#im sorry to those that actually read this shit

[dead-set-eyes]

Probably going to change my url sooooon, I am getting tired of this one and haven't changed it in soooooo fucking long.

#its been almost a year #I think #could have been longer #normally i change it like every few months #or so #lolol #im sorry to those that actually read this shit #its literally just like word vomit #lmao #url change #personal #to be deleted

[oceanwithouthermoon]

ive come to realise that i dont actually hate kubokai, i just hate the way people write them

#sorry i read like two cute in character kubokai fics and im enjoying it now #theyre cute and im a closeted shun kinnie so. obviously i will ship him with my crush from the show. #i just really really REALLY hate the super cliche seme uke dynamic people usually give them #those people have NEVER watched the show.. my boy shun is NOT like that #its sooo stereotypical and they obviously give shun the role of 'the girl' in the relationship which is. um. ew #'shun is so fragile and innocent and uwu and he needs big strong aren around at all times to coddle him' #'and aren has a soft spot for shun and shun only and only shun can stop him from being totally murderous and dumb' #do yall know that one scene from the kissing booth #where elle is like 'NOAH! LOOK AT ME! THIS ISNT YOU! LOOK AT ME' when hes about to beat the shit outta his brother #thats how kubokai gets written usually #'aren pwease nevew fight again🥺pwease? fow me?' #me reading anything kaido says in most fics: HE WOULD NOT FUCKING SAY THAT #sorry #people can write whatever they want its just. so ooc. #canon them is soooo bromance core #im sorry idk why im posting negative shit again when i like JUST said i wasnt going to do this anymore LMAO #not a callout post about anyone on here obvi- actually reading more recent fics from people on here is whats gotten me more into them #saiki k #tdlosk #the disastrous life of saiki k. #kuboyasu aren #kaido shun #kubokai #meows post

[karamazovanon]

controversial opinion maybe but it BEWILDERS me when people (mostly americans ime) genuinely seriously with their whole chest complain about how impossibly hard russian names are. like. do a single google search. i don't see how you can comprehend that charles = chuck and margaret = peggy but can't fathom that rodion = rodya. how is this such a huge barrier of entry for people

#and this doesnt apply to ESL ppl or any other ppl who have actual reasons like dyslexia or something #im talking about other americans who go yeah i had to stop reading bc i couldnt understand the names #how are you seeing different cultural naming conventions as an unsurpassable barrier that forces you to quit and give up on ever reading it #instead of an opportunity to learn and expand your narrow worldview?????? and over something SO SIMPLE?????????? #like i know damn well yall know a katherine that goes by katie or a john that goes by jack #and those make even less sense than something like aleksey -> alyosha! #there are general rules and patterns unlike english! like the progression from aleksey -> alyosha -> alyoshka -> alyoshechka is so easy to #comprehend i dont understand how its SUCH a common complaint #i definitely understand the struggle of keeping characters straight when they have the same first name #like katerina ivanovna and katerina ospovna in t/bk etc #and of course the names in general are something you have to adjust to if youve never encountered it before! it takes a bit of thought #but its NOT FUCKING ROCKET SCIENCE and its asinine to shrug your shoulders and say welp guess im incapable of ever reading any ruslit! #like ohhh my goddd it grinds my gears so bad #bare minimum effort #anontalks #sorry for rant but i keep fucking seeing this shit and it rubs me the wrong way every time #like yeah its funny that dunya = avdotya and grushenka = agrafena #but richard = dick and elizabeth = betty so who fucking cares read the damn book

[butchhansolo]

in-universe "logistics" aside, i think it's good that echo has the permanent scomp arm instead of a hand for like. real-world representation reasons.

in star wars sure they have fully articulated replacement prosthetics but we very much don't have that in real life, and i feel like echo with the scomp is good rep for that. he's one of the most competent characters and i think it's good to show that he can do All That as he is, especially with how irl people with only one hand usually are very capable, even more if they've been living with it for a long time, and very rarely do we see that in media.

