#im not involved in this i was just a kid in 2016

[carlestin]

i jsut wanna know shawty do you notice me shawty you should roll with me come over and smoke with me

#i will never finish this one cuz idk i can not be drawing for several days straight for one art bro (work kept me from finishing this) #i forgot these guyz existed #mystery skulls #mystery skulls animated #msa #arthur kingsmen #vivi yukino #lewis pepper #whats their ship called all three of them #idk man #im not involved in this i was just a kid in 2016 #carl art tag #lewvithur #i now know the ship name

[appalachianapologies]

A Slice of a Splice

Samantha Cage watches the way Mac and Jack interact at the end of 2x04. There's a reason why those two are nearly inseparable, and it's far too similar to why she has no one.

#yes it's another fic that i wrote today #no i will not be taking questions at this time #anyway i hope you enjoy it involves samantha cage who incidentally is the love of my life #just kidding that's levy tran #anyway #i have a 9 am lecture so im gonna head to bed now #love you all by the way #this is a present for all of you #because i love the macgyver fandom so much #and i love my readers #aH listen i just really care about you guys #in which vi actually writes #macgyver #macgyver 2016 #angus macgyver #jack dalton #samantha cage #2x04

[altschmerzes]

for those of you playing along at home, i made it through the funeral/memorial/whatever. honestly could’ve been worse.

this is long and probably tmi but im processing out loud ig. probably should just keep a journal instead but here we are.

yesterday sucked ass mostly because like. at some point in the last two years since i started law school/moved to canada my father sent me some package at my grandmother’s house. yes this is after i made it very clear i did not want to see or hear from him. years after i made that clear. he did this fairly regularly - tried to give me things or pass messages through my sister or my mother or grandmother. anyway she asked if i wanted it, i was like. uh. No. and i guess she kept it for Some Reason because when i was very briefly at her house before heading to where the memorial happened today she pointed me at a pile of my things she wanted me to look at and there was a package. and on autopilot or something because ive been completely f r i e d out of my gourd this weekend i made the mistake i havent made in YEARS and opened it.

and i gotta say if i were going to ignore my daughter’s very clearly communicated boundaries and attempt to get in touch with her after she made it extremely clear she did not want me to do that SIX YEARS AGO at the time my go-to method of somehow persuading her to drop her decision to go no-contact wouldn’t involve [checks notes] a pearl necklace and a three-plus page letter about how nothing was ever my fault.

threeeeeee and then some pages of self-pitying guilt trip about how everyone turned their backs on him and other people kept us apart (as if that was the problem, the years of his absence rather than the years of his abuse) and how he knows the alcohol was bad but he’s off it now! he’s had such a hard life! i should stop punishing myself and other people! he won’t be around forever! (ISNT THAT IRONIC. LMAO.) after finishing this letter he TWICE decided he needed to add extra bits about how things don’t have to be like this, they can be better, and how im making “uninformed decisions” about him without knowing “the whole story.”

yikes.

anyways. that sucked and fucked me up real bad but my fiancé and i burned it last night on the beach and i threw the pearls (pearls? really? PEARLS?????) into the pacific.

then today. it was honestly fine. none of his friends seemed to even know i refused to speak to him, as they talked to me like they were assuming i was around all the time and super involved in his life. not sure what to make of that but it made it very easy to smile and nod and thank them for coming and not worry about anything further than that. he knew some cool people honestly. they were pretty neat, and his partner of 11 years, effectively my stepmom, is kind of awesome tbh. no idea what she was doing with him. and also my sister only yelled at me in front of some 50+ people once. for my sister this was a win.

and my brother came.

that was….. shocking. i had been in contact with his mom on and off about this but it was NOT clear at all if he was gonna show up. i figured not, honestly, because he’s so hard to get ahold of and none of us have seen him since 2016. but he came. and he brought his kids. my nephew is going into fifth grade and my niece is starting second and oh my gd they’re great. they’re adorable and funny and such sweet kids and i hand to gd thought id never see them again. now it looks like they’re going to come to my wedding reception when we have one out here so my family can attend something. it’s…. i didnt think id ever see or speak to him again and definitely not the kids. but there they were. i stood next to my brother with his arm around my shoulders and mine around his waist while my mom gave a little speech to everyone who was there thanking them for coming and felt him breathing and couldn’t believe it was real. i dug around in the sand with my niece and my nephew must have hugged me about a half-dozen times. they’re good, sweet kids and my brother is a kind, patient father.

tomorrow’s gonna suck, taking a redeye home, gonna land at like 5 am tuesday and then have to cross my fingers and hope border control is chill with me, this whole situation has been a complete nightmare (except for my wife being there, thank gd) but today was as good as it possibly could’ve been. it’s probably gonna take me a while to really like….. even out from this, i think, but it’s almost over and then i get to live the rest of my life without worrying about ever seeing that man again.

what he did to me is going to follow me the rest of my life but HE won’t because he’s fucking dead and im alive and that means i won.

