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sweatervest-obsessed · 5 months

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Spencer Reid Masterlist: Fics

In order from Newest to Oldest. Last Updated: 02/26/24

Spencer Reid Series

Key: Personal Favs:✨ Requested:🔹 Angst:🔴 Fluff:🟡 Smut:🟣

You 🔴✨ a small fic inspired by the loss of someone, and how Spencer feels about it.

Truth or Dare 🔹🔴 Request!: "okay so i'm thinking post!prison reid and reader break up bc he's not ready to be in a relationship after everything that happened in prison. they just don't get back together bc when spence is finally ready it's been a while and they both think it's too late and no one makes a move and they remain as friends UNTIL jj's love confession brings some feelings back onto the surface - reader finds out about it and (cue jeid and their weird, longing glances🥲) has a whole it's all really over moment and then there's distance between her and spencer until there's a confrontation about it and BAM a love confession and second chances😁😁"

Lucky Me 🟡 Just a cozy scenario where the reader is a wee bit drunk, and has a phenomenal idea, maybe inspired by a true story or two.

Symphonic Kisses 🟡 You give Spence a pretty damn good anniversary present.

Cold Feet 🔹🟡 Request!: "could u do Spencer Reid and childhood friends fem!reader with heavy pining and " it's always been u" at the end hurt/comfort ?"

Loving You 🔹🟡 Request!: "hiii!! congrats on the 500 followers 🤍 for your celebration, could i request 7 and 13 from the fluff prompts for spencer reid? thanks :]"

Never Let Me Go 🔹🔴 Request!: "hello !! rn i'm in the mood for some angst with a happy ending so can i request something where reader's got really bad abandonment issues? 🥹 maybe they fight over something which makes r leave ++ spence is confused bc it's so sudden n unlike them but it's all bc theyre scared he'll leave first n then it's just lots n lots of reassurance🥹🥹 thank you!!"

Unexpected Visitor 🟡 There are some things that the team does not know about, like you, for example. Some good, quick, Christmas fluff for your holiday enjoyment.

Pope and Circumstance 🔹 🟡 Request!: "Heyyyy!!!! I read that you were taking requests so I was wondering if you could write something for non BAU nerd reader and Spencer. Something sweet and comforting with a reader that’s a nerd but more on the language and literature side."

Birthday Present 🟡 You and Spencer enjoy a night in together.

New Shade of Green 🔹🔴 🟡 Request! "Hey idk if you're taking requests but I'd love to read a fic where Spencer Reid and reader are in established relationship and on a case it happens that reader's best friend since childhood assists. And Spencer gets really jealous of their close friendship but is in denial. A lot of angst but a fluffy ending."

Black Dog 🟡 Mornings with Spencer feel so good. Based on Led Zeppelin's Black Dog.

Cramps n Comfort 🔹🔴 🟡 Request! "Okay, Spencer comforting reader who has really bad period cramps and is just crying"

To Make Sure I Stay Sane 🔴 Based off of Six Below by Flipturn. What happeneds when your cover is blown? What do you do when you can never really recover from the shit you endure? pure angst.

Barbenheimer! 🔹 🟡 Request! "Reader takes Spencer to see Barbie, and he might just enjoy it more than he thinks he will."

Wired Frames 🔹 🟡 Request! "Spencer request: The team meets at a bar after they returning from a case and Spencer comes in looking dramatically different (like a nice new haircut and casual outfit and glasses) and the team / OC lose their minds"

Bad Day 🔹 🟡 Request: "spencer just comforting reader after a bad mental health day and helping them to take a break and shower/or bathe🌼🫶🏻"

Something Old, Something New 🔴 🟡 takes place during S7 Ep1, The Gang goes to court! Lawyer!Reader! Spencer is really over the senate committee, but something cools his head when he bumps into an old friend.

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panelshowsource · 18 days

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i agree that the podcast really is so interesting — and imo it's a lot of plain gossip and tv criticism masked as "professional insight", which i live for lmao — but there are times she is really too much... she often mocks or eye-rolls things in a way that, again, doesn't feel constructive and comes off as very rude. mean girl energy. it also bothers me how she will talk at richard instead of engaging in a back and forth, and sometimes that turns into an episode in which she speaks 80% of the time. then again, as content cycles throughout the year, sometimes what's on/hot atm is just more in her wheelhouse than his, so we just have to wait for new taskmaster, new bbc comedies, new doctor who, whatever interests him, and then hopefully he'll have even more opportunities to shine... i do cherish when he gets a chance to speak lmao

but fr take a shot every time she says "a friend of mine who works at _______ told me blah blah"

i'll work on tracking that down!! it would be fun to watch more of them 😋

aren't they too much? i was just thinking how amazing would it be if they were a pair on pointless celebs ...........

you know how once you notice an actor then suddenly you start to see them everywhere? (especially on uk tv which is not as big a pool as you'd think it would be...) that was me and charlotte ritchie! it was like wow this girl is everywhere!

anyways, i'm not sure what her aims are atm... she's done quite a bit of comedy but am i the only one who thinks she would body a crime series? or something like broadchurch?

glad you got a chance to catch my response and watch some fun things! i was thinking a little more about what else to recommend, and i think if you enjoy the quirky nature of repertoire then you should check out huge davies, and if you enjoy the storytelling format like greg davies typically does then you should try out dara ó briain and russell howard (maybe the 2021 lubricant special to start) :) enjoy!!

hahaha this is funny... it's a good question 😅 there are a few reasons... he's good bantz! he doesn't take himself too seriously, laughs at himself, can be teased, isn't mean spirited. people really appreciate that. plus, he represents a lot of people who aren't otherwise on tv — not primetime bbc, at least. there starts to be an issue when he just...doesn't try, doesn't contribute. he's fallen asleep on like three different shows? didn't he just...not show up to the second-half of his bakeoff special? often he's got nothing to say? mo really carried the convos on his talk show, his teammates carried him on bfq, and so on. he just doesn't seem to have the interest or perhaps the stamina (orrr perhaps the respect) for long records 😅

anyways, he was being pushed for a little while, but that appears to have stopped. he's hasn't been around too much lately 🤔 (tho ngl idk what he's up to!)

yesss this is a great video and i'll link it here in case anyone wants to check it out! it reminded me that i really need to seek out his celeb hunted episodes hahaha

when the news came out he would be playing an 'egon spengler type' i was like yep lmao

he and ed mention quite often how many auditions they go to, especially james, for big movies like wonka and ghostbusters — no surprise to me imo! especially since it seems he's focused on films over tv 🤔

can't say i saw ghostbusters tho i'm sorry 😭

WELLLL now that it's out how have you been enjoying it? 😊🥰 where is your review, anon !!

susie dent gifs are high on my list, working on those for this week for sure!!! it's just...how to choose...she's just too pretty....

but i love ALL of your suggestions, duly noted 😍

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literaphobe · 1 year

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eh idk if you'll publish this but i wanted to rant about mcc and competitive gaming rly bad, sooo,,,, while i enjoyed event, i'm rather disappointed with aftermath of all of this, mainly: a) why are you trying to organise mcc underdogs in the first place? it feels like a cheap victory. like imagine you win - can you really brag about it? "yay guys i won an event without any s-tiers because... reasons." - is what it feels like to me. i watched red's pov and oh my god pearl did really good with everything: comms, mechanics, etc. and if she won, it would be bittersweet. something along the lines she is not good enough to win canon mcc, but good enough to win half-canon, while deminishing her value a) why organise an mcc underdogs event if 50% of participants are newcomers? call it mcc variety or something and make it non-canon for fun with special coin (even otv talked about it after their stream, they really enjoyed mcc and wanted to do an otv version of it). there's no one of regulars in finals, scott. b) okay, mcc underdogs with 50% of newcomers. why are you inviting really good minecraft event player - FBM - who specialises in mini-games? while he is not the best, he is on par with some s-tiers. strong player + newcomers = blood bath (and we are not even talking about blushi in team with him) c) why reddit is treating FBM like an s-tier after one half-canon event with 50% newcomers and underdogs? like what. it was not a perfomance of century. he did good among NEWCOMERS OH MY GOD. with my competitive side of knowledge (hello, i watched about 50 hours worth of minecraft events), he's not that good compared to many other testers. dorry. d) why people are being angry at FBM for 1st indiv and saying he shouldn't be allowed in mcc overall? his latest testing dates to 2 years ago, so it's not like he has strats or exploits or something like that. i can understand that he is a little bit of a sweaty player (20+ hours of mcci in week and god knows how many before that), but it's possible to balance. if blushi wasn't in this event - purple wouldn't have been in first overall. just give him sapnap treatment, scott.

