#im sick of myself

[the-orinayo-guy]

6 people [and counting.] have blocked me at this point and im so sick of this website. And ALMOST ALL OF THEM IVE MADE A MODEL FOR.

These Models Take Hours To Make Ya know? And im sick of the little reactions when i Spend HOURS making them. IM so close to just deleting all the models of the people,

I just...dont think i should even use this website if ill get this much slander

#im sick of myself #im sick of them #im sick and tired of all of this #i just want it to be over #i just want it to end #why does the entire world just fucking hate me #why does this happen to me #just why #do i have suffer? #... #.. #.... #now i have to put some tags so this even gets noticed. #pizza tower #fake peppino #peppino #im not doing well #help me #i cant do this anymore #this website is killing me #it just... #i... #i dont want to exist

[br4e1yn]

ALWAYS ON DRAWING BRAINROT OF MY CHILDREN☹️🫶‼️‼️

#artists on tumblr #digital art #illustration #digital illustration #digital painting #artwork #original character #digital sketch #female artists #my art :d #brainrot #im sick #IM SICK OF MYSELF #pov: they all have trauma #lgbt art #queer #(ALMOST) ALL OF THEM ARE GAY #my children #sketch #sketches #sketchbook #doodle #the sillies #my cutie patootie #they are all babygirl #original comic #character design #I CANT DRAW HANDS #artist on tumblr

[naes-dairy]

I really want to give up

I really wish the body didn't try so hard

Just make an exception for me, please

I'm seriously so tired, I'm not even doing any work

I always crumble apart when I'm on my own

Nobody is there to see me or hear me

I'm so tired of it all

I though the dead of night was my safe haven

The time where I could freely be me to do whatever I want

But now it's a nightmare

I long to see it, yet dread the tears

It's painful

Of all it, I just want to sleep forever

I don't even remember my dreams

It's like life is a nightmare and we all have to out up with it

Some survive, others dint

I don't want to

I want to give up.

Just let me give up, please

I'm so tired.

Please.

I don't even know what else to say

I can compare my sufferings to all the other people in the world and berate myself

But pain is still pain, and it hurts nonetheless.

I wish it didnt

But being immune to pain doesn't cure the sickness.

Man. I know I was never suicidal, but...

I really wonder how many times I've lied to people about my feelings

Nobody knows.

Nobody will figure it out.

I can only leave the faintest clues for people, and even then my facade will trick them

I wish death would just take me

I don't want to suffer anymore, even if I'm the one who's causing it

Because I can't even fix what I've started

And that's the worst kind of trouble

#ive given up on trying ti meesage crisis lines #trying to call them is even worse because of my anxiety #i just want to give up #im saying it in the nicest way possible #i dont want to die #i want to stop trying #to give up and never return #to stop breathing of my own accord #and dream of an endless slumber #its too bad i dont really have dreams #i dont even know what im talking about anymore #maybe ive lost it #trying to distract myself again will just lead to my frelings getting out of control again #im sick of this #im sick of myself #you dont understand #i dont understand #expresso the depresso #naes vent posts #i must be depressed #depression #suicide #i guess #im so sick in the head #what is wrong with me #what #what?

[chaosdisorganized]

I need to vent but I don't know how to put it into words. This struggle I've been going through is indescribable. I need some kind of relief for this pain. I'm so tired of being like this. I'm so tired of burdening other people. I'm so tired of pretending like I'm okay everyday. I just want to let it out. Get it out of me, I'm tired of it, it's painful, get it out! Get it out!

#vent #im so sorry im like this #i feel repulsive #im sick of myself

[midfantaseas]

sometimes i tell myself “i’ll do it tomorrow” and wonder when that tomorrow will arrive

#im sick of myself

[valleyfae]

no one wants to read for six go get help for ur daddy issues ur embarrassing

To everyone but you

#fran's mail #somethings are most than just ‘daddy issues’ #anyways 😕 #i just need someone i need to cry and vent but i just can’t #im sick of myself #i desperately need someone to genuinely care but i need to suffer #i am so gross and boney and unlovable #i feel so disgusting in my mind and body #fucking hell im insufferable. im sorry. im done.

