#idk maybe i freak them out

[svtskneecaps]

am. feeling.

#senior design group twice today was like 'vic is- is switching groups next week' jokingly yknow #like ''ah we're being super obnoxious she totally regrets her group choice'' type beat #and i had to go no???? i like this group??????? what?????????? #idk man i'm fucking. it makes me super. fuckin. anxious idk. #like they're joking #and it's only bc i don't. join the banter. and the conversations. #but like??????? what am i supposed??? to say???? #if i don't have something worth adding i shut my mouth like??? i don't just fuckin run it #idk maybe i freak them out #bc i'm always there and i'm usually listening #but i don't have anything to say so i don't #that was the mantra last week like. 'anybody notice how vic doesn't say much?' #and i was like yeah. i don't have anything to say. #idk. idk. i. don't know. #i'm not changing groups tho they're fucking stuck with me #i joked like 'starting to think you're hinting to get rid of me' #and we all took it as a joke #and then i started. not taking it as a joke. but IM THE ONE WHO SAID IT #i don't know i really don't #not kpop #shut up vic #negativity

[inkskinned]

it is all chaos and entropy. the thing is that the chaos and entropy make it beautiful and lovely.

yes, it's true that nature and the universe are uncaring and unspecific, and that is terrifying. i have lived through some of the unfairness - i got born like this, with my body caving into itself, with this ironic love of dance when i sometimes can't stand up for longer than 15 minutes. i am a poet with hands that are slowly shutting down - i can't hold a pen some days. recently i found a dead bird on our front porch. she had no visible injuries. she had just died, the way things die sometimes.

it is also true that nature and the universe are uncaring and unspecific, and that is wonderful. the sheer happenstance that makes rain turn into a rainbow. the impossible coincidence of finding your best friend. i have made so many mistakes and i have let myself down and i have harmed other people by accident. nature moves anyway. on the worst day of my life she delivers me an orange juice sunset, as if she is saying try again tomorrow.

how vast and unknowing the universe! how small we are! isn't that lovely. the universe has given us flowers and harp strings and the shape of clouds. how massive our lives are in comparison to a grasshopper. the world so bright, still undiscovered. even after 30 years of being on this earth, i learned about a new type of animal today: the dhole.

chance echoing in my life like a harmony between two people talking. do you think you and i, living in different worlds but connected through the internet - do you think we've ever seen the same butterfly? they migrate thousands of miles. it's possible, right?

how beautiful the ways we fill the vastness of space. i love that when large amounts of people are applauding in a room, they all start clapping at the same time. i love that the ocean reminds us of our mother's heartbeat. i love that out of all the colors, chlorophyll chose green. i love the coincidences. i love the places where science says i don't know, but it just happens.

"the universe doesn't care about you!" oh, i know. that's okay. i care about the universe. i will put my big stupid heart out into it and watch the universe feast on it. it is not painful. it is strange - the more love you pour into the unfeeling world, the more it feels the world loves you in return. i know it's confirmation bias. i think i'm okay if my proof of kindness is just my own body and my own spirit.

i buried the bird from our porch deep in the woods. that same day, an old friend reaches out to me and says i miss you. wherever you go, no matter how bad it gets - you try to do good.

#writeblr #warm up #i can't write rn but i have SO much words in here bc im reading the chorus of dragons books #(just started book 4) #and this woman's writing is just LIVING in my brain. let me out!!! #(i read roughly like 2-4 books a week usually bc i go on long walks with my dog but when a book is REALLY good like. it eats my life. ) #anyway ...... so like here's a story that idk i've tried to explain to other people as being wild #but maybe im the only one who thinks it is wild??? #so i play pokemon go (i just started in jan) bc i love pokemon and as i have mentioned i walk goblin for like an hour in the morning #and i don't like a lot of fitness trackers due to the fact it makes me .sad. but i also wanted the little digital rewards. enter pokemon go #anyway so they make you make friends to complete quests. so i used a reddit thread. i do not usually use reddit. i don't have an acct #i lurked. i just googled like ''pokemon go reddit '' and randomly added a bunch of numbers #i was on that page for all of 15 minutes. there are THOUSANDS of responses on that page. #here's what's wild: in that group of people. even though i am not on reddit and it was one random event once #it turns out one of those people lives in the town i live in. or at least very close. i only know this because #when we send each other gifts. it's from the same freaking area. #i can't ask them to meet up bc pokemon go doesn't have a messaging app lol but like . what are the fucking chances that #a random person posts in a random reddit thread and HAPPENS to get added by someone ELSE from their SAME TOWN #who by pure fucking CHANCE is ALSO playing pokemon go and looking for friends #i googled it there's only 42000 people in my broad region. the .......... smallness ! of the world!!!

