#it didn't change anything

[segundaii]

so this is the context for the cockroach scene

#it didn't change anything #diamond man in inoueland

[celestiachan]

man having depression sucks dick. they give you Lexapro to take and last time you tried to take a pill your body said Nuh uh uh! and you had to make an emergency trip to the bathroom so you have to slowly build up a tolerance so you don't stain any carpets and eventually you don't need to cut the pill into quarters, only halves and then the psychiatrist closes forever and ever and it's the middle of a pandemic so you can't get more Lexapro and then people stop taking the whole pandemic thing seriously so you can get pills again and you try to take the same amount you used to in 2018 and oh God oh fuck my tummy is gonna fucking explode and my newly acquired acid reflux hates it when I take pills and fuckkkk lexapro isn't supposed to make your depression worse is it

#xenon screams #its like. 20 miligrams of whatsver #not that much honestly #can you believe that lack of sleep is a side effect of lexapro #tjis is being types at 5am. btw #the tamest antidepressant #apparently #y'know what's fucked up #when i was originally taling it prepandemic #it didn't change anything #i didn't feel any different #there are the other problems i have but lexapro is supposed to help those too #it's like how salicylic acid i good dor oily skin and acne. because they're both oil #avpd and depression are both mental illnesses #and yet i still couldn't start a conversation

[philosophika]

what's a soft memory for you?

Hmm, this is an excellent question... A lot of my memories with my ex, who died in January of last year, are soft. One of the first memories that popped into my mind when I read this ask is of him getting up at 5 am to go to work. Although he was quiet, on this particular occasion, he woke me. I heard him rustling around, but I kept my eyes closed and pretended to still be asleep. And that's how I know that every morning before he left, this man would tuck me in, kiss my forehead and whisper he loved me... I honestly don't have words to describe how peaceful that was. It's one of the softest, most beautiful memories of my life.

#answered asks #Thanks anonymous! #the love was there #it didn't change anything #it didn't save anyone #but it still matters that the love was there

[forzafinally]

No because, Art is a mediocre tennis player with 6 grand slams who knows that at some level he has only got them because Tashi has pushed him and coached him to that level of excellence. At the same time he feels responsible for living a career for both of them while knowing that if Patrick hadn't fucked things up he wouldn't have ever achieved what he did.Patrick has oodles of talent but has to deal with the fact that despite winning Tashi fairly he lost her due to his pride. You know he's thinking that 'if she was my coach I would have double the number of grand slams that Art does'. But if Tashi hadn't had that injury that day would either of them even have had the chance to have her as their coach? No. Both he and Art would have faded into mediocrity but probably remained friends despite it all. And don't get me started on Tashi. She knows that if it wasn't for her injury she would have probably won 15 grand slams by now and would never have considered stopping but she's reduced to just being the wife! Just being the coach! Just being content with being a hot girl who will be won by the guy who plays the best tennis!! And she has to somehow make herself feel okay with that. So no. She can't genuinely be okay with Art stopping but at the end of the day it's not her decision to make because he's the professional tennis player not her. It's not just about one of them winning or the sacrifice it takes. It's about disappointment, bitterness, the underlying inferiority complex, being manipulative enough to achieve your goals through different means and the inherent homoeroticism of having a best friend from the age of 12 who is the only one worth beating for you after playing 13 years of tennis. Anyway I'm chewing on glass rn. Challengers you'll always be famous

#challengers #challengers spoilers #tashi duncan #art donaldson #patrick zweig #no you don't understand #it's very very dear to me #it's about the disappointments and loss! #it's about the discomfort of the choices you've made #it's about the underlying bitterness and jealousy #the love that was there but didn't change anything because the only thing that matters is winning

[lotus-pear]

the fine people of bsd tumblr have asked for fem skk and i shall give it to them

#bsd one of the realest animes out there for having unisex outifits i didn't have to change anything (yes this probably defeats the point) #i normally hate feminized male characters bc nine times out of ten they become hypersexualized and/or lose their og outfit #bc ladies can't wear pants?? god forbid. no. give them a miniskirt or ridiculously skintight see through leggings/stockings #i was extremely normal drawing this tbh. i totally wasn't falling in love w my own sketch. god i love women <33 #also if any one of you points out that chuuya looks the same but w longer lashes i will cry😭 #i couldn't give him long hair he looked too different pls hear me out ik i robbed you guys but pls forgive me #bungou stray dogs #bungo stray dogs #dazai osamu #osamu dazai #chuuya nakahara #nakahara chuuya #soukoku #skk #fem soukoku #fem skk #(<- is that a tag???) #bsd #lotus draws

