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unforgivenn · 2 months

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WOLLEMI DAY 4- AT WEAPON'S POINT

AU of where Caleb *somehow* managed to escape and just starting out his new life happily... hopefully..

CW: Pet whump, Recaptured, themes of captivity, emotional whump, guns!!, shock collar mention, lil bit of angsttt, fear. a lot of it.

Caleb set down the grocery bags, feeling a sense of relief wash over him, finally back in a familiar space where he could begin to rebuild his life. His parents had tried convincing him to stay with him but he just needed some time alone and thankfully, they understood. He hummed to himself, moving towards his room and his closet but froze when he heard a familiar voice behind him.

"Well, well, well, look who decided to crawl out of their hiding hole..." He could basically feel the shit eating grin behind him. Caleb closed his eyes letting some tears drop down his cheeks.

"Dominic..." His heart pounded so fast that he felt it might leap out of his chest. Dominic sighed before grabbing his hair and twisting it pushing him to the wall letting the boy let out a pained cry. He looked at him. Caleb hadn't ever seen him this mad.. And he had seen him mad quite a lot.. He was sure he wouldn't be able to even support his weight if it wasn't for the hand in his hair.

"Guess you've lost your manners too during the time." Dominic slammed his head on the wall as he groaned feeling blood drip down his forehead and nose. He suddenly felt the cold, hard metal of a gun pressing against his temple, the weight of the gun, almost as if it's pushing him down. His heartbeat pounding in his ears, loud and erratic.

"Oh god.. please.. sir please.. I-I swear I won't- I'm so sorry- Please.." He spoke in a shaky, unsteady tone, voice filled with desperation and fear. Brief flashes of all those horrific memories filled his mind. A backhand slap shut him up.

"Goddammit. Do you fucking know how long it took me to find you?! This time I've got to make sure that doesn't happen again.." Dominic paused for a few seconds letting the words settle in Caleb's slow and occupied brain. "You ran away in hope of your family. Didn't chya?" Caleb's eyes suddenly snapped up to his. "Now you won't have anyone in hope for to run away right?" Dominic smiled coldly.

A gut wrenching cry escaped his lips as the reality of his loss sinked in. Tears streamed down his cheeks as he realized there was no escape from The Dominic Sinclair. "No.. God.. P-Please tell me it isnt true.. I'm sorry! I-I wont escape again! Just please.. T-They didn't do anything.."

"Oh pet... Something that's done can't be rewinded hm? Now get up. We're gonna miss our flight."

The whole way Caleb was silent, as if he was waiting to wake up from this horrible nightmare. Dominic had forced a shock collar on him if he decided to do something funny, although Caleb was pretty sure that wasn't going to happen.. There was no point anymore..

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egophiliac · 11 months

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(incoherent bird soldier screeching)

okay, I'm ready, I'm totally ready, I --

(even more incoherent bird soldier screeching)

#art #twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland spoilers #twisted wonderland episode 7 spoilers #twisted wonderland book 7 spoilers #how pathetic am i #oh god the new part comes out at like 4 am thursday morning for me #who am i kidding i am absolutely going to wake up early to get my diadopamine fix #and to throw all my keys and gems into the lilia void #cmon gacha let's GO #i have enough to hit the pity-ssr so i'll probably get like. another dorm trey or something.#trey i like you but why is it ALWAYS you #he's like 'aw you didn't get the guy you wanted? don't worry i'm here for you'#like. thanks i do appreciate the limit breaks. but why is it always you.

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thingsthatcometomymindwheniwrite · 2 months

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father forgive me for the type of fictional characters I say “he just like me fr” about