e) and for the cherry on top: why on earth as of lately mcc can not decide whether they want to be competitive or for fun event? since addition of purpled/jojo/hannah it felt like everyone was getting better and better and more competitive and more competitive to the point where if you don't do vod review beforehand, you are gone.

it was so apparent when a lot of people got locked in sot today. there's A LOT to process if you are a newcomer, and if you don't - you perish. sure, there are a lot of vods and "how-to" videos, but learning strats doesn't prepare you for the real thing (ex: cyan in sot, abe in meltdown). and now they do canon (!!!) events that are mix of competitive and for fun. which is a choice for sure.

and while mccu didn't end up badly due to its nervewracking finale (boxbox vs. blushi finale), pretty close moments (pearl and cyan in meltdown, FBM clutching ar last second, hannah pkt, etc.) and a lot of respect and support for FBM from reddit - mixing fun and competitive today could cause BIG issues. remember mcc all-stars red and how everyone was like "ohhh who would've guessed /neg", even though event was purely for fun? yeah. but oh well, cyan did great comeback, so nobody is talking drama right now. fun fact: i have seen a comment that reads "this is what event could be like without dream" and boy. in how many words do you want me to explain you what is wrong. tl;dr; mcc underdogs was a bad idea. you are one the few blogs that post based takes on mcc, so i decided to join in :D reddit would execute me for this type of post aha

dear god… go off anon. i hope otv and friends do their version of mcc too bc if they do it well i foresee dteam and friends getting invites

a) i feel so bad for pearl. i saw her get top 10 and this would’ve been a great opportunity for her to shine but… lol

b) FBM should’ve never been in this event. the whole point of it is gone

c) LOL im curious to see how he did like. timing wise for certain games

d) its not his fault he was in this event, but scott should’ve never put him in. he could’ve debuted in mcc All Cracked

e) ITS FUCKING SCARY also WHY DIDNT THEY MAKE SOT EASIER??? its so clear that noxcrew wasn’t actually prepared for an ‘underdog’ mcc like why are u giving participation trophies out but making the game OLYMPIC LEVEL HARD

also mcc all stars was established from the start as a NON CANON event that didn’t fucking matter. they called mcc all losers MCC TWENTY SEVEN

thanks for dropping by anon im sure the mcc reddit is dumb and annoying and horrible rn

#ask #mcc reddit

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skelenova · 6 months

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For the ask thing - 1 and 7! :]

Get ready for a short read, lol. I did my best to not go on a tangent.

1. How did you get into tmnt? It was actually about a year ago (only a couple weeks away to the day, actually), that I got into Rise. I had been falling off of my Sonic re-fixation and had seen some artists I was following make some art for it and share around gifs and videos and such. I remember seeing the movie Krang fight animatic in particular and my animation-loving brain went "oh, now I need to check this out." I needed something to jump start my creativity at the time, and I knew I would have some free time after the Thanksgiving holiday (USA America), so I planned to watch it then. I binged that shit on Netflix. I would later learn that the episodes weren't quite in the right order, but I enjoyed it nonetheless. I think I got halfway through season two when things started to click in terms of why I liked Donnie so much: I related to him a lot, and I hadn't seen an animated character that I resonated with so much mentally. Sure, I'd seen characters in other shows that had similar traits to him, but this one hit me over the head, and I started to understand myself a bit more. That made a pretty lasting connection for me. BUT before this becomes a Donnie rant, I'll continue: after watching all of Rise, I began watching the other series/movies, though a bit haphazardly (I haven't finished 87 or 03 yet lol). I read all the IDW comics through my library and read a few issues of the other runs (I've started collecting IDW and Saturday Morning Adventures when I can). I also started down the rabbit hole of merch… I have a fair few plush and plastic turtles in my room, hehe. Anywho, it's been a non-stop obsession ever since, and it's rekindled my love for animation that kind of… "died" is a strong word, but it went away a little a few years ago. My inner child reawakened, so to speak lol. I didn't go into Rise/TMNT in general expecting to love it as much as I do, but it makes me really happy. I'm so glad I found it and gave it a chance (even if I was late to it, like I am with many things, lol). I've discovered a lot of nice ppl and projects online through tmnt as well, which I'm grateful for. Dump over!! haha

7. Favorite really obscure character? Really obscure? Hmm., idk how obscure he is, but Keno from Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles II (1991)! Those movies give me a lot of joy for many reasons, and Keno is one of them. He's a silly lil guy, and I wish he got to be in more TMNT iterations. To my knowledge, the character was made for the actor (Ernie Reyes Jr., who was also the martial arts stunt double for Donnie in the first movie!!). I recommend reading some of Reyes' interviews if you can, interesting stuff. Also he has a mullet :]

#thanks for asking! i love talking about my interests like this :]#interstellar asks #tizeline #tmnt #rottmnt #also also i remember putting off watching the movie because i was afraid that watching it would feel 'final' and end my hyperfixation #but no im still turtle-brained lol

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mermaidsirennikita · 2 years

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Jacob was fine in S1 imo, but fell off in S2. I don't think he's really had a plum opportunity to show his skills yet. Yet, the fact that he booked Emerald Fennell and Coppola movies off his super thin resume and only serviceable performances is amazing/frustrating. Like, I understand Euphoria is super popular, but white actors have it so easy.

Also, I understand it's Coppola, but it seems dumb to sign on to play Elvis so soon after Butler's portrayal. Why would you set yourself up by having to follow him?

I think Jacob has moments on Euphoria--mostly moments in which he has to act like a cold psychopath, which honestly... don't require a lot of energy, where Nate is concerned. He's not like, the worst actor I've ever seen, but he doesn't give much of anything special. The thing is that he has a good agent and publicist, evidently, and he's very hungry. And he's white, yes. He also fills a niche, potentially, that a lot of the other boys on the come up haven't had lately--he's tall and broad and he reads far more masculine than pretty. He can be placed in roles that frail Victorian orphan types (Timothee, Kodi Smit-McPhee) and the Tom Cruise acolyte that is Tom Holland (small, baby-faced, after those action roles like a motherfucker) can't fit into. I do not think Jacob Elordi should be the guy of his gen for those roles... at all. Especially because I don't think he's particularly attractive or talented. But I think that's a niche he's seeking to fit into, and it's not a niche that has seen a ton of competition from guys his gen recently.

And it is dumb to take an Elvis role so soon after Austin destroyed it, and I don't think this is gonna end super well for him... I also think it's dumb of Sofia to do this right after Baz gave such a BAZ Elvis movie? I mean, I won't say Sofia can't direct, because she can... But she isn't the type of person I'm interested in seeing direct a movie about the camp of the world of Elvis. And yes, it's a movie about Priscilla--but let's be really honest here. We can all be as pro-woman and feminist as we want to be and say that Priscilla has an interesting story, but Priscilla very likely would not have a story people are interested in without Elvis's presence. It's shitty, but it's real. And Priscilla knows this and has profited off this, so it's not like... a shock.

I know it's probably not like... a real issue, but a part of me loves the celeb drama implications of this, though? Elordi and Kaia announced their breakup like... less than two months before Austin and Kaia went public, and idk. It does look weird, with all that in mind. I just hope Austin is enough of a drama queen to, idk, break up Zendaya's relationship on the set of Dune and FREE HER FROM THE CLUTCHES OF TOMDAYA. Joking. But like, also, would love that mess.

Real talk though, I think a lot of the up and coming boys are feeling the heat of Austin coming up with a relatively non-sparkly resume (a lot of hard work, sure, but not a lot of "omg look" roles before recently), having heavyweights like Tom Hanks and Denzel co-sign him, a ton of praise for a huge breakout role, and a look that translates to both "pretty" and "masculine/sexual". He grabbed Dune, he's gonna be in the next iteration of Band of Brothers, The Bikeriders is coming up and that's with Jeff Nicholas, another acclaimed director. His come up went from gradual to meteoric very suddenly, and I do think there's finally getting to be some legit competition with the boys in the way there honestly hasn't been enough of (compared to the girls). I'm really hoping Daryl McCormack really breaks out soon. He's similarly pretty/sexy/masculine, very shiftable in that sense, super great as an actor.