#gav gab #death cw #abuse cw #goes into some addiction stuff too

[onlyjaeyun]

Need to let this out…I don’t know if you’ve seen the hyuna case but I’m so disgusted to say the least..her dating a guy that’s involved in the burning sun scandal and dated her dead friend (goo hara) while hara helped with the burning sun investigation. I literally feel so sick to my stomach and this resllt proves idols aren’t the people they are on camera as hyuna was knowing for being a feminist, but then dating a guy who watched the r@pe videos, I am so disgusted to say the least and this whole situation resllt made my day worse..it shows again that idols aren’t who we think they are and who knows other idols that do bad stuff too and knowing I might idolise them makes me feel so sick, I feel so bad for dawn too I’m glad he’s gone from hyuna, he got kicked out of his company early in his career to date hyuna for them to later on to break up and her dating someone who did all that..reslly sick

I’m sorry for the spam love this situation just makes me have so many questions

oof bestie dont even get me started i am so..angry and disappointed. when i got into kpop in 2016 hyuna was THAT girls girl and now she went and HARD launcched that fucker all proud and shit i gasped so loud bc of how shocked i was im not even kidding. i was already so so sad when she broke up with dawn but like thats life and ig it had to happen but this..? even if she ignored his involvement in a case so scandalous and disgusting, how could she EVER do this goo hara like that woman was your friend and you're doing this i'm..speechless and i genuinely understand every single stan who now reacts the way you and i do because that is absolutely unacceptable. lowkey hoping its just some sick joke but knowing her its not, im just sad and disappointed. she's such a big role model to so many young female idols and this ruins the image she's worked so hard for to maintain all this time..how heartbreaking..

#; mailbox 📬 #burning sun scandal cw #rape cw #assault cw

[vividaway]

mini analysis on the finale

yall im not even gonna lie..........i liked the season 5 finale. the concept that these are teenagers who have been beaten and worn down to a crisp to the point of multiple mental breakdowns from both marinette and adrien.........like of course marinette didn’t tell adrien. she’s a literal child, and she loves him, and honestly? its really not her PLACE to tell him. emilie knows about gabriels involvement with the miraculous. nathalie knows about EVERYTHING. there are multiple ADULTS who can step in and talk to him about this, and they chose not to. multiple people have said it: of COURSE adrien deserve to know, and i will be very upset if they never write in him finding out. but it also seems excessively cruel to do that to adrien. as far as adrien is aware, his dad was trying. he thinks his dad is a man chiseled away by depression and grief, who turned towards his works to cope with the loss. he believes there was a turning point where his father started to try. he allowed him to go to school, to make new friends and go to their house, allowed him to quit, started to show up to school events, and finally started to show him affection. adrien is none the wiser on WHY, and it feels extremely cruel to take away what little happy moments he had left with his father. what is the bare minimum to us, is literally EVERYTHING to adrien, and to me, that does mean something. to me, seeing gabriel sacrifice himself for adrien and his wife-- means EVERYTHING. it is what differentiates an evil, unrecoverable person, from a dynamic character who was never meant to be a good person. we were never meant to like gabriel. he’s the villain! but that doesn’t mean we aren’t supposed to be sympathetic to certain aspects of his journey.  i really do think his character was written well. gabriel is a bad, unredeemable man, who did one good action. i personally can’t look at gabriel from season one and say, “he shouldve sacrificed his life in place of his wives life sooner”, it feels wrong. gabriel from season 1 was EXTREMELY different from gabriel from season 5. we see him change (for the worse) over the course of five seasons. 

and the thing about how gabriel is written is like, its realistic. gabriel isnt just a cartoon villain from some kids show, he show’s patterns of real life villains as well. the manipulation, the lying, the guilt tripping, the abuse-- all of it. and thats why, i understand why some people are pissed he got redeemed. but for me, i see the build up. lila has the photographs from gabriels house, and she knews he was monarch. on top of this, it seems like she’s the successor to the butterfly miraculous. people know what he did, and its not just the people on the good side. i don’t see gabriel staying a sympathetic figure for much longer. but all this being said, i dont think it was the worst. the pacing was great, and the animation was top tier for me. theres so many episodes where i can predict whats going to happen next, but i couldn’t with this one. some thing about it just felt....special. like if you showed alyssa from 2016 the finale, i could literally die. no need to show a peasant child, just showing Season One Era fans what happened and how it looks and we’d just. die. everything about it 10x better than we couldve imagined. the writing, the animation, the pacing, the score, the dialogue, the way the world has expanded and been built up and how often we’re interacting with “background characters”.  for once, it felt like i was watching a real show, with a plot that made sense, and wasnt a dumpster fire. but...from reading the #MLBS5Spoilers tag....yall do NOT agree with my sentiments! and thats okay! 

