#ignore me and my weird thoughts

[jeansyvesmoreau]

Randomly thought of this weird crossover at 12.15am

Kuwei: Let us find the dam snack bar, We should eat while we can

Jesper: The dam snack bar?

Kuwei: Yes. What is funny?

Jesper, grinning: Nothing, I could use some dam french fries

Nina: And I need to use the dam restroom

Jesper and Nina: *burst out laughing*

Kuwei: I do not understand

#six of crows #pjo #incorrect quotes #crossover #ignore me and my weird thoughts #i think i should do my work now #jesper fahey #nina zenik #kuwei yul bo #leigh bardugo #rick riordan #first original post

[vagueconfusion]

So

Vessel has done covers of Hey Ya and I Wanna Dance With Somebody, both of which are fast paced song that were slowed down in the cover

So it stands to reason that he'd be drawn to do the same with similar songs.

Anyways.

He should cover Never Gonna Give You Up and rickroll the whole fanbase

#sleep token #worshitposting #this would hilarious and also the cover would be beautiful #i got rickrolled and decided to watch the whole video and this thought came to me in a flash its yours now #my greatest contribution to any fandom are the weird thoughts that i leave like dead rats in the tags. enjoy #also possible someone has already posted something similar to this. if so feel free to ignore

[astronomergrump]

Does anyone wanna be my friend? I'm very nice guys, and a bit weird but dw. Plz (I'm desperate and very lonely)

*aggresively spasms and gurgles* WORMSNAX I LOVE WORMSNAX I'LL BEGIN WRITING THIS WEEKEND

#bugsnax #art #bugsnak #bugsnax fanart #doodle tag #sketches #my artwork #digital sketch #filbo fiddlepie #bugsnax filbo fiddlepie #Wormsnax #Wormsnax doodle #fan art #artists on tumblr #digital art #Small vent #Vent ish #My friend ain't talkin to me rn because of an argument #But whatever #bugsnax grumpus #Also ignore how weird the tags r/misplaced #I'm tagging as I go along with my thoughts #Also I need to fart #And need friends #i love my friends #Even though I ain't got a lot #Y'all r amazing <3

[juniperleafdelivery]

#my art #trans #side note: following tags are a pretty long thought dump #ugh okay i'm going to be honest #i didn't know anything about predstrogen until she was banned and many people started talking about her #also looked through photomatt's blog very briefly #to me he sounds callous- if that's the right word. he just didn't seem to care about what happened to predstrogen prior to her being banned #also? car with hammers that explodes multiple times feels far from being a serious death threat to me #yes predstrogen explicitly mentioned death wishes #but i don't know. what she said is more cartoonish than serious #also something i noticed from photomatt: where is the evidence that predstrogen threatened other users? #i haven't been looking into all this that deeply #but that photomatt stating that as part of the reason for predstrogen's ban and then not elaborating is. weird. for lack of better words #on a slightly different note: i love tumblr and how i can be my silly queer self and nobody cares #but if we don't stand up for each other — especially those who are constant targets for harrassment and other crappy things #tumblr will eventually die or bear no resemblance to the site i enjoy so much #maybe i'm privileged! being a trans masc guy #or maybe i'm ignorant #but i guess i have a tendency to say a lot. and i hate staying silent when i have the opportunity to speak out #so i'm going to scream #and i hope y'all are going to speak in support of trans women too

[lucienarcheron]

There are actually so many takes people have in this fandom be it through headcanons/fanart/general thoughts that make me wanna fist fight sometimes but you know what is best to do? Block/disengage/mute/ignore - whatever it is that I need to do to never see it again and I take responsibility for what I consume. Even though sometimes it's people who are my mutuals and friends that I generally enjoy connecting with. Sometimes we don't see eye to eye and that is perfectly okay!

