#it just feels like it's also an ND thing

[existennialmemes]

I'm sorry, my metaphor has gotten away from me, and if I don't go catch it, it will wreak havoc on the local ecosystem. Leaving a trail of disjointed references and unrelated anecdotes all throughout your dialogue options.

#shitpost #shitposting #linguistics #language memes #neurodivergent #neurodivergent memes #this is not exclusively an ND thing #it just feels like it's also an ND thing

[caruliaa]

staff still hasn't given me polls, what should i do?

🟪🟪🟪🟪🟪🟪🟪🟪🟪🟪 their moms 69%

🟪🟪🟪🟪🟪🟪🟪 their dads 31%

grace image os i get to look at her

#edit: edited the og post to what i want but to set the record straight i edited to the post to be mathematically correct right after the #first person pointed it out which was like ten mins after i posted the og post. now fuck offf !!!!! the rest of the tags r from the og post #for some reason i feel very immature making your mom jokes about tumblr staff. which i shldnt !! #bc they suck nd they still havent given me polls. but i ig i feel imature bc it a your mom joke 😭 but still i tihnk its kinda funny #EDIT: edited the post to what i want bc yall were getting annoying . but to set the record straight i edited to post to be mathematically #also its *mum* not mom okay i am NOT !! an american . but if i say mum everyone will j be like 'omg british' like i dont know i am #anyway. i want polls please. give me the rigght to force my mutuals chose between the most inane things #also i tihnk it wld b cool for the cs weekly blog. like w each episode #i cld do a poll of like. out of five stars what do u think of this ep #and it wld b a cool thing of which eps r ppls faves #also i cld have like. whose ur fave in team red whos ur fave in acme etc #id prob just have to go with vile faculty bc theres more than 10 ppl in vile. and ppl wld kill me if i didnt include nel the ell or whoever #it wld b fun !!! #oh btw csweekly thats i thing i want to start. prob on uhhh the 11th of feb ill post abt it more but its basically #a tag/blog for watching cs one ep a time watching one ep every saturday #ya !! :3 #flappy rambles #inaccessible #ask to tag #(<- idk. just in case)

[nevarroes]

can i be honest i never understood artists getting so mad or hurt about breaking mutuals or whatevr. like unfollowing without soft blocking or actually blocking

#its always giving insta mentality to me #not artist insta private one w the “im not ur fan remove me” #most mutual follows happen because i liked someones art nd they liked mine why does it matter so much if one party stops #like maybe smth u draw just makes me uncomfortable. maybe i just dont fw ur current fandom why do we make it SO personal #u couldnt pay me to care that much unless we actually were friends nd talked before and not just mutuals #im not saying that u cant feel hurt about unreasonable things right but the fact that this is the default idk…. idk dawg #maybe someone just doesnt like the art anymore im sorry why do u always assume its max level malicious #i also say artists specifically because i feel like that? should not just be about the person? #if someone doesnt like my art anymore (without straight up hating ME) I still like theirs like why r u guys always so petty

[shibuiking]

#might fix up nd colour some of these idk #oc: pallarex #oc: mu-15 #to clarify they are not romantically a Thing they just share a warriors bond. i have rich fiction in my mind for them #also finally decided on a chapter fr rex yayy and everything worked out perfectly #tagging 40k oc stuff feels like a nightmare ig im sorry if ur seeing all my shit constantly #space marine #skitarii #holding a cake that says 'sorry i make all my ocs cannibals. it will continue to happen' #oc

[notpercieved]

Why are people SURPRISED that Alhaitham is nice???

He IS nice, yes hes cold but not intentionally, thats just how he is but he doesnt mean it in a terrible way

He doesnt flaunt any form of superiority over someone since he even says that he personally doesnt value himself more than others, rather hes stating facts that comes o f f as being cocky when hes just saying what IS correct, hes blunt till the point where people often consider it as rude and arrogant but he sees it as something that is normal because thats literally how he is

Yes, being blunt isnt always a good thing and people should know when to say the truth, not lie but postpone it, but theres also a consideration that not everyone is able to always know social cues and multiple (including myself) struggle to pick them up often, and of course it comes with consequences just like how Alhaitham is heavily disliked by some of the professors or even other students for his "unacceptable" attitude

His entire SQ is also about how he doesnt care how others perceive him but puts his foot down when it endangers others even when he doesnt even know who they are and all he wants is just a simple life

