#in moments of stress and trauma

[adainesfuriousgun]

I haven’t seen nearly enough people talking about Siobhan telling Freeze that he’s “a valid response, just not right now.”

It’s truly ALL I can think about.

Because hoo boy. As a motherfucker in treatment for Complex-PTSD, l am constantly wrestling with my freeze response, and that shit made me ugly cry.

#dimension 20 #mentopolis #siobhan thompson #all of the shit with freeze has been handled so well #because yes #freeze is an infuriating response to deal with #in moments of stress and trauma #but you also have to remember that it’s a part of you #that is trying its very best to protect you #and you have to be kind to that part of yourself #even when you don’t want to be kind at all

[royalarchivist]

Pac: Take care of Ramon, take care of Richas, ok? See you on the other side, big boy.

Fit: [Laughs] Take it easy, big boy. Take it easy, big boy. Actually, nononono– You can't just say "big boy" and then just expect me to not drag you outta here. [Fit tries to lasso Pac] You're coming with me.

Pac: No, I need to leave!

Fit: You're coming with me. You are not dying today! You are not dying today!

Pac: I need to leave, Fit! I'm sorry, I'm sorry!

Ironmouse: Are you guys like, having sexy time?

Fit: There's homosexual activity going on Mouse, don't worry about us, ok?

Ironmouse: You guys, we don't have time to be gay right now.

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Pac: I'm just here to say goodbye to you, Fit.

Fit: Goodbye? We're not– we're gonna be fine, we're going to get out of here, don't worry.

Aypierre: Yeah, don't worry!

Pac: I know, but like– I will sleep until the end, you know? I will pass through this moment sleeping, man. I won't be able to be awake for the moment.

Fit: [Laughs] You know, it's– I mean, if that's how you wanna go, but– I mean, that- I mean, isn't that bed kind of like.... I don't know, it's–

Pac: No no, I will be staying on the sofa, you know, I will be staying on the sofa.

Fit: Oh the sofa. Ok, that's a nice sofa! Yeah, that is a pretty nice sofa.

Pac: Yeah, it's a nice sofa right? No, yeah– I'm going to stay on the sofa, you know? So, since I will be going Fit... [Pac starts tossing Fit all his items]

Aypierre: [Not paying attention to their conversation] Is that bigger cell? I don't think it's a bigger- biggest one.

Fit: Oh... Thank you Pac, thank you.

Pac: Everything you need to survive, ok?

Fit: Wow.

Aypierre: Wow.

Pac: And if you need this one also, maybe, who knows? [Throws him more items]

Fit: Ohhh, well hey– just take this to remember me by, ok? [Tosses him a photo of himself – the same one Aypierre was carrying all day yesterday]

Pac: [Laughs] Ok, I will sleep holding the picture you know, like this. You know, I will dream about you, Fit. And I hope this is gonna be good dreams. I see you in the other side. Good luck, my friend.

Fit: The other side... Yeah, you know, yeah, we– we– you know? It's been an honor, Pac. It's been an honor, you know?

Pac: Yeah, for me too, you know? Take care of Ramon, take care of Richas, ok?

Fit: Ok.

Pac: See you on the other side, big boy.

Fit: I will sing your praise– Oh yeah, hey– [Laughs] Take it easy, big boy. Take it easy, big boy. Actually, nononono– You can't just say "big boy" and then just expect me to not drag you outta here. You're coming with me.

Pac: No, I need to leave!

Fit: You're coming with me. You are not dying today! You are not dying today!

Pac: I need to leave, Fit! I'm sorry, I'm sorry!

Fit: Sorry, there's–

Pac: I'm sorry!

Ironmouse: Are you guys like, having sexy time?

Fit: There's homosexual activity going on Mouse, don't worry about us, ok?

Ironmouse: You guys, you guys– we don't have time to be gay right now, come on. There's no time.

Pac: No, there's no time! Oh, goodbye Fit...

Fit: Ok, c'mon, no no no, come on, we got this we got this!

Pac: Goodbye Fit, I'm sorry!

Fit: [Laughs] Oh no...