like, mark hamill once said he talked to a kid for a make a wish thing who was about to have his arm amputated, and the kid said that he wasn't worried because luke did it too. i think that's important

#tbb #echo #.txt #the bad batch #arc trooper echo #SORRY MUTUALS this has been on my mind since i saw some people being really weird/Actually Ableist about it on twitter back in january and #that post going around just reminded me of it #NOT THAT OP WAS SAYING ANYTHING PARTICULARLY BAD bc like yeah utilitarially a multitool type arm could probably be useful #just imo its nice to have real world rep #also im still taking psychic damage from some of the twitter shit it was like how echo would ''have relief at having a proper hand'' or sth #like um. thats not very ummmm.... thats not really a good thing to say-- #with regards to like. a lot of people with limb differences dont feel any particular desire to have a standard limb and a replacement #isnt necessarily the best for everyone or what everyone wants #and acting like all people who dont have standard are all suffering and sad about it is demeaning and patronizing #twitter users when theyve never read about people with limb differences from those people's perspectives #twitter users when theyve never heard of the Lucky Fin Project #sorry for going off agh prosthetics are what i plan on studying & specializing in so i read a lot about this stuff

[lecliss]

I'll never be able to take the theory that Vincent is Sephiroth's real father seriously cuz I cannot stress enough how important I think it is to the plot that Vincent wanted to fuck Lucrecia and did not get to.

#once again i jest but now i have to actually talk about it #like. okay we have no proof of any actual timeline for the dirge flashbacks other than. it was at least 30 years ago #so who knows how long they were at the manor. could have been weeks before The Incident. or months. or maybe a full year! who knows #but to me a timeline of like. they fucked and like a week later vincent found The Evidence and lucercia had her little breakdown #AND THEN EXTREMELY QUICKLY SHE AGREED TO THE EXPERIMENT AND IT COULD GO ONE OF TWO WAYS #1. she knew she was pregnant and thats why she agreed to the experiment cuz there was already a usable subject #and therefore she must have fucked hojo like a week after she fucked vincent AND THATS STUPID FAST FOR THESE EVENTS #or 2. she didnt know. agreed to the experiment. fucked hojo. and therefore thought seph was hojo's and NOT vincent's #AND BY THE WAY. i dont even actually believe hojo fucked either!!! cuz theyre both scientists so why wouldnt they think IVF was the best way #okay. well.... hojo is canonically a fucked up little freak. so. he might have taken the opportunity to... get in there. #also when did ivf even start being a thing? cuz that may play a factor into this if nomura even considered that #well either way lets just unfortunately assume hojo got in there #ITS STILL AN ODDLY FAST TIMELINE #also. fuck man doesnt lucrecia have a later line in dirge where she actually says shes in love with hojo? or something along those lines #IMPLYING ITS BEEN AWHILE SINCE SHE HAD THE FALLING OUT WITH VINCENT. YOU WOULDNT FUCK THE GUY AFTER ALL THAT SHIT #AND WHILE CLAIMING TO LOVE/CURRENTLY FALLING IN LOVE WITH HOJO!!!! LIKE CMON MAN!!!! SHE SUCKS BUT SHES NOT THAT KIND OF A MESS #i dont think vincent would fuck her until they sorted out their issues anyway and that CLEARLY didnt happen. #its VITAL that that did not happen!!!! #its just. if vincent and lucrecia fucked. everything would have had to happen EXTREMELY fast within like a 2 week timespan #and im just talking about up to when vincent learns shes partaking in the experiment. it was probably another week or two until vincent died #SO. logically it must have been like #fall in love->learn about the gimoire incident->refuse to speak to vincent->get obsessed with hojo->fall in love(?) #and then thats where i think its ambiguous on did the experiment become an idea before or after seph started to exist? #like chicken or the egg ya know. experiment idea or sephiroth zygote? #that feels fucked up to say. im so fucking sorry to seph to talk about this. yeah sorry i have to debate who fucked your mom bro #god imagine telling him that. like not even as a reveal thing cuz he knows who his father is. just like as a sick joke. your mom joke. #NO OH M Y GOD I HAVE A QUESTION NOW #in accordance to him having a photo of lucrecia in ever crisis. after he reads that jenova is an ancient (incorrect btw) #does he think that picture is still her? what about when he takes jenova's body from the lab???? #oh my god 30 tag limit. FUCK. i need like a rant blog for all this vincent talk now. my brain is going a mile a minute

