#it kind of got out of control

[neat-crows]

So I've been re-watching dr who for the first time ever rn, with a friend who's never seen it before, so I'm seeing all these episodes for the first time since I was 13 and picking up on a LOT that I never noticed before, and holy shit the tenth doctor is SO WEIRD to Martha Jones, and nothing exemplifies that more than the sontaran stratagem/the poison sky.... like..... he is SO weird the whole way down.

When they first see each other again their introduction directly mirrors Jack and The Doctor's in Utopia

"Doctor" "martha Jones" laugh and hug

"doctor" "captain Jack" laugh and hug

And then! they have a normal interaction!!! WIN he asks how her family is and how she is, and they're smiling and genuinely seem like friends very happy to see each other!

And then.... donna drops the fiance bomb.

He turns with a look of.... almost anger? disbelief? and asks WHAT MAN?? Then martha explains who he is and the doctor....

he looks? upset? and then like, resigned? AND THEN martha admits that her fiance is kind of similar to the doctor, and then donna asks "Is he skinny?" and his reactions

is to make a face like "yeahh" AND START NODDING????? like he's taken Martha's admission to mean she's with a man that's just like him, and honestly seems a bit smug over it, and then when Martha says no-

he looks so taken off guard and betrayed ??????????? BRO we are less than 5 minutes in..............

He then proceeds to be tetchy with her, and to be fair this is mostly because of her involvement with unit, and his discomfort with how militaristic she's gotten - which I think comes both from anger at himself for how he's changed her, and also discomfort that she's no longer "his" Martha, she's changed, and he doesn't know her as well anymore.

he tells her off, he's snide and judgmental, he won't even look at her until she tells him to, and he's honestly bitchy - Until she explains herself, and tells him off for being so judgmental, i also think his line "oh so it's my fault" is very telling because..... it literally is? like yes, you put her in situations where she had to become harder and more used to violence......... and he KNOWS it. He's doing what he did all through series 3, which is feel guilty or bad and then take it out on Martha (that's for another post though) until she stands up for herself (get his ass!!) and then when she's finished she looks at him

determined, but eyes darting back and forth waiting for his reaction, on some small level hoping for his approval

and only THEN does he start to smile, and he tells her "that sounds more like Martha Jones." she's back to feeling like she's still his (to him, Martha is acting incredibly normal and platonic). The doctor has always had a weird possessiveness with Martha, going all the way back to their first episode where he hand picked her, and in this second of her looking for his approval, he feels that again, and he IMMEDIATELY started flirting again - please go watch the scene it boggles my mind how fast he switches.

I also want to be clear, Martha isn't flirting back, she's acting extremely normally. She's clearly taken the time away from him to get over, not only romantic feelings, but any anger as well. She seems to have come to terms with how she feels with everything that happened, and she loves and cares about him, but she's not naive to his faults - I also don't think she even picks up on him being weird to her in this scene. She's no longer in tune with his every mood swing, she's not here to fix him, or cater to his needs, and so she no longer notices these small moments from him.

AND THEN.... the clone.

He never flirts with the clone. The ONLY time, is the very first time they interact, before he's realized something is wrong.

he calls her over to come with him, and his face is honestly way too close to hers. bro is a menace. but then, maybe 2 minutes later, he immediately clocks that this is not Martha.

he realizes there has to be a spy and only has to consider for half a second before he turns and asks about her family, he's already realized she's acting a little off, and the second she answers he's 100% certain.

and he gets MAD. he tells her Donna went home because she's not like her, she's not "a soldier" clearly a shot at the sontarans, but also another subtle test, the real Martha wouldn't let that slide, and he wouldn't say that to the real Martha. He continues saying Avanti, instead of Allonse-y, which is interesting, because he already knows. He's not doing this to confirm his suspicions, he's doing this as retaliation. To confirm to himself he knows Martha better than this fake, he's toying with her. BUT. He doesn't go to save Martha.