Anyway, I think Elordi thinks a lot of himself and is trying to be competitive, but I don't see this working out super well. It's not enough to be a dick in this role, you have to evoke a super iconic person on some level, who just was evoked EXTREMELY well with the family co-signing like crazy. And while them co-signing doesn't matter much to me, audience reaction showed that it matters to a lot of people, and I don't see Priscilla and them being happy with this being dredged up, especially since Priscilla has literally distanced herself from her own memoir at points.

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woozi · 2 years

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I don’t want to be that person but it’s annoying how people keep spewing hate about face the sun. Like I TOTALLY get not vibing. Like I do.

But y’all, take a second and remember that they don’t have long as a full group to experiment with more grown up,sexier sounds!! 94z are already having to enlist which means 95z and probably going next year. It doesn’t mean they have lost their whole way but they’re all in their mid 20s now. Let them have one sexy comeback?!

Like it’s fine to not like everything they do. I’m not a fan of Ash at all so I ignore it 🤷🏽‍♀️

It’s annoying because I know these people aren’t really seventeen fans and want any opportunity to diminish them but still.

love that i am now getting cb takes from u all JKFDJKFDJKFDKJ but ok this is also something i haven’t really talked abt in public either so... brace urself for a v lengthy reply lol. a dissertation even 😭

def get where ur general sentiment is coming from! i won’t lie and say that the... less than positive reviews abt fts didn’t initially dampen the mood a bit for me (esp bc i’ve been loving everything), but now that i think abt it, i think that’s just part of being in a community! i was very sad/kind of heated ngl, to say the least, when i heard things like this, but we also just have to keep in mind that people from all walks of life who are definitely free to form their own opinions and have their own preferences AND voice them out just as we’re doing right now join caratland after all. but you’re also right in the sense that there’s a very fine line between giving honest feedback and being just straight up mean. i think it’s just difficult for some to reconcile the fact that other people can seem... VERY brutal, even, to the boys but i also don’t think that them doing so makes them haters/non-fans (though i also def agree that non-carats join the “hate” bandwagon, for lack of better term). i think the people that do so just like the boys enough to actually let them know how they feel instead of just sucking up to them. i also share ur same sentiment (my friends would KNOW how upset?????-idk if thats the right term- i was with the exact thing ure pointing out actually lol), but while i have been loving everything from this cb, i also won’t be a hypocrite and say that i don’t have things i’m not in love with abt the svteenies’ work from time to time, so imo it’s just fair tbh JKFDJKFJKFD.

that being said i've actually been seeing very mixed reception for face the sun, and based on what i've seen the main pain point or issue people have with the album/are disappointed about is the general direction and sound svt has been taking as of late. i'm not really sure what people expect from svt (i initially was thinking that maybe it's the freshteenie songs but then again, weren't people also very lukewarm about say, more of their recent releases along the same line such as not alone and darling?), so i also don’t know where this is coming from. i also think it’s kind of ironic bc the whole point of face the sun is shedding their old selves (starting from the teasers saying ‘i’m not svt anymore’, to the whole svteenie lore we have now, and the actual storyline u can observe from the album when u listen to the songs in the order of the tracklist as they intended). the boys have also been mentioning the same exact thing in interviews. and not to be me, but i think what jihoon said in the nylon interview is especially relevant here, and pretty much sums up what i feel abt the whole thing as well. think it’s just better that i put in what he said bc... exactly king <3 ure SOOO correct.

WOOZI: ... I don’t want Seventeen to lose their sense of adventure, we want to keep moving forward ... Some people might point fingers or criticize us and say, “That’s not the right way, that’s not the right answer,” but I just hope people think, “This is just who they are.” (source)

that also touches on what you’re saying abt them being more experimental with albums as of late. personally, i highly appreciate what theyre doing (i.e. broadening their horizons style wise). i don’t think a group can retain a singular trademark sound their whole entire career without it sounding repetitive anyway. i think it’s just an inevitable part of growth! some people may be attached or like a certain sound they executed before better, but i don’t think it should necessarily mean that them trying out different things is bad. people HAVE BEEN ASKING for a darker comeback and its exactly what they delivered! it’s just that there’s no 1-size-fits-all solution imo. the oldies were right when they said u can’t please everyone (bc again everyone has different preferences and tastes and there’s absolutely nothing wrong w that!!).

and SOOOO true!! while i also think that we should be open to other inputs (it’s what expands our perspectives after all), i think it’s very important to curate your own fandom experience. if u don’t like it, just keep scrolling dfdfkjfdjfd and the same should go with opinions! i feel like it’s very taxing to invest yourself in sumn that just weighs you down, so if u don’t like it... move on <3 also if u really think abt it... we’re all just kpoppies babes... it’s not that serious JKFJKFDKJFD

#also nooo not the military 😭 our men really are abt to go to war huh #anyway #thank u for sharing this w me <3333 thinking abt this put a lot of things into perspective for me!! love u #i could keep going tbh JKFDJKFDKJ #anon #y.ask

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sudoscience · 2 years

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Oh, jeez, I thought I had a coherent idea, but as soon as I tried to write it down, I was like, "This doesn't make any sense." I'm going to try anyway.

I was kinda thinking last night, "What if Alan Waterford used they/them pronouns?" Is that weird? That's weird, right? Because I'm not Alan Waterford. That's just my pseudonym (sudonym? nah). It's not even an OC, it's literally just me. It's a name I use when I don't want to use my real name. There is an idea of an Alan Waterford, some kind of abstraction, but there is no real them. Maybe you could call it a persona for lack of a better word.

But, me, real name redacted sudoscience? I use he/him, and I would likely continue to do so even if I changed Alan's pronouns. Idk, I feel like it would just further separate Alan from sudoscience, and I'm not sure I want that. (Also, it feels inauthentic and maybe a little like appropriation?) I mean, it's not like I have a deadname. I still go by my birth name in real life. I've never had a problem with it. It only makes me uncomfortable when strangers use it a lot, but that's normal, right? Like, you only know my name because I have to wear a name tag. Don't try and act like that makes us friends. But even when I was writing my made-up stories in 3rd grade, I wanted to use a pen name. I don't know why. It just felt more natural. Maybe I do want Alan to be separate. I'm not sure.

At any rate, I so rarely see people talking about me (or Alan, as it may be) that pronouns are pretty much a non-issue. But, that's why I have pronouns in my bio in the first place. Not so much to establish that I am male, but in the off chance that someone finds themselves needing to use pronouns for me they're readily available. At the same time, I don't think I'd be particularly bothered if you use they/them for me. But, again, it's not like that many people refer to me in the first place, so it's a bit of a moot point.

I don't know. I've always identified as male. I'm biologically male, and I'm fairly masculine in my presentation. Like, I think the last time I got misgendered was over the phone before I hit puberty. Nobody mistakes me for a woman. Many people mistake me for straight. But, lately, it's kinda like, "What gender am I? Who gives a shit?"

Actually, "officially" changing my pronouns, though? Feels like a bridge too far. Do I want to use they/them because I want to or just because other people are doing it? I don't think I'm nonbinary or agender. And I'm not saying it's trendy. Trust me, I'm in the UT/DR fandom. I know they/them pronouns aren't as trendy as they may seem on Tumblr. I see how often real NB content creators get misgendered. But, maybe with the popularity I eventually hope to attain, I can... be an inspiration? See, that just feels disingenuous. I don't feel like I'd be doing it for me. But maybe it would be for me, a little bit.

In conclusion, I have no fucking idea. But, if I want to be queer rep, I can settle for just being aro/ace rep. Also, I think it's possible that maybe I'm one of those he/theys you sometimes hear about.

