#i wish i was there to say goodbye to her

[fluffymawilefan]

"In my absence, I will always love you.

Even when I'm not there to hold you in my arms, I wish I could.

Even though I'm gone, I will always be there for you.

And I have always missed you, no matter what.

In your absence, I will always miss you.

Even when you're not there to be held in my arms, I wish you were.

Even though you're gone, you will always be with me.

And I will always love you, no matter what."

#grieving #memorial art #memorial #maw-irl #tw: loss #cat #angel #it's only been a day #and i miss her so much #i miss my kitty #i loved her to every end of the earth #she was my best friend #my partner in crime #i wish i was there to say goodbye to her #she was a beautiful cat with a beautiful soul #each second without her hurts so so much #I've been crying ever since I found out she was sick #and now I've been crying ever since she died #i loved you so much baby kitty #they didn't call you Angel for nothing did they #art #mourning #digital art #sony sketch #poetry

[avionvadion]

Just watched Ghibli’s Tale of Princess Kaguya.

That was emotionally devastating. Thanks.

#show up for the cuteness and stay for the emotional damage!!! #tale of Princess Kaguya #studio ghibli #anyways I wish the handmaiden had a name she and the mom were the MVPs of this movie #handmaiden straight up gave her bestie the chance to say goodbye when the gods wouldn’t #also the mom being the narrator is DEVASTATING

[funnywormz]

i rewatched snw s1ep10 earlier and i had completely forgotten that hemmer only gets the gorn venom/eggs sprayed on him bc he literally jumps in the way to protect uhura :'-)

#HE LOVED HER SO MUCH im gonna cry #i love their friendship so much and im glad he at least got to say goodbye to her properly and wish her well for the future #star trek #snw #hemmer #nyota uhura

[brontios-helm]

Destiny 2: After My Own Heart

#destiny 2 #destiny 2 gif #mara sov #mara sov gif #riven #riven of a thousand voices #riven gif #spirit's anchor #destiny 2 spirit's anchor #season of the wish spoilers #season of the wish #destiny 2 spoilers #it's really bittersweet saying goodbye to her #I imagine especially for Mara #bungie #destiny 2 pc

[floral-hex]

woke up at 4am feeling the weight of my life crushing me, so I’ve been sitting out in my car for the last couple of hours because I just need. to. be. somewhere else.

#tumblr ate something like this but I think I deserve to shout uselessly into the void #shits rough dawg #I know it’s rough for everyone. I feel shitty even talking about myself. still… compelled to vent… big butts #haven’t really been on here much since it hasn’t really scratched that itch lately & just makes me feel lonelier #it’s cold #saw the Jazzercise studio open across the street. 5am for Jazzercise? wow. early. #and then everyone left an hour and a half later. lights out. everybody gone. weird schedule. I am perplexed. #went down the road and got a soda and I’ve been sitting in my driveway contemplating for the last 2.5 hours #guy at the gas station tried to talk to me but I just half assed a smile and nod and left #even though I know I’d love to just… talk to someone. I suppose it has to be ‘on my terms’ whatever those are #I miss having a therapist. or even just when my little brothers would talk to me. when anyone would. blegh #my insurance is still a mess and I’m about to run out of one of my blood pressure meds this week #maybe I’ll have a stroke. scary to think about. I think about dying a lot but that potential feels too real. just… pop! and I’m done. #I’ll try today to finally push to straighten it out but everything feels daunting #woke up with so much anxiety. about my health. my hearing. no money. my life. had to get out of the house even if it’s just right outside #hate to say it but I need(want) thc. haven’t wanted to spend money on it but I could have really used it this morning #can’t be sad if you can’t feel anything (jokingly but also not. whichever is less sad sounding) #actually treated myself to Dune 2 last week and it was so so good. wish I could go again. but it’s drugs food or movie right now. so… #I know. dumb priority but BIG SCREEN. maybe it’ll hit theaters again for the next awards season hopefully. just a real nice loud experience #anyway… I should go inside. almost 7am. need to take my brothers to school then drive my mom to her daily appointments #I’ve felt so hollow and angry and sad for so long it feels like. I feels so weak and sad and I’m tired of it. I’m so tired. #I’ve been eating about 1 meal a day and sleeping a lot. this is the worst my body has ever been. I feel like I’m just waiting to die. #is this relatable? #just have to look past it. it is nothing. this body is nothing. just enjoy your soda. #gonna look at pictures of butts now #ok gotta go I love you goodbye forever #you can ignore this #text

