#im a half-closeted bisexual and like

[technicalthinker]

ok so I was already going through it after the preview but the ep doubled down and continued to explore buck's feelings in a way that was so surreal how messy and relatable and real it was. the way it portrayed his first gay dating experience as a bi adult: the nervousness and the overthinking and self-criticism and identity crisis and just mess that can come with it.

He is on-guard and ultra-aware. He is analyzing not just his surroundings but himself. He lies and hates it. He avoids telling Maddie, makes an effort of not saying it's a guy he dated, but when confronted he tries to downplay it: "Could be very much the point" VS "It shouldn't be though right". Because Buck knows that liking a guy isn't a big deal and should be normal etc but he feels and acts like a mess?? So he feels like a fraud. There are too many thoughts about expectations that clouds his thoughts. "I dont think you're a fraud, i just think that maybe you're not sure of your own feelings yet" Maddie says and it helps. The moment when Eddie makes that comment about him being single and he gets that distant look in his eyes and realizes this is the moment of no return as he embraces the words that he has been afraid to say out loud. The way the tension starts to loosen once it has been said, the way he can breathe. Buck deciding at the end to just allow himself to be and let himself crush on Tommy and see where that takes them, because he knows he likes Tommy, and that's enough.

#911 spoilers #911 abc #911 blogging #911 #this was literally brutal like i have never felt so personally attacked by an arc holy shit #im a half-closeted bisexual and like #sure ive known ive been bi for a while but actually getting close to dating a girl for the first time as a 26 year old and it #it has put me through it #there are a handful of bi reps that hits unlike anything else and in a bizarre turn of events this might be one of them. #like the SPECIFICITY of these moments and the direction has me reeling #was a while since i felt like a character went through it #*points* HE'S ME #like moments where ive been assumed straight and ive had that fucking same look as buck did #and more often than not ive said nothing and i just #felt it in my soul #so when he DID say it was a date i like??? fuck #but also just. the fact that there is no CLEAR direction of bucks fears and acting here #it isnt a conversation of 'im afraid people will be homophobic' #there is an INTERNAL struggle and it isnt even like. internalized homophobia. #it is just messy and real and just. 'who am i' #the way he wants to avoid the topic bc it is this new side of him thats been unexplored and #yeah. they designed this to be specific towards me for sure

[blu3haw4]

So, out of curiosity:

Do you watch “gran hermano chile” too? everyone from my work to my friends watch it and talk about the people in it and I go “aha mmhmm” and then

🤷🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️

Oh god no lmao, im not at all into reality show AT ALL, and for some reason I find Chilean's even more cringy lol

All my friends talk about it too, but I've come to a point of just kinda going 🤷🏻‍♀️ and wait for a change of subject

#if i could recommend a show #i know you didn't ask buy im spreading the word anyways lol #is “the sex lifes of college girls” on amazon #four main character women who become roomates on their fisr year and go about life #there's leighton rich white blonde *seemingly* straight (closeted lesbian) who is sort of a bich... like a real bitch but you kinda love her #there's bella indian used to be good girl wanna be comedian and sets onto a sex positive party girl life #oh! she's also suspiciously bisexual... it's not necessarily cannon but there's too many hints #there's Whitney new money black woman senator's daughter soccer prodigy who's just like... really cool #and then there's kinberly... who i honesyly don't like very much #she's suposed to be like the “ugly girl” “betty la fea” kinda stereotype that's aplied through her clothing and dumness #she's also the only one with economic issues which sort of makes of her character #i don't know #i don't like her #and yeah it has two seasons ans i really like it #the actress who plays leighton is actually a singer #she's got best debut album in the us... like in sells #and she's publicly bisexual #which... is half of her personality and i love her for it 😌

[moralesmilesanhour]

lil' baby crush

summary: gwen pays miles a visit and gets him to go to one(1) college party. wc: ~1400 a/n: this isn't canon-compliant in that gwen is gay and miles is bisexual here. he's like the 'damn nobody want u fr' 'im sayin like!' image. enjoy!

Miles sighed and sunk down into his chair, the blue light from his laptop illuminating his face. He was currently the only one occupying the shared dorm room, working on an essay that wasn’t due until next month while his roommate was out doing…whatever he was doing. 

Partying, probably.

Despite what he’d often told his parents to explain his sudden disappearances, Miles didn’t really do parties. 

He’d had a taste of them in the form of school dances at Brooklyn Middle: you get there, maybe talk to your friends a little, then stand around trying to figure out how, when, and for how long to dance while the same ten songs rattle your eardrums. 

If he wanted to blast his ears with music for several hours straight, he figured that’s what his trusty bass-boosted headphones at home were for. No complex social ballet required. Even better, he could choose the playlist. 

But it sure made for some boring-ass Friday nights.

