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Kylo Ren, The Rising Star
Summary: You are Kylo Ren’s personal assistant. The rising star doesn’t know how to cope with his sudden popularity. You let him take sanctuary in your apartment, and help him return to who he was before, Ben Solo.
A/N: I’m stating this now, no romantic relationship blooms in this. But, the seeds are planted. And I will write more where the relationship does grow, if requested.
Prompt, from an anon: But I got an idea, how about worn out actor Kylo Ren aka Ben Solo has been doing to much lately he doesn't even know what time zone he's in sometimes. Reader is average Joe lucky enough to be his PA in his new film. With the stress of everything and fans following him everywhere Ben hides out at your house, were he sleeps all day in your bed and you feed him lots of food, cos you like to cook?
Chapter 2
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You didn’t know what you were getting into when you applied to be an assistant for a local movie shoot. But being the new personal assistant to the biggest rising star was not it at all. And you weren’t always local like you expected. Being Kylo Ren’s PA meant you had to go with him on his other press tours during breaks in shooting. Caffeinated anything had become your friend, and today was one where you were dependant. You had jumped across every American time zone in a day and a half, and now you had crossed the Atlantic, only to turn around in twelve hours and fly home.
You checked your watch and went to knock on Kylo’s dressing room door, “Twenty minutes until you’re on, sir. Do you need anything else?”
He opened the door, still in the t shirt and jeans he wore on the plane, “I just have one question, where are we?”
You looked at him, concerned, “We are in London, sir. You’re doing an interview for ‘the rom-com’ right now. Your suit should be hanging up for you.”
He yawned, “I told you to call me Kylo, not sir. And it is there. Could you step in real quick?”
You nodded and waited for him to step aside, following him inside, “Sorry, Kylo. So used to using sir. Now, what do you need?”
He closed the door and sat on the couch, “First, no need to apologize. Second, can I have a caffeine pill?”
You pulled out a packet from your bag and handed it to him, “You can hold onto these. But, uhh, Kylo, you didn’t need to ask me in here for that. Nobody cares how you stay awake.”
He hummed, “Thank you, (y/n),” he quickly took a pill, “and that isn’t why I asked you in here. I have an unconventional request, that nobody can know about.”
“Yes?”
“This movie, people are going crazy over it. They have surrounded my building at home, waiting for my return apparently. It is exhausting having to go through all these people, some have even found ways inside my building and to my door. I need a break. Could I stay at your place? I’ll sleep on the couch.”
“Kylo, sir, I live in a run down apartment. You wouldn’t want to stay there. And my couch is only a bit longer than this one, you wouldn't sleep very well."
"I'd much rather stay there than possibly anger fans. Please, think about it."
You gave him a pointed look and checked your watch, “Fifteen minutes, Kylo. Now get changed.”
You left the room, closing the door. Kylo was, but also wasn’t, your boss, and he was asking to stay at your place? He had bodyguards, couldn’t they tell the fans to leave? No, he cared too much about his fans’ feelings to have them told to leave. Maybe you would let him stay. Once back he was off for a week, so he wouldn’t have to leave. It would be fun to hang out with somebody for once, even if it was the person you worked for.
The interview went well, and before long you were being taken to a hotel for the night.
You followed Kylo outside to the car and he looked at you once inside, “Woah… It is already night?”
You nodded, “Yeah, it is almost eight. I think we are here for like ten hours then we head home to rest for a week.”
As you pulled up at the hotel, there were clearly a bunch of fans waiting for him, and you heard a muttered “shit.”
You looked at him, “When we get home, you can stay at my place, okay?”
He smiled wide for once in his life, “Thank you, so much, (y/n). I’ll give you a bonus.”
You shook your head, “We’ll talk about it later. I don’t want any extra money. Think of it as a kind gesture from a friend.”
The door was opened and Kylo was escorted into the building. You stayed in until the car parked before grabbing your own stuff and going up to your room; there were shrieks from girls, obviously he decided to stop and talk. You went up to your room and got ready for a bit of sleep.
As you washed your face you heard your phone ringing in the other room. When you went out to check it, you read it was Kylo calling, so quickly answered it.
“How can I help you, Kylo?”
“What time do I have to be ready by? Need to set my alarm.”
“Six. Hopefully the crazies won’t be awake then.”
He groaned, “Hopefully. Thank you. Goodnight, (y/n).”
“Goodnight, Kylo. Text me in the morning so I know you’re awake please.”
He hummed in acknowledgement and hung up.
In the morning he clearly hadn’t slept much, or well, he was a living zombie in a somehow oversized sweatshirt, clutching to a cup of coffee.
He looked at you in the hallway, “Oh, I forgot to ask if you wanted a cup. Security brought it up to me. They said everybody left at like 2 am, so the coast is clear.”
You gave him a warm smile, “It is alright, Kylo. I’m fine. Let’s head down to the car then.”
You thankfully got to the airport and onto the plane without incident, people have better things to do between 6 and 7 am on a Tuesday apparently. Landing back in Los Angeles was a different story, people don’t care that it is noon on a Tuesday.
Kylo still looked exhausted, and you hoped nobody followed you. As the car pulled up to the studio you knew you would be safe. You showed Kylo to your car and got in to drive to your apartment.
He looked at you as you pulled out of your spot, “Hey, thank you so much. I appreciate it, more than you might think.”
You nodded, “You’re welcome, Kylo. Do you want to listen to some music?”
“Sure. Listen to what you normally do.”
You turned on your radio, the bluetooth connecting and automatically playing your playlist. You tapped along to the songs on your steering wheel as you drove. After twenty minutes you pulled up to your run down building and parked in your spot.
You turned to Kylo, “No crazy fans it seems. That is good.”
He hummed, “Yeah. But there are still people around that could recognize me.”
“If they ask if you’re Kylo Ren just tell them no and give a fake name. I don’t talk with my neighbors so they don’t know what I do. And none of my friends know who I work for.”
He nodded and prepared himself to step out. He messed up his hair so it wasn’t as perfect as his normal style, put on the hood of his sweatshirt and stepped out, slinging his duffle bag over his shoulder.
You stepped out and got your bag from your trunk. You looked over at him awkwardly looming next to the car, “Let’s go, sir.”
He followed you like a lost puppy, and then you heard the voice of your annoying neighbor from the floor below yours, “Hey, 32! Is that Kylo Ren?”
You turned to her voice, “No. This is my friend.”
She acted like you were lying, “You sure?”
He stepped in, “Uh, yeah. I’m Ben. But I get that a lot. It is a bit tiresome.”
You tried to pull him away and walk inside, but she wouldn’t relent, why did she have to be out? And why did she care? She has always been vocal about despising everything about Hollywood, especially celebrities.
“Do you have ID to prove it?”
Kylo stopped and you turned, “Ben, don’t pay her any mind, let’s go get some lunch.”
He didn’t move when you pulled, “No, she wants proof I’m not stupid Kylo Ren, I’ll prove it,” he pulled out his ID and showed it to her, “See? Benjamin Solo. Now, can me and my friend go have some lunch? I’m rather hungry and I have a short fuse when I haven’t eaten.”
She just walked away after reading his ID. He looked to you and you just walked in, taking the elevator up and getting him in your apartment.
You threw down your bag as soon as you closed your door, “I’m so damn sorry Kylo. She is so annoying, and thinks she can know anything she wants. She isn’t even on this floor, she is in 21. But, uhh? You aren’t really Kylo Ren?”
He sat on your couch, “Well, I am now. I legally changed my name last year when people started recognizing me, but I still have my old ID, which I had just renewed a few months before I changed my name.”
You nodded, not wanting to pry further, "Alright then. Can I get you anything to drink?"
"Can I get some water please?"
You went and dropped your stuff in your room then got him a glass of water.
You sat on the floor after you gave him the cup, "TV? Food?"
"Watch whatever you want, (y/n)."
You turned on Netflix and turned on the show you were currently binging, then your belly grumbled, “I’m going to go fix some lunch, any requests?”
He looked at you hopefully, “Tacos?”
You thought for a moment and nodded, “Yes, I have everything to make tacos.”
You left the show on, you could rewatch the episode later, and went in to cook. You cooked some carne asada you had prepared for this week, some rice and beans, then prepared all the toppings you needed. Assembling Kylo's tacos were easy, he liked his tacos almost plain, just meat on the tortilla with some fresh pico de gallo. When everything was finished you fixed each of you a plate of your preferred tacos with some rice and beans then brought the plates to the living room.
"Here you go, Kylo. Just as you like it."
He took the offered plate and began to eat, "Did you make all of this right now? This is amazing."
You nodded, "I did most of it. I had the carne asada marinating to fix this week, and the salsa I just made. The beans and rice are pre-packaged, but I try to make them myself too, when I have the time. And the tortillas I buy fresh from a neighbor."
He hummed, "Well this is all delicious. Thank you so much."
You smiled and ate your meal. When you finished you took your plate into wash along with all the items you cooked with once you stored the leftover food.
After a moment Kylo sheepishly walked in with his plate, "Excuse me, (y/n)? Is there anymore?"
You turned to look at him, "Yeah! I just put it away in the fridge. Help yourself."
Kylo took out the containers and fixed himself more tacos, then stood at the counter to eat them while talking with you. "Where did you learn to cook like that?"
"Mostly self taught. I had to learn how to stretch my food budget when I moved out. Cooking from bulk purchases helps. So I had to learn how to use the same ingredients in as many ways as possible so I wouldn't get bored."
He handed you his now empty plate, "Can you be my personal chef and my PA?"
You laughed, "You don't want to see me 24/7 Kylo."
He walked out of the kitchen, "Maybe I do."
You just shook your head and finished washing everything. When you walked back into your living room, Kylo was passed out on your couch. He looked so uncomfortable, he was almost bigger than the old thing. You went to your room, changed all your bedding, then hid all the embarrassing things you had out.
You gently woke up Kylo once you finished, "Hey, go sleep in my bed. It is a lot more comfortable than this small thing."
He groaned and stretched, voice heavy with sleep, "No. That is your bed. You sleep in it. I'm fine here."
You crossed your arms, "No. Kylo. You are sleeping in my bed. I don't need to sleep right now anyways. You do. You've been working so hard recently. Go sleep in a damn bed."
He stood up and pat your head, clearly still mostly asleep, "Whatever you say, my dear. Goodnight."
Your cheeks burned and you just shook your head as you watched him shuffle into your room and unceremoniously flop face first onto your bed, snoring within moments. You went and shut the door most of the way, but first you placed his bags in plain sight in case he woke up and wanted to change out of his jeans.
You worked around your apartment, not letting the fact you had an unplanned guest keep you from your planned chores. You swept and dusted, set your bedding on to wash, the one nice thing about this apartment, you had a washer and dryer in your unit. While the wash was on you sat down and restarted your show and went through your social media. One of your friends shared a tabloid article theorizing that Kylo Ren is in a secret relationship since he has yet to return home after landing earlier today and has spent a lot less time interacting with fans these past few months.
You mumbled to yourself, “He’s staying away from you pricks. You’ve exhausted the poor man.”
You continued perusing, finding nothing else of interest, then paused your show before moving everything to the dryer. You continued watching until it was time to make dinner, pasta is what you had planned for tonight, so you doubled everything to have enough for Kylo.
As you were cooking you heard Kylo enter the kitchen, “Good evening, sleeping beauty. Are you hungry?”
Kylo was still a bit groggy, but rapidly waking up, “Yeah. The smells woke me up. What are you making?”
He sat at your kitchen table and you brought him a glass of orange juice, his favorite, “Pasta. Specifically homemade cheese tortellini with meat sauce. And garlic bread.”
He took a sip and hummed, “You make pasta?”
You nodded, “Only filled pasta, it is cheaper that way. And I made the sauce and garlic bread. Including the bread. But I freeze a lot of stuff so I didn’t actually make any of it tonight.”
He held up his glass, “And this juice?”
You laughed, “That is store bought. I can’t make it as well.”
“You’re lying. I’m sure you can.”
You hummed, “Yeah. I can. But only when oranges are in season.”
You turned back and began to stir the sauce and added the pasta to the now boiling water. You pulled out the garlic bread and shut off the flame for the sauce. After a few minutes you drained the pasta and added a bit of the water to the sauce, then added most of the sauce to the drained pasta.
"Alright, food is ready Kylo. Come help yourself."
"It smells amazing."
You handed him a plate and he served himself then sat back at the table. You followed suit and served yourself, then sat across from him.
You shared pleasant conversation, taking turns asking about the other's life. While you worked for him, and were around him more often than not, neither of you knew much about the other, but this time together would change that.
When he finished he looked up and smiled at you, "Now for a more personal question, if you want to answer it. Are you dating anyone?"
You smiled back and chuckled, "So asking about my parents and childhood isn't personal, but asking if I'm dating is?" You paused to take a sip, "No, Kylo. I'm not. Haven't dated in awhile. What about you then? There is a tabloid article out there theorizing you're in a secret relationship since you haven't come home yet and aren't interacting as much with fans."
He groaned and covered his face, "No. I'm not. Same as you, haven't in awhile." He rubbed his face and looked at you again, "And you know that tabloid is wrong. I'm here with you."
"But what about the fan interactions? Just the burn out?"
He nodded, "Yeah. I've really just wanted to go to bed recently, or get into work. They're great and all, but I don't want to be on at 7 am or 9 pm, especially if I just came from a different timezone."
"I can't even imagine. But you don't have to be on at all this week. Stay here for as much of that time as you want. Be Benjamin Solo again, if only for me."
His eyes lit up, "Yes. Call me Ben. Please. Only my mom and dad call me that anymore. I need to be Ben for a week. I'll order some plain clothes online to be delivered here too. I’m going to be Ben Solo again."
You nodded, "Okay, Ben. Let me clean up, and you can work on ordering everything you need. Then tell me when you're checking out and I'll fill out my address."
He stood up and grabbed both plates, "Let me help you please."
"Alright. You can help me Ben."
He grinned and had a tiny celebration, "Yes! Thank you."
He set to work filling up the sink with water, placing the plates and utensils in the sink, then turning to you, "Uhh, the leftovers need to be put away. Where are your containers?"
You moved to the right cabinet, "This one, Ben. But I'll put it away. You focus on washing."
He nodded, "Okay, (y/n)."
You put away the food and Ben grabbed each empty piece and cleaned it. Once the food was put away you sat up on your counter.
You looked to Ben, who was meticulously scrubbing the saucepan, "I had no problem cleaning up, Ky… I mean Ben. I do it all the time."
He turned to you, "I'm your unplanned guest. I want to do has much as possible to help and not throw off your schedule and routine. I'm sure you have one here too."
You looked away, feeling your cheeks warm a bit, "Well I do. But I'm fine doing it all myself."
He pointed a stern finger at you, but his face held a small smile, "No. I'm washing the dishes. Go relax. Put on a movie. Pour yourself some wine if you want, and have any. I'll be out in a bit."
You just nodded and listened, going to turn on some super cheesy rom-com your friend told you to watch. After a while you heard the sink draining and footsteps coming back out.
Ben plopped down on the couch right next to you and outstretched his arms across the back, then groaned, "Really, (y/n)? You like rom-coms too?"
You paused it, "Shit, sorry. Wasn't thinking. I just think that they are funny, especially the real cheesy ones. And one can dream about randomly falling in love with a stranger. But I'll change it to something else."
Ben shook his head, "No, you can keep watching. I'll order those clothes."
You started playing the movie again and he pulled out his phone and wallet to find clothes with rush shipping. After twenty minutes he silently passed his phone to you and you typed in the address information then handed it back. Once the order was placed he put his phone away and again stretched his arms out. You didn't know if he was actually watching or just zoning out, but you were happy he didn't mind.
As the credits rolled, you let out a yawn, “Alright, time for bed for me,” you tapped his thigh, “That means it is time for you to move, Mr. Solo. You’re on my bed.”
He turned to you, “No. I’ll sleep here.”
You grabbed his arm and stood up, “Nope, this is not an option. You are sleeping in my bed,” you began to pull on his arm, “Now come on you big oaf. You are going to sleep in my bed, just like you did earlier.”
He stayed planted in his spot, chuckling, “You’re gonna have to pull harder than that. I’m almost all muscles.”