[i-bring-crack]

You ever think Persephone, when she came back from the underworld, was ever asked by the other gods how their favorite humans are doing?

#persephone #greek mythology #i mean she isnt the ONLY god to go away but she does reign over the souls and also stays with them more than other psychopomps #like hermes per say #the idea in my head ranges from hilarious (Apollo crawling back again like 'so...' and persephone sighs like 'which one is it this time') #to outright sad (athena humbky passing by the fields her mother cares for. usually a goddess of war such as her would be in the polis and #not so far out where only farmers live. but now she is here. reserved and quiet for a while before asking if she knows of a man. maybe one #who might have been mischevius enough to trick her at some point. maybe someone who had gona through the underworld twice but only came out #once. and persephone recalls before turning back to her and joking saying that yeah 'he has tried to escape again.' she smiles. #'and to the court he said. he only wishes to say goodbye to an old friend.' #ancient greece #man i need closure #i would say dionysous would also be approached but he would also be too drunk to remember—

[to-sock-or-not-to-sock]

playing spiritfarer is just like haha what if i cried my eyes out right now wouldn't that be funny

#spiritfarer #i miss atul so much #i wish i had gotten a goodbye with him #i mean i guess it fits his personality that we don't get (have) to take him to the everdoor but it's still heartbreaking #every single time #i know what happens every fucking time and i'm still sitting there with tears running down my cheeks bc i didn't get to say goodbye #giovanni too #i don't know why or how i love him so much but it hurts every time i take him to the door #and also astrid #astrid's one of my favorites #i miss her so much #sometimes i go and look at all their records and then i go back to whatever i'm doing

[sangre]

cannot explain how profoundly miserable i am. but homura was right that even this pain is proof of love 😔

#i have to say goodbye to the puppy i adopted for only a week because my something scary happened in my house #and family members who live with me can no longer handle being with an animal so in theory today is my last day with her #i'm mostly explaining it here bc i can't stand to say it over and over again it's too sad #and if i'm MIA or spotty or anything it's because i'm trying to keep afloat and it's already insane just doing that #please cross your fingers and wish the best for her. i know she will find someplace loving. #why is the end of the year always such a time of heartbreak GJBKHDSF. wack

[solitaryelf]

marwa saying she likes what nandor likes bc of the shitty little wish he made and then only a few scenes later she's all over guillermo and smooshing him and cuddling him and kissing his face and being such a little sweetheart towards him... i know what you are nandor, you emotionally constipated little shit.

#wwdits #what we do in the shadows #nandor the relentless #guillermo de la cruz #nandermo #wwdits season 4 #what we do in the shadows spoilers #wwdits spoilers #don't worry marwa i'm gonna get you out of there #i like to imagine the way she behaved towards him is exactly the way nandor wants to behave towards him #which i don't think is much of a stretch when you consider how he behaved when he covered him up #still hoping that after all of marwa's wishes get reversed she falls in love with the djinn or finds herself someone who loves her truly #marwa deserves all the love in the world #also i'd love marwa to stay in the show and reappear in the future like sean #and the djinn too #i don't want to say goodbye to them :(

[outeremissary]

I'm so serious when I say that 110% of the reason I sometimes think I should pick up Wrath again is to continue to feed the delusion of the beautiful Meet Me in the Woods video in my head I have had since September 2021. I could do it I'm fully capable of doing it there's no reason I couldn't do it if I tried <- the delusion talking

#the darkness got a hold on me :) #rambling #listening to it again to be back in touch with the vision. say goodbye to who I was. yeah. that's the vibe for her #I miss being really lost in the aeon sauce that was fun. wish that was its own dedicated game #if anyone has suggestions of other games I'm all ears

[skrunksthatwunk]

found out that rascal's owner took him again while i was out, and he's probably not gonna be back since the semester's almost over. i don't even know if his owner's coming back next semester, if i'll ever see him again. if he'll ever see me again. why do they wait until im not around to do this? why do they never let me say goodbye to him?