[ruporas]

assortment of vw (ID in alt)

#vashwood #vash the stampede #nicholas d wolfwood #trigun #trigun maximum #somehow i feel more comfortable uploading a collection of vw comics on here as opposed to one by one... #iv been thinking a lot of their quieter moments / less tense moments as opposed to anything heavy #and naturally i like to think of vash's thoughts / his witnessing of wolfwood as an individual / how he knows him and sees him #but theres still a sense of inevitability for what happens next #i think vash having lived the way he has understands that too well. so even if he sought change with wolfwood he didn't know how to #get wolfwood on that same page / or there couldv been an assumption they already were on the same page but ofc that was never communicated #sigh </3 theyre silly - always will be #ruporas art

[sexygaywizard]

#i was so fucking enraptured by this rant I have never voiced anything before but I really just had to #i did the french accent bc i thought it was funny but i recognize it's not totally accurate lol #i had to inspect element change the poll back to harry losing bc i didn't have any screenshots of the rant from before he actually won lmao #anyways. i did this instead of going to the gym or doing homework ✌️so productive #i talk #harry dubois #disco elysium #harrysweep #poor little meow meow #tumblr's plmm contest #hall of fame

[spacedace]

Damian doesn't know who Santa Claus is and Danny tries to gaslight him into believing in Santa

Okay but, like, wouldn't even be gaslighting! Santa canonically does exist in the DC universe, I think I remember reading something about him fighting through an army in hell to give Darkseid a single piece of coal once?

So like, Danny doesn't have to gaslight Damian into believing Santa's real, he just has to pull out the proof (Danny has a binder of everything he knows about the Spirit of Christmas for the purpose of when he eventually goes to war with him, Danny hates Christmas so fucking much haha) and show him evidence that Santa is real.

Probably ranting the entire time about how much he hates the guy & Christmas and it's obvious that this is Danny's arch nemesis. His one true villain above all others. Pariah Dark? A nuisance. Dark Dan? Just a tuesday. Santa? That motherfucker is the bane of Danny's existence and he will pay for what he's done (spread Christmas cheer).

And Danny's the newest member to the family. Damian's been encouraged to get to know his new brother and try and bond with him a bit, make him feel like part of the family. So, obviously, the best way to do that is to help Danny in his quest for vengeance.

And of course Tim & Jason end of getting roped in on this. Damian's grown since he's first came to live with his father. He still is a little brat to his older brothers - he's the baby of the family it's his right - but he doesn't actively hate them anymore and can admit when their particular skills would be useful. Tim is the best at strategizing, and Jason is a combat master with access to all sorts of weapons. With all of them working together Santa has no chance, they will destroy him.

Which all just makes me think of something like this happening lol:

“What…uh, what are they doing?” Duke glanced between the chaos unfolding in the family room to where Dick was calmly seated in his favorite chair, sipping idly at a cup of coffee.

“Sibling bonding.” Dick said. There was that specific aura of calm around him that said that he’d already gone through several crisis and all the stages of grief at least twice. Considering the calamity and chaos the eldest batkid had seen over the years - and especially the last few months since Bruce officially adopted Danny and brought him into the fold - it was a bad sign that he’d reached this particular state of Done (TM) before noon. The earliest Dick even woke up was two in the afternoon.

Duke contemplated turning around right then and there - the particular combination of people all excitedly feeding off each other’s feral energy on the other side of the room was a catastrophe in the making he didn’t want to be anywhere near when it finally breached containment and spilled out into the wider world - but unfortunately he was cursed with the curiosity that afflicted all members of the bat clan.

“It looks like they’re plotting to try and kill Santa Claus.”

Dick turned to look at Duke fully for the first time since he’d entered the room. He had the eyes of one that was deeply haunted by the horrors they had witnessed. On the other side of the room Tim was ranting about anti-magic tech while Danny, Damian and Jason argued over what weapons would be most effective against a demi god. There were schematics of what looked worryingly like a rocket launcher looking device that - if the scribbles on the whiteboard someone had drug into the room where to be believed - was going to be rigged to shoot ecto-grenades.

“Danny hates Christmas.” Dick said, and Duke noticed for the first time that his hands around the coffee cup were faintly trembling. “He’s declared Santa is his arch nemesis.”