#ml season 5 spoilers #ml s5 spoilers #ml spoilers #miraculous spoilers #ml season 5 #miraculous season 5 #mlb #mlb fandom #ml #ml fandom #miraculous tales of ladybug and chat noir #miraculous ladybug #miraculous fandom #adrien #marinette #chat noir #cat noir #ladybug #ml ladybug #ml chat noir #alyssa speaks #gabriel #gabriel agreste #hawkmoth #monarch

[milos-journal]

i haven't been involved in slenderverse stuff since MH ended and EMH like? fizzled out or whatever happened there. been slowly getting back into it after rewatching MH

1. it's so fun to see the fandom populated by teens compared to prevs when it was mostly college-age (it's like, weird but in a fun way! cool to see how the lore/mythos have evolved to match the changing demo, thumbs up. )

2. are there any series you'd rec that have older actors/characters in them? most of what i'm finding is like, 16 yr olds, which is still awesome but! i'd love more college-aged stuff if that exists? idk?

3. anything in the vein of, whisperedfaith, downmycellardoor, series that are doing WEIRD things w/the mythos, u know? <3

1) i think ngl while most of the active sv was like. college aged. a lot of teen sv fans ik were kids let on the internet way too early who happened to find sv! that mixed w the fact slenderverse jad a weird blow up on tiktok in 2022.

2) stan fredericks a good one (2016 version, BTS/2012 was also just teenagers lmao), afraidathome is pretty good, and so is findmaddiegriffin!

3) sadly as much as its been a special interest of mine for years, im a slenderverse noob when it comes to some smaller series LMAO. only advice i can give is while a lot of new stuff is made by babies, there is some stuff by college age ppl out there i swear. some ppl are makin COOL SHIT as of rn and its so fun

#milomamu #sorry this wasnt much help

[doggirlhen]

i just finished spiritfarer, actually properly finished. its impossible for me to talk about this game purely subjective bc its so. close to me. and my lived experience. putting this big long thing under a keep reading, warnings for discussion of death and whatnot as thats the prominent theme of the game, and spoilers for the game probably

please excuse the messy, rambly writing, im very tired and very very emotional about this sad boat game and just need to get my thoughts about it down before i go crazy

impossible to not cry at the end. i bought this game around 2019 on my switch, fresh after two or three big familial deaths. picked it up here and there but could never get myself to the end, either being to busy or it being too much for me. i finally found some time now, after owning it on PC for a year or two, to sit down and let myself experience it.

this game treats the passing of loved ones with such respect and care and the grief that follows so beautifully. even the characters i didnt much care for i felt heavily about when it was their turn through the everdoor. it blends this grief with gameplay mechanics so well, and doesnt ever let you forget those close to you. almost every character either has a resource you can collect because of them, their spirit still there when you need more of it, or theyre the ones who had you build the crafting station to make materials and youre reminded of them when you step in the door. i found myself making sure i had everyones favorite foods stocked in my inventory well past their exit. and to really hammer it in, everyone gets their profile marked in the stars when theyre gone.

stella's job is to take care of people, but shes always felt like a vessel-type character to me, as ive had my dealings with the loss of loved ones and those around me and found it incredibly easy to wear her shoes.

moments that really stood out to me were atul not letting you take him through, you just find his flower on its own. so heavily touched me, a man whos only ever cared for you not letting you see his struggles because he knew thats all youd devote yourself too. stanley, letting the weird kid take it the only way a kid could, curious but scared but you were holding his hand. i cant even begin to talk about daria, shes new to me and i can only hope no one can relate to her story but feel for her just the same. gwen, god i could go on about gwen. all the characters feel so lively, so real, all dealing with whats ending them as best they can.

the one that got me the most, though, was astrid. my grandmother on my moms side passed in 2019, so already getting me with a grandmother character but astrids story and motivations remind me so much of her and one of her lines at the everdoor, "dont forget me or i'll haunt you" sounds exactly like somehting my grandmother would say. tears pouring out of my eyes only beat by the end of the game as a whole. such a beautiful story

and beautiful game, too. breaking from the sad stuff for a bit to say the art and music are so beautfully crafted and touching, every character design and choice of animal so perfectly selected. look at darias profile how can you not fall in love immediately. look at her :3

just. please play this game if you have any sort of feelings about grief and loss. its touched my heart several times in the years since 2016 after lots of familial death and covid. its a bunch of different games at once, largely a resource management and crafting game but the story is so well written and the visuals are beautiful and im soon to buy the soundtrack because i always need it with me

this game means so much to me and will forever be on my mind, one million thank yous and tears to thunder lotus games and everyone involved.

