#im SO SAD DUDE.

[narutomaki]

dreamt my ex fiance came onto me and wanted to get back together to get married and also sexually and I woke up so so so so so sad.

like the anger of only having slept like 2-2 1/2 hours masked it initially, but I slept another 2 hours, and now i just feel sick to my stomach with want and self-disgust

like. can we not have these kinds of dreams while I'm sleeping over in their couch while spending the night with them?

#im SO SAD DUDE. #i hate this i hate this i hate this so much i just want to be NORMAL. #its been almost a full year since they called everything off and im just. i feel like i have blood on my hands dude. i do not sane abt this #sorry. #i should get more sleep tbh. idk. #also i feel slightly too old to be sleeping over on a couch but ive also had back problems since i was like 16. so. #oh godm 10 years huh? doesnt give us much hope of permanent improvement huh? #i hate. pain management being onku acheivable through consistent life style changes becuase i am SO BAD AT THEM. #oh okay no i need to step back and breath and distract myself bcus im spiralling #neg #vent #nsft neg

[b4kuch1n]

study of this masterwork

#wayneradiotv #rtvs #sonic the hedgehog #after '''''typesetting'''''''' this thing I almost forgot how to spell hedgehog #the caption is fully unironic btw this is for educational purpose. its very fun to draft a comic from an existing ''thumbnail'' it turns ou #but also I just love comics dude. I just love sequential art its so cool to see how anyone arranges things in their own comic #like. wayne's sprite on top of the ''what!!'' speech bubble. really fucking good #little bit sad I couldnt catch the streams live even tho they did run in my timezone... bc Im bad at sleepin #but! Im gonna try and set an alarm this weekend. wanna hang out for a bit #also yeah all dialogue in this is accurate to the original. no use fixing whats perfect as they say #debated printing this out and scuffing the paper with eraser and then re-scan it. for authenticity. but Im tired and dinner soon so #sorry cosme my friend cosme I couldnt commit. I couldnt do it.... #anyways yeah. I dinner now #have a good day lads! what u see truly is what u get

[lilybug-02]

I'm sorry but... really couldn't get over Asriel's sad snoot face

🥺🥺awwwww its sad snoot azzy ❤️❤️❤️ you draw him so well 😭

#look at the sad dog-goat thing! #give him hugs. HE NEEDS HELP #me when the cookies are too expensive #ohhhh im feeling really sick rn so drawing is hard but Chara is giving the most “ ō_ō DUDE NO. STOP NONONO! -_- ....okay” face rn. hehe #fanart!!! #bless ur art. man ur so cool. like actually #asriel

[waterghostype]

shit postings

#ninjago #kai smith #cole brookstone #zane julien #jay walker #jaya #ninjago jaya #kai ninjago #aphid’s ninjashits #im sure this has been done but ive had this idea for so long #also i just realized i messed up kais scar position in the first drawng #oops! #he was forced to acknowledge the rebooted love triangle #imo the love triangle sucks total ass but it’s also like peak comedy in a meta way #like yeah misogyny and badly wirtten romance but i’s so absurdly stupid you cant help but laugh #also looking at the comment section for the jay kai fight gave me brain damage omg #like ok i have problems with the way kai was treated in regards to nyas seaboundification #but ppl keep acting like jay shouldnt have cared as much as he did which is ??? dude #AITA for being sad my fiance turned into the ocean #but dragons rising fixed that for me mostly #another reason why dr ON TOP!!!!! #and jay’s characterization in recent seasons is definitely really just mmmm #but his reaction to nya’s leaving made sense and i wish it was explored more but whatever #crystalized is crystalized

[levitiquee]

It'd been years after the war.

You no longer had to fight anymore.

The ODM bruises had started to fade as you don't have to tighten the straps anymore, so hard that they dug into your skin. You don't miss the familiar weight of the gas tanks and thunder spears around your waist.

No more recovering only the remains of your dead friend. No more running for your life. No more corpses, no more blood.

You don't miss that life.

You've found your peace, a life with Levi.

You would have never thought it was possible. Not just you and him, but the whole concept of it.

That finally, you can sleep peacefully, without being scared of an urgent call that a wall was broken through. Though you'd still have nightmares but still. And even then it was fine because you had Levi now, to help you get through it. You no longer hard to curl up to yourself and try to calm yourself down, hug a pillow and sob silently so none of your dormmates wake up. You had Levi now.