[gobstoppr]

and btw im in my hater arc rn. as time goes on the more i find a lot of 'fandom' stuff insufferable (i like art n stuff. just the way that fandom refits every media to fit a single mold and set of boring archetypes is exhausting.)

i just get really easily annoyed lately. and have been unfollowing people on a whim a lot. its not personal i promise

#fandom culture has made me actively dislike shit i was fixated on a year ago. looking at your ninja turtles #its not even like what they were doing were particularly offensive it was just exhaustingly boring #im sorry i just really dont care about ur 2 million fics about leo being a sadboy. or one million seperated aus. #theres definetly a part of the whole situation in general which has been me coming to terms with my own internalized misogny #actively re-examining my tendencys to gravity towards male characters #idk maybe its making me dislike art more. but idk. ive always analyzed why i react certain ways to certain things. this isnt new for me #anywaays. i had been following a bunch of ninja turtle blogs and they sorta kept messing around with shows like ninjago too #and at some point i was just like. i dont know if these shows are actually that good guys. i think youjust like shows for little boys #and fandoms tend to shaft female chars so it sure helps that their casts are 98% male . #maybe theyre not your blorbo maybe theyre just Guy McAverageMan. thats not inherently bad but you have to consider it. #guys rottmnt is isnt even that good . its not that good ok. its alright/pretty good. and the movie does a few neat things #i feel like ive become one of those people that turn 18 and then immediately go 'minors dni'. im not there yet but i just. #we're watching kids shows. its ok . you can say it. #you may have noticed ive been reblogging a lot of dungeon meshi stuff. i read it all over the past week. #but here's the thing. i thought it was mid/good for like 70% of it. #i think its got some really really cool worldbuilding ideas and stuff #but i think a lot of the writing was sorta. uninteresting to me. #my discord friends have been raving over izutsumi for months. #but i found her presence in the story to be weird and underdeveloped. she felt out of place and her introduction felt clumsy #i felt when the story was ramping up the manga got a lot better. because again theres some rlly cool ideas at play #all the shit with the lion? incredible. the way all the infighting led to more problems bc the elves refuse to explain anything? rlly good. #marcille landing in power? reallly good shit. (i still thought it was a lil undercooked still tho) #i cant stop thinking about laios in that climax scene. i think he shouldve been feral a lot more often #uhh. i got distracted. fandom bad and annoying. #saw a post talking about marcille realizing izutsumi is only 17 and then describing how 'omg shes a mom now' and i wanted to throw up #im done. i swear. im done talking for real. aagh #text

[limielle]

idk i feel like so much discourse could be easily minimized if people learned to say "i think" instead of "it is"

