#im excited bc i get to learn but also

[sensacetionalshady]

#shady rambling #THIS FRIDAY #AURGH #why is college so terrifying #im excited bc i get to learn but also #0 friends 0 family 5 hours away from my family #i have to deal w money myself and budget stuff #i have to ADULT? #WHAT? #AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #everyone keeps saying I'll be fine and everyone goes through this at some point buT THAT DOESN'T MAKE ME FEEL BETTER #IM STILL TERRIFIED #its still scary and im so close to clamping up #i know i want this more than anything and i know this will be good for me and i know this is great experience and practice #but that doesn't change the fact that im on the brink of crying and its only tuesday night

[lilybug-02]

Wow. That could not have turned out worse.

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--Full Series--

This comic will be on Holiday Hiatus this December and January! While on a cliffhanger? What a scam! >:/

#Chara finally realizes something is wrong....very wrong #And you get to see little Chara for all of 2 drawings. wow. You guys are so spoiled uwu #Asriel and Chara bbfs #finally out of that darn tootin' Darkworld! WE'VE BEEN THERE FOR 2 YEARS!!! #LORE TIME LORE TIME. I know Chara is very vague about it but player-human relationships are very personal. #it can be hard to talk about them if you've been possessed yourself. especially with some stigmas around it #chara just wanted a glass of water. why you gotta do this to em #I am so so so happy to get here #the full excitement has faded since I first thought up this scene but It's still one hell of an accomplishment #YOU GUYS HAVE NO IDEA how many times I reworked this and how many rough drafts I've thrown out the window because of it. #tbh. I may post the 10+ rough pages that will never see the light of day #Im glad I didnt go through with that scrapped plot bc It was too many unneeded pages. I've learned to start condensing in a better way #I am also planning on showing off my Patreon soon :) so I'll be posting complete scrapped story lines over there #deltarune chara timeline #deltarune #utdr #deltarune chara timeline comic #art #my art #bread #chara #asriel #saloon darkworld #darkworld #deltarune au #college chara #college asriel

[puppyeared]

Jitterbug

#whenever my meds kick in it feels like im gonna piss myself. not literally but its really really feels like it #and now whenever that happens my mind goes back to pancho (grandmas dog) at a xmas party years ago #bc he peed when we arrived bc he was so excited to see ppl and my cousin had to clean it up :o) #well for better or for worse i know that feeling now when im pumped on 20mg of adderall #im still getting used to this whole diagnosis thing cause ive gone untreated and undiagnosed for the longest time. so theres probably a lot #i still dont know and have to learn to get myself to be.. functional on my own? self managing???? #i even set up reminders on my phone for work periods meals and stuff. but the problem is actually getting myself to stick to that to a T #because the minute i slack off or something gets in the way it throws it all off until i can be bothered to get back on track. it sucks #at least ive built up other habits like writing notes and setting alarms ahead of time.. but i feel like i could do better #its always hard to change something if youve been doing it wrong for the longest time. especially behaviour and thinking patterns. sigh #in other news my glasses bailed on me so i have to get a new pair sometime. i just realized i never draw my sona with glasses but thats #mostly bc i forget. id love to get some browline glasses like my old pair but im picky and its hard to find one id like for the next 5 year #i also finally managed to collect all the fish in my animal crossing file!!! pulled out a char last week and boom now i have a poster :o) #THAT was a moment where i almost peed myself for real. id love to get all the bugs but i cant stay up late on the switch :o( #yapping #my art #myart #doodles #personal #diary

[hella1975]

all hate to tiktok for taking 'having a space to more openly and actively talk about different cultures' to mean 'cultures are NOT to be shared and we must be vigilantly defensive of our cultures for fear of appropriation, a word that can be applied to any multicultural interaction'. like of course cultural appropriation is a very real problem but ive seen with the access to global multicultural conversation that tiktok provides it's made people TERRIFIED to even interact with cultures other than their own for fear of 'doing it wrong'. like at some point you have to acknowledge that in the real world of the great outdoors, the majority of people are eager to SHARE their cultures. yes there are ignorant questions and biases but also... how do you think those things get unlearnt? i dont understand how deciding that multiculturalism is an elephant in the room instead of a normal thing that should just be talked about and lived with is supposed to benefit anyone? and kids on tiktok are CONVINCED that it's a time bomb of a conversation to have and therefore must be avoided at all costs but like. people generally LOVE their home and their culture and are PROUD of it and want to share it. how have we made it so that showing genuine interest and a desire to understand something so integral to a person's identity is now feared and borderline demonised?