Or the mornings, you think. The odd sense of peace, the feeling of safety. You can wake up beside him and stay in bed for as long as you want. You don't have to get up and search for your uniform. There's no training to be late to. You just curl yourself around him and watch him sleep, peaceful. And you get to watch when he'd woke up, sleepy sleepy eyes peering through and then arms wrapping around you tighter. He looks so vulnerable then. But you're glad, you think. That he can sleep like that now. That he feels safe enough to, safe with you. His dark circles aren't so visible anymore and he doesn't look as tired as he used to. He still can't get a full rest, but the insomnia isn't that bad.

Life had changed. And for the best. Peace for him and peace for you.

But try as you may, and oh dear God did you try, you can't actually forget. Can't actually leave the life you had spent so many years living behind just like that.

No, the scars never faded.

Souvenirs, you think. Reminders etched into your skin, reminders of who you were and what you've done and all that you pray to forget.

Yours stopped bothering you at one point. It used to. Once. Severely.

You'd stare at the bruises on your thighs for hours or the livid pale slashes along your arms or your stomach. Rough knuckles and calloused fingertips, the constant usage of ODM had left marks there too.

It's more the memories than anything that comes with it.

You used to think, how could anyone possibly look at this marred mess you were and still love you?

Oh but Levi.

He never told you but you knew.

He thinks it's not enough. That he's not enough. That surely you deserve someone with all their fingers, and both their eyes.

And you think it's ridiculous.

But even now, after so many years, you'd sometimes catch a glimpse of him staring at himself into the mirror, fingers grazing his face.

The world had been so cruel to him. And he didn't know how to be kinder to himself.

Unlike you, who cried it out, he never learnt how to actually handle his emotions. So when it's one of those days, he merely shuts himself out. In his own dark little mind. And those days, you leave him alone, because he only curls into himself deeper if you try to get him out. And you learnt to give him space, for him to come out on his own. Though every inch of you wants to help him, but you don't know how.

And it was one of those days, you realized when you walked into the bathroom.

He was staring at the bathroom mirror, arms braced on the counter. So focused he didn't even hear you coming.

"Levi?" You called out gently.

He didn't answer, but his head tilts towards you, eyes shifting to meet yours. He only gives a slight nod.

"You... okay?"

"...yeah." He takes a moment but nods. "Fine."

And it was then you noticed how hard his fingers gripped onto the counter. And you noticed his expression, the look of guilt there. How he wouldn't even look at you properly.

Your heart hurt.

If only he understood.

You didn't say anything but walked towards him. And without a word, you slide on top of the counter, shifting so he was standing between your legs. You locked your legs behind him, pulling him closer. He was startled but he didn't say anything, his eyes downcast.

There was so much pain inside those gray eyes.

"Levi." Your voice gentle, soft. "Look at me."

At that, he only tilted his head, looking further away from you, eyes darting sideways.

"No, look at me." You held his chin, turning his head towards you. He flinched at your touch, but you could see the resistance breaking under your gaze. The walls coming down.

With that, you held up your hair, tilting your head to show him a slash that went up to your neck.

"See this?"

He looked at you, confused. And without a word, you tugged on your t-shirt, taking off the clothing in one pull.

"What are you... doing?" He asked, warily. Eyes on your face. Even after so many years, he still got shy.

"No, eyes here lev." You said firmly. "See this?" You pointed at a scar along your elbow, then towards the bruises that ODM had left on your chest. " And this?"

He only stared at you, expression hard. His jaw tightened.

"Tell me Lev." You sighed.

"Does these repulse you? Creeps you out? Do you think they're ugly? Do they make you love me less? Or not at all?"

Levi looked horrified. He was immediately shaking your head, desperate to deny the words. How could you even think that?

"No." He said hastily, eyes wide. "No, what are you saying? Of course not—"

"So why on earth," You gently cupped his cheek, shushing him down. "Do you believe that yours makes me love you any less?"

Your thumb pressed along the scars on his cheek. They were white now, no longer blood red and livid on his skin as it was back when Hange stiched them up. You swallowed, pressing your forehead to his.

