#im fuckin tired of Looking

[luck-of-the-drawings]

smth smth about 'the thing that the character did that you thought was rly rly funny in the moment is actually linked to a terrible trauma that lies within said character.' or wahtever.

#jrwi show #jrwi fanart #jrwi riptide #gillion tidestrider #made this within a short span of wahtever bc i gotta go up to the mountains for my stupid gay job tonight n im trying #nnot to frrRREAAAK THE FUCK OUUTTTTTTi dont wanna work but. get that bread we fuckin shall i guess #ONWARDS TO THE FISH TORMENT!! sometimes flowers feel pain when you trim them before their blossoming. atleast i imagine so #i used to draw gillion with loooong hair tied into a big ol braid. and then it was confirmed that he had short hair when he was little. #AT FIRST I WAS SAD. but then i realized the duality of. when they were little. gill had short hair. edyn had long hair. #AND NOW THEYRE OLDER. and gillion has long hair. and edyn has short hair #both mirroring eachother. looking up to eachother. subconsciously or not. they most certainly care. and most certainly miss eachother. #GILLION ALWAYS LOVED HOW LONG HAIR LOOKs. atleast i imagine so. he hasnt cut it since he left the undersea. sure he wanted to go back home #but even at the very start. he knew he was free in some way now. free to grow out his hair. an adventure would await him before he returns. #he knew it would be a while. so he cant let this go. he cant let this sought-after hair-length get cut away from him again #not yet. not yet. i like to think he loved music too. I SAW SOMETHING INTERESTING A BIT AGO #i see alot of ppl commenting on my baby gill comics like;'i wouldFIGHT this teacher i wanna KILL EM i want them DESTROYED #all very good and nice sentiments! i LOVE the energy here! and it would be nice. to have that catharsis #but the story of young tidestrider is not a story of catharsis. it is a story of agony and being so so small and so special and also so dum #and sucking so bad. and just being a kid and doing the things that a little kid does and so many tired tired people reacting badly to it #youre supposed to be the hero that will save us. our world hangs in the balance and you are the one who tips the scales. #YOU are supposed to SAVE US!! you NEED to SAVE US! CAN YOU PLEASE STOP SQUIRMING IN YOUR STUPID CHAIR!! #you'd think that young tidestrider ought to prevail. and be tucked someplace all safe and sound. #elders gone missing and rotting in a jail. their cultists nowhere around. but theres no happy endings. not here not now. #this tale is all sorrows n woes. you may dream that justice n peace win the day. but thats not how this story goes #BIG ideas for this lil baby gillion series. if anything i make ever gets disproven im killing myself in a well as to poison a water supply

[crowned-ladybug]

I wanted to draw my own take on ART-as-a-presence-in-the-feed but struggled with what path to take for A While bc all I had was that I was adamant about a winding, serpentine body, too large to take in at once and So Good at piling upon your shoulders with weight that's either overwhelming or comforting, take your pick

And then I brought in the hexagons and everything just worked

(They let me give it a face without an actual face, make for a good shorthand to show that it's talking/present in potential future art, and as a bonus serve as an homage to JWST bc hey, science!)

Partially brought to you by a whole lot of listening to Satellite by Starset

#ive hit the 'i just wanna stop looking at it' phase tho so here. take it #digital art #fanart #murderbot #the murderbot diaries #asshole research transport #character design #somehow this is what taught me how to make custom brushes in krita (it was for the face hexagons) #okay i am fuckin Tired but im still reeling from Network Effect and i care these two dipshits so much #i picked orange for ART to contrast Murderbots blue #but unfortunately also bc its been stuck in my brain as orange-aligned from the moment it appeared #bc my first impression was 'oh youre like simaris but not fuckin infuriating' #which is a Very unfair comparison btw bc i cant fuckin stand simaris but i love ART dearly #also a million other reasons but yeah. sorry bud you got assigned orange at introduction #at some point during the desing process it also had a whole bunch of hands since its controlling so many things at once with ease #but i had no way to make that look good and keep with the original vision of 'annoying long weighted blanket'

[princeofcyberpunk]

A wholly lawless underground town that is ruled by the criminal syndicate Cipher..