#Pactw #FitMC #Hideduo #FitPac #QSMP #QSMP Prison #January 22 2024 #So canonically how do you guys view this moment? #Did Pac just canonically conk out from stress? #Did he take sleeping pills on purpose to sleep through whatever awful thing was inevitably going to happen? #Curious to hear what other people think #I like to imagine the stress finally got to him #He spent the entire time trying to mirror things he saw Cell doing #and finally cried about it to Bagi #I can't blame him if he wants to sleep through the rest of it. Man's living in a place that's actively making him relive past trauma #Fit says he's carrying Pac in his backpack but I like to imagine that he just gave Pac a piggy back ride the entire way home :D #I imagined that for Purgatory too #it's cute #idk the whole idea of very traumatized characters being so comfortable around certain people #Idk the idea Pac feeling so safe around Fit #(despite being in a place that is actively stressing him out) #that he feels alright falling asleep and trusting him / Mike to protect him is sweet to me #Idk man I'm a big fan of the ''literal sleeping together'' trope #I love when characters take naps together it's so cute #esp when it's two traumatized characters with a lot of baggage / trust issues #It's nice #anyways I got way off topic with these tags LMAO sorry #I was gonna edit this down but I like the entire conversation so I'm leaving it as is #The YouTube editor living in my brain: Not great for viewer retension #Me: Shhhhhhhh I'm an Archivist. I can do whatever I want.

[sciderman]

I swear I have read your big post regarding Peter Parker's neurodivergence and why it is best to avoid labelling him, but he definitely has a weird brain

Can't find it and feel kinda sad about it cuz I deeply related to it

i know exactly which post you're talking about and i can't find it either! i've raked through my archive, and it's just - nowhere to be seen. i think tumblr eated it (it happens.)

really, tumblr's search functionality is so so useless, i don't know what to tell you. there are plenty of keywords i can search to find it that post, but the search functionality actually just does not work!

undiagnosed audhd-addled peter parker, my darling, my light, my life, my everything.

i think peter parker's such an interesting creature to write, because a lot of people will point to a certain behaviour about him and say "this is an autistic thing, right?" but a lot of those behaviours are actually, in my head, tied to certain traumas in peter's life too.

people say "oh, the food thing, peter's a picky eater because he's autistic" and yes, absolutely. but also it's tied to his trauma with his parents.

peter gets overstimulated, and yes, it's an autism thing, but also he was bitten by a radioactive spider and his senses are dialled to 11.

it's a similar case i've found for myself, too – where a lot of friends i have kind of diagnose me because i have autistic traits, but actually - i'm hesitant to claim the label or pursue diagnosis because, actually, i know where these certain behaviours come from, and they come from certain traumas. there are events i can pinpoint in my life and say "yep. that's where this behaviour comes from."

so - i think there's a lot of overlap between trauma and autistic traits. the brain is very complex! i think the reason for that overlap is maybe as simple as the fact that people with autism and people with trauma are both doing the same thing - developing behaviours to protect themselves or soothe themselves. so - i think it's nice to be able to see a character like peter parker, who may or may not be autistic, but recognise behaviours in him and see yourself in him.

people who go undiagnosed for whatever reason - people who are really good at masking - so good, in fact, that they have no idea they might be on the spectrum - everyone and anyone at all can look at peter parker and recognise themselves. because i think we discredit the thought that every single brain does the same thing! develops certain behaviours in order to survive. every brain has that same software - we've just all been faced with different hardships that we need to overcome, and that's were all the differences come in.

autism is a spectrum, i guess - everyone falls into it to some degree. and i think events in your life probably push you along on it. but i don't know, i didn't study brain science. probably what i'm saying is very stupid and uninformed. of course there's brain chemistry involved. but i know people in my life living with autism and certain events in their life have exacerbated certain behaviours or made coping with it a lot more difficult. so maybe trauma is a catalyst.

#a lot of my traits have been exacerbated lately and i remember it was much easier for me before #and some of my friends have said “oh it's because you've been masking too long and now you're facing autistic burnout.” #and that made sense to me i think. #but then i found out about the stress thing. me overproducing stress hormone. and that's a very physical thing. #and that explains why i've been overstimulated more than usual lately. and why everything feels like too much. #and i wonder how many of these traits of mine are going to subside once i have lamar removed #and it makes me wonder a lot of things. and it's so weird how much your brain is tied to your biology. #i wonder how much i'll change. i wonder how i'll feel. i wonder if i'll still feel like me. i wonder how much me is me right now. #and how much of me is being altered by weird freaky hormones. who am i?? who will i be?? #i'm almost looking at this as like. a superhero origin story of some sort. like this is my spider-bite moment. maybe. #will i be different? will i cope with things differently?? now that my body isn't fighting something anymore?? #maybe i'll be normal. i don't know. i don't know. #i don't know what it'll mean for me. #but all of these things mean i relate to peter parker in a certain kind of way #i don't think you have to be diagnosed with autism to recognise and empathise with those traits i think #i think everyone can see themselves in peter. and i think that's the benefit of having characters that aren't diagnosed. #because there's so much overlap in the human experience. and certain feelings aren't exclusive to just one group of people. #peter has such a rich identity actually. it's an autistic thing. it's a queer thing. it's a jewish thing. it's a trauma thing. #there are so many overlapping parts of peter's identity that inform who he is and how he behaves and it's never just one thing. #it's a product of all of his things. #just like me! just like everyone. #so me? i guess i can be a million things. you can explain what i am in a million different ways. #a hundred different psychologists can all come up with different ways to explain why i be the way i be. #i don't think it's something that can be simplified. #sorry wow. i'm really going off here in the tags. #i hope people don't think i'm stupid. i don't know brain science. i'm just philosophising as usual. #sci speaks