You pulled harder and then tried to pull both his hands, starting to laugh, “Come on Ben. Go sleep in my damn bed.”
He stood up suddenly and caught you before you fell back, “Fine. Just this once.”
You crossed your arms, “This will be the second time, Ben. You slept before dinner.”
He smirked and walked away, into your room, “That was Kylo Ren, thank you very much. Now, do you need anything from in here before I close the door?”
You ran in, “Yes!”
He chuckled and just sat on your bed, pulling out his pajamas from his duffle bag. You grabbed everything you needed and went out.
You paused in the doorway, turning to Ben before closing the door, “Goodnight, Ben. See you in the morning.”
“Goodnight, (y/n). Thank you again.”
You nodded and closed the door then went to change and grab your bedding from the dryer. After setting everything up you crawled into your cocoon of blankets and pillows on the couch and fell asleep.
You were awoken a couple hours later by the sound of whining and screams, coming from your room. You quickly got up and knocked on the door, “Ben? You okay in there, sir?”
He didn’t respond, just more whimpers, so you opened up the door and walked in to find him asleep but thrashing.
Carefully, you approached him, reaching out to rub his arm, “Ben. Kylo. Wake up, sir. You’re having a nightmare.”
He woke up and clung to you, wrapping his arms around your waist. He was panting, repeating your name, “I’m so sorry. So sorry. For waking you up. Sorry.”
You ran your fingers through his hair, “Ben. It is okay, Ben. I promise.”
He nodded and slowly calmed down, “Okay. Okay. Thank you. Thanks for waking me up. I normally have to fight for much longer to wake up.”
You softly scratched his scalp, “Lay back down. I’ll stay until you’re asleep again.”
He hummed, “Can you keep doing that, and playing with my hair?”
You chuckled, “Sure.”
He moved back to laying normally and you moved to keep petting his head. It didn’t take long for him to get drowsy again, and he began mumbling to you.
His voice was barely audible and clearly full of sleep, “I like this. I like you. Don’t tell though.”
You felt your cheeks warm and continued until his murmurs turned to snores. You got up again and softly kissed his forehead, “Goodnight, Ben Solo. Sweet dreams.”
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Get to know me?
Yoooo - yall remember Myspace, and people would blog survey posts lol. Well thats me, I’m people. And I just wanna write my lil heart out and avoid all of my real life responsibilities. So found a lil questionnaire thing and I’m gonna fill it out. Also lowkey like doing this every so often so I can look back on it and reflect and see how much I may have grown/changed/shifted viewzzz ya feel? :)
Sooo here yall go <3
1. Who was the last person you held hands with?
My neice maybe?
2. Are you outgoing or shy?
People who know me would tell me to put outgoing, but I honestly feel shy on the inside, so it just depends.
3. Who are you looking forward to seeing?
Literally anyone lmao fuck this quarantine
4. Are you easy to get along with?
Definitely
5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you?
Lets hope so
6. What kind of people are you attracted to?
Kind souls <3 always notice how they talk to their friends and family, but even people they don’t know like servers or janitors, etc. that shit matters heavy.
7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now?
Probably not
8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind?
A few homies
9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable?
Nah not really, just depends
10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?
Not sure -it’s been a min since I had a “deep” connection or convo that I can remember - but was probably with my bestie R’Bo
11. What does the most recent text that you sent say?
“Google that shit” lmao me, giving advice to my friends
12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now?
TOUGH!!!! After Hours by The Weeknd is up there, Cayendo by Frank Ocean (been jamming his shit HAARD lately) and Inside Friend by Leon Bridges & John Mayer….but also been listening to albums - like Childish’s new album, Floreyyy for lo-fi shit, and also got into 070 Shake recently just to name a few.
13. Do you like it when people play with your hair?
FUCK YA
14. Do you believe in luck and miracles?
Yeah budddyy
15. What good thing happened this summer?
Idk, my bday party was lit?? And lots of river floats happened
16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
Lol
17. Do you think there is life on other planets?
Cant deny that there isn’t so yaaa
18. Do you still talk to your first crush?
No
19. Do you like bubble baths?
Yes
20. Do you like your neighbors?
Just moved, so don’t know em
21. What are you bad habits?
Procrastination lol and biting my nails
22. Where would you like to travel?
Literally ANNNYY-fuckin-WHERE!
23. Do you have trust issues?
Hmm I wanna say generally no, but I also always keep it one hunnnid with myself, and as much as I’d like to say I don’t have any - I think I def have insecurities with myself, that have the potential to become “trust issues” in certain relationships, but overall no. I live by the whole “you have my trust til you fuck it up” mantra
24. Favorite part of your daily routine?
Coffee in the morning lately, missed it and forgot how energized it makes me - gives me time to wake up and reflect/set daily goals
25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with?
Stomach forever :((((
26. What do you do when you wake up?
Scroll on my phone, pee usually, or feed my cat lol
27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker?
Tanner maybe?
28. Who are you most comfortable around?
My mom or my best friend R’Bonney - but any of my close friends and fam honestly
29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up?
Not directly
30. Do you ever want to get married?
Lol ok, so this is always changing…but lately (and by lately I mean the past few years) its been a no. I’m open minded though and am aware that I’m always changing my mind sooo who knows
31. Is your hair long enough for a pony tail?
yeppperoo
32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with?
Honestly, those aren’t my “thing” lollike id prob laugh or be awkward or just have to be hellllla drunk - but like I wouldn’t mind Jason Momoa and Tom Hardy tossin me around
33. Spell your name with your chin.
hjaylkee
34. Do you play sports? What sports?
Scocer back in the day - actually went and kicked it like a week ago for the first time in YEARSSSS - felt so damn good
35. Would you rather live without TV or music?
TV, music forreeevverrr
36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them?
Lol story of my life
37. What do you say during awkward silences?
“Soooo” then probably ask a question or some shit lol
38. Describe your dream girl/guy?
Hmmm…definitely have to be funny/have a good sense of humor. They’d have to be open-minded for sure. Up for trying new things, places, cultures, food, music, etc. Just have an adventurous spirit I guess when it comes to that. Have a good line of communication/openness - and just be able to have a deep/intellectual convo about anything and everything. Bonuses: taller than me, likes cooking, and going to music shows.
39. What are your favorite stores to shop in?
Amazon lol I hate shopping
40. What do you want to do after high school?
To go back to high school :( lmao so much id re-do, cant believe its almost been a decade
41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
Hell yeah, this is life my dudes, dont take it so seriously - we all fuck up at some point or another
42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean?
Something is on my mind for sure, or im just tired lol
43. Do you smile at strangers?
Yeah
44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean?
DAMNNN WHAT so hard - I guesss if I had to pick, space…just because it’s more rare/harder to do I’d think.
45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning?
My cat lol with his meowing ass
46. What are you paranoid about?
Lowkey a lot lol
47. Have you ever been high?
8)
48. Have you ever been drunk?
Who hasn’t????
49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about?
naw
50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore?
Black probably, like half my wardrobe
51. Ever wished you were someone else?
Of course
52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself?
My bad habits
56. Favourite colour?
Yelllllow :)
57. Favourite food?
Oh gaaawwd, literally anything - lately: PB&J’s, fries, wings, Mediterranean, Mexican, pickles, ice cream, ramenzzzz
58. Last thing you ate?
Pistachios
59. First thing you ate this morning?
Cofffeeee w creamer
60. Ever won a competition? For what?
Idk, not off the top of my head - maybe something back in elementary
61. Been suspended/expelled? For what?
Nah
62. Been arrested? For what?
Yeah lmao
63. Ever been in love?
Yes
64. Tell us the story of your first kiss?
No its really not that interesting and idc to type it out
65. Are you hungry right now?
24/7/365
66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends?
Lol yes a few of them <333
67. Facebook or Twitter?
FB
68. Twitter or Tumblr?
Tumblr
69. Are you watching tv right now?
Noooo
70. Names of your bestfriends?
R’Bonney is number 1
71. Craving something? What?
Foooood, and companionship? Lol
72. What colour are your towels?
Idk, random, mostly blue
72. How many pillows do you sleep with?
A lot lol
73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?
Lol no, but I have my one from my childhood in my room
74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have?
1 - shout out to you Mr.Fluffy
75. Favourite animal?
I am fascinated by sharks; and like gators/crocs. But I have mad respect for elephants, they’re sooo damn smart and beautiful.
76. What colour is your underwear?
Dont have any on
77. Chocolate or Vanilla?
BITCHHHH CHOC
78. Favourite ice cream flavour?
All of them
79. What colour shirt are you wearing?
Tie-dye
80. What colour pants?
none
81. Favourite tv show?
Game of Thrones prob
82. Favourite movie?
Avatar or Shawshank Redemption
87. First person you talked to today?
Sissy
88. Last person you talked to today?
Friend on FT
89. Name a person you hate?
No one, maybe Trump? lol
90. Name a person you love?
Everyone, fr fr
91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now?
Nah
92. In a fight with someone?
Nah
93. How many sweatpants do you have?
Not enough <3
94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have?
Not enough <3
95. Last movie you watched?
The Decline on Netflix, short lil foreign oil, was deep/interesting
96. Favourite actress?
Not sure-Sandra Bullock? Or Meryl
97. Favourite actor?
Denzel or Morgan Freeman
98. Do you tan a lot?
Nah not anymore honestly
99. Have any pets?
Yessss
100. How are you feeling?
Mediocre
101. Do you type fast?
Ya
102. Do you regret anything from your past?
Im sure
103. Can you spell well?
Ya
104. Do you miss anyone from your past?
Lol im nostalgic af, so yes
105. Ever been to a bonfire party?
Yes litttty tittyyy
106. Ever broken someone’s heart?
Probably :(
107. Have you ever been on a horse?
Hell yeah brother, I’m from TX
108. What should you be doing?
So much shit lol
109. Is something irritating you right now?
The fact that I ain’t doing all the shit I should be lol
110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt?
Yooo yes
112. Who was the last person you cried in front of?
Prob my sister or my mom?? Lol I cry a lot, idk and idc
113. What was your childhood nickname?
Hayls?
114. Have you ever been out of your province/state?
Yes
115. Do you play the Wii?
Back in the day
116. Are you listening to music right now?
Surprisingly, no
117. Do you like chicken noodle soup?
Nah, unless maybe if its homemade
118. Do you like Chinese food?
Yeah occasionally, more of a Thai food chick or Japanese
119. Favourite book?
Kite Runner
120. Are you afraid of the dark?
Low-key sometimes lol
121. Are you mean?
Hell noooo
122. Is cheating ever okay?
Ok, this is an interesting one lol I mean no, it’s not “okay” - since it usually constitutes lying/hiding/hurting someone - BUTTTT, for a lack of a better term - I wanna say it’s “normal”? But thats because I, personally, am on the fence about the concept of monogamy. Like no, I’ve never cheated nor experienced that in return - but the whole concept of monogamy and like that a person can love and only love or be with one person is WILLLLDDD and I can’t help but note that its a social construct that we, as a society, are conditioned to from the time we are born. Idk if that makes sense bc im high af lol but those are my thoughts…like to sum it up - cheating is fucked up and sucks, but at the same time its not all that surprising/shocking anymore, like borderline “normalized” just as divorces are and shit, so I feel like bc biologically we aren’t made to be with one person lol. I don’t condone it tho. Thanks for coming to my TedTalk.
123. Can you keep white shoes clean?
Hell to the naw naw
124. Do you believe in love at first sight?
Hmmm idk about that one, but also can’t deny it
125. Do you believe in true love?
Yeah of course, you’re talking to a hopeless romantic
126. Are you currently bored?
I guess we could say that
127. What makes you happy?
Food and close, loved ones
128. Would you change your name?
Nah, too much paper work
129. What your zodiac sign?
Cancer, with my lil moody, sensitive ass
130. Do you like subway?
I did lol
131. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?
Story of my mf life lol literally all my exes are “best friends turned lovers” situation, so guess it would just depend lmao
132. Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?
133. Favourite lyrics right now?
Lol oh godddd; ok off the top of my head - Tupac - Keep Ya Head Up is what comes to mind; just a timeless song and the lyrics are still relevant/apply to this day and idk just really resonate with the message behind that song <3
135. Dumbest lie you ever told?
Idk, but it was probably SO dumb, and told to my parents lol
136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed?
Either or, lately open so my cat can go in and out lol
137. How tall are you?
5’6 mayyybeee 5’5 actually lol
140. Summer or Winter?
Fall!!
141. Night or Day?
Def a lil night owl, always have been
142. Favourite month?
April and October for weather at least
143. Are you a vegetarian?
No but I try, and go through phases, I’m definitely mindful the older I get and more focused on my health I become
144. Dark, milk or white chocolate?
FUCKIN ALLLLL
145. Tea or Coffee?
Coffee but I like tea too, just seem to drink coffee more regularly
146. Was today a good day?
The grateful-to-just-be-alive in me wants to say yes lol but idk, felt off/unaccomplished and cried a lot, so no.
147. Mars or Snickers?
Snickers
148. What’s your favourite quote?
“This too shall pass”
149. Do you believe in ghosts?
Sure why not
150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line on that page?
“After all, what he had always wanted was just that: to know new places.” -The Alchemist, Paulo Coelho
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A Devil’s Love
Description: Chloe's best friend is back, and Lucifer's charm can't seem to affect her either. Is she also a miracle child? Or something...more? [Story starts during S2 Ep4, Female Reader Insert]
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Notes: It's been a long time since I've written fanfiction, but I love the Lucifer Netflix Show [screw you Fox] so much that I just had to write my ideas! The first chapter is pretty long, and I apologize for that, but I wanted to get most of the character introductions done. Plus the first chapter follows S2 Ep4: Lady Parts. Please leave a review!
Warnings: No warnings this chapter!
Chapter 1: All bad things, I promise
“Ladies and Gentlemen! We have arrived at our destination of the Los Angeles International Airport. We hope you enjoyed your flight and hope you ride with us again!” A smack to your chest woke you from a deep slumber.
“Ms. Earth! We've landed. Can we please hurry off this plane?” your assistant, Alice Green, pleads to you.
“Geez, Ali,” you groan while stretching in your very comfy first class seat, “The whole reason I got us first class was so you'd be more comfortable.”
“Over 6 hours, Ms.” You yawn.
“Alright, alright. Let's get off. I'm eager to go too, actually.” You give Alice the shooing motion and she was more than happy to oblige.
After grabbing your luggage from the always too fast conveyor belt you treat Alice to the most elegant airport food you can imagine: McDonald's. As she went to town on her banquet you called a cab to pick you up in thirty minutes, then stared at a blank text message screen.
“You ok?” Alice asks after swallowing a mouth full of chicken nuggets.
“You know, it amazes me how you can eat like a pot belly pig and still be a size three,” Alice raises an eyebrow at you while stuffing more in her mouth. You sigh, “Should I text her now? Or just surprise her at work?”
“You've told me before that she usually doesn't like to be interrupted when on duty.”
“Yeah you're right,” you start to form a devilish grin on your face and place your phone back in your purse, “Her job it is then!”
“Seriously, Detective! Name three friends you could have drinks with right now,” Lucifer Morningstar poked at Detective Chloe Decker.
“Well, I can't name three,” replies Chloe rolling her eyes, “I can name one, but she's on the other side of the country.” She pulls the car up to the crime scene and parks.
“Wait, you actually have a friend?” Lucifer smiles cockily. Chloe gives him an annoyance stare then gets out of the car, walking quickly inside the crime circle.
“Well you need to make more friends! Especially since now I know it seems you're capable of doing so,” Lucifer, very easily with his long legs, strides right next to her, “Stress is a terrible ager, Detective. Go to a bar, get drunk, and talk about your woes to the patrons! I promise it'll make you feel better.”
“Talk about my impending divorce and possible homelessness with an eight year old daughter to complete strangers? Yeah. Sounds super relaxing.”
“Doesn't it?” Lucifer smiles that grin again and Chloe responds with a pissed off expression. Thankfully, Detective Dan Espinoza cuts in with the crime details.
“We've got a young female. C.O.D. unknown.” Dan looks back and forth between Lucifer and Chloe before settling on her.
“ID?”
“None,” Dan says with a sigh, “No personal belongings. Only thing of note is a triangular ink stamp on the inside of her wrist.”
