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feline-evil · 10 days

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Dick or no dick confirmation Pickles was always going to be trans to me anyways; if he's swingin' somethin that's phallo babes, if he's not then his t-dick fat. What's not to get.

#metalocalypse #jay talkin #I'm sorry they wrote that awful gross little man far too likeable and relatable to on a trans level #for me not to hoot and holler and cheer for the trans pickles agenda #changes nothing about his character arc or any of the show anyone is capable of being the kind of person he is #don't make the mistake of thinking thats exclusive to cis men #his transness wouldnt change that #only adds on an extra layer to him that i think works fantastically.#Listen that dude was rejected by his family driven to drink and drugs young to escape that ran away to be in a band #is called fucking Pickles of all things and refuses to tell anyone his real last name;#over the span of four seasons and two movies he slowly starts to learn to be for others what he never had #he becomes more caring more supportive #it's not a stretch to say he undoes some of the toxic masculinity he's been keeping himself shielded behind #and learns how to be a kinder man.#all of which have no contradictions with him being trans!#In fact it doesn't take much extra thought to find ways a lot of this can line up with some trans masculine experiences #i mean. Did no one else have a younger phase where they swung as far as they could into crass rude and uncaring ways #to try and assert their masculinity only to grow and realise that you can be a man and be more caring.#Did no one else have father issues. 1 800 come on now i know those are both shared experiences a lot of us have had LOL.#at the end of the day this show aired nearly 20 years ago and is finished. we're not getting more of it #so nothing is altered nor changed if pickles is canonically trans or not ok. its fine #i mean hell i dont even need canon confirmation hes trans to me and thats all i care abt #but i think if yr getting suuuuuper weird abt needing him not to be canonically trans you have some issues #and bio essentialist ideals of gender if you think only a cis man can act like he does #again. anyone can be like that. its not exclusive. him being trans would not change him in any way shape or form lol #AND ALSO GODDDUUUGH for once i love getting to see a guy pushing 50 whos depicted as trans #do you have any idea how dire and barren it is out here. we never get to see a trans guy older than 30 and whos not a pristine model #I WANT MORE OLD SHLUBBY SHITHEAD TRANS GUYS IN MEDIA

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trans-estinien · 1 month

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people really love to conveniently forget trans men exist when they talk about feminism. or if they dont they make us out as also part of the problem as if we somehow are able to have the same amount of privilege as cis men. absolutely wild

#“not all men” is a valid statement because its fucking true #like guys. seriously. not every single man is evil #feminism isnt about putting men down its about raising women up to be equal and getting rid of gender inequality #sorry im seeing a massive uptick in people hating on trans men for being men lately and its fucking stupid #like yall are doing a great job at making me feel ashamed to be a man who likes men. awesome thanks guys #i dont normally make posts like this but its been rattling around in my mind for a few days now #its always put out like. all men (trans or not) are Inherently Evil and all women (trans or not) are Inherently Victims #which is absolutely the stupidest shit ive ever seen #and they also leave out anyone who doesnt fit into the man/woman dichotomy. and if they dont its always seen as woman lite #which is also stupid as fuck #not every nb/agender/other person is feminine asshole #anways. case in point. can we stop demonizing masculinity while also discussing the effects of misogyny and the patriarchy please.#because both of those things are very real and very much do hurt people #but im sick of people lashing out at trans men as if the problem magically doesn't affect us anymore because we are men #because guess what! newsflash! it affects trans AND cis men too!!#i shouldnt have to explain it should be obvious but like. im tired man #sorry ill forever be annoyed at women who just hate every single man who dares breathe in their direction because they COULD be an asshole #if you hate someone because of their gender no matter what gender it is i Do Not Trust You #anyways thanks for coming to my ted talk. replies are off cause i dont want to argue with people i just want to express my opinion

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rotting-brains · 2 months

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Me after saying DID doesn't affect me too bad as if it doesn't make me completely unable to feel any excitement and joy for reaching the most important goals

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devilfruitdyke · 1 year

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the she/theys vs he/theys and wlw vs mlm posts are symptoms of a larger problem within the queer community 👍