#princeposting #art by op #pokemon #pokemon colosseum #wes pokemon #rui pokemon #espeon #umbreon #gamecube #orre region #always remember orre #the only valid straight pairing in pokemon tbh /j #theres just something about The Under that sparks something in my brain #i think its cuz its some rundown town with neon lights rendered in the GameCube's graphics which is everything i could ever want #can't wait to buy this game myself at some point! #it's one of my favorites #also yes im aware wes' legs look weird i am too tired to fix them #also also tumblr fuckin DESTROYED the quality lmao #edit: jesus FUCKING christ i need to redraw this #this is why we dont draw when we are half asleep children

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

i swear i have the body of a 50 yr old. i did something mildly active for less than an hour today and my back Aches. who authorized this

#my back: oughhhh im so weak you need to lay down and be still for ten hours #honey i do not have the patience nor the time for that #i am chugging this soup and then im Really Fuckin Crunching The Packing & Cleaning #my mother gets here at like 2 am and i want to get shit done before she arrives #so that i can be told i did a good job for once in my damn life #sorry that was pathetic! #i actually am just a spiteful creature that wants to prove that Hey. maybe i can be relied upon this one time #bet she expects to get here to see an absolute mess w/ not nearly enough packed #JOKES ON YOU FUCKER IM DOIN IT ALL ON MY OWN #i got shit done Without you. ha! #also i want to go whale watching tomorrow #i need to be on the water... i need it.... big aminal please... #rambles from the bog #i feel so. Independent. and tired #took the cats to the vet all on my own. got them a prescription. rode in two ubers and made casual conversation both times #completely fumbled a brief interaction with a really cute girl who was definitely outta my league #me: wants to talk to cute girl. if she offers to get the door for you say Yes #brain: look at the floor. ignore her. say 'no ive got it' when she offers to get the door for you #sobbing and wailing. totally won otherwise lmao #my cats were so good!!! they were so sweet and they Listened! #they stayed on the weighing plate & let their claws be clipped #they were so friendly and nice and WELL BEHAVED WHAT WAS THAT #when i try to clip their claws i get squirmy mc wormie and little miss war crimes #i walk away with new scars and nothin to show for it #but noooo. vets do it and not a peep. not a single wriggle. no hisses or meows. just hangin out #man. at least my cats are comfy enough with me to be up front w their desires #fuckin fakers... beautiful sweet well behaved fakers.... #the vets absolutely loved them btw. all three people that were in the room loved how sweet my little critters were <3 #i am Proud tbh

[vitamin-zeeth]

experiencing fhjy while currently being in the equivalent of junior year is so. Yeah that's what it's like that's how school treats you that's how I'm feeling RIGHT NOW. I love how perfectly accurate it is and I also hate it so much because they don't deserve to go through this shit

#like fuck man #im currently fucking struggling through school clawing my way to exams so i can stop dealing with all this bullshit and have a life #and i cannot WAIT until its over cause next years gonna be the chillest #but fuckin hell man some of these moments #adaine struggling cause the school just won't provide the resources she needs. fabian dealing with a 150% workload + ecs. #kristen being genuinely gifted but finding the paperwork so awful that her grades are plummeting. #gorgug being told he cant do what he wants to do because they want to keep him focusing on the path he chose when he was 14. #riz trying to keep his friends together because if they separate he doesnt know what hed do #ough #kristen especially is resonating with me HARD her entire energy is so fucking relatable rn #its giving burnout its giving tired undiagnosed teenager its giving doesnt know wtf theyre doing #shes strongly considering dropping out but then looking back and going FUUUCK I KNOW I GOTTA JUST PUSH THROUGH #shes hating the work its making enjoying the subject harder shes needing a break and nobodys willing to give her one #shes so me this year actually. realest ever I'll defend her til i DIE #d20 #fhjy

[radiumpanthera]

Long hair salem bust bc. Why not

Been wnating to grow my hair out,,,, but i keep cutting it too much !!

#as soon as i get ti the awkward stage im like #absolutely not #snip snip bitch #im trying my best #also dont mind the highlighting looking kinda wack i am so tired #and i just. #was fuckin around more than anythjnv lol #digital art #furry artist #artists on tumblr #furry art #anthro #furry #original character #fursona #oc art #safe fur work #salem #my art

[quirkle2]

shakes him around

#qktalks #hiiiiii sorry for posting at midnight. i so eepy #btw i gave up on the monthly screencap redraws . lol #i don't enjoy deadlines for hobbies i've realized. so i simply won't give myself any #imsuddenly slightly less stressed. hashtag miracle worker #anyway i feel like . hold on #<- i do that a lot don't i . say dumb shit and then go anyway and say more dumb shit.hilarious.Anyway #the littler details of my art are usually covered up by colored lines and shading and then noise #so.wanted u to know that i Draw Shirt Collars and i Detail them.bc it's hard to see in my finished products #anything with edges‚ i usually line the edges too even if it's thin fabric #bc i think it looks nice.and then it is Erased from everyone's eyes #^ not particularly miffed about this btw.I know the lines r there and that's what matters #whatam i talking about . sorrydid i mention im fuckin tired #yawning every 3 seconds as i type this.god's sleepiest soldier #^ mobbu up there is one part in a three piece set. i hope.if everything goes according to plan #and the lighting for teru n ritsu don't look awful.uhm #yeag<3 [collapses]