#barks #spiritfarer

[menalez]

sorry i have a kinda weird ask… (i’m 19 for reference) is age regression just thumb sucking and baby talk? or can you regress to like 6-7years old? i’m like stressing out haha because i have a lot of different ‘habits’ that make me feel better that are typically found in children. like i hug my knees when i’m upset, or hide in small spaces, or i dress kind of younger… not like a baby, but similar to how i did when i was like a 6 year old. (example sweatshirts with more kid friendly patterns, jeans with stars or flowers sewn into them, bows in my hair, the really short choppy bangs that lots of kids have, and just looking at pictures of me when i was a kid i have the exact same style now and dress basically the same) idk it’s nothing sexual or like little little- no diapers or little skirts or anything. but just small things common with kids. like i pack my lunches in those sectioned off lunch boxes made for elementary schoolers and they usually have just carrots grapes pb&j- or like juice boxes or cutting my food into squares or stars orusing a cookie cutter to shape it cute. idk this feels hard to explain but i basically just adopt a lot of habits or routines that i had back when i was like 6-7ish and i didn’t even really realize that i was doing it until about a week ago and i just feel so uncomfortable and i don’t know if i’m age regressing. does this sound like age regression? or do you think i’m just weird? i definitely did have a very traumatizing childhood and so i don’t know if it’s a response to that or if that’s just how i am.. i don’t use baby talk per say.. i sometimes kind of talk like how a kid would.. but just in my mannerisms not in the actual way it sounds. i also like to have a lot of ‘cute’ stuff - like stuffed animals or cat patterned or flower patterned or heart patterned sheets.. or coloring books but ones made for kids. stuff like that. i act normal around people, i’m very shy so i don’t really talk to anyone that i don’t already know, and my only friends are people i’ve known for years so they just already know how i am.. but still. but i don’t like act like i’m a baby.. or even a toddler …. i kind of pout sometimes but not on purpose. or like all the time if i’m upset i do something i did when i was a little kid. like i’ll play a video game i loved as a kid… or i’ll make myself a snack that i loved as a kid../ or just do something that i did when i was little to calm me down. like i don’t know there’s more but it’s hard to explain all of it. basically i don’t act like how a modern kid would (someone born in like 2016) like.. i just act almost exactly like how i did when **i** was a kid. idk if that changes anything… anyways sorry for rambling. i feel embarrassed saying this bc i know it’s weird for an adult, even a young one, to act like that.. i’m not like a perv or anything it’s not sexual. i’ve said that already but idk when ppl see age aggression a lot of the time they associate it with a sexual thing.. idk sorry i’m bad at explaining stuff. anyways does this sound like age regression or am i just weird?

if someone's age regression involved them acting like a kid from a different time than them then id jsut think they were weird or that its something else, i think its pretty normal for ur age regression to be more like.. as if ur still a child.

honestly tho from this alone, i dont know. i would think maybe youre childish but not necessarily age regressing. in my experience, when i age regress, i usually talk differently. like a dumb child or something. i also become extremely sensitive, prone to bawling, scared if someone yells or raises their voice, more childlike mannerisms. its not a constant thing for me at all, i noticed it only happens when im vulnerable in some way. if im afraid or stressed, for example. i wouldnt say ive got a childish diet or wear kids clothing, but also i dont age regress anywhere near as much as i used to as a teenager and i think it has become less and less prominent the older i got. i also dont think i get childish interests in those times either, but honestly the things i liked as a kid werent that childish anyways and i enjoy a lot of it today ? i also have a lot of plushies which when living alone i would hug them to sleep and sometimes i pout and the like but i feel like thats normal hfdhfdhs. its nothing sexual for me either and i think in general age regression is more like, a trauma thing rather than a sexual thing. the people who have made it sexual or a lifestyle thing need to be seriously evaluated esp the men that get off on that (actually the men who get off on that should die, but anyways.)