#like “i think this is a bad game” is way less abrasive/aggressive than “this is a bad game” #do u know where im going w this like #it's literally 2 extra words and it could avoid like 99% of confrontation #ofc there would still be people who are like “omg how can u hate smth i like ur trash” but idk i feel like so much of this discourse u see #on twt especially #is like ? just people being deliberately aggressive abt stuff they dont like to antagonise others and then going “its just my opinion” #and it's hard to read tone online so it's often hard for me (and im sure for others ?? idk actually) to read whether or not sm1 is being #like. just sharing what they think vs them trying to bait out people who will defend smth they like #idk ive been trying to find ffxiv people to follow bc getting back into the game and finally being confident in my art to draw for it also #has me looking for ppl to follow but i wanna avoid the big livetweet first time experiencers and unfortunately that leaves #a lot of people who are afraid of dawntrail/unhappy with the current patch quests #of which i am neither and i also dont want to log on to the internet every day just to see ppl shitting on things u know ? #and i have seen a LOT of like #'x sucked' and 'fandom lacks critical reading skills' and whatnot #but then u see what theyre talking abt and all theyre doing is shitting on the game itself or going 'x expansion was mid' #like . if u stopped phrasing ur opinions as objective fact i feel like maybe ud avoid half those arguments id k??? #just words #SORRY im talkative today the truth is i worked on a drawing veyr hard and i do not have the strength to colour it but it will not look good #without colour and i feel like i cant move on without it so i went and replayed shadowbringers instead and cried a lot #and now i have lots of icarus feelings again #WOW loiok at me writing an essay out here i overshare so much im sorry

[hella1975]

idk how irl celebrities handle fame at a young age like at seventeen i had a couple hundred people regularly interacting with me and putting me on a pedestal and that almost made me crazy. i see new writers getting attention in fandom and i immediately have to put myself in front of them and start barking. get behind me girl

#I FEEL LIKE THIS SHOULD BE TALKED ABOUT MORE LMAO LIKE EVEN THOUGH IT'S A VERY SMALL AMOUNT OF ATTENTION #COMPARED TO LIKE. ACTUAL CELEBRITY #IT'S STILL INSANE LIKE FOR THE PAST THREE YEARS IVE HAD RECURRING INSTANCES OF PEOPLE BEING WEIRD #AND PUSHING BOUNDARIES AND GENERALLY FORGETTING IM AN ACTUAL REAL LIFE PERSON #AND EVEN A LOT OF THOSE WHO AREN'T - ACCIDENTALLY OR INTENTIONALLY - NEGATIVE ABOUT IT #STILL VERY CASUALLY TALK ABOUT ME LIKE IM SOME SUPERIOR FORCE #LIKE IM JUST A GUY ACTUALLY #AND EVEN THOUGH IM ONLY TWENTY I CAN HANDLE IT A LOTTTTTTT BETTER #BUT SOMEONE NEEDS TO DO A STUDY ON THIS SHIT FOR YOUNGER PEOPLE #BC AT SEVENTEEN I REALLY REALLY CANNOT STRESS ENOUGH HOW BAD THAT SHIT WAS FOR ME LMAO #and now i just go crazy overprotective of newer/more unsure writers/artists in fandom #if ur reading this and ive done this to you then my bad <3 #like if we're in the same circle and you get a mean ask/comment/experience then it's truly a matter of time before i descend from the sky #sorry <3 it will happen again <3 #someone ive interacted with maybe one time: i got a mean ask- #me immediately seeing red: do you want me to kill them for you #nothing triggered this post btw it's just something that's on my mind a lot #i feel like a war veteran and im literally a student. ive been in the trenches besties. i have suffered more than jesus i think

[13eyond13]

Time to start reading The Queen of the Damned I GUESS

#the last/only time i read it was probably like 2006? 2007? #here is what i remember about it #lestat continues being a rockstar #armand is like dating daniel and trying to dress modern in jean jackets and shit #louis is just like lestats cute groupie? i forget if he does anything hahaha he like never does anything after book 1 tbh #but thats why we love im hes just there being a cute passive buzzkill like he always does best #theres a lot of akasha the queen and theres a big like vampire war or something?? #i really dont remember a whole lot else at all #also i remember watching the movie based on it and its so funny and so bad fjdkdkss #full of nu metal and shit #anyways im sorry to subject you all to my vampire chronicles enthusiasm #I KNOW IT'S NOT COOL OK BELIEVE ME I KNOW #however this series really is one of the all-time entertaining series to me #and it's like the most junk foody of junk foods for me entertainment wise #i always feel almost queasy after bingeing on it too much and yet #then i want more the next day #i have grown accustomed to a daily dose of their undead drama and cannot go without for very long #i wonder how far ill get into the series this time #i got so mad at how every book got further and further away from focusing on the main characters i actually cared about after a bit iirc #maybe this time i will actually stick it out #i stopped after book 6 the first time around and there's apparently like 13? #and apparently the last 3 or 4 of those are p new and were written after i dropped it as well #vampire chronicles spoilers #vampire chronicles #interview with the vampire spoilers #p