[citricacidprince]

Thinking about Psychonauts and how much I love the Aquato family once again

They mean the world to me your honor

#They are a strange little family with so many issues and generational trauma and YET they still LOVE EACHOTHER #DO YOU KNOW HOW IMPORTANT THAT IS TO ME??? #Nona; Augustus; Donatella; Dion; Frazie; Rasputin; Mirtala; Queepie- #I love you all and I owe you my life #DION AND DONATELLA ESPECIALLY; Y’ALL GET SO MUCH HATE FOR HAVING UNDERSTANDABLE NEGATIVE EMOTIONS AND IT DRIVES ME UP THE WALL :( #Aquatos get behind me; I’ll protect you from the people who think you abuse Raz and should just get adopted by Sasha and Milla #that’s a bad take and they should feel bad. like; he can still see Sasha and Milla and alternate parental figures; that’s fine- #But Raz; CANONICALLY; would NEVER give up his family; EVER #That boy would force everyone to have a heart on heart with him until everything is better because he DOES that in the GAME #When you talk to you family in Psychonauts 2 you can tell how much he loves them and how much they love him; even if it’s strained at the- #moment from how stressful the past THREE DAYS have been #YES EVEN DION AND DONATELLA #They love Raz so much!!! They’re both just going through it™️ atm and need time to clear their head: remember; everything that has happened- #has been in the span of 3 DAYS and their whole lives have been completely flipped upside down #I think they’re allowed to be upset; in fact; it would be weird if they weren’t #sorry this is word garbage I just love that family so much it makes me wanna drink paint #prince rambles in this chilies tonight #aquato family #psychonauts aquatos #psychonauts 2 #psychonauts

[crystalkleure]

"At least my trauma made me funny" No, it did not. I am saying this gently, not to be cruel.

You crack jokes about the terrible things that happened you to convince both other people and yourself that it wasn't so bad, and that it didn't actually hurt you that much. Laughter is a social signal that communicates a lack of danger, saying that it's safe to relax now. Feeling the urge to laugh when you are scared or otherwise stressed is an involuntary self-soothing measure as well -- laughter releases endorphins and relieves stress, it decreases your cortisol levels. That's why laughing in relief after narrowly avoiding something terrifying is so common. The entire purpose of laughter is to say, to yourself and those around you, "it will be okay."

On top of that, you are caught between the basic, pack animal desire to seek support by telling other people what happened to you, and the distrustful, self-protective desire to insist that you are fine. You say "I got hurt, but it's no big deal," in the hopes that someone kind will realize the latter part is a lie and somehow help you, and that someone cruel will believe you are very difficult to seriously harm and thus not sense weakness in you to prey upon.

Recounting your trauma is not funny, it is stressful to you.

#And concerning to the people around you if they don't suck #Loudly repeatedly insisting you are fine immediately after detailing exactly how you are not is not very convincing #Your laughter will not be contagious if you are trying to downplay something blatantly horrific #If somebody laughs at your ''jokes'' about your trauma it's probably because they are shocked/worried and thus stressed themself now #Also you refusing to admit that something is actually really wrong means you cannot properly begin working towards healing from it #This is not the correct way to process your grief #The more you know #Psychology #Fun fact: #Most of the things we think are funny are things that give us a small fright or moment of concern that they then immediately dispel #Kid falls over on their face but it's onto a mattress or other safe padded surface so they are actually unharmed etc.

[sensitiveheartless]

Thoughts on the hc that Dazai has a glass eye?

I'm just imagining Dazai getting injured on a case on his blind side, and Kunikida berates him and drags him to Yosano.

And Yosano is like "Really, again? How did it happen this time?" And Kunikida says "Idiot wasn't paying attention."

Dazai "No I was, its just my blind side."

And they both freak out because why? How? Huh? But his eye looks fine?