also i think doing things that u have loved since childhood isnt age regression, i feel like thats a pretty logical self-soothing tactic? i also often will go to things that are comforting to me and such things are often positive things from my childhood

#anonymous

[mtsodie]

You're not being sensitive, telling kids to kill themselves on a pony game is definitely a big problem... the Silly Pony Game is not anyone's blog or personal space, it's meant for everyone and by entering a public chat you are taking some level of responsibility for how your words will affect sensitive parties involved... that's just How It Is

TYSM YOU GET IT... theres a shitload of issues w/ how people interact with others (and i know i fall into these holes sometimes by butting in... i wanna correct people when theyre being homophobic!! (which is ANOTHER BIG ISSUE.) im trying my best not to butt in so much.....) but the amount of slurs (ive seen multiple people throw around the nslur and the rslur) and telling people to kys ive seen on the SAFE server is. wild to say the least. its like... people dont rlly seem to understand the effects their words have on other people :/

ive been playing this game since late 2016 - early 2017 (my current account says 2017; but i had a previous account that i cannot log into.....) and seeing the community change over time is... disheartening tbh

#i should try and find my old skins from then..... #hmmm #i found some screenshots from 2019!! but theyre mostly other peoples skins that i screenshotted for inspo and the multiple deaththreats #i got around that time #< note i think they were meant to be rping???? but jesus

[doloridis]

GET TO KNOW THE MUN.

name: megan

pronouns: she/they

preference of communication: carrier pigeon. no i kid, i'm generally far more reliable on discord than i am on im's, and that's mainly bc i have too many blogs and i don't log into each of them every single day so if u message me on one blog i might not see it for another week and then i feel very very very guilty so. discord is best w me :)

most active muse: active is a questionable word here ... i typically operate all of my blogs on a "if i have muse for them, i'm on them" basis as well as a "if there's a plot/dynamic potential with this muse, i log on to them" basis, which means that my level of activity can really spike or drop depending on my mood. BUT. as of late shiv and callie have been who i find myself logging into most, and like, interacting with their dashes

experience / how many years: in the indie tumblr rpc since march 2016, but i was in rp groups from like 2013 onwards. i was also in fb rp groups at entirely too young an age, probably circa 2010? i shudder to think about it

best experience: TBH it's gotta be when i had my wee time traveller oc tim (she's over @ prewette, shameless self promotion) because she was one of the very first ocs i'd ever, like, properly fleshed out and written on tumblr, and she was SO well received? everybody loved on her and there was genuine interest and appreciation for her as a character, and it warmed my heart so much, and made me so excited to actually be in the rpc and be writing.

rp pet peeve: like rika said, when people write accents that they don't know in replies – i always think it's bad enough when you are familiar with it in the first place, but when you don't, it just makes me cringe. people who take themselves entirely too seriously and seem to be allergic to fun. the lack of media literacy or critical thinking skills that seems to infest certain fandoms and spaces on here, especially where it involves complex and morally grey female characters ...

plots or memes: i adore plotting and i think it helps me find motivation for replying to threads when there's been some kind of dynamic or timeline or idea developed and established. i do like winging it, don't get me wrong, but sometimes i get too in my head and anxious that where/how i see it going is not how my writing partner sees it going, and so i put off replying for such a long time it becomes embarrassing

long or short: i'm here for both! i do adore long threads, but find they can take a lot out of me after the first few replies that i speedily write out of adrenaline and excitement. not to say that i lose any of that, or that i stop loving the thread, bc i absolutely never do, but like i said above, i get in my own head and i worry about length and the ratio of dialogue to prose. i start overanalysing myself and my writing, and then, again, i put off replying for a loooong time (are we all noticing a pattern here?) HOWEVER i also cannot handle like. one-liners. at all. i get bored so easily i'm so sorry you'd imagine with an attention span as short as i have i'd love them but nope. generally, one/two para threads are the ones that i think i'm most likely to be consistent to be with, but no promises as usual

are you like your muses: i have long since said that there's a part of me to be found in every muse that i pick up, and people are gradually beginning to realise that i'm entirely correct in that lmao. typically, it tends to be the underlying current of depression and anxiety, the bottling up all their emotions until it eventually breaks them down in an ugly display that they hate, the feeling that they're just Too Much for the people around them, the whiplash of an intense self loathing versus a serious superiority complex, the desire to seem lax and cool and collected but being the opposite of that, and, on a more surface level, the Gay thing. and the woman-but-??? thing. the sooner u all realise that the characters i write are essentially self-inserts with very heavily specialised au's, the better–

tagged by: @warbyrds 💚 tagging: if ur reading this ur tagged matey

#ooc. #[shrugs senselessly] idk dude

[iminaworldofpureimagination]

the reason im not terrified of the live action atla show being bad the only sideeye i have is towards the sokka actor but i aint touching that with a ten foot pole im a basic white bitch i dont know shit if people are upset i do thin it makes sesnse he should have been played by a darker skin dude

but anyway the reason im lookng forward to the live action atla (AANG/KATARA/IROH look perfect for one)

