my dog has what we initially thought was allergies for a year straight . my parents have always told me it is my responsibility to take care of her and pay for her . after six vet visits , we don’t know what it is , but it isn’t allergies . she has worn a cone for the past six months because every chance she gets she scratches her eyes raw . she has had many instances of bleeding around her eyes because she can’t scratch so she shoves her face into her crate door, laundry, blankets, the couch , ANYTHING for relief. she has been on many prescriptions , and i have paid near $2K and i simply cant afford to do anything else. i can’t afford anything else, i can’t see her suffer anymore, so i scheduled her to be put down on friday (tomorrow), and i have been in the worst mental state of my life since monday, when i scheduled it.
well now my dad called & cancelled it because he wants to wait two weeks because he read apple cider vinegar could help open her eyes ? something ?? he and my family have been pleading all week to do something, & it has made my mental health suffer greatly because i have nothing left to give her. he waited until the last possible minute to tell me & insists it’s a good idea, but i am honestly not doing great my guys.
It’s not fucking fair. She’s not even 50. This shouldn’t be happening to her. I know it’s all random and shit just happens but it’s not. fucking. fair.
I don’t know how I’m gonna get through this
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APRIL 13, 1855 - alice dolores liddell is born to james and georgiana liddell.
EARLY SUMMER 1862 - during an afternoon romp with her sister mary, alice first discovers the white rabbit and follows him down a nondescript hole only to find herself in wonderland.
SPRING 1863 - georgiana dies after suddenly taking ill with the same scarlet fever alice had only recently recovered from.
AUTUMN 1863 - alice enters wonderland a second time through the looking glass.
EARLY SUMMER 1867 - beloved father james liddell dies at sea after taking off from the port at bath only a day earlier. twenty year old mary and twelve year old alice are now alone.
MID-SUMMER 1867 - alice re-enters wonderland through the looking glass again due to a nervous breakdown from grief. after having encountered the belligerently evil queen of hearts twice before, wonderland begs alice (who wonderlanders consider to be their rightful ruler due to her repeat appearances and strange displays of power) to put an end to her tyranny. after a showdown inside a maze of mirrors, alice manages to beat the queen of hearts soundly into hiding at the fringes of wonderland. before she exits again, alice crowns the queen of diamonds to rule kindly and fairly in her place. she then wakes to find she’d been in a catatonic state in front of her looking glass, having given mary the fright of a lifetime.
AUTUMN 1868 - a thoroughly fed-up mary commits thirteen year old alice to a woman’s institution after a year of alice’s seemingly mad ravings do not cease. alice protests violently, only deepening her sister’s conviction that she has lost her mind.
EARLY SPRING 1876 - alice is weeks from her twenty-first birthday. after years of stifling her troubles, agitation, rampant self harm due to emotional congestion and distress, and horrid treatment by the staff at the institution, she has masked it all enough to be released. once free, she is told her sister is dead and that the liddell family home is hers and her father’s/sister’s share in the shipping business is being held for her should she wish to pick up the role. her father’s will made it absolutely clear, but also emphasized that his youngest daughter could wait on it as long as she wished. a family friend currently had the position and would relinquish it should alice want the job for herself. electing not to take it right away, alice at last returns home to find it empty and echoing with memories.
WINTER 1882 - alice dolores liddell passes away while unconscious, in a coma after falling and injuring her head. she was found prone in front of a mirror. in wonderland, true to what she had predicted as the turn her life would take, alice at last triumphed over the queen of hearts once and for all, killing the queen with a blade alice had stolen during her very first visit. once the deed was done, all that had been alice faded away for the last time. wonderland mourns its rightful ruler while the world as we knew it forgot she ever existed.
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im having kind of a Day and seeing an artist i follow’s cat pass away after health issues the last week really just. got to me really hard ugh
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get ready for some water tribe sib goodness oh yeaaahhhhh
a short little one shot idea about katara and sokka reminiscing their childhood as old people in the SWT. sokka lives a long and healthy life fuck LOK this man LIVES. thank you.
however: hes old as shit and yes this fic is him and katara on his deathbed because while i love old man sokka i also thirst for whump and angst soooooooooooooooo
katara and sokka are chatting. sokka is lying in his bed and katara is sitting nearby in a chair, mindlessly doing something like weaving or eating or reading or carving idk but shes fiddling with something.
sokka brings up the gaang
“hey katara? do you remember when i got stuck in a hole?”
