a little two am doodle!!! i've been having a really hard time making a davepeta design so this was to test some stuff out.... im still unsure of how i want them to look but i just know i love them both so much <3
(the height difference isn't that drastic davepeta just isn't standing all the way up)
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I think what bugs me the most about what happened today other than the fact that I was the one getting vagued is the fact that the conversation got warped into one that is about morality and not simply theorizing on The Ravens and how The Nest works
my original post essentially said two things:
The Ravens are victims and to erase that because they don't fit the model of the perfect victim and some have even become abusers erases all nuance from that portion of Jean and Kevin's lives and the surrounding discussion
Cults are weird. I grew up in one. And it is very easy to manipulated by one and to feel trapped and to also be completely in the dark about what is happening in a cult even when you're in the heart of it
I did not say anyone had to forgive the Ravens (they're fictional characters. fake people. that wasn't even on my mind) or that any of them are by any means good people. i also didn't say that they were all oblivious or that there weren't some of them that were abusive. I also never made this a conversation about morality and whether or not the Ravens are good or bad people for staying in a cult.
For some reason that got warped into what we are currently discussing and involved some highly insensitive language surrounding cult victims including things being said like it's not crazy to expect people to walk away from things like scholarships, financial security, or career security if it means being complacent in abuse and that it's "just basic morals".
And I'm sorry for getting personal on this but as a cult survivor I think that's one of the most upsetting and insensitive things I have heard come from these conversations today.
It doesn't matter what x thing is whether it's money or food or housing or a career. In a cult they use whatever it is you need and make you dependent on them for it. Also with the Ravens in particular keep in mind it wasn't simply being complacent in abuse. They were being abused.
If you have been in a similar situation, if you are grappling with the guilt of leaving a cult or anything like a cult, know that you are not a moral failure for having stayed for as long as you did. You are not moral failure for staying for whatever reason you did. It is not just basic morals when it comes to living in a cult. Morality becomes warped and the concept of what is immoral and moral is something completely different and that is intentional.
It doesn't matter whether you think the Ravens were aware of Riko's abuse or not. Having differing opinions on that is completely okay. What you don't get to do is turn it into a conversation about morality where you then get to insult cult survivors like we're evil people for not walking away at the first red flag because we needed something. Because we were in survival mode and we weren't able to focus on other people.
We still don't have all the details on how the Ravens function or the type of abuse players even outside of the perfect court face other than it was extreme. It's fun to theorize. And it's okay if people disagree. But if you can't be mindful about where your opinion switches from theory to some huge declaration of moral high ground then you've lost the fucking plot.
I would love to talk more about the Ravens and my theories on them. I would love to talk more about how cults work and why I think it's possible they were completely unaware of Riko's abuse. There's a lot of nuance in those conversations and I would love to take the time to treat them with the care they deserve. I'm also still incredibly upset by a lot of the things said today and I can acknowledge that this is a topic that is very personal to me. So this is me opening up that can of worms (again) and I'm more than happy to have those conversations and answer questions but please be patient with me because if it isn't already obvious this is a topic that is incredibly sensitive to me
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"real DID looks like this" "real autism looks like this" "real etcetera etcetera –" do you really think a rough collection of symptoms that's been agreed upon by psychiatrists and psychologists (who may not have even met people with the symptoms and conditions they're making decisions about) to indicate certain conditions can dictate the exact processes and behaviors that go on in the lives of every single person with those conditions. Do you really think that conditions typically estimated to affect – depending on the exact condition – around 0.5% to 3% of the population (which translates to millions when looking at it on a worldwide scale) will not only present exactly the same in every single person who has it, but can be neatly summed up by a couple diagnostic papers and the experiences you personally have seen from your corner of the world. No. Brains are fucking weird. There's common experiences and shared symptoms but near identical presentations are much less common than some of y'all seem to think, and you'd do well to remember that the next time you decide you are the authority on someone else's brain.
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It's oc posting time
Rue has vivid revenge fantasies. Extremely violent ones about the many ways they'd kill Nox if they ever got their paws on him. Crushing his exoskeleton under their bare paws, tearing him apart limb for limb, ripping his guts out and eating his heart while he's still alive- you name it, they've probably thought about it
These thoughts *terrify* her. It proves what Nox has always told her right, that she is a hopeless, violent, uncontrollable *monster*. That the reason she became a beast in the first place is because she is truly evil at heart, just like him
(In actuality, it's just a symptom of their PTSD, but going to therapy and actually unpacking all of that isn't an option to them. They'd rather die than actually talk abt their struggles)
So the thoughts fester in her mind for years. She thinks about it daily. It becomes like an obsession. An impulse. A need. And she begins to think that the only way to free herself from that torment is to do it. To kill him. Even if it proves Nox right
Even if it proves *her* right
So they hunt him down, trying to kill him every time they encounter each other. And every time, Nox gets away, and he taunts them. And the thoughts, the want, the *hunger* for vengeance grows stronger
The cycle continues. The thoughts never cease. She never finds peace
(At least, she *thinks* she will never find peace, but she does. Eventually. After Nox dies from his own hubris lol)
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whenever i tell my mom that they made fun of me at class for liking taylor or anything of the sorts she says "i kinda understand them because they see you as an obsessive fan and childish" ... excuse me?
the whole concept of "fangirls are obsessive, weird and annoying" comes, in my opinion, from a clear place of misogyny and i think that as of today a lot of people have finally realized it... is the same thing said about men who engage in fights and scream like animals when their favorite football/soccer team scores? no! for them that's "for the love of the game"
no one is childish for simply being excited about something they enjoy (and taylor has said this herself), everything that makes you happy is worth it and no one should make you feel bad about it. i like taylor's music and it brings me comfort, makes me feel seen or brings me up when i'm down (and i could keep going but that's not the point), that's why i get excited when she does ssomething or my friends bring her up in a conversation, that's literally all
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