#1. lack of consciousness of beauty standards 2. no grasp of intersectionality 3. focus on online discourse and not queer theory #'discourse' used very literally there. this is not a sick dunk on Minors These Days #anyway we as lgbtq people are very focused on ourselves as oppressed that we dont realize how we are perpetuating/internalizing...#... oppressive beliefs #see how all 'g ender envy' is almost exclusively skinny *white* conventionally attractive cis people #i saw someone say something like 'dont tag as gender envy be yr own person' the other day #and that really opened my eyes ?#we can be so caught up in the politics of being trans (usually as yr only minority group)#that it basically turns into 'skinny white cis men are the ideal of manhood dont ask me why though idk'#its deeply internalized #same goes with the 2 posts i mentioned #ps. i KNOW gender envy is what you personally find enviable and you shouldnt forced to change yr attraction for political reasons #but its the same shit that cishet beauty standards have been for centuries #very similar to how the only models in magazines are skinny white cis women #they dont say that fat people/trans women/woc arent worth their pages. its implied.#we just need to think about what we're implying every day as a community.#also i have a personal thing against gender envy culture because you guys forced me to see FUCKING V OMITBOYX EVERY DAY IN LIKE 2020 #/JOKE I SWAER. unless i get told one more time that im not really trans because i dont want short hair over my eyes. then i snap #<3

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reinabeestudio · 12 days

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you stop shaving as a woman and people just dont know what to call you anymore huh

#you ever get so annoyed that you draw ur irl self instead of your epic swag yass slay pretty sona #i didnt stop shaving for any statement btw it just drains me to do it & i havent been in the mood for months LMAO #i think i'm so used to the comfort of being surrounded by ppl presenting however they want and calling themselves whatever #sometimes i forget how. binary everything still is where i live #note that aint trans btw. i was afab & i dont fully identify as that currently but i have no problem being called a girl #and due to Health Reasons(tm) i get hairier than one would consider 'normal' for a woman (among other things)#(listen we all know gender is a nuanced spectrum but im not in the mood to talk about it in the tags of my own blog lol)#that + short + fat + voice breaks sometimes + mostly wears 'gender neutral' clothing. been mistaken for a prebuscent guy sometimes #(i say 'gender neutral' but its just regular ass baggy shirts and pants/jeans. 💥)#and if y'know me personally youre prolly reading this like 'what'. and yeah thats my reality sometimes LMAO #and im spanish so things are Extra gendered >8'D #i dont even bother explainin my gender to family its just not worth it so i take the she/her and move on #usually i dont talk about these irl things bc whatever but it's starting to irritate me lol #like. do i have to fuckin shave just to not be misgendered. fuckin christ dude #i need to get my yearly haircut btw. i dont like long hair on myself. its getting warm & it makes me sweat i hate it 🧍‍♂️

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perenlop · 6 days

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everyone loves to say “get that man pregnant” til you actually get that man pregnant…..

#fr tho i get it like for dysphoria but i do wish ppl didnt immediately slam this sort of thing as inherently transphobic #like its a sensitive thing and it can certainly be portrayed offensively but its a neutral thing in of itself yknow?#and with trans ppl being denied reproductive rights ive grown kinda sick of this #i remember i was stressing abt castor even tho he doesnt even go through any of that onscreen but now im like. yeah that guy got pregnant.#yeah this nb person knocked someone up. if you dont like it then im sorry but… cope lol #(they dont even know abt my hypothetical future hc where valerie has a bio kid with asha)#idk this is one of those topics where we should have a conversation abt how trans pregnancy is portrayed and how ppl do fetishize it #like it’s something that should be handled with grace. but at the same time it shouldnt be a hard ‘’do not do this or youre transphobic’’#like saying as an nb person who doesnt want kids its literally fine. other nb ppl do want that #echoed voice

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tkbrokkoli · 5 months

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learned today we're gonna have to leave our bags and jackets in a locker room. so far so good

however, there is only one for men and one for women and i'd feel most comfy in a gender neutral one

like i dont wanna be a man in the women's room but i also dont wanna be the masculine woman in the men's room

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caffeinatedopossum · 2 years

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Actually fuck people who don't like hyper specific labels for genders and sexualities. If you've never had to think you were the only one that feels how you feel before, if you've never needed a name to explain something that other people already relate to, you have a privilege that not everyone has.

Thinking you're different, thinking there's something wrong with you sucks. So much. And people discovering the language to express that they aren't the only one, that it's known and identifiable, is actually so important and hurts no one.