Hes not mean nor a terrible person, hes actually a nice person

Just because someone DOESN'T fall into the *common* character type of being a happy go lucky, always cheerful and smiling person doesnt automatically make them mean

#rant #ramble #genshin impact #alhaitham #if you disagree then argue with the wall im not fighting you about this #sometimes i see how people hc certain characters and it gives me mental damage #esp the part where hes seen as rude and arrogant just because hes speaking his mind and not picking up social cues #maybe its because im also ND and i relate heavily in that aspect but still #word vomit #theres so many things i wanna point out about him but this is a long ass text and i dont feel like adding more into this mess of a text so #whatever lol

[shevr]

i havnt drawn anything in forever sorry i'd been mostly unemployed & feeling empty but things are changing because now i am employed and filled with dread ( i still will not draw anything )

#tbh i think i still feel mostly empty but now there's a dread glazing on it #like you know when those fancy pastry chefs fo the thing where they pour chocolate or w/e on a ballon a #nd pop it when it has dried #so ur left with the shape of it and the evocation of what maybe was once there but also maybe it was just air #that's it that's me #shevr

[silenthillbunni]

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#no to be mean but sometimes i just dont have the energy to make myself like reply to ppl nd try to interact #continiously ppl block me bc i dont reply fast enough or etc etc #nd it's just like damn i tried just to get blocked???? 🥴🥴🥴 #also funny thing in my experience it's mostly girl mutuals who lose patience nd block me #hmmm inchresting 🧐 #anyway im wording this clumsily but like im just so exhausted nd my heart's tired #im tired of building some sort of light online attachment to someone #just to feel crushed when i notice they've blocked me nd i dont even know why??? #also wanna be clear that im referring to ppl i've talked to. not just interactions. sksks 🥴 #i know not everyone will block me nd i know there r nice ppl here but like i dont have the energy to sort thru it all #or take chances bc im tired 😭😭 #i feel bad bc there r ofc very kind ppl who reach out to me nd stuff but in my bones im dejected #like what if i actually do start talking nd i start feeling affinity to u nd slight healthy attachment nd then boom one day u block me??? #i feel mean nd oversensitive complaining abt this but idk 😣 #i liked this mutual nd talking to them but they blocked me nd idk whyyyy what did i do i always do smth y'all gotta fill out a form telling #maybe if i had irl friends i wouldnt care tho im aware im a loser

[girlwithfish]

my day today

#consumerism did not make me feel that good bc i was stressed abt buying things bc ik its not a good habit and not the most responsible #but yay my little things . #im gonna journal tmrw w all my stickers n such #also that drink was 11 fuckin dollars idk the prices werent on the menu nd it was under like customer favorites #it was just a coffee boba drink w 2 espresso shots and pearls😭😭 #it was good but the 11$ was crazy #i shld have said nvm when they told me the cost lmao

[ohara-n-brown]

Honestly if someone tells you their support needs level and your response is 'No you're wrong'....

#we are the only community that allows this to happen #like it will never ever be any of your business or right to do that #'this is the support I require to love' - 'no you don't. you'd be fine' NOT COOL #also have yet to hear a point on how a circular spectrum can be divided in three or any of the other points I made #other than ppl be like '....no' #I wonder why the community is so divided #literally why I don't subscribe or 'share' whatever 'support needs level I am' #Cause even if I did In sure someone would be like 'okay but do you really need that? does someone really do those things for you' #don't at me over this tbh #neurodivergent #actually autistic #audhd #autism #neurodivergency #neurodiversity #actually audhd #actually autism #ro rants #honestly that's why I feel like most online autistic spaces are just.. not at all helpful imo #online nd spaces are so much more welcoming and like.. don't judge you based on a profile on the internet

[roachemoji]

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#bo posting #vent #im self isolating #but i think i want to be alone #but i also dont #but the kind of company i want i cant have #intrusive thoughts about ny relationships are getting overwhelmingly #in too afraid to ask for anything #feels like if i do ill make things worse somehow #like im being a bad or inconsiderate person #but not avoiding things also makes me bad and inconsiderate #that im being a coward and should just deal with whatever outcome. even ifvits negative and nothing changes or gets done #and if i upset people it is my fault. and avoiding it is only prolonging that. ill upset someone no matter what i do #i just dont feel safe being a person with needs and emotions that affect others #that feels like it sounds sarcastic but im anxious and sad nd i dont understand how to help myself or what to do #and thrn we come full circle to why i cant ask for help