The next episode, the doctor's daughter, he refuses to accept the label of soldier, but Jenny rightfully points out that he strategizes like one And this is one such moment. He knows Martha is a clone, he's mad and upset, he could go save her right away, but he doesn't. He doesn't because it serves him best to allow her to keep shutting down the nuclear launch.

It reminds me a lot of when Cassandra possessed Rose in New Earth, he played a long for a little bit, but that was just to figure out what was happening. He IMMEDIATELY tried to fix it, I just wonder if it was any other companion if he would have done this. If it was Donna would he have left her for so long? even if it was strategic? it's this weird conflict the doctor has now that he's very very protective and a bit possessive, but he also treats her like an equal on the battlefield, and it's a weird... trust? he has in her to take care of herself.

I kind of don't want to call it trust because that sounds too positive, but I don't know another way to phrase it, but it's a forced independence and self sufficiency.

but then, he finally goes to save her

He goes and cradles her face gently, and NOTABLY says "good, still alive" MEANING HE DIDN'T KNOW??? and still left her for that long...

but he holds her gently, and fully ignores the clone. He has his back to her, and then proceeds to taunt her. He tells her he clocked her right away because of the pupil size, thin hair, and he says she smells. but we know this isn't true.

Sure maybe those physical traits are true, but that's not how he figured it out, we saw how he did it, he clocked on because he knows Martha so well, but he can't admit that. He can't admit that he knows her just as much as she knows him, just like he couldn't tell Rose he loved her.

He is so deeply angry at this clone, he makes fun of her, he yells at her, he looks at her likes she's nothing

This is his face when he kills her. He doesn't talk to her, or even TRY to save her. And we know she is alive, she has memories, and her own thoughts and feelings, and the doctor kills her while gloating because of his immense anger for hurting Martha. An anger that is also guilt.

he does not speak to her like a person (which directly leads into his treatment of Jenny in the next ep).

Parallel that to how Martha treats her, they talk about their family and she even calls the clone Martha. She really is a doctor in a way ten tried and often failed at.

And then at the end, Donna asks Martha to come with them, and she says no, and that she's happy at home, but she's better for having traveled and come back.

And the doctor looks at her

With an obvious sadness, but also acceptance. He clearly wants her here, with him, but I think he's finally come to accept that that'll never happen, and he needs to let her go.

Edit: I Like their dynamic(mostly) This is not an anti tenmartha post Him being a freak is compelling

#dr who #doctor who #david tennat #tenth doctor #Martha Jones #10th doctor #the sontaran stratagem #the poison sky #the doctor's daughter #sontarans #unit #donna noble #tenmartha #kind of #long post #it kind of got out of control #didn't realize I had so much to say #sorry #I may have lost my point also but like #I want to make it so clear that martha is acting completely normal here

[whump-in-the-closet]

Villain and Vigilante

i got some writing motivation and bam here you go

cw: used for bait (yet again), major character death, death described in detail, lots of blood, lmk if i missed anything

“Villain!” The name was screamed, ripped out of a sandpaper-rough throat. 

The doors to the warehouse swung open and a swath of light fell onto the recently disturbed dust of the floor. 

Vigilante scanned the warehouse with exhausted, burning eyes. His sword drooped to the floor and then clattered to the stone with a rolling echo. 

He’d found Villain. His stomach churned. 

It took a moment later for his clouded mind to register the glinting weapons. 

Warning signals went off in his mind. 

Its a trap. 

Trap. 

He ignored them all. 

He was already running to Villain, the world tilting underneath him. Tilting and spinning. 

Villain gave a muffled cry, the sound choked by the cloth gag. Chains were looped around his wrists and ankles, keeping him on his knees. 

Villain. 

Vigilante crashed into the stone beside him. There was brown-crimson blood matted into his hair and one eye swollen shut, tear tracks cutting through the dirt on his face. 

“Villain?” Vigilante’s hands were shaking as he grabbed his once-friend’s head, eyes catching on the gash in Villain’s forehead. With a sharp twist, he ripped the gag out of Villain’s mouth.

Villain groaned, trying and failing to get words to form properly, but before anything could be said, Vigilante pulled him close.