Miles got up and rolled his shoulders, fully prepared to go lie in bed for another hour, when he caught a familiar golden light flash across his window. He grinned to himself, wondering which member of what Hobie had affectionately called ‘the Spider-band’ had swung by for a visit.

Tap, tap, tap.

Gwen’s white mask appeared in the frame. She waved as Miles padded over to the window and pushed it open wide enough for her to climb through. Just as her muddy converses were about to touch the floor, he raised an eyebrow.

“Gwanda, you know better.”

“Right, forgot about that,” Gwen laughed, kicking them off. “Old habits, y’know?”

Miles shook his head and grinned.

“So, how’s the thing with MJ going?”

Gwen removed her mask, revealing shoulder-length blonde hair. It fell in choppy layers, and she had replaced the soft pink dye at the tips with a fiery orange.

"Well, it's…going."

Miles crossed his arms.

"Gwen…You did talk to her, right?"

"Y-yeah! I spoke to her," Gwen gnawed at her bottom lip before mumbling, "Once. On the subway."

"Absolutely tragic," he exclaimed dramatically as he fell back on his bed. "My best friend has absolutely no game!"

"Oh, you're one to talk! You think I forgot about 'the shoulder touch'?"

Miles sat straight up.

"I thought we agreed to never speak of that again."

"Just saying," Gwen hopped off of the window sill and sat at Miles' desk. "Enough about me, though. How's campus life? You get wasted at any parties yet?"

Miles shrugged.

"I got invited to one nearby that's supposed to be tonight, but I stayed back. No club meetings this week, either, so…"

Her eyes widened.

"So you're just sitting here?"

"I'm being productive," he corrected, pointing to his laptop. "See? I'm half-way done with that essay, I could probably turn it in a week early."

"Miles."

"What? I'm chilling, Gwen, seriously! Just me and my, uh…" Miles glanced at his bookshelf. "...crossword puzzles."

Gwen stood resolutely, already having made a decision in her head.

"Pick an outfit, we're going to that party."

"Whoah, whoah, wait, hold on–"

Miles hopped to his feet as she threw open his closet and began rummaging through it. 

"Since when do you wear sweater vests?"

She held up several hangers with sweater vests of various colors.

"I wanted to look distinguished…?"

"Nerd," she snorted. "Oh, this bomber jacket looks sick! Feel like going out with it?"

Miles laughed, "Something tells me I don't have much of a choice."

"Correct," Gwen smirked, tossing the jacket at him. "I’m gonna have to borrow one of these hoodies."

-

After a twenty-minute walk (Miles didn’t want to risk swinging), the two stopped in front of a run-down apartment building. Loud music and spinning lights from mini disco balls spilled out of the windows.

"This is it," Miles breathed. "If my first party sucks or gets raided by the cops, I'm never speaking to you again."

"Never know until you try," Gwen replied. "Shall we?"

The place was already packed. There was a lively beer pong game happening in the kitchen, while a pack of students were strung along the walls in the living room puffing clouds of marijuana smoke into the air. The group in the middle of the room, of course, was dancing. Or something that closely resembled dancing.

Miles glanced across the room, scanning the sea of swaying bodies when he noticed one lounging on the couch.

The figure was staring down into a red solo cup, a full head of blonde, ear-length dreads obscuring half of his face until he looked up. 

In a devastating miscalculation, Miles let himself stare a little longer until he realized that their eyes had met. He froze, as if the stranger’s dark eyes kept him in place.

Gwen followed his line of vision. She’d seen that look on Miles’ face before: once when they first met at Visions, and again when Hobie had invited them to a concert and she’d caught Miles ogling the bassist. 

She grinned and clapped him on the shoulder. 

"I'll be by the speakers. Go get 'em, tiger."

Despite his sneakers feeling like they were made of concrete, he took a step forward, then another, keeping his eyes on his target all the while. 

The other boy tilted his head in amusement. 

"Um," Miles began, "I-Is this spot taken?"

"Well, I'm sitting in it, so…"

Real smooth, Miles.

"No! I mean, like, next to you–"

The boy’s eyes became crescent moons as he burst into laughter.

"Relax, I know what you meant. Spot's free," he gestured towards the empty area on the couch to his right.

"O-oh, cool. Thanks," Miles laughed awkwardly. The couch sank beneath him when he sat down.

How the fuck do you flirt with dudes?

He could barely fumble his way through flirting with women, riding almost entirely on them finding his utter lack of game endearing. Now here he was, glancing back and forth between the stranger and a wall.

"Yo, you want a drink?" The boy asked, snapping Miles out of his thoughts. "You look like you need one."

He was probably right.

"Sure, I don't mind."

He rose to his feet, revealing more of his outfit: an oversized black tee layered over a white shirt, with a red kilt draped over a pair of dark wash jeans. A real Jaden Smith type, it seemed. But maybe Miles was into that. 