“Oh wait, I think I can actually help here,” Lucifer stops the men carrying the women's body and points to the stamp, “This is a very common thing you'd see at a nightclub. You know,” Lucifer looks to Chloe and raises his brows, “Where people go to have fun.”
“And then get killed. Yeah mhm.” Chloe shakes her head at her partner.
“Well that part usually doesn't happen.” Lucifer pulls his phone out, all attention now on the tiny device.
“We did find an abandoned vehicle registered as an Uber,” Dan steps in, “No driver.”
Chloe nods in thought, then grabs Lucifer's phone and starts searching, “I was searching safe nightclubs for you Detective! Other than my own, of course.”
“Uber IDs are usually linked to the drivers phone,” Chloe says, ignoring Lucifer, “Not the car, and now we've got his number...Looks like our guy is on the corner of Crescent & Third.”
“Impressive.” Lucifer smiles down at his partner.
“Yeah it's called police work.” Chloe replies, hiding a smile as she hands him back his phone.
Lucifer places the phone in front of his mouth, “Let's solve a murder!” “I can assist you with that.” “Ha! You have to love these things!”
“Lucifer-” but before Chloe could scold him, one of the K9s on scene started to bark. The three of them look over in that direction and see an officer having trouble controlling the dog.
“I thought those things were supposed to be trained,” Lucifer cringes.
“That's Buster. Just turned a year old and still training,” Dan answers. The poor officer can't control Buster any longer, and the dog snaps free and runs to an approaching party.
“Oh my-” Chloe's eyes go wide.
“Well hey there, little guy!” You smile as Buster jumps on you and licks your face. Alice smiles and softly laughs, “You completely ruined my cover, dude! I was planning on sneaking up on my old BFF.” Buster whines softly, “Aw, it's not a problem bud. Now go back to your officer.” You point towards the officer, who looks completely embarrassed, and Buster follows your command.
You look to Chloe, smile and wave, “Hey Chlo-Chlo! Long time no see, huh?”
“Earth?!” Chloe gets the biggest smile on her face and rushes over to you. The two of you have what looks to be the biggest, and tightest, hug in the world.
“Well I'll be damned,” Dan says softly, then smiles and walks towards the trio of women. Leaving behind a very confused Devil.
“What are you doing here, Earth?!” Chloe smiles and holds onto your hands.
“Business over in New York is in good hands now. So I figured, why not open up a vet on the other side of the country too?” You smile and squeeze Chloe's hands, “Plus I get to be back home, work on my K9s again, oh yeah! And be with my BFF.” Chloe smiles and embraces you once more.
“Hey, Earth,” Dan comes up and holds out his hand, “It's good to see you back.”
“Daniel,” you accept his handshake and respond coolly, “You're lucky you brought Trixie into the world. Otherwise I'd be living up to the threat I gave you at the wedding.”
“Yeah…”
Lucifer coughs.
“Oh, right,” Chloe composes herself, “Earth this is Lucifer Morningstar, the LAPD civilian consultant.”
“And her partner,” Lucifer smiles at you and holds out his hand.
“Ah, so you're the weirdo who thinks he's the Devil,” you smile back and accept his handshake, “Chloe's told me a lot about you. All bad things, I promise.”
“Is that so?” Lucifer's smile grows, “Well I wish I could say the same about you, my dear. But I'm afraid the Detective has never mentioned you. Well,” Lucifer side glances to Chloe, “Not until the ride over here.”
“Perfect timing then,” you reply, “And I'm not surprised she hasn't talked about me. She's very hush hush about her childhood.”
“Yes, I've noticed that.”
“Earth!” Chloe eagerly tries to move the conversation in another direction, “Who's your friend?”
“This is my rising prodigy and assistant, Alice Green,” you properly introduce her to everyone.
“It's nice to meet you all,” Alice shakes everyone's hand, lingering longer on Lucifer.
“Nice to meet you too, darling,” Lucifer smiles seductively at your assistant, and you can see her blush.
“So!” You clap your hands together loudly, knocking Alice out of her daze, “I just came to say I'm back. Go on, go back to your investigation,” you make the shooing motion once more, “We're going to head to our hotel and get some rest. Going back in time is sooo draining. Text me when you're done and free to hangout, Chloe!” You wave your goodbyes then push Alice back to the cab.
“Well, Detective,” Lucifer smiles down at her, “Looks like you've got no excuse now not to go have fun.”
“Looks like it.” Chloe smiles back.
The music was popping in Lux. People danced, talked, made-out all around the place. Everyone looks to be having the time of their life.
All except a certain Detective who has yet to de-stress.
“...there was tissue damage to Daria's stomach lining caused by liquid nitrogen, the stuff that makes those fancy cocktails smoke. It's probably how she ingested the poison-”
“Amazing work as always Detective,” Lucifer interrupts her, “but you just made my trio sha-bang run away.”
“Second,” Chloe continues like she hasn't even heard him, “I assumed that Daria was at a club on Gower and we found an abandoned building on the corner. The place looked like it had a party recently.” Chloe moves over to one of the small tables by the bar as she talks, looking over the paperwork.
“Fascinating,” Lucifer says sarcastically, following her.
“I was wondering if you could make some phone calls to help me out?” Chloe looks to Lucifer, “You know, since you seem to have your fingers on the pulse.”
“I'd much rather be pulsing-”
“I know that hood,” Mazikeen Smith, Lucifer's demon bodyguard, had been listening in from the bar and decided to intervene, “There's a great tiki bar across the street from that building. I know the bartender.” Maze downs her drink.
“I'm not surprised,” Chloe shakes her head at the demon.
“Let's go have a drink there. Ask about the dead girls,” Maze pushes.
“That sounds like a very good lead, Detective!” Lucifer's smile practically covers his entire face.
“Did I just hear you guys talk about that tiki bar on Gower?,” Ella Lopez, an LAPD forensic scientist, comes back from dehydrating in the bathroom, “I love their pina coladas!”
“See that Detective?” Lucifer smiles at Chloe as he takes a swing of a drink a waiter just gave him, “Why don't you text that lovely friend of yours too?”
“Got to say, I'm surprised you guys didn't realize that this was Chloe's idea of a ‘girls night',” You sit next to Maze and Ella, who Chloe briefly introduced you to before she ran off to ask questions of the patrons about her case.
Maze's eye roll looked like a growl, and Ella just smiled and shrugged her shoulders while she finished her second pina colada.
“Well, I did manage to gain some new info,” Chloe finally returns to the bar and sits next to you. She opens up her case file and starts to go through the papers again, “The bartender said something was going on in that building. I put a call in for a warrant to the judge. Just waiting to hear back.”
“Great,” Maze forces a smile and shoves Chloe's abandoned drink into her hand, “Have a drink.”
“Uh no. I think I'm going to call it a night,” Chloe starts to pack up her paperwork, but you grab her left wrist to stop her.
“But I just got here!”
“Sorry, Earth...look we can-”
“Hey ladies,” Dr. Linda Martin, the Devil's therapist, gives a concerned smile as she sits next to Chloe.
“Linda?” Chloe looks shocked, “What are you doing here?”
“Maze texted me saying it was girls night.” Chloe looked over to Maze who just shrugged and motioned again to the abandoned drink.
“Sorry Linda but-”
“Oh no no no, now I'm stepping in,” you snap and Chloe looks to you instead, “Look Chloe, you've done all you can for tonight on the case, and I know you've got a lot on your mind right now. Your weird partner is right,” you put a hand on Chloe's shoulder and squeeze, “You need to have fun and relax.”
“I agree,” Linda nods and you two formally introduce each other while Maze and Ella both share their agreement. Defeated, Chloe sighs, sits down, and slowly starts to sip her drink.
For a first night out since being back in LA, you weren't surprised that it turned into a bar fight. First it started slow, with the group sharing something about themselves or what was on their mind, and that seemed to make Chloe more comfortable. Then two drinks became four, and you find yourself singing terrible karaoke with the girls even though you only drank water. Maze tried to make you drink and you responded with, “You're here to get Chloe drunk. Not me. I saw that phone picture to him.” Which seemed to shut her up, and she glared at you the rest of the night.
The fight broke loose when the Detective in Chloe came back in full force. She noticed some slum of a guy with the same triangular stamp on the wrist and brought him over to question him with Ella. Then the slum's girlfriend comes up and just punches Chloe. You and Maze didn't stand for that and started fighting the people in the bar, while Linda hide under the bar table and Ella kept splashing water on people while swearing. When everything finally calmed down, Maze stopped glaring at you and instead gave you a look of approval for your fighting skills.
Chloe got even more info on her case from the slum. He said the place he got the stamp was a sex club party that always moves to different places each night.
As the group dispersed, Chloe stops you and says she will text you to meet at her mom's when she's officially over with the case.
“I can't believe it was all a set up!” Chloe complains while she pours you and her a glass of water. You take a sip of the water and continue to listen to her ranting, “‘You need to go make friends Detective’,” Chloe mocks Lucifer's voice, “‘Go get drunk and forget about your woes’,” Chloe sighs and slumps into the couch next to you, “Now thanks to that drunkenness I'm going to have Maze as a roommate.”
“I don't think it's so bad.”
“You've only known Maze for a night, and you can basically grasp her personality from that.”
“Aw, come on Chlo,” you nudge her leg with your own, “Yeah she seems kind of...scarey, but she's an amazing fighter. Good protection for you and Trixie,” you take another sip of water, “And besides,” you wrap and arm around Chloe's shoulder, “Lucifer may have set it up, but you did have fun and de-stressed right?”
Chloe sighs and lays her head on your shoulder, “Yeah. I did.”
“See?” You smile and rest your head on hers, “And now you have a good group of girls to have drinks with on your own. You know…” You swirled your water in the glass, “I was scared when you told me about your new partner. I thought, ‘How could a guy who calls himself the Devil be good for my Chlo?’” You sit up and look Chloe in the eyes, “But I think...he's actually a good guy. A nice guy.”
“Yeah,” Chloe smiles warmly at you, “He is.”
“Good.” You cough, “So,” you place your water on the coffee table, “Is it more then just partnership?” You wiggle your eyebrows.
Chloe laughs at you and smacks your arm, “No! Absolutely not!” You both have a good laugh before settling down.
You two talk for an hour before Chloe informs you she has to go pick up Trixie from school. You both say your goodbyes at the door, but Chloe stops you:
“Hey, Earth?” She looks and sounds concerned.
“Yeah?” You look back at her through the doorway.
“You sure you'll be alright coming back here? I mean…”
“Don't worry, Chloe,” you give her a reassuring smile, “I've dealt with my demons.”
“Okay, good. But you know if you ever need someone to talk to come to me,” Chloe smiles then looks like a light bulb clicked on in her head, “Or if you need a new therapist, I do recommend Linda. It may not seem like she's good since she's his therapist and he still insists on being the ‘Devil’, but she has helped Lucifer with other problems.”
“Thanks, Chlo. I'll think about it.” You smile and wave at each other before you head to your rental and she to her own car.
“Yeah,” you say to yourself as you start up the engine, “It's good to be back.”
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Anon I’m ASSUMING that these are from the same person; apologies if they are not
I would say that my feelings are similar to yours, but not quite identical ...
Disney’s handling has been imperfect, and some of the mistakes have been made the highest level (I know that people give Kathleen Kennedy a hard time, but if rumor is to be believed, some of the interference that made IX kind of weird came from higher than that)
for example, Kennedy said in an interview that she tries to find people who just make big, successful movies to make sure that these are also big, successful movies. I can understand that as being a safe bet from a business stand point, but that’s not the same thing as finding someone passionate about very specifically telling good, new Star Wars stories, which we did not really get in the Sequel Trilogy
(one of the most common theories that I saw from TLJ apologists was that people didn’t like that it was new/different than what they were expecting, which was really not the issue for me or my friends. Also it was just a speedrun of parts of Episodes V and VI)
I think that I’m “too close” to Star Wars to see it as a financial asset rather than a beloved universe full of characters and stories that I adore, but I don’t think that “literally just rehash the Original Trilogy for two movies and barely acknowledge any other part of Star Wars until IX” was a good idea
Rey deserved her own story. and Luke deserved to not be retroactively robbed of his
as for George Lucas, I do think that years of backlash over the Prequels sucked the fun out of it for him. Also, who doesn’t want four billion dollars? it was a sweetheart deal for Disney, of course
the sad thing is that this meant the end of Clone Wars, because Disney took one look at Lucasfilm’s budget and was like “OH NO YOU CANNOT SPEND THAT KIND OF MONEY ON A CARTOON” which is why Season 6 was paid for by Netflix and why Maul: Son of Dathomir was a comic
I love Star Wars Rebels and I’m not trying to knock the show at all, but the budgetary difference was palpable. Clone Wars did have it a little easier because of the Clone Troopers (all having the same face), but on Rebels, you notice that 90% of the Imperials are the same guy wearing a hat with his visor obscuring most of his face. market scenes show just a few people (but plenty of Storm Troopers)
the designs of the main characters -- Ezra, Hera, Sabine, Zeb, Kallus, Thrawn, Kanan, etc -- are great and loving and detailed and most of those change a little over time, but there’s a reason that we only see so many planets on Rebels. look at the huge armies and crowds in Rebels. my friend @drunkkenobi is the first who pointed out to me that in Clone Wars, you sometimes see lines of ships (Space Traffic) and each ship in line will be unique, distinct from the others
it’s not Rebels’ fault that they didn’t have that kind of budget. that’s also why their space battles (and space ships) never quite look right. meanwhile, for Clone Wars, if they wanted a particular scene or ship that went over their planned budget, all that they had to do was ask Uncle George
eccentric billionaires funding expensive media isn’t necessarily the most sustainable model for storytelling, but it sure worked out well for Clone Wars and for The Expanse
(Jeff Bezos personally called up the head of Amazon Prime programming, who had already been considering acquiring the extremely good but expensive show, and was like “hey the cast from this show is at a thing where I am, I’d love to just tell them that their show is saved, give me it?” and we saw as many new locations in Season 4 as we did in the first three seasons)
but streaming -- where you actually get money directly from customers who then, through their activity on your platform, show you exactly what they want to see aka what is keeping them on your platform -- offers a new opportunity for high quality genre media. remember, scifi and fantasy were EVERYWHERE in the ‘90s and the early aughts, and then because too expensive for regular TV unless they had huge audiences. only through streaming do we have these new Star Treks, The Witcher, and the real possibility of a new Stargate series
why do I bring up streaming? because
The Mandalorian goes to show that Disney can 100% do good Star Wars. Rebels was good, despite its budget, but can you imagine how much better it would have been if it had aired on Disney+
as with the DC movies (three of which are good and I’m also excited for Birds of Prey), the solution to the our-movies-made-a-lot-of-money-but-aren’t-strictly-speaking-good is literally just “let the people who do the cartoons make the movies”
and now we’re getting a final, seventh (half) season of Clone Wars! twelve episodes looking better than the show has ever looked!!
if you’re like me, you probably thought to yourself “gee, only 12?” and, cynically, you figured that it’s a trick -- announced at ComicCon in 2018 to build up the first wave of hype for Disney+
and it is ... but it 100% worked on me, I signed up for Disney+ and will pay anything for Clone War
my HOPE is that this is a test run to see if people really like high-quality animated Star Wars stories enough to continue with it. there’s only so much clone wars that one can cover (my suspicion is that we will see Ahsoka fake her death during Order 66 in these eps, so yep, that’s the end of the Clone Wars right there)
imagine a well-written series with everything that Clone Wars had in terms of content and visual quality, but it’s set after Episode IX. to my frustration, IX ends with effectively the same worldstate as VI which essentially means that nothing much happened in the Sequel Trilogy. but imagine a series set after IX. we could see a new set of (Force-wielding) characters. we could see Rey, Finn, Poe, and Rose during some episodes. Rose could finally get to do something that’s not an insulting fool’s errand (she deserves so much better!!!!!)