Andis t no one is talking down to fans of the cartoon /or the show/ no one is calling the characters weak/lame/ insulting the female characters of the show

No one in charge is talking about how they want to do it better say the ppg 2016 (you got rid of keens boobs? Why??? people have boobs boobs aint sexual/ but everyone loves twerking 5 year olds

no one is talking shit about the female characters like the directors for the live action disney movies with people going ooh those original moves adult fans love are for KIDS adults cant enjoy em while insulting our lovely princesses

newest example we got the velma show insisting daphne was always just the hot one (bro i watched the first ep of the 60s show she was good at finding clues she was just.. very unlucky.. tho im not sure whats wrong with being pretty either.. im a fat girl i got no jealousy towards skinny hot chicks (helga/thorn/demona are all my ooh yes im bi awakenings) this constant talk down of pretty animated girls is just super weird insecurties

but anyway the directors haven't talked down to fans

insulted the femlae characters

(LIKE FANDOM DOES TO MAI she aint zuzos abuser people and Katara (she was never aangs damsel people come on im tired of yall momhaters) (seriously i feel shipping fandom insults the show as bad as the people who complain about how they could do it better prob cause thats exactly what the shippers have said )

the directors/ cast involved have had so much positive stuff to say about the original show/

so maybe it wont be amazing but im sure it will be 8/10

#atla netflix #atla #anti atla fandom #bro shippers ruin the show worse than the show could anyway #they make everyone hat eachother just like that velma show #yo the zuts turn katara into some angry abused damsel but bryke was sexist give me a break #im so glad shippers aint writing the show #i enjoyed zut but fandom went and say screw zutaaara wers shipping fantara and everyone hates aang here #atla live action feels like it made with more love than shipping fandom #and even if hte show sucks it wont excuse how terrible fandom is to aang

[maybeweshould]

https://maybeweshould.tumblr.com/post/687516310274490368/im-gonna-say-it-here-cause-i-feel-like-i-can-say

He’s a celebrity, though. They do PR relationships. I just don’t get the he’s disgusting because he does that and he sees her and he likes that. Like he’s a celebrity and this really isn’t that big of a deal to most NORMAL people. Then to say “he could just end it” is so naive because we know PR relationships sign legally binding contracts. That’s not a conspiracy. If he’s happy enough to do something, why does he look like that every time. I personally think people say this as a way to look for a reason to dislike him because they fell for the “I’m a different type of celebrity” marketing Harry has had on him since 2016. Think of ben affleck and ana de armas. Kids were involved and they lived together, but conveniently split before the film and refused to do promo together which was the biggest promo for them all. Lady Gaga and Bradley Cooper acted to a couple in front of his girlfriend and child. Taylor Swift and Tom Hiddleston “cheated” behind Calvin Harris back. Harry and Taylor literally spent time with each other’s families.

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[rabid-citrus]

Heyyy, you said its okay to ask about your aus and stuff, so im curious! It would be nice hearing more about your oc universe! Maybe you can make a post listing all of them? No pressure ofc!

Oh boy, where do i start

So there's like 3 original worlds I've created in my head + miitopia and a really self-indulgent fnaf au that's been marinating in there since 2016, and i could write a 40 page essay on every single one if i had enough time and motivation, so I'll just give you shitty summaries for now

Carpet Clowns – collab w my bestie @s1rchek, basically my jester girl Daisy-Bell moved in to live with s1rchek's self-proclaimed scientist Kapeta who studies the mushroom plague in a godforsaken russian city of Mukhosransk, and they witness the horrors together.

Carpetclown Cryptids – so basically what if our ocs were cryptic entities terrorizing a russian village; Kapeta would be the local leshy who looks like a black silhouette with moss and mushrooms in their hair wearing a nightgown(?) and who hates humans and curses the most irritating ones with rot and shrooms-growing-over-you disease(go ask my friend, they know their victorian theydy better than i do) and Daisy would be known as Field jolly (полевая веселушка) who appears in the fields at the late evening and wears a jester cap to go with her bright dress. The Field Jolly often has a flock of large hawk moths (aka the death head butterflies) following her, and she might offer you a poppy. If you accept, you'll die within a month and a butterfly similar to her flock will crawl out of your mouth.