#thinking about this a lot lately. thinking about how fun it was comparing cultural differences in america #thinking of how when i was homesick one thing i found a great comfort in was talking about my home #and how it differed and i really loved and appreciated it when people would ask me about england #in a way that they genuinely just wanted to learn about it and not to take the piss #thinking about how the kitchen at work has chefs from all over europe. we have an irish chef and a spanish chef and an italian chef #and one of the kps is from eastern europe (i havent actually been able to find out where yet) etc and the way they banter with each other #like usually chefs are Problematic bc their humour is VERY abrasive and usually offensive #but this is one instance where it's actually to their benefit bc they're so unafraid to ADDRESS THE FACT THEY HAVE DIFFERENT CULTURES #i feel like the tiktok gen are so petrified of even acknowledging other cultures let alone discussing them #that it's actually sending the conversation backwards. like how does hoarding your culture and pretending it's not there benefit anyone #LET ALONE YOU AND THE CULTURE IN QUESTION. idk it just baffles me a bit that something that started as people on tiktok #genuinely spreading information and talking about the BAD side of this where people DO culturally appropriate or invade spaces that arent #theirs has now become 'for fear of speaking bad about it we will not speak about it at all'. and they'll crucify you if you do. like what #even at uni my best mate is indian and she's too scared to join the sikh society on her own so i regularly go to the events with her #and im typically one of the handful (or the only) white non-sikh there and i get SO welcomed each time #like there's such a genuine excitement to share the culture with someone who is effectively a blank slate #and like yeah ill ask 'dumb' questions or i'll have different experiences (tried a samosa for the first time at one of these events #and the moment that info got out i had like five STRANGERS trying to give me different samosas to try and it was genuinely such #a laugh bc yes they were TEASING me bc 'how have you never had one' but they were also really eager to share MORE as a result) #ugh idk what im saying. i just think it's a shame to watch this happen in real time on the internet #when if people would just go outside and actually TALK to people from other cultures they'd realise 9 times out of 10 the interactions #are actually really really nice for BOTH parties. and actually refusing to talk about this stuff is long-term pretty fucking detrimental #and it also goes the other way!!! like imagine if i - citizen of colonisation motherland herself - didn't interact with other cultures #and didnt ask questions or hear their opinions on whatever shared history we have from THEIR POINT OF VIEW #imagine the kind of shit id be internalising bc i only hung out with other white british people. it wouldnt matter if i was doing it #to be woke or 'respect their culture'. it would still be fucking ignorant. like half my interactions with other cultures #see me as the butt of the joke bc of this like aforementioned irish chef at work VOCALLY slates the english all the time #but it's done in an environment where we're FRIENDS and it's poking fun at each other while still addressing a very serious history. like?? #idk if any of this is worded in a way that makes sense but yeah. i have thoughts #cant believe i got inspired to make an actually serious post bc of the CHEFS AT WORK. embarrassing. no one let them see this

[samarecharm]