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b4kuch1n · 9 months

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siren

#bakuspecial #cw: nudity #cw: body horror #monster #siren! I think. they're bird to me #I think this has been brewing since that stream mim did of drawing dnd monsters only from official text description #and when the official art for the sirens were shown I was like. oh thats just a woman with wings #lmao like. granted. its an official dnd book available for all audience. you cant make it too Bad To Look At #(I do not agree with this but it wasnt about me. if its about me its gonna be about very few people lmao)#but yeah. after that I got slightly too into the idea of putting more bird into birdwoman #but I also do genuinely love monsters that are Rearranged Human Parts so. I couldnt commit too much to the bird scales Im so sorry #I wanted the fleshiness. the feel. textural experience of holding her hands and being like oh that's a human #even when ur eyes tell u otherwise. mmm #...I looked to my right as I was typing these tags and saw. the fucked up pikmin I tried to sculpt the other day along with the pin #and got startled #its so. its so fucked up. gods. dusty white naked grainy parsnip #I used to have that one doll I butchered wanting to customize in a box next to me and thats way less upsetting than this. man #its perfect actually I will never throw this thing away. anyways #now. now I go to bed. its sleep time for the baku #have a good night lads! you CAN have it both way easily you just need a big bat

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moonlitkissing · 23 days

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oh to have a sheltered sweet priest to corrupt - lure him away from his promise of eternal celibacy, show him how to worship with his body, the divinity within it instead of the supposed sin that it is

I want him to be a blushing virgin and i want him to almost pass out when i start stripping and i want him crying by the time I'm done with him

I especially want him to cry out to his God, begging for forgiveness, begging for it to never end, asking Him for strength, words barely to be made out between the whimpers as he sinks inside me over and over again, not able to help himself any longer

#she speaks #fem domme #nsft concept #uhh religion kink?#priest kink #inspired by the book I'm reading where i want to throw the priest against a wall (not in a good way)#so i fixed it in my head 🥰#corruption kink #just a liiiiittle

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highladyjane · 7 months

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The assault at Sangravah happened in early ACOMAF (before Elain's existence even came into picture for Azriel - 3 days before he even got to meet Feyre)... So I don't get how G and Az are supposed to be mates when he's had all that time to feel something?

There's the parallel of Rhys' father feeling his mating bond snap into place the moment he met his mother being assaulted.

"One look at her, and he knew what she was..." (ACOMAF, ch. 16)

Or Rhys himself feeling the bond when Feyre was being tortured by Amarantha...

"And I knew as I picked up that knife to kill her... I knew right then what you were. I knew right then that you were my mate." (ACOMAF, ch. 54)

Or Cassian simply meeting Nesta. "Say what I've guessed from the moment we met" he breathed. What I knew from the first time I kissed you. What became unbreakable between us on Solstice night." (ACOSF, ch. 62)

Bonus from Nesta: “‘From the moment I met you, I wanted you more than reason. From the moment I saw you in my house, you were all I could think about. And it terrified me. No one had ever held such power over me."

Or even Lucien after Elain was Made and maybe even while being thrown into the Cauldron... I don't even need a quote for them, but even Lucien knew and has tried seeking Elain out after the incident.

It's stated in the books and shown again and again that it's the males who are deeply affected by the mating bond. That they can know from the moment they meet. They all in one way or another sought after the females. Even Nesta and Feyre felt something before they knew or opened themselves up to it. And since they all met - They. Couldn't. Stay. Away.

But there's like... no hint of it from Az after stumbling upon G? Like he just literally stumbles upon her - never actually even actively seeking her out through all those years? He hasn't even actively tried to stay away? He's just... *crickets*

It's been Gwyn making noises and attracting his attention through all their scenes together. It was Gwyn asking for dagger lessons. It was 'Gwyn' making Az the new ribbon (whatever that means). And it's Az's shadows reacting to Gwyn, not Az himself. But there's no real hint that Gwyn feels anything romantic for him. There's barely any interactions between them without linking it to her assault in Sangravah and her growth from it.

Besides Az's shadows reacting to G, and that ribbon moment that everyone deems so pivotal when Az realises what it means for the Valkyries (that he's had a hand in training) and maybe even reflects upon Gwyn's character development and therefore what the ribbon means for Gwyn - which made me feel proud too, and that's how I interpreted it - but I can't see an undeniable sign of it being a mating bond anywhere.

I thought at first that mayhaps he was giving her space because of the assault, but then the BC came and he went "It was too late to bank without appearing like he was running," and then "He wouldn't go so far as to call Gwyn a friend,". (ACOSF, Azriel's Bonus Chapter)

Let's not even mention the part where Gwyn was actually in danger (no matter how capable she was at that point), while Cassian was going ballistic at Nesta being in danger, but Az is all like "Let's go save Eris". Eris who both he and Cassian hates. Eris who Az himself nearly killed during the HLs' pre-war meeting (before he exhibited actual mate behaviour and sought and risked his life to save Elain who's not even his mate). But no, he gave just as much or even less action and reaction about Gwyn as Tamlin gave when Feyre was UTM.

