there was stuff everywhere in the whole hotel. #not to mention he felt guilty when madeline did clean all that stuff up. of course it was also a little bit #because he didnt want to lose her as a customer #but he also obviously felt like that was his responsibility as the owner of the hotel and he felt fuckin bad about it #i could be wrong bc i dont remember everyting he said in that chapter but i dont think he ever asked her to clean either ? #and like yeah i think he can come off a little mean at times tbh #hes obviously going through some stuff. guysm cmon. he is not a bad person. none of these characters are. whevhhwveh #idk. i did my best here. *explodes* #thank you for listening to my insane rambles about peeing in a hot topic i hope u all have a goooood night #rambles #i honestly hope he gets a happy ending somewhat

[timey-fandom-stuff]

"What, playing by the rules wasn't enough for you?"

"In that case... Let's play a new game, just you and me."

"I'm gonna count to ten, and if you're still there..."

"I'll make you disappear. Better get hiding."

'The Kriptid' isn't your standard issue Kris Dreemurr; it's hard to say what they qualify as these days. A few too many tweaks by an over-zealous Deltarune modder have left them irreparably changed. They don't appreciate what 'meddlers' have done to them or their world.

Are they human? Are they a monster? A secret third thing, it seems.

If you're lucky, they'll never be more than a fleeting shadow at the edge of your screen, a flicker of pixels you can't quite identify. To most they're nothing but an elusive urban myth. And to those who dwell within, they're merely a mysterious vagabond with a discomforting sense of humor and an eerily detached disposition... And a notable aversion to being directly observed. Their nickname seems all too apt.

But to those Players who reach a little too deep into the code...

Well, that's a whole other story, now isn't it?

#kris dreemurr #deltarune #deltarune AU #kris deltarune #deltarune kris #my art #Jailbroken AU #Kris the Kriptid #blood tw #face horror tw #horror tw #i mean it's light horror and black blood but y'know. #this is part of a fun little project I've been cooking in the back :) it's a bit like an interactive ARG! and it ALSO has a sideblog! #i'd consider The Kriptid kind of a jokepasta of sorts; they're absolutely creepy at times but mostly more of a meme tbh #you might notice they share the creepy smile motif with all the characters who got messed up by forbidden knowledge tho :) #anyway the duality between this and Dog is so funny to me #one AU is visibly goofy in a very silly cartoon way and the other is a morbid parodypasta with a really dark background HDHDGDG #ANYWAY. shuts myself up and leaves this here #edit: added a readmore because tungle cuts it off so early rip

[homosociallyyours]

...

#idk how to explain it but like. #was talking to my ex earlier and he is falling in love again #and there's a part of me that's sad about it bc it's been so long and i am way too messed up to fall in love again #but the biggest part of me was just immediately filled with genuine joy #i want for him something as good as what we had or better #which is a tall order tbh bc we did have something very good #but i think there's real possibility this time and that makes the little bit of ache ok #I'll be honest-- i have never been able to figure out where i fall in the poly/mono spectrum #but times like these push me toward poly? #bc when i love someone their joy brings me joy even if I'm not the source of it #and i know i might have to push to keep in touch more (hard) but mostly i just want this person i care about #to have the love and support they deserve #ignore that I'm crying rn though im not sad just nostalgic and touch starved and lonely and drowning

[rowenabean]