My younger sister is playing the base p5

#chattin #i walked into the livingroom and saw the opening and nearly screamed #she said its bc she saw me play strikers and got curious #im so shocked; she would NOT have been able to play this game like 4 years ago #shes like. not very good on story heavy games. its too boring for her #but shes been watching a streamer play bg3 #and shes invested in the plot. and shes like huh! these ARE fun and engaging! #and she heard me and my mom talk about my moms dwindling attention span w Stories that arent spoonfed to her #so shes ALSO trying new games #i dunno. just very happy :) i get to see ryuji again! #shes been fun to watch. not to be that person but shes autistic (so am i) and very loud and excitable about plot twists n stuff #shes SO into it. also her first comment on ryuji was ‘thats me! i did the same thing w my suspenders :)’ so she liked him immediately LOL #the grind is also something nice for her bc she gets to watch her stream inbetween battles #i will say; the juggling of social stuff and shopping and fighting is ALOT for her. she left the palace to re up on magic #and she forgot to do ANYTHING; no weapons bought; no acessories or protectors; no items; no hangouts #and when i came back from my room (i noticed she had full magic) i asked if she did all that and she was like. shit. #she has to learn the hard way unfortunately #she is insistent on using all her magic; and so when she gets caught w strong enemies WITHOUT it shes like. uhoh. lunge it is. #shell learn

[eggwishing]

little peek at somethjing i am cooking up ...

#this is rlly rough but rn im just blocking everything out #i have like 6.5 pages sketched so far this is already going faster than last time i think..^_^ #im having a blast also #im tryna rewire my brain . every time i think Blehhh i hate drawing i just want to see it done i gotta stop n correct myself #like Hey wait you actually love drawing why are you telling yourself this The process is frustrating sometimes but that comes with art #i had to redraw this one page like 4 separate times and i still didn't feel like giving up #like yeah i was feeling pressed but at the same time i was being patient with myself #like this is part of improving Stop laying on the floor and wondering why you're even doin this you've always loved it #only drawing when u know it's gonna turn out good defeats the whole purpose of learning #also i added cal last minute to this comic and im gladi did he's so creeepy #im very excited to get this done Not impatient like i was before #im impatient for people to see it yeah lol but not w myself #and im not gonna be all like “yeah we'll see how long this lasts lol” bc i think that's already setting myself up for burning out #i have hope that i can keep enjoying art like this I just need to change the way i think #and accept the messy n ugly. the perfect is the enemy of the good #aaron blaise really inspires me. he sincerely loves what he does and i want to be like that #this is also gonna be more comic-like Panelwise i think #scott pilgrim n my bro inspired me #also the way cal's face cuts off on the right makes sense in context he's peekin from behind a chair

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#just an observation bc im avoiding working on stuff but i draw a lot and post basically everything i draw thst gets finished #and its v funny to me how u can tell how out of focus i was based on the quality of the drawing #or like when i post something and its like ok some of that was good but u def gave up halfway thru one of those lol #inconsistency i funny like that. its also funny to me that now a days i get comments like COLORS!!! #which is funny bc i notoriously haaaaaate coloring. like i will sit around whining and complaining when im home with my parents bc i dont #wanna color. its just so easy to fuck things up when u draw traditionally and it takes a million years so its a big ask lol #but i guess i dont hate is so much right now bc i kinda just slap whatever colors i want together like fuck it we ball #and thats kinda fun. reckless i suppose #its agony when u wanna try to do shadows and lights tho. like finding references ugh #or wanting to draw big ideas but then its like oh god its gonna take so long and if i dont do it all in one sitting i might die #im a lil better abt thst now bc it would b impossible but in my head i still hate it #ugh. all i wanna do is draw. theres another universe where i went to art school. or just like took art classes. and i wanna say id b happier #but thats def a lie XD i like learning too much and i dont have the attention span to hardcore learn genetics outside an academic #environment. and i got way too excited abt exploring the genetic traits of my cyano species #like i can make genetics trees for traits and look for. fuck. i forgot the word. how tf did i forget the word. oh god. horizontal gene #transfer. jesus christ its like theres a hole in my brain. well. i guess i did get only like 4hrs sleep. ugh im rambling. #i need to finish getting ready for Monday so i dont have to tomorrow and ill have time to draw. prob wont stop me feeling nauseous abt #teaching tho. OH FUCK. i just remembered i have a new office space now to decorate. fuck i need to hang up pictures and stuff #what would b the funniest way to put narut0 on my deskspace? idk ill have to think abt it. oh god im not ready #my head is like a handbell. one of the big ones when u ring it and it hits soft and u can feel the vibrations. someones wrung my head lol #unrelated