#tl;dr i think it's possible that maybe i'm one of those he/theys you sometimes hear about #al's journal #gender #might delete later #don't reblog please #but i'd welcome some feedback #i am outsourcing my therapy to complete strangers

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azantiss · 4 months

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Intro! in more depth

hello! i finally actually got tumblr wow. no more just lurking on the web version and getting screenshots from friends :)

my main focuses for this blog will probably be: (1) music, (2) ace/aro spectrum self-discovery stuff, (3) general stuff about psychology, (4) personal art projects. i also tend to ramble about random things i discover about being a person so if that shows up here don't be surprised. not sure if people usually make different blogs for these things but we'll see i guess.

my life: i am a university student! i'm a cognitive science major with psychology and neuroscience concentration and a gender studies minor. almost done with my bachelors yippee! i also have a radio show where i'm a DJ and get to propaganda the masses (/lh) yay. probably implied there but i am over 18 (i am 20). i also reside in the US. i am also queer. i use they/them pronouns and identify somewhere within the non-binary umbrella. probably agender. i am also currently unpacking my sexuality but i believe i am pretty strongly on the aromantic spectrum. i have been finding myself identifying more as just ambivalent to like everything gender/sexuality of late. i am a floating orb in space time idk man. most of why i made this account is to find more aromantic education resources.

i am also autistic and adhd, along with some crock pot of other stuff like anxiety depression ocd cptsd, and potentially bpd (also unpacking that one) and probably other things i am not remembering. insomnia if that counts i have incredibly chronic insomnia. some day maybe i will share my sleep charts where we see my average sleep hours are like 3 per night it's a nice chart.

i'm a leftist- or something around that area, terms can vary. if you are in any way a bigot, go away. this is not a place for homophobia, transphobia, racism, xenophobia, zionism, ableism, victim-blaming, sexism, or any other kind of discrimination etc. i strive to be aware of everything that i say but if there's ever any issues i am unaware of or could improve upon speaking about, feel free to educate me if you'd like!

i use tone indicators! will try to remember to put them in as much as i can if something needs it.

i do a project called 'an album a day' and i'm hoping to share that for 2024!! if you have any super awesome albums to share, send them to me any time! above is a picture of last year's album a day! I will tag those posts with #azantisalbumaday2024

some current music hyperfixations: the narcissist cookbook, careful gaze, bloodywood, fast animals and slow kids, set to stun, bring me the horizon, fall out boy, muse, the amazing devil, nothing but thieves, autoheart, vienna teng, art sorority, jean dawson, my chemcial romance, you me at six, and like a million other artists for whom i don't know enough of their discography to list them here.

the main genres i listen to are metalcore, rock adjacent anything, metal, idk how to describe genres. i really love most music but rock adjacent is my main one. i love music very much i am incredibly autistic about it.

if you use it, feel free to follow me on last fm here!!

hobbies/other interests: trying to get hobbies that aren't being a student, playing piano, zines/lyric videos (working on these), zentangles!!, dogs, trying to be politically aware, applying to jobs i guess, general crafting things, hanging out with my friends whom i love dearly, board games, listening to music (but you probably got that already), psychology, autism (i am autistic dw), the sims, minecraft, OH i forgot spreadsheets i LOVEEEE spreadsheets. also will occasionally go on rants about books or movies, most currently, whiplash and bojack horseman but im sensing a hunger games fixation reemerging.

i am trying to get back into reading. planning on reading some webtoons and the new hunger games book soon so maybe we'll see stuff about that too.

my hot takes: radiohead is good, wet socks aren't that bad if you have ventilation (crocs for example), and days should have 26.5 hours.

feel free to ask me questions or lmk if there's other things i should add to this post. idk how to use tumblr

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apatheticchocobar · 6 months

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i did it

so I consulted the psychiatrist yesterday and finally talked about the possibility of adhd. of course i cried the whole time. but i did it. i'm proud of myself.

she listened so patiently and did not dismiss my concerns. and actually got me an adhd test. WHICH I DID TODAY!!! (thank you god for helping schedule it early)

i think i did match with most of the symptoms mentioned. i think i have mostly the inattentive symptoms. but don't know what final report would be

have to meet psychiatrist again day after tomorrow (friday) for follow up.

good thing that the timing has worked out well for this. would be going home for diwali after this, so would give me an opportunity to talk to parents about whatever the diagnosis is too

really really hope they understand and are supportive

a bigger problem right now though is i'm pretty sure i would have low hemoglobin levels. the last 2-3 weeks i have had horrible eating habits. skipped so many meals. never eat breakfast. sometimes having the first meal of the day at 3 pm.

it started as an innocent healthy diet/exercise thing. idk if counting calories was a bad idea. but some days i've literally had 1200 calories only. and mostly between 1600-1800 on other days

today i realised, the last time i had a waffle was almost 2 months ago. i'll order one tomorrow!

but its like literally the 3rd time i've let this happen. it always goes the same way. i keep thinking it's only a few times so won't really make a difference. don't really notice the effects initially. and then it hits me like a truck. the last 3 days from when periods started have been the worst mental state i've been in since a long time.

even while writing this, i feel a bit dizzy and have a headache. its 2 am right now. i have to go for the test at 8 am

i'm supposed to be working on btp right now but i literally cannot focus on anything. this constant headache makes me feel really weird and tired

i have asked the phd guy for a meet tomorrow, i hope he responds. but eventually (by friday definitely) i would have to face the elephant in the room. talking to sir and actually scheduling the final presentation. i'll send him the doctor's prescriptions and just hope he understands. presentations can be done till dec start. i'll request him to schedule mine as late as possible so i'll get time after endsems to work on this and make this situation less of a mess. (can the medical thing work for the missed aml assignment too?)

if (and i really hope so) i get diagnosed with adhd, i don't know if i would want to take medication for it. from what i read online there are 2 types: stimulants and non-stimulants. stimulants work better but are habit forming and have side effects, and you have to keep increasing the dosage. and non-stimulants but they don't work that well.

i don't want to have to keep taking medicines and be dependent on them for the rest of my life. i would prefer getting therapy and learn to manage the symptoms. but what if therapy is not enough. ig only time will tell

so this is it i guess. i hope things get better after this

something to remember from reddit for later:

The blame thing is a very common trap people with ADHD fall in. Once they get diagnosed, everything they do is later blamed as "I'm just ADHD" rather than actually taking effort in fixing those issues. This is a trap many people fall into and it's hard to get out of it. People with ADHD if anything have to work twice as hard to manage their lives. The diagnosis is supposed to be pretty much the start line for people. Not the finish. It's not supposed to feel like you got closure.

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flimsy-roost · 11 months

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interesting sort of ableist double-standard thing I've been thinking about for a while:

I have a neighbor who is disabled in some kind of developmental/intellectual/mental way. I don't know his folks well enough to feel comfortable asking, and he either can't or won't acknowledge me when I say hi (tbh nbd, I'm not entitled to communication, I only mean to articulate that I can't ask him about any of this directly).

he wanders around a lot, including across a busy intersection in our neighborhood. I admit I do worry about his physical safety a bit, but I haven't heard of him running into any issues in my several years of living here, so I assume he's found some kind of sustainable system.

some people who've seen him crossing against the light will idly expand on my basic worry, saying that he should probably be under more constant supervision and care.

...but, should he really? in my state (California), jaywalking was recently decriminalized, so you can only be ticketed if in immediate danger of causing a collision (in effect for things like crossing busy highways), so there's no real legal/liability-related reason he needs to be policed in that way. would a neurotypical habitual jaywalker also have to be assigned close supervision?

one could argue that a non-disabled person would at least be able to make better decisions about when and where to jaywalk safely, but the thing is, he's pretty discerning. he doesn't meander in occupied roads or walk into traffic, he always crosses corner-to-corner at an intersection with stoplight. he just seems to be unaware/not care about which lights are on, like he'll often start crossing in front of stopped cars right before their light turns green.

which, agreed, not the safest, but I've watched completely neurotypical people cross roads in much more dangerous ways just because they felt like it. who's to say he doesn't just feel like it? I have no way of knowing, because I can't ask him. in an ideal world sure, someone should check that he understands how to safely cross the road and teach him if he doesn't, but who's to say he doesn't know already and just doesn't really care?

there's an underlying assumption because he's visibly disabled, that when he does something "wrong" or less than safe, that he must be completely incapable of knowing better, and therefore should not be trusted with his own wellbeing. but I compare him to my AuDHD self, who is less noticeably disabled but capable of some severe fuckups and disruptions, and I find myself incapable of agreeing. before autopay was common, I'd gotten each individual utility shut off at least once due to accidental nonpayment, and have paid the ADHD tax many times over on rental late fees. should I not be allowed to live alone? nobody seems to think that. I have meltdowns in class a few times a year, and frequently have to leave early or opt out of activities to prevent them. should I be punted to the limited online-only curriculum, or kicked out of academia entirely? nobody seems to think that.

idk how my neighbor experiences the world, or what his needs are, so I could be totally off base in the literal sense. but it's eye-opening to notice these casually ableist double-standards, and to see the ways in which competency is assumed (and not).