[deer-with-a-stick]

At this point I stay exclusively on this website and Ao3 for fandom stuff but DAMN what the hell happened with the reviews

Castlevania Rotten Tomatos below for comparison

#*long suffering sigh* more than half of these are because of Annette aren't they #people giving this bad reviews because of the annette thing aren't valid sorry not sorry #if you have actual critiques beyond “omg!!!! woke!!!!” you can stay. at least for a little bit #you don't need to like the character rewrites and race changes but if you're basing your reviews and stuff of it then yeah you're racist #oh dear lord there's homophobia popping up too #urgh #this is what i get for looking at rotten tomatoes -_- #people complaining the show talking about the french revolution...bruh #im only paying attention to the few that don't mention “woke” “SJW” or other shit and some (SOME <- key word there) people are valid #LMFAO PEOPLE WITH DARK SKIN EXISTED IN THE 1700S WHAT THE HELL ARE SOME OF THESE PEOPLE ON #some of these reviews are just insulting to fanfic writers #those people have obviously never read a good fanfic in their LIFE #I am willing to tolerate/engage in a polite discussion with some of the people who thought that a few of the themes should have been subtle #i will agree with some of the people who said that richter should have gotten more screen time #but i think it's just a result of trying to juggle too many plotlines at once #oh dear lord this is getting long #ok i'll shut up now #netflix castlevania #castlevania nocturne #castlevania #castlevania netflix #castlevania: nocturne

[sleepy-vix]

Can bsd fans just STOP complaining about bones studio?? Unless you're going to put in the effort and write an actual reason as to why you think the latest episode was bad (eg: you believed it was too rushed and u state reasons for that etc) then just STFU honestly.

I'm sorry but "the new episode didnt even make sense" is so flimsy and pathetic like what about it didn't make sense? if you're talking abt the unanswered questions then OF COURSE there was going to be unanswered questions, that's how series keep their viewers on their toes.

Also, simply stating "it was too rushed" without giving reasons as to why you thought so is so damn annoying because although i myself believed it was indeed rushed, i'm grateful because honestly that episode was amazing, so either give actual reasons or dont say anything at all. It's not like animes are easy to animate 💀 they had literally only 23(?) minutes to wrap up the whole series and i'm sure they tried their best so just chill out.

Also, for those of you that are skeptical about the episode being canon, i share the very same anxieties, trust me, but it isn't even confirmed so i think shitting on bones studio on the basis that "this new episode may or may not be canon, we dont even know, and our only reason for doubting it's canon is that bones has a history of making their own ending" is immature and extremely unfair. if it is confirmed that bones studio made up their own ending, then by all means, rage and cry and scream. i will gladly join you. but for now, can y'all just be grateful?

#bungou stray dogs #bones studio #i love shitting on bones as much as the next person but some of u guys r just annoying abt it #this is NOT directed at those of u whoe state actual reasons btw! i have seen many good points abt the episode being too rushed or having a #few minor plotholes that dissatisfied you and i have agreed with those and found them very interesting to read #but if you're not going to actually give reasons why u hates the episode and simply complain then just... im sorry but deal with it? #cry about it? #asagiri kafka #sleepy vix #it's funny because it's true #okay but on a less angrier note i am actually praying that the new episode was indeed canon or i will cry

[nilfruits-confessions]

to the person who had a dream where welter told them to get their shit together during a break up. we are like siblings you and i. kind of. nilfruits was the reason i managed to leave a terrible relationship because i had listened to hungry nicole a few too many times before realizing “wow this song shouldn’t remind me of what i’m actively dealing with. i’m outta here”

.