we don’t need a new Big Scary Empire/First Order thing, just organized crime and pirates and Hutts and bounty hunters and individual planet systems going to war as the characters try to assemble a NEW New Republic (gods I hate the unchanged worldstate)
now, I know that Star Wars Resistance is not ... reassuring. this is the only screencap that I have from it because I couldn’t get into it. it’s not the animation (I enjoyed Tron Uprising and Iron Man: Armored Adventures and this is the same kind of deal), but three things:
-I watch Star Wars for the Force primarily; other stuff can be cool but I need the Force
-I will never care about ships racing and really I don’t care about an individual ship flying; I’m a Command Ship kind of space nerd
-apparently the writing doesn’t improve much during the first season. people tell the main character to not do something, then he does it, and disaster ensues. that’s ... it’s fine, it’s fine to exist as a show, it’s just not for me
obviously, not all Star Wars media is for me, but when something -- like TLJ or the Sequel Series as a whole (even though VII and IX are enjoyable) or Resistance -- disappoints me, I would never accuse it of “ruining Star Wars”
Star Wars is a whole franchise. the breadth of canon isn’t all wiped away by some disappointments. was the MCU ruined by Age of Ultron? no. it was a bad movie but from the same franchise that gave us The Winter Soldier and Thor Ragnarok. hell, Dawn of Justice doesn’t “ruin” Wonder Woman or Aquaman or Shazam. bad movies aren’t contagious
for the past several years, the Entitled Dude crowd has felt empowered. they were radicalized in the altright/redpill/MGTOW/meninist/nazi/gamergate/comicsgate/etc spheres of the internet and now they just have a reflex where they see any sort of representation and decry it as “SJW,” which they also seem to think is a bad thing
in the same way that well-meaning people on tumblr can get radicalized into being antis/puriteens, people with certain vulnerabilities on reddit or youtube can get sucked into a world that tells them that they are the default and that other people existing is “political” in media and in real life, and that people being upset by outright cruelty towards them is both funny and means that the cruel person is the victor. they need therapy and studios need to not listen to them
unfortunately, sometimes there are movies that are bad despite having things like solid representation. Ghostbusters 2016 was a delight, but my friends and I with whom I saw TLJ (all of us queer feminists) left the theater angry. we’ve bitten our tongues a lot (even if it seems otherwise) because publicly criticizing the film too often leads some incel monster to chime in with agreement, and we’re just like
the redpillgate crowed et all is a natural ally of conservative white evangelicals, even though the former group is generally made up of New Atheists (the short version is atheists who hold socially conservative views because racism/misogyny/transphobia benefit them without using christianity as an excuse). it’s kind of like how terfs will side with conservative hate groups because, though they’re natural enemies, they both despite trans people just for existing
unfortunately, when you’re looking at who went to see a movie or who hated it, not everyone posts with an ID card saying exactly their demographic. which is only going to make studios like Disney even more nervous about including queer content in Star Wars and in the MCU (I mean real queer content with characters whose names don’t have to be searched on a wiki)
that was a bit of a tangent, but yeah. sorry if I missed anything
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do you write au's? if yes, could you please write debut-sf-author!magnus and big-fan!alec? before finishing his book magnus wrote inspirational tumblr posts&essays so thats where alec knew (and fell a lil bit in love with) magnus so now he goes to magnus' book launching event where magnus is supposed to sign and spread put some first copies but alec is clumsy af so when he gets there he runs into a bigass book stack and THAT surely gets magnus' attention magnus kinda softly screams to him 1/?
WHO ARE YOU then with a sigh he begins, i'm-- but alec cuts him off by going on a giant monologue beginning with "magnus bane" (as he thought magnus would continue) then describing everything he knows abt his life, ex-jobs and whatever else he knows. then after a long breath he barely whispers "i'm alec lightwood. um, sorry i mean alexander. but you can call me alec if you want. but you didnt come here for that; you probably want me out of here dont you" 2/6
then magnus says "i was gonna say im impressed at just how clumsy one can be" but alec "it doesnt usually happens, i swear! but i was so nervous abt meeting you that i made a disaster..." to all the other ppl who were there and kinda heard everythung they said, magnus "im sorry everyone but it looks like we're short about 50 copies, id say" he shoots a lil glare at alec but then he sees how miserable he feels while picking up books with bent covers and missing pages and his face softens 3/6
he doesnt give alec a definite answer abt staying or leaving immediately so while alecs picking up books magnus silently goes back to talking about the book and signing whatever books are left, ending the event much faster everyone but magnus and alec leave, so magnus helps alec at least put the books back even if he's internally crying at the mess "so, alexander, huh, you said?" magnus's trying to cheer them both up even tho alec feels like shit and magnus wants to kinda cry 4/6
they kinda begin talking while cleaning up the mess and magnus asks him abt alec's life "since you already know TOO much about mine" (to which they both laugh a little) alec starts talking abt himself and he kinda forgets that hes talking to his idol and begins seeing magnus as an actual human, so his nervousness is gone, which makes him quite charming to magnus after they finish magnus offers to take alec back home in his car but alec assures him he has a bike (he cares abt the world OK) 5/6
magnus observes hes never actually ridden a bike so maybe alec is actually something else than he first seemed so before alec can go and "get out of your head" (which is funny since his thoughts were kinda all abt this guy right here in front of him who seems to be like more than he shows to people) magnus tells him " i know this might seem a little inappropiate but im only at the beginning of my career so it probably doesnt matter that much... 6/6
First of all, thank you so much for waiting. Life has been pretty hecftic lately and I’m so sorry it took me so long to answer this. I hope you like it!
Alec could hardly contain his excitement. He was finally going to meet Magnus Bane. The Magnus Bane! Alec could tell by the amount of people in line that not a lot of people knew just how great Magnus was. The line was a decent length, but Magnus deserved so much more. He was releasing his debut novel today and Alec was thrilled when he found out that Magnus was going to be doing a book signing at the local bookstore.
He had discovered Magnus on Tumblr years ago, when he was first starting out as a blog. He would post these wonderful essays about loving yourself despite what society wanted you to think and how everyone should be proud of their sexuality. At the time, that was what Alec really needed. Only Izzy and Jace knew that he was gay and Magnus’s posts gave him the courage to come out to his parents. He knew that Magnus would never really know who he is, he just needed Magnus to know how much he has impacted his life.
That was one of the reasons why Alec was there. He wanted to thank him in person, also, Alec just adored his writing and had a little crush on his work.
Alec looked ahead, there were about five people ahead of him. It wouldn’t be too long before he would be able to meet Magnus.
Soon, he was next. The lady in front of him was just finishing up. He felt his heart flutter with excitement. The lady thanked Magnus and turned right into Alec. To get out of the way, Alec dodged her, failing to notice the stack of books right next to the table. His stomach dropped when he heard them all fall onto the floor. Mortified, Alec looked at Magnus, who stared back with his eyebrow raised.
“I’m--,” Magnus began.
“Magnus Bane,” Alec cut him off. He then scolded himself for interrupting him. “I’m sorry. I just really wanted to meet you. I started following you on Tumblr years ago when you were first started out and...well your blog meant, means a lot to me. We were a lot alike, from where we lived to the kind of people we surround ourselves with, our hobbies. When you made that post about being proud of being bi, it got me thinking. I wanted to be proud of who I was and to embrace it like you did. So I came out to my parents and my life has been so much better since. When I heard that you were doing your book signing here, I just really wanted to meet you, to thank you.”
Magnus stared at him with a blank expression on his face.
Alec sighed and said a lot quieter, “I’m Alexander Lightwood, but you can call me Alec. But you probably don’t care, especially after,” he gestured to the books on the floor. “I should leave, you probably want me out of here, don’t you?”
“Actually,” Magnus said. “I was going to say how impressed I was with how clumsy a single person can be.”
“I swear that doesn’t normally happen! I just was trying to get out of the way and wasn’t really paying a lot of attention because I was so excited to meet you!” Alec looked at the scattered books and started to pick them up. He just felt so bad, some now had bent corners and pages and dents in the covers.
“I’m sorry, everyone, but we now appear to be fifty copies short.” Alec caught Magnus’s stern look. It softened when he saw Alec trying to fix them. Alec gave him a small smile and continued to pick them up because Magnus didn’t tell him to stop or to leave. He felt so guilty for ruining the man’s day.
Magnus sat back at his table and resumed to sign the remaining books. Alec couldn’t help but overhear him talk to the people. He was so kind and genuinely seemed happy to talk to them. He was truly amazing. Too bad he ruined everything. He watched as some people had to leave because there were no more books, although they were promised new signed copies in the mail. By the time Alec was picking up the last book, Magnus squatted next to him.
“So, it’s Alexander, right?” He picked up a mangled sleeve. “Since you already seem to know about my life, why don’t you tell me about yours?”
Alec couldn’t help but chuckle at that. “It’s not that interesting, I’m working on my masters.”
“In what?”
“Business”
“Why that?”
“I don’t know, a part of me thinks that with that degree I would be able to help people.”
“That’s why I wanted to write, I wanted people to know that they’re not alone in this world and that there are people like them out there. I hope you know that it really did a lot to me when you told me how my writing has changed your life.”
Alec smiled at him, “Yeah, well, I wish it could have gone smoother.”
“Well, it made a rather dull day quite exciting. I hope you know that I’m not upset with you or anything. It wasn’t your fault.”
“Thanks, I was worried that you’d hate me,” Alec straightened himself up.
“I don’t think I could.”
Alec’s heart fluttered a little in his chest.
“Honestly I should probably be thanking you for ending it sooner, my day started with me spilling my coffee all over my expensive rug that I just bought. All day I have been thinking about how much I want to just drink tea and watch something on Netflix.”
“That’s me on most days,” Alec replied.
Magnus laughed, “That’s the good life.”
It was weird, it’s not like Alec thought that Magnus was some superior being. However, he never really thought about his life outside of his writing. To hear him talk about his bad day made Alec think more as Magnus the person rather than Magnus his idol.
They walked out of the shop together. “Where’s your car?” Magnus asked.
“I don’t drive.”
“Oh, well, I can drive you home.”
“No, it’s okay, I have a bike.”
There’s a look in Magnus’s eyes that Alec couldn’t decipher. It was almost a fond look. “I know this might seem a little inappropriate but im only at the beginning of my career so it probably doesn't matter that much but would you like to go out some time?”
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SO! i have been asked to give advice a couple times by a couple different writers in fandom who are cis and want to know how to/if it’s okay to write trans characters, so here’s my take and a few pieces of advice. it’s gonna be a little long lol
to answer the question “can cis writers write trans characters?”
Y E S
i would personally love it, and i know other trans people who would also love it, if more cis writers wrote trans characters. the only limitation that i’d ever put on this is to say that i wouldn’t want to see a cis writer writing about trans self-discovery or a Trans Journey bc... i mean... those are our stories to tell, y’know?
generally most of the trans people i know feel the same way. we want to see ourselves in stories, even if we’re not the main characters. we want to know that you see us and think us worth writing about. representation matters.
but if you’re writing a story about female friendship and you wanna make one of those women trans? please do bc we need more normalized representation. seeing these really intense Trans Journey stories is great, it is, but it feels one-note when it’s like.... practically the only thing we ever see.
wanna write a story about brotherhood and the bonds of found family and male friendship? make a dude trans! he’s a dude! who’s trans!
quick advice for writing trans men:
not all trans men bind. i don’t. i have a triple D chest, so yeah it’s kind of obvious that i have tits. with the full beard it can be a confusing look lmao. your trans male character doesn’t have to bind, and it doesn’t have to be bc he’s had top surgery, or because he’s flat chested. some of us just don’t want to have the damage done to our bodies that binding can and will do if done consistently enough for long enough.
not all trans men use packers, which are prosthetics made to give a bulge where trans guys don’t have one.
trans men can top lol. it isn’t just skinny cis women using strap-ons, and a guy can cum using a harness bc of where it sits. also, emotionally, that shit is fantastic (speaking from personal experience).
if you’re writing erotica, then be aware that some trans guys are okay with the word clit, some aren’t. this is more of a stylistic choice on the part of the writer, but if you’re using AFAB language for trans male genitals then make a note bc for some men that’s legitimately triggering. personally, i’m fine w/ my vagina, he’s a chill dude.
testosterone doesn’t make you taller, and it won’t make your character taller either lol. physical changes from T are increased muscle mass, changes in fat distribution on the body, voice drop, hairline receding around the temples, facial and body hair growth for some (takes 6+ months usually), clitoral growth, some men experience vaginal dryness some don’t, in the beginning there’s an increased sex drive which tends to even out once T levels are stable, since it’s basically a second puberty a lot of trans guys do get acne, hair can become coarser over time texture wise, and tends to thin
testosterone is administered via injection or with androgel which is topical, generally. if you want to write about a guy giving himself his T, then he’s probably on a weekly or bi-weekly injection schedule at home, or he’s using androgel which is daily and gets rubbed into the skin and has to dry fully. there’s no option right now to take testosterone orally that i know of. there’s also the option for a 3-month dose of testosterone to be given via injection, but it’s always done by a nurse and every trans guy i’ve talked to who’s had it has said they can’t even sit down for an hour afterward bc it’s injected into the ass and it hurts like a motherfucker. however it’s also only once every 3 months. personally i don’t mind my wee thigh shot lol.
if anyone has more specific questions for writing trans male characters send me an ask and i’ll be glad to help
full disclaimer that i’m not a trans woman, but here’s some advice for writing trans women based on what i’ve heard from them:
unlike with T, where trans men can basically just start T and begin the process of a testosterone-based puberty, trans women first have to go on T blockers so that their T levels drop to where they should be for a woman, then they go on estrogen, which is usually??? a pill (not dissimilar to birth control)
when trans women have been on estrogen for long enough they can have multiple orgasms like any other woman, which is a pretty nifty perk
loss of muscle mass is common
breast growth happens differently for everyone, but breasts become more sensitive and as they grow a lot of women can experience some tenderness, and if the chest is struck/prodded that tenderness can be painful. (as someone who naturally developed breasts as a teen, i remember fucking crying when someone hit me in chest once bc everything was so sensitive)
trans women have natural hormone cycles and can experience period-like symptoms! so yeah! a trans woman can wake up and be >:( and have mood swings!
the penis and balls will shrink over time on estrogen, some trans women stop getting hard, some don’t
some trans women tuck their penises, some don’t
trans women have to make the choice to raise their voices, as most of the effects of testosterone-based puberty cannot be reversed. T thickens the vocal chords, which is what makes a trans guy’s voice drop, but if a trans woman is transitioning after she’s experienced a full T-based puberty, her voice isn’t going to raise. a lot of trans women do vocal training to get used to talking in their head voice versus their chest voice. some even pick out like a celebrity or a character to emulate bc it’s a lot easier when you’ve got a goal to aim for.
facial hair generally doesn’t stop growing. the follicles being active doesn’t change when testosterone levels drop. hair growth can slow, but it’s probably not going to stop entirely without laser hair removal or electrolysis. same with body hair.
hair texture can change, though, and become softer over time
if any trans women followers want to add to this feel free :D
your character might not have IDs that match up w/ their identity. having your government docs changed can be a pain in the ass depending on where you live, and a lot of places require some kind of surgery as “proof” which is bullshit but... y’know, it happens.
big thing to remember: not all trans people want surgery. not all trans people fall into the gender binary. the way i define being trans is that your gender doesn’t match what you were assigned at birth. that’s it. i consider non-binary people transgender bc. y’know. they fucking are. not all of them want to ID that way or feel like they can, but if they do then i fully welcome them bc they’re my people.
i think cis writers can feel like it’s a taboo or a no-go to write trans characters bc “well what if i do it wrong” and i think it comes down to being really caught up in the fact that the character is trans, rather than them just being a trans character. like. here’s my day as an out, transitioning trans man:
i wake up between 6am and 7am, i dick around on my phone, i let my dogs out, feed them, have breakfast, go to work, eat lunch, work more, come home, eat dinner, dick around on my phone more, go to bed. repeat. my weekends consist of writing, primarily, and watching stuff on netflix. and every other sunday i give myself an injection of testosterone into my thigh. every couple months i see my endocrinologist and maybe have a blood test.
diabetics have a more rigorous schedule than i do, health-wise.
me being trans is part of who i am, a defining part even, but it’s not all i am. if someone were to write a story about my life and make it all about me being trans, they’d first be ignoring like... the first 25 years of my life, but also everything that happens to me in between these big transition milestones.
not everything with trans people is about being trans. sometimes it’s about being bored. or wanting to play video games.
on another personal note, some of the signs that i was trans weren’t very obvious. they make a lot of sense in hind sight (like when i was 4 and told my mom i was going to wear a suit to prom, or when i was 5 and told my dad that my husband was taking my last name bc that just seemed how shit should work to me) but at the time they were just these small, weird little quirks that no one saw as anything more.
in fandom a lot of our stories tend to veer toward the romantic or erotic, so let me just say that you don’t need to write about dysphoria or remark on the topic within the story. i know this is a sticking point for a lot of cis writers bc most of them haven’t experienced dysphoria so they don’t know how to write it. good news is you don’t have to, a trans person can be happy with their body, especially if they’re far enough along in their transition, and it can just be a smutty, smutty story about people fucking lol.
this is a really loose guide w/ very loose bits of advice and seriously if anyone ever wants to ask more specific questions or my opinion you can DM me or send an ask on or off anon and i’ll be glad to offer any help i can
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Worst Of You ( Tom Holland AU)
Disclaimer: THIS IS NOT GOING TO INCLUDE ANY SMUT. I also apologise for misspelling or if I've misused grammar etc.