#no hate to anyone who doesn't personally like or want labels though #you guys are usually super chill #this is just specifically for people who think that you dont need anything other than gay and straight #or gay and straight and bisexual and sometimes (rarely) they also recognize asexual #or cis and trans/nonbinary #if you fall into a different category or if you fall into a more specific category thats okay #and also i just found out i fall into one of these more specific categories too actually #and idk if ill make a post about it or not because this is very very personal to me but basically #it was extremely important to me to have this label #like the amount that i no longer feel ashamed or broken or like im a flawed human is something i cant even express #and i think everyone deserves to feel this kind of acceptance and understanding

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sundial-bee-scribbles · 6 months

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3, 6, 14, 15, and 20

uhhhhh i'll just do these 3 b/c i've been thinking abt them lately

3. have they died before? as it currently stands, spencer's dead dead yeah and not coming back, lucian is also dead (stuck as undead in his main timeline and while he might've suffered a less terrible death in other ones he still is probably dead in those). in aurelio's case they tried to execute him but it didn't work so i don't know if that counts as a death technically? don't know if he's completely immortal either but he survived the execution so that's gotta count for something lmaoo?

6. what's their greatest fear? aurelio's is loneliness and i think lucian's would be death; at the moment i can't think of one for spencer but? i suppose fearing consequences would be very fitting for him.

14&15. are they trans? / are they neurodivergent? up to interpretation.

20. will they recover from their trauma or will it consume them? i actually think, given enough time after the main story events, aurelio might, eventually. but the whole point of spencer & lucian's storylines is that, no they dont lol: i'd say their stories focus on the effects of not allowing yourself to move on from your trauma and fixating on it to the dangerous point of destroying everything around you and yourself (ESPECIALLY in lucian's). there is the small chance that maybe in one alternate timeline lucian does actually somewhat recover in some part, but for his main timeline nah

#ask #my ocs #aurelio #spencer #lucian #lol i wasnt actually expecting to get one of these?? i wouldve done all the main protagonists but we are NOT ready to unpack all that yet #aurelio and lucians fears are kinda funny given how they ended up ahjkskh. and spencer's def would be too given his circumstances #but tbh he's kind of a shit person so like. lol. SORRY HKJSHK he becomes less sympathetic the more i think about his story 😭😭#see for 14&15 i have other ocs where its more explicitly implied/stated but for these guys im hesitant on officially saying anything b/c #like. keep in mind they kill people so 😭. i dont want people to jump to the conclusion that im demonizing trans and/or nd people #i do welcome alternate readings of my stuff and if u wanna make ur own personal hcs but my og intent is never to be demeaning/hateful :(#im always just scared of people taking things the wrong way in my stories oof. theres a lot of complexities/nuance yknow #i do know there's certain details in aurelio & lucian's stories that you could piece together and interpret them as trans possibly?#which wasnt the og intent but they are there so again up to personal interpretation; spencer i feel is most likely cis tho lmfao 😭#funnily enough tho some other charas in his story sorta got their genders transed during development??#again ALL of this though is under major development so a lot of stuff definitely isnt final. lots of story things in my head #i spilled tea all over myself and my computer in the process of answering this 😭😭😭

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grimmjowjaegerjaquez · 10 months

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Remembering the brief period in my life when i was obsessed with ashido, the only filler character with rights bc kubo originally planned to include him in the manga but had to cut him for time

#bleachposting #maybe its time to think about him again since i think about arrancar and hueco mundo so much #maybe its time to make him interact with the rest of them super begrudgingly #hey soul society we found one of your guys living in our basement. yeah he couldnt figure out how to leave. yeah for like 100 years.#do you want him back or.#listen i think hed be kind of upset to see how many parallels he has with the arrancar #wrt being stuck in survival mode for so long and trying to figure out how to be a person again #like can you see it. can you smell what im saying.#and also more frustrations he tries to ignore regarding his zanpakuto still not telling him its name #and it wont until he kind of. accepts some things about himself.#also maybe he should have cool fights with them and gain a mutual respect. listen. im right.#i remember wanting to make an rp blog for him #and it did exist briefly but i was so nervous about it #i dont think i ever advertised it on my other blogs. does it still exist?? did tumblr ever nuke it?? i cant remember the name #anyway during my brief obsession with him i projected on him super hard and made him trans. why? because. i could.#will i keep him that way? probably. just in a different way.#he hasnt had to deal with normie societal expectations in a long ass time. gender is whatever to him. thog dont caare.#he may have been holding onto the duties of a shinigami as a last straining tether to his sanity but like. that shit is going to snap.#its just a matter of when. and only THEN will he be able to move forward i think. instead of just being stuck the way he is.#like yeah he is literally stuck since shinigami cant make gargantas. but he is also metaphorically stuck. see it writes itself.#APPARENTLY HES IN ONE OF THE LIGHT NOVELS AND TRAINS A BABY CIEN?? THATS SO CUTE WTF