[snazum]

Little ster edit I made… Cause there needs to be more in the world :>

special thanks to like the 5-10 people on this website who upload ster clips. This is dedicated to y’all <3

Audio: noir.audioss on tiktok

Song: Like Me - Chase Icon

#ster #ster_ #star_ #ster underscore #st3r #whatever other tags this man has #snazum edits #look im new to the ster community or whatever #i debated putting this on my side blog but it can go on main #i spent time n effort on this #I never make edits/fancams so shoutout to y’all who do that too #this shit is insane but i get it its a beautiful fuckin art form #my eyes burn and im so tired so goodnight i hope u ster fans see this and love it #i promise im in the freak territory like u guys i just hide it for the most part #who am i kidding it should be obvious. #im a hockey fan that resides on tumblr n twt this aint surprising #i made the fckin edm oilers in the sims with friends for fun #its a convoluted timeline now for them dont worry bout it #okah i really need to sleep goodnight we’ll see if the pc uploads first or phone #jokes on the pc i’m not giving it time i want to sleep so GOODNIGHT! For real

[spaciebabie]

i love you lamb cotl i love youuuuu silly goober!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#ouuuuu #imagine this #lamb cotl is right in fronmst of me. im staring at that fuckin thang with enough force 2 kill multiple gods (and did so) #im lfuicng LOOKING at THEMK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 #OUUUUUU #spacie spoinks #man im tired #its only 7:40 tho #i just had dinner liiike #i cant nap until 2 hour later b/c of my Stomach Probmel #continues 2 play cotl for the next few hours #im goin until my battery on the controller gives out or until my brain does

[spotsupstuff]

new experience gained: lookin after a toddler

conclusion: Boreas had been blessed by that distance between him and the younger Anemoi actually, cuz if he had to actually put his hands to work with babycare he wouldn't have the energy left to be genocidal

#spot says stuff #rw #oc tag #im so fuckin tired holy Shit #got new set up today too- like new keyboard new headphones new drawin tablet too... spilled wine on my og one of 6 years :( #dont look at me ive already suffered.... either way this new tablet is Smoller n feels Different so im cowping with That Too #oh B we really in it now... the babies are after us......

[puppsworld]

s’more gemstuck things that i’ve dug out of my skull

#homestuck #gemstuck #bro strider #dave strider #davesprite #just guys being dudes #i cnnot fuckin comprehend how close i got dave's hair to look #its perfectly bird shaped #i wanted to add more to this post but im sosososos tired

[dromaeo-sauridae]

@gardenergulfie considered

#now im tired #shes looks prettier than she is shes some fuckin sooty pepto goop nasty lady and i love her so much #my art #flight rising

[strangerhands]

mmmmm heyyy👁️. ive basically been gone from tumblr for over two days because ive been feeling like a shitty piece of shit. BUT. i finally saw dune part 2 and ohmygoddddd it was so so good. but yes. i was missing leto so bad the entire time. Father come back pls. i need you.

#it was so good tho #like so cool i was internally freaking out about how cool things looked #the fight scenes🤌 #the environments/settings🤌 #all of the fuckin machinery🤌 #the acting🤌 #the everything🤌 #yum #also i dont find austin butler attractive but funnily enough feyd was the only time ive found him hot😭 yes i have issues. but like. okayyy.. #i watched it alone and i wish doing things alone wasnt seen as such a weird or sad thing like. theres nothing wrong with it #sorta vent-> #but basically ive been feeling like an annoying piece of shit so ive been staying off of here for the most part #because ive been convincing myself no one likes me and everyone in my life would be better off without me😝😝 #just tee bee ehch #and idk i was just feeling like ass and was doing nothing and when i finally would go to use tumblr i was already too tired to do shit #so i just went to sleep #and i was busy today #yesterday* #and ill probably be a bit busy today too but idk maybe hopefully ill catch up a bit #idk ya boys just been hating himself like usual but not as usual bc it was worse but it is what it is #i felt a bit better yesterday though #and also my new antidepressants ive been on havent been doing shit for me so im going back to a previous one i used to be on so yea #hopefully that helps soonish idk #i never vent on here so i feel kinda bad for doing so but i just wanted to puke my thoughts here #also since im already here complaining ive just like. not written at allllllll basically like i got into my head and made myself discouraged #so. that sucks. but also nothing out of the ordinary there #why does Everything i say sound so embarrassingly depressing and pathetic hhhhhhhgggggggggggggghhhghghg #anyways yea i was doing bad im still not doing good but hopefully will be a bit better so ill be back and caught up later today or tomorrow #idk if anyone gave a fuck or noticed but i just like complaining into the void so yea #talkin shit