Villain stiffened– like the touch was a red-hot poker. Then he relaxed. The embrace was one that promised protection. Safety. An end to the nightmares.  A sob built up in his throat. 

Everything was going to be alright. And then Villain caught a glimpse of a shadow forming behind Vigilante. 

He cried out, panicked, and Vigilante whirled around in time to see the rise and fall of the blade. 

Vigilante crumpled.

The shadow shoved the blade in deeper. It had gone through Vigilante’s throat, blood spurting in violent directions. Most of it was on Villain. 

Villain didn’t scream. He paled to the color of bone, bending over Vigilante and whispering his name over and over again at a frantic, mind-numbing pace. 

The shadow crouched down. Smiled at Villain. With a corpse’s hand, they ripped the blade out of Vigilante’s throat. 

This time, when hot blood splashed Villain, he screamed. Again and again and again. With an open mouth and cracked lips, the screams bleeding out of him. 

Vigilante wheezed, crimson staining his teeth, and went limp. 

Villain stiffened. At first, there was denial. “No, no no no–” 

The shadow laughed. They walked behind Villain and bent over to study the body. With slow, exaggerated movements, they wiped the scarlet-dripping blade on Villain’s shirt collar. The red smeared. “He’s dead-dead. Say your goodbye.” 

A noise crawled out of Villain’s throat. A noise like that of a trapped animal. A creature, howling through the bars of its cage. Inhuman and raw. He doubled over his once-friend’s hollow body, pressing his forehead against Vigilante’s. 

“No, no, no, no–please no–”  

He sobbed. 

Denial first, now nothing. 

There was a void inside him, and it was screaming. 

#you can rip the ‘used for bait’ trope out of my cold dead hangs #hands* #sorry for how dark this got #it kind of got out of control #i am merely a tool for the words #whump writing #whump #whumpblr #villain whump #vigilante whump #villain drabble #whump drabble #cw major character death #villain

[ink-the-artist]

holy shit I did NOT realize how popular my "I will remove my teeth, for I want to remain kind despite my anger" quote is. I just googled it for fun to see what would come up, a bunch of people are quoting it not knowing who its from, an artist called Kuma made an album titled that, so bizzare

#also people are misatributing the quote to kuma and the first google result for the quote attributes it to them #which is kind of upsetting but not a huge deal whatever #its cool it seems to have entered culture like that #i get very mixed feelings about those instances where something I made got WAY more popular than i expected and #people are reposting it or using it without attributing it to me #i both feel bad when stuff isnt credited to me but also good that my art has expanded beyond my reach #its out of my control kind of and other people have it now #which IS what i want for my art and how i generally think art should be #but it is also obviously causes some anxiety to lose control and really full ownership of something that is yours #i think also there is anxiety about something of mine being taken by someone bigger than me #since they can just claim it as their own and most people will know them as the origin #not talking specifically about this quote btw just any of my work #ive definetly been thinking about that hbomberguy vid lol #i hope any of this made sense im a little high rn

[tariah23]

This is such a harmful sentiment to push considering that you don’t necessarily have to be “attractive,” (beauty is subjective, yada yada) in order for men to want to harm you in the slightest… like man, what…