But also...it would be super nice to be able to click on a tag/fanart/whatever and not see fighting or negativity or general asshole behavior. It would be SUPER nice if passive-aggressive tags weren't added to everything. Because I can disagree with your interpretation of something and not like it without it meaning I'm being a jerk. Without it meaning I'm being vague about someone or something. I'm not obligated to engage with things I don't agree with or like. But people can have different thoughts and that is okay. It stops being okay when you tell me that my thoughts are wrong and you're right and because you're "right" I should go fuck myself. Canon is canon, fanon is fanon and everything else outside of what is actually in the books is speculation. Everyone is guessing and whenever the next fucken book comes out, you'll know if you're "right" even though at the end of the day, it doesn't really matter because being right isn't the point, it's about actually enjoying the stupid books.

When people who have been in this fandom for years tell you they're burnt out, you can't wonder why when general fan behavior is crusty as hell. These characters aren't going to come out of the book and fuck you. Go eat some grass, touching it isn't enough.

#gp #fandon wank #stay the fuck out of my askbox you idiot person #It's already been a week I don't need your nonsense #sorry for this rant #I'm just so done and I've done my very best to ignore it 99% of the time but enough #This person leaves me messages every once in a while and I thought I blocked them #but they seem to pop out of the freaken woodwork #I even changed my settings so only tumblr folks can engage with my blog AND YET #lord help you weird pathetic person #I never post about stupid anons because it gives them attention but this one really came at a bad time. #tbd

[houndfaker]

i dont think ive flat out drawn kikumitsu before but the beast awoke tonight i guess

#p3 #persona 4 arena ultimax #p4au #mitsuru kirijo #kikuno saikawa #kikumitsu #kikuyukamitsu #<- mostly for organizational purposes on my part even if the stupid gay archer isnt anywhere to be seen. #quinn moment #quinn drawings #goinjg to be a weirdly long tag ramble sorry i have a lot of thoughts rn it is almost definitely because at the time of writing this its 3a #funfact kikunos back was arched at least like 30% more in the original sketch and i adjusted it after being like well thats scary actually #i produce A Lot about the kikuno/yukari aspect of kym because theyre by far the duo touched on the least in the polycule #i find their dynamic really weird and gay and funny so i doodle about it a lot #but it occurred to me i actually havent touched a whole hell of a lot on the kikumitsu side of things because imo they have the most #like...complicated thing going on? #special and particular relationship one that is beyond friendship. not even in the romantic sense its just that their roles and their #feelings towards each other transcend expectation. #in my little scenario its just really interesting to think about them navigating this shift in their bond. the deep feelings each one had #either set aside for ease or ignored in fear of misunderstanding. bits and pieces of themselves they opted to hide for their own or one #anothers protection. slowly bearing to one another that oh it was never just that i thought you were strong. it was never just that i wante #your happiness. i wanted to be by your side too. always. i am selfish underneath try as i might to never appear as such. #getting used to being able to want. getting used to knowing its not a bad thing to want. changing is scary but its good its ok #i get the impression theyre shy about each other. but also very eager. theyve been holding onto these pent up feelings for such a long time #that its only natural theyd want to be able to express them freely. but they have to take it bit by bit. save for moments where #it just becomes too much to bear i think? and they have to express it to each other immediately and desperately. which is what i wanted to #convey here i think. #god rest your soul if you read through all this it is sooo early in the morning and i have no reason to be getting this sick over #an obscure and underrated dynamic i dedicate unnecessary amounts of thought to

[kineticallyanywhere]

organizing my thoughts

options:

1: They're both Sparrow's (pretty likely), Hero is the Chosen One of the prophecy, but who gives a crap about a dumb prophecy, Normal's the one getting the work done

2: Hero is Lark's from The Cheating Incident, Normal is Sparrow's (pretty likely). This makes both of them the first born of one who released the Doodler and either or both of them could be the Chosen One. Unless the prophecy is specific about who did the stabbing, in which case Hero is the Chosen One, circle back to option 1

3: Hero is Lark's, Normal is Sparrow's, BUT: you question whether Lark was actually the one that did the stabbing (these two have quite the Parent Trap history and we still haven't gotten either twin to explain what their 12 year old logic actually was in that moment). In which case Normal really is the Chosen One and they've thought it was Hero because the didn't know The Cheating Incident resulted in a pregnancy until... probably now.