[elenille]

Tearfully googling "how not to overshare" after being once again emotionally slutty with an unavailable straight white man

#and sober too!!!!! #im sick of myself #bitch u better start being more cryptic and mysterious or so help me

[negrowhat]

I abandoned the mission and now the bitch is dripping all over my lunchbag...

#im sick of myself

[cravny]

Woaw holy shit

I really do have mental problems

#mental illness #shitpost #idk im just really being exhausted by myself again #im sick of myself #why cant i do things that i dont want to do? #like just do it and stop complaining pls #but no i just start a serie or play games instead #like bitch could u stop and do the important thing instead #why am i like this fr #it makes me want to hurt myself so much

[how2forgive]

what if I just decided to live without shame. what then

#lately im getting sick of my personal narrative and watching myself run all my relationships to the ground #l1

[harryshomebaby]

im putting myself on a shopping ban for the next 2 months

#itll do me some good #no more having to return online orders #im sick of shit being the wrong size or having some stupid reason as to why I can’t keep it #NO MORE SHOPPING #NO MORE ONLINE SHOPPING #Im sick of myself #rant

[cemeterything]

cephalophore = person (often a saint, but not exclusively) carrying their own decapitated head

euphoria = ecstatic happiness, joy

cephalophoria = the delight you feel upon seeing someone carrying their own decapitated head

#🐉 #inventing new emotions for myself because im sick of the existing ones

[ireonic]

Me: how do I study as a neurodivergent person?

Google: how to help your autistic child study

Me: how to study as an autistic adult/teen

Google: teachers guide to how to deal with autistic children

Me: how do I study as an autistic teen/adult

Google: study tips for autistic people(-written by this allistic man that will talk about autistic people like they're zoo animals)

Me: how to study as a neurodivergent adult, tips from neurodivergent person to neurodivergent students, on how to study independently as an autistic person, no reliant support needed

Google: high functioning autism and school

Me: fuck just. How do I focus during this test that I'm in rn as an AuDHD person

Google: ok, so, to focus on this thing that you currently are doing and need to get done TODAY; weeks before the test you'll need to eat healthy and exercise, meditate, study, set timers, take breaks, drink water, sleep, find the secrets to a happy life, adopt five children, sacrifice a goat, take short showers, brush your teeth

Executive dysfunction:

My fucking deadline:

#adhd #actually autistic #im so fucking sick #of the tips for people taking care of people with autism when im sesrching SPECIFICALLY on how to manage my own autism #im so sick of getting infantalized #im so sick of getting alienated from the fact that im human #im so fucking sick of autistic adults getting forgotten #im tired of searching for how to help myself and getting tips for people who dont struggle with what i do #im sick of getting callef high functioning #im sick of getting told when i look for study tips to rely on other people to help me #rant post

[haxxydraws]

roadkill angel

#angels #blood #ask to tag #painted #2023 #edit: lowered the resolution to get rid of that ugly link under the pic #i've been trying to get myself to draw for two days straight but im sick so this is the most we get for now #once i feel less like a corpse im going to finalize my comm queue and maybe open up a few more slots

[girlboyburger]

i was extremely sleep deprived yesterday when i discovered the dragon survival mod which was LIFE CHANGING when you're on three hours of sleep so of course i made a whole custom forest dragon texture in one day about it. and. just for fun, some concept art i made for it:

#aka i was too tired to trust myself to speak coherently with clients or make commission work up to my standards. but i need to be productive #or ill die #my art #minecraft #mineblr #dragon #dragonsona #of sorts #forest dragon #earth dragon #lush cave #mods in the video tht are noticable btw: complimentary reimagined shaders. alex's mobs. ambient sounds 5. mizuno 16 craft resource pack. #and a really cool seed i found online :] #video #NOT my model but im going to tag it as #my model #since it's 3D work!! actual model made by blackaures who made the mod and also some SICK ass dragon art #also. patreon gets to see the other 3 pages of concept art i made for this later today! :] wink wink nudge. coughs #sorry i need to shill #um. anyways #no name for this dragon yet. i do know it steals livestock from too-small village/illager pens #to give them enriched lives in its expansive cave farm #i'd like to come back to this eventually and touch up the wing design since the glowing spots didnt really shake out

[ao3commentoftheday]

waiting for tumblr users to start hiding walruses in images because they just have to do it to you

#I'd do it myself #but im sick in bed #so have yourselves and idea #i hope someone runs with it