#nilfruits #confessions #monster series #hungry nicole #nicole #im so glad nilfruits songs are helping people realize theyre in shit situations and get out of them #for me personally haruni made me want to try a little bit harder at life just after listening to it for the third time and reading the lyri #the lyrics and taking the entire song in. and for dear life gave me the motivation to continue drawing what i wanted to #those two songs REALLY helped me have more hope in life and actually try living and being happy instead of justlying in a pool of sadness #sorry for the tag ramble augh

[ei-mugi]

im not a even a fan of the "hellaverse" but i have seen helluva boss and with all the twitter uproar over the hazbin ep4 leaks i went and found a reaction video of the full ep on yt so i could see how bad it really was and. jesus christ. theres certainly analysis of the visuals that could be had regarding the original criticisms but for me the episode was more like... 1. angel dust is the exact same character as fizzarolli 2. hellaverse is never going to break away from writing its characters like a whump fic is it and 3. this is an absolutely horrible portrayal of sex workers. vivienne pleaseeeee get your head out of the yaoi bin and remind yourself of like. women and misogyny. and stop writing all your sex worker/sexually abused (notice how that is grouped together) characters in the same way. sex workers arent all victims who need to be saved from their jobs

#sorry i just already had a ton of thoughts on how poorly i thought fizzarolli was written #half for the writers riding too much on whump standards and thus ignoring the glaring fundamental issues in his life #and then blaming all of his problems on being cutely insecure #but also in the like. misogyny. i get it we fandomers like yaoi but please. HOW could you look at those 2 women villains #in s2e7 and decide that was okay. that was egregious #ive just been thinking about this shit way too much and i kind of want to dump a proper analysis of it but also. sigh. #do i REALLY want to be blogging about hazbin and helluva #then again i also feel the need to say stuff because im willing to bet that anyone on YT whos making hellaverse analysis #isnt familiar with whump and like. as someone who enjoys whump i think it should be required reading for understanding how narratives like #fizzarollis are constructed #because there are very obvious tropes and character archetypes being taken directly from whump-style stuff and it is NOT good in this mediu #as much as i enjoy a bit of catharsis you cant just carry over the same stuff from it and expect your audience to suspend their disbelief i #the same way. because once you start thinking about the actual politics and personal implications of it... #well. you end up with a poorly written show with poorly written characters that inadvertently end up being misogynistic #sigh. if someone wants me to i can share my thoughts on this #i dont entirely hate the hellaverse im more ambivalent on it i guess. i did like some parts of it but as a whole its not my thing #i am someone who enjoys thinking about this stuff and doing some casual textual analysis though #so i cant help thinking about this stuff when watching or reading anything

[i-luvsang]

GUYS I FORGOT ABT MY MILESTONE EVENT LMAO IM SORRY KJDHFSKJD

#hopefully i can get back on that shit asap #i actually want to do those request #brain forgot fr #omg i do not want to go to my classes tomorrow #literal lie i kinda do #im just nervyyy aaaaa #this english class is gonna be hard #but interesting me thinks #anyways lol #yeah i got preoccupied with reading books binging alice in wonderland and chishiya fanfiction so #sorry lololol

[crowdsourcedloner]

2. What was the first moment that they knew they were in love with their LI?

13. How do they react at being away from each other?

26. How important is the romance in your OC’s overall story?

these are going under a cut for length, but thank you!!!

2. What was the first moment that they knew they were in love with their LI?

There were a lot of little moments for Nailah, but if one had to be chosen as the moment... it'd be the one they shared before scaling Mount Gulg. She pieced together who the Exarch was shortly before then, and though she still didn't know why he was doing what he was, hearing someone she deeply trusted speak so warmly to her after some of the worst experiences in her life set her heart on fire for him.