"What made you think," You whispered. "That these makes you worth any less levi? "

He didn't pull away, but he stiffened. His face hardened but there was a look of despair beneath his eyes. "That's not the same—''

"How is it any different?" You cut him out, your voice firm. "You tell me, I'm waiting."

He hesitated, staring at you. And then he looked down.

"...I'm crippled."

"Your point?"

"You deserve someone younger. Someone whole. Someone who's more than me."

"There's no one that's more than you levi."

"I'm damaged. "

"We'll fix it. I'll fix you. So, help me fix myself."

"I'll hurt you. I've already hurt you. I don't know how to be better than this. I don't know how to love someone. "

"You're the only person who have never hurt me. You make me feel more worthy than anyone else in this world ever could. And holy shit, if you can't," You whispered. "If you can't, let me. God, I'd love the shit out of you if you'd just let me. So fucking let me in Levi, don't push me away. Don't shut me out. You've done that enough in your lifetime."

And Levi was still. He was made out of stone. So hard, so rough, the edges so sharp. He tries to soften himself for you, but it goes against everything he ever taught himself his whole life and he doesn't know how to do that. He tries, but somehow it never feels enough. Not enough for you. And he wish he could believe that you didn't love him because you do and he could feel it. He can always feel it . Like the way you were looking at him and he felt so, so exposed.

It makes him feel guilty. Someone like you doesn't belong with someone like him. And he wishes, for once in your life, you'd stop looking at him like that so he could convice himself that you don't want him and he could walk away.

And he knows he makes you feel like you're not good enough, because he sees your sad expression when he locks himself out. But it's not you, he wants to tell you. God, you're fucking perfect and it's never you. It's him. He's the fucking problem. The space inside his head was so dark he was scared that just might be enough for you to leave.

But you. The tempt of it.

The warmth of you. You were all softness and gentless and goodness, so so kind to him and it makes him want to hold you tight and never let go again.

But somedays it gets so hard.

He isn't used to this. To show his feelings. To feel so bare in front of someone. Instinct doesn't let him.

He isn't used to feel so loved.

But he thinks he'd try. For you.

Because now that it's you, he doesn't know how to go back to a time there wasn't you.

"Levi?" Your voice pulls him out of his mind. Like you always did. His saving grace, his angel. You wrapped your arms around him, pulling you closer and he can hardly breathe.

"Don't give up on me, Levi." You whispered to his ears. "On you. On us."

@sad-darksoul @anxious-chick @raginginferno267

#DUDE #I AM SORRT #SORRY #IM JUST SAD OKAY #AND SLEEPY #BUT LEVI DOESNT UNDERSTAND HOW LOVABLE HE IS #HE'S SO INSECURE #LIKE BABY #THE WHOLE UNIVERSE COULD LOVE YOU AND IT STILL WOULDN'T BE ENOUGH #aot #levi ackerman #levi #captain levi #levi heichou #snk #aot fandom #aot fanfiction #snk fanfiction #levi x reader #levi thoughts #levi fluff #levi angst #aot levi x reader #captain levi x reader #levi x you #postwar!levi

[mugentakeda]

aunt definition: not a mom, not a big sister, but a secret third thing

#i love ursa so much dudes im so sad.............. #Also for clarification on the top one. Shes pregnant. not dying #i also hope you all enjoy teeny weeny zuko who is the size of singular pea. Microscopic. #ursa #lu ten #zuko #atla #alicias art

[emilylprentiss]

AARON HOTCHNER criminal minds | 6.20

#lord help me i [redacted] but this scene is so sad i almost threw my ginger ale #criminal minds #aaron hotchner #criminalmindsedit #tvedit #dilfgifs #dilfsource #tuserkei #userkayjay #usercats #tuserlana #tuserheidi #userrinanoir #singinprincess #cm gifs #'to haley and emily' im going to ACTUALLY throw up and die #my dude lost 2 women he loved in a year im ugly crying bye #im finally watching the seasons/episodes i skipped bc emily ~*died*~ bc im petty and didnt want to watch anything she wasnt in #except for s10 bc i love jlh with my whole titticles #cm rewatch #*mine

[sweaterface]

warmin up with the boys

#my art #fanart #the walten files #jack walten #felix kranken #dude jack was confirmed to have a tooth gap .. IM CRAZY IM INSANE #all my twf art has been really sad lately so i wanted to make something fun

[ryssbelle]

