#i’m feeling hurt rn

[girlyteengirl16]

i get so depressed when people tell me about their accomplishments and my only accomplishment is getting through each day without killing myself

#pls help me i’m not okay #idk how to feel #my tummy hurts rn #mentally unstable #trauma #i wanna kms #tw depressing stuff #i want to be okay #how to be successful #i want to be rich and happy #tw depressing thoughts #mental abuse #mentally tired #relateable #im sad and tired

[miahasahardname]

finds character i relate to immensely, immediately starts projecting

#discovered some mikey epilepsy headcanons one time. can’t find ‘em but they made me really happy so i’m throwing some in #2012 mikey centered because… well…. i’m me #but i have rise mikey ones too #2012 mikey mostly has absences and auras and other less serious kinds of seizures #though he will occasionally have tonic-clonics and other such seizures #he tics regularly because i do and i want a character that does too #(my tic is basically just i crack my neck and sometimes it goes too hard and it really hurts) #i could go on but i don’t have time for that rn lol #tmnt mikey #tmnt leo #tmnt donnie #2012 mikey #2012 leo #2012 donnie #tmnt #tmnt 2012 #feel free to ignore (not 100% proud of the second drawing)

[moominpopzz]

how long do y’all think Ashe had to sleep in Mark’s bed with him after what happened to her mom. How often do you think Mark would try to put Ashe to bed and she’d run to him minutes after he leaves her room and begged him not to leave her. How often do you think Mark would hold her while she slept, staying awake for nights on end so that when she woke up screaming and sobbing from nightmares he could be awake to comfort her.

Do you think she moved back to her own room on her own or that she got to an age where Mark slowly started making her go back to her room instead. Do you think he’d sit in there and wait until she fell asleep or with his work one day he just stopped letting her crawl into bed with him. Do you think there were nights where when she could only fall asleep in his bed he’d carry her back to her room and she’d wake up, alone, in the room that damn book was in, do you think she’d just scream until Mark ran in to check on her?

#Ashe headcanons should probably be ripped away from me and I should be sent to go sit in timeout until I learn to not think about her #I can’t help it #her stories so fucking tragic i have to talk about my hcs on it as often as I can #also this hurts my mutuals as well and it’s pretty funny to see reblogs threatening my life #I feel like she’d also sleep in his bed the nights he had to stay out for work #like just being where she knew he could easily find her would help calm her down #even if realistically he could and probably would even easier find her in her own room #sighs and stares out a window #I’m supposed yo be doing schoolwork rn btw #jrwi #jrwi pd #prime defenders #ashe winters #jrwi prime defenders #jrwi ashe winters #jrwi hc #jrwi mark #mark winters #jrwi mark winters #moomins yapping<3

[carma-tjol]

misc thoughts on the retcons

I can’t tell if the pacing is bad or if that’s just me getting disoriented by the past several months telling and retelling the same story.

While the fight between Flash and Sonic ended up more like the webcomic story wise, I didn’t enjoy it the same. The webcomic had a tension to it. It felt distinctly lonely and melancholy. But reading the manga redraws now, I feel kind of similar to how I did with the psychic sisters arc where it seemed like a “fixed” version of the webcomic?

Like, the story is still the same but the character dynamics are altered in a way that doesn’t make sense. They all get along a bit too well. Which would be fine if the story or enough dialogue was adjusted that it made sense, but that’s a step they skipped over.

For the retconned chapters, the emotion ONE and Murata were trying to communicate was different from the webcomic, but ultimately more successful for its place in the context of the manga. Between Flash and Sonic there was still pain and words left unspoken, just in a way that felt fitting. VS now it’s like they’re trying to communicate the webcomic tension but without any of the hard hitting moments where it felt like time slowed down that made the webcomic successful.