4: Hero is Sparrow's, and, assuming Lark lied about not sleeping with Rebecca again, Normal is Lark's. Either of them could be the Chosen One unless the prophecy is specific about stabbers in which case Normal is the Chosen One.

5: Hero is Sparrow's, Normal is Lark's, but--see option 3 about possible StabberSparrow--Hero is still the Chosen One, circle back to option 1.

6: Based on Rebecca's willingness to cheat on Sparrow, Hero isn't biologically an Oak at all and doesn't qualify to be the Chosen One, making the Chosen One Normal.

7: Hero isn't biologically an Oak at all but adoption counts in this universe and she's still the Chosen One, circle back to option 1.

8: "the one who released the Doodler" does not refer to Lark or Sparrow but the Doodler itself, having influenced it's own release. Rebecca's "accidental pregnancy" with Normal was actually an incursion and Normal is a straight up human incarnation of the Doodler--therefore chosen by the Doodler--to be its last attempt at reaching out to humanity, seeking love and affection through the only benign role it's ever been given: being a mascot. and so--

the bolded numbers are the ones where the prophecy seems to actually matter to how events are unfolding, which is less than half. now the playthrough of God of War: Ragnarok isn't done yet but there's a whole buncha stuff about fate in that game and I wonder how much was on Anthony's brain

#me talking #dndads #dndads 2 #dndads spoilers #look my usual conspiracy buddy hasn't listened to the new ep yet but I have to put my thoughts somewhere #so here have a look at the weird corner of my brain as it cooks #theories #i uh #ignore that last one #ordont

[cryptidcave-dweller]

I've always thought that maybe the inconsistency of Five running out of energy and then somehow still being able to blink was because he needs a cooldown period. But it might be because his powers have always been "glitchy" around that age. By the time he was back to a healthy old man his powers were more reliable because his body grew to tolerate it or the commission altered his dna or something. So when he went back to his younger body he might've felt he had far more teleportation jumps in him but its really unreliable. This especially goes hand in hand if it's also effected heavily by his emotions at the times because surprise attacks are usually what get him: Hazel, Cha Cha and the Swedes.

A fun idea with Lila though was that since spatial manipulation/awareness is kinda part of Five's powerset was that she sensed where Five was going to teleport and threw the pan at him... or she is a really good guesser. But it's also my guess as to why he and his 60s self were facing each other everytime they teleported.

#the umbrella academy #five hargreeves #Five would've also been able to sense Lila but honestly he probably thought the vibes were weird and ignored it #He didn't know he was playing a game of spot the teleporter #the greatest assassin in the company keeps getting beat up #excuse me while I drop my headcanon here and leave it unattended

[swinging-stars-from-satellites]

anyone else ever get struck with a sudden feeling of distaste or being tired of someone who you usually really like/are friends with for literally no reason whatsoever? or is that just me

#like this has been happening with various people all summer #I'll be like... the thought of this person causes negative emotions that are literally directed at nothing #it isn't anything the person has done I just. feel like I don't care and don't really want to put in the effort with whatever friend #which is really weird bc I KNOW if I DO just put in the effort and ignore that random feeling I'll have fun and enjoy myself!! #bc I DO still like my friends actually!!! I just sometimes feel like I Don't and idk why #Lu rambles #this is especially odd when it's the sound guy bc like. not only have I been massively crushing on him all summer #but he's also one of the few people I genuinely have clicked with here. like we get along. it's cool. I've been slightly in love with him #so why do I now have this weird feeling like I want nothing to do with him/don't care #actually I feel extremely ambivalent about just about everyone right now but for some reason especially him #wait maybe it's PMS actually.... the Leave Me Alone Don't Talk To Me Don't Look At Me Don't Make Me Show Up hormones have hit :/ #...that would actually explain several things from the last couple days. I should start tracking it #ok sorry I'm done externally processing my emotions on Tumblr dot com. bye