[valenthario]

feeling sooo stuck with my content rn🤪🤪‼️

#txt #i started this blog with lotsa cas & now im posting jimmy nd darlin and i love them dearly #bUt #im a gameplayer im not a cas person im def not a builder;; #& yes the duttons ARE a gameplay. series ? but theres truly almost no gameplay in ts4 #and i do want to include some story elements i wanted to work on darlins character bio today #but it feels so unnatural and foreign to me #partly in a new and exciting way bc yeah!!!! trying new things!!!! wooo!!!! #(thats why i started this legacy in the first place) #but also. coming back to ts3 after 5 months it really put into perspective how lackluster the gameplay in ts4 is to me #dont get me wrong i used to love it i used to have multiple legacies i got to gen 6 with #which is a big accomplishment to me #& i used to have so many fleshed out sims just by the magic of playing with them and my silly little brain #but. i feel like im putting too much pressure on myself with jimmy bc he means so much to me i want him to be the best sim ive ever played #and to be distinct and like a. uuum. primary figure on my blog lmao #like when u think of me u think of jimmy even years down the line. or whatever #but thats so much pressure and GAHHGHH #the urge to post filler content from the duttons up until the point i figure myself tf out is real but also. #i dont wanna do that i dont want jimmy to be filler #-___-augh god #if you actually read this all have a tulip 🌷 . ily. some advice or words of wisdom or reassurance would be greatly appreciated

[heartslobbf]

been having nimona thoughts for the past week or so since i watched the movie, just kind of reflecting on nd stevenson’s wider body of work and development as an artist and mulling over his statements about the movie having a more explicitly happy ending than the comic. and i think it’s so interesting and beautiful in a way that just makes me so fucking happy. like, nimona the movie is so nice. it is softer and warmer than the comic, rounding its edges (but not completely sanding them away) to turn into a kids movie, and what a kids movie it is! nimona the comic is cruel and gritty and complicated in much more uncomfortable ways than the movie, and its ending is so profoundly bittersweet and hopeful and just. deeply deeply meaningful to me. and then the movie’s like hey :) what if nimona saw ballister for who he was :) a friend :) and im like WAHHHHHHH. it’s so nice :’)

also just think it’s neat that goldenheart are overall a much happier, more stable couple in the movie, because whilst i personally prefer analysing crazy gay bitches (utena fan), watching gay people get to be gay in nice and fun ways is like :) like what’s a mainstream animated film with a gay protagonist who starts the film in a relationship and has that relationship be a central plot point throughout? and also they kiss and are in love at the end? it’s a big deal!!!! it’s awesome to see!! it made me incredibly happy !!!!! god fucking bless

#gay people :) #ok now im done. thoughts unloaded #i was thinking about this sm bc obviously i was getting distressed about comic v movie discourse #like both are good they’re very different and have some core similarities but also don’t #if there’s any major thing to gleam from them i think it’s like. look at how nd feels able to allow this happier ending now #*GLEAN #especially when thinking about how he originally wanted to end the comic #it’s just like. gah. i love you art developing alongside the artist i love you hope i love you choosing happiness #good good good stuff. yes :) #shut up daisy

[just-an-enby-lemon]

Cluemaster: Hey, bro, I know I never call...

Kiteman: You did drunk call me that one time.

Cluemaster: I already said I was sorry for spreading around that you were in love with your kite and calling you to brag about it. As you said I was hella drunk and angry your weird ass podcast somehow now has the same level of fans as my old gameshow. Who the fuck cares that much about kites? Or C list vilany?

Kiteman: Did you just call to remind me why I hate you?

Cluemaster: Of course not, Chucky boy, your my favorite lil bro.

Kiteman: Arthur... I'm your only brother.

Cluemaster: Yeah? You're still my favorite.

Kiteman: Okay. Fine. What do you want?

Cluemaster: You're good with kids right?

Kiteman: Oh do you want me to babysit little Steph? I haven't see her since she was a baby! That'll be soo much fun!

Cluemaster: Oh, no, no. She is too old for a babysitter. I kindda called 'cause I need your advice.

Kiteman: Sure. Go on.

Cluemaster: How would you stop a prank war between your teen daugther and your bussiness partner that happens to be living at your house?

Kiteman: Woah. Define prank war?

Cluemaster: Like they just being annoying with each other... like non-stop Shrek music and painting one of her walls green?

Kiteman: Are you working with a child, Artie?

Cluemaster: No. Childrem are not really good at puzzle robberies.