Yosano: Well, I can schedule an appointment and we can see if we can get you surgery or something-

Dazai: Oh its unsalvagable, I'm blind on that side.

Kunikida: Why does your eye look fine then??? (He thinks Dazai is fucking with him)

Dazai just smiles, reaches up and pull the glass eye out. Kunikida screams.

- Goblin anon

Oh my gosh alsksjdjfjf honestly I think this hc is great just for that potential moment of screaming confusion on Kunikida’s part, Dazai absolutely would do that XD

I guess in general I haven’t thought much about the implications of Dazai bandaging that eye! I know I’ve definitely seen fics and stuff where his vision is off in that eye in one way or another (@feralrookie wrote a fantastic soulmate AU where Dazai’s soulmark is on that eye and it gutted me in the best way). I think it’s really fun to see where different people go with it :0

I do think it’s interesting that he swaps which eye he bandages in the Beast universe…that feels like it has Implications but I’m not sure what they are, I’m not very skilled at analysis lol —Although, slightly related, I do love the moment in the Dark Era where Oda pulls those bandages off as he dies, because it seems like a visual representation of how much Dazai was hindering himself in the mafia (seriously, if there isn’t anything wrong with that eye, that means the dude was shooting guns without precise depth perception seemingly just for the heck of it) and then Oda pulls them off as he tells him to go live in the light and just aaaaaaaaaaaaa I am never not going to be emotional about the dark era ;;

…anyway this got off topic, basically all this to say I think that I think it’s cool how many different interpretations of it there are, and you could definitely do a lot with the glass eye headcanon alskjdjdjd

#I don’t know how coherent this is alskjdjfj #i am very sleepy #…now I’m also thinking about the fact that I don’t think we’ve seen Dazai fire a gun since he joined the ADA #unless it’s happened in one of the LNs I haven’t caught up with yet #idk that just seems significant since the times we’ve seen him fire a gun previously were: a moment of clear trauma for him(the 15 arc) #and him imparting trauma on Akutagawa in the dark era. #I feel like that might be indicative of him distancing himself from his past self #or I could be reading too much into it #fun fact that was actually why I gave him a gun in the Dazai-goes-feral-AU #because in that fic he is regressing pretty heavily due to Stress and Emotions #and also why he immediately drops the gun and leaves it behind after he fires the last shot #cause he knows he’s regressing and he’s trying to distance himself from it. #…I ended up rambling a lot sorry alsksjdjfjf #oooh actually another random thought #dyou think there’s anything going on with Q’s eyes? like can they see ok? #I know it’s a part of their character design but oh my gosh those pupils #I feel like that would seriously hamper your vision #ok I need to stop myself before I write a full chapter of nonsense in the tags alskjdjdjd #ask box #bsd dazai #goblin anon

[splorpo]

mass deleting tons of old posts bc i remembered that i used to overshare A LOT the year that i was semi-popular, and i really do not want all that out there lmao

#i was really out here openly discussing the particulars of my trauma with complete strangers #jesus christ #i know it’s bc i was GOING THROUGH IT #i guess it is kind of nice to know i have genuinely gotten better since then #for a moment i was like ‘i miss when people sent me asks every day’ but the sheer volume of these is insane #most people were cool but no wonder i got so stressed out #i’ve deleted over 1000 of my answers #also lmao @ my old posts about my situationship. girl u were fucked up!! #splorpo speaks

[baladric]

is it NORMAL to lowkey dissociate upon getting out of very informative therapy sessions, like we talked about autistic burnout/sensory overwhelm again and she asked me if it could be informing my chronic pain flares and/or vice versa, and yet again im like,, Äch Nae, The Symptoms

#she is so fucking smart and breaking me down into my component parts #and she doesnt even know the worse 2/3s of my trauma #which i think is helping her identify the subtler shit #like not immediately like 'well the avoidant tendencies likely stem from the abusive stepmother #'calling you Manipulative for voicing things like idk acute physical illness from active food poisoning' #bc she doesnt know about that! #instead we discussed burnout's symptom of making verbalization very difficult #and i was like oh fuck wait is THAT whats been happening my whole life oh my GOD #bc it IS whats been happening!!! #i experience a sudden jolt of stress hormone from conflict and become tongue-tied #feels like failing a string of dire persuasion checks #and so i've learned to avoid those moments at all costs!!! #even the cost of losing me my father and oldest friend

[bipolarmango]

When you're sick are you staying up all night thinking about whether you could somehow survive to the work in the morning and then spend the early morning hours in a panic mode practicing the phone call you have to make to your boss to let them know you're sick or are you in fact normal and not traumatized?