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yo9urt · 7 months

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hello followers. normally i barely tag anything but because season 4 of s3x educ4t10n (avoiding search results) came out yesterday and i binged it i tagged it sex ed s4 in case anyone would like to avoid spoilers. the spam is below this post. watch out

#mine #im so EMOOOOOOOOO #i think probably my biggest frustration is otis #i feel like he did not grow nearly as much as everyone else on the show and he was kind of annoying #a lot of the time #it was frustrating to see him having the same problems and personality traits he had in season 1 #when basically everyone around him had moved on and grown so much #on that note it was beyond beautiful to see the other characters come into their own #eric aimee and adam in particular really hit me #i loved the increased focus on disability and accessibility #and one of my absolute favorite parts was the addition of a trans guy character #not just because i want to see myself on screen in some way but also because cal really needed a friend #who would understand #especially the scene where umm...i dont remember exactly what he said #he being roman. i think roman said like...top surgery made him feel like himself again #or something like that #as someone who was lucky enough to get top i will ride hard for it until the day i die #and i was so overjoyed to see that on the screen in a show so many people watch #a character openly talking about how it benefited them #in a conversation with a character who visibly had their mental health heavily impacted by their dysphoria #it was really beautiful....#anyway.....yeah

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matoitech · 2 years

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just recently typed out a big post abt why i especially dont like promare high school aus in particular and then deleted it cuz i didnt want 2 b a hater and i felt like i complained abt it enough. perhaps i shyould complain abt them More lest ppl think when i say i like aus i mean the common boring ones many of which i have a visceral hate inmy heart for (mostly the school ones coffee shop stuff is boring but i dont Hate it i jsut dont read it)

#the tldr is i think ageing adult characters Back into having to go thru high school again is just stupid #i literally only think that makes sense if u r in high school. but high schoolers never want to write abt hs they want to write abt college #so its always like. 30 yr olds writing abt 15 yr old versions of characters who r actually like 25. ITS JUST WEIRD AND STUPID #AND W PROMARE SPECIFICALLY IT IS /ALWAYS/ OOC. GALO AND LIO ARENT JOCK X NERD FOOTBALL PLAYER X STRAIGHT A STUDENT #OR WHATEVER THE FUCK THIS ISNT HEARTSTOPPERS THEYRE AUTISTIC TRANS GUYS #GALOS LIKE A SCENE GIRL IN ANIME CLUB THAT HAS ONE OF THOSE FOX TAILS ON HIS BACKPACK #LIO IS CUTTING CLASS TO SMOKE WEED IN THE WOODS #EVEN IF THEY WENT TO THE SAME HIGH SCHOOL THEY PROBABLY WOULDNT EVEN RLY SEE EACH OTHER!!!!#i also just think chars meeting as adults is much more compelling and realistic to like a typical lgbt experience personally lmao #esp when ur trans #AND AGAIN THEYRE FUCKING AUTISTIC. WHAT KIND OF SCHOOL EXPERIENCE DO U THINK THEYRE HVAING AS DISABLED STUDENTS????#ALSO OF EVERY AU U COULD MAKE FOR PRMARE THIS IS LIKE ONE OF THE TOP BORING ONES U COULD POSSIBLY DO #DO LIKE A FANTASY AU KNIGHT WEREWOLF DRAGON VAMPIRE WHATEVRET THE FUCK #also i cant vibe w it for prmare for so many reasons but also cuz i dont think lio even finished high school and galo prob barely graduated #so imjust like THIS WOULDNT HAPPEN !!!!

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myriadsystem · 4 months

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Seeing a lot of shaving hate posts lately. Like not even posts thats like 'oh you can shave if you want to! Heres how to safely but theres no pressure to do it if you dont want to societys rules are fake do what makes you happy!'

Its like. Mostly ladies and femininely aligned people expressing what i hope is exaggerated but seemingly genuine sadness and anger at people who do shave, also usually towards other femininely aligned people. Like theyve personally suffered some great and tragic loss because a hot babe chose to shave her own legs for her own reasons and its the worst thing to ever happen to them personally and on a global level.