And I was like...

How are they mates? Where's the mate behaviour every male - mated or not - in Prythian has exhibited throughout the books? Why did I keep seeing things about them being mates and endgame?

The only hint between them that I could even begin to consider it from is the second to last sentence in Az's BC.

"But Azriel tucked away the thought, consciously erasing the slight smile it brought to his face. Buried the image down deep, where it glowed quietly."

But I basically have the same interpretation about that as this post from @merymoonbeam. (Although I'm still neutral about the lightsinger theory, it's the most interesting take.)

Because again.

Why hasn't Azriel felt/shown anything or actively sought her out or even actively stayed away if he's known Gwyn since Sangravah?

If they're mates, shouldn't he have felt and shown something - like that glow - and Gwyn be the one to snap him out of his 'love' for Mor before he even had the chance to meet Elain? If he's just lonely and jealous of his brothers having mates then... Why has he barely noticed or sought out Gwyn who's supposed to be his mate?

What, he had to wait until his shadows reacted to her to even think about her?

I'm not an expert at analysing things - I wouldn't even say I'm good at interpreting things especially when I've got my rose-tinted glasses on, so/but I'm always open to being wrong and changing my mind accordingly.

But/so convince me with actual canon and not just your biased opinions, delusions, self-insertions, or ships.

#this is me questioning people's reading comprehension as well as my own #and me wanting to respect it even if i don't agree with it #this was also me anticipating the hint of them being mates while reading ACOSF for the first time 'cause their shippers were everywhere #but like... it never came?#did i miss something #triggered by the hate their shippers are spreading when there's nothing to truly back it up with #it's too bloody late for SJM to backpedal #don't you dare waste 4 books worth of really good foreshadowing and emotional investment #you can't just throw gwyn in there after all that #they all deserve better than that #mate behaviour #azriel acotar #pro elriel #azriel shadowsinger

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captaincanonly · 28 days

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none of these make sense. send help. i’ve gone woke…..

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anervousmirrorball · 30 days

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the way it fucks you up to have to see your parents as flawed people and not just your parents and having to deal with the emotional turmoil of you did this to me I have no one to blame except you and i can't blame you cause you didn't know better but if i can't blame you how do I forgive you

#Never opening this book again #I want to keep this file inside my head in a safe and throw it in the river

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iamnmbr3 · 1 year

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Everyone adapting Dracula: so what do you think of our adaptation?

Me: I don’t love all the toxic sexist stuff you put in ngl.

Them: no no it’s fine. the book was written in the 1800s so....

Me: ok but was any of this stuff you added actually in the book?

Them: ... no

Me: Wasn’t the book about the 1800s version of a gnc power couple with their poly coded friend group fighting the embodiment of assault and toxic relationships?

Them: hm yeah idk. it was written in the 1800s so like. it’s gotta have strict gender roles and slut shaming! woot!

Me: ... yeah dude i think this is a you thing

#like yeah ofc the book is dated bc it was written in the 1800s but i feel like ppl use the fact that it was old timey to throw a #ton of sexist and toxic stuff into their adaptations without getting called out even tho it wasn't even in the book...#also the wa dracula is basically the embodiment of toxic masculinity and jonathan harker isn't and they all hate on jonathan and glorify #dracula s this tragic misunderstood hero who all the women 'really' actually definitely totally wanted #is very sketch #Dracula #dracula daily #my post

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andromeda3116 · 7 months

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people actually went on about how game of thrones made it socially acceptable to be a fantasy nerd, as though the lord of the rings movies hadn't been released less than a decade earlier and left far greater cultural ripples and i am just

got may have made the adults feel better about liking fantasy, but lotr got into the kids' heads when they (we) were just young and impressionable enough to be absolutely transported and emotionally rewritten by don't you leave him, samwise gamgee and my brother, my captain, my king and and rohan will answer

lotr was rewriting entire generations' brain chemistry long before asoiaf and so obviously it's not fair to compare any post-lotr fantasy novel to it, and each book series was trying to do different things within their own spheres and so that also is not a fair comparison, but in terms of the cultural impact of the adaptations that came out within a decade of each other, saying that it was game of thrones that made fantasy mainstream is baffling

game of thrones could only run because the lord of the rings movies laid the path, and i will die on this hill