#the lady talks about being followed and harassed and so on as if every woman and girl in the world regardless of their age and #‘good looks’ #hasn’t experienced this and will continue to #I hate when these girls especially ones who are conveniently attractive talk about stuff like this under the guise of speaking for all #women while x-ing out most women #this easily leads into the realm of ‘you’re too ugly/fat to be assaulted ANYWAY-‘ #talk that I see spread by misogynists and bird brained women like it’s such a natural thing to even say it’s actually rly scary #especially when it comes to the assault shit which is usually about power and control anyway #they don’t care what you look like #you could be covered up head to toe and someone would try to hurt you just because #I hate when women like this go online thinking that they said something open their mouths I really do #rambling #tw assault #got dudes in the comments going ‘she’s not even pretty anyway she’s like a 4 out of 10’ #completely missing the message (as if they care) and see #these are the kinds of people that stuff like this attracts #stuff like this coming out of a woman’s mouth especially is so dangerous #I don’t think I’m the most good looking person in the world and I’ve been followed sm times I had to run away from a guy once and luckily #my bus was right fucking there!!! #then the guy who was harassing me years ago at a bus stop and forced me to hug him and touched my butt and no one else was around to help #me… #and he kept on trying to get me to go back to his apartment around the corner like that was so #the man who followed me into the store as I was shopping and I noticed that he kept on staring at me #then tried to holla and he looked way older than me and I think he was a pastor or something too he had a nice car and tried to get me to #come with him #sm more incidents over the years like this is crazy pls don’t say stuff like this and act like it’s normal #someone in the comments said that people like the woman in the video think that being pretty will free them from the patriarchy and like… #YEAH 😭 #it’s so obvious too lmfao #these be the same women calling themselves ‘girls girls’’

[toruq]

brittany and lisa in the ol days (＾▽＾)

#sa brittany #sso brittany #lisa peretson #sso lisa #sso #ssoblr #my art #these kinds of drawing take me SOOO much longer bc I'm not working in one sketch layer #rather a sketch layer #a lineart layer #AND a coloring layer #or two depending #i also have no clue how colors work so i just throw very similar looking ones all in one layer BYE #i worked with a lot of red/orange if u CANNOT TELL. #god i love brittany. #star academy #there’s also no way brittany’s hair ever looked this good girl had it CHOPPED up in layers but i think it’s fun to pretend she had it all #slicked and nice for some shows cuz at the point she got a manager he was tired of her out of control grunge girl look

[fauxbia]

shoves this incomprehensible mess of stupidly complicated lineart at you and runs

#rain world #rw lttm #looks to the moon #rw rivulet #iterator gijinka #faux art #um. um. #so this started because i wasn't feeling good. so i decided to draw gijinka moon for comfort #and then it kind of got a liiiiiittle bit out of control #just a little though #hahah.... um #i love drawing clothing folds <3 i love drawing hair <3 i love drawing silly creatures <3 #i am sorry for the incomprehensible mess this is #this took me forever #but i had #so much fucking fun #passes out #(and yes i did draw each braid myself)

[hephaestuscrew]

Minkowski would be so intense about introducing Eiffel and Hera and Lovelace to any of her loved ones back on Earth. She makes the crew sit through a PowerPoint presentation on suitable topics of conversation to discuss with her mother. She gives Dominik a folder of detailed guidance about how to interact with Hera because he's never met an AI before. She asks Eiffel several days beforehand if he has decided what he's going to wear to meet her family, as though Eiffel has ever in his life put thought into an outfit more than 30 seconds before getting dressed.

She tries to control every parameter of the interaction in a way that actually makes it more uncomfortable for everyone involved. She spends the entire time sitting right on the edge of her chair, looking anxiously between each of these people she cares about, trying to tell whether they are getting on, and attempting to communicate with them individually through urgent expressions.

And of course it doesn't work. Eiffel puts his foot in his mouth. Dominik is confused and curious about all the wrong things. Minkowski dares to leave the room for a few minutes and when she comes back, her mother is showing the crew her baby photos, and Minkowski knows she'll never live this down.

#wolf 359 #w359 #renee minkowski #renée minkowski #That last bit was inspired by a conversation with @commsroom #She said Minkowski's mom should tell the crew a charming anecdote from Minkowski's childhood #that Minkowski finds intensely embarrassing #and I agree #Also thinking about how intense Minkowski would be about this is funnier #if you share my idea that Minkowski's family is generally more chilled out than she is #Like I don't imagine her mother to be the kind of person you'd need a briefing to interact with successfully #but Minkowski is giving that briefing anyway #She'd just be very freaked out about the colliding of worlds I think #Eiffel and Hera and Lovelace are so so important to her #but she's also known them in this very particular context #in which the parameters of her life were fixed and limited #and she could (mostly) control what they knew about her #When they are back on Earth #they've got to work out how to be important to each other in a very different context #They have to work out how they relate to each other in this wider world #which includes Minkowski's husband and family and friends #(and Lovelace's loved ones. and Eiffel's. such as they are) #And I don't think that will be an easy process #but I think it will add an important new dimension to their closeness #the empty man posteth