#very long post #ableism #nd #audhd #i have no idea what to really tag this as it's just been on my mind and i wanted it out somewhere

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genshindreamer · 2 years

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Genshin Men x Child! reader: You get a vision

Thank you @callimagines for the idea. I can't write what you actually requested because I want the "mother" to remain ambiguous. But I hope you like it regardless!

Characters: Thoma, Gorou, Zhongli, Scaramouche, Childe, Diluc, Kaeya, Albedo, Xiao, Kazuha

Warnings: Attempted Non-con in Thomas's (don't worry, you kick their ass before anything happens), Scaramouche having unnamed mental condition (idk what to call it but I'm sure it exists, I just didn't want to be offensive).

Also I just spun a random wheel to determine your Vision. You have no idea how happy I was I got at least one Dendro.

Reader is between 12-15

Apologies for the long wait, I ended up with writers block for a while. If you made a request for my 20 follower event I will hopefully crank those out tomorrow as well.

Thoma- Geo

It happened very suddenly. One moment, you were walking home from school, and the next, you were pinned to the ground by some men.

"Get off of me," you struggle.

"Ooo~got us a feisty one boys!" One of the men cheered.

"Ain't that the fixers kid?" One of them asked.

You continued to struggle and bit one of them as they grabbed you shirt, trying to pry it off your 13 year old body.

"Ow you little brat!" He hissed.

....

Thoma and his spouse went out to try and track you down after you didn't get home from school at the expected time. You always let them know if you were going to be late or with a friend. Sure, they trusted you, but you were still young.

They walked along the streets in Inazuma when they saw something...

.....

You whimpered as one of the men held a knife to your neck. You began to pray that the archons would help you in some way.

"Dad..." You whimpered out, helping as your neck got cut.

Next thing you knew, you felt a warm power wash through you.

'be at ease...' it seemed to whisper. 'letme protect you' the voice was deep and husky, yet comforting.

You raised your hand and flicked it up, putting a wall between you and your handlers. You hopped up and formed a shield around yourself as the men beat on it.

....

Thoma raced towards the scene, as he saw your form a shield around yourself. You got a vision!

He made a note to tell Lumine to thank the geo archon for him later and he got his spear out and knocked all the men out, not feeling like fealing with all the paperwork that came with murder.

He gently napped your shield and watched it crumble, and catching you as you jumped into his arms.

"Dad..." You whimpered.

"Shh, it's okay." He said, rubbing your back. "You got a vision." He noted. "Can I see it?"

You searched around and picked up the honey colored vision. It filled you with a comforting warmth.

"Beautiful. Geo is a wonderful element. I'm sure uncle Gorou can help teach you." He then helped you clip your vision to your waist. "Don't ever loose it, okay? It's not pretty if you do...trust me."

His spouse looked down at the memory.

You nodded and took his hand as he walked you home.

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Gorou- Electro

Being the child of one of the big shots of the resistance tended to put a target on your head. In your 15 years of life, you had come to accept that.

But thankfully, your trouble today didn't come from humans. Instead, it came from a small army of Hillichurls. Normally, they wouldn't be an issue, but you had forgotten your (Weapon of Choice), not thinking you'd need it.

Oh how wrong you were. Even worse, your parents probably weren't home yet.

You swallowed thickly as you were cornered against the cliff face. You really didn't want to die this young!

"Help..." You whimpered, shielding yourself before a shocking sensation filled you body.

'At ease.' a stoic, yet caring voice said. 'Allow me. Just follow your instinct'

You then held your hands up, gasping as a shield formed around you.

Just then, your father appeared and started to shoot all of the Hillichurls and turned to you after.

You lowered your hands and looked at him.

He looked surprised at the vision in your hand, but smiled. "I'm glad you got a vision." He said. He was a little surprised at which vision it was, given their....rocky relationship, but he was thrilled grudges didn't seem to carry on to affect you.

He took your vision and put it in your waist. "You can put it wherever later, let's head home, (name)."

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Kazuha- Anemo

Kazuha did his best to keep you safe, but he couldn't always be at your side everyday anymore. When you were little, you practically never left his side, and as you got older, he gave you more space.

Now, you really wished you had just stayed home, because as you walked back from your best friends house, some drunkards cornered you. You glared and tried to push past, but they wouldn't budge.

One of them tripped you and pinned you to the ground. You generally considered yourself pretty tough, but...you wanted your dad!

You kicked and squirmed, trying to get anyone's attention, but it was too dark...too much in the alleyway.

"Dad..." You whimpered (yes, whimpered, you can cry damnit)) out.

"Daddy ain't coming to save you." One of the men taunted, grabbing a knife and cutting into your shirt.

That was when you felt it.

A cool, ensuring, embrace.

"Don't worry. Your safe. Just follow your instincts!" A cheerful voice said.

You looked around for the source of said voice, but couldn't find it. It felt a...gust of wind rush through your body and to your hands, blasting the men off of you and into the nearby wall. You took off running home, not noticing the vision around your waist now.

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Zhongli- Pyro

Zhongli had lived a long life, some of which he told you about, but most, he kept private, if only for the selfish reason of him not wanting you to think him a monster. But, such things only work for so long.

You had finally gotten to join Beidou on one of her journeys out of Liyue (after literal years of begging your father).

That's when it happened.

An enemy ship approached, full of nomadic pirates who weren't nearly as friendly as Beidou and her group.

"(Name)! Get under deck." Beidou ordered.

"But Beidou..."

"(Name)! That is an order!"

You sighed and went under the ship and to your room, reading a book Kazuha had given you, listening to sound of a battle upstairs.

One of the enemy pirates came in and picked you up, slamming you against a wall.

You grunted, looking at them squirming. He then slammed you into the ground enough that definitely broke something, and dragged you up for Beidou to see.

Beidous eyes widened. "(Name)..."

You struggled, still fighting against your captor.

Then, you felt a furry warmth rush through you. You touched your hand to the guys arm, letting the heat rush out of your palm, heading the sizzle of flesh.

The man screamed and dropped you, clutching his new burn.

You held the fire in your hand defensibly, daring anyone else to touch you.

Beidou smiled and walked up to you, placing a hand on your shoulder. "Enough Pyromaniac." She teased.

You put the fire out and watched Beidou approach the man and quite literally drop kick him into the sea.

She smiled. "Not bad, kid."

You gave a small smile. "I....think I had enough adventure for the day."

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Scaramouche- Electro

Being the child of such an infamous Fatui harbringer always came with it's downsides. Your father being away for such long amounts of time....but it was awful when he would have his "episodes" as you had come to call them.

He was sat on the couch, rubbing his head. He seemed annoyed.

"You okay, dad?" You asked, hesitantly drawing closer.

His eyes snapped open and seemed dark as he slowly arose, drawing out his catalyst.

"oh crap..." You whispered, taking a deep breath. "Hey dad, it's me, (name)..." You began, trying to keep your voice calm to hide the fear in your heart. You knew he loved you, but he still had moments.

He pinned you to the ground and held a knife to your throat.

You tried not to struggle and closed your eyes.

"(Name)..." Your mother came out from their room after a shower and found your current predicament. But before they could help you....

You felt a faint buzzing and a voice that you vaugely recognized.

"Trust in me..." The voice whispered to you.

You held your hand out, sending a sap of electricity to your father, who seemed to snap out of it feeling it.

"(N-name)....babe...." He panted out, scrambling onto his feet. He quickly left, closing the door behind him.

"Dad!" You cried out, reaching to follow him before your mother gently held you back.

"He'll be back." They whispered.

You looked down at the purple vision in your hand and held it tightly.