[virtuousbliss]

BLISS BLISS HI BLISS I MIGHT JUST EXPLODE. IF YOU EVEN CARE.

i Don't even know what to say. This thing is INCREDIBLE !!! Its like if i was a beast of some sort. i would Love to be a Beast

#answered #bliss #PIPAAAA OH MY GOD THERE IS A BEAST IN MY INBOX ITS NOT EVEN FUNNY. ARAGGHGHRRR #you are literally so nices and so sweets #literally putting a tiny thang in my inbox #Also. bare with me while i decide what i want bliss's text to look like #she is strange and unusual and i want to convey that in her text but i also feel compelled to #do all the proper writing text. but im not sure !!!! #Im going to keep playing around with it for awhile until i figure out how i like it i think #also ignore if this side view of her antennae is weird ive never even thought about what she;d look like. if she turned her head #so this is just me experimenting with ideas and seeing if it is presentalbe #Omg i love you rambling in tags ok bye

[mattodore]

i’ve been pretty quiet on here and avoiding my activity and dms these last few weeks because october was easily one of the worst months i’ve had in a very long time and i lost my family dog of seventeen years and had a medical scare for not only myself but my cat and just all these things happened at once that felt incredibly hard to bounce back from mentally… but aside from being sick atm things are starting to get better for me and my family so hopefully i can actually start being. normal. again soon 🧎

#river dipping #i don’t think i get personal on here very often just bc. the pd. um #but i figured i should say something bc my avoidant personality disorder is uhhhhhhhh #certainly Avoiding. #i’m so sorry if you’ve messaged me or @ed me or just tried interacting in any way #ik i wrote in my pinned navigation that yea i take breaks and avoid my activity and it’s nothing personal #but i still just wanted to reiterate it #i tend to keep notifications off for tumblr and my activity and everything like i only ever check when i’m mentally prepared for the State #my brain goes into when interacting with people #it’s not that i’m ignoring you!! my brain is just. very bad. #and i have a lot of trouble actually replying #especially in private messages #i’m much more comfortable talking publically which is why discord is so not for me 😭 #i really have been pushing myself out of my comfort zone a lot this past year and it’s certainly helped a ton #but still. it’s a disorder i’ve had my whole life so 🤷 it’s still sticking around ykwim #so i’m sorry 😔 but i’m also incredibly thankful toward everyone who’s taken the time to talk to me and interact with me and just thought of #me in general even when i’ve been so isolated recently #ummmm but on the bright side i moved out finally and am at a place that isn’t gonna poison my brain anymore so ‼️ #it took a few horrible days for my pets to get used to the house but things are fine now and i’ve set up my room and am :) doing better #surprisingly my panic disorder has been absent since the move… which is very weird for me #i fr think my previous place might actually have been poisoning me like i’m serious #……..i might delete this post in a bit if i start feeling too crazy abt being vulnerable lmao. um. #but for the people that’re online rn! my beloved friends and lovers yk #there’s my little update

[brainrotbloodclot]

He hasn't responded in hours and my mind won't shut up

#did his phone die or is he ignoring me #i weirded my boyfriend out and then i started crying why tf am i like this #why am i so clingy #clingy gf #actually borderline #actually bpd #bpd #borderline problems #bpd problems #bpd feels #bpd mood #bpd thoughts #borderline thoughts #fp bpd

[familyofpaladins]

I HAD A REVELATION

okay so I was thinking about gender. My gender. And my feelings about being a cis girl over time.

When I was little I used to wear all kinds of dresses and wore nail polish and even occasionally makeup (but like. Sloppily as a 7 year old would lol) and how overtime I stopped wearing nail polish and stopped wearing dresses and despised make up. I dont really remeber why I stopped with nail polish. Maybe because it flaked off too easily or maybe I was sick of the few colors we had idk. I know I gradually stopped wearing dresses and night gowns because I was sick of being told I couldnt "put my legs up [up against the wall or just straight up in the air] or that I had to sit a certain way while wearing one. So I wore more and more pants.