[elegyofthemoon]

waaaaah wah im free for a few days im ; v; im probably gonna use it to catch up on fics and write but

stares at ender lilies

stares at rain code

hrmmmmmmmmmmm

#i have ender lilies i just never finished it bc i am GARBAGE at platform games but the atmosphere is #SO my style i love it sm #rain code.... i do not own but also....... i want it #i should probably finish watching someone play rain code #im on ch 4 rn!! its been good so far :D i just didnt find out there were hangouts until i switched gameplays and just OA O #WHAT DO U MEAN I GET TO HANG OUT AND LEARN MORE ABOUT THESE CHARACTERS #(RATTLES THE GAME) LET ME IINNNNNNNNNN LET ME INNNNNNNNNN #ALSO PROFILES?!?!?!?!?!?!? BRO GIVE ME THOSE I WANT THEM #i also get to hang out w friends on friday so im habby and excited weehee :] #avil speaks

[oscill4te]

It is genuinely so hard to concentrate on a recipe when it has a million of ads and makes you lose your place where you're reading -_-

#i would benefit greatly from writing a recipe on a piece of paper. it would help me encode the memories bc ur writing it down #thats why active note taking is so helpful for helping u remember thinfs in school. cus ur processing the info in an auditory/visual way #but also transcribing it in a simplified way that makes sense to you #i alwaysss read a recipe thru a day in advance before trying something new #but even then I have to refer back to the actual recipe a lot!! #and the ads make me so angryy and unconcentrated lol i hate this ad world #i think its hard to focus on things when a bunch of boxes w useless info r flashing in ur peripheral vision #i just wanna see if i can make food i can fall in love with again. food has gotten vefy boring #thus i wanna try new things other than just rice and beans or rice brocolli n tempeh for the 100th time #im a foodie and i love the process of cooking. i just never can concentrate #once i learn a recipe without needing to refer to the recipe its so exciting tho :^) #its like you have a book of recipes in your brain and its growing. and you get very good at improvising with what you have at home

[fatcowboys]

my PA for ajovy got denied (booo) but the reason it did was bc a neurologist needed to prescribe it which i already had an apt set up for and gad yesterday (yay!) and the appointment went really well and i like the provider a LOT of migraine management (YAY!!!) so now i am once again waiting for an ajovy PA to be approved lmao

#nervous abt needles but jax offered to help plus ajovy has auto injectors so we are going for it #but i really liked the provider she was good and very easy to talk to and stuff!! and am excited to work w her and try things #also got a referral to their sleep clinic bc my sleep is still Bad and also sleep is a big trigger for me #so im hopeful to see what i can figure out/learn from that #this is the year of blue getting health shit figured out lmak gonna get my tonsils removed etc etc lets Go #she also said i could be a candidate for botox if that seemed interesting but i like how like. open ended she was w things #like she gave me a lot of good info but also everything was my call #she also was good when looking at my mri and explained why she isnt concerned abt ms based on mri and symptoms #and in a way where i actually agree lol like. esp bc i get so anxious i can just latch on to something #but she took the time to answer my questions and explain and show what theyd see if it was ms vs my brain lesions from migraines #and Yeah! i was super stressed and like gad cleared my whole afternoon in case it was a bad time #but it wasnt! im v happy w my new neurologist! #wild to have TWO whole doctors on my care team who i like and trust???? as a fat person??? wow #(trust is w a grain of salt lol i dint entirely trust any doctor But)

[adhdvane]

i got a ps5 for christmas :) but no games. a few days ago on my birthday my mother ordered bloodborne for me and said she wanted to try it too. it just came in today and I think she has decided she'd rather just watch me and enjoyed the little bit I played. happy to finally get to play this game ; x ; I didn't play too much bc my mother and i spent way to long in the character creator laughing and now I need to eat dinner. I'll probably play some more later tonight.