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Childe- Pyro

Your father had always insisted on teaching you how to fight, even when there were times.youndidmt really want to. It had become a bonding excersize for the two of you. One thing you both had in common (and in a way, it was when you two talked the most.) For years you had struggled to find anything in common putting an unfortunate bend in your relationship that had been devistaring to your father.

But now, you wanted more challenge in your spars with your father. You could tell he was holding back on you, not using things he normally would.

You been begging, pleading, every night after your parents were asleep for the gods to grant you a vision.

Then one night, the pyro archon answered your prayers.

Eagerly, you raced toward your father. "Dad! Dad!"

He turned to you, confused, before his eyes widened seeing the scarlett vision in your hand.

He pulled you close and hugged you, nuzzling you. He puked you onto his lap and you relished in the attention.

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Diluc- Anemo

The abyss Mages had a vendetta against your family, so it was no surprise when you had been out in the woods with your friends and cousin, when Abyss Mages surrounded you.

"(Name!)" Your friends cried out.

You wished you had brought at least something, but turns out, you didn't need to.

Your cousin, Kaeyas child, had suddenly recieves a cryo vision and managed to distract the pyro abyss mage.

The cryo one floated behind your cousin, and that was when you felt a searing heat spread through your veins. You shot a blaze of fire out to the cryo abyss mage.

Without words, the two of you battled your menaces, until they vanished in a puff of smoke.

"Damn, (name), we kicked ass!" Your cousin grinned, panting.

"Yeah we did..." You breathed out, fistbumping them.

"Lets go show our dads!" They grinned, racing off.

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Kaeya-Cryo

It was just supposed to be an outing with your cousin, Diluc's child, and some friends as teens do. You guys had had all sorts of fun chasing the local pigeons, annoying Draff to the point you had quite literally gotten thrown out of the nearby villiage, over all, a great day!

Of course, it got even better once the abyss Mages showed their ugly faces.

You sighed in annoyance, reaching for your dagger before remembering Draff had taken it. Damn it!

It was then the pyro abyss mage approached your cousin, ready to attack.

You raced forward to stop it, when a familar icy coolness spread through your veins. You smirked knowingly and in a second, you stood before them. Remembering your father's moves, you held you hand out and created a wall of ice, hurling it towards the mage.

Thenz you felt a warmth on your back and turned to see your cousin had stopped the cryo mage from attacking you.

The two of you fought the annoying mages until they vanished in a puff of smoke.

Panting, you turned to your cousin. "Damn (Cousin), we kicked ass!" You grinned.

"Hell yeah." They panted, reaching to fistbump you, which you obviously returned.

You then sprung up, full of energy. "Let's go show our dads!"

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Albedo-Dendro

You had been planning this trip for a while now, to go visit your father while he worked in Dragonspine. It had been over two months since you last seen him, and while you loved your mother, the two of you sharing a small space for so longe ithiut him there...you just needed some time apart for your sanity.

Grabbing one of your father's spare swords, you packed a bag and got some warm clothes on hand and began your journey.

....

The first few days weren't too bad, no enemies nor Fatui to be seen (although, you wondered if the traveller had perhaps cleared a path for you).

Regardless, you almost to your father's lab when a mitachurl appeared form behind a mountain and charged you.

You had no shame in admitting you screamed.

Holding your arms up to protect yourself, you shocked when he realized the axe had not gotten close to you like it should have. Looking up, you saw a green shield surrounding you.

Taking the small breather, you scanned your situation and drew your blade, now that the panic was out. You raced to attack, but found the best was slain by your father.

He looked...panicked worried, happy, but mostly relieved.

"(Name)..." He breathed out gently, cupping your face in his hands. "Are you okay?" He pulled you into his embrace.

You nuzzled into him for warmth and the general comfort he gave.

He smiled softly and planted a tender kiss to your head. "You must be cold." He said, wrapping an arm around you and bringing you to his lab.

He got you by a fire and some hit soup, wrapping a blanket over your shoulders.

"You're not joining, Daddy?" You asked, pouting.

He smiled softly and glanced at his expirament he had been doing, before deciding it could wait. He sat beside you and wrapped the blanket around the two of you, holding you close.

He smiled at the Dendro vision and silently thanked the archon. After all, you were his greatest creation.

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Xiao- Cryo

It had taken actual years for you to convince your father to let you go out, away from his long, long vision. In fact, you had gone with thee traveller to help them with their commissions for the day, since they were the only one your father trusted enough besides himself (and Zhongli, but he was a boring old man to you) to let you go with.

You two had been walking through the Guili Plains when a Lawlachurl appeared form no where!

"(Name), get behind me." The traveler ordered, starting to attack the large beast.

As ordered, you stayed behind them or otherwise out of the way when you could.

But the traveller got thrown against a tree, and fear stroke you to the core....no....froze you.

You couldn't exactly remember what happened next, but you created a shield around the two of you. "Dad!" You cried out.

Of course, your father came and slain the beast, turning to you and the traveller. He walked to you and gently used his spear to break your shield.

You looked up and hugged him.

He stood stiff for a moment before returning the gesture, looking at the vision on your waist. He didn't say anything, but you already knew you wouldn't be allowed to leave his sight for a long, long time.

#Thoma x reader #genshin impact #genshin x reader #genshin impact x reader #Xiao x Reader #Childe x reader #child! reader #Zhongli x reader #Diluc x Reader #Kaeya x Reader #Albedo x reader #Gorou x reader #genshin impact x child! reader #Scaramouche x reader #🖋️#Kazuha x Reader #Genshin Family

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harpersplay · 3 years

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Genuine non-troll white woman here - you wrote "So I already knew that Good Girls was a white feminism phantasmagoria...But, jesus fucking christ, y'all are just showing your true colours lately. The way you talk about a MOC in relation to a white woman is disgusting." Not asking you to call out specific people or posts or start any kind of flame war but what would be a general example of what you are talking about? I follow a good chunk of people and I'm not seeing this maybe b/c I'm not following the same people, maybe out of willful blindness, maybe I'm not recognizing it - again, b/c of ignorance, etc. Just trying to understand what you mean - and not do it obviously, if I am doing it.

I apologise for taking a longish time to answer this. Honestly, I wasn't sure I wanted to get into it. Anyway, I'd first like to say that this is all my opinion. What bothers me might not bother someone else. BIPOC are not a monolith. Even subsections aren't. Not all Mexican trans men are a monolith. Neither are all Japanese lesbians. You get the idea. And that's not even including people like Ben Carson or Caitlyn Jenner—people who support and work for policies that actively harm the marginalised group of which they are a part. Secondly, I know this isn't your intention, but asking POC to tell you what is ok to do and what is not is a slippery slope to "my [blank] friend said this was ok." Finally, the fandom is quite small so it is pretty hard to give general examples. I don't know if it's more trouble to quote specific posts or not, because some will think it is about them anyway. Anything I'm going to mention I've seen on Tumblr, Instagram, Reddit and/or Twitter. But there are definitely popular Tumblr blogs that all push the same narrative. Oh, and one last thing, I haven't seen any of what I'm referring to from people I follow.

Ok, let's go. For a very long time, mainly WOC have pointed out the racial problems within the show and the extremely dismissive attitude about those problems from mainly white women. And while these same women have written thousands (even tens of thousands) or words about Beth (it's always Beth) and her struggles and the amazingness of such a complex female character (ymmv), they brush aside commentary about racism as either nitpicking, not understanding the show is about the 3 women (tell that to all the white men with fleshed-out storylines), or misogyny. The last is especially hostile because they are often talking over Black women and misogynoir is a very real fucking thing that couples the fun of being hated for being a woman with the delight of good old-fashioned racism. They espouse the idea that people having a problem with Beth are all covert & overt misogynists. But talk out the other side of their mouths that they can't possibly be racist even when they support racism in the show or ignore concerns brought up by fans of colour. And that is just the absolute height of hypocrisy. Because by the former they acknowledge that people in a marginalised group (women) can still be anti- that group (a phenomenon with which I agree). But in the latter, suddenly they don't understand that concept.