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#just saw a post that was like 'if you have religious or moral objections that stop you from providing certain types of medical care maybe #you shouldn't work in healthcare' (paraphrased) and... #what a way to look at the world tbh #like. they're talking about me i think - i am a conscientious objector when it comes to euthanasia #(which granted has come up exactly twice and both cases in a theoretical capacity only this is not a frequent request to me) #and... i am also a good doctor #last week i told someone that her weight doesn't matter to her health with receipts to prove it and she cried #no one had ever told her that before #and that was something that came from me specifically. that was something i would not trust all of the GPs in my practice - a practice of #excellent and compassionate GPs! - to say #i am verifiably doing good in my job that is coming from specifically who i am as a person #i cannot put that down when it comes to issues i care deeply about #fundamentally the fact that i cannot put it down is what makes me a good doctor #i think that's what i'm trying to get at #the reason that i do well by my patients is that i practice out of my values and my ethics #if i did not stand on that core i would not stand at all #so you can't have it both ways. you can't have engaged and active and compassionate healthcare providers without sometimes those engaged an #active providers having things they do not feel comfortable doing #and it is to everyone's service if they are up front about it and do not try to hide (i am suspicious of people who try to hide this) #i am literally figuring this all out as i type hence the v long tag ramble and also being nowhere near the post that started this train #(honestly in med school we talked so much about ethics as like. abortion! euthanasia! trans rights! and the ethics in practice is the littl #things. do you apologise when you mess up. how do you manage a consult with your patient with paranoid dementia and her child in the same #room at one time - or one by one bc that's fraught too. (that one's on top i had one of those today.) how do you act with grace when #you're a bit stressed and your patient is a bit stressed and the nurse wants to add five more things to your book. the day to day ethics is #SUCH a bigger thing when you come to actual practice.) #this is obviously entirely about me and leans on the fact that i largely do think i am doing a good job i am really feeling my own way #to a Thought. but i think to a certain extent it is generalisable

[bookiedoodles]

I held off on drawing Yuichi for SO LONG cause I was too scared to draw him…. Now he is my muse. I adore drawing this goofy fur ball

#rottmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #yuichi usagi #rise usagi #usagi yuichi #rottmnt Yuichi #rottmnt usagi #you bet your ass I’m gonna draw leosagi soon #I’m tryna get my usagi a bit more cemented down first tho #he’s just a straight up Child and I love him #he’s a little bratty #sass master #but don’t worry!!!!!!! he’s still an idiot #still the same boy who got a grape stuck in his nose for a whole year 🤗🤗 #I might mess with his outfit cause tbh I’m Not A Fan of what I did #but I’ll have to think on it #also might line and color this;;;;;;; #doodle bug

[dr3amofagame]

Well people have shipped c!tntduo and considering that whole ship is I don't think about you at all from c!quackity side well people have shipped weider for far less also is it really a c!dream ship if there's not even a dash of obsession, possessiveness, and a bit of twisted love

well honestly c!tntduo is kinda canon i just think it's boring (sorry 😅) and most content that i see of it doesn't really appeal to me. c!dreambur and c!awesamdream as ships on their own are well top tier to me and also like, the relationships themselves are EXTREMELY important to c!dream's character so i really don't think it's weird at all to ship either of them i'm like honestly consistently very surprised that people dont ship c!dreambur more but then again everyone acts like c!dream just spawned in after november 16th so,, LMAO.

c!awesambur on the other hand, have like a total interaction count that can probably be counted on one hand and have like no interactions at all after c!wilbur is revived. which is a shame because i think about them interacting LITERALLY on the daily. they should be crazy insane at each other it would fix absolutely nothing and make so many things worse for c!dream specifically but man would it be entertaining as fuck

#my asks !! #c!dreambur and c!awesamdream are really basic ships for c!dream tbh #as long as you're okay with ships that are a little fucked up #but then again hot take: you cant really understand c!dream without letting his ships be a little bit fucked up #he's kinda a mess and that influences interpersonal relationships like a lot #anyway

[guinevereslancelot]

planted all my plants for spring ☺️

#i have had a hydrangea in a pot waiting to go in the ground for ages and some little tiny native trees #i have one thing i forgot to plant and a few things in the mail tho #but mostly everything out of the way before starting my new job so that's good #i did order a whole bunch of roses and tbh im not totally sure where i'm going to put all of them #and then i have 500 christmas trees lol #but that is a problem for tomorrow me 😌 #also i cleared up an bunch of branches from the winter storms and such #so everything looks nice now :) #anyway #startung to get a bit anxious abt monday but not as much as i was for the other job #hopefully this one will be easier <3 #i still have a lot of cleaning and organizing to do at home tho my space is a mess #and i will have no energy once im employed fr lol #also my plan for tonight was to be in bed by 8 to magically fix my sleep schedule which is...not realistic lol #maybe 9 tho idk

[dumb-doll-lips]

Do you still have a daddy?