[marimayscarlett]

Quick question, have we figured out why Richard is so damn ATTRACTIVE??? Like he was so fine during the Mutter and MiG Era but he's even better now??? Sir I have questions!!!! What is it about you that's so addictive??? And that belly??? A MASTERPIECE!!!! He needs to pay for my rehab I'm dying over him at this point lmao

Hi hello how did you get into my head and write down exactly what I think about daily?? Because I'm still so fascinated regarding how he changed over the years, while remaining so enticing and attractive, always reinventing himself a bit, experimenting with different looks and styles while maintaining his overall vibe and aesthetic 😌 This of course includes his physique and wonderful chunkiness, but I'll shamelessly use this ask to venture out in earlier decades, to appreciate this man in all his glory 😩 (I hope that's alright with you)

Let's take a tiny look at Mr. Richard Z. Kruspe over the years, just to process this delicious evolution of his:

Very early on we had a lean Richard with the dreads, for some a no-go, for others quite a charming look (i know exactly i'm not the only one who's down for dreadlock Richard 👀), picture from ca. 1993:

In the beginning of Rammstein, we have some brown and blond haired, somewhat muscly Richard (ca. 1995/1996):

Then of course the ethereal look of Live aus Berlin (recorded in 1998) and his general style during the Sehnsucht era (Viva interview from 1997):

Moving on to the Mutter era, the first time his iconic spiky black hair was introduced to the world (picture from 2001 in Tallinn, gif from 2001 at the Velodrom Berlin):

He maintained a similar style and physique (very much toned and gym-trained I guess) or a while, for example during Völkerball (recorded in 2005):

or in various music videos, such as "Mein Teil" (2004) and "Benzin" (2005, albeit with some very much 2000s eyebrows):

In 2009 while LIFAD was released and during the LIFAD tour, he shortly ventured into another hair style (I won't comment, it was.. something, picture of 2009), then again back to the spiky style and tried out the mohawk (picture from 2012 I think), while parts of his typical stage outfit were born plus he's rather muscly here too:

During the festival tour 2016/2017 you can slowly see him becoming a bit broader/meatier in his physique, which I find just absolutely wonderful, plus some combacks like his spiky hair (gifs from an interview in 2018):

And slowly but surely we arrive in the current time and Richard's current style and physique: vampire coat, chicken coat, meaty and chunky Richard in all his glory:

All in all I have to say: It's so interesting to see how he changed and still stayed true to himself and his aesthetic, to his enthusiastic and genuine self while continously trying out new styles. And this includes his physique!! His appearance of course changed over the span of 30 years, that's aging for you. Of course he put on some weight - but that doesn't negate the fact that someone can be unbelievably attractive. And yes, I wholeheartedly agree, his belly now is a master piece, forged by the heavens, a gift from god, just perfection 💖

#WOW ok this took a long time to answer sorry I kind of lost track looking at.. him #this got way out of hand AGAIN #why do i have zero control over me when it comes to answering asks idk why I always go so overboard regarding richard #i'm so sorry for everyone who has to witness this obsession of mine #i promise you i'm kind of normal still #thank you for this ask!! #rammstein #richard kruspe #rzk

[proudfreakmetarusonniku]

like i see people say stuff like “rei is a deconstruction of the idea of like the perfect girl in a male gaze-y way” and and i'm ready to agree until they go “it’s because she’s creepy and weird and bad!” like no. rei's a deconstruction of misogynistic ideas of womanhood because they’re ideals forced upon her that damage her, not because she’s in any way “creepy”. like, the fact she’s a fourteen year old girl who was basically used as a substitute wife by her father bc she looked like his own dead wife is not something that is meant to make rei look bad like holy shit.