#i didnt really get to process it bc i found out when i was hanging w a friend but. im processing it now #sigh.. i dont know. i dont know. #at the end of the day he is and has always been someone else's cat. i can't control what she does with him #no matter what i think of it. she can always take him away. but every time it happens im just. im tired yknow? #it's worth it to me to have him around. i love him dearly and i want him to be in a home where he's actually cared for (which i have done my #best to provide) but he's just. not mine. and every time it happens i back up and think man. im such a sucker. #i don't think people manipulate me often. not in an ongoing way i mean. i don't think ppl see me as valuable enough to most of the time. #but damn. she really found my weak spots didn't she. free petcare courtesy of one chump who can't live without animals around. sigh #he deserves stability but he deserves love more. this weird shared custody thing is better for him i think. and frankly i also love him. #im not the priority here but my feelings are like. there. him being taken away without even telling me first hurts. i'd like to be able to #say goodbye to him. im not saying he has to stay or this has to go on but couldn't they just.. consider my feelings a bit more? #just bc you're fine with dropping your cat off somewhere for weeks not knowing when you'll see him again and not visiting doesn't mean i am #and i kind of feel like my roommate is part of this. after all it's not like his owner can just break into our room and take him #and if im always out when they do it there's a chance roomie's just shipping him off whenever she gets sick of him. #she's done it before. even after she agreed so vehemently with me about never wanting him to go back to such treatment and stuff early on. #she's been spraying him for little reason lately too. and i mean i get being a little more cautious with some things bc her neck's broken #but she's really fixated on how much he smells and bites and stuff and talks about how if i wasn't around she'd consider eating him #and then other times she's like that's my pookie. i don't get it. like yeah i tell rascal to fuck off sometimes bc he hurts me but it's not #like a hateful thing. i dont resent him for it i'm just annoyed sometimes bc he's maiming me a little. he's my baby. how could i loathe him? #so it makes me think that roomie might be blaming his transfers on his owner bc she doesn't want me to judge her #and like. this is her room too. it's not her fault she's more bothered by the smell than me. if she doesn't want to be bitten and clawed all #the time i can sympathize. i don't wanna force her to house him. but i wish she'd just be honest with me i guess #like. what if his owner decides to give him away without telling me? i'd take him in in a heartbeat. even though i know it's a bad idea. #but i'm worried he'll fall out of my reach completely. and at the very least I'd like to be able to say goodbye first. that's all.

[scattered-winter]

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#the worst part about all this is that i Literally saw her 2 weeks ago. we didnt have time to talk we just said hi and went our separate ways #i never even got to say goodbye to her. #and i didnt even know i needed to because this was all so fucking sudden. she was my age. healthy. etc #life is really fucking fragile huh. like it can be gone just like that. #im sorry im just. #i was super close with her mom too and i want to idk. text her or something. but what the fuck can i even say?? #and my other friends in that friend group are all unavailable rn for one reason or another #like. no contact in another country kind of unavailable #so im just. do they even know. has anyone told them. or will they find out when they come back. #i still cant even wrap my head around it tbh. its just. she was alive this morning. she was alive. this morning. #hh. anyway. #i called my sister and cried to her a little bit which was nice. but fuck i really really wish i could hug her right now #or cuddle my dog. literally anything. #im going to be such a fucking mess tomorrow oh my god #i dont even want to go to sleep tonight because if i see her in my dreams im going to fucking lose it #i dont know. i dont fucking know. #winter speaks #personal #tw death #grief tag #<- i fucking guess. i might be venting more in the next few weeks so ill at least make it easy to blacklist