“and toph had to bust you out so you wouldnt get mauled by a sabertooth moose lion? yes i remember.”
“there was a baby moose lion too. foofoo cuddly poops.”
“you never told me that part”
“i knew youd make fun of the name”
“you got me there. why do you bring this up?”
“afterwards i remember thinking about how much i cared for you all. how important your friendships were to me”
“i didnt know that either”
“i never got to say it. aang started earthbending before i got all sentimental”
sokka takes a deep breath causing katara to look over
“i wish i said it.”
“i wish i said how much i loved you all more. i should have said it that day. i shouldve said it every day.”
“sokka we all knew you loved us”
sokka begins to smile
“whats got you so happy?”
“because i cant wait to see them again. i cant wait to tell them now”
he closes his eyes and katara drops whatever is in her hands and rushes towards the bed
katara holds his hand and cries
“tell our friends i love them too sokka”
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Alright Hubert let’s go after those who slither in the dark. Death to those who slither in the dark!
Indeed. Your enthusiasm for the task is welcome, and I’m certain it will prove exceptionally fatal to our opponents as they deserve. The time isn’t right for a direct assault at present, but I’ve no doubt I can find a suitable outlet for this ambitious energy of yours. Every step closer to their demise has value, make no mistake.
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Toto sports some nasty scars around his wrists, knees, and on his brow. They resemble stitch marks because, simply, his hands and legs were both amputated and then reattached by Hagire Rinichiro. Unfortunately, Toto was still alive for the whole procedure and awakened long enough to realize what had been done to him before being killed via lethal injection.
ANGST BELOW EW WTF
9/3/1957: It was useless, they never intended to bring her back. He knew what he was getting into, he knew she would die, he knew he would have to lie about her death for the glory of the Motherland. Winning the race required sacrifices! He was not a coward! He just hoped her death was quick and painless, and desperately tried to ignore the evidence against it.
4/30/1945: Every empire falls at some point, and true leaders know when it is time to let it die. He even used to fantasize about his own heroic death in the middle of a war he was not destined to win. Nothing could have prepared him, though, for the unexpected terror he felt when he had to shoot the last of his companions, the only one he ever considered a friend, before pointing the gun at himself.
2/10/1939: Qui knew qui was going to die, but qui would not give up without a fight! Yet, the moment qui heard the hissing and growling by quis side, and realized that both of them would die, qui broke down. It was over. Even if it was a sign of weakness in front of the enemy, the only thing qui wanted to do was pet quis kitty one last time.
awww dang lettuce that was kinda sadge and shitty pls don’t do angst anymore like, ever, in your life-
Uh, Libertarian, I think we overfed her.
Yeah, she just looks, uh... thick. And dead. Yes, I poked her with the stick. Dude, trust me, I know a dead snake when I see one, alright? Rand!
Order a new one, why don't you. Yeah, straight from the Amazon rainforest. Um... no, not an adult one. Perhaps you could find me an egg? Yeah, I know it's more work but... just bring me an egg, man.
also, have something sweet to make all this edge slightly more palatable:
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“Yes... But there’s only one problem: The Minos company is in the living world, the reason why I know about the company is because I met a newly fallen sinner who was a victim in one of their escape room tournaments, they died when they failed to solve the puzzle of the room they were in... It’s implied that the final contestants of the tournaments are doomed to be in the company’s endless escape rooms until their luck eventually runs out... At that the escape rooms have something to do with their contestants’ past near-death experiences.”
Don sighed. “You stop the Gamemaster and their company, you help stop one major cause to Hell’s overpopulation, understood?”
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Chapter Four || “Moonlight” || Page 35 || END
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Matsukawa Issei will do all ur funeral director needs, will show you pictures of his chameleon. He works well in any verse and I hmm..
i can SEE in some verses him like ‘need to hide a dead body?’ buy me a steak and we have deal.This mf already looking like he’s apart of the yakuza with all his tattoos and stuff... i really want to give him a genshin verse as him working with hu tao? they’d vibe so well as they have the same type of energy. also enstars, as i like the idea of having the Matsukawa family helping during the war, given them having funeral directors and shit 8) all fun and parties if you ask me
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This whole post is about the concept of a visual novel type of game with the counting decades characters and how I see it working. The game would be a horror Mystery, though that I need to figure out and in any case if it was one there would be lesson characters in it due to how long it would take.