I think about how i used to stand in the toys aisles while my mom did grocery shopping and look at "The Boys" section and think how much cooler it was than the girls section.

And I think about how my music teacher told us one day we'd hit puberty and we'd grow and us girls would be like "[in a high pitched voice] OH MY GOSH I LOVE BOYS AND DID YOU HEAR ABOUT SO AND SO" and I looked over at my classmates and friends to see if they were also terrified of becoming annoying teenage boy-obsessed girls.

And i think about how when I was at my friend's house and we were building "tree forts" in the woods i would wish I had a penis for the convenience of being able to just go pee behind a tree, because squatting near the ground was Not Fun and I hated walking all the way back to the house. And I think about how I hated that I'd have to wear a bra once my boobs started to come in

Now you might be thinking. Friend I think you want[ed] to be a boy. But the thing is, i dont.

I may have hated being restricted in dresses but I dont actually hate them. I've gotten a couple dresses in the last 10 years (for prom and graduation and a [not my] wedding) and how I actually did like how I looked in them and enjoyed wearing them for that time.

I think about how I was jealous of the boys selection of toys, but also how I had a ton of barbies that I massively enjoyed and how if I'd been a boy I probably wouldnt have been able to enjoy them (thanks to pressure from society) as well as a bunch of other "girly" items and shows and movies. I think about how I'm actually Asexual and that I wasnt scared of becoming "a young woman", I just didnt understand the obsession with sex/romance/boyfriend&girlfriend stuff.

And while having a penis is more convenient for peeing I also remeber thinking that it would suck to get kicked in the balls and/or that trope of falling on soemthign between your legs that happens in so many movies (not that it feels any better with a vagina honestly). And that if I had been born a boy I'd most likely have to deal with all the toxic masculinity forced on me, and I'm glad I dont have to deal with that.

And while me and my boobs dont always get along, I remember that after getting my first cute bra, I thought. Oh well maybe this isnt so bad. And I mostly wear sports bras now because I do wish they were smaller and I HATE that so many bras (EVEN THE SPORTS BRAS) are already padded into cup shapes, and while I don't mind Having Boobs, i Do Not want to show them off. And sometimes i think that maybe i wouldn't mind chopping them off, but then i think how my figure/outline/silhouette would look with out them, and that seems worse.

And i think about the times I've accidentally been called "Sir" from tired fast food employees when wearing gender nonspecific clothing and felt happy about it. But not "oh it feels right to be called sir/he/him" , but more of "hehe I fooled you! You thought this was a dress but its pants!"

And really this is all to say. I was born a girl and grew up that way so it's what I'm used to. If I'd been born with a dick then I guess I'd be a guy. If you magically stuck me in a male body right now, would I feel like a Guy or feel like a girl in a guys body? I honestly dont know. So am I non binary? Maybe that that doesnt quite feel right either.

Being a girl is what I've grown up as and into, and it's what I'm used to and going by anything else is… odd. Maybe itd be better and maybe it wouldnt. It's like an old blanket. You've had it forever and maybe its frayed and patched maybe a little too small and it's not what people expect you to have for a blanket, and maybe you could do with a new one. But nothing feels right with out it. No other blanket feels the same. It's what you're used to and its familar. It's a comfort blanket.

And that's why being a [cis] girl is my comfort gender.