Specific to the post you are responding to, fans that purport to like Brio write about the relationship in ways that reveal how much of their enjoyment comes from Rio being inferior to Beth. It's all about what he can do for her, how he acts against his best interests for her, how he literally denies himself sexual pleasure for her. Those are all meant to show how in love he is with her. But the show never bothers to tell us why. And, no, this is not because the show is so deep. Other romantic relationships they have scenes that are explicit about the characters' feelings. But Rio, after being shot, after being betrayed, after being mocked, is just so in love with Beth....because. (MYSTERIOUS!) And the Beth stans are more than fine with this because they think everyone should be as obsessed with Beth as they are. But it's bad storytelling. And, in this particular case, it gets into very dicey racist tropes. A white women treating her Latino lover like an afterthought is not the same as a white women treating her white lover like an afterthought. It just isn't. And if some of these fans are as smart as they pretend to be, they know that. They just don't care. Much like the showrunners.

There was so much talk defending the drawn-out Boland marriage because why can't we understand how hard it is for Beth—who is, at various times, claimed to be emotionally abused by Dean or staying with him because it is safe and comfortable—and we don't appreciate how difficult it is for her (I may be one of the few divorced people talking about this show on Tumblr, so this has always made me laugh). Yet there was nothing but glee when Rio flipped on his brousin (who was written as both abusive and safe) for Beth. Where was the empathy for Rio and how hard it was for him? Especially because, unlike Beth, he didn't even have one parent? Hadn't the Beth stans used her very tragical history™️ to explain away her every shitty act? idk, not having any parents and going to jail (as a minor?) and being betrayed by your family seems pretty tragic. But I didn't see them all of a sudden excusing Rio's bad behaviour. Because, feminism or something?

What about Beth's feelings? Last season she spent trying to have him killed. This season she spent looking annoyed by him. Throughout both she talked down to him in a specific white woman way that every BIPOC has experienced, even if some of them are cool with it. There were multiple opportunites for Beth to talk about her feelings with Ruby and/or Annie, but the writers made the deliberate choice to always make it about sex (and god, the immature way they had these three grown women talk was fucking obnoxious). She spent the last 2 seasons also wanting him out of her life to the point that a majority of her actions in S4 were motivated by getting to Nevada with her husband and kids. Beth doesn't care about Rio but Rio needs to put Beth above everything because he's just so in love like he's never been before (which is blatant Marcus & Rhea erasure). And anyone who doesn't think Beth would have just as happily been sitting on that bench plotting how to "run the city" (hahahahaha!) with Nick if the situation worked out differently hasn't been paying attention.

So, what do we have? A white woman who is constantly excused (by the loudest portion of the fandom) for all her ill treatment to her Black BFF & her Black husband, her Asian coworker, her Latina "friend," and Rio (among others) because her life is hard and who is not required to even be nice to her supposed "endgame". And a MOC who is expected to accept being treated poorly by the white woman because he loves her.

And, a last thing, this attitude grossly crossed over into talk about real people when the fans—who self-righteously claimed to be above anon sources or talking about the actors—latched on to the narrative and enjoyed blaming the MOC actor for the cancellation of the show, even dragging his insignificant (in terms of influence) Black wife into it. All while conveniently ignoring that the creator/showrunner is a white woman. The star & producer is a white woman. The people making the decisions at NBCU & Netflix were white women. All white women with so much more power than the Latino actor.

Shit, did I answer your question? I know this is a lot. But I could honestly make mulitple posts on each issue I touched on here. Basically, white people ain't slick, be they content creators or fans. We see how & what y'all talk about. We see that Rio not having a last name is not a big deal to you and we know why that is. So we're fucking tired. And we're over a show that had so much potential crapping all over their POC characters to prop up a white woman. And we're repulsed by the white women in the fandom who use their tears to seem oppressed and who toss around the word misogynist because POC dare call a Karen a Karen.

#nbc good girls #good girls nbc #racism in the text #racism in fandom #fragile whiteness #white feminism #what fandom chooses to talk about #and what it chooses to ignore #anon asks

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alright since i love mysteries too much for my own good here's my guesses for the worst-to-best romance list (apologies for lack of spacing idk how to format things in asks): 1. tsukishima (confirmed) 2. iwaizumi (reasoning: he's an idiot (affectionate)) 3. kuroo (reasoning: also an idiot (derogatory)/j uhh *glances at book 4 kuroken* yeah) 4. asahi (confirmed) (1/3)

(Sorry I'm late on answering this) Ooooh, very good guesses! I'm thinking I lost some of the middle of this ask here so appologies for that.

Being that book 4 is over, I'll update the list a bit

1.) Tsukishima (cause I mean really, he got asked out by the love of his life and said no)

2.) ?????

3.) Kuroo (your reasoning is correct. *sigh* points at the Yule Ball)

4.) Asahi (guess who has two thumbs, a furry problem, and didn't know they were in a relationship for three years?)

5 (tie so two) ????? and ?????

6.) ?????

7.) ?????

8 (tie so two) ????? and ?????

9.) Suga (I'll let a giant snake solve my emotional issues!)

10.) Noya (what do you mean "can I have a soda" isn't a life-changing moment?)

11.) Kenma (you're right, he does his best. Also should have probably had an honest conversation about his concerns with being a secret way earlier than just letting it slide and hoping Kuroo would notice.)

12.) Lev (surprisingly decent at this stuff)

13.) Daichi (Accidentally cockblocked by friend group? Check. Poisoned yourself trying to ask a guy out on a date? Check. Made love interest think you had an embarrassing dissease? Check. Kidnapped and knocked unconscious? Check. Still get the guy? Double check 😎)

14.) Yamaguchi (Mr. No, I'm Pretty Sure I Deserve Better Than This--good luck picking up some sense, Tsuki!)

15.) Yachi (Look she got the girl, had a bunch of cute library dates, and got a kiss? She aced it without anywhere close to the dramatics the guys had)

16.) ????? but an absolute genius at this stuff

For those keeping track, the non-named ones in order of group are Tanaka and Ennoshita (Crows), Hinata and Kageyama (Trio), Oikawa, Bokuto and Iwaizumi (IC), and Akaashi

#hq at hogwarts

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jungkooks-left-tiddie · 3 years

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I think I’m in love | knj.

Summary: Your new internship sucked ass. It was fun, but exhausting at the same time. It also didn’t help that uni was also stressing you out. Amidst all this pressure and stress, perhaps a midnight walk on the Han River with your crush Kim Namjoon is what you needed all along. A/N: so I saw this namjoon picture circulating around stan twitter and my 3am sleep deprived ass decided to write a Drabble. 1 hour and 2k words later, here we are.

Words: 2k (maybe more idk I didn’t count)

Warnings: grammar issues, 4am writing

Song rec: I think I’m in love (kat dahlia)

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“You’ve never been to the Han River at night?” Screams of outrage filled the silent room as you shook your head.

“I’ve never had the need to,” You frowned, feeling a little lost. “Plus it’s not like my parents would have let me.”

“Have you ever heard of something called sneaking out?” Jimin continued berating you and you couldn’t help but feel a little upset.

“Look, I know it may seem like Jimin-hyung is overreacting, but he’s not.” Jungkook clarified and made you feel even worse. “Han River is amazing at night.” The 3 boys nodded as if it were a common fact.

“You guys aren’t making this any better, y’know.” You frowned yet again.

They continued describing how mesmerising the river looked at night and you could do nothing but frown and continue doing your work.

Unbeknownst to you, Kim Namjoon kept sneaking glances at you from where he was seated. He wasn’t even trying to be subtle and that got on Yoongi’s nerves.

“Just ask them out, for fucks sake.” Yoongi massaged his eyes as Seokjin and Hoseok tried not to laugh.

“What do you mean?” Namjoon pretended to not know what Yoongi’s words meant and noted down a few more points for his assignment.

“Please tell me Namjoon did not just ask that,” Yoongi took a deep breath before proceeding, “Look, we all know that you have the most obvious crush on (Y/N) so just go and confess ok?”

It was true. Ever since you’d moved into the flat right opposite to his, Namjoon’s been talking about you non-stop.

But he continued to pretend like he didn’t hear Yoongi.

Seokjin and Hoseok, who were tired of their constant bickering and Namjoon’s denial, decided to take matters into their own hands.

“Yoongi’s right Joon,” Seokjin shared a mischievous glance with Hoseok before continuing, “If you don’t do anything, we will.” He declared, standing up and making his way to where you were sitting with Hoseok following in suit.