It wasn't long before he returned with a second solo cup, which he pushed into Miles' hand. 

"So," he asked with a grunt as he sat, "Why you not dancin'?"

Miles snorted, and shook his head.

"I don't dance. Was never too good at it."

"Ah, but is the point of dancing to be good at it?"

"Don't get philosophical with me now, I'm a STEM major," Miles grinned, then took a sip of whatever was in his cup. 

He tried his best to hide his disdain for the brown liquid, but the grimace on his face made it evident. "I didn't catch your name, by the way."

"Call me TJ."

"That's a cute name–I mean, a nice name," Miles winced at himself. "A very…normal name."

TJ laughed, revealing a gap-toothed smile that made Miles' chest swell. "Thanks. Yours?"

"Miles. Miles Morales."

"I think your name's cuter. Bonus points for alliteration."

Miles felt heat rushing up to his ears and cheeks. He hadn't had enough to drink for him to blame it on that. 

"So, why aren't you dancing?" He asked, changing the subject.

TJ shrugged. 

"I prefer to people-watch."

"Oh, so when you do it, it's 'people-watching'," Miles made air quotes with his fingers. "I see how you move."

"And yet here you are, talking to me anyway. No idea why you chose me to sit next to, by the way. It's hella empty seats."

Miles bit his lip. 

"I…didn't come over here just to find a seat, actually." 

TJ raised a bleached eyebrow. 

"So what did you come here for? Clearly not to get high, your pupils look normal."

Miles took a deep breath, his heartbeat louder in his ears than the music.

"You, um…You're…"

Holy shit, just say something!

"Do you like boys? I'm not asking for a friend."

Oh my god. Not like that.

TJ blinked, then a smirk began to spread across his face as he came to a realization. 

"Why, yes. Yes I do. You wanna get outta here? I know a place with actual food."

Miles let out a breathy laugh.

"You have no idea how relieved I am to hear that."

"I think I have some idea. You're sweating."

Before he could respond, Miles felt his phone vibrate in his jacket. It was Gwen.

-gwanda: finally!!

-gwanda: if u don’t get his number im gonna be so mad at u. be back by midnight!!

He rolled his eyes.

-miles: ok mom

Miles shut off his phone and rose to his feet, as TJ had already done. He took a deep breath.

“Shall we?”

#can i even tag this as a gen fic #miles morales fic #miles morales headcanons #gwen stacy headcanons #atsvplatonic #miles morales x reader #atsv fic #miles morales x oc

[pageofpenandfables]

starter call for some of my newest & currently most musey on the mind raggamuffins..

Delaney Miller, 36, heterosexual, local waitress & perennially unattached to anyone while being a best selling romance author.

Beau Miller, 31, bisexual (closeted) & absolute garbage actor, currently living on his half sister's couch waiting for his next big break.

Holden Carter, 60, heterosexual, father to one & morning talk show host. holden isn't like those other tv personalities... he is a nice guy™ (lolll)

if anyone wants something from one them or the usual loud bunch ( josh, hadley, calista ) drop who in the replies, if you wanna plot something IM me otherwise i'll go off your wishlist. :) ok tysm :)

muses. rules. kinks. opens.

#indie smut rp #indie kink rp #indie smut 1x1 #indie smut #pls & ty #( tm )

[jyndor]

As much as I like cassian/rue as a concept and I really love the friendly exes idea, looking at the comparisons between the RO and Andor beach hugs like... desperately clinging to each other as close as bodies can possibly get vs that half-handshake pat-on-the-back? And like I know part of that is likely the disney toxic-masculinity-no-homo brand, but it just makes me so sad, like is this really the level of affection Cassian gets from this point on in his life? Obligatory, unthinking gestures? (until he meets Jyn and they survive and have lots of time to cuddle, obviously, but some folks don't know about that part lol)

in all seriousness I don't actually think rue and cass were ever ever ever considered by the writers to be anything more than friends, they can prove me wrong I'd be down with that but I think we should be clear when talking about this sort of thing that there are like shoulds and ares. should the writers queer up cass? fuck yes. are they going to? lol no.

is that just disney censorship? honestly I doubt it. I think society at large has a much harder time dealing with bisexuality/queerness that isn't binary than it does sexuality that is binary. it comes out differently for women and femmes than it does for men and mascs (let alone people who don't subscribe to any of those genders).

for women and femmes bisexuality and frankly same-gender attraction isn't seen as threatening patriarchy tbh. it's why we get literal gal pal shit from people when it's like, these are two wlw who have been together for decades and have gotten married and are literally fucking in their bed that they own together in their home. it's also why I think society finds it somewhat easier to believe in~~ bisexuality/pansexuality/mspec queer wlw than mlm, although lbr it's still about how the white supremacist patriarchal hegemonic ideal man can access bi wlw and therefore devaluing the wlw-ness of our wlwocity.