Idk it makes me angry. I shave my legs. (And my pits and my bits too) I dont do it for the fucken patriarchy i dont do it for the vine i dont do it for some made up beauty standard, i do it because i like the feeling. It feels nice to me to shave as part of my shower routine then get out and cover myself in my favourite moisturiser and then roll around in cozy soft pajamas. Thats one of lifes little luxuries and yall can bet a depressed bitch holds on to the tiniest of luxuries whenever she can. If men didnt exist, if the patriarchy didnt exist and i lived in a world of only lesbian ladies i would still fucken shave! If i lived as the only person on the planet id still shave! Because i do it for myself because i enjoy it!

I understand how harmful forcing women to shave to fit an ever changing and unobtainable beauty standard is. I understand how deeply that experience is trained into girls from a young age and i do have many, many problems with the way society is run and the negative self worth effects it often has on younger people who are just figuring out themselves. But yall please stop with the straight up hate and vitriol for people who do chose to shave their own legs. You yell so hard for bodily autonomy then you chuck a hissy fit when a lady choses for her own body to shave it because its not what you would have done, or you think shes trapped in a beauty bubble of mans making. You cant possibly conceive that an adult woman can make her own choices if those choices are too close to the idea of the patriarchy you hold in your mind.

But thats bullshit. The act of shaving isnt the enemy and the lady who shaves herself and minds her own business isnt either. If shes not giving you disgusted looks at your own body hair or pushing her shaving agenda on you, let her live her fucking life maybe without shaming her for something that makes her feels good.

#personal #just real fucking sick of this lately guys?? this isnt solidarity its bullying #you think youre helping but youre not. just say shaving doesnt have to be an option if u dont like it rather than making it #a personal attack on ladies who do shave. youre not helping when you shit on other women for doing stuff they like #just because its different than what you /think/ they should like #fucking pissing me off how many takes i see lately thats like. the patriarchy is bad and should die and also every woman who participates #whether for her own reasons or not should also die dont they see theyre smothering us 'real' ladies who dont shave?#like its such a fucked up mindset to have actually please take a step back and think about who youre hurting when you try to help like that #because thats not support. thats not womanly solidarity it is straight up fucking bullying #trans women are obviously included here too. ladies if you want to shave then do!#if you dont want to thats okay too! just try to learn which feels best for you and dont shame other people #if what works for them is different. you are beautiful hairy and you are beautiful hairless and the lady doing the opposite to you #is not your enemy. shes a friend with her own personal likes and habits. she might even be a lover if you open your mind #and stop bullying her for not doing the same as you

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tkbrokkoli · 4 months

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me pre T: wow, some guys are rly impatient for their results on T. it's puberty after all and takes year!

me, two days on T: pakige?

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were--ralph · 2 months

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Hey i saw you ranting about trans men on a post, and i was just wondering a few things. This is a genuine question, as a stelth trans man, i really cant find anything about a pre op transitioning body attractive. Especially a pre op Chest. Now i do take testosterone, and i think that the parts that i find gross (ex: tits mixed with chest hair) are a perfectly acceptable thing to deal with so i can look the way i want to look. I love my body hair and my muscle growth, i just dont love the obviously not cis parts of me. What do you find attractive about this? I truely cannot for the life of me understand why people find trans men attractive but i would really like to understand.

I think spicy food is disgusting generally. it's like. hot and not fun and to me it adds nothing good to the food experience. Genuinely I don't understand why people enjoy hot foods it makes like. literally no sense.

and yet, people do. it's weird. I've tried on multiple occasions to get into spicy food and it just. suks. every single time it sucks. But everyone else in my family lives by it. And I've asked why for years literally unable to understand it until I realized.

sometimes people just. like things. things I certainly don't like and cannot enjoy whatsoever. But at the same time, this is true for me and not for them. I fucking love coffee to the point I drink it more than water most days, but no one else in my family likes it. BUT other people outside my family enjoy it too.

Life is weird and what I'm getting at is something that took me a lifetime to understand and I still can't wrap my head around it all the time.

People just like things. People love things and hate things. What things mean to one person can mean the world to another and death to the third. There's not always a reason for it, but what you have to do is accept that there are things in life that you just might not like much right now. but as time goes on you'll find value in it the same way your partner will find value in you and all the minuscule things you do and become and like and dislike.

And to build on that point, there are things I hated as a kid that I'm fine with and even love now. Each day changes you more than you'll ever know and with those changes, the acceptance that comes with them may be easier or harder.

So, to answer your question, I don't know! I just love men. Men with tits or pecs, men with vaginas or dicks. maybe both at the same time or neither at all! I just think men are generally attractive no matter the design or what's different about them. and not just men but people who present as masc in general. If you're masc nb there's a chance I'm looking at you through the window of a bar as much as if you were cis-male or trans-male.