like both rei and asuka are very obviously like. showing fantasised and misogynistic ideas of an idealised woman don’t work irl yeah. shinji's misogynistic view of them is wrong. but that’s not because rei and asuka are bad people it’s because like. “fourteen year old who's flirty and seductive” and “fourteen year old who's a quiet obedient object” are major signs of abuse and trauma and anyone actually acting in those ways at that age clearly isn’t normal. asuka is desperate for attention in any way she can get it, even unhealthy and dangerous ways. rei is at the very least I has a weird pseudo-incestous enmeshment filled abusive relationship with her father, even if she's not actively being sexually abused. asuka is seeking support, rei is a grooming victim. these are not things that are flaws in their character the entire point of subverting the expectations is to show how those expectations are unhealthy to rei and asuka like. god.

#like. negative fucking media literacy. #like. rei and asuka show signs of abuse in ways very normal for teenagers #every one of the Children in Evangelion is a victim and they react in messy ways #the point of that isn’t to show that they themselves are bad. it’s to show how trauma fucks you up #like none of them are bad people! they do fucked up shit bc it’s normalised to them! #people will just centre rei and asuka’s trauma around shinji and then call the show misogynistic for that like. #woah pal. there’s issues in the show yeah but i think that’s more an issue on your end buckaroo. #like their trauma interacts with him. and his trauma interacts with them. bc the show is literally about human's influences on each other #like the human instrumentality project isn’t there to just be funny it’s a thematic conclusion??? #and also like. it’s comparing and contrasting all threes trauma to understand exactly how they got shaped the way they are. #just. think about the show you’re watching. please. #rei isn’t creepy she’s a schizophrenic abuse victim who's probably done the least screwed up shit out of the main cast #shinji isn’t a loser he's a heavily mentally ill young boy cracking under the pressure of toxic masculinity and having his boundaries erode #until he's unable to even respect the boundaries of others and recreates his trauma for a desperate attempt at control #asuka isn’t like. okay i mean she IS a bitch but literally so is every thirteen year old ok. #and it’s bc she fucking despises the vulnerability being kind shows. she despises herself and is overcompensating bc she’s scared and 13 #like. god.

[thunderheadfred]

partner is going through old photos and sent me this one of him at 18

he is 33 and has not aged. not one day. this is not a joke. I'm going to get arrested???

I am 36 and married to a Goofy Teen Boy. He has a masters degree and teaches teenagers who try to emasculate him all damn day and it doesn't matter because he does not fucking care?? lmao try again losers? he likes Gilbert and Sullivan and fixing typewriters and dressing up like a church-going senior citizen every day and his softness is The Whole Point

when we go to our prenatal appointments together the nurses are always looking him up and down before asking, "...and who is this?"

as if he's my fucking nephew or something

when actually this tween-looking megadork impregnated a six-foot tall giantess Viking woman on like, the first try

#bride of fred #my fucking SPOUSE #tmi maybe? idk spoilers but we fucked and that's how I got pregnant weird I know #yes I can and do carry him princess style because he deserves it #I swear to god when he had his wisdom teeth out as an adult man in his 30s the dental assistant mistook me for his MOM #she didn't SAY IT but I could just TELL #he is THREE. YEARS YOUNGER THAN ME #that's IT #me: ages fairly normally I think I look fine #him: some kind of time lord and/or robot controlled by aliens playing the Sims #at least he'll never die and our children will never be lonely I guess

[spotsupstuff]

when the General System Bus is General System Busing. RW becoming a true Pixel Game. what happens when an Iterator catches a cold. we fuckIN LOST SUNNY IN THERE OUR SON EVAPORATED