whereas mlm are seen as a threat to that patriarchal hegemony, the ideal man or some bullshit, because shock of shocks patriarchy impacts men and mascs negatively as fuck too. men are expected to be hyper ~masculine or whatever the fuck, access women without difficulty while also maintaining stoicism and defeating the (i cannot believe i am saying this mostly unironically) feminine urge to feel thing, to seem gay because that's feminine or whatever lol.

and so bi and mlm who are attracted to more than one gender challenge the very ideal that white supremacist patriarchy is all about. it's why so many women think bi men are automatically gay and just lying about it (well that and individual histories people have with being with men who have been closeted and cheated on them, but that's like not bisexuality that's infidelity).

so the idea that you've got a character who has an extremely important romantic relationship at the end of his life in something written years ago, I'd be shocked if the writers even considered giving cassian a boyfriend just because cassian is attracted to jyn in the film. I'm also sure cassian being a man and the lead means disney might be less cool with him being explicitly queer than say with the wlw side characters, but if we take tony gilroy's word for it, there was never any pushback on them.

as far as cassian not having any real connection until jyn, I'm not sure I agree. his connection with rue (lets make the nickname happen, ive been trying so im happy to see you using it anon) might be platonic but it's canonically important as hell - they are able to read each other well, cassian hears rue in ways melshi isn't used to, and frankly rue picks up on cassian's change in mood even if he doesn't push cass to share with him because cassian isn't ready to share.

it isn't unthinking to me. but like melshi says, they have to spread the message. the rebellion comes first.

I wouldn't be so sure that cassian doesn't have connections with characters, fuck lol kaytoo is coming next season and thats his best friend. but undoubtedly he will become more isolated as he builds a network of recruits and informants who don't know him intimately. and I don't mean sex, I mean deep knowledge of who he is.

but his relationship with jyn has always been fundamental to cassian realizing he doesn't want to go with business as usual, that he doesn't want to assassinate galen (a hope that the rebellion needs to strike against the empire) and that he can fight in the daylight instead of just in the shadows.

but it is tragic that he is so known by so few, and that when he finds someone who he understands and who understands him so well, he fucking gets vaporized lol.

lmao the death star is biphobic for killing him and jyn and making me cry every time I watch rogue one

#anonymous #asks #answered #cassian andor #ruescott melshi #star wars andor #rogue one #star wars #jyn erso #rebelcaptain #meta #lgbtqia+ #headcanon versus canon canon always relevant

[dungeonsdragonstdelinquents]

kinda random but !!!! as someone who is in a homophobic family and is going to stay in the closet amongst the family indefinitely….seeing out and proud queer people in the family is something necessary and vital to survival. I don’t have the option to come out yet, if I did it would have to be when I was fully financially stable as well as mentally prepared for that shit and. Lmao im not either of those! And also: Just a reminder to closeted folks—don’t ever come out before you’re ready! You don’t owe it to anyone. And also you may NEVER want to come out. This could be about family or friends or a job or something—you don’t need to feel pressured. Just do what is right for you. For me personally the way my family works….I doubt it is gonna ever happen. If it does i lowkey plan to go and send them my wedding invitation and that be my coming out! Anyways my point—I have a cousin (we call her aunt because she is way older than me) who is gay. It’s unclear to me if she identifies as lesbian or bisexual or maybe just unlabeled but she has a wife. And they’ve been partners for years and years and years. I never knew my aunt existed. I never held a conversation with her. I only found out she existed recently because of a family event where everyone would be meeting for a reunion of sorts. It was revealed to me by my dad that anytime she was going to be at an event he wouldn’t let us go so I never met her. He even went as far as to sit in SEPERATE ROOMS FROM HER WHEN WE DID ATTEND THE SAME EVENT. We fully sat in another room during thanksgiving before (I was too young to remember this) when she was there.

On the VERY rare occasion that I have seen her since I’ve known she’s existed, she was someone who calmed me. I have no idea if she sees me on her gaydar or not—I would hope she would—but she has always made me feel at home when I’ve talked to her even though it’s only been like two times. Recently I was able to ask her all about her wife and their anniversary and it was just SO refreshing. I got to see her be herself, just be a person, just be my aunt. And within this view of herself, I got to see her have a wife.

for me I’ve never felt at home with myself. I’ve always struggled to know who I want to be who I want to look like. After figuring out I was lesbian this struggle came to me even more. But seeing her just be herself and just dress like a 40 year old woman who just happens to have a half shaved head and who loves ice cream it was so fucking inspiring. I could carve out a place for myself like she did. Just be myself and love ice cream and go and be gay and merry. Love my wife. having real people in your life who are lgbtq is SO important, especially older people. For me it felt like breathing the first time in a long time.