Summary: Mr Holland is one of Englands many young bachelors. He is the current owner of the Family business that is Holland Enterprises. Y/N was looking for a job when a anons popped up in the morning papers. She was intrigued by the idea of working for a multimillionaire. She applied for the job and got. What would happen when Y/N steps a foot inside of Mr Holland’s life?
word count: 2024
Playlist
So give me your worst excuses, any reason to stay
Give me your lips, they taste of her, I'll kiss them again
i’d rather you walk all over me than walk away
Give me the worst of you
Y/N stood outside of Holland enterprises. She was holding her breath, nervous to what was to come.
Once she steps inside that building everything is going to change. Y/N looks around to see if their might be anyone else who’s freeing out. It doesn’t look like it, she was the only one. So she thought until a Raven haired female walks up to her. She has a huge smile on her face and put her hand out. Y/N takes out the left headphone and looks up at the unfamiliar face.
“Uhh, do I know you?” She asks, you never know who you might piss off. The girl chuckles and brings Y/N into a hug.
“No but you will. Y/N right?” Y/N nodded, still not sure weather or not she should run. Can’t say the thought haven’t crossed her mind.
“How exactly do you know my name?” The mysterious girl grabs Y/N ’s arm and starts to walk to the entrance.
“I’m Tabitha, I will be your first day guide”
“My first……” Y/N stops herself immediately understanding what’s going on.
“Yeah, and we pretty much need to hurry , Mr holland does not like to be kept waiting”
They both walk into the warm building. When you enter the building you will be greeted with a wooden smell. The lobby looked like a 6 star hotel lobby (is those even existed). There was some sort of water fountain in the middle of the room. The ceiling was covered in vintage victorian painting. There were business men running around in black or grey suit and tie’s. Everything seemed so impeccable, it was almost to hard to comprehend. Yanking Y/N out of her mental notes, Tabitha dragged her to the reception.
“Hey, Janice what’s up. How are the cats ?” Tabitha said, Janice didn’t looks as amused as her. Janice was the receptionist who looks like she could be in her late 40’s.
“Miss Williams, it's always a pleasure having you bother me” Janice keeps her eyes on the computer. Not even bothering to look up.
“Well, today is a special day Janice, Mr Holland has a new assistant” Tabitha explained. Janice looks up at Y/N before looking back at Tabitha. They both started chattering.
Y/N of course could not hear anything, she was to busy watching Mr Holland enter the building. He look troubled almost worried about something. He had a coffee stain on his suit ,walking in distress he was trying to get rid of it with a napkin. He looked up and gave Y/N a stern look. Her eyes follow him until he's out of sight.
"Y/N , hello you there" Tabitha waved a hand in front of Y/N. Y/N looks at Tabitha with a smile.
"He's a real beauty isn't he " Tabitha hands Y/N the office keys, and her staff id.
"Uh" Y/N asked as the walked down the hallway.
"Mr Holland, I saw you starring at him" Y/N's cheeks started to go red of embarrassment. Right now she wanted to be at home with her dog and Netflix.
Tabitha spent the next few minuets showing Y/N around, they are standing in front of a huge wooden door. The door leads to Mr Holland's office. Mr Holland was currently writing letters of recommendations to his interns.
"I heard once , that he fired on of his interns for not closing his door" Tabitha says, intimidation ran through Y/N 's mind.
They opened the door and stepped inside. As stated earlier Mr Holland sat by his desk writing his letters.
"What have I said about opening the door without permission" He spat? Both of the girl stood still, not even moving a muscle. He looks up once he realises he won't get an answer.
" Who the hell are you ?" Even though he was speaking to the both of them he only looked at Y/N.
" Uh, sir they instructed me to show your new assistant to your office" Tabitha speaks up. Mr Holland gives away small ' Humf ' before locking eyes with Y/N who was still silent.
" She mute or something?" he asks and Y/N scoffs.
" Well, then, you've delivered her, you may leave now " Mr Holland said . Tabitha hugs Y/N goodbye before walking out and closing the door.
Y/N let's out a sign and walks over to the table where Mr Holland is sitting.
"Sit" he orders and she does as she's told. Y/N looks around the office. The first things her eye spots in how big the office actually is. It's the size of a 1800s ballroom. Most of the walls were glass except this one are where there was a wooden wall, a meter high book shelf stood in front of it. His desk was medium sized mahogany wood. He didn't have much on his desk. The few things he did have was a built-in lamp , his coffee cup, some document and a photo of him and some woman. The woman looked like might have been around Y/N age, she might've even been older.
Behind the chair Y/N was sitting in there was a small grey 'cozy corner' sofa. The office would've been homier if she wasn't to distracted being afraid.
"Tell me , Miss..." Mr Holland paused and looked up at Y/N for name confirmation.
" Oh Miss Y/L/N "
"Well how come you wanted to work here?" Mr Holland goes back to his letters, not even bothered to look at the person he was talking to. Y/N cleared her voice , not sure what she should answer exactly.
“Yeah well, I saw the help wanted anons in the morning paper. figured , why not” Rubbing her hands against her thigh nervously. Y/N doesn’t get easily intimidated, but there was something about Mr Holland that made her nervous. He didn’t say ask her anything else.
“I suppose you know where your station is” Mr Holland said.
Y/N shakes her head and looks down at her feet. Mr Holland sights.
“Right outside those door, there’s a desk. That is where you’ll spend most of your time” He still wasn’t looking at her. Y/N turned her heal and walked out.
“So what , he barley paid any attention you whatsoever?” Tabitha asked. Y/N were on a twenty minuet break and had found Tabitha one her way out. The went to get coffee and went for a walk.
“Nope” Y/N answers. She presses her hands against the mug to warm her hands in the cold Autumn weather. Tabitha doesn’t ask anymore questions about Mr Holland. She came to the conclusion than it makes Y/N uncomfortable. They walk for a few more minuets when Tabitha spots the clock.
“Hey, when were you supposed to be back?”
“Holy shit I’m late” Y/N runs over to office. What if he fires her, what is he has to find another job that pays 80 dollars an hour. She enter’s the building and presses her id again the scanner. Y/n Speed-walked over to the office. All she could think about was how disappointed her mother would be if she got fired on her first day. She carefully opens the wooden door. Mr Holland hadn’t moved, he didn’t move. When Y/N entered the room he barley flinched or looked to see who it was. It’s almost like she was invisible to him.
“i called on you” he says. Y/N fiddles with her fingers, she doesn’t want to look him in the eyes. “i’m sorry” she whispered. Mr Holland stood up and walked over to Y/N, he stopped only inches away.
“i’m sorry , I couldn’t hear you” He moves in closer.
“ Uh, i’m sorry” Y/N raises her voice slightly and steps back a little. Mr Holland finds it cute how intimidating she finds him. His chuckle has a wicked tone. Mr Holland steps away from Y/N and walks back to his seat.
“ 2 hours “ He said.
“ 2 hours?” Y/N had no idea what he meant by two hours.
“You’ll stay 2 extra hours today as your punishment” he explains. Y/N doesn’t say anything, she walks back to her desk and closes the door behind her.
-few hours later-
“Miss y/l/n , could you please come in here” Y/N stands up and walked over to Mr Holland.
“yes, how may I be of your assistants?”
“Could you please cancel dinner with my mother I’ll be stuck here for a while, oh and get me some coffee?” Even if he used words like ‘please’ he still sounded unbothered and closed off. You could tell but the mountain of papers he was burring himself in. Tabitha told Y/n that Mr Holland rarely leaves his office unless it is to go see his wife. Which she assumes was the woman in the photograph. It’s sad actually, how he spends most of his time working instead of being out with friends. Who knows maybe he just doesn’t have any friends.
“well, stop starring and do as asked” He said and Y/n jumped. She nodded and walked back out. ��
Meanwhile Mr Holland was sitting behind his desk doing anything but work. He was on the phone with his best mate Harrison.
“Haz, there must be something we could do”
“sorry Tom nothing you can do, unless there’s a way for you to scratch up the money” Harrison informed his friend. In frustration Tom slammed his fist into his desk, in that moment Y/N appears with a cup of coffee in her hand. Tom looked at her, noticing little things he hadn’t noticed before. Like the way her hair lands perfectly on her shoulders.The way she bite the inside of her lips when she’s nervous. The was she stood there even affected him. She was beautiful there was no doubt about that. Something about her innocents that made him want her even more.
“Haz, I'll have to call you back” Tom hangs up on Harrison.
He places both of his palms on the desk and look at Y/N. He walks over to her again, standing as close to her as he did before. Like earlier Y/N moves back, but this time Tom stops her before she could.
“Tell me, is anyone special in your life” Tom asks her, Y/N blushes, shakes her head in response. Y/N hadn’t been dating for a long time. she’s been so busy with family and friends that relationships seemed out of the question.
“No one” he whispered and moved in closed.
“i-i should get back to my desk” She says and lightly shoves Tom out of the way. But before she leaves Tom grabs her by the wrist and slams his lips against hers. He places his arm around her waist and presses her body against his. They stood in that position in what felt like forever.
Y/n brakes way from the kiss and looks everywhere but into Tom’s brown eyes.
“i have to go”
“y/n” Tom said , still having her body closely pressed against his. She didn’t say anything but Tom knew she was listening.
“ No one can know “
A/N
I might post a second part because wow I just have so much for this story. Also I'm sorry for the cheesy- ness if this story and how bad it is lool . ok by now
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What the Cat Dragged In
I was TheWhitePumpkins‘s secret santa for the ff/kh Secret Santa! I hope you have a good holiday and you enjoy your piece!!
It was late when Axel got home from work. Letting himself in, he quickly shut the door behind himself, careful not to let Cactus, the dismissive tabby cat and roommate out. “I'm home.” He called out more for himself than the cat, how ever his call gained no response. Unusual, but the thought of the cat catching a few extra hours of sleep wouldn’t be unusual either. Toeing off his boots and dumping his bag onto the floor Axel scours the apartment looking for the fur ball. Not under the bed, not on the counter, not behind the couch and not on the window sill. He must have just found a new place to nap so Axel brushes it off, and prepares something to eat.
Its midnight when Axel’s jarred awake by a squeaking sound, he waits a few seconds, raking his brain for what it could be and when he realizes he has no idea, he grabs his phone off the bedside table, grabs a discarded belt off the floor and with shaking knees gets up and crosses the bedroom. Cactus runs past his feet and leaps onto the bed, ah there he was, the cats presence gives him a little more confidence going out into the house as now he has a friend to protect. He checks the house twice and nothing is out of place, when he returns to bed, Cactus is calm, curled up at the foot of the bed. Cats could sense danger right? If he was calm all must be fine. Axel climbs back under the covers, but he doesn’t sleep well that night.
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“Cactus?” He calls out, again out of places to look for the feline. There’s not a patter of paws, or sound for response. If that didn’t work, he only had one thing left to do. He prepared himself fish for dinner, Cactus would usually be nipping at his ankles for a bite. However when he had finished his plate, alone he started to get worried.
Its about a week later he realizes Cactus is getting larger. Which really contradicts the fact he hasn’t been eating much, and hes been hiding around the house avoiding playing with Axel. Its only late at night when he hears the squeak and his mind is racing that he puts two and two together and realizes, maybe, his cat is sneaking out.
The next day he calls into work and stays home to spy on his cat, a totally adult thing to do. But he missed his cat, and had no idea where he was disappearing to so Axel sets his laptop up in the living room and Skypes his phone. Its boring for the first few crack of dawn hours as Cactus meanders between sleep and general cat activities. When he leaves the scope of the laptop webcam he sighs and goes to fooling around on his phone. Its not much later that he hears a strange thumping sound. He gets up off his spot on the bed just as he hears the squeaking sound from the night and hes a running towards it. The kitchen. He grabs a belt he had now kept by his bed as he runs to ward off the intruder, instead he sees the bottom pane of the kitchen window slowly shutting. Its only in his confusion that he sees his, not so little anymore, cat now outside and pattering away from the house.
Axel completely changes gears and makes a run for the door. Needing to find out where his cat was going everyday he follows just at the edge of his vision. It’s a few streets down that Axel sees the cat climb a fence all too well and way too quickly that he rounds the block and starts slamming on the houses front door.
There’s no response and he knocks loudly again. Finally there’s an answer. Axel is all too steaming with rage to care or even take in who answers the door.
“You stole my fucking cat.” He spits as soon as the door is open. Hes rigid and leans into the stranger.
There’s a beat of silence as the stranger, quite a bit shorter than him, with confused, bewildered and scared deep sea blue eyes, dressed in some sort of band t shirt and some skinny jeans that hang off him and the most outrageously styled blonde hair stares up at him. “Marmalade?” He questions voice completely innocent.
“His name is Cactus and I saw him go into your backyard and I want him back”.
At the sound of his name the cat in question comes up to rub against the strangers leg. Immediately Axel bends his lengthy frame and hoists the cat to his own chest. The much shorter blond makes a noise of protest and this arms go out to try to grab the cat but they pull back.
The stranger looks disappointed but Axel doesn’t care, they should have known better.
“Can I at least say good bye? I just want to know hes being taken care of.” The blonde sad eyes plead with him as he begs.
“I am taking care of him just fine.” Axel curtly nods, turns on his heel and walks home.
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Cactus sits at the window and paws at it everyday crying. Axel has tried everything, feeding him better food, more attention if that was possible, and more toys, but the cat still cries, wont touch his food and leaves “surprises” all over the house.
Its with a bruised ego and a stone face that Axel goes back to the house that Cactus had been frequenting and knocks on the door.It takes a bit but the same guy from last time answers, looking less afraid but more uncaring, when he sees Axel however he gets confused.
“My cat misses you.” He admits and actually gets a good look at the person,
“I miss your cat.” It almost sounds like a question but with the amount of emotion in it Axel thinks it cant possibly be.
“I was thinking maybe,” he pauses to sigh “ he could come visit, every once and a while. “
“Yeah!” Its obvious the guy realized she sounded a little too excited. “Id like that.” He adds and he sees the blond smile for the first time and despite his bitter mood he cant help but smile too. “Roxas.” The man smiles and reaches out his hand to Axel.
“Axel.” He replies and shakes his hand.
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When Axel brings Cactus over to the Roxas characters house he realizes Cactus likes Roxas much more than him, and realizes the punkish exterior he exudes disappears around the cat .At first Axel keeps up the standoffish front but as the Thursday nights at 6:30 start to build up the dam starts to wear down.
He learns that the blonde was 3 years younger, and had just moved into town around the time saying he needed a new start. He was lonely but couldn't afford a cat, so when “Marmalade” paid him visits he took him in without question. And as much as Axel hated to admit it, he looked forward to the Thursday night play dates and talking with Roxas. He invited him out to a coffee shop to show him to at least the towns market so the poor guy could get out of his house, which he didn't seem to do.