Yes I do, nothing has changed there. It’s still long distance for now.

Since I’ve been less active on here overall for a little while, other than like w asks, I feel like I kinda have it in my head that posts about me getting fucked will be more popular so I’m more likely to be writing lots when its that, which distance makes it harder for him to be staring in such posts lol

And like while I try to not put much weight on this, times in the past on this blog and my old one I think too, when I’ve talked about him more and like more clearly name dropped his tumblr and stuff in context of being my daddy, I’ve gotten hate mail insulting me. So idk. I def really like talking about him, but haven’t really figured out how I’d like to do that on here the most.

#oh and tbh there is a little bit of layer of not wanting to come off as possessive or whatever #cause I don’t want it to like possibly deter other girls from him #maybe this is a totally made up concern idk #but it’s hot to me so don’t wanna mess it up lol #ask #god I really can’t be short at all today lol

[chibishortdeath]

So much happening in the world and in my personal life at once and I am completely unable to do anything about any of it. I am completely exhausted. I need to move out, but I can’t.

I’ve been stuck with a headache for a few months.

#text post #vent post #tw vent #cw vent #I’d say delete later but I don’t ever actually do that anyway #maybe I should go through vents and delete them Al #tbh I’m starting to realize that maybe never being allowed to do anything and never being taught how to do anything as a kid was neglect #it probably also wasn’t normal that I tried to be the ‘easy kid’ and avoid any perceived trouble as much as physically possible #I usually just sit in the furthest part of the house dissociate and try to immediately appear fine if anyone walks in and sees me #idk maybe I should just make that super self indulgent Simon’s Quest comic since it’ll probably be practically vent art anyway #he’s a little bit too relatable for comfort #and man I didn’t even fight Dracula to end up messed up how lame smh 😔 #I feel like I would just end up feeling guilty that I’m not doing something else more important though #most of the things I can do right now I can’t without guilt that stops me somewhere through #and that includes trying to rest haha yippie :/ #I can’t even draw the blorbo dead about it like it’s past that level of bad #I guess I shouldn’t even suggest doing anything I can’t do too #I don’t even wanna look at my instagram rn I can’t fix any of that either #idk if I should go into any details or not but I literally just can’t change anything #and I know I can’t get better unless I leave but I can’t leave and there’s nowhere to go #even places online are starting to become uninhabitable #we truly live in a time :/ #I’m just typing anything I think of as I think of it #tldr ​I am a terrible person who can’t get better because I’m stuck in a terrible situation and everything sucks basically #i’m exhausted #i feel so trapped #it feels like I have no autonomy or effect on the world at all #ugh I’m not explaining anything correctly enough anyway #I guess supper is almost ready and I should stop ranting at nothing #I’m basically just here to try to make it to 29 at least for the silly Simon game reference haha that is so pathetic

[aflawedfashion]

Some people watched the reboot finale and thought, look at these walking disasters. Clearly they shouldn’t be together.

Meanwhile, I watched the reboot finale and thought, look at these walking disasters. Clearly they are soulmates and belong together.

#i was a little worried the finale might end with them kissing or hooking up and it would be too soon #they’re not ready for that #this drama #this is perfect #exactly what we need #there is nothing you can say to make me not ship this because every bit of the mess only makes me ship it more #tbh i don’t even know what’s popular in this fandom #there’s like four people and a mouse here #i just need a season 2 #i just need enough people to watch this show for that to happen #aff watches reboot #reboot #reboot Hulu #reed and Bree #bree marie jensen #reed sterling #reed x bree

[these-are-the-first-steps]

Ok so like.....*sigh*

So like in the show he basically asks her to marry him and she says yes, and they're both like "Promise? Promise!" but she keeps fucking conveniently remembering and forgetting "the promise to mother" like I know he's intoxicating af and it's hard to hold a thought around this man (I also have a very hard time holding a thought looking at him), but pick a goddamn side and have a backbone about it ffs!! Like you can't waffle on people like this girl!! You literally sat here and engaged yourself to this man and then you go off and do THAT???