[pesteringchum]

no one can comprehend the mlp au fanfiction i am cooking in my head

#its a magic school au where ive done like 10x more world building than actual writing so far #which is to say. ive done like no writing so far #AGH its so emotional #i wish i could explain it but i cant without having to explain like. EVERYTHING #but some details im very excited about: #fluttershy is a transgirl and also eventually gets turned into a werewolf and she hates it at first bc she becomes an obligate carnivore #there is a scene where the girls find fluttershy crying sobbing and beside her is a plate of dragon shaped chicken nuggets #<- it is very sad but also very funny to me #also twilight sparkle is an orphan and watched her parents die. celestia did a spell to wipe twilights memory of the event but it didnt work #twilight was not born magical but was given magic by her mother bc her mom knew she was about to die #bc of the magic bestowing twilight has two handprint scars on either side of her face where her moms hands cradled her and a mark on her— #—forehead where her mom kissed her goodbye #twilight wears her hair long to hide the scars #can you tell twilight n fluttershy are my favourites #i prommy the other girls also get the spotlight. theyre all just so wrapped up in lore that idk how to say anything abt them succinctly #chum pesters

[hauntingblue]

NAMI NEEDS TO GO UP THERE AND FIGHT BIG MOM I AM SO SERIOUS!!! THIS IS A BATTLE FOR THE ROMANCE DOWN TRIO!! SANJI DO NOT DARE TAKE HER SPOT!!!

#big mom just giving birth here on the battlefield..... #do i comment on the incestuous relationship between clouds made of the same soul??? no?? okay... #oh jesus.... goodbye kid and killer.... nami needs to get up there and take control of zeus and i am so serious #HER SKILL IS SO POWERFUL AND SO PERFECT FOR THIS FIGHT AGAINST BIG MOM BUT BECAUSE SHE IS NOT PART OF THE STRONG TRIO SHE GETS STUCK WITH #THE B LIST VILLAINS!!!! LKKE WHY DOES SHE NEED TO FIGHT ULTI?? OKAY THAT WAS MEANINGFUL BUT THAT COULD END THERE!!!! #SANJI GO FIGHT PAGE ONE!!! SOMEONE TAKE CARE OF ULTI AND LET LUFFY ZORO AND NAMI TAKE CARE OF KAIDO AND BIG MOM!!! I AM SERIOUS!!! #big mom is inside the castle.... maybe i will get my wish granted (kinda...) #kid and nami against big mom.... maybe sanji can join... i can see it so clearly.... come on now..... #if namo knew armor haki she would have gone up there and taken zeus and dealt with prometheus and his sister wife. let the others w/ big mom #fucking hawkins... end him killer.... calling him domesticated lmao... end his pathetic ass #using conqueror's haki on the weapons..... also zoro having it too.... the flower petals symbolism..... OHHHHHHHHH #nani indeed...... BREAK THAT MACE!!!! YEAAHHH!!!! law is completely baffled #KAIDO GOT SENT BACK!!!! LETSGOOOOO AND THE OG INTRO MUSIC QUICKS IN!!!! law just saw god again.... #he said fuck off i got this.... omg.... he is either gonna nearly die and doesn't want them to follow or doesn't want to worry about them #while he fights and they try to defend him.... no other explaination (apart for 4 the plot reasons) #talking tag #watching one piece #episode 1028 #luffy king of everything that was such a slay #they changed luffy chiquito's design.... #i was gonna say luffy swimming...... but he can't yet akdhajsj #yasopp taking care of everyones children but his own...... i see how it is.... #WHY WOULD SHANKS STAY IN GOA IF NOT TO TALK WITH GARP WHO LIVES THERE!!! I AM TELLING YOU SHANKS IS IN KAHOOTS WITH THE MARINES!!!! #i was thinking about shanks scar... and thought it might be from buggy with his three knives in between his fingers you know #but it is too small... like the knives would take more space.... but maybei might be reaching and it is from buggy and not like a little paw #or little hand.... however much distrubing you want to paint it.... #shanks is testing little luffy's intelligence... he knows his weak spot already akdhjasj #uta calling herself a diva.... ajshaksn might this be the reason luffy was so inclined to having a musician since the start??? #episode 1029 #that was like a perfectly realistic relationship between an older smartass girl and a younger boy lmao it was spot on