Kiteman: So who the hell is in a prank war with your fourteen year old daugther? Is it that Polka Dot weirdo?

Cluemaster: ... Riddler.

Kiteman: Be honest, Arthur.

Cluemaster: I am!

Kiteman: Why the fuck would he work with you? Didn't he like was brought on to one of your trials and tried to sue you for being a copycat?

Cluemaster: No idea. I don't really remember all my trials.

Kiteman: Fair. Still isn't he like an actual treat? Like Batman actually tries to be always involved in his crimes instead of just sending a Robin or a cop kindda treat? Or hangs out with Cooblepot and Harley Quinn and fucking Catwoman and even Scarecrow and Joker kindda treat?

Cluemaster: Yes, so what?

Kiteman: He is waaay above your league. How the fuck do you got him to work with you?

Cluemaster: He is working for me because he recognizes my genius.

Kiteman: *sarcasm* Yeah, sure. At least it explains why I've been hearing that your plans don't totally suck anymore.

Cluemaster: Will you help me or not?

Kiteman: Anything for little Steph. But seriusly bro, the guy is a mentally instable killer, he is real Arkham loonie, A-lister and all this shit are you sure is safe to have him living with you? Specially if he and Stephanie are fighting!? She is just a kid! What if this prank war thing escalates and next thing she is in saw type death trap or something?

Cluemaster: Well than help me not to! I can't just kick him out, do you know how much I've been proffiting later?

Kiteman: And also he is an instable killer that used to hate you and wouldn't react well to being kicked out?

Cluemaster: Yeah, this too. Look I think you're overestimating the guy. He is smart and all and he can take a punch but I could take him out real easy in a one on one. He screamed like a little girl when he found a roach in the kitchem. I think I'll be fine.

Kiteman: Sure, you do you.... Maybe.... you could just.... help them find something they have in common? A TV show they like or something. It used yo work with us. They will bond over the thing and forget they hate each other for a bit.

Cluemaster: See was it that hard to help me?

*Chuck hangs up*

[Three months later]

Cluemaster: Chuck! I need help!

Kiteman: Can you call in another time? I'm bowlling with the guys, Calendar Man and Condiment King cannot win a second time, one weird rap about their love conquering all was ENOUGHT.

Cluemaster: Is about the whole prank war between Nygma and Stephanie thing.

Kiteman: Oh. So I guess my advice didn't work.

Cluemaster: No, no, it did. It worked way to well actually.

Kiteman: *worried* That sounds bad.

Cluemaster: Yeah... it happened that the thing they had in common was that they really hate me.

#this might be the start of a brown family au #because i have a lot of feelings about them #for me kiteman is actually a pretty chill down to earth guy besides the whole kite crimes thing #and instead of the tragic backstory were his kid died in the dumbest riddler plan ever #he just always wanted to have a family but he is too akward and has some nd coding and didn't had the chance yet #so he wants to bond with steph because she is his niece and all #but he and arthur don't have a good or stable relationship and he haven't been there for steph and she doesn't even know about him #so he is just afraid of talking to her #he and arthur started fighting because their parents divorced when they were 13/15 and they stayed with different parents #also while i preffer charlie a lot Cluemaster is a B Lister here while Kiteman is a C/D Lister #Kiteman is friends with all Gotham C-listers with the exception of Polka Dot Man because they just don't hang in the same places #they have some misinformation about each other and think the other is a freak but they would be pals if they meet #cluemaster hangs with b listers and non gothamite c listers #chuck actually got relieved after the last bit cause he imagine grooming or steph becaming a killer or smt real bad #he actually likes Riddler a bit after that because sibbling rivalry and because he is starting to realize Arthur is a shitty dad #Eddie did try to sue Arthur in Arthur's first trial #he was called to testimony why Arthur shouldn't go to Arkham and it was when he discovered that you can't copyright a criminal mo #it was also his first time on trial cause some rogues are considered unfit to stand trial and he is one of them #riddler #edward nygma #stephanie brown #arthur brown #cluemaster #kiteman #chuck brown #cheatday is @sillymanwithocs ship I'm just borowing it

[bluest-planet]

This place is a message… pay attention to it! This message was important to us. We thought ourselves to be a powerful culture. This place is not a place of honor… no highly esteemed deed is commemorated here… nothing valued is here. What is here was dangerous and repulsive to us. This is a warning about danger. The danger is in a certain location… it increases towards a center… the center of danger is here… and around us. The danger is still present, in your time, as it was in ours. The danger is to the heart, and it can kill. The form of the danger is an emanation of energy. The danger is unleashed only if you substantially disturb this place physically. This place is best shunned and left uninhabited. (Sometimes, no matter how far you try to run, how far you get, what you bring, what you leave behind, and what you find in search of sanctuary- the damage is already done, killing you from the inside out. You lost, and it wasn't even your fault-! you were dragged here against your will and forced to endure. But the worst part is, he was brought here too, and he deserves it even less. You have to get him out, before it kills him too.)