[zeb-z]

no ok because forevers solo mission into the nether and all the vague ‘if I don’t return’ and ‘I’m sorry’ messages he’s left behind is made all the more heart wrenching because he wasn’t meant to be the martyr.

bad has been setting himself up for tragedy. it’s in the self destructive choices he makes, his hyper paranoia, his self isolation, the way he’s literally turning blue and can’t seem to notice it himself. and from a meta perspective, it’s obvious - he talks about lasting consequences, he makes very clear framing and music decisions, the story arc has been setting up for something big. he’s got a book that says it’s for forever’s eyes only and hinted at him needing his help. he’s said to tina that he’s 100% sure of one person ending up dead at the end of all this. he’s made it clear he’d do anything he thinks would get the kids back - self sacrifice included.

it’s been an anxious build up as bad gets worse and worse. as his friends pick up clues and notice. bagi says she knows that bad lies and can cause havoc, but she’s not going to leave his side because he is too sad to be left alone. foolish takes note of his color blindness before anyone else. forever demands his time and reassures bad daily that he is there for him. gives him a flower every day. makes an entire party just showing how much bad is cared for and loved. keeps talking and visiting even when he’s ripping out his hair with annoyance because bad just won’t quit being a nuisance, or argumentative, or a probable kidnapper.

it feels like love and doomed endings. it feels like a build up to something tragic. it feels like trying to save a drowning man who won’t let anyone pull him up. because bad is ready to work for the feds, torture people, burn down anything in his way, sacrifice himself in his desperation and grief.

but now its forever who’s gone and decided any danger to himself is worth it for his son. who’s left behind vague goodbyes and see you soons, unsure if he’ll survive but set on the kids surviving at the very least. he’s already decided his death is worth it.

and while it’s not a surprise, it’s enough of a script flip to punch us all in the gut. because we expected tragedy, we expected uneasy goodbyes and self destructive choices and that effect felt across the island - but we didn’t expect it to be forever.

and neither did bad - who relied on that flower every day

#maybe it’s more of a twist from bads perspective but like. in the roles their characters play in this story it’s now up in the air #this is like more meta analysis but like I’m fucking. freaking out about it #it’s an example of a twist that makes sense because we have seen evidence to make this believable. since the eggs first day gone forever has #been dead set on finding them. going explosive at first. he doesn’t know who he is without richas and the federation twists arms like none #other. so it’s set up. it was just half forgotten because of how much bad has been taking that role on stage yknow #if this makes any sense jfjskfkr idk it’s like yeah I was expecting 4halo bullshit angst and bad being a source of tragedy but not this #not this #mcyt #qsmp #q!bbh #bbh #forever #q!forever #qsmp meta #z speaks

[profoundmakerdreamerss-blog]

Tomarry AU with fake dating but not because of a rebound, no. It's because of the money. Yes, an au with Tom and Harry having a YouTube channel together. A couple YouTube channel. Yep. It's not like they like each other — oh no. It's strictly business. After all, it is a lucrative business deal — and that is true because they do take the dating world of YouTube by storm. (That was the plan anyway; pesky feelings are below me anyways. — Tom Riddle, in the mirror, at 3 am.)

An AU where both of them are roommates and due to shortage of funds decide to open a YouTube channel together. Especially after seeing how Abraxas' beauty blog was so successful, and so was Ron's gaming channel. An AU where they start a prank channel that end up becoming a dating channel because everyone thinks they are dating. And because Tom and Harry don't do anything in half's; they decide to milk it as much as they can. To them it was their best idea to date. Or a decision they would both come to regret. (Like Tom? No way, he is my business partner and Tom would kill him before he ever dated him. — Harry Potter, to himself, monologuing the same thing, for the hundredth time that day.)

Basically an AU where they both end up falling for each other and being in denial while doing YouTube videos as a COUPLE, and freaking out everytime they have to do couple-y stuff.