#lesbian #bisexual #homophobic family #wlw

[beantothemax]

okay since im very frustrated about how yukiko, kanji, and rise were treated in their midnight channels/dungeons, im going to do a little bit of spitballing for funsies.

yukiko amagi:

is insecure in her own abilities

feels failed by her best friend, chie

this manifests on the midnight channel as a search for "a prince", and in her boss as a bird in a gilded cage. im actually a big fan of the birdcage fight because a) the design is pretty cool and b) mmm cage metaphor. so that's staying. however, her dungeon sucks ass, but i can think of a half-decent alternative: a haunted mansion.

keep the castle aesthetic but run it down a little further. make it nice and dingy. the midnight channel follows yukiko through this mansion, trying to escape but failing in increasingly incompetent ways (this is notably very out of character for her, but does illustrate how she feels about herself). at the end of the midnight channel that you see, she curls up in a corner and begs someone to save her, possibly making reference to someone who failed her before.

kanji tatsumi:

is terrified of rejection

is a closeted bisexual

somehow, this is almost the most reasonable of the three dungeons in terms of the whole sexualization deal; a closeted queer kid would naturally have some crazy thoughts going through their head about their object(s) of attraction. does that justify it? NO. i dont feel comfortable making his narrative less queer because that would suck, but it needs to change for sure.

the midnight channel could easily play into this: kanji is a guest on a talk show, in which multiple faceless men sit around him and compliment him so so much. it could easily be done in a way that makes the intrinsic gayness obvious.

the dungeon would also have to change, but i have just the idea for it. kanji is stated to be very interested in clothcraft, something that he is very insecure about. the dungeon could have walls and doors fashioned from lavish cloth, designed as though they were about to open up onto a talk show (see the previous paragraph).

and finally comes the boss. once again, the design is less egregious than some other elements of his storyline, but kanji's is much worse than yukiko's. the Nice Guy and Tough Guy enemies can stay, as they're the main gimmick of the fight and i'd hate to let them go. they could transform from the hosts of the talk show. as for shadow kanji himself, i feel like it would still make sense to play into the overt masculinity aspect that was included in the canon design (transfers well into take-mikazuchi and kanji's overall physicality, which went largely unmentioned in his storyline). i dont have many other notes because i am Not Good at coming up with boss designs unless i can be all high fantasy about it.

rise kujikawa:

is much smarter than she lets in on

is unsatisfied/angry at showbiz (inferred from actions)

feels conflicted about her split identity as a person and as an idol

now, where could we go with this? maybe not a fucking strip club. maybe not that. nonetheless, there's some very cool material to work with her.

her midnight channel could be a sort of reversal of her actual one that also plays into her intelligence, and elements of misanthropy that i feel could easily sprout in the mind of a young woman put on display for all the world to see. it is once again a talk show/game show type thing, only this time with rise hosting. over and over, new guests are introduced with descriptions of their lives, with their families present, and then have dark secrets of theirs exposed. maybe foreshadow the scan attack that shadow rise uses. this notably a) is the reverse of how rise's life has been so far; instead of putting herself on display, she lays others bare, b) plays into a possible dislike of humanity as a whole, shown through her shadow's callousness towards other's secrets, and c) would be INSANELY scandalous if it got out, just like her actual midnight channel.

no ideas for the dungeon, but i've got a cool one for the boss. first, keep the satellite head. there is one good part about her canon boss design and it is the face. however, not much has been done thus far about her "there is no real me" deal. thus, the boss is vaguely humanoid but has three heads. one is the satellite, representing her intelligence and dislike of humanity. another represents risette the false, and a third, stuffed behind the other two, represents rise as an ordinary person. shadow rise is already the most humanoid of the bosses so far, so why not play into that a little but add some fun body horror?

and thats my little rant thing. hope you liked it.

Iris why could’ve you have directed p4 THESE ARE ALL. GSBBDGSHS !!!!!!!!! I REALLY REALLY LIKE THEM

first of all a haunted mansion just sounds way cooler of a dungeon for yukiko. and the whole way it’s portrayed on the midnight channel showing how yukiko feels about herself… ye

AND RISE’S DUNGEON SOUNDS !!!!! HER LIKE. FLIPPING HER WHOLE IDOL THING AND LAYING OTHER’S SECRETS BARE LIVE ON TV!!!!!! YEAH!!!!!! also it doesn’t sexualize minors so it’s better by default

I really like these!!!!!!