AKA, Xehanort and Vanitas end up kidnapping a poor 3 year-old Sora for a year before BBS takes place. Que Vanitas developing toxic Eldest Sister Syndome and Sora getting a bad case of Youngest Sibling Guilt tm. With some added Vanitas introspection/Queerness and angst for some spice.

but hey, the thing about siblings, is that they make even the shittiest situation a bit more bearable.

#kh #kingdom hearts #kh au #kh fanfic #bbs #birth by sleep #kh sora #kh vanitas #kh ventus #kh xehanort #kh aqua #kh terra #starry stories #woo! just decided to post it cause i can't sleep and also if i dont post i might never so #anyways its more of a motivation thing #like get it out there and you'll feel better about it #anyways wuv me some Sora nd Vani interactions we'll see how this goes! #it'll take a got minute before then tho #gotta ease into vani's miserable life before sora comes and makes it a little less crummy #might upload the 2nd chap today too! when i feel better #k bye!

[arvoze]

the power i will receive in a matter of days will be astounding. watch out

#i am making this post to ramble. idk if it will actually change anything but i am trying 2 be hopeful . #ive been very. Rough all month thus far both physically and mentally and occasionally both at the same time #i am just hoping tht wat i am getting soon will help me do things bc ive rly had no energy to do anything at alllllll #and i rly dont want to like. Explode i would like to get things done #i have things i owe to people!!! i just dont have the spoons to do it Ever and it piles iup and up in my head #it fucking blows dude i have been stuck in a horrendous loop for like almost 6 months #i just want 2 be normal u know . i am hoping something will change soon #if it does not change in the nesxt few days when my shit arrives i think im like. Done For in general #like if im unable to get anything done in the next few days then i am going to very seriously have to reconsider #literally everything i do online i think. its a bit fucked up #ik it sounds like an exaggeration bu there is noooo way in hell i am Surviving like tihs !!!!!!! slash srs #i wish twitter circles did not die so i cold blow up in there bu back to ye olde norm of tumblr tags will have to do #also it feels less invasive so like. win for me ig. i do miss rambling nonstop in tags #i miss tumblr!! i miss a lot of old stuff. reminiscing for reasons both good and bad. the tumblr stuff is the good side tho #anyways i have been slowly chipping away at writing thigns this month and ik its like. not a lot at all. #but its a lot to *me* and when youre someone whos only capable of doing so mch its like. a big deal #(im writing pmdnd stuff finally getting back into gear nd stuff i have been trying to slowly draw the npcs #that ive made whilst trying to recover in other areas bu rghghrghgrgr i dont ewant to draw #i havent wanted to draw in a long long time blows up) #i shuld. stop typing actually i am rambling too much i jsujt have nowhere to mindlessly ramble anymore technicaly #i dont want to bug my friends w me being unwell all the time DFJKGHDFKGFG #mayne i will try to ccontinue with the npcs. we will see based on if i post again in the next 30 minutes

[silenthillbunni]

sure i want friends but like only in theory not in practice ._.

#i think i have a longing for friends #but actually maintaining a friendship is smth v hard for me #like the girl from highschool i've seen a few times messaged me and asked if i wnna hang out at the library tmrw #and im like.... 😃😃 not rlly boo!! #but ig it's partially bc i dont have a buss pass rn so i'd have to walk for 1-2hrs there... #nd also i think that if i had friends i was compatiable w in my true state it'd be different #this girl is nice nd i like her but i just dont feel that *connection* w her #maybe the reason i dont rlly have friends is bc im not chill like who overthinks abt these things??? #in my defense im disordered so im just not normal #anyway yeah she asked but idk what to say bc i dont feel like it rn. if i did have a buss pass i'd do it anyway but to walk all the way? :( #idk what to say nd it's midnight so i have to reply soon lmao #it would be nice to sit at the library nd read w her doing her assignments but im not feeling great :(