#yes i know #there are too many tomarry aus #forgive me #but they have been leaving in my mind rent free for months now and i can finally puke them out SOMEWHERE #a modern au #or maybe wizarding youtube channel #idk how'd that work #but anyway #its just #tom and harry making dumb decisions #at 3 am #relatable tbf #but anyway its just them pining and denying like always #tomarry #tom riddle #harry potter #my hc is tom always freaks out in front of the mirror while harry closes his eyes to scream internally #ANYWAYS AT LEAST THEY ARE RICH NOW #maybe they were onto something #maybe all these suffering will mean something

[the-valiant-valkyrie]

conceptualizing.....

#i picked up a pen (art) #ieytd #dr zor #theyre kind of a freak. this is the intention #imagine them standing directly next to like. a regularly rendered guy. that's the idea. their fucked up demeanor. #i kind of want all five fingers to be there but i can't figure out a way for the thumb to look good yet... oh well #maybe its too far down. idk. #i do like the general vibe of the head though... maybe i can finally move onto sorting out the rest of the body...

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

now...there are 2 ways Barnaby can react to his missing arm option 1: "WHERE [no no word] IS MY ARM??!!"

or option 2: "oh...erm...my arm's missing...ain't that....something..."

secret third option, actually!

"huh... guess i'm all right now"

#howdy promptly bursts out wheezing too hard to even make sound #while poppy and frank are mildly uncomfortable and wally is still processing that that was a Joke #granted. a joke said in a very Im Terrified/Disturbed & Trying To Hide It tone of voice... #actually huh. Huh. i just had a Thought #i mean everything ive said so far still absolutely stands #but... i think theyd move barnaby's unconscious body into the post office after julie wakes up #since they know its Inevitable! #so barnaby would wake up probably with at least poppy unless something is going on elsewhere that requires her help #maybe eddie fell in the lake again idk #or he'd wake up. poppy is elsewhere in the Very Packed office #he'd be '????' then notice the arm #he'd probably just lay back and stare at the ceiling. Processing. trying not to freak out #then later makes the joke about it #wh lights out au #rambles from the bog #hm... maybe howdy and wally are elsewhere #and then someone - eddie? frank? julie? - runs to tell them that barn is up #and Thats when they sprint like hell back to base without a care for noise <3

[msnihilist]

idk how to tell you this, but Black Butler is made by a shotacon.

#proship #''i had someone tell me they shipped the pairing the author intentionally romanticizes and wants the reader to ship!!!'' #also the ''irl'' part is taking me out. like. idk what to tell you other than sebastian and ciel are Not Real #common Homestuck profile pic L #gamzee cut off his dead friend's heads and made out with them like?? #y'know maybe pick better fandoms if you're not gonna be a freak about the blatantly freak content in them

[opens-up-4-nobody]

God. The thing abt the uchiha is that. Yes. It was fucked up that no one trusted them and they got pushed further and further from the village center. However. They were also a clan of ninja cops with fucked up magical eyes that they supercharge by getting horrifically traumatized. So like. I also would not fucking trust them.

#like maybe its just that ive been too influenced my senju propaganda but i just think the uchiha as a clan kinda fucking suck #at least by the time we get to sasuke's dad leading things. they seemed fine when madara joined with the village #so its just that the resentment at feeling pushed out has risin by then. and maybe im not remembering things right but like Tobirama #made them the cops right? and they got pissed that they weren't given any political power but like u get so much fucking power as the polic #? and also it just seems like the worst fucking idea to put that all on one clan. like THE WORST job u could give to 1 clan of fucked up #eyeball freaks. and i can never tell if they r legitimately being prejudiced against but like they kida have good reason not to trust them #bc they were legit gonna overthrow the government. so like where did it start? i just kinda feel like they think theyre entitled to power #but r also intentionally standoffish to outsiders. but again maybe im just biased bc i dont like Sasukes dad and the nameless uchiha so muc #ugh. its too messy and its all built on the back of what may or may not have been a slight against them. and the rift just kept getting #wider. i mean knowing Tobirama it was probably a slight... but idk im not power hungry enough to understand y they got so mad abt it #konoha. the village in which everyone sucks and the children suffer. #naruto ramblings #naruto

[ambagel]

Wait hold on, in his anniversary video Barbatos mentions the mc being the brother's attendant?