#asks #chaotic-good-mom-friend #chaotic experiences the absolute chaos that is persona 4

[sammygender]

im bisexual but like genuinely in a half straight half gay way. im attracted to women exactly the same way as a dumb lil straight boy. im attracted to men like a closeted gay teenager who has never experienced attraction to women in his life. i don’t do “bisexual panic” i can’t be attracted to both a man and a woman at the same time i pick one and run with it but the one it is depends on the circumstance

#bisexual #like right now i’m gay most of the time except for when i see exceedingly beautiful women usually in photos #and then i’m a straight man. sorry #im kidding i am bi but. Like #oliver talks

[bravelittleocelot]

I am asking in the goodest bestest faith with my heart open trying to accept that there's an answer: how is bisexual polycule with Beronica the straighten endgame option for Riverdale just because they don't explicitly mention Jarchie? I mean, they could have not had Beronica? (Sorry if the post was old, I just was scrolling around the Riverdale tag). I also don't understand how Archie wasn't still canon bi, but that's harder to talk about I guess

Hey Anon! It's not that old, and as I mostly shoot my mouth off about RVD without much thought to how it comes across im absolutely happy to explain my jumbled half-baked thoughts lmao.

To be totally clear; I'm absolutely not erasing the bisexuality of the polycule nor am I discounting the fact that we absolutely had canonical bisexual archie even if he and reggie didn't kiss on screen/at all. None of these fools were straight at the end of the day. and for all my grievances with this show I do completely appreciate this. I didn't mean to imply that archie wasn't bi just because he didn't end up with jug in the polycule.

I complained about it being the 'straightest possible version of this' as in 'this felt very written by a straight person who has very specific views on queerness'. the tl;dr is; I felt like it was kinda fetishy and queerbaity to imply that only the women in the relationship are dating each other as well as the men, especially since they were the only ones who kissed on screen. We didn't get to watch archie or even jug have nearly the same level of queer exploration at all, and I think that's kinda shitty.

as a small disclaimer, i believe the writer is actually gay, im not trying to be like 'ugh a straight person wrote this' I'm trying to explain my feelings in terms that can be understood lmfao.

Now ofc, idk what was happening behind the scenes. Maybe KJ felt too uncomfortable to do a scene of kissing another man, maybe he didn't want to kiss cole, who knows. totally valid reasons.

To explain it bit more in-depth: It felt super queerbaity, or I guess bi-baity? to me to have a whole episode of archie figuring out bisexuality and never have him explore that more on screen, only to say that he was in a polycule that didn't include Reggie (who it was implied pretty heavily he had some feelings for) ((It should've involved reggie I'll die on this hill)) and only really seemed to imply that betty and veronica were dating. We got to see Veronica and Betty explore this side of themselves repeatedly and on screen, and I love that they did this, but I honestly think it kind of sucks that Archie didn't get to have that same level of exploration as well (even if it's lowkey implied he's gonna ride trains and fuck all summer until he ends up going to the farm instead). I really would've loved to see him figure out his feelings some more through dating Reggie or Jughead in a similar way Betty and Veronica got to explore that.

I haven't seen Every Bit Of Media OUt There, but growing up I always felt like the bisexual women on screen were always out having sex and kissing and being loud and proud while the bisexual men were always a bit more closeted and restrained, and never as loud and proud. This is a broader spectrum, but this is where that part of that annoyance stems from.

And like it's all well and good that we got to hear about the polycule, but it felt like an afterthought and a meatless bone thrown to the queer audiences out there, we didn't really get a chance to explore that side of things at all ((because we were too busy learning chic was playing bury your gays with kevin's dad and archie's uncle??? like wtf?? I guess we were going for a bit of a gritty ending but cmon)) and they kind of immediately break up on screen? It just felt like one last middle finger from the cw. And yknow, time constraints, endings are insanely hard to write, etc. But not one person was like "hey shouldn't we... explore this a little bit?" cmon,

tldr part 2: The should've done more or had a longer ending so that more stuff could be fit in.

anyway, I just think it would've been nice if we could've seen more of that whole deal, but at the end of the day it's just my opinion, sorry for the huge jumbled ramble its nearly 1 in the morning lmao.

#ask #anon #riverdale

[sunnyvicky]

Having mostly homophobic relatives sucks so bad (vent)

Imagine the people you love, people that support you, and people you grew up with

Just to also know that they wouldnt support you if you were ever honest about who you can love

Image hearing your own loved ones call people like you perverse just for being like what you are, hearing them shame people like you.

More than half of adults in my country dont support gay marriage or adoption. More than half of the people Ive ever meet irl, would want me to just throw away atleast half of my own feelings of romantic love.

Even my own country, as it begs for people to stop leaving it, wouldnt give me the right to marry someone Id love.

Even if its easy to avoid hate crimes by staying in the closet. It still feels awful to hear people say stuff like this. It hurts Ill likely never be able to confess to my crush. It hurts that I have to hide my feelings just to be accepted.

It hurts that, I have to limit myself, that I cant be honest irl without fearing the worst.

It hurts to stomp down my own feelings, just to be able to have a family Im not repulsed by. Because instinctually, I feel utterly repulsed when they indirectly say Im perverse, abnormal, undesirable, shameful.

Ive never seen a pride event irl, Ive never seen a full size pride flag irl, I have never seen a book with queer characters irl, the most ive seen was a handmade bisexual sticker on a stranger's backpack.