Some of y’all portray John Dory as so old and yeah he is older and you can do whatever you want forever as an artist or writer but he is 30 years old and yall draw him like his pushing 50

Mans got one foot in the grave and the others going in the second he his 36

Bonus:

#my art #dreamworks trolls #trolls 3 #trolls #trolls john dory #trolls band together #also i would like to say im not upset or anything by this #age is like weird when it comes to how its displayed on peoples faces #like bramch is 24 and has crows feet #its also neat how everyone seems to have aged fine and by that i mean looking their age #except for branch and for some john dory #and those two are the ones who spent a lot of time isolated and (most likely for john) depressed #and like yeah loneliness and sadness does age you #physically mentally emotionally #so it is like natural that john would look and feel older than he is BUT #not by decades dude #cuz like yeah branch has crows feet but he also still looks somewhat his age #you can tell the wrinkles in his face are from frowning not from age #tho like i do love peoples personal designs and takes #theyre all very unique #i just thought this was funny #and also it kind of needs to be said #cuz people act like once you turn 30 its all over but dude thats when your life is really beginning in that #you usually finally know who you are you know #like one of my friends hes 29 and like hes living the dream dude just doing what he loves and its so nice #and im not saying he has it all figured out but he has enough that hes setting a pretty damn good example #and hes only just begun you know he still has so far to go in life #we joke that hes old but again its all jokes #i just dont like that people think your life ends at 30 cuz you still have about 50 years left #but yeah anyway moral of the story 30 isnt old and you still got a lot more life to lead before you crumble to dust have fun live well

[sketchz]

The greatest villain of all time!!!!

#felt like drawing this (very cool) dude #while listening to anime campaign #y'know what? that was a bit of a mistake. AC giovanni is very fundamentally different than EE giovanni #and seeing him be mean to Molly makes me sad :( #also the dick jokes were cursed #other than that honestly it was pretty fun! #It's nice to see Sylvie since he got cut in prison of plastic #and it's not like giovanni wasnt funny; just that ee gio was given a lot more depth and heart #epithet erased #sketchz's stuff #giovanni potage #prison of plastic #EDIT: I JUST REALIZED I DREW FIRE ON HIM? #IM SO SORRY MOLLY #pretend its just there for aesthetics and not actually hot and fire

[sad-leon]

"It's so Ugly and I'm so Broken"

Ever since I drew the frame in my last Death Wish animatic, I've wanted to illustrate it. I meant to share the animatic with the illustration done, but that tree was giving me so much trouble

@remedyturtles

Ko-Fi || Patreon

#sad•leonart #rottmnt #rise of the tmnt #rise leo #rise leonardo #rise future leo #rise future leonardo #little kid with a big death wish #little kid with a big death wish fanart #death wish #death wish fanart #tw suicide attempt #suicide attempt #they mean so fucking much to me you dont understand #rem you also mean a lot to me <3 #i already spilled my guts in the Saline Solution animatic then again after the sick fic #but dude (gender nuetral) im so happy i get to call you my friend

[sabotourist]

i feel so much about delta you guys

red vs blue really looked at me and said here is our logic fragment. this is the logic man. he feels logic. he has a strong survival drive. but also he loved york enough to be willing to die with him.

sigma wanted so fucking bad to be human, to be whole, to chase what they came from and what they were. that he totally missed the fact that delta fucking made it. Delta was more than the Logic Fragment. He had his own bonds, his own wants, his own drive because of his relationship with York.

And in his attempt to become whole again, Sigma... completely undermined that. Made delta into the Logic Fragment again. just another fragment, not a person of his own.

do you ever think about how if sigma had slowed down and really tried to work with maine, that maybe things could have gone so so differently?

i think about that.