aka me n shkiki played RW together, it was a wild ass ride

#Spot says stuff #rw #i suggested we should play as lilypad n then i proceeded to call shkik wife honey and other pet names for like 90% of time #naturally i was NSH and shkik was Moon and Sunny showed up out of nowhere (early) after a white lizard merc'd me in industrial #some kind of husband codin turned on in my brain cuz i killed like. five daddy long legs to ensure Safety of the other two i never killed- #-a daddy long legs before that LKVJDSMVLSKD once was when shkik was afk n i was meant to ferry the fam to the next shelter #that was So stressful cuz i had to figure out her controls collect Suns and then collect Her and then QUICKLY get outta there cuz a daddy- #-was like five cm from catchin our ass. then it didnt wanna leave from where we needed to go so i just. killed it. cuz apparently thats an- #-easy feat JLSKDMCSKLD im always so proud when i manage to clutch a clean save like that #oh! this was my first time goin thru Pebs the intended way as well!! so i properly got to experience unfortunate development. somehow i- #-managed to get thru on my second try. we were both very surprised. i blame artis bomb jump n shkiks guidance #and when we finally (both alive this time) managed to get to Pebs we realized we lost Suns somewhere along the way and like. they were just #-fuckin Gone couldnt find them for like 20 mins so we will be makin the journey again next time. we aint losin Sunny when their personality #-is that of a coward its too funny to lose that. either way praises to shkik for solving our memory crypts food crisis #we really hope to find a Pebbles soon so we can have the whole fam n panic twice as much. i gotta father those scrubs. so i shall.

[hwiyoungies]

wonu telling a fan not to worry after they got mobbed in the airport and that it's not carats' fault but rather his condition fault has me fucking fuming like no my man!!! that is indeed their fault they fucking Know that crowded and loud places give him anxiety and what do they do? crowd them in the airport the most fucking stressful place possible. i love that this man is kind but these people need to back off and learn some manners for once

#''no worries it's ok 🥰'' no it's not!!!! just because someone is famous doesn't mean they deserve this kind of shit!!! #you're not entitled to someone's time or space or attention just because you watch them!!! #fucking hell man i know they won't say anything either because they don't wanna hurt carats' feelings #(and the possible backlash from the gp for calling out their fanbase but that's another thing) #but they need to hurt carats' feelings because they're out of fucking control #carats 😒(derogatory) #is it worth it you got a shitty airport pic and you made them feel like shit is it worth it #b.txt

[vulturevanity]

I feel like SV girlies haven't seriously considered "codependent mutually obsessive JuliNemo" yet and that's a shame, really. I've seen a lot of wholesome ChampionRank (really cute but a rehash of every wholesome yuri I've ever seen, not much original content here and that's okay) and one-sided obsessive yandere!Nemona ChampionRank (REALLY do not like the villainization of Nemona's neurodivergence but eh, you can do whatever you want forever) but not as much "these two get on like a house on fire. and boy, it's dry season" ChampionRank.

Where is "battle-hungry socially starved trainwrecks who have no one but each other" JuliNemo. Where is "oh god these two exacerbate each others issues into the stratosphere and this can only end in disaster but I can't look away" JuliNemo. Where is "bringing out the worst in each other and scaring the hoes" JuliNemo. Where is "you two are perfect for each other. Never change, just never involve anyone else in any of this" JuliNemo. There's so much potential here. Toxic codependent yuri save me

#pokémon #pokemon sv #championrankshipping #julinemo #babbles #my juliana is such a mess #she does not make friends easily and can't keep relationships for long at all #whenever someone enters her life she aants to make the best impression so she lovebombs them incessantly #and that either comes across as too much too fast or causes people to get too attached. #but she's young. she is very young. and the people who bothered to match her energy had ulterior motives #so now she's too afraid of getting too close to someone #she'll act the part but never show her true self #and at the slightest hint of genuine connection she'll RUN. #this of course clashes horribly with Nemona's own overbearing personality and loneliness #you know how she wants you to be her ideal rival. and you end up becoming exactly that. #yeah to my Juliana this was kind of a nightmare because. as much as this toed her boundaries #she isn't so inept as to not recognize a bit of herself in Nemona. so she decided to ride this out and appease her #and UH OH! she got attached. fear and need for control and validation from feeling wanted mixed in her head #and she started matching Nemona's energy and the two jumped into dating too fast and oops. they're codependent now #they literally can't handle being away from each other for more than two days or they start going feral #i wish i had the energy to write this one because i'm fascinated by this horrible dynamic. i want to study them in a rat maze #edit: i feel like i should clarify that this interpretation relies on Florian existing and being the one to help Penny and Arven #Florian isn't without his issues. he's a huge people pleaser too. but he's more of a doormat who can't say no

[lesbiradshaw]

if theo and liam weren’t supposed to end up together then what was up with that shot of theo (former murderer who claims to care about no one) appearing behind liam in the cracked, blood-spattered mirror right as he was considering killing someone just to talk him down.