He asks at one of the play dates mockingly if his girlfriend gets jealous when he comes over, and all too bluntly the blond replies that his late boyfriend would have thrown a fit. Axel picks up on it only after thinking it over twice and there's a slight pause. “ I moved away from my old boyfriend, we broke up and I needed something fresh. I needed a town a people who weren't filled with darkness.” Making eye contact has now filled their conversations and play dates rather than communally staring at the cat, but this time Roxas’ eyes are sober, serious and cold. “Im gay. If that's a problem, you're free to leave. “ The first part is quieter, but the later is firm and it seems so practiced Axels heart almost breaks. He’d enjoyed spending time with the guy, hell he had started texting with him about stuff other than their cat.
“Guess my gaydars broken.” Axel shrugs and Roxas slowly unfreezes from his resolve as he pieces together what he means.
“You're-?” Roxas asks, almost shocked.
“A homosexual.” Axel nods in a feign way as if taking in some new scientific discovery. He reaches over to pet the cat who is batting at a toy on a string Roxas is dangling. He can see the blond give a genuine, warming smile and he thinks he finally understands.
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Axel takes Roxas under his wing. They spend time together, their regular cat play dates for about another month turn, the real motive usually being to hang out, side motive so Cactus/Marmalade can bask in both of their presences. There’s friendly texting, things that aren't cat updates or pics of what the tabby had gotten himself into. It isn't until they start meeting at Axel’s house and more outside, sans cat that things start to get, romantic. There’s never really a point where they realize they’ve decided to date. Axel just zones out one day, arm around his blond boyfriend, Cactalade as Roxas started dubbing him laying with his head on Roxas’ lap and his body on Axel’s while they binge watch Netflix that Axel realizes having two separate houses, really isn't necessary. Its a financial burden, and when the other leaves for the odd day a week they text each other nonstop. They've already started sharing financial responsibility for the cat, so really he thinks there cant be much else left, hes sure Roxas would pipe in there's a lot of differences but hes excited for them, and hes sure Roxas will happy shove each new difference in his face as the come up.
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Kevin Costner’s “Highwaymen”: A plateful of fascism, racism on the side
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Kevin Costner? Kevin “Dances With Wolves” Costner, who defended the Lakota against the genocidal white patriarchy? Kevin “Robin Hood: Prince of Thieves” Costner, who was, you know, the prince of thieves, and defied the, you know, genocidal white patriarchy? That Kevin Costner is a fascist?
Damn straight, dude. Big Daddy Kev has had with these kids, who are, it seems, nothing but a bunch of damn murderer-worshippin’ hippies, brainwashed by the damn media into turning their backs on everything that’s decent, wholesome, and capitalist in American life. It’s time to whup some sense into their damn heads, or maybe just damn kill ‘em, because, come to think of it, that would solve the problem pretty damn quick.
That seems to be the message of Kevin’s latest, Highwaymen, done for the small screen and available on Netflix. Highwaymen didn’t seem to get much press when it premiered a couple of weeks ago, either pro or con, but, as a retelling—and, basically, a point-by-point rebuttal—of Warren Beatty’s neo nouvelle vague masterpiece, Bonnie & Clyde, which hit the American movie-going public like a bomb back in 1967, made Pauline Kael famous, and (so I said in my review) allowed American movies to go up once and for all, it certainly makes a statement, which I am going to disagree with, at length.
Maybe Kevin Costner, who was all of twelve when B&C came out, couldn’t understand why Warren “Pretty Boy” Beatty was getting all his press, or maybe Kevin is just souring with age, or maybe Trumpism is catching—which God forbid—but, whatever the reason, it’s clear that Kevin decided that, 50 years after the fact, it was time to take 82-year-old Pretty Boy down a peg. Surely few films—particularly one of such expense and quality—have been so closely crafted to “refute” an earlier film. Highwaymen scarcely makes “sense” if not viewed with constant awareness of Bonnie & Clyde.1
The film is visually very well made, like Bonnie & Clyde working very hard to convey the harshness of Depression-Era Texas. The film opens by showing us an old timey car pulling up in a field and a dainty gal, obviously Bonnie because she’s packing a tommy gun,2 firing it into the air as a signal for jail break (actually a “prison fam break”) that she and Clyde are apparently coordinating. She’s deliberately shown to us in a long shot, letting us know that (probably) we won’t be getting a real look at either Bonnie or Clyde until the end, rather like Mrs. Bates in Psycho.
Afterwards, we cut to the offices of the Texas governor—canny, soulless “Ma” Ferguson (Kathy Bates). Ma’s a fraud, like all politicians, all image and no substance. She’s taking heat from the press for all this Bonnie & Clyde stuff, and it’s time to find someone to blame for her own incompetence, time to pull “legendary” Texas Ranger Frank Hamer out of retirement. Ma shut down the Rangers for some unspecified reason, but, since she’s a chick, you can bet it was some kind of chickenshit chick shit, like some little Missy got her little nose all out of joint because some dude might have given her ass a little pat. If it’s not for sale don’t advertise, sweetheart! Yeah, the gals always be whinin’, but when there’s a real job to be done, all of a sudden they’ve got to find a real man to do it.
And Frank, well, he’s a real man, living large and in charge, got a big house and fancy young society wife to run it for him. He sure don’t need no job, and no need to do Ma no favors, but Bonnie and Clyde, they’ve been killing peace officers. It’s a job that’s got to be done, and a real man don’t quit till the job’s done.
Frank sets off in the fancy new Lincoln he just gave his wife, a car whose elegant lines will be featured over and over again in the film, with near fetish-like devotion, seemingly a compulsive echo of all the gleaming thirties roadsters that Bonnie and Clyde pilfer in Beatty’s film, though none of them, I think, were luxury models like Frank’s Lincoln.3
Once Frank’s got the car, he needs a companion, and he finds one in fellow dinosaur Maney Gault (Woody Harrelson). Maney don’t look like much, and he has to pee a lot (which, when you come to think about it, is pretty damn funny), but Frank, he’s looking for guts, not glamor, and Maney’s got the real stuff in his belly.
And so off they go, taking shit from all kinds of snot-nosed fancy-pants kids in the state police and even the FBI. They got airplanes and shit, they can even listen to your telephone conversations and you can’t do anything about it! How scary is that!4
Frank and Maney, they don’t have nothin’, nothin’ but smarts, smarts and a whole shitload of automatic weapons that Frank buys, in a wet-dream gun lovers’ sequence—surely ten thousand dollars of cargo or more, practically none of which is actually used in the film.5 I would be very unsurprised to learn that Costner is a gun lover and has all of these items in his collection, weapons that he probably enjoys hefting and then throwing at his guests. What’s the matter, sissy boy? Can’t handle a piece?
For most of the rest of the film, Frank and Maney just drive around in their shiny new Lincoln, Frank raining contempt on all the punk kids in the FBI, the damn newspapers, and damn general public for making heroes out of a pair of murderous brats, while Maney has to take a leak every ten minutes. (Okay, that part’s funny.) At one point, Maney almost gets a shot at Clyde, but then he’s mobbed all these damn broads, like he’s a celebrity or something, before Maney can pull the trigger.
The film goes to absurd lengths to make Bonnie, who was not a very nice person, not merely a hardened criminal but, well, a sadistic, castrating bitch. At one point, Hamer “deduces”, from footprints at a crime scene, that Bonnie wounded a policeman, then rolled him over with her foot in order to force him to watch before she blew his brains out. But we are both told and shown that Bonnie is tiny (90 pounds) and walks with a limp.6 I’ll bet Kevin Costner couldn’t roll a 90-pound woman over with his foot, much less a 200-pound man. Women issues much, Kevin?
Finally, Frank gets a solid lead, beating the crap out of some punk to find out what Bonnie and Clyde are up to, because beating the crap out of people is pretty much the best solution to any law enforcement problem. He learns that the Barrow gang is headed to Louisiana to hole up with the father of one of the gang. Frank makes a deal with the father, as happened in real life and the Beatty film, arranging for an ambush. None of this fair play bullshit for him! He also insists that a young deputy come along with them to identify Clyde, setting up a ludicrous (and fraudulent) finale to teach the kid and the audience about “real life”—from real life actor Kevin Costner.
Naturally, the kid, being a kid, is a little squeamish about the prospect of seeing two people shot to pieces from ambush, so Maney has to explain the facts of life to the kid. (Many rather than Frank, because Frank is more or less a god, and gods don’t explain themselves. If they did, they’d lose caste.)
Maney tells the kid a story about when he was a young Texas Ranger. The Rangers have located a huge gang of Mexican desperados, but when they try to arrest them, announcing “Manos arribos” (or something like that, meaning “Hands up!”), well, instead of putting up their hands, the Mexicans start shooting. Day after day, it goes on like this, the Rangers losing a man or two every day until Frank shows up. No more “manos arribos”, motherfucker! We shoot first, and we shoot to kill! And that’s how it goes down, and Maney even blows away this innocent, unarmed, fifteen-year-old kid, who just wanted to escape, putting six slugs in the little fucker. Cause that’s what a man does! Adios, muchacho!
Uh, really? If a gang shoots a cop, the cops will come back time and time again, trying to arrest the gang peacefully? Really? They needed Frank Hamer to tell them they were doing it wrong? And, why, exactly, did Maney have to put six slugs in a non-combatant? Is this like one of those “Kill ‘em all, Let God sort ‘em out” tee-shirts you get at a gun show? In fact, of course, they didn’t need to have the kid come along in the first place. Maney knows what Clyde looks like, and was going to drop him earlier, if only he could have gotten a clean shot. The kid’s just a lazy plot device.
But the kicker comes when Frank, Maney, the kid, a couple of local police finally ambush Bonnie and Clyde, because it isn’t an ambush. Frank steps out in front of the car and gives the two a chance to surrender, just what Maney just told us ls what pussies do, and is why pussies never get the job done. Yeah, Kevin Costner wants to give us this hard-ass “moral”, that civilization depends on the occasional cold-blooded murder. But, at the same time, he wants the audience to like him. What a coward.
When I saw the 1998 Gus Van Sant shot for shot remake of Alfred Hitchcock’s Psycho (1960), I walked out of theater thinking “Now he should remake it again, except this time showing us everything that Hitchcock didn’t show us!” Dunno if it would work, but maybe. ↩︎
Tommy guns, with their drum magazines, though (I’ve read, though Wikipedia says different) they often did not work very well and were not often used, were a legendary symbol of gang violence. When I was a small boy, the conclusion of the visitor’s tour of the FBI was a demonstration of a tommy gun in a special shooting range in the basement, though I don’t know if FBI agents ever used one in a fire fight. In those days the FBI had a fairly low-key building across the street from the Department of the Interior, which a had very low-budget aquarium open to the public. You could see a guy shoot up a target with a tommy gun and then walk across the street and look at the two-headed turtle (for real). ↩︎
In my original review of B&C, I remarked that all of the cars Bonnie and Clyde steal are in sparkling condition, with gleaming chrome and, often, two-tone paint jobs—just what you wouldn’t find in East Texas during the Great Depression. Beatty starred in Splendor in the Grass (1961), featuring all the polished roadsters that director Elia Kazan didn’t get to drive while working his way through Williams College back in the day. Many film directors, ranging from Jean-Luc Godard to Steven Spielberg, compulsively feature in their films the cars they didn’t get to drive when they were young. ���︎
In the thirties, every phone call was individually placed by an operator, who could listen in if she wanted to (all telephone operators were women), though of course they weren’t supposed to. Furthermore, in rural areas, if there were phones at all, houses were connected on “party lines”. Anyone on your line could listen to your call. ↩︎
If you’re wondering, Bonnie and Clyde were killed before the National Firearms Act of 1934 was signed into law, a law that, in any event, simply put a tax on automatic weapons, so that only respectable people could buy them. ↩︎
The real Bonnie Parker, by the time of the events in the film, could not walk unassisted, after suffering third-degree burns on her leg during an automobile accident. ↩︎
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lol binch if I did it you do too, 1-100
lmaoooo spiteful, but whatevs, also mine are gonna be more boring sorry.
1: Is there a boy/girl in your life? Nope!
2: Think of the last person who hurt you; do you forgive them?
Yes in the sense that they’re in my life and I love them but I guess not fully in the sense that I’ll still feel upset sometimes.
3: What do you think of when you hear the word “meow?”
I think of cats. Like what
4: What’s something you really want right now?
To be comfy with my body so I don’t have to stress about it over the summer
5: Are you afraid of falling in love?
No, I’m more afraid of not falling in love (sorry for how fake deep that sounds but for real)
6: Do you like the beach?
Very much, it will be my main habitat over the summer hopefully
7: Have you ever slept on a couch with someone else?
Yes, at like sleepovers, with their feet in my face. Romantic haha
8: What’s the background on your cell?
Amber, it makes me homesick but I like it anyways
9: Name the last four beds you were sat on?
Mine in college, mine at home, Tu’s, and emme’s
10: Do you like your phone?
I’m very indifferent about it
11: Honestly, are things going the way you planned?
No not really, I’m very okay with it but sometimes I feel like more is expected from me and it stresses me out.
12: Who was the last person whose phone number you added to your contacts?
My chemistry lab partner sophie’s
13: Would you rather have a poodle or a Rottweiler?
Neither are my fav breed but I knew a really friendly cute rottweiler when i was a kid so that probably
14: Which hurts the most, physical or emotional pain?
As someone who is overly emotional I’d say emotional pain but I’ve never been through a physical pain that has lasted beyond a dull ache.
15: Would you rather visit a zoo or an art museum?
I’ve never been to an art museum so I’d love to go to one for the experience but a zoo is a guaranteed good time
16: Are you tired?
Mentally yes, but I can’t physically fall asleep haha
17: How long have you known your 1st phone contact?
Alex Raydan, I’ve known him since 1st grade
18: Are they a relative?
Nope
19: Would you ever consider getting back together with any of your exes?
Nah
20: When did you last talk to the last person you shared a kiss with?
tonight
21: If you knew you had the right person, would you marry them today?
I don’t think it would be necessary, but if you could guarantee they were the person I’d want to be with all my life, then yeah I suppose
22: Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
Maybe in the right context
23: How many bracelets do you have on your wrists right now?
I have one hair tie on each wrist for balance, does that count
24: Is there a certain quote you live by?
“Don’t get mad. Don’t get even. Do better. Much better. Become so engulfed in your own success you forget it ever happened.” lmao literally just a quote I found on tumblr but I like it a lot and it makes me feel stronger so
25: What’s on your mind?
u kno I’m plannin my summer aesthetic 24/7
26: Do you have any tattoos?
No, hoping to get some soon
27: What is your favorite color?
Deep green
28: Next time you will kiss someone on the lips?
I have no idea haha, hopefully over the summer but no guarantees lmao
29: Who are you texting?
No one at the moment
30: Think to the last person you kissed, have you ever kissed them on a couch?
yes
31: Have you ever had the feeling something bad was going to happen and you were right?
yes
32: Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to?
yes, i feel pretty comfy talking to michael, darious and zany. Gettin more comfy with vincent and tu now as well
33: Do you think anyone has feelings for you?
Not particularly
34: Has anyone ever told you you have pretty eyes?
Yes, it’s always very appreciated
35: Say the last person you kissed was kissing someone right in front of you?
I’d be pretty weirded out and wish they would stop lmao
36: Were you single on Valentines Day?
Yessss
37: Are you friends with the last person you kissed?
Yes, i am
38: What do your friends call you?
Binch, dude, bb, bbygirl, aside from the typical just Nikki
39: Has anyone upset you in the last week?
Yes, but my bar for getting upset is pretty low oops
40: Have you ever cried over a text?
Yeah haha I have most of my serious conversations over text cuz I’m a lil bitch
41: Where’s your last bruise located?
Right in the center of my chest
42: What is it from?
Bra was too tight and pressed into my chest
43: Last time you wanted to be away from somewhere really bad?
Physics lecture last Tuesday when I was running on 3 hrs of sleep
44: Who was the last person you were on the phone with?
My mom
45: Do you have a favourite pair of shoes?
Yep, white sneakers
46: Do you wear hats if your having a bad hair day?
No I look considerably worse in hats
47: Would you ever go bald if it was the style?
Probably not I like my hair a lot
48: Do you make supper for your family?
No but my mom deserves it lol so I should try
49: Does your bedroom have a door?
Yes haha
50: Top 3 web-pages?
tumblr, netflix, hulu
51: Do you know anyone who hates shopping?
my mom and dad both hate it
52: Does anything on your body hurt?
