#i feel so trapped

[poppies]

abandonment issues but they're still in my life

#i feel so trapped #✩

[accidentallyatekneecaps]

Guys you ever just wanna run away

Leave and never return

#Cause rn I wanna go far away and never return #I don't wanna kms but I want to just not exist here anymore #In this current place around these people #i feel so trapped #yknow #tw vent

[youllalwaysfindyourwaybackhome]

why is every job in my town either in the care sector (that requires a car which i don't have), a prison, engineering and/or mechanics, or shops/hospitality (which i'm trying to get out of). or like, the army.

#not that there's anything wrong with most of these #they're just not what i want to do #or stuff i cannot do #i feel so trapped

[clownpassing]

yyyuuppppp things are getting weirddddd i had to tell nick not to mention to johnny the price of the stuff i bought him or about the hundreds of dollars i've spent on him idk why like. i just don't want jonathan to know. i think that's what's been killing me bc every time i am having a really bad day in jon and i's relationship(nearly every day now tbf) i try to swallow it because i just need to make it to the 18th without having another breakdown since that's my first therapy appointment. but then like he'll say he's been feeling great and i just for some reason can't bring myself to tell him anything. and i know this will hurt him more in the longterm but i don't know like. i feel like i'm the only person making solid efforts. and him spending all this money on nice things has been making me anxious because yes gift receiving is one of my biggest love languages but it all feels so empty

#txt #op #sorry again i'm waiting on therapy and i hate journaling so in the meantime i post here to a small group of strangers and friends #lawl. lmao. lol. #um. it's getting so bad #but i can't imagine a life without him because i have nobody to move in with. maybe my mom #i would prefer to live w my dad but he turned my old room into an office space so #oh god why am i even talking about this are things really getting to that point #i feel so trapped #i am not happy but i live in a nice home with a dog and a man who really loves me #but i am so deeply unhappy #i kind of want to keel myself these days i'm not gonna lie

[mintidiot]

fuck it *unfibonaccis your sequence*

#help I need to break patterns #I feel so trapped #heellpppppp #shut up laura

[spottedbread]

i am losing my mind over here

#i feel so trapped #mentally and emotionally

[tuliptic]

So. The moon is currently in my 8H.

Not to mention Sun and Saturn, both of them are currently conjuncting my natal Saturn.

Mhmm, yeah, keep the stress coming hee haw

#actually no #i'm pretty done with it dy #i'm feeling that burn out rn and i just want things to end #i feel so trapped #like i'm trapped in a game #like i'm trapped in a box #i gotta eat sleep work repeat #so much pain so upsetting

[former-ly-darth]

How do I get out of retail? It feels like a trap. It feels like once they’ve got their craws on you they pull and pull and pull you down so that you can never escape. How the fuck am I supposed to get out of here? I don’t have time to gain more experience from and unpaid internship. I don’t have time to complete any training for a skill-based job. I want out. I want out. I want out so fucking bad and it feels like there’s absolutely no way out.

#retail #customer service #retail workers #being treated poorly by both the customers and your managers weighs you down real quickly #it can make you lose all motivation in life #I’m searching and searching and searching for jobs #it’s all retail #it’s only retail #I feel so trapped

[eatyourdamnpears]

fuck fuck fuck fuck why do I even try anymore fuck fuck fuck

#clearly not having a great time tonight #I feel so trapped

[bougainvilea]

want to scream

#im at my grandmas house and my uncle is racist and i cant sleep #and the windows dont have blinds and theres light everywhere and i feel anxious as fuck #i am trying to think abt my dnd character but every plot line feels like pulling teeth #even remembering that phrase was hard sjjssjhs #my hesrt rate is high and my family doesn't understand me and i think i miss home #which is so dumb i never miss home #i just want to get away #why does my grandma keep telling everyone i want ro see all the family (i dont) #why do people keep speaking to me in english in front of her its so fucking rude she cant understand a single word! #why cant i find any words to explain how i feel to my family #why am i here i want to rent an airbnv #just so i dont have to see them all the time #i feel so trapped #and i want to cry #maybe ill just do that #aya talks

[rxkuyo]

first mental breakdown of the year ✌🏻 off to a great start

#I feel so trapped #in this house. in this town. in this country. in life in general #I just want out #I don't feel fucking alive aha #dl

[musclegoth]

I need to just. try to reconnect to myself i think. i havent done anything to help my mental health in weeks. i need to chill, watch a movie i like, be alone away from people, take myself out and get boba or something

#im going to try this asap :c #i really feel like cryin again tho :') #i want a better life #i want a better life so bad #i feel so trapped

[unawakening-float07]

i don’t think i’ve ever felt this low or defeated about myself

#i wake up and i’m so uncomfortable in my own skin #i hate my mind #i hate who i am #i feel so trapped

[glitchkoi]

The world is so dark and I feel like an island in an ocean

#i feel so trapped #i wanna die a little bit

[youvebeenlivingfictionalreplies]

.

#personal post #will delete later #whining here because i have no monwy for therapy right now #i'm just feeling so stressed and so tired and so worthless and stupid #like what was the point of sinking myself into literally 100K worth of student debt for this masters if i can't even get a job in the field #like this was supposed to turn shit around for me #and i can't even get entry level positions #like what do i need to fix. what am i doing wrong #i've been applying for two months #before i even finished school #and i'm getting nothing but rejections #i feel so trapped #and i feel dumb for working my ass off in school because it has gotten me nowhere #i just feel like i can't take a breath #like i can't be happy about graduation because i can't find a fucking job #it just feels like the last two years were for nothing #and i don't know what to do #i could be a good if someone just let me get my foot in the door and just gave me a fucking chance #i'm just asking for a chance and i can't get that

[thenerdcommander]

I just found out that my state is trying to pass a bill that bans gender affirming healthcare “at least until age 25″ and makes being trans a felony

I hate it here

#not that I can receive any gender related healthcare in my current situation but the fact that even if I managed to get out on my own #if I remain in the state I can be tried as a felon for doing with my body what I feel will make me happy #or straight up make it so I can't at all for 'at least' 2 more years #I already struggle enough just having to remain in the closet with the hope of getting out so I can get on T but this'll take that hope away #and it's starting to look like moving out of state is getting more and more unobtainable as a goal #I feel so trapped