#i could keep going #i feel so much about delta and sigma #sigma is ambition #he wants to be whole but then was used to break apart the alpha #no fucking wonder hes like he is #meanwhile delta is so fucking #genuinely caring towards york #hes more than logic!!!! #mind over matter makes him justice as well #but even putting that masterwork aside #hes a fucking person!!! #and he died and im so sad about that #because he didnt have to die #pretty much every major death in this show was avoidable and that kills me #this show is agony dude it writes death as the tragic yet unceremonious bitch that it often is and that kills me #doyle got to go out with a bang but fuck he deserved better too #anyway yeah i love these lil halo dudes #red vs blue #rvb #delta rvb #sigma rvb #york rvb

[vaguely-concerned]

it's so crushing to me that M--, in the middle of the nuclear escalation insanity, told john through the closed door of his bedroom that she knows this isn't what he really wants, that they can still fix this together, that everything can still be all right if they just stop now. both she and A-- believed in john's goodness as a man, as a person, not even as a god or a leader, so much that they came up with the crazy 'arming the bomb' plan with him because they thought he would never actually do it. (they've got a recurring problem with judgement of character I suppose lol oopsie we enabled a genocidal monster sorry folks won't happen ag-- ah shit). C-- tells him he doesn't have to do this. the rest of his little found family, they all tell him this has gone too far, walk it back while we still can holy shit john!!! and he hides in his room because people are mad at him like a kid, but like a middle-aged kid with a doctorate who won't take his finger off the one Biggest Reddest Button to end them all.

then, so many years later, cytherea says at the dawn of lyctorhood: we had the choice to stop.

and then. THEN augustine tells him, at the end of everything, "john, we still have the choice to stop, even now. you don't have to do this anymore. even if there can be no forgiveness for what we've done, we can at the very least stop doing it." without either of them knowing it he's closing the loop of what M-- said ten thousand years ago -- they're both begging him 'be the man I want you to be, not the man you apparently are'. and he still doesn't listen.

what is this whole fucking mess if not a tragic ten thousand year demonstration of the unfortunate fact that no matter what you do, you can't change someone through sheer force of loving them 😔

I just... godDAMN IT john if you had listened to the people who loved you ONCE! ONCE, at ANY of these points, instead of sunk cost fallacy-ing yourself into the fucking lightless depths of the mariana trench while getting high on your own supply and drowning the universe in blood, everything could have been so different. my head is in my hands my heart is in pieces on the ground my bones are trying to shake their way out of my body --

#(I'm rereading/relistening to the audiobook and got to this part again and the AGONY! im so SAD help) #the locked tomb #the locked tomb spoilers #nona the ninth #nona the ninth spoilers #ntn spoilers #nona spoilers #john gaius #mercymorn the first #augustine the first #bad cop worse cop and sorry cop #like... mercy and augustine are very bad people but at least they realize that at this point forgiveness is irrelevant #while john both longs for and doesn't want absolution it seems but like. dude this isn't about you!!!!!!!! #it's about all these people you keep murdering! #how about: Stop That first of all maybe

[unmaskedfelon]

me after watching first few episodes of trigun (1998): hehe they cant catch this silly little dude, he is actually a pacifist and he loves donuts! so cute so cute, cant wait for this cool and edgy priest guy to appear, i wonder if he will be vash’s rival

me after i finished it: what does even mean to be a human. can we live in this world without violence? do we have a choice? everyone talking about “cruel world”, but what if people had created this cruelty by themselves? is it even possible to live in peace with each other? how can we get closer to God, if we cant even love each other? what are we trying to prove? my life will never be the same again. 

#like LITERALLY this anime made me think so much wtf #I THOUGHT IT WAS ABOUT SILLY OUTLAW DUDE WHO ISNT EVEN AN OUTLAW #uh btw wolfwood is literally me #im so fucking sad what even the fuck :(((((((( #time to watch trigun stampede I guess #trigun #trigun 1998 #trigun vash #vash the stampede #trigun wolfwood #wolfwood

[unluckyprime]

how about it guys . how we feeling today

#using the tags to ramble bc I have no dndads friends #beth may you legend #the we should kill him jokes throughout the episode leading up to her ACTUALLY LETTING WILLY KILL HI #what the fuck man . im so sad #also that intro RIPPED DUDE #GO WILL GO #I started to love pepperoni Tony and now he’s gone :( #normal oak #hero oak #pepperoni Tony #Willy STAMPLER #scary Marlowe #lincoln li wilson #taylor Swift dndads #dndads #dungeons and daddies #dndads spoilers #digital art #mae hales #if u wanna talk about the episode PLEAAAASE dm me I need to talk to someone anyone

[yb-cringe]

jaiden :( “I know you don’t like answering questions. You’re doing really good! I’m proud of you.”

#qsmp liveblogging #qsmp #dude im jusr a wreck #cucurucho cant be evil because it would make jaiden sad so