I do know for some men, the allure of masculinity displaced with the typically-feminine concept of a vagina intrigues them. Maybe it's the juxtaposition of them together, maybe they just want something unique and new to them. Maybe they just really like vaginas and it doesn't matter who it's attached to, or maybe they just like trans men. Same thing with boobs, some guys just like boobs. Some men have boobs. the overlap doesn't mean net-negative results, it could be double positive.

And I don't expect you to love everything about yourself, god knows I don't love everything about myself, and despite people telling me what's good about me I can still find flaws within it whenever I choose. I think men with chest hair are hot as fuck, but also I've seen some smooth men that are just as if not hotter. I love me a fat man or a man with muscles, but i've seen twinks i'd demolish in one sitting as well. I've seen men with dicks and boobs and scars and and hair pretty much everything under the sun and sometimes I want them to sit on me and forget I'm there and smother me.

What you do have to do though is accept that you have those things, and you are those things, and even though you may not like those things you have to accept that they're a part of you and find value in that. And it's not an easy task at all to love yourself, but you have to try because even if you don't right now, there's a partner who will be waiting for you somewhere. there's a future version of you who loves you as you are. there are friends who love your flaws, pets who don't judge, and there are a lot of things that accept you as you are.

So just say you have boobs and chest hair. even if you don't love it about yourself right now know that there are and will always be people who do, and personally I've said before, but I wish i had boobs and chest hair it's just a perfect look to me. I'm fine with whatever my gender is, i just think its a good look. If I had money for top and bottom surgery I'd get it and never look back. You just have to find the value in yourself we all know is there, and if you can't just know that we know it's there and let that carry you through the day!

#i think i lost the plot a bit #but you get it

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pachimation · 6 months

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redrawing my very first chiscara comic/art i ever did for chscr day!!

old comic under the cut!!

lol a bunch of sappy semi serious stuff below bc i cant help but be a bit genuine about this ship today :’3

i cant possibly put into words how important this silly little ship and its community mean to me haha,,,, this comic was made in 2021 but i didnt really get serious about chscr until late 2022 after a bunch of pretty bad interpersonal stuff happened and i needed an outlet,, COINCIDENTALLY a certain someone was announced to be playable around then and i was already thought chscr was Pretty Neat™️ so i ended up diving headfirst into the ship. it also gave me a good excuse to work on more comics too!! i’d done a pretty big zhongven comic earlier that year in the summer, but in terms of lore there was only so much i could have worked with at the moment.

childe and scaramouche have that perfect combination of silliness and angst and violence that could be explored or expanded in so many ways and i love love love seeing other people’s interpretations of their dynamic and relationship. they’re so complex,,,,they’re narrative foils,,,they’re narrative parallels,,,they’re trans allegories,,,they’re flies in the spiderweb of the games lore,,,they’re my stupid little meow meows,,, they’re just two losers i want to see make out,,,

in a nutshell, they’re everything to me. well, i hope i get that kind of sentiment across in my own comics,,,,

and i cant get started on all the people ive met through chiscara or the way that having something i can call “my thing”, as in, the thing that i like and that i will spend a lot of time and effort (and money, but lets not talk about that) to surround myself with because it makes me smile. its stupid to say, but being a nerd about these two stupid guys who have never had a single canon onscreen interaction in some random game has made me a much happier and confident person that i could have ever imagined back in my freshman year of college,,, when i say i dont know who i’d be if i hadnt gotten into chiscara, i really do mean it lol

i’m actually surprised i’m making it to over a full year of regular-ishly making art, especially for the same game and ship! thats never happened before and my art has improved so much over this past year!! more than anything else, i’m happy! i get to be excited talking about these characters with my friends and i love to see art of them pop up on the tl. i make stickers of them and decorate my phonecase with them and have little figures of them in my room that i look at when im up late at night working on schoolwork. sometimes just the thought of finishing a comic or daydreaming about a scenario or seeing what my mutuals are up to are some of the few things getting me through a tough day.

,,,,so believe me when i say, to both childe and scara and to everyone else as obsessed with these pathic losers as i am, thank you! i’m having a lot of fun!!!

(also i just found out tumblrs copy/paste doesnt work on my ipad??? idk if this ends up legible i may or may not have deleted smth by accident and im not in a mood to proofread haha)

#genshin impact #childe #tartaglia #scaramouche #chiscara #scarachilde #my art #comic #no super long rant in the tags this time bc i already made a chscr rant haha #happy chiscara day everybody!!

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