I would like to note that so far in the (very drastically different) novel, there is no such promise ever made, and she fucks off to the steppe because she's mad at Ning Yi thinking the whole entire time he had just been cozying up as part of a plot to kill her so leaving bought her time, space, and a power base to fight back and he just eats the misunderstanding like "????? fine, come and kill me when you're ready, at least I'll get to see you again, I am ok with this." which makes a bit more sense tbh.

In a loooot a lot of ways, the tv show is about 1000x more polished than the book, but at least the book has fewer slaps in the face like this. They become a bit more obvious on rewatch, especially after pawing through the novel. (I hope the translator finishes it someday!! They picked it up again this past may after two years of nothing so here's hoping!)

#the rise of phoenixes #spoilers #i needed to talk about some stuff ok #tbh I do like the ning yi of the tv show a LOT more- god bless chen kun #but the book ning yi also has his good points like accepting zhiwei's major choices #in the show it is absolutely not his fault that her mom and brother die- no question bc he tried damn hard to do everything he could #in the book he's got a bit more of the blame because he loses control of his subordinates after showing too much favor to zhiwei #they think he's blinded by her charm and talent and unable to make sound decisions so they act independently without telling him and fuck u #and he accepts that because he lost control of his people that that puts some of the blame on him because he WAS investigating feng hao #just not at zhiwei's expense which is what she thinks has happened- that wasn't the game at all #but he still takes the L with a little bit of dignity and it makes sense for her to get her space and leave #whereas in the show she highkey comes off as a pissbaby after this man wins a whole war on speedrun just to save her #only for her to conveniently remember mommy's promise again and break her engagement and fuck off to the steppe #which leaves him rightly a fucking mess and that was not a good look for her #i really really hope the translator picks the book back up and finishes it #i would love to see how this pans out there as the whole picture even though I know it has a happy ending already #but still!!

[potatobugz]

new flipaclip update messed up like. all of my projects I was working on : )

all my apes. gone

#im being nonchalant about it bc im just thankful my animations r still there but like. 30 #30 animations that are all fucked up #that i gotta manually go in and fix #like at first i checked the app and they were all just . deleted #but then when they got recovered the timing and layers are all messed up aaurrgggh. at least the arts still there but #ugh its gonna be so tedious #iam only a little bit upset tbh. im not super sad ot anything #just. zamn

[hrokkall]

Actually fuck it, contributing to the ‘how does Po3’s body work’ conversation. Ik you said you dont care to explain how he floats around, but I’ve been seeing it as almost like. Yknow how 2 magnets, when facing the same ends, repel each other? It’s kinda like that. Po3 basically repels himself from the floor. He can float higher up, but it’s more difficult for him to do and he can’t do it for as long, and he can float lower if he needs an easier time moving around. And then he just shuts it off to sit down on a surface. I’ve been mentally referring to it as his anti-gravity system for some reason, too. Anyways stairs are a pain in the ass and THAT is why he hates Magnificus /j

I was initially thinking something like that too, but then I kind of realized “that would probably only work in the factory where there would be a magnetic surface to repel himself from” (which is obviously not the case in canon—it makes a trip halfway across the map just to rub Leshy’s defeat in his face, and it’s seen hovering in front of the middle island stones during its finale battle in act 2 as well). Another option is that it’s a jet-propulsion type of thing but seeing as P03 is able to move around more or less silently that’s out of the question. Neither one of these would give the “hover” blue ring visual effect that P03 has.

But with video game logic either one of these could very well be the answer, same goes with just about any other option—if I ever end up writing something on this it’s honestly probably something that will be chalked up to “it’s very advanced/it just kind of works” (the same way that Leshy’s telekinetic speech “just works”, Magnificus’s eyes don’t decay despite being gouged out and locked in a box, and Grimora’s whole haphazard thread-and-needle restitching of heavy body parts is enough to keep them on). Still fun to speculate but my point is I don’t think there would be an actual working real-life equivalent answer for this one like there would for some of its other features </3