#lotr #lord of the rings #lord of the rings movies #i started this post because ''may it be'' came up on my playlist but now i think i'm going to start my nth rewatch of the trilogy #there is a lot to discuss about it re: comparison to the books but it's like...#for all the changes they made - good and bad and neutral - everyone involved in making the films *loved* the source material #they all *wanted* to do justice to it and believed in it and it shows #i think of some posts i've seen about how frustrating this modern push towards tongue-in-cheek irony over sincerity #so afraid to be corny or cheesy that you have to tack a joke onto every real emotional moment #like no fuck that #give me sam hauling frodo onto his shoulders saying ''i can't carry it for you but i can carry you''#give me aragorn gently kissing boromir's forehead as he dies #give me merry and pippin throwing themselves at the uruk hai to distract them from frodo #give me theoden's grand speeches and gandalf's pained expression when frodo says he'll carry the ring #tbh i think that sincerity is a large part of *why* it has such staying power even now #because it is a story you are meant to get deeply emotionally invested in and not hold yourself a little ironically apart from #it isn't meant to sell merch it's meant to bring you to middle-earth and capture your heart and make you believe that the war can be won #with love and loyalty and hope and fellowship and fidelity and integrity and just... just refusing to give in to despair #it is earnest. it is unafraid to be melodramatic or corny because it believes in the story it's telling.#and so it imprinted onto a whole generation growing up right at the cusp of a barrage of apocalypses #anyway. i have Feelings about these movies and their impact and how that mirrors and enhances the books' own impact

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hungergamesheadcanons · 4 months

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Post-revolution Annie just posts random videos of Finnick and their son on the internet and they always go viral because people have only ever seen Finnick as playboy extraordinare and now they see Finnick being a dumbass father who's trying his best and it's very endearing and 90% of the time the camera pans out to an unimpressed Johanna or Katniss and it's great

#the hunger games #finnick odair #katniss everdeen #annie cresta #johanna mason #listen he's trying #he's never done anything like this before #he needs a minute #finnick ringing his mum like “MUM THE BABY IS CRYING ALL NIGHT WHAT AM I DOING WRONG 😭”#“mum he reached for my lobster can he have it” “finnick hes 6 weeks old”#“mum is he meant to be throwing himself off every surface??” “i mean you did so take that as you will” “NOT HELPFUL”#“can i take him swimming yet?? i want to show him the sharks 😁😁” “finnick hes 2 months old ffs”#Annie's just watching the chaos and texting Finnick's mum like “sorry mum dont stress it I got this”#Finnick's mum just sat there like “at least one of you knows wtf is going on”#jokes on her annie just has a million parenting books she flips through to answer her questions before heading to google #annies search history includes 'how old til baby can visit ocean'#'can i make baby food out of anything'#'how to tell my husband that hes doing fine but holding the baby like that is going to send me into a coma'

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egophiliac · 1 year

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HELLOOOO HAVE YOU SEEN LILIA'S DORM CARD YETTTT

personally, what made me most gleeful about the update news is that the part 2 description implies that they forgot to invite Malleus to Lilia's farewell party. god yes rub that salt into the wound, Monday can't come soon enough

#art #twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland spoilers #twisted wonderland episode 7 spoilers #twisted wonderland book 7 spoilers #i've been refreshing myself on part 1 and i just want to call out one of my favorite little bits #when silver is like 'w-what. you can't leave. what about our HOUSE'#and lilia just goes 'oh yeah i don't own the house. it's just some abandoned cottage i found in the woods!'#'we've technically been squatters for the last sixteen-ish years!'#lilia you're actually kind of terrible and this is why i love you #i JUST finished grinding out 800 of those stupid juices for his sunset warrior card #time to throw my crummy little handful of remaining keys into the void i guess #thank you azul for having a birthday just in the nick of time so i can get those sweet free keys

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myenterpriseisparked · 10 months

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Okay I understand where people are coming from with the "emotional suppression in Vulcans is learned not genetic" talk re: "Charades" but, consider......... the emotional suppression is muscle memory, and the aliens took away the mental muscles that remembered how to do it. It's a crude metaphor on my part, but that was the way I saw it.