#well well well if it isn't me at the moment #actually mentally ill #actually ptsd #ptsd problems #ptsdawareness #complex ptsd #ptsd #ptsd recovery #complex post traumatic stress disorder #post traumatic stress disorder #tw trauma #trauma

[vvanessaives]

pros of watching stuff with friends: you watch stuff with friends. cons of watching stuff with friends: you unbearably have to wait an indefinite date to watch the next ep

#rena.txt #LET ME SEE THE BEAR SEASON 2 PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #i need my mamma mia canotta con macchie di sugo mozzarella moment. i need some carmine carmen carmy berzatto PLEASE. #girls (gn) will be like he's my comfort character and that character will be a guy weighed down by stress anxiety and trauma #i'm soo jealous of all the ppl that are watching it 😭😭

[villalunae]

*choking myself out* I WILL NOT BE TAKEN ADVANTAGE OF AGAIN

#personal #ANYWAY #me having to deal with the emotional stress of Not Letting Myself Let People Walk All Over Me and Advocate For Myself #like ughhhhhhhhhh. hate it. gonna have to have the You Need To Show Me How To Do My Job Or Im Quitting Before Youre Angry #That I Cant type convo which like whatever im good with that but i DO gotta lose my mind over it before and after cuz im Like That #@myself u always do this u always feel sooo upset for taking up space and being a burden that u unilaterally #let ppl force you into being one like Girl Lets Cut This Off #extending the shoujo hand to myself like lets make them mad now instead of being upset that they forced you into being smth that made them #mad <3 xoxo kill them also just like let it go find a nice lil weirdo job somewhere and Be Normal and 22 and Lame #theres heavy trauma thats caused all that but for the moment id Rather i be upset and cry abt it now then stress myself out for four weeks #until my brain busts open and i have a panic attack

[random-void-thoughts]

It's been a rough day.

#blitzø #fictive trauma #source memories #relationship trauma #trauma holder #he fronted for the first time today and has spent every moment since in agony over what he's done #so you can imagine the kind of stress i am under

[cyrilvows]

SORRY FOR NOT POSTING IN A WHILE! this is a little old now?? anyway have some Alois in his formal robes.

#cyril doodles #kuroshitsuji #black butler #alois trancy #wizard dad au #in case u haven't noticed I cannot shade nor can I background #the sons do graduate from magic borrowed from their papa and get their own #despite being human #it's like asbestos poisoning but good for u because it gives u magic #after being around the wizard enough and being exposed to magic they just kinda Absorb it #and then they manifest their elemental speciality in a moment of stress #Alois's being water #i chose that for him instead of fire because that seemed a little obvious #he's more than his anger and outbursts #he's a lot of trauma manifesting in different ways that yeah can hurt others #just like the ocean #the ocean doesn't *mean* to drown people or capsize boats #but it can't exactly stop doing that #but Alois can #he's a human and he can heal and calm his seas #i'm incredibly normal about him

[kazz-brekker]

gave up trying to completely avoid the hotd leaks and and like. wow. maybe i should never become invested in a piece of media ever again. i came to this show for the good kind of sad feelings not the bad kind.

#idk man. having a very hectic and stressful semester of college. it was nice to tune in once a week #and watch the dragon people slowly fuck themselves over and build the foundations of generational trauma and civil war #i've been invested in the asoiaf verse since i was 13. kind of hard for me to stop now. so of course i got invested in this too #there was stuff i didn't like such as the larys feet bullshit or the too many time skips #but the stuff i'm seeing is just like jeeeesus you really did character assassinated AND ruined a moment i've been looking forward for weeks #maybe this the universe punishing me for my naivety and hubris of thinking a got spin off could be good #feeling actually rather depressed and upset about this probably bc i have a cold and midterms stress already #pie says stuff #pie watches hotd #pie is whiny about hotd bc she got too invested in the fake people being bad to each other in the CORRECT way #hotd #house of the dragon #delete later i'm just being bitter and upset in the moment

[theprodigxl-daughter]

woke up and couldn't find anyone and now i have a tummyache and my hands are shaking and I'm only getting calmer because i found my mom. like, one day will i ever recover enough to be able to find myself all alone and not panic thinking I got left behind?

#if i had to choose this is 100% the worst part of religious trauma #bc for the moments that i can't find anyone #it truly feels like i am all alone here and my brain keeps screaming 'what if we got left behind' like #would pay good money to be able to not stress myself to the point of physical pain just cus i'm suddenly alone and i wasn't expecting it #anyways #ex christian #rapture anxiety #rapture mention #don't know how to tag this one