I have never told anyone irl outside my artschool (oddly accepting of queer kids) or outside of hushed whispers to cousins, that Im queer.

And I probably won't be able to, for years.

Because if my family, my classmates, my adult relatives would find out.

I have to only expect the worst to keep the possibility of them fully loving me.

#tw homophobia #vent

[saprophetic]

I just had a thought: Imagine if instead of pierce, Jack Black's character was the 7th member of the study group

literally i was thinking about that last night, i think it would like drastically change the group's dynamic + the flow of the story. like, i do honestly like the father son moments pierce and jeff have, and i think his relationships with annie and troy are really sweet. i definitely think he and chang had a thing. and honestly i like the moments where he and shirley actually get along? he has good moments (varying levels of goodness, granted) with all the main characters. and obviously without his relationship with troy, that would completely change the flow of the story.so generally in my "i can fix her"s wrt community i just tweak his personality to be more in line with those sweet moments + the fact that he says that he used to go out and pick fights with republicans which is just never addressed again??? so like generally i think about how much better the show would be if he was That Type of boomer liberal (bc that would also cause tension with britta and i love thinking about chaos). (and by the way in my rewrite pierce is an extremely closeted bisexual man. i have a lot of thoughts about how pierce would be better.)

BUT. THAT SAID.

my god i would have loved buddy in the group. actually im gonna be real i dont even have any thoughts about his character beyond "hee hee jack black". but i did have the thought "society if buddy killed pierce and took his place in the group" last night while half asleep so. take that as you will

[flowercrownd]

   this dude gives me a lot of feelings

#♡ ◜ooc.◞ #♡ ◜edits / mun art.◞ #// sometimes i wanna hug him sometimes i wanna punch him in the face <3 #// i KNOW hes not straight & u CANT convince me he is!! #// have u seen how he looks at sam?? while he was figuring things out abt #// michellee? #// yes im adding him & NO ONE can stop me! #// on my blog he was a closet bisexual but def KNEW he had a thing for men #// but felt like one of those 'youre either one or the other you cant REALLY like both' #// kind of people #// but then he realizes that it DOESNT have to be strictly half & half #// theres a spectrum #// & given that hes a grown ass man with stubbornness issues #// he was probably in the mentality of 'this is what i like & its NEVER gonna change' #// BUT THEN IS DID MWAHAHA

[ishades]

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#dnt rb obviously #i think being bisexual is an inherently lonely existence #sure you can make things better for yourself you can network and make friends and learn to love yourself in a way #thats personally meaningful to you #but life is really painful. especially if youre closeted and live in a bigoted small town. #i cant talk about my dating history without being asked uncomfortable questions. i cant express attraction to anyone in a serious manner #because to be attracted to women is predatory in so many peoples eyes. im an outsider am i a guy sexualizing women #am i a woman faking every aspect of my life in order to get away with sexualizing m/m couples? #to be into women is something that can only be joked about so long as others dont fully understand my gender identity #and all the ugly private parts of myself. the animals left to lick their wounds in the dark deep inside of me #to be into men makes me straight. im really just a girl and ill only be viewed as a straight girl #a girl whos boyfriend is half heartedly humoring her and letting her have short hair and sometimes using the correct pronouns except when #its inconvenient for him. #being attracted to nonbinary people has strangers and people i know personally inquiring intrusive questions about #'well what are they really? whats in their pants.' and leads me back into the two aforementioned hell traps #when people assume im a man because i use he/him pronouns and i go to say 'actually im nonbinary and sapphic' i recoil from myself in #terror and disgust because i dont think i can let myself use that label #terror because people will make more assumptions about me and my personhood. wondering why im the way i am. wondering if im available to #them. free to use and discard #disgust because no matter where i am in my life if im happy and doing okay mentally or not... just feeling like an outsider. #hesitating when speaking with my closest friends because my mom thinks im dating one of them #am i too close? am i mistaking kindness for shadows of human intimacy and camaraderie? #are people secretly laughing at me once again for admitting love of any kind? #do i have to let people sexualize me just to receive a shred of acknowledgement #'you exist. im telling you that you exist. so you do.' #my fear of intimacy and rejection combined with my extreme body image issues #and i guess hangups about how people perceive me and my identity too... #prevent me from seeking out romantic relationships. #i want to be loved and love. more accurately put i guess would be to say is i want to be allowed to love someone without being hurt #without it being a joke. without me being something for someone to get off to in my inexperience in interacting with others and setting up

[fagrackham]

i left my journal at my dads so im gonna rant a lil lmao (in the tags bc im not a monster)