Duke blinked, glancing over to the others long enough to see Danny start frantically scribbling the words Christmas Nuke on the whiteboard. No one else was trying to erase it. Tim looked worriedly contemplative. Damian and Jason where both nodding in agreement.

He was going to regret this. “But Santa isn’t real?”

Dick’s eyes gained a faintly manic glean, and Duke could faintly hear the sound of porcelain creaking warningly beneath the desperate hold he had on his coffee cup. “That’s what I thought!” Dick said, with enough cheer to make Duke flinch back instinctively. “But apparently he is.” A distinct crack appeared in the cup, coffee dripping down into Dick’s lap. “And apparently they’re going to war with him!”

Well, Duke considered, at least that explained why he caught the four of them burning down the giant Christmas tree in the city center last night.

#spaced asks and ace answers #dc x dp prompt #dpxdc #dc x dp #dp x dc #danny phantom #danny fenton #batman #damian wayne #tim drake #jason todd #duke thomas #dick grayson #batpham #batfam #danny hates christmas so fucking much #you know he's on the naughty list just for his various assasination attempts on santa's life #Bruce didn't know this kid was a half ghost god-king of an entire infinite dimension of death he just saw a sad kid in a bad situation #it wouldn't have changed anything if he'd known Danny had adoption bait written all over him #but he at least would have been able to better prepare for the kind of supernatural shenanigans that would pop up #Duke took one look at 4 of his brothers standing around a burning christmas tree at 3 in the morning holding gas cans & lighters & thought: #not my circus not my monkeys #he was the day shift vigilante he didn't get paid to deal with his family's shit in the middle of the night #he didn't get paid *period* he wasn't going to do volunteer chaos gremlin wrangling #Dick just wanted *one* day of relative quiet #he should have known that wasn't going to happen

[p4nishers]

there's something i need to say and yall can boo me for it but deep in my heart i'll always know i'm correct: crowley already forgave aziraphale. like already would take him back at one flutter of his eyelashes. that's all.

#do i wish he wouldn't forgive so easily (tho i don't actually think aziraphale needs forgiveness since he didn't do anything wrong and #actually without his decision their love story would've been stuck as it was for more than 6000 years and also heaven would never change #without someone dismantling it and making it new) #yes i do wish that and i also wish he'd learn self worth but we gotta be realistic here he never once been able to stay mad at aziraphale #all those times they had fights where aziraphale was (mostly) in the wrong and rejected crowley what did crowley do? immediately come #CRAWLING and BEGGING back like pls yall this is why i don't read post s2 fics bc everyone suddenly seems to forget their whole canon #personalities and history w each other and it's annoying me so much like i get that we all are hoping crowley learns from his mistakes and #stops being so easy for aziraphale (not me tho) but realistically speaking it's just not gonna happen and once again aziraphale DIDN'T. DO. #ANYTHING. WRONG. yes he hurt crowley with his decision but CROWLEY HURT HIM WITH HIS TOO so if yall wants an apology dance it's gonna turn #into a waltz cause they'd both need to do it #good omens #good omens s2 #azicrow #crowley #aziraphale #aziracrow #ineffable spouses #good omens season 2 #ineffable husbands #go s2

[solfinite]

hello finally putting my au stuff down on paper after several months.. also finally chose a name for it !! it's called Sonic Aeroventure :)

(+xtra traditional sketches below)

#Aeroventure AU #sthav #<-titles/tags i'll be using for the AU #my art #sonic the hedghog #amy rose #tails the fox #cream the rabbit #rouge the bat #shadow the hedgehog #sth #sonic #sonic fanart #sonic au #designs and stuff will probably change a bit in the future knowing me but i do rlly like these rn #i don't have alot written down rn bc i didn't write down anything back in march(?) 2023. and so I've forgotten quite a bit #but i did remember some things :) #amy sketch page isn't rlly anything to do with the au itself i was just rewarding heroes and the haunted house part came up #alot of these sketches are from like. last month but i wanted to think of the name of the au before posting more #yeah :) the general idea and inspos are the same im just actually sitting down to world/storybuild now

[cinnamelle]

don't ever let go of what's beloved

#ff7 #ffvii #ffvii remake #ffvii rebirth #final fantasy 7 #final fantasy vii #zack fair #aerith gainsborough #zerith #my art #i forgot i had this #i got to finish this while watching rebirth ending a h a #i'm not crying. not at all #i'm weak @ the star crossed lovers trope #this game... M A N #i didn't think i'd love the remake / rebirth verse so much but here i am #if the drawing is changing let's. pretend you didn't see anything #i'll draw more ff7 stuff bc it's brainrot time

[blooisasleep]

@yhkweek 2023: day 7 - yoohankim [codependency/sun, moon & stars]

hsy, yjh and kdj separately utc!