CCRPG – carpetclowns fantasy rpgmaker game plot involving missing king, a cult and your average rpgmaker game stuff. we joke the whole game is just Kapeta and Daisy's power fantasy

Tales of Calmford Town – my 100% original microcosm that basically boils down to "Flanelle the french-canadian mime boy and Dots the russian clown girl live together in a small town full of qirky friendly people and go on adventures together" And they're both members of clown species who need to cheer people up to get emotional sustainance regularly, or else they might get sick. Essentially the most light-hearted and whimsical story on this list

{unnamed, i call it playrooms for now} – stories about kids getting sucked into bootleg backrooms and trying to survive there. also there's friendly toy entities. and weird creatures like a parasite that eats your flesh and mind and tricks you into ingesting it by disguising itself as a cake. that's basically it lmao

And now, the FANDOM MICROCOSMS!

Flipside AU – fnaf au with it's primary focus on the puppet and it's variations from across the games, both official fnaf and the fangames. Lots of fnaf lore angst, lots of headcanons, and the majority of puppets have human names now. For example the og puppet is named Charles (they picked it himself to honor Charlie). also sentient AIs and the titular Flipside is the afterlife/dream world (I DIDN'T KNOW of dsaf when I came up with that name and the concept, don't at me)

Miitopia Au – my miitopia playthrough but now WITH MIITOPIA LORE

i will actually post art of them all once i finish with my exams :-) hope you like it!

#answering asks #orannge microcosms #< i will use this tag when talking about my imaginary worlds i constructed in my head

[idkwhourorwhoiam]

Today is march 2nd 2016, today our daughter had surgery, her right extra digit was removed. My sister in law just left. She came up here to be with me to make sure our daughter’s surgery went ok. Last night was fucked up and crazy. Of course as always dude and I got into another fight. This turned physical and it was literally next to my sleeping baby. I made a video recording of the fight as it was happening and im glad i did because his family wouldnt have believed me. They immediately came over telling me that i needed to get my shit together or they were taking my kids from me. Because dude has made me look like im a dope fien and am so badly wrapped in it, which im not. It was just irritating because this mother fucker doesn't hardly have any involvement in anything with me and our kids because his friends and liquor and instagram hoes are more inportant. So as always i sit alone next to my baby as i try to comfort her as much as i can. This man has isolated me from everything in the last couple of years by refusing to help with our disabled child. Because he is embarrassed by her and her disabilities. Wow! To be that selfish is beyond me. I never would have thought that dude would be like that. He has changed so much from the man i married. Into a person i do not know anymore and because he doesn't want me to know him. I try to communicate with him and its like he could careless. Dude loved me so much and wanted me so deeply once and after i got pregnant he has held this resentment towards me and has shown little or no interest in me and in our marriage. Im not sure why, maybe because i wanted to terminate the pregnancy becuase i was scared i was going to have a baby with complications. And as scared as i was of it God has made me face that fear head on. The other thing i was scared of was having a baby with disabilities and having to do it alone. The irony is overwhelmingly fucked up as I sit here alone with my baby. He doesnt want to be apart of her progress or any of the kids childhood progression for that matter. He treats every single one of us like shit and only individually gives affection to one of us only when he feels like it, which is rare. Most of his attention is on his friends his dads side of the family and his business. What the fuck happen to dude, the man i use to know that was solid and had his shit together. What happened to the man that loved me and pursued me to no end until I vowed to be his. This is such a fucked up ending its not even funny. What a horrible story to have been apart of so much so that if i heard this story i would rather die than have any part in it.

My unscripted thoughts……

Idk who u are or who I am

[spikeinthepunch]

i have talked about it to some capacity with the post a made a bit ago about branding etc and hpw i feel about it and how i kinda got swayed into playing things safe with presentation bc of how people on the internet/esp professionals, read you.

which was something i got caught up in especially around my internship because even though i wanted to explore mature topics emotionally, i was still going to play it safe. i had that 'i could make a thing thats emotionally strong like steven universe, but nothing more'. the stuff i wanted to make i treated like that. the idea that anything i was going to make that i wanted to put into the industry i wanted to be in had to be safe enough for studio/execs. which is definitely a problem with current animation- everything needs to be in a certain range of safety.

interestingly i felt like i did escape this a few years ago- i was no longer caught up in getting a job in 2020 and all the complicated feelings about "i dont want to cater myself to kids because i dont want to make stuff for kids" hit hard by then after turning 21. i was drawing lots of nsfw (...which you guys here didnt see lol), i was letting myself make stories without any regard to a specific audience esp bc the wcrp i was doing gave me time to think about that in my free time. and the way i presented myself, in terms of my posts, did not hesitate on topics either.