#Re: Inbox #scover-va #Cw body horror #Cw eye trauma #<- Oops. #03 Struggling with stairs is hilarious though I’m taking that #Same with the whole levitation thing. I like to imagine it wouldn’t be very tall if it had legs either #Maybe a little taller than Mags but that’s not saying much because he’s like 5'3'' minus the hat #Meanwhile 03 can just hover to the seven foot mark around the other Scrybes. It likes to feel tall (and it also gives it a better view) #I don’t know if that would wear it out though; after a while yes but it’s been doing it so often it probably has already accounted for #-any additional strain and has modified it’s hovering unit accordingly #I’ll be honest I don’t know much about magnetic levitation; I’m basing this on my knowledge of maglev trains #I’d love to write several posts just discussing what’s up physically with the Scrybes but I’ve already talked about that in posts before #I’d just be a little pickier about hand-waving P03 because I’m a computer guy #With Leshy I can just say ''Yeah sure he’s mixotrophic'' despite that not really being possible and I don’t super care that it’s not #But with P03 if I described something wrong my head would be in my hands Immediately so I have to compromise and just be vague about it #So I can vaguely allude to what systems it has but if you asked me to show how they all fit together I would have to either go all out- #-and make a diagram or just Explode. Neither of which I’m going to do tbh #These tags are a mess let’s move on #Thank you for the ask though; I think this was sent a bit back I’ve just been busy the past couple of days

[west-tokyo-incidents]

"We have to defeat Dunstan!"

Garion's eyes slowly blink. He knows this song and dance.

It's like this, every time. If a timeline gets this far without an alteration, this is always where it leads. So few actually stayed on the straight and narrow good vs evil. Which makes sense, humans rarely, if ever, believe in a truly black and white.

He was lounged out on a low concrete wall, the good douji having their gathering in the small courtyard of the abandoned hospital.

He redirected his eyes from them, spinning his cane in his hand boredly. Trickery's parrot voice giggled, and spat out a mockery of them.

It incited anger in the young man who was the master of the Ultimate Good. Garion just kept quiet as his douji heckled Yamato.

"That's enough, Trickery." His voice is sharply stern, "Help me up." The mimic douji snapped his jaws shut, returning to his master's side. Garion holds an arm out and Trickery pulls him to his feet. His bad leg has gone weak, sitting on the hard surface, and he leans heavily on his cane. He knows the others have noticed his change in attitude, and doesn't plan to stick around long.

"Well, you all have fun on your wild goose hunt. I think I'd rather spend my time with more reasonable people." He put on a smile and waved a hand before beginning to walk away.

"It's the only way we can end this crap! Unless you have a better plan!"

Fury shoots through Garion and he has to stop himself, knuckles going white around the snake head of his cane. Trickery flicks his eyes between his master and Yamato. Garion takes a breath, steadying himself. As he turns around, the happy, nonchalant, almost dopey smile is back in his face.

"Oh, no, Mr. Yamato, don't mind me. You have your fun trying to defeat a man who's omnipresent and able to change timelines at will. You enjoy that. I'll simply have no part in it." He waves a hand dismissively. Though he can tell they know something deeper is in his words, he doesn't care. The deviation will soon tear them away from that plan entirely. It's only a matter of time.

He turns to continue down the road leading away from the hospital and back to his car. Trickery is skipping along beside him, giggling, "Dunstan makes you really mad, huh?"

"Yeah..." A sigh, "Yeah, he really does. Let's go check on Vice, hm? I wanna see how close he is to making Paresse snap now." He opens the driver's door and slips in.

"Oooouh, yeah!! Should be any time now." Trickery never opened the passenger door, but is sitting there beside him, phone open and clicking through texts, "The evil douji are meeting tonight, too!'

Garion makes a knowing hum, smiling to himself.

He liked these timelines.

#just a little garion drabble #tbh the more i write him the more im like 'fuck this is just Fussa' LMAOO #tho tbf hes a wee bit more unhinged #just wee bit #okay a lot bit #ress writes #garion dubois #the facility #trickery #talking about Dunstan is one of the few things that'll set Garion off #he is desperate to kill that man and end his tinkering in timelines so they can just deal with the mess that's already there #it's comparable to trying to clean up a messy room #but the kid who caused it is still throwing toys everywhere #except the kid is a grown man #and the mess is billions upon billions of timelines #and the grown man is powerful beyond comprehension