Yeah I worked out yesterday so my thighs and stomach hurt
53: Are goodbyes hard for you?
Extremely, I always build them up in my head so I’m always a little underwhelmed and unsatisfied when I leave
54: What was the last beverage you spilled on yourself?
water
55: How is your hair?
It’s okay, I really need to get it cut, it’s lacking any style lmao
56: What do you usually do first in the morning?
Brushing my teeth is always first
57: Do you think two people can last forever?
Yeah I think so, but I think it involves a lot of compromise and effort
58: Think back to January 2007, were you single? hahaha yes
59: Green or purple grapes? purple for sure, the darker the better
60: When’s the next time you will give someone a BIG hug?
Probably june 15th when I say goodbye to my roommates for the summer
61: Do you wish you were somewhere else right now?
Yes, I wish I were home
62: When will be the next time you text someone?
Probably tomorrow afternoon
63: Where will you be 5 hours from now?
Sleppin
64: What were you doing at 8 this morning.
Sleppin
65: This time last year, can you remember who you liked?
Kyle
66: Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile?
Tommy melts my heart he’s precious, same with Charlotte
67: Did you kiss or hug anyone today?
no kissing, and I’m pretty sure no hugging either
68: What was your last thought before you went to bed last night?
lmao “why is no one responding to me”
69: Have you ever tried your hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end?
Yes maybe once or twice, but usually I’ve gotten what I’ve wanted out of situations so go me
70: How many windows are open on your computer?
4
71: How many fingers do you have?
all of them thankfully
72: What is your ringtone?
the default
73: How old will you be in 5 months?
Still 19 haha
74: Where is your Mum right now?
In vista CA no one try to find her and kill her pls
75: Why aren’t you with the person you were first in love with or almost in love?
Just wasn’t right I guess
76: Have you held hands with somebody in the past three days?
No I have not
77: Are you friends with the people you were friends with two years ago?
Yes!
78: Do you remember who you had a crush on in year 7?
Brody Barnhill
79: Is there anyone you know with the name Mike?
Pipe down Mike
80: Have you ever fallen asleep in someones arms?
Nooope
81: How many people have you liked in the past three months?
I have very fleeting interests in college, but people I’ve liked for more than a few days would be zero haha
82: Has anyone seen you in your underwear in the last 3 days?
Emme and tracy are constantly seeing me in my underwear
83: Will you talk to the person you like tonight?
Nope
84: You’re drunk and yelling at hot guys/girls out of your car window, you’re with?
Kelsey and Amber probably and both of them are telling me to fucking stop
85: If your BF/GF was into drugs would you care?
Yeah, if it was habitual use
86: What was the most eventful thing that happened last time you went to see a movie?
I almost wasn’t allowed to see Baywatch because I didn’t think it was rated R and apparently I do not look 17 and my college ID wasn’t proof enough that I was at least 18 lmao
87: Who was your last received call from?
Me mum
88: If someone gave you $1,000 to burn a butterfly over a candle, would you?
Yes
89: What is something you wish you had more of?
Money and motivation lmao
90: Have you ever trusted someone too much?
Perhaps, but it’s never been to much of an issue, just embarrassing for me sometimes
91: Do you sleep with your window open?
Yes it gets very hot in this room
92: Do you get along with girls?
Pretty much 100% of the time
93: Are you keeping a secret from someone who needs to know the truth?
Nope
94: Does sex mean love?
Nope
95: You’re locked in a room with the last person you kissed, is that a problem?
Nah, maybe a little boring after a while but that’s all
96: Have you ever kissed anyone with a lip ring?
No, I don’t know how I’d feel about it, I feel like I’d be afraid of pulling it somehow
97: Did you sleep alone this week?
All the time haha
98: Everybody has somebody that makes them happy, do you?
Yes, I do haha
99: Do you believe in love at first sight?
Not particularly, it sounds nice tho
100: Who was the last person that you pinky promise?
I think emme, she likes that kind of stuff
Hope this made you feel better Michael lmao
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for the get to know the blogger thing: even numbers in the 130 range
OH Boy, this is gunna be a long one
2. What is your favorite piece of clothing you own / owned?
I have a shirt of a lady wearing a panda mask, it looks really nice and im actually wearing it right now ahaha, also really like my star wars X-Wing hoodie :D4. What does your perfect room look like?
Im not really sure tbh, although it would be nice if there was a little more space and better lighting than my room has. Would love to get some small plants and stuff and some owl related cushions or something6. What fictional place would you like to visit?
Would be interesting to visit Dunwall from Dishonored or one of the many planets in Star Wars, would love to go see a Podrace or something!8. When was the last time you climbed a tree?
2014, its the same time i fell out of a tree and broke my collarbone ahaha10. What is the most annoying habit that you or other people have?
I check my phone way too much which is kinda annoying to me, although my dad gets really annoyed that i bounce my legs ahaha12. What skill would you like to master?
It would be rad to master a language (Although im on my way to that) or maybe my skating or art14. If you had unlimited funds to build a house to live on for the rest of your life, what would the finished house look like?
Honestly i would probably just buy a cozy apartment and get a cat or something, ive never really thought about such before16. What state or country do you never want to go back to?Havent actually got anywhere i would never want to go back to yet 18. What game or movie universe would you like to live in?
As cool as the Metro games are, not that one ahaha. maybe the world of Star Trek or something :D20. Are you usually early or late?
Im usually quite early tbh 22. When people come to you for help, what do they usually need help with?
Not really sure tbh, i cant remember, although people occasionally ask me about assignments or such so there that24. What do you wish you knew more about?
Well cos im finding programming a tad tricky at uni, i would say that, but tbh i would love to know more about astrophysics or anything related to rocketry and piloting !26. What are some small things that make your day better?
A cup of tea in my favourite mug, someone complimenting how i look, my dog saying hi when i get home 28. What’s the best way to start the day?
By slamming my face into the pillow and going back to sleep ahaha, nah i think a relaxed morning with some tea and a nice breakfast or something
30. What TV channel doesn’t exist but really should?
Would be cool to have a channel for all the space exploration stuff, lunno if it would be widely popular or not but i would love to see such 32. What age do you wish you could stay at permanently?
Im not really sure tbh 34. What’s your ideal way to spend a weekend?
My ideal weekend is to laze about at home and play videogames, bake some stuff or work on some art. I just feel really comfy at home so being able to relax at home all weekend sounds ideal to me36. What is your claim to fame?
Im not really sure if i have one?38. What’s your favorite book or movie genre?
I really dig science fiction, although with movies i also like the action genre :D40. What have you only recently formed an opinion about?42. What subject interests you that not many people have heard of?
I couldnt think of anything people havent really heard of but i really enjoy reading about early nasa, so stuff like the Mercury, Gemini and Apollo programs44. What’s the best book series or TV series you’ve ever read or watched?
I think at the moment, the best Tv series for me is Band of Brothers46. What’s the most heartwarming thing you’ve ever seen?
Those videos of people meeting family or friends in the airport that live really far away, everyone is so happy in those and its really nice :D48. What could you give a 40-minute presentation on with no preparation?
I could probably give a presentation on ww2 or the moon missions, not 100% accurate or super detailed but yeah, well that or the Lore of various games and movies i like50. What is something you think everyone should do at least once in their lives?
Travel, just seeing somewhere new, the journey and exploration involved, its really cool :D52. What’s your dream car?absolutely no clue54. What is something a ton of people are obsessed with, but you just don’t get?
Game of Thrones, that new show on netflix56. Where is the most interesting place you’ve been?When i lived in England i went to the transport museum and also the various imperial war museums, those were absolutely fantastic. Over here in straya though? probably the top of sydney harbour bridge, that was pretty gnarly58. What is the best thing that happened to you last week?
Well i just got my grade back for my programming assignment and i got 70% :D60. If all jobs had the same pay rate and hours, what job would you want to have?
Im not sure, although at the moment im studying game design at uni so i would probably go for that anyway ahaAlthough if there was an opportunity it would be cool to become an astronaut or ww2 historian62. How different was your life 1 year ago?
Well i couldnt ice skate, i wasnt doing a degree, i think i was in somewhat crappier state than i am now. But things have been improving over the last few years :)64. What would you rate 10/10?
Ahh im not good at rating or ranking anything, i guess the new star wars? (Rogue one)66. What is the most interesting piece of art you’ve seen?
Im not really sure, i dont think ive been to see art in ages, although i really like the art my friend @echey does! its super awesome stuff!68. What do you hope never changes?
My ability to find good in a bad situation70. What movie title best describes your life?I cant even think of one tbh72. What’s the best way a person can spend their time?Just do what you enjoy i guess74. Where is the most relaxing place you’ve ever been?
Botanical gardens in adelaide are really nice, dont go there too often but theyre relaxing as heck76. Where would you rather be from?
As much as i talk shit about england, i dont think id want to be from anywhere else78. What do you look forward to in the next 6 months?New alien movie, end of first semester, turn 20 next month, Dunkirk movie, lots of cool stuff :D80. What one thing do you really want but can’t afford?Either a trip overseas or all those games that i have on my wishlist rn82. Where would you spend all your time if you could?Im not sure tbh, i guess anywhere i feel comfortable?84. What age do you want to live to?ahh thats a tough one, i guess in my 20′s? 86. What are you absolutely determined to do?
Get through my degree and get a job in my chosen field88. What do you wish you knew more about?theres so much i wish i knew more about ;-;90. What question can you ask to find out the most about a person??? iunno dude92. What’s the best compliment you’ve ever received?iunno? any compliment is nice to me :D94. Who inspires you to be better?nothing comes to mind but im sure theres someone :/96. What haven’t you grown out of?my favourite tshirt ahaha 98. What’s the dumbest thing you’ve done that actually turned out pretty well?no bloody clue but im sure it was absolutely stupid aha100. What’s something you will never do again?climb a tree and break my collarbone102. What keeps you up at night?my messed up sleep schedule mainly, although those weird night time depressed moods get ya too 104. What is the most illegal thing you’ve ever done?probably underage drinking106. What are you afraid people see when they look at you?a worthless shithead108. What do you look down on people for?being absolute wankers, although in my degree the thing i really look down on is those people that are like “How did you not get that? its easy!” or generally act like a know it all and give you shit over coding, like chill out lads and help each other110. What lie do you tell most often?im fine, im not tired, im used to it, ill be fine, couldnt think of one so heres the top ones i can think off112. What is the best & worst thing about getting older?Can buy what you want, but worst thing is that the older you get, the more youre looked down on for being unemployed114. If you had a personal flag, what would be on it?probably a kickass dragon!!116. What is the biggest lesson you’ve learned?
Don’t procrastinate/ set your deadline a day or two early and start early so if you do procrastinate, it would fuck you up as bad118. What are you famous for among your friends & family?I think with friends im mostly famous for random history (Mainly ww2) facts and at home im mostly known for my shitty humour i think ahaha120. What one responsibility do you wish you didn’t have?122. What do you want to tell your 10-year-old self?Don’t give a shit about what others might think, just do what makes you happy and be how you feel you should124. What’s the best thing about you?My terrible humour, my optimism 126. Have you ever saved someone’s life?Who knows?128. What would a mirror opposite of you look like?Like a reverse image of me? nah ahaha probably a massive asshole, but at the same time theyre probably putting them self first and their happiness so iunno130. Which of your scars has the best story behind it?Got a massive scar over my right collarbone, had to get surgery on it when i broke it and so now ive got a metal plate in my body aha
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today i was voluntold to participate in a COMBAT LIFE SAVER coarse.. in the event of a emergency i am qualified to save someones life...
its from 0900- UTC...
i go the good news(sarcasm), last night at 2000...
I then announced i would draw anything for anyone on just about everything IF they take my place in the class..
...well not everyone raised their hand at once.
salty faced, they asked me why dont i want to go?
"because in the morning i talk to my girlfriend... i would rather talk to her then be with more dudes.."
didnt make a difference...
I sat there for a bit watching wonder years day dreaming until i got up and went to the back..
didnt bother to shower.. i undressed and sent you a text letting you know im in bed, hoping your up to talk or w.e
i then check my fb and twitter like theres anything to check or anyone sent me a msg at all.. i just really check to see your thoughts or what your doing.
i then nvm it all when i see an update, deep sigh and wait till netflix to load up twilight zone...
watch it for a bit, i got it minimized and your msgr up just incase you text me i would see it... i fall asleep. the time was 1040
i dreamt about my grandmother last night..
a sudden wake up to thinking it was 2 am, realizing i was only asleep for a hour..
i move the mouse to turn the screen on, checking if you texted me yet..
i call, text... w.e we had our argument..
i fall asleep not feeling any better. its 130 in the am..
waking up at 6, move the mouse to see if you texted me... and i just lay there
staring at the ceiling, "man i dont want to get out of bed today.."
i close my eyes forcin myself to sleep, alot of "what ifs" going through my mind, i cant help but be awake.
laying there, okay ****... its 7 now, lets just get out of bed, shower... put on a new uniform and start a healthy day..
be strong, its okay.. she'll text you when she misses you, give her time.. she will miss you; it will be okay.. just get up.
i cant help but touch the mouse pad and turn the screen back on.. damnit... why did i do that?
i look through your pictures saved, every one of them..
i try to touch myself maybe i just need to have sex, im sexual frustrated... didnt even work. fuck it, fuck this desert.
rolling out of bed at 730.. i go shower...
i must of been in the shower for an hr i thought, letting the water run... it was only 20 mins..
i shave, brush my teeth, comb my hair and go back to the room..
place the soaps and towel away, rub the mouse pad to check..
then get ready... iv had this one acu uniform which fits me just right, gives me the perfect slim shape; not to baggy..
its pressed and everything is new on it, i was saving it for leave in october when i go home in uniform i looked decent, trying to impress you i guess.
im not going home in october, so i say wht the heck.. i need something to boost my moral.
i look in the mirror, my eyes look a mess... like iv havnt been getting rest and stress... dark shadowed eyes. real heavy.
i brush the hair out my face and go on my way.
jesus comes in and says hey you going to chow?
lets go, i grab my weapon and go.
the walk to the chow i hall, i keep my head down as i walk; just so the same
i see the same thing every day, take the same path, walk the same way.. see the same people..
give me id to the same guard, nod my head to him as a thank you for letting me in then walk through the same white double doors.
the red tile, theres exactly 75 red tiles from the door to the sink where i wash hands,
the same soap, it smells like hash i think to myself..
i smell my hands, smells like i just smoked bud
take my plate and tray, i tell the iraqi 3 times for 3 boiled eggs..
i get 3 water melon slices and some yogurt.. jesus grabs the same thing but he replaces the watermelon for an apple.
man i wish i grabbed an apple i say to myself before i sit down..
we sit there,
and eat.. i just day dream as i eat, quietly just listening to jesus and his friend miguel talk, miguel tells me man from the looks of your plate, thats how you stay so skinny..
he was eating a greasy omelet and hash browns... i just look at his plate and nod and continue to peel off my boiled eggs and remove the dry yolk..
looking around at everyone,
5 tables away, i see a group of officers sitting together, there were 3 females and 4 males...
sitting there, stuffing their face and laughing among eachother.
i look in discus, i them mutter i fucking hate officers..
i see the females and i just get so much anger, i call them a fucking bitch in my head..
jesus says, hey are you okay?
yeah im just tired.
jesus states his conversation, man im so sick and tired of hearing about cheating spouses, it seems like thats the fling now and days..
wives cheating on husbands, husbands cheating on wives.. girlfriends fucking this person boyfriends fucking this person..
im tired of that shit, if your going to mess around and play the game then be single why waste someones time?
noone is more professional than I, he chants as a joke of the creed we recite...
i just stare at his mouth as he talks... then his nose, then his had gestures... what the fuck are you talking about jesus i say in my head.
the voice in my head is very calm soft spoken toned voice.
i eat the eggs, the yogurt and nvmed the watermelon, it was hard and to cold for my liking,
we leave.
walk back together, silent.
same path, same things to see.... desert.
jesus pulls out a red apple and bites it..
i look the apple in his hand, man i wish i got a apple i say again in my head.
we get back to the shop... i put my weapon in the rack, the same empty spot on the rack i plce my dirty weapon i care so less about, "im never going to use it" i say out loud to my self... and walk to the back of the office.
agnew is sitting there on his ipad, drew is sitting there with a flash light pretending its a gun as he shoots me
john is on the computer looking at cars and says hey ese, im sorry i unplugged your ipod from the charger to charge mine..
i just stare at everyone with a blank look like dude, idc about none of yall..
i just nod my head as a morning greeting and back to the front
i sit on the floor against the wall waiting to go to this CLS class... jesus is coming with me so it might not be all that bad.
its 850 by then,
he ask if im ready to go down to the Aid station, i tell him hold on. i need to grab something..
when really i just wanted to see if you wrote me back yet..
saying in my head, your so pathetic eric.
running to the back just to see if she wrote you, disappointed.. were suppose to let her text us;
my mind is talking but my body keeps on moving in disregards to the commands my mind is speaking out.
i rub the mouse pad, nothing yet... damn, let me call... no answer...
jesus comes, hey man are you ready?..
umm yeeeah, lets go..
i close the laptop as to signify thats it eric, stay off your laptop all day and leave her alone..
i grab my stuff and go.
we get there, we sit.. he asks whats wrong, i say nothing.. he ask how we are doing i say good, he ask have i talked to eric
i say yes, last night.. he ask hows he doing i say good.... he shuts up, from the tone of my voice he gets the drift..
i dont feel like talking..
he offers a cigarette, i decline and drink my water.
the instructor comes out and takes our names down, theres 5 of us...