[hycinthrt]

She was the youngest daughter. She did not matter and she was not seen. It was others in her family that had been born to be seen. Her oldest brother, destined to be king; the second son, destined to wait for his turn; the third, who could not aspire for much; and the youngest, who had the great misfortune of being born the most beautiful of them all.

hyacinthus, prince of sparta, as told from the eyes of his shadow. in life and in death

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i finally started posting the other thing i was working on while writing at sunset i said goodbye, and yeah in case it wasn’t obvious i was processing grief and loss at the time which is why both of the stories are literally about mourning family members pfff.

i really don’t expect anyone to read it cause this is the most niche things i’ve ever written, i am mostly posting it because i want to gain that outsider perspective you only get when you make something public. i want to print a copy of it so i can keep it as a record of that time of my life but i want to give it one more edit before i do. yall are more than welcome to read it if you want though, it is a bit messy and all over the place but i am happy with it

#cw death #the apollumi tag #my darling polyboea i have been spending so much time with her #de hyacinth writing #writing #greek mythology #polyboea #hyacinthus #apollo #both of them were me coming to terms with my uncle's death and us not being able to go to the funeral #pretty sure the whole lee and eleanor roadtrip came from me wishing my dad could've gone to say goodbye to his brother #i dont need therapy i am a writer

[anothermonikan]

Have I told you guys about the fucked up dreams I've been having recently? I've been having some fucked up dreams lately. yeah <3

#sorry this is mostly about a dream I had yesterday and if I just say it it's gonna sound so creepypasta-y #like I have a lot of creepypasta-y dreams it's just how my dreams have always worked hehe #It wasn't fucked up because it was scary or anything it was fucked up because of how I felt in it #how to describe it...like I was like almost too calm and accepting of my fate #like okay previous dream context (whether this was context from another actual dream or just. lore my brain made up idk) #I got sentenced to execution. It's...really hard to describe the context without it sounding really silly. #like it was a part of some sick game that a person planned out and it all ended in a white maze room #I was told I could either choose to go free from a month and then be collected for execution or be trapped in the room forever but alive #and I chose to be executed. everyone knew. we all even had silly inside jokes about it ehe #like my friends were picking music out for it. it was really silly hehe! #but the person who came to collect me for execution was so striking. she was like. almost literally a doll #A big doll!! Like she was so so tall!! she actually shrank to be more my size as the dream went on. she was strikingly pretty #and kind. she was so kind #we walked around and said goodbye to everyone. she made friendly conversation. she guided me through how everything was going to go #god the tenderness of it all makes me sqee a lil aha. a little fucked up I think #it was self-inflicted you see. Rose bushes over a tall fence. that's why she was so tall. to help me over #I caught on pretty quickly that she was a person who decided to stay in the room instead of being executed #that's what becomes of them. they become subservient to the game master. they're made to collect the ones who chose to leave and die later #she told me that deep down she kinda wished that doing this for him would convince him to make her human again and to let her be free #I told her that it was bullshit and that he'd never do that. and she was like. yeah. but a girl can dream right? #another one of those dreams that have lines that stick out in my head as well...okay one of them was just really funny #'Hey guys' 'I'm being executed today :D' 'oh. okay!' #dhdhdh #'It's scary isn't it?' 'yeah. it is' 'Well. It'll all be over soon' #like gwah. gwahhhh #'There is something wrong inside of you' levels of impact on my psyche I reckon #me and the doll girl kissed a few times. it was weirdly quite natural. nothing intensive #but I think we both had an understanding that we weren't seeing eachother again and we cared about eachother #it was so greatly platonic and nice. yearning for something I will never experience aha ^^; #Idk if I even want to be in any sort of QPR but it was definitely nice in this dream