#again liams greatest fear definitely has to do with losing total control/hurting people (‘angry kids hurt others or themselves’) #so him coming that close to hurting gabe . like even if he wouldnt have actually DONE it #theo being the one to come and pull him back by pretending he doesn’t care when if he actually didnt he wouldnt have followed him #what kind of evil gay guardian angel bullshit #the framing of that scene is actually so crazy when it shifts from liam with his fangs out to focusing on the blood & then his regular face #but like the way theo just. popped up behind him and came into focus as liam got more and more hysterical #jeff davis… i know what they were supposed to be #thiam #teen wolf #6.17 werewolves of london

[slugandthorn]

The coolest gender thing in the 2009 Japanese video game persona 3 100% how hard they coded shinjiro as the dead mom

#.txt #i got soooo mad in the car driving home thinking about how his drug addiction is essentially the classic anime heart condition. #in that the only side effect of the suppressants is that they will kill him. like? #i realized for the longest time i had assumed the chest pain and sweating came from the drugs but thats. castor. obviously. #it doesnt affect his mood or his awareness its like a mood stabilizer pain relief pill? #its so odd that hes framed as like. being addicted to illegal street drugs. BY THE NARRATIVE. #when its more like hes on the most insane experimental medication that they wont even test on like. rats. #also im not fact checking any of this before posting. so i might be lying about things. #idk if it was all of strega that had trouble controlling their personas but like. chidori was because of the Experimentation. #and shinjis just like. mentally ill coded. in a bad way 😭 #The inability to regulate a mood/stimuli to the point where he can be unsafe to himself or others. #broad ass symptom of disorders that are not treated well. its also interesting that its not brought on by a specific event. #like the childhood fire is there. but you have akihiko right there to directly compare it to. and hes arguably more effected by it all. #and he seems to be coping well 10+ years on like some coping mechanisms are kind of weird (protein) but nothing super out of the ordinary. #so the problem is really the october 4th incident which was just a pure honest to god accident. #the fact that it gets covered up as a car accident does feel like the best like. emotional equivalent. #because it being shinji being unable to control his persona his true representation of himself and it resulting in death is sooooo bleak #and it weighs on him for 2+ years of being suicidal and unhoused until finally he goes through with his suicide by martyrdom. #i lost the plot a little bit on the gender situation with the vague allusions to fraility when story convenient #acting as dorm den mother and cooking and sewing long hair jacket sillhouette reading like a dress #was referring to that before mental illness took over. woman under the influencing this anime boy. #long way of saying i think he should have a over the shoulder ponytail when hes older. and he should have a mood disorder.

[pepprs]

mutuals.

#purrs #chicago #i’ll tell you about it later god willing but today has been transcendent. and tonight is going to be transcendent. i am about to have an #experience. i want to talk about it so loud i mean i already have on here but i don’t want to jinx it until im back in the hotel safely #after it’s over. but im HERE. i made it here. i did this. i got myself here. ive been looking forward to this moment for months and almost #let myself get scared out of it but i didn’t and im here. and im going to be shattered into a million pieces but / and it’s goingto be #beautiful. my heart is pounding. im here im here im here #i am brave. i am strong. i am capable and competent. i am powerful. i am kind to myself. i know what’s best for me. i am afraid but i don’t #let the fear control me. i had the strength to do that all along and i just didn’t know it. today is the first day of my life i chose #completely for myself. it’s beyond time. 🥹💖💖💖💖💖