Namjoon started panicking even more when Yoongi decided to join Jin and Hobi as well, because he knew; oh he knew that they would not hold back. So he quickly ran after them and tried to convince them to back out.

“Guys, come on!” He begged, “I promise I will ask them out one day, but please please don’t do anything now,” It was too late now. Taehyung had spotted the lot of them walking up to your table.

“(Y/N), look!” You winced as Jungkook elbowed you harshly.

“What, dumbass--” Kim Namjoon was standing in front of you.

For a moment, you felt your entire surroundings become a blur and you could only see Kim Namjoon in all his 6ft glory. And as soon as it came, it was gone because you had to remind yourself that people were watching.

“Jin-hyung! What’s up?” Jungkook hits the other man’s arm in greeting.

“Stop hitting me, punk,” They started doing their own thing again, forcing Hoseok to take over.

“We heard you guys talk something about rivers and we were bored so we decided to join lmao,” Hoseok dragged one of the chairs from a nearby table and slumped.

“Damn, I didn’t realise we were that loud,” Tae rubbed his neck sheepishly.

“It was necessary though! I mean it's not everyday we come to know that our best friend never visited the Han River at night,” All eyes were on you after Jimin’s statement.

“Wait (Y/N) really?” You nodded reluctantly. “I lived pretty far away plus I had strict parents so…” You hoped they would drop the topic here, and were extremely thankful when they did.

“Well, I'm sure you’ll have plenty more opportunities to visit. So don’t worry!” Seokjin cheered you up a little.

Your phone started ringing from nowhere and apparently your boss wanted you to collect some files to write a report on from the main office so you quickly informed your friends and bade them farewell.

Collecting the files wasn't the hard part. The hard part was walking home with no one except your thoughts to keep you company. You thought about what your friends said about the Han river and decided to make a trip if you were done with your work.

It sucked to admit it, but they were probably right. The Han River must be really mesmerising for them to talk about it so much and you found yourself suddenly envious of the rest of them.

Night strolls weren’t an option in your old neighbourhood; and though the new one wasn’t bad, you were busy with both uni and your internship. I mean being able to read your fanfics itself was a luxury and these hoes expected you to take a leisure stroll? Keep dreaming luv <3

You said all that to say, but you were still thinking about going there tonight. It seemed like immense fun and plus, it would be your first midnight stroll. You just hoped, with all your might, that you would be able to finish the work as soon as possible.

Lo and behold! 3 cups of coffee later, you were done!

To celebrate, you blasted some music on the speakers and danced along to the lyrics, bopping your head along to the beats.

Namjoon looked at your dancing form through his window. You seemed like you were having a lot of fun, he concluded, an amused grin now apparent on his face. Judging by the way you seemed to have fun, Namjoon concluded that you must've been done with the work you mentioned you had.

Namjoon did not know the practicality of this, but he had a very random idea to take you on a riverside date. And you know what? He was going to do it. Fuck Yoongi, he’s going to prove it to the rest of them that he, indeed, could ask you out.

And so he took out a random book and wrote a message on it, Taylor Swift’s You Belong With Me style.

He did not know where this sudden confidence came from, but he took a small pebble from his rock collection and chucked it across to make sure it hit your window (yes, he was careful not to break it) and waited for your response.

You, on the other hand, were confused. Your mini-dance session was interrupted by a clink! Against your window and you went to check for the source of the sound; only to be met with Kim Namjoon’s waving form.

You panicked internally, not knowing what to do in front of the man you obviously had a thing for. And you were even more confused when he held up a paper with something on it.

“Do you want to go on a riverside walk with me?” It read.

Apparently, you could not form words so that’s fun =D. Instead, you chose to stand there like 🧍🏽and just nod in response. Namjoon gave you a beautiful dimpled smile with a thumbs up before closing the curtains to his window and switching his lights off.

It was only now that you were hit with the epiphany that you were going on what was essentially a midnight date with the Kim Namjoon and boy, oh boy, you were most certainly NOT prepared for it.

Rushing to your closet, you threw on your most comfortable pair of outerwear (and of course made sure you looked presentable) before chewing like 5 breath mints and grabbing your scarf (and your apartment keys) to go and meet Namjoon.

“Hey,” He smiled.

“Hey,” You replied, still breathless.

“Ready to go?” Namjoon asked and you nodded in response. You noticed that he hid something in his bag but made no comment and instead fell into a steady pace beside him.

The walk to the river was not awkward at all, thanks to Namjoon’s ability to radiate comfort. Which was a blessing cause otherwise you would definitely have embarrassed yourself by now.

You didn't even realise that you’d reached your destination until you noticed the numerous cars and lights.

“Woah.” You had no words for the sight in front of you.

“It's beautiful, isn't it?” Namjoon chuckled and sighed, “I love coming here. It never gets old.” He stares off into the distance.

You get it now. The way the bridge lit up, the view, the vibe, everything. It was enthralling. And the fact that it was Namjoon who was with you made this 1000 times better.

You were so absorbed with admiring the view in front of you that your dumbass didn't notice Namjoon staring at you. There was just something so absolutely adorable and endearing in the way your eyes lit up and seemed to sparkle at the sight in front of the both of you.

“Namjoon, look!” You grab the sleeve of his hoodie, “Purple lights!” He quickly snaps a picture of not only the scenery in front of him, but also you. You who were so excited to see this view at midnight for the first time.

You spent a bit more time admiring the view, goofing off, and taking pictures before finally deciding that it was time for the both of you to head back. As upset as you were, you took comfort in knowing that you could visit this place more often hereon.

The conversation on the walk back home was one that you would never forget.

“No way… Here I was thinking that alpha and beta were just limited to greek alphabet and math,” The look of horror on Namjoon’s face when you explained omegaverse was something that you desperately wanted a picture of, and regretted not taking one.

“It’s a thing that definitely exists, and though I may not be a fan of it; I think a lot of people are into that kind of thing.”

“Interesting,” He comments, pausing. “Say, would the title ‘My Alpha mate’ qualify as omegaverse?” His sudden question caught you off guard.

“I think so… Why do you ask?”

“I think… I think Yoongi-hyung is into omegaverse.” Even though you did not mean to, you burst out in laughter. Yoongi being into reading stories centering around dom alpha mating rituals was something you never needed to know but were glad you did.

You continued explaining the various fanfiction tropes to the other male, especially your favourite ones.

“Oh, I once remember reading this amazing Zuko, Sokka and Suki fic somewhere and I genuinely think that it should be nominated for the Nobel prize,” Namjoon looked at you affectionately while you rambled about the plot of the story.

“And at the end--” You paused, looking behind you and caught Namjoon standing with a camera in his hands.

“Sorry, you just looked so beautiful, I had to take a picture.” You were sure you looked like the capillaries in your face burst.

There were a lot of things Namjoon was proud about, and making you blush that hard was definitely on his top 5.

“L-let’s go, dork.” You try your best to brush it off but KIM NAMJOON JUST COMPLIMENTED YOU STFU OK YOU WERE ALLOWED TO CRY.

Anyways, y’all reached your apartment complex sooner than the both of you wanted, and honestly? Neither of you wanted the other to go.

“So,” “Actually--” You both begin at the same time. Flustered, you gestured to Namjoon to go ahead with what he wanted to say and assured him that what you wanted to say wasn’t of any major importance.

“I actually bought something for you,” He took a small bag out of his backpack and handed it to you. “It’s a collection of poems and short stories that i wrote for-for you,” He flushed and avoided making eye-contact with you.

“Namjoon, I--”

“You don’t need to read it, but I just wanted to give them to you because… because I really like you.” It was your turn to blush (again).

“Of course I will read it, you idiot. I’m literally in love with you, what makes you think I won't?” Namjoon widened his eyes and proceeded to smile bashfully, pulling you into a tight hug.

“You have no idea how happy I am right now,” He admits, swaying you around in his arms. You nuzzle deeper into his warm embrace and whisper--

“Thank you for everything, Joonie.”

#bts namjoon #kim namjoon #namjoon fluff #namjoon imagine #namjoon #namjoon fanfic #namjoon x reader #namjoon x you #bts fluff #namjoon scenarios #im in love with this man

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