#Sorry that got LONG #This is a very personal post and I dont mind it being reblogged if anyone wants to #But dont be weird about it please. Dont tell me I'm an egg or actually trans or nb. Cause I'm not #*points at post* I'm a girl. It's my comfort gender :) #(edit: I don't mind if the 'wrong' pronouns get used. Like if someone uses he or they for me I'm not gonna be upset #I more just dont want labels put on my gender besides cis or comfort gender ) #Man I need that post where it's like so many asexual people are removed from gender. Cause yeah that kinda fits #Maybe I'm agender or soemthing. But mostly I'm Chill With Being A Girl #Also feel free to also totally ignore this post #I'm just rambling about thoughts #Gender identity #Comfort gender #Its after midnight so I apologize if none of this makes sense or like. There are unfinished thoughts lol

[fushigurro]

not only was i awoken this morning by maintenance men coming into my apartment and thus cutting my sleep short but i also did not take my adderall. not a fun combo besties

#rambles. #i have been dragging ALL DAY #i only didn’t take my meds because i don’t have enough until my next dr. appt #and since this is a new thing for me she wants to keep seeing me before giving more #and i feel weird calling and asking for more amphetamines LOL plus they ignored my call about something else from last week #so i thought ‘oh well i’m off work today i’ll just not take it’ #not having an awesome time

[s0ckh3adstudios]

Hey random but if there's anything I'm ever somehow being disrespectful about or saying incorrectly or doing wrong things, PLEASE let me know because chances are I have absolutely no idea. Because the last thing I want to do is something disrespectful or offensive

#i guess I'm thinking about this because like #there's the whole thing where people are misusing the term of autism i guess and even just equating it to normal weird quirks #and making these jokes and such #and there was all this stuff i knew but I don't know how much is legit #i thought i was on the autism spectrum for a long time #I still wonder but #i did do some dumb little quizzes for a dr (who didn't even normally do stuff like this i think) and the results were that I'm not hut who #knows of the accuracy #and it left me feeling bad because a lot of traits of myself i thought were similar to being on the autism spectrum #and even then i think I'm weird and have weird traits in general and was discouraged i didn't have like. a reason for why I'm weird the way #i am. and if I'm not i really don't want to be saying anything i shouldn't. before I was just mostly following what everyone around me was #saying #am i allowed to say hyperfixations?? can i have those if I'm not? because i definitely have those #i don't want to make any ignorant jokes or statements #who knows if i sit anywhere on that spectrum (even my mom thinks i do) but if i don't. i just want to be careful #i do have very high anxiety AND ocd if that means anything #those are confirmed #sock talk

[faunandfloraas]

inadvertently stopped using my freckle fade cream without thinking.... right around the time i started making gifs of felix.... coincidence?

#positive influence..... #i do wonder sometimes how jarring it must have been for he and lil chris to go from australia to korea #bc i copped shit for being pale and freckly as a kid #i have a core memory of this girl talia wearing a country bumpkin costume with these cartoonish freckles drawn on and she pointed at me #and was like Lol im jessie haha and i was like Okay so you want to fight?? #another time had to do some speech and when i finished and had questions from my classmates and two boys just asked me why i was pale #and why they could see idk i guess my bloodvessels in my legs ??? i didnt even notice like i was just like UHHHH idk ask about my topic #had so many instances like that and they werent terrible but it did make me insecure #like in the 00s here being tan was /it/ you had to be nice and tanned- go lay in the sun and ignore we are number one in melanoma deaths #like it was so consistently the thing... prob why i have so many freckles bc i didnt tan in the sun i freckled #but in both felix and chans aus photos they were quite tanned! #so imagine going from Hey go lay in the sun and get nice and brown ya pale fucker to Do Not Do That. Be pale as a ghost #white as fuck twilight vampire printer paper ass complexion or else you arent the beauty standard must have been so...... odd #idk beauty standards are so fucked and stupid #at least for me it was just like mean it wasnt like systemic. still wasnt nice but its not damaging the same way #but yeah I imagine some of the cultural differences must have been jarring and weird #like when chan said he was glad to get sex ed in australia bc it was comprehensive here and its not something i would have thought about #but yeah he went to school here and there he would know #idk must be hard to be an idol and straddle that line of not wanting to cause any ripples but having your own ideas and beliefs #oh i'd love to talk to him off the record lmao #dont take this as anti korea sentiment btw like australia is also wack #it just must be interseting and sometimes hard... #wow these tags are long SORRY