But in the other videos, it's implied that they don't remember the mc leaving (which is actually something im very disappointed about and really hope isnt the case in the actual story)

In these two specifically, it seems like they aren't aware of the mc's presence in the past/alternate timeline/whatever it is. The only other person who seems like they know is Lucifer

Which also lines up with the end of lesson 40, where he's the only one who says welcome back? So like?? Do only him and Barbatos know? Did they not tell anyone?? Diavolo would probably know as well but I haven't seen anything to show that yet. Anyways I don't really like where this is going, I would really prefer they not make everyone forget the mc disappeared

#of course they could always just be not quite putting the pieces together in these scenes #buuuut at this point im not so sure.. #i was hoping theyd take a more “WE MISSED YOU” approach #because if im being honest those are some of my favorite moments #like yay everythings better now lets hug it out #i feel weird about them potentially not knowing about what happened #how would they play that off? solomon already said they were freaking out? #“oh whoops we time traveled just far back enough that no one noticed you were gone” #no #do not do that #that defeats the purpose of this whole shenanigan #they also cant just say it was the regular past #because story inconsistencies #solomon has even commented on how its different #hes like “simeon and luke shouldnt be here” #istg if they try to move past that without explaining i will explode #its a very plausible scenario at this point #theyve done it before #because oh does diavolo just not have the power to spot lies anymore?? ok #anyway im scared for the future of the story #this could go wrong in so many ways #obey me! #obey me! swd #obey me lucifer #obey me satan #obey me luke #obey me barbatos #posts #maybe barbatos just merges the timelines again and thats why everyone feels weird #idk im too tired to think more about this

[dizzybizz]

meowzers

#hey guys i made a little freak. thoughts? #hes got ghost fish friends :) #and hes a catboy #ALSO WTF IS IT WITH ME AND LIKE.. #FISHERMEN LATELY. FIRST GUY NOW THIS FUCKER WTH #uhm but he basically came to be bc i was like “damn i rlly want to make more original art....” and the first thing that came out of my hand #was a catboy. not gonna read into it too deeply. #i dont have any proper explantation for the fish... the idea is that he ?? eats them and then magics them into big ghost fish and idk #its cool in my head!! im just so bad at formulating my thoughts in a way that makes any sense at all 😭 #my art #dizzyoriginals #oc #idk what he does with the fish. maybe theyre friends of his. maybe its like a they give him their life and he gives them new life or smth. #a give and take back and forth kinda thing- listen these r late night rambles. #also i just love the cartoony ass fish skeletons in cartoons n stuff. theyre so dear to me. i wanted to draw em #cw eyestrain #eyestrain

[cerealbishh]

"You're pretty new at this whole relationship thing, huh?"

"... Yeah."

#outer range s2 #outer range s2 spoilers #outer range 02x01 #maria olivares #rhett abbott #isabel arraiza #lewis pullman #rhett x maria #um... idk i love them #again not quite done with the show #but why would they do this to me? it's gonna sting so much when they break up #her teasing him is my favorite thing #but also her calling him ''wonderful''? my god the squeal i let out... #the smallest little smile and the way he looked at her before he said ''good'' after she said she likes how she feels when she's with him?! #now i'm rhett going ''don't do this'' but instead of with his truck it's with the show #my biggest gripe is that she doesn't help him that much with his broken arm... except maybe to help him shower? /hj #i get why he was the one to get the snacks... it was for the impact of the scene but still #it's great to see them laughing and smiling so much! love that! #i think she smiled at least once while her poor boyfriend was getting freaked out by cats #he could not keep a straight face for that long after saying ''what does that leave me?'' #i wonder what he was gonna say before she said she liked how she feels when she's with him... was he giving her an out? #he has NOTHING pleasant to say about her not even a ''thank you'' after being called wonderful smh /j

[mangora]

Some people say that they don’t like certain TD characters because they were being mean in episode abc or are a bad friend to xyz and like, yeah, okay that’s not good morally, and while I personally love immoral characters I can understand why they come across as fully unlikable to some people. But also, I think it makes sense that they’re mean. If a grown man made me sleep in a cabin with no AC in the dead of summer surrounded by bugs (or monsters) for several months, and only let me eat dirt and mashed potatoes, and had me do life-threatening stunts every few days, and let my peers humiliate me on international TV or humiliated me himself, and I was surrounded by people I either clash with or would inevitably be separated from if I befriended them, and I couldn’t participate in any of my hobbies during this time or leave this shitty camp, and I was contractually obligated not to leave and even come back several times if requested, and I didn’t even get out of school for this, and I almost died several times, and my home life and mental health probably sucked even before this, and all my relationship/friendship issues were immortalized on network television forever, and I likely didn’t even win the show, and I didn’t get paid for this otherwise, and I was also 16 during all of this…then yeah, I’d probably get pretty mean too.