Also consider: it's a sci fi show using extremely high-concept bullcrap science on a weekly basis and maybe nitpicking it is a fruitless endeavor because none of it is going to make sense otherwise and enjoying the ride for what it is is a much more enjoyable way to engage with this franchise. Sometimes you need to shrug and let dumb things happen and laugh.

#i am so sick of whatching people find itty bitty things to pick SNW apart over #I'm trying really hard not to get internet preachy about it because everyone it entitled to their own opinions #but some people really beed to calm down and stop taking everything so seriously #Star Trek has NEVER had completely accurate science #or consistent rules within it's own universe #I mean look at Threshold #that is 1000% Not How Evolution Works #like at all #but we all laugh it off and throw a party about it every year #or how about the fact that Miles O Brien was a Leiutenant #and then he was suddenly an enlisted man #I could go on #but the point is that if you get caught up in the trees you'll miss the forest #and also a bundle of laughs because that was a very funny episode #was it perfect? of course not #but I am not gonna let the flaws ruin the whole thing for me #I had fun and laughed and smiled and that's all that really matters in my book #Strange New Worlds #snw spoilers #I'm really hesitant to tag this because I don't want people coming for my head lol #but alas I need to make sure people who haven't watched the episode can block spoilers

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uukipi · 13 days

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no new art just posting my propaganda of the week

i think everyone in the acotar series should fight over lucien bc hes so cool hot sexy cute and deserves all the love in the world and ik everone wants him!!!!!! *mwuah* <- das him getting a big fat wet kiss!!!!!!!!

#im so normal about lucien help #i want to EAT HIM #WHOLE #i need some vindication in the next book bc wym bro got his ass handed to him for no reason and his ONE FRIEND isint even kind to him #i love angst but hey sjm im gonna throw up #like he used to b so snarky and fun and then EVERYTHING happened and now hes just so sad!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#oouuu inner circle and feyre when i get my hands on you #lets b honest shes not even rly int the IC #pro lucien vanserra #lucien vanserra #no bc actually what did he do #i need someone to sit me down and bullet point list me all the reason why the ic doesnt give af about this guy i feel like im going insane

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incorrect-ikevamp-quotes · 1 year

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Saint Germain, shocked: You have a fake ID? With a fake name and everything?

Isaac: I don't have to explain myself-

Leonardo, sitting against a bookshelf on the floor: He used it to get a second library card so he can take out twice as many books at once.

#ikevamp #ikemen vampire #ikevamp isaac #ikevamp comte #ikevamp saint germain #ikevamp leonardo #ikevamp leo #ikevamp incorrect quotes #honestly i love the concept of this especially because isaac used to throw hands back in the day #isaac out here like 'im going goblin mode' and its just because he wants to carry ten more books than the library's limit allows #i dont even know how somebody says no to this guy in the first place #i swear he deflates even a little and it gives me that feeling like when i step on a dog's tail by accident #like 'oh my god im so sorry here take it take whatever you want'#i am also convinced that leonardo only knows about it cuz sebas was obsessed #comte is probably like 'honestly? could have been worse--i'll allow it'#the man has seen too much

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cerealmonster15 · 1 year

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funny tiny guys doing funny tiny guy things

#twisted wonderland #riddle rosehearts #jamil viper #azul ashengrotto #twst #ya whatever throw them 2 the tags #behold my tinied guys #anyway. vague very loose ref to book 6 with riddle and azul but not really a spoiler either lol #very excited to play it when it comes to engtwst next month AAAA anyway.#having a lot of fun with guest room #my first fight was also jamiazu and it was so funny #JAMIL WOULD NOT STOP SAYING THE BUGS LINE #especially like. almost every time azul sat down #jamil IMMEDIATLEY was like NO BUGS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! like ok man chill #cereal tries to draw #anyway cant wait til i unlock third slot i so badly want all three of them to han gout

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