Anyways i know the arc isn’t done yet. There’s still time for it to pick up. I’m just feeing irritated and really don’t want to end up feeling more disappointed than I would otherwise because I have to compare whats now canon now vs what was retconned. (considering I liked the retconned version and felt it was successful to begin with 😭)

#opm #rambles #does this count as meta #fuck it we ball #opm meta #sorry for disgracing the meta tag with my poorly proofridden rambles as per usual but here r my thoughts #i’m not gonna complain about the art style i know muratas working on like 20 morbillion projects rn #but damn sonic is getting the tatsu treatment (though not nearly as bad) #*shudders* #kind of random but ​i kind of wonder if murata used to have more assistants for backgrounds before. it’s been feeling vacant lately. #reading my printed books and starting at the beginning hurts because i have to tell myself #don’t be spoiled don’t be spoiled don’t be spoiled don’t be spoiled don’t be #even more random but i like joking that murata needs to start reading yaoi again. you can tell when he does based on his art it’s funny

[lovecoredeity]

fun scene idea that I’ll probably never get around to drawing: someone grabbing a wanted poster from a board or wall only to reveal a missing persons poster featuring the same person as on the wanted poster underneath it (also the reward for them as a wanted person is higher than the reward for returning them when they were missing)

#basically this is something fun I imagine for my oc cashmere #as of right now she’s simply missing (presumed to be kidnapped at least that’s what the family she is from told people) #as of rn in her story she isn’t wanted for anything but that can change I’ll probably have her (attempt to) commit treason against her #own family or something #I think it would be fun that her family is willing to spend less when she’s missing than when they’re mad at him and want him back to be #punished for angering them #I have attempted to draw this out before but was like #it would be better as like an animation tbh but #I can’t animate I’m not going to animate my tablet does not even have the storage for me to animate #maybe a quick animatic if anything but like #idk #it’s more of a fun idea than anything #I imagine what leads to cashmere committing treason is that upon being back in the hands of their family they begin to realize that they #can’t lie to theirself anymore their family is terrible and the reason they died in the first place and snaps #i feel like they found themselves in a situation where they attacked someone out of fear and rage and blah blah that is seen as treason #it would probably be his dad that gets attack im ngl conquest deserves it #or they accidentally hurt them out of fear #I am unsure #*shrug emoji* I’m just making up shit for cashmere as I see fit and per what I find most interesting and fun <3 #also cashmere is my only oc rn who would have both a missing and a wanted poster #sure most of my ocs would find themselves wanted for one reason or another or targeted by others #but some cashmere is useful as a tool to their family and having a runaway child is bad for their reputation they’d ofc want her back to #keep her quiet and keep people from finding out that she ran away #they also still think she’s sickly and wouldn’t want anyone to find out who she is that she’s sickly and for word to spread #basically they want cashmere back so their reputation isn’t damaged and so they can go back to using her as they please #I put a lot of suffering into this character #and I will continue to do so because as my favourite this is what happens #sorry I’m babbling

[chirpsythismorning]

Most underrated byler moment goes to this. Them hugging, only to stand by each other this close, with Will looking at Mike emotionally waiting for him to look back, but all Mike can do is stand there frozen… Both suffering and not feeling like they can comfort each other any more than they already have 😭😭😭

#byler #I’m actually having a mental breakdown about this rn #I remember really early on into believing byler #I rewatched this scene and this shot specifically just stuck w me #I feel like we barely talk about it #but seeing as mike and el are like continuously embracing beyond that one time #and Mike is constantly looking dejected in those embraces #and Mike and Will only got to hug once basically #with him literally falling into wills arms and then pulling away like he’s been burned… #makes this shot all the more fucking tragic #Mike and el are back together #mike is back to repressing #and then they hug and he’s even more pushed into the closet bc he can’t let himself face what he’s feeling straight on… #and then they’re both gone #and then s4 happens and Mike can’t barely hug Will #after that s3 hug??? #oh he is down bad bad #it’s so fucking tragic #it hurts

[roachyreblobs]

Kinda wanna just say something really quick

SA isn’t just limited to touch.