Another thing I want to mention is fake screenshot drawings of the game, that'd probably be something I'd try if I'm not busy.
Main warnings: death mentioned, and I think torture. might need to add more though
Also heads up for the rest of the captain as its long. if a warning needs to be added about anything do tell me. half of it is copy-pasted here from a doc so I didn't lose the text and as such each text might change a bit depending on what is described. Another thing, I'm mostly not sure what to describe a novel game but I used ddlc as a example if no one got what I was saying.
I'd also like to add some other text to so it may have a few doubles in the text so I apologise for that. I have one I made for Instagram and I wrote one I'm planing to post on tumblr so there is a heads up.
text written for image from tumblr: This is a look for a novel game design. The player meets Henry in a dull lit basement in which their covered in bruises and blood, the basement is hard and cold. The pressure of a stick against the player's neck makes it hard to move without jabbing it into their skin, then they see Henry starts waking up. Henry for the novel would be hurt or not hurt depending on stuff... don't think I'd make it a actually game but doing drawings for it seems interesting. may do what endings could look like to.
instagram test: Not sure what it is called but did it with Henry. I feel like it'd be a simulator or something, like ddlc or those dating sim games but you remove the dating part entirely. For Counting Decades it'd be a mystery type horror one where you can choose to be either the count characters or the player (like the character that will come across the characters you meet in game normally.) For the player if you choose a certain path like to a college for an example you'll meet the group that is researching criminals. if you meet them after certain characters you can tell them everything you know, that is if the character didn't kill your player yet. If a character gets mad at you they will hurt you, certain groups would only get annoyed usually. The choice to either play as Henry or meet them after something happens to your player is also something I'd feel would happen. Being able to meet them in their house would aloud the player to talk with him, which gets more stuff he'd know about some people. Calling it creepy would probably shut them up immediately and they'll end up hiding it from the player, so the player would have to search for more information themselves instead.
Choosing to help Henry would give their trust to the player. The choice to choose what to do with that trust would depend on what they'd want to do. The ignore option would be three whch would be to ignore the first person, the other person (henry, another character/ect. same for the first option), or ignore both. the ignore both would mean the player gets hurt more or gets something depending on where they are.
Tumblr text: uh not sure how many simulators (or uh I think its dating novel/novel games in general) their are. especially of the non dating version.
A mystery/horror or something of counting decades would work in a way. Like I feel that the player can have a choice to see whoever, but depending on a characters personally or their danger level they'd have to be careful otherwise they'd die.
plus if they choose a dangerous character first and can escape (with or without info. mostly with in this case) and they meet a different character that might need it/wants to use it they could give it to them.
Aden isn't a safe person himself and he presents himself as more calm and collected when out but won't hesitate if pissed off to hurt someone. Surviving him with the needed information would be a benefit for the player if they decide to use it. Either making it public for everyone, giving it to this group that is studying killers, or anyone else. Tho with escaping Aden with info your character is likely to be stalked, usually to be killed because getting away with any information is a threat to him.
Helping Aden with stuff would make it seem like he trusts you. he doesn't but he feels like you'd be helpful. With his path the likely of seeing Henry is increased and getting away or helping them would be a option. With Aden it all depends on the story.
If the uncle is ever in the background and the player character doesn't know of him yet they would be safe, same with if they knew. Clicking the option to meet him would be a option the player has regardless of the route they choose but being safe with Robert is not gonna be easy. Unless the player got some electrical rope or something strong to hold him down otherwise it'll fail easily.
Giving up to him is just death, and it'd be slow or fast. that'll change depending on the route probably.
Getting Henry would be getting stuff he needs to getting stuff from their current crush and doing certain things would make him like you more. I think him getting a crush on the player could be something that'd happen to. idk
though if it was a real game it'd probably be limited on the amount of characters actually in it. As that would take a while to do, but drawing fake game images is nice.
A flutterbeast option would be if a character took the player to catch one. main option that'd happen with is hell creatures or demons, Dex or Ash being a option.
Also not sure if my college group characters I'll keep them like that or not but their the group searching for information on criminals and serial killers.