#sammy be quiet #sammy no #i never got a ps4 bc it didn't have backwards compatibility #i told myself i'll just wait for the next console then ps5 came out and it was impossible to get lol also expensive lol #me planning to only use the ps5 to play soulsborne games and granblue lol #i wanted to start with bloodborne bc i've always wanted to play it the most #and i'm a fan of the fuck guarding/very dodge and be aggressive way that bloodborne plays comparatively #but i also want to play ds3 and sekiro and then eventually elden ring #im so excited to die over and over and learn #also i HAVENT PLAYED A PS GAME IN LIKE OVER A YEAR #I AM CURSED WITH NINTENDO BRAIN AND KEEP TRYING TO CONFIRM WITH O BC IT'S WERE THE A BUTTON IS #WHAT HAPPENED TO ME #IM SO OUT OF PRACTICE FOR PS CONTROLS SDKJFHKS

[puppyeared]

if escape rooms as team building exercises became popular im not sure if id be more excited or terrified

#if it isnt already anyway.. i can see it happening as a school frosh thing. idk if it would catch on as a workplace thing #i kind of find the concept of being locked in with strangers and working to find a way out weirdly exhilarating though #at least compared to icebreakers cause i dont have to spend 10 minutes racking my brain for something to blurt out abt myself #as a bonus u could like. put people into groups and give prizes to whoever escapes first second third etc. apparently they also do themed #escape rooms.. maybe let people pick a theme? or voluntary sign up? actually this would be really fun for smth like a blind friend date #although if i found out i was locked in a room with an online friend id be too excited to actually escape LOL #ive never done an escape room before so sadly i cant speak from experience. its like up there on things i want to try next to rug tufting #workshop and visiting new art exhibits or conventions. i seriously need to get out more if it wasnt for the horrors <- school and anxiety #i was planning to invite cass to a drop-in art workshop in town but neither of us could go bc typography is making us go thru hell and back #AND THEY HAD A BUTTON MACHINE TOO #im nostalgic bc i miss working in groups and not being awkward abt it or worrying abt schedule conflicts #i realized that i learn best in groups and its a little corny but i like sharing ideas and talking through a problem #in elementary i could just sit down with friends for review and come out of it energized *and* more familiar with the material #and i could technically still do it now. but as adults we're more picky abt who we work with on top of being way more busy outside school #maybe im lonely. im shy and grew up not talking to ppl unless i absolutely have to so its hard to make friends on my own i guess #only thing getting me thru it is telling myself that humans like helping and that my cringe is overblown in my head. but its hard #hence the escape rooms. i have been able to talk to 2(!!) people though!! mostly abt school stuff but im glad to be on friendly terms #i dont really know how to be happy these days cause im constantly scaring myself abt my portfolio and finding places to work #not being ambitious is part of not wanting to put energy into something that wont work out while also not having the passion to do literall #anything else.. i should probably talk to my counsellor ugh #yapping

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

emerging from the pillow fort in the corner of ur room HERE I AMMM!! hi ari how are u ari?? how is uni? i am here with a very VERY important question it's crucial to our friendship - dr. pepper yes or no?

- @softgirlgonehaywire

MICKEYYYY HI HELLO i am sliding a bag of chips under ur pillow fort <333 playing lofi music so u can sleep <3333

IM DOING GOOD ive been rlly rlly busy and tired BUT i just finished my first course so now i have a bit of free time until the next one starts hehe. im so relieved bc i havent been able to write or read OR plan my movie night but now i finally can!! :3 HOW ABT U MICKEY how is work??? its only a couple weeks left now right?? how r u feeling? have things been going well? <333

but okok. abt ur question. i am shaking n shivering in fear but i cant lie to u .

….. im kind of addicted to dr pepper </3 as a kid my siblings would always go for the classic coke or pepsi and i wanted to be the quirky alien child so i went w pepper but now its like . my comfort drink PHSKDHD ….. i just . i like the name and taste ok … it tastes like laundry detergent and cherries and i think its good …… 👉👈

HOPEFULLY U R ALSO A DR PEPPER ENJOYER or else im expecting an instant block bUT i trust our brain connection yknow …. u love dr pepper soooo bad……. im manifesting it

UR SO SWEET FOR CHECKING IN MICKEY <333 i have a question for u too actually!! what r ur go-to movie snacks… sodas……… etc…. 🧐🧐 what do u recommend for the overall experience i am looking to learn