People who’ve experienced SA should not be invalidated if they’ve developed hyper/hypo sexuality because of it.

SA victims should not be called liars, they should not be told it was their fault.

SA or hyper sexuality should not be romanticized. It’s not okay. It’s not fun, and I don’t know why the fuck you would want it.

nobody is too young for it, nor too old to experience it.

And it doesn’t matter how’s they dressed, it happened and they should NEVER be blamed for it.

(this is just my opinion from my own experiences. If you don’t agree with it then just scroll past :P)

#Hypersexuality #actually hypersexual #SA #tw sa mention #cw sa mention #Rant of sorts #The first one is purely because of my own experience with it *VENT AHEAD!!* #So much so that I cannot get dressed properly without fearing that somebody’s watching and about to take a picture of me #I can’t even wear a t-shirt and shorts without feeling non existent eyes on me #It makes me wanna cry every night because I feel so gross and sick and disgusting even though I know it’s not my fault #But ignorant people don’t know that the things they say- the things they romanticize abt me hurts a lot :/ #Especially when I’m invalidated because “I’m too young to be hypersexual” and “well we never saw her take those pictures!” #Sorry I just feel like crap rn

[trashmagic-333]

lights, camera, acción. u know i can’t make it on my own ୨୧

#never related to a song more #relating to this song hurts #i feel like shit #i can’t do things myself #i’m lonely #i can’t do this #i miss who i used to be #come on you know u like #i feel dirty #girlblog #a little loss of innocence #girlblogging #baby doll #pretty roses #pretty flowers #i feel disgusting and used #feeling this song a little too hard rn… #lana del rey #alana champion #bunny #dollette #u know i can’t make it on my own

[qkmlh]

Listening to the Hunger Games audiobook during my lunch and omigosh Katniss sweetheart you did not just decide to kiss Peeta’s bruised cheek because you think his adorkably lame compliment was a manipulation tactic

#IT’S BEEN UEARS SONCE I’VE READ THE BOOK AND COMPLETELY FORGOT THIS HAPPENED W HA. T T T #The Hunger Games #THG #Katniss Everdeen #Peeta Mellark #God the last time I read this /I/ was a teenager myself so hearing it as an adult is making me feel a lot #cause Katniss and Peeta are such /teens/ it hurts Ms. Suzanne Collins I’m losing it rn #Everlark #Booklr #Ani Rambles

[monsteractialuna]

This is just my opinion(tm) but I think Moon falls in love super fast. Like not “love at first sight” fast but as soon as he realizes somebody genuinely likes him and isn’t afraid of him he’s falling hard.

Like the dude is used to being the villain and being disliked (kids don’t exactly like being told to take naps) and people being scared of him so somebody being genuine towards him and enjoying his company probably shocks him to his core. Surprised pikachu face that you didn’t immediately run for the hills and now he’s in love and following you around like a puppy.

Sun on the other hand would genuinely be harder to crack I think. He doesn’t crave a connection like Moon does and generally just doesn’t seem to care much for people that aren’t the children he takes care of or are in his little circle. He’s friendly but don’t mistake that for actually being friends, you need to work your way up the ladder from “coworker who bothers me sometimes” to “actual, genuine friend” before you can even think of romancing him.

Sun would also be seven layers deep in denial that he’s in love, unlike Moon who embraces it like it’s his birthright. Give Sun some time and he’ll eventually warm up to it, but he will be hot and cold to you out of fear of rejection.