#like. im so over being in the closet right and im so fucking over getting she'd every day of my god damn life but also like. #i mean i absolutely fucking refuse to come out at school especially bc its my senior year ? i have what . 6 months left of having to see #these rich townie assholes everyday? no i will not be mansitioning around them at all. but like the worst part is gonna be being like hey #these are what my words are this is what i am to you n then be in the weird in between phase #but im SO OVER being closeted. like can i just. jump to three years from now. please #n like no one needs to know that im like bisexual or whatever like who tf cares but like. my entire extended family is gonna have to get #the whole pronouns 101 pamphlet and everything. the parents of the kids i babysit #people at work ! everybody i know its insane #like i dont think im gonna tell people fr until i start t which wont happen for EXACTLY 6 months (happy half bday to me) #but like i just have to WAIT. n I am not a patient person ! we're coming up on a year since i started gendering for real?? n im just like. #sitting???? hello??? fuck this noise im afraid

[dantelionwishes]

you've activated my TRAP CARD: ACTOR AU

hikari kamino

horror genre movie actor!

has played several roles such as: the badass side character (TM), a paranormal detective's assistant, part of a main teen cast, final girl, and even a slasher! (HER HEIGHT IS INFAMOUS)

her height is very VERY real and so she gets cast as the antagonist quite often

has roles in movies similar in genre to slasher films, or stuff like psychological horror, or even plain old demon/ghost/monster movies

started out young as a child actress who was a possessed kid and she gained popularity from there

"have you tried getting a prosthetic on your face that is meant to be chopped off and bleed on-screen? have you tried walking in a heavy, hulking costume you can barely see or walk in while carrying another actor?"

she's so used to dark and broody sets that she jokes about how the bright and lively atmosphere of this series is so foreign to her

loved the wig so much she put red streaks in her hair

she's so used to being so scary and intimidating and chasing away her fellow cast members that she ends up stuttering her lines cos she literally has no idea how she ended up with this role (good thing the stuttering is in character, they end up keeping it)

actually pretty calm and scary, I'd imagine it's hard to approach her knowing she can easily pic you up or scare you half to death

makoto shiba

stand-up comedian!

bro they didn't have to audition HAHAHAHA they were selected for a role cos they were such a popular comedian

that acting? nah dude that's not acting that's just them 😭😭😭

likes doing instagram/facebook live when they get the makeup on them

DYED THEIR HAIR FOR THE ROLE COS HELL YEAH

probably does pranks on set (IM TELLING YOU ITS JUST. THE SAME)

childhood sweethearts with moa's actress and convinced the directors to make them kiss kiss fall in love

the most active one on social media for sure

just imagine john mulaney LITERALLY JUST REPLACE EVERY SCREENSHOT OF HIM WITH THEM AND THAT'S IT THATS THEM ALRIGHT

MOST OF THEIR LINES ARE JUST THEM CRACKING JOKES AND IT'S 100% OFF SCRIPT BUT ITS SO FUNNY THE DIRECTORS KEEP IT 💀💀💀💀💀

A lot of bloopers of them spouting different lines for the same scene HABSNWNEJ TOO MANY JOKES UP THEIR SLEEVE

probably really REALLY good at voice acting

osamu sato

popular romance actor!

VERY VERY VERY CHARISMATIC he's practically sparkling when he speaks and gives everyone bisexual panic

so him needing to be a scary strict teacher came outta nowhere

pretty boy who always comes out with a high ranking on most dateable/hottest bachelor

watch fans riot when they literally hide his face 24/7 with sato's mask LMAOOOOOOO

and all the piercings are fake HAHAHAHSH

closeted bisexual who had a LOT of roles starring as the main male bachelor to be paired with a female for a love team

got the role and was surprised his character was engaged with the series' all might so yes all their lovey dovey stuff was acting.......at FIRST

its revealed that toshinori actually picked sato's actor for all might's fiance cos he fancied him 😳😳😳

sato has a rule to never date co-workers from his romance movie roles but ...toshinori isn't from any of his romance movies 😏

paparazzi found them in a bar after hours once

miss me

famous idol/singer!

you know how miss me doesnt have a lot of content compared to the other three? haha HDSHGRSFG WATCH ME MAKE AN ACTOR AU EXPLANATION WHY

she's a very very very famous a-list idol/artist so the studio cant actually pay her so much for every single appearance she makes HAHJDGHJRF

imagine it like. lil nas x on a television show for a cameo every now and then or how nicki minaj was sugilite ONCE on steven universe HHGRJDGR

speaking of lil nas x she's probably popular AND infamous also because she really is trans and disabled! she fights for her rights and the haters hate her all the while she gets more and more popular from her very cool representative songs

does a lot of charity concerts

if there was an opening song and ending song, it's most likely she had performed them herself as part of her new album

#TAKE TWO #now with art because fuck you guys /lh #Osamu Sato sensei #miss me sensei #Hikari kamino #makoto shiba #bnha oc comeback #lionhe(art) #when was the last time I fucking drew im gonna cry DJHJHRJJFHHJGT #actor au