#yhkweek #yoohankim #yhk #orv #omniscient reader's viewpoint #yjh #kdj #hsy #kim dokja #han sooyoung #yoo joonghyuk #the three of them make me so ill #they love each other so much #regardless whether it's accepted or not #because it doesn't matter #because the love was there and it still didn't change anything #crying screaming #bloo:art

[useyourtelescope]

The Borgias (2011 - 2013) 2.01 | 2.02

#tvedit #the borgias #theborgiasedit #perioddramaedit #perioddramasource #onlyperioddramas #dailyflicks #filmtvcentral #userfish #tusereliza #zanisummers #cesare borgia #lucrezia borgia #juan borgia #cesare x lucrezia #cesare x juan #francois arnaud #holliday grainger #david oakes #useyourtelescopeedit #not me changing the text on these last minute because i didn't want to cover holliday's lovely face in text lmao #idk if this is anything but it struck me when i first watched it last year and now i've been rewatching bits i thought i'd finally gif it

[kaltacore]

no but essek's abnormal behaviours in the last arc and especially in episode 140 are my roman empire. which is ironic because aeor is something of a roman empire itself. but in all seriousness, it was the episode that made me realise i love essek and his development so much and it kinda summarised it even before caleb's epilogue.

and i mean the "it's not fair" scene specifically. it's like, an epitome of his whole character progression from a person who put An Objectively Important Goal above all else without hesitation to someone who can't help but care for people around even more than his goal, no matter how big and relevant it is.

the mighty nein - and he alongside them - pretty much saved the world and freed an ancient city from thousand-year-long suffering. they defeated nine extremely powerful menacing entities who managed to stay out of everyone's sight for years and were so close to achieving their goal and dooming exandria in the process. they did the impossible and became heroes and somehow, they survived, even though they had bidden farewells a couple of hours ago because they had already understood what they had been facing. and nevertheless. they made it.

and none of them was celebrating.

mighty nein are basically essek's only friends. he knew them to be very unusual people, to put it lightly, loud and stubborn and completely inescapable once they consider you to be one of their own. and they showed him so much kindness and put so much faith in him, they were here playing the most atrocious music ever and digging clay in his backyard for a spell they invented just to help one of theirs and asking him if he could bring them pastries the day after they found out he was lying to them and had started a war. they were chaotic and weird and sometimes unbearable but most importantly they were carrying so much hope with them all this time - a hope they could end the war, a hope they could stop the angel of irons cult, a hope they could get better, a hope he could get better, and now, finally, that they could save their lost friend.

and that hope shattered, just like that, the moments after they'd already made the impossible. they saved so many souls - and then could not get back just that one.

for essek "my intentions were never good they were important" thelyss it just. shouldn't have mattered. they won. it could have been worse. people die and when they die they rarely come back. they should've been happy everyone else barely made it alive.

but for some reason, mighty nein being so defeated after they saved the world exposed him to that overwhelming feeling of injustice and unfairness. and i mean, there were many things essek considered to be unfair, but when i watched his first appearance and his interactions with mighty nein later on til their reunion in aeor arc, i wouldn't dare to guess that one of the things on that list would be something that personal. and personal not even to him.

the thing is, essek didn't even know who that guy was. why mighty nein cared about him so much. he had an idea, i guess, that he was their friend once, or someone in that body was. it was also a person who wanted to unleash a terrifying horrific aberration onto the material plane. it was a person very dedicated to killing essek and his friends - and they still didn't take any pleasure in fighting him. essek didn't feel strongly about lucien or molly, because he never knew them.

i don't think he mourned his death and failed resurrection. he mourned mighty nein's hope, the one they put in him when they had no reason to, the one they offered yasha in the cathedral and the one they kept after the spell for veth failed and the one they carried til the very end because they wanted it to reach molly. they had saved people with this hope. they had saved nations. they had saved the world. but they ended up feeling like it hadn't even been worth anything.