#daycare attendant x reader #sun Fnaf #moon Fnaf #I’m in the bath rn so I can’t draw I’m fucking suffering #I hate having a vessel this blows !!! why does everything hurt!!! hot bath fix me rn #also you can disagree with me but this is my OPINION which I am free to have even if it’s wrong #moon falls in love with u and is like a puppy that just learned biting gets him attention #sun falls in love with you like a feral cat who needs to warm up to you but keeps lashing out due to fear of the unknown (his feelings)

[lil-katz]

yall im too fucking h!gh rn

#me #dear god #i feel like i’m vibrating #my teeth hurt #what the fuck #straight up not vibing rn #face #jesus christ #ugh #i’m also listening to skinwalker stories on youtube so i’m not helping myself #also i have the munchies and no food to munch

[hythlodaes]

:c

#if it wasn’t 27 degrees out i’d run into the woods rn LOL #i have to go get my car looked at before work #and i’m dealing with pms and hurt feelings over stupid stuff that doesn’t even matter #like logically i know things are for the best but that doesn’t make me feel better #i’ll give it some time bc i know ill be okay but god. #just praying my car is okay bc there is nothing more stressful to me ;-; #gg txt

[strawberrybyers]

lesson learned this week: if your teenage niece asks to throw a party at your house, say no because you might end up feeling trapped in your bedroom due to not wanting to encounter a group of teens in your own home so now you’re thirsty, and being thirsty triggers anxiety and anxiety triggers nausea and nausea triggers more anxiety which triggers stomach cramps which triggers more anxiety which triggers more nausea and i’m still thirsty on top of that. i am fighting for my life in here 😭😭 i think i could start crying i’m having so much anxiety 😭😭

#i am so tired of the cycle of anxiety 😭😭😭 like bro my body is TIRED #it’s tired of being in an anxious state and hurting and feeling nauseous and throwing up and i am constantly dying #i’m also wearing makeup and i need to take it off but i can’t bc that requires going to the bathroom! #and going to the bathroom means encountering people! #i need a xanax #maybe 2 or 3 actually #i also need a hair tie my hair is starting to drive me crazy #i’m getting a headache #i’m also congested bc my allergies are bothering me #i’m also shaking i cannot with this rn #i am overstimulated #and i have to pee #we are just not doing well team 😭😭 #strawberrybyers text post

[switchytransboy]

everybody fucking leaves

#crying rn trying not to wake halo #that friend i had a gut feeling about it was over w #it is #i was right #just got dropped #all bc i chose to hear a potential SA victims side #over my friends friend who i don’t know well at all #when this story was brought to me #not to mention the victim is trans #so there’s sm to this #but none of this is my fucking fault #i just try and do the right things #support people who need it #this is no friend tbh if i can be dumped like this #over literally me trying to do the morally correct thing?? #and NOT silence potential victims?? #like wtf #WTFFFFF #i’m so sad and angry and hurt

[birdinabowl]

I know I have final projects but I’m literally in so much pain I can barely do the work needed

#I have so much late stuff #And I don’t have the motivation or energy to do it #I hate chronic pain so much and I feel like such a baby for whining about it but I just don’t care at this point #I can’t draw I can’t write I can’t do shit because everything just hurts #I can’t take my medicine because I’m doing a flush rn #And it’s just hell #SORRY FOR VENTING AGAIN #TOMATO TOMATO TOMATO #vent

[bilestat]

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#I wish I could stop caring as easily as her #but unfortunately my feelings are just going to constantly get hurt over and over forever #when it’s obvious she doesn’t value our friendship as much as I do #I’ve learned to stop texting beyond holidays for the most part because it hurts getting disappointed when I don’t get answers #but it really fucking sucks she saw my insta story about my birthday but couldn’t bother saying anything to me #good to know where we stand #but again: idk why I’m surprised when she has not told me directly when she: #moved to my state from the opposite coast #set a wedding date and also got married #and moved a half an hour away from me #had to find that all out from the internet #so why would my birthday matter? lmao I’m an idiot #like at least she’s remembered in past years and does answer on holidays but #she hasn’t texted me first beyond my birthday last year in like two years #anyway wish I didn’t feel like crying rn #personal #to be deleted #and I feel conceited for caring but I know it’s not #and it extra sucks to still be hurt about another ex best friend that ghosted me years ago that shares my birthday so the sadness is just #inevitable #especially when combined with the fact that my dad’s birthday is in five days #so I’m just kinda sad around and on my birthday every year