#and the award for the longest run-on sentence goes to: #alex’s td rambles #also I think this goes for them just generally being emotionally distressed. like yeah of course they are #you tried to explode them and kill them with sharks and then made fun of them in front of millions of people #like idk. maybe I’d start freaking out and mistreating people around me if I was constantly on edge also #not saying it’s okay but there’s definitely a reason like these characters arent innately evil they’ve been pushed to their limit #in most cases

[jarchaeology]

MTV's 1996 Rock the Vote Fest - House of Blues: West Hollywood, CA - November 2, 1996 - photographer: Gilbert Flores / Celebrity Photo Agency

📽the slide collection series 📽 - higher quality on the drive

✨most likely jensen's very first red carpet/paparazzi experience✨

he arrived in CA to give acting a shot on 9/1/1996, two months before this photo was taken. jensen is not in this video, but it will give you context on the event itself. this is also where he did his first online chat with fans. i am forever looking for a transcript of that, but i think it's lost to time.

#the slide collection series #the slide collection series: 1996 #when i received this picture in the mail my husband thought i opened some sort of threat or idk maybe toxic substance substance #stuffed into the envelope #cause i saw and freaked the fuck out #before this? the earliest professional photo we had from an event was march of 1997 #1996!! #this was the first slide i purchased and i didnt even know there was going to be writing on them at the time

[oozeandgoo-art]

old drawing I never posted. i like these two freaks, I should draw them more

#rubin #skironir #oc #rukaan #humanization #skironir is fully on board with the murder for the record. She likes rubin because he loves to kill people and she thinks it's cool and fun #someone warned her when she was like human-nineteen (im not sure how to translate caribou ages to humans LMAO could've been #anywhere from 19 to 25ish) that there was a weird loner freak eating out of the garbage and threatening people with knives and she went #'damn thats crazy. hes kinda hot. im gonna be his friend' #rubin (also approximately the same age as her) was like 'ive never had a friend before and im not going to start now. fuck off' #and then failed so hard at not having any friends that he fell in love like an idiot and now he's stuck with her forever and she can't get #rid of him. which works for skironir because she would be very sad if she did get rid of him #im not sure im gonna keep the she/her pronouns for skir. in all the stuff i've written for the deer game with skir i use he/him #but rubin using he/him pronouns in the mg!au also trips me up a bunch because i keep being like this is girl rubin he's a girl i made him #into a girl and now he's a girl. and then i get lost in the pronoun weeds LMAO #you undrestand #anyway i enjoy them a lot #very straightforward characters. they roll into town. they cause problems. they kill someone. they leave #i should make magical girl katjaana straight up just a dude. for balance. a dude who uses she/her and turns into a magical girl also #or maybe i could go full tuxedo mask with her.... idk

[alastair-1205]

I'd like to say a formal RIP to all the Nadakahn theories for DR part 2. You would have been epic smh.

#That being said I really hope the new Djinn is the new master of time #Them being a new good guy has some really interesting potential #It kinda looks like they also have fire powers in the trailer tbh which would be fucking hilarious for Kai #ninjago #ninjago dragons rising #dragons rising #Very long shot but maybe Nya and/or Jay can bet very freaked out at first upon meeting them idk #Anyways Im normal about legos #I say like a liar #dragons rising spoilers #Kinda lol

[notsoevilmagistrate]

I love psychotic pathetic men

#they’re my favorite ones to write #maybe because I am one idk #ocs #oc making #it’s all funny #I wrote a guy having a mental break and running away to vomit in a bathroom #he had five mints in his pocket so he just put them all in his mouth at once #and when another guy makes fun of him for freaking out #he says ‘kill yourself’ with the mints still in his mouth #proceeds to then eat them and swallow them #and then go on another detailed rant of how the other guy should suffer #it’s great #they’re the funniest types of characters #oh and I should mention my oc had that mental break because someone was flirting with his fuck buddy #well ‘fuck buddy’ if you get what I mean #it’s so hilarious #I can make them as crazy and irrational as I want #he’s really just a wet cat