2 guys from A co. idk
1 guy named collier from Eco. i went to military school with
then me and jesus from HHC co..
the instructor, SGT Anol... says well the class was not suppose to be till tomorrow so just com back tomorrow at 0900 in front of this door..
roger, SGT; walking back jesus says hes going to bed... not telling anyone we got released early... so i do the same..
i dont feel like being at work any way..
walk to the back,
open the laptop... touch mouse pad..
i check twitter then fb to see if your awake..
so frustrated, i just activate my old fb, i need to talk to scuba or end or my family i say to myself.. i change my profile picture, click on your profile to see if your up again,
sigh> i deactivate it again, pointless..
i dont want to talk to anymore... but her i think to myself.
i go on twitter, i wonder who ****** was, so i checked his profile out to see if i knew him..
i notice his name lingers around so i just check.
i see some photos.. i do recognize him from school.. he got fat from the face i tell myself..
he's ugly... w.e, brittany wont leave me for this guy..
what ifs then come along..
i just exit out and sit out on the pouch for a bit..
i come back in, sit in the same chair.. touch the mouse pad... still no msg..
i then call, then text you whatever comes to mind,
i then start to email you my day, a vent of thoughts and actions of my boring dumb life..
you finally msg me..
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1. You woke up naked next to the last person you texted, what would you say?
-considering it’s my roommate, that’d be kinda awkward
2. What’s going on between you and the last person you kissed?
-I have no fucking clue
3. If your boyfriend or girlfriend was into drugs, would you care?
-they wouldn’t be my SO then
4. Is your last name longer than six letters?
-no
5. Was your last kiss drunk or sober?
-sober
6. Have you ever wanted to have someone but you messed it up?
-fuck yeah
7. What does your last received text say?
-okay
8. How many times have you kissed the last person you kissed?
-lol a lot
9. Where was your last kiss at?
-UNI (University of Northern Iowa). BAD THINGS HAPPEN IN CEDAR FALLS.
10. When is the last time you saw your sister?
-I don’t have a sister
11. What do you drink in the morning?
-Gatorade/PowerAde
12. Where did you sleep last night?
-In my dorm room
13. Do you think relationships are hard?
-Hell yes
14. If you could go back and change something in the past 5 months, would you?
-Uh fuck yes
15. You’re locked in a room with the last person you kissed, any problems?
-Fuck... I dunno, maybe?
16. Would you rather it be sunny or rainy?
-Sunny
17. Do you know anyone with the same middle name as you?
-no
18. Are you wearing jeans,sweatpants,or pajama pants?
-Sweats
19. Do you think you will be in a relationship 3 years from now?
-I’d like to be
20. Does anyone like you?
-Not that I know of
21. Have you ever kissed someone with a name that starts with an S?
-Nope
22. Is the last person you kissed gay?
-No
23. Is there a person you CANNOT stand?
-A few
24. Have you ever considered getting a tattoo?
-I have one, and want more
25. In the past week have you cried?
-Monday night I did.
26. What breed was the last dog you saw?
-Golden Retriever
27. Do you dry off in the shower or out of the shower?
-Out
28. Have you ever kissed a football player?
-No
29. Do you think you’re old?
-Not really
30. Do you like text messaging?
-Sure
31. What type of day are you having?
-a good day finally for once
32. Have you ever thought about getting your nose pierced?
-I have it pierced
33. Do you prefer warm or cold weather?
-Warm
34. Is there a person of the opposite sex who means a lot to you?
-Yeah
35. Would you prefer a relationship or a fling?
-Relationship
36. Are you a simple or complicated person?
-Complicated
37. What song are you listening to?
-No Such Thing As A Broken Heart by Old Dominion
38. When you say you’re sorry do you mean it?
-Of course
39. Is there a girl that knows everything or almost everything about you?
-Yeah
40. What made you start liking the person you like now?
-I don't like anyone
41. When did you last receive a text message?
-Like half an hour ago
42. What is wrong with you right now?
-What isn’t?
43. How well do you know the last female you texted?
-Pretty well
44. Does anyone disgust you?
-No
47. Who was the last person you talked to in person?
-My roommate
48. What color shirt are you wearing?
-Black
49. Has someone recently told you something you didn’t want to hear?
-all the time
50. Anyone you’re giving up on?
-does myself count?
51. Do you hate the person you fell hardest for?
-sometimes
52. Have you ever thought about giving up on someone but couldn’t?
-Yeah
53. Do you like rain?
-yeah
54. Do you care if your boyfriend/girlfriend drinks?
-no
55. Have you ever liked somebody and never told them?
-lol hasn’t everyone?
56. Do you like to cuddle?
-fuck yeah
57. Are you shy?
58. Do you get along with girls?
-sure
59. Have you dated the person you texted last?
-lol no
60. What do you carry with you at all times?
-keys, student id, phone, etc
61. If you were paid 1 million dollars to spend the night in a supposed haunted house, would you?
-sure
62. Do you think you can last in a relationship for five months?
-yeah
63. Think back to October, were you in a relationship?
-yeah. I think?
64. The person you like kisses you on the forehead, do you find this cute?
-YES
65. Did anything “cute” happen in the last week?
-nah
66. How old are the last three people you kissed?
-20, 21, and 20
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67. Would you rather pay to get your nails done or do them yourself?
-DIY
68. Which do you like better- Zebra print or leopard print?
-neither
69. Do you have any stickers on your car?
-Yeah
70. Would you rather listen to Luke Bryan or Lil Wayne?
-Luke Bryan
71. Blackberry, Anroid, or iPhone?
-iPhone
72. When’s the last time you had pizza from Pizza Hut?
-Last time I worked, which was Sunday
73. Do you like diet soda?
-Depends on what kind
74. What color are the walls in your room?
-White
75. Are you 16 or older?
-Yeah
76. Do you watch Pretty Little Liars?
-no
77. Do you have a job?
-Pizza Hut
78. What are your initials?
-TME
79. Did you ever have braces?
-Yeah
80. Are you from the south?
-No
81. What does your last status on facebook say?
-tagged one of the girls in my riding class in a video and said “when you fell off Mags.”
82. Do you still talk to the first person you ever kissed?
-No, but his fam talks to me sometimes
83. Are you closer to your mom or your dad?
-depends on what we’re talking about, but pry mom
84. Have you ever done cheerleading or gymnastics?
-nope
85. What’s the last movie you saw in theaters?
-it was about the boston marathon, but I don't remember the name
86. Do you smoke?
-sometimes
87. Would you rather wear heels or flip flops?
-how about boots
88. Is your phone touch screen?
-yeah
89. Do you normally wear your hair straight or curly?
-neither
90. Have you ever snuck out of your house?
-no
91. Would you rather swim in a river, lake, or pool?
-lake
92. Have you ever made out in a car?
yeah
93. …Had sex in a car?
-...yeah
94. Are you single or in a relationship?
-single
95. What were you doing last night at midnight?
-watching Netflix
96. When’s the last time you saw fireworks?
-July
97. Do you like the camera on your phone?
-yeah
98. Have you ever had a friend with benefits?
-...yes
99. Have you ever passed out from drinking?
-no
100. Are you friends with people on facebook that you actually hate?
-sure
101. Have you ever had a pregnancy scare?
-yeah
102. Name your favorite Kesha song:
-I don’t listen to kesha
103. Do you have any tan lines right now?
-no
104. Would you ever wear cowboy boots with shorts?
-... this is literally all I wear in the summer
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Answer them all, lady recked.
1. You woke up naked next to the last person you texted, what would you say? Good morning beautiful ❤❤2. What’s going on between you and the last person you kissed?She's my best friend, my love, my person. 3. If your boyfriend or girlfriend was into drugs, would you care?Only if they were letting it control their life and only if it were super dangerous (i.e. anything except weed)4. Is your last name longer than six letters?No, it's only 4. 5. Was your last kiss drunk or sober?Drunk6. Have you ever wanted to have someone but you messed it up?Yep, senior year, trento. 7. What does your last received text say?"I miss you like crazy): if I wasn't so fucking broke Id be there tonight):"8. How many times have you kissed the last person you kissed?Quite a few times, drunk and sober9. Where was your last kiss at?In a bar in St. Louis10. When is the last time you saw your sister?A little after Christmas 11. What do you drink in the morning?Water or coffee 12. Where did you sleep last night?My bed, most nights.13. Do you think relationships are hard?They should be, they should be a challenge, but it should seem effortless to work at it because it SHOULD be worth it14. If you could go back and change something in the past 5 months, would you?Seeing Lauren more essentially. 15. You’re locked in a room with the last person you kissed, any problems?Never ever ever. 16. Would you rather it be sunny or rainy?Sunny17. Do you know anyone with the same middle name as you?Yes, my stepmother18. Are you wearing jeans,sweatpants,or pajama pants?No pants19. Do you think you will be in a relationship 3 years from now?Maybe, maybe not, it doesn't truly matter to me20. Does anyone like you?Probs not, but I haven't been looking21. Have you ever kissed someone with a name that starts with an S?Yes22. Is the last person you kissed gay?She a little gay23. Is there a person you CANNOT stand?No, there's people who I don't really care to be around or people's attitudes I don't want to tolerate, but I don't really dislike anyone24. Have you ever considered getting a tattoo?I have 8, so at least 8 times by this point25. In the past week have you cried?Uh, no I don't think so. It's been a few weeks.26. What breed was the last dog you saw? Weenie-ua-ua27. Do you dry off in the shower or out of the shower? Both28. Have you ever kissed a football player?Yes I have29. Do you think you’re old?I mean I get called old because I'm a mamma bear, but no I'm not old30. Do you like text messaging?I'm terrible at responding to anyone at anytime on any social media. Best way to contact me is in person. 31. What type of day are you having?Busy and long, 12 hours of work. 32. Have you ever thought about getting your nose pierced?Have it pierced twice, I'll probably get it pierced one more time33. Do you prefer warm or cold weather?Warm warm warmmnmmmm34. Is there a person of the opposite sex who means a lot to you?There are many people of many different genders that mean a lot to me. 35. Would you prefer a relationship or a fling?Relationship36. Are you a simple or complicated person?Complicated. Everyone's complicated, I'll just come outright and say I'm complicated. My life is tornado, and sometimes I'm a tornado when upset. Everyone has faults and flaws. 37. What song are you listening to?None, watching netflix.38. When you say you’re sorry do you mean it?It's hard for me to apologize (because I hate just saying sorry to say it. I want to mean it), so when I do I mean it. 39. Is there a girl that knows everything or almost everything about you?Laurennnnnnnnn40. What made you start liking the person you like now?I've liked her since I met her almost 3 years ago. She's my best friend.41. When did you last receive a text message?10 pm, it is now 1 am and I still haven't responded 42. What is wrong with you right now?I should probably be sleeping, but took a late nap. Other than that, nothing is wrong with me.43. How well do you know the last female you texted?Very well.44. Does anyone disgust you?No, everyone lives their life how they want. It's not my place to judge them because I don't agree with their lifestyle. Smoke, drink, wear skimpy clothes, be straight, be totally gay, do whatever the fuck you want and never apologize. 45. Would you date someone right now if they asked?No probably not, 1. No one will ask me 2. The only person I would lives 3 hours away and I'd probably have to ask her xD46. Are you in a good mood right now?I'm in a pretty good mood, yes.47. Who was the last person you talked to in person?Garrett H.48. What color shirt are you wearing?Green49. Has someone recently told you something you didn’t want to hear?Yeah, that I'm gonna have to come to work on my day off anyways.50. Anyone you’re giving up on?I don't give up. Never been who I am, which is what has sadly broken me a lot.51. Do you hate the person you fell hardest for?How could I hate someone that I fell for? 52. Have you ever thought about giving up on someone but couldn’t?Yes, some people it would be easier to give up and choose myself, but that's never been my style.53. Do you like rain?I like a light rain on a sunny day when it's 70 dehrees. 54. Do you care if your boyfriend/girlfriend drinks?As long as they aren't a raging alcoholic 55. Have you ever liked somebody and never told them? Yes I have, I'm pretty shy.56. Do you like to cuddle?Only sometimes, which I guess I have to apologize in advance for.57. Are you shy? Very much so. 58. Do you get along with girls?Some of them59. Have you dated the person you texted last?Nope 60. What do you carry with you at all times?Right now, cough drops 61. If you were paid 1 million dollars to spend the night in a supposed haunted house, would you?I would do it for free 62. Do you think you can last in a relationship for five months? Most definitely 63. Think back to October, were you in a relationship?Yes I was 64. The person you like kisses you on the forehead, do you find this cute?Always cute. No matter who does it65. Did anything “cute” happen in the last week?Oh my gosh yessssss66. How old are the last three people you kissed?22, 27, 22 I think 67. Would you rather pay to get your nails done or do them yourself? Neither68. Which do you like better- Zebra print or leopard print? Neither69. Do you have any stickers on your car? Some LOTR and hiking stickers70. Would you rather listen to Luke Bryan or Lil Wayne? Neither71. Blackberry, Anroid, or iPhone? Android72. When’s the last time you had pizza from Pizza Hut? Probably a couple years73. Do you like diet soda? Ew74. What color are the walls in your room? Grey75. Are you 16 or older? Yes76. Do you watch Pretty Little Liars? That's what I'm watching right now actually77. Do you have a job? A shit one78. What are your initials? DDH79. Did you ever have braces? Yes I did80. Are you from the south? Yes81. What does your last status on facebook say? Talking about returning to the university I wanted to be in and finally knowing what my major is.82. Do you still talk to the first person you ever kissed? I do not, I don't know what happened to him after high school 83. Are you closer to your mom or your dad? My mom at this point I'd say84. Have you ever done cheerleading or gymnastics? Gymnastics for many moons 85. What’s the last movie you saw in theaters? Uh Nerve maybe? 86. Do you smoke? I smoke hookah, does that count?87. Would you rather wear heels or flip flops? Neithet 88. Is your phone touch screen? Yes it is 89. Do you normally wear your hair straight or curly? My hair is straight as a board90. Have you ever snuck out of your house? Only a few times 91. Would you rather swim in a river, lake, or pool? River river river, then I guess a pool, lake last 92. Have you ever made out in a car? Yes93. …Had sex in a car? Yes94. Are you single or in a relationship? Single95. What were you doing last night at midnight? I was getting into bed. 96. When’s the last time you saw fireworks? 4th of July97. Do you like the camera on your phone? It's average98. Have you ever had a friend with benefits? A few, yes 99. Have you ever passed out from drinking? No I haven't 100. Are you friends with people on facebook that you actually hate? Not that I know of101. Have you ever had a pregnancy scare? Yes, once102. Name your favorite Kesha song: I have no idea103. Do you have any tan lines right now? Hahaahahaha, I never have tan lines, whattttt104. Would you ever wear cowboy boots with shorts? I'd never wear cowboy boots, ew.
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