how desperate would it feel, witnessing people who for some reason always saw good in you when they absolutely shouldn't, who made literal miracles out of nothing, who ended wars and fought gods and tricked the hags and freed cities from horrors beyond anyone's comprehension purely because they thought it was the right thing to do and also loved their friends this much, silently crying over a dead body they couldn't bring back to life? how desperate would it feel to realise that with all your knowledge about time you dedicated your life to and threw away any principles for, you can't undo this? no one can. some things are left to fate alone and this time it wasn't kind to them. no matter how much good they did, they still got slapped in the face.

and it was, i think, such a genuine moment of empathy. like, essek is the character who prefers to put up a facade and act distant and self-composed but this time he just. walked away unable to watch this. the could only say to fjord that it wasn't fair. even when he was caught off guard in nicodranas he was able to explain himself and his motives to an extent even though he was a nervous wreck whose extra important plan went to hell the second the only people he cared about appeared. this time he had nothing to elaborate on. it just wasn't fair. it wasn't fair his friends didn't get what they wanted the most. it wasn't fair he couldn't do anything to make it right.

it is such a sad and beautiful and even cathartic scene because it is about person who started a war that destroyed so many lives - and then met this ragtag group of weirdos who saw a lonely stand-offish guy and said "hey, let's be friends!" and didn't even wait for him to answer. he saw them being serious and calculated and he saw them being ridiculous and extremely stupid, he saw their mistrust to outsiders and their loyalty to each other, he made spells with them and paid a visit to their hot tub, he ate their stale pastries and drank their hot chocolate mixed with whiskey, he was welcomed amongst them and in their wonderful home, both in xhorhas before they even found out what he had done and in the tower when they already knew - and then, he saw them mourning their loss, defeated and helpless, and he, a person who believed there were things more important than whole nations, let alone just one life, couldn't help but share the pain they felt. a pure display of compassion from someone who detached himself from it, who didn't believe he could grow into a better person capable of it again, but became one nonetheless without even realising it

#sorry. i cannot shut up about this. this scene stuck with me the moment i saw it and i just couldn't get it out of my head #i mean. i liked essek well enough. i just got attached to other characters more. but then 'it's not fair' happened and it sealed the deal #it was just. so beautiful. so sincere. so important for a character who just started to learn how to care about people #his reaction wasn't intentional. it didn't change anything. but it showed how humane he had become. how deeply he cared #mighty nein are no joke pal #they're gonna make you feel all these unknown emotions like sympathy and love and affection even when they're incredibly painful #essek experiencing closeness and attachment in all their forms. as something beautiful and something aching. is so important to me #they saved him because they had good hearts! and these good hearts sparked so much joy around them! #but if a good heart grants you an ability to experience joy so profoundly. it makes everything else feel like that #you get it. i hope you get it. anyway e140 did so much psychic damage on me i probably will never recover #in a good way mostly <3 but yeah. yeah. it makes me feel a little insane #the mighty nein #essek thelyss #critical role

[do-you-know-this-queer-character]

Do you know this queer character?

Jon is Biromantic and Asexual, and uses He/Him pronouns!

Art by @ wellotwig on X

#Listen I dont usually use fan art and for other TMA characters I won't but I have such a specific image of how this man looks in my head #I didn't see anything on the twitter profile saying not to repost w/ credit but if it's requested I change it I will!! #also yall can stop submitting him now I got him 9 times lmao #jonathan sims #tma #the magnus archives #tumblr polls #fandom polls #poll #biromantic #asexual #he/him #podcast #lgbtqia #do you know this queer character #edit: removed the part about other pronouns. yes I know about the they/them pronouns in the writeups but I've been told it isn' t canon! #finished

[stbot]

vintage gays as vintage vinyl

#grease rise of the pink ladies #grease rotpl #rise of the pink ladies #rotpl #cynthia zdunowski #lydia rotpl #cynthia rotpl #lynthia #thesbians #i think i need a gif tag #rotplvinyl #i big love the set dressing changes in this number and how much the vibe shifts with each one while still staying consistant with the theme #it's really cool staging and i was just overcome with An Idea. #anywhosie! #maybe i'll try to do other songs or episodes or something #idk we'll see how i'm feeling about it #this was fun tho #geez i hope i didn't spell anything wrong #i genuinely can't even tell anymore #i've gone blind double-triple-quadruple checking the spelling on these #but all words have lost all meaning #what is merely??? what is players?? what is names????