Also with certain characters the player may end up getting tortured as well
I made two versions of the novel part, one includes anger with the sanity and health. I think they anger one can work for your player character rather you play as player or another character. I think it can be a mood box aswell for a better option to.
Due to some characters personally and a few other things a lot are more violence then other characters the player would meet and as a result of that, the player may get tortured if they are not killed or they will be killed quickly. It won't be as surprising if the player ended up getting tortured due to a character not liking them or just wanting them to suffer as much and long as possible.
Aden is closed off, cold, and aggressive to those he doesn't give a shit about. Insulting his uncles work/his uncle in general, him, or touching something the player is not supposed to results in getting them attacked, which in itself is very bad to happen. When waking up the player may be attached to the floor or something in the room, their skin would be stabbed with something that is attached to the floor to make it harder for them to move. And one wrong move with cause pain to them fast. If they end up in this situation they may end up meeting Henry and having a option to help him, hurt him, or just not pay attention to him. Helping Aden would give the play more respect even if they end up hurt still, though leaving is hard it would be possible.
Meeting a hell creature either walking in a earth forset that connects to hell or dying by something would result in seeing them. The layer that is connected to earth is similar to the first layer but it doesn't have as may demons in it. there are more monster creatures then demons though.
There are characters I am not sure what I want to be yet but I called them college students studing criminals and Serial Killers. When the player meets them they would help in any way that they can, if the player seems dangerous to them, then they'll call someone to catch the player as they don't want to be in the way of harm or getting themselves killed. Having their help has a few benifits for the player which would include records of criminals, killers you are able to interact with, and other stuff the know about. If the player gets them information on wilson or anyone else they'd learn from the information and use it to either catch them themselves or to give it to someone who can before going on to the next thing. The player can also befriend them during this, which would be nice in general to.
There is also the option of after being friends and having information, the player can go back to any killer they meet and give it to them. Doing that has them trust/like the player more and gives them the option to lure the characters they befriend to the killer and help them. Though doing that and if they get away from you puts the player on the run and trying to befriend them after will be hard, but if they don't get away the player can kill or torture/hurt them if they want to. or they can like the killer they got them for do it and leave them there and go somewhere else.
unless you redo the game or saved before the choice it'll be hard to do stuff. saving would help if some choices would cause damage to the player, death, of it being hard to go back otherwise.
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rj has officially stopped calling me hay........................... i have to lay down
i said baby why dont you call me hay anymore? and he said "i call you haLey" i said "but why not hay?" he said "because i call you haLey" ok we were in the middle of a funeral home and i was about to cry and it had nothing to do with the deceased 💔
Took some kids bug hunting today. The goal was to find a live cicada (they live in a magical, recently developed, pocket that has remained largely unaccosted by the critters). We saw many overhead, and uncounted deceased, but the only one we tracked down on the ground was also tracked and summarily attacked by, of all things, an eastern shieldback katydid. Which then started eating it alive in front of the kids. They were however very excited to find several worms happily chilling on the dirt, and some very fast daddy long legs, and several other delightful bugs.
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mumza..... death goddess....... but a lil scarier
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melancholy post incoming
my dead friend janet’s SIL is in town and wants to get food, and asked me if I had great ideas about where, and it really hit that it’s been a year and a half without going to restaurants and the places I used to go with janet didn’t survive.
idk if this is normal for people who dream about people who died, but when her and my grandma who passed in February show up in dreams, it’s always with some dream logic understanding that they’re not alive to stay, that they’re just dipping back in cause they forgot something, like leaving your wallet at home.
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I KNOWWW and everyone bags on Peyton for being emo but like…girl has every reason to be consistently every season lmao.
she's literally always Going Through It I'm around half way through season three which has covered like a year and a half maybe? and in that time she's been still dealing with missing her dead mother, finding out she's adopted, bonding with her birth mother only to literally find her dead body, falling in love only for him to go to jail and go on the run twice, been like pressured into doing coke??? plus all the regular teen stuff?? insane
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“Judas Goat” by Sue Coe, 1990
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I’ve been through a lot of stuff that should have killed me (examples: surgeries that could have gone wrong but they did not, and seizures [used to have em]) but I survived through it all. I guess my Springtrap (I kin him) is showing lol
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