[traggalicious]

Hrrgrhhffn…. Progress… 4 hours, 59 minutes 👍🏻

This is Cain, soon to be joined by Asher

#the owl house #toh #toh au #toh oc #grimwalker oc #cain #digital art #digital artist #procreate #artists on tumblr #art progress #work in progress #art wip #current wip #tbh im kinda proud of this #like #get this guys #if i flip the image horizontally…. it doesnt look like shit ‼️ #fuckin awesome! #i’m tired tho lmao #and i have the dentist tomorrow ): #so #nini #love y’all #tortured darlings #hamartia #traggy’s shit

[lith-myathar]

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#really really hate how thoughtless and oblivious i can be to my own bad behavior #ill know something is important or that a shouldn't do a particular thing #but over time and assumptions and small acts of carelessnes shit just....fades and accumulates and one day #i look up and ive done something very stupid and hurt someone else #and i didn't feel it happening #my mind will take things and hide them from me is what it feels like. ill know they're there but it fades into the background noise #i am hard on the things in my life including people and relationships. and i am always so vulnerable to my own fuckin lmfao inattentivenes #this is why i struggle so much with the idea of ever having an intimate partner or children. it doesn't matter how much i care. #eventually and inevitably i do damage. #and i know consciously that people make mistakes and all you can do is try to course correct and make it right. but it's better #not to hurt anyone in the first place and i really don't know if i will ever be capable of that. #trying to convince myself this kind of shit is growing pains but man. man. i can't stop being what i am and it really #really feels sometimes like i am just destined to break and neglect #but then that ''im broken'' thing feels like trying to dodge around taking responsibility and improving. and i should be better than that. #but god how tf are you supposed to stop dissociating from the reality of what you're doing when you're. dissociated. #all i can ever think to do is isolate #*sigh* guys i think i might need to graduate to therapy with a trauma specialist #or adjust my medication. god. im so tired. #why is it so gd hard to be a normal decent person. it doesn't seem hard but then

[soldier-poet-king]

In the euphoria of it being Friday and getting to leave work early and go home and play bg3, I had forgotten the absolute most horrifying thing my father said to me this morning

"you're starting to sound a lot like your mother" and given my parents marriage this has the added implication of (derogatory)

I'm just ???? HELL IM IN HELL?? I am 27 how tf is my voice apparently changing, is this puberty part 2??? Like? Is it not enough that all my mother's relatives think I'm her spitting image and CONSTANTLY remind me of that fact (but ofc still retain a few distinctive features of my father like forehead/eyebrows/mouth so I can't even escape either of them in the mirror)

But no now I also apparently have to SOUND like her??? Y'know the voice in my head that fuels so much of my self loathing? As if I already didn't hate my voice because I spent my childhood being told to be quiet because I was annoying, being told my voice was grating in its pitch and intensity, etc etc etc + PLUS hating it for Gender Reasons???

Can we give a bitch a break. For once.

#franposting #im just whining ill be fine. but also like #fuck this #literally playing pf with rose and co and voice chatting with rae #i was like. oh. hey. maybe my voice isnt the most fuckin annoying worst thing in the world #its maybe grating and annoying but its me yknow?? #WELL PROGRESS RUINED. I CAN NEVER SPEAK AGAIN. #ik i talked about this before but the impulse towards severely disfiguring self mutilation #so i dont have to look in the mirror and see THEM anymore #IM SO TIRED GUYS. GUYS. IM SO TIRED #clothes i like dont fit my shape. my voice is annoying. i hate my face. nothing is MINE and untouched by them #which fine. its not like im a real person so ofc everything is marked by them #but im justm fuckin fuck fuck this is NOT helping me think like an autonomous creature and human being #i am going. to go pout on the bus home #and genuinely actually gargle a shot of grappa when i get home #im getting the cold my brother has and cant afford it bc tattoo soon and doc appt next week #and sometimes my nonnas old wives cures actually work