It's a similar story for G'raha - several smaller moments rather than one big one - but the through-line of all of those bits was seeing Nailah let down her walls and just be herself. He fell in love with each glimpse of her gentle nature, each quiet chuckle he heard, each shy smile he caught... it was a slow, inevitable love for him.

13. How do they react at being away from each other?

If he's not kept busy, G'raha falls into wistful pining pretty quickly. His thoughts regularly drift to thinking about (or worrying over) Nailah, and he writes letters when his yearning becomes too much to bear. The letters rarely get sent - apparently postmoogles don't accept 'nondescript Eorzean wilderness' as a valid mailing address - so he stores them in Nailah's annex room for her to read when she returns.

While Nailah likes having time for herself, she doesn't like staying away from G'raha for too long - he's one of very few people she's comfortable being herself around, and going back into the public eye alone isn't something she enjoys. Tiring as it is, she retreats to her colder, distant professionalism, fighting off her yearning with her poetry in dark inn rooms or secluded camps while collecting stories and trinkets as gifts for her lover upon her return. The longer she's kept away, the colder she comes across to those around her - though admittedly, it's hard for strangers to notice the difference.

26. How important is the romance in your OC's overall story?

it's important, but it's not the be-all end-all if that makes sense? it's the culmination of lessons she learns through her journeys, but it's not the point of her story. the romance is supposed to represent Nailah finding her own self worth and choosing to pursue something for herself, even if that something is as small as loving someone else. she needs a space to figure herself out and just... be Nailah, and G'raha gives her that and more, while she gives him just as much support and encouragement in his own choices - choices that he also is starting to pursue for himself.

...i think that's as good an explanation as i can give without incoherently rambling tbh.

#answered asks #thank you for the asks!!! im sorry they took so long!!! #oc: hrothwol #ship tag goes here #lil more context bc i cannot stop myself and clearly dont understand formatting #nailah held a candle for g'raha since the very end of the crystal tower raids #but she was in no state to recognize those feelings or do anything about them at the time #(the first spark here was hearing him talk about his dreams with such conviction and warmth - #- she wanted to hear him speak of her like that one day... but didnt understand why) #so she chalked it up to missing someone she was unexpectedly attached to #g'raha was convinced nailah hated him at the start of the ct raids since she kept him at arms length #and she kept wandering off to be alone (her echo was acting up and she needed a lot of breaks) #...it was a whole thing but they eventually talked it out and she started opening up to him #the whole 'century alive with only stories of the Warrior of Light' thing did mess with his memory of her #so there was a little culture shock(?) when he sees her again in shb #(nailah was pretty frustrated during early shb so he got a pretty skewed first impression again lol) #he fell in love with who she actually was over the shb story and as he fully remembered their time together #...holy shit thats a lotta tags... #i appreciate any of y'all that read these #and apologize for exploding your dashes it will happen again ;-;

[vagueshape]

Why does making stuff have to be so expensive hhhhhhh

#my sewing machine was made in a way that it is almost impossible to service on my own #i cant afford a new machine #but hand sewing through denim is actual hell on earth #also i have so many ideas for jewelry but getting all the supplies beads chain etc is so fucking expensive #unless i get it from amazon or smth which... no. #my weird art isnt cutting it rn because it is a physical manifestation of my current manic episode which is very very bad and awful #its all paintings of meat and religious trauma and my hallucinations #and that is not fun #its a great way of getting it all out but #im not showing that to anyone #i need something i can wear and show everyone because i love saying i made stuff to others #also i hate all of my clothes i hate the way i look in all of them and making my own is like the best way to get around that #uhhhh if youve read this far i am so so sorry #if you could see the inside of my brain it would look like one of those boards you see conspiracy theorists in shows have #yk with all the red yarn and shit #yeah #thats it thats my brain rn #all the time #these tags are a post in and of itself i am so sorry #long tags