#i feel like an alien learning abt human civilisation through cinema LMAOOOO #I NEED UR ADVICE THOUGH </3 im just gonna stock up on all ur fave snacks and get my lil notepad ready and sit there n watch the movies #U HAVE NO IDEA HOW EXCITED I AM i know ive said that BUT I RLLY AM….. its gonna be my ultimate selfcare day <333 #gonna start w the nice guys and then work my way through the list hehe #ILY MICKEY <333 also looking VERY intently at that vamp au rb …. this is gonna be our longest thread yet bc i have Thoughts #centuries from now tumblrinas will read our letters and think Wow these two were deranged #ask tag ✩ #mickey !! ✩

[frogmascquerade]

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#uh oh! pjo tv series opinions incominf #ive only seen up to ep 4 so far #but its interesting! theyre making a lot of character choices that i really love #grover underwood <3 my boy #his frienship w percy feels solid and real #annabeth!!! oml. and her devotion to athena and the way that relationship becomes more and more complicated as time goes on! chefs kiss #my only thing is that #and maybe this is bc ive read the books and i generally know the story #but its sort of boring???????? not like its bad necessarily or poorly done exactllyyyy #but theres a lot of scenes of them just sort of straight up explaining whats happening or the plot or how the gods feel #which to be fair. that also happens in the book and is kind of exactly how percy learns all the shit #so it feels a little tell > show atm #but its also a lot of worldbuilding info to get thru and possibly introduce the basics of greek mythology to new people #so obviously thats a lot #i wonder if ill feel the same after this first season finishes and if they will allow for more #time to focus on the encounters the kids have #cause i know who is coming up soon and im excited to see that #and i thought they did the medusa arc so well like oof wow!

[bobmckenzie]

ok i don't know WHAT kind of brain fart I had but I've been thinking today marks 6 months since I started shipping with Bob... IT'S NOT SIX DLSKJFKSF IT'S EIGHT 😳😳😳 8 MONTHS!!!

so today i learned i don't know how to count but idec bc it's my 8 month bobiversarry lol ❤️

#(sorry there's basically a freaking diary entry in these tags damn) (needed to get my thoughts out ig lol) #i really am so grateful for him and doug. which i get could sound really silly to ppl outside of this community lol #but they've helped me through the past 8 months and have made me smile even when in the worst moods :'3 #even putting the selfshipping aspect of it aside they just make me happy !! #i honestly CANNOT believe its been that long already though... time has freaking FLOWN by since sept #but actually thinking about it in that way makes me oddly motivated? like that post abt how #'the time will pass anyways.' like i could have done A LOT in those 8 months but... i didn't 🧍🏻‍♀️BUT #there's 8 more months right ahead of me to make use of. like i've been really wanting to learn music theory and production #and im scared bc of how much time it will take. but I started studying a few days ago... and in 8 months i'll have 8 months of experience #idk it's just a comforting thought #like maybe even just in 4 months on the one year bobiverssary (lol) i'll be able to look back on today #and be like WOW i learned SO much since then and made so much music etc. just need to manage my time better all around. #bc of course i also need to do my actual JOB aka finish my next novel and prep for selfpub #cause i'm excited but not nearly ready 4 when my current contract ends. idk if it'll get renewed or not but i'm cool w either outcome 🧘🏻‍♀ #UMMM. i didn't expect to ramble that much LMFAO sorry i was caught off guard by the passage of time ! 😳 #peanut butter and jelly donut #caitiechat

[anotherpapercut]

guys!!!!! I can cable knit now!!!!!!

#looks straight up orange in this awful picture but its red #shout out to my coworker michelle for patiently walking me through it a couple times!!!!! #im so excited!!!!! #one of my friends just had a baby so im hoping to make him a baby star trek hat or a little hoodie blanket #and my best friend is pregnant and ive picked out the perfect blanket to make!! #then ill finally get to make the diana black sheep sweater (thats literally the whole reason i learned to knit ajdbaksb) #also i know its not perfect this was my first ever cable test #at one point i ripped out like 6 rows bc i thought i did them wrong but i didnt.........