which the recent (1 or 2~ years) change in branding that led up to the mikike 'mascot' i realize now that attaching to a mascot like this kinda entirely redirected my presentation. not exactly in terms of topics on my normal blogging (however i did stop posting a lot in general) but you know. the livestreaming nd video making, and in turn the way i would interact with the places people use for online marketing/audience building. interestingly, before mikike but when i had my website, i started my website with the intent of it being a place outside of social media where i could "do what i wanted without anxiety of whether or not i could post it". and uh, somehow i managed to do the opposite.

because eventually i felt like online presence wise, using mikike as a mascot to front me and my website, would be good! seemed simple enough. but then i ended up feeding into the cutesy design or more, felt like i had to present with this neutral design, one that would appeal to "everyone" which... sent me back to that mindset again. its a horrible conflicting mess when part of me was trying to be like "yes i want to post whatever on my own site!" and then "oh no im becoming a general audience streamer and play minecraft, i dont want people to see that stuff if they go to my website" (with the added, if i start to get involved with other people too, i would be nervous about them being aware of my website and ruining my rep). should be said, its not like i *am* posting anything egregious either- but theres inherent anxiety based off how people respond online in general, like im wanting on ice all the time regardless.

so suddenly i was back where i started. i really really wanted to hang on to this drive to get out there, make the videos i have in mind, etc. but in my head i get very caught up in whether or not my stuff will gain traction and then be criticized for things i cant control (the age of people, or just whether or not someone take some mature content i made as 'problematic'). reality is i need to not care-- but i have said it time and time again. it is SO hard as someone who grew up during 2014-2016 tumblr. because if you were there youd know how hellish this era was with its callout culture. it was insane, truly. and i like many other teens, felt like i needed to be loud and out there to judge problematic behavior in order to not be problematic, and be self aware all the time and to always judge my interests, and in turn be paranoid i may like something bad.

the urge to rebrand is built off of detaching from the image/mascot that is making me "play it safe". part of me is annoyed that i want to drop this overall look- i do like mikike, i do like the colors! theyre nice. buuut i do feel like i want something fresh. i have admittedly change my look quite a few times so, maybe this is just how i am too. idk.

[vividaway]

(i’m going to add a fuckin glossary at the end of this bc i realized halfway through reading this that this may be hard to read for anybody who isnt up to date on MaD terminology, aka, a large majority of my followers) i started a sandbox paracosm of miraculous ladybug back in 2016 and a large majority was based around giving fict!adrien (and fict!felix, because i had such a big love for 2017 TwinAU) and i strived on sort of fixing the family dynamic because think about the base universe the writers really gave me: rich fashion designer father with a teenage son in a mansion in france. he’s absent, but its due to grief. he lives a sheltered life. 

usually what ends up happening in a lot of the timelines is, an equally famous teenage girl comes to town in a need to stay, usually a family friends. i tend to include powers unrelated to the miraculous box (a separate miraculous that she was trained to use back home) because it create good story points for the main miraculous team getting defensive because How Could She Have A Miraculous? Who IS She?

and obviously, because i try to make a reformed gabe, i’ve taken away the role of hawkmoth from him all together. he comes to his senses and favors adrien over the miraculous. who DOES become hawkmoth tends to switch depending on which sandbox im in, sometimes its a new para i’ve created and other times its an older version of lila. i like getting the kids involved in the fashion more, like with actual outfit inspiration and them making their own designs with marinette and bringing it to gabe like “look >:) we got u ur newest kids fashion line >:))” and he’s just like “oh my god not again get OUT of my office im going to have a nervous breakdown”

and i always like to make chloe this ambigous character, where, shes mean and catty but its because of TraumaTM and she has her moments and slowly starts to learn as Alora enters the picture because heres an Even Richer, Even More Powerful Daughter Whos Nice? To “Poor” People? and of course at first chloe is like ‘no wtf’  but she becomes more willing to be nice the longer she see’s alora doing it.

Lila has fully taken over the position of resident school bully, and yes she does lie, but a mass majority of people don’t believe her. she tries to befriend the new kids who don’t really know the truth, and she tries to warp their perspectives. but she isnt JUST a liar-- she’s a proper bully to everybody. mocking people, insulting them, and trying to start fight to help herself create akumas i might talk about this more in the future, but thats all i can think to mention thats important. if you have any questions pls dont hesitate to ask! 

daydreaming masterlist w/ glossary

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