#i think i lost the plot a bit

[were--ralph]

Hey i saw you ranting about trans men on a post, and i was just wondering a few things. This is a genuine question, as a stelth trans man, i really cant find anything about a pre op transitioning body attractive. Especially a pre op Chest. Now i do take testosterone, and i think that the parts that i find gross (ex: tits mixed with chest hair) are a perfectly acceptable thing to deal with so i can look the way i want to look. I love my body hair and my muscle growth, i just dont love the obviously not cis parts of me. What do you find attractive about this? I truely cannot for the life of me understand why people find trans men attractive but i would really like to understand.

I think spicy food is disgusting generally. it's like. hot and not fun and to me it adds nothing good to the food experience. Genuinely I don't understand why people enjoy hot foods it makes like. literally no sense.

and yet, people do. it's weird. I've tried on multiple occasions to get into spicy food and it just. suks. every single time it sucks. But everyone else in my family lives by it. And I've asked why for years literally unable to understand it until I realized.

sometimes people just. like things. things I certainly don't like and cannot enjoy whatsoever. But at the same time, this is true for me and not for them. I fucking love coffee to the point I drink it more than water most days, but no one else in my family likes it. BUT other people outside my family enjoy it too.

Life is weird and what I'm getting at is something that took me a lifetime to understand and I still can't wrap my head around it all the time.

People just like things. People love things and hate things. What things mean to one person can mean the world to another and death to the third. There's not always a reason for it, but what you have to do is accept that there are things in life that you just might not like much right now. but as time goes on you'll find value in it the same way your partner will find value in you and all the minuscule things you do and become and like and dislike.

And to build on that point, there are things I hated as a kid that I'm fine with and even love now. Each day changes you more than you'll ever know and with those changes, the acceptance that comes with them may be easier or harder.

So, to answer your question, I don't know! I just love men. Men with tits or pecs, men with vaginas or dicks. maybe both at the same time or neither at all! I just think men are generally attractive no matter the design or what's different about them. and not just men but people who present as masc in general. If you're masc nb there's a chance I'm looking at you through the window of a bar as much as if you were cis-male or trans-male.

I do know for some men, the allure of masculinity displaced with the typically-feminine concept of a vagina intrigues them. Maybe it's the juxtaposition of them together, maybe they just want something unique and new to them. Maybe they just really like vaginas and it doesn't matter who it's attached to, or maybe they just like trans men. Same thing with boobs, some guys just like boobs. Some men have boobs. the overlap doesn't mean net-negative results, it could be double positive.

And I don't expect you to love everything about yourself, god knows I don't love everything about myself, and despite people telling me what's good about me I can still find flaws within it whenever I choose. I think men with chest hair are hot as fuck, but also I've seen some smooth men that are just as if not hotter. I love me a fat man or a man with muscles, but i've seen twinks i'd demolish in one sitting as well. I've seen men with dicks and boobs and scars and and hair pretty much everything under the sun and sometimes I want them to sit on me and forget I'm there and smother me.

What you do have to do though is accept that you have those things, and you are those things, and even though you may not like those things you have to accept that they're a part of you and find value in that. And it's not an easy task at all to love yourself, but you have to try because even if you don't right now, there's a partner who will be waiting for you somewhere. there's a future version of you who loves you as you are. there are friends who love your flaws, pets who don't judge, and there are a lot of things that accept you as you are.

So just say you have boobs and chest hair. even if you don't love it about yourself right now know that there are and will always be people who do, and personally I've said before, but I wish i had boobs and chest hair it's just a perfect look to me. I'm fine with whatever my gender is, i just think its a good look. If I had money for top and bottom surgery I'd get it and never look back. You just have to find the value in yourself we all know is there, and if you can't just know that we know it's there and let that carry you through the day!

#i think i lost the plot a bit #but you get it

[pherre]

one of my fave scenes from aa4…… wholesome family activity

#ace attorney #aa #my art #phoenix wright #apollo justice #trucy wright #i just wanted to draw trucy and phoenix together but I lost the plot a bit babes #‘it’s official: I’m scared’ i love apollo so much. he’s just a little guy #also i just think if anyone could break the 4th wall it would be trucy #aa4

[rosie-kairi]

I don't think I've ever really spoken in depth about how much I love Lauriam as a character, which is honestly a crime because out of all the Union Leaders I'd probably have to crown him as my number one favorite.

I love Lauriam not only as a character (pink, sibling plotline) but also as an example of how much prequels can recontextualize an entire character. While Ventus is also an example of this, I think we all knew that he probably had some sort of messed up past that landed him in the clutches of Old Man Xehanort. Marluxia, on the other hand, had absolute zero background to infer from his screentime. He was the villain, you're not really meant to think too hard about him and how he became who he is because he sucks and you hate him.

I don't think there were many people chomping at the bit wanting to get info about his past. Like, it would've been cool to get, but I don't think a background for Marluxia was necessary for the story at that point in time. His role was to establish the organization as a threat to Sora and the other guardians, and that was pretty much the extent of it.

And then Union X happened, and Lauriam entered stage right into a tragedy where his fate was already sealed. You look at Lauriam with his polite little smiles and cute little chibi animations and immediately think "what is this man up to" because you are already primed to distrust him on principle due to COM. Did not help his case that he was introduced in the cutscene immediately following the death of Strelitzia, painting a huge target on his back. Fandom reaction was hostile towards him before he was even fully on screen. Occam's Razor, the most obvious answer is the correct one. Lauriam is the obvious suspect because of his actions in the future, so he must be the killer. Literally him just existing in a scene caused more ire to build against him.

But then the Shift Pride cutscene happened. Then it was revealed that Lauriam and Strelitzia -the girl who so many thought he killed- were siblings, and that he was quite worried for her wellbeing, actually.

Every cutscene a clearer picture of who Lauriam is a person was painted, and soon you stopped looking at him with distrust, and it's replaced with the question of "What happened to you?". What happened that caused Lauriam, someone who has been shown to care deeply and immensely about the people he loves, someone who is willing to do anything for those people, become Marluxia? It became increasingly obvious that they were incredibly different people, even though Marluxia came from Lauriam.

And this isn't to say that there was no connection between the two. Lauriam seemed to be incredibly self-confident in his abilities, enough to be pretty steadfast in his resolve to square up with goddamn Maleficent of all people (even if he did get his ass kicked). There's also his very intense anger, as seen in the cutscene where Ventus confesses to being the reason why Strelitzia "vanished", as well as a bit in the scene where he's at Ventus's bedside.

This is all to say that Lauriam was not a necessary addition to the khux cast, he very well could've been swapped with a random new character and the plot probably would've worked fine, all things considered. But because it's Lauriam -the somebody of a character that has already been established to be a prick- it gives his whole plotline a hell of a lot more punch. If it was a new character, people probably wouldn't have been as distrusting of him right of the bat, the sibling plotline would be sweet, but because it's Lauriam and we know how he ends up in the future, it becomes a hell of a lot more tragic. How did the change happen? He's tragic because we know that whatever he does will lead to the outcome of him losing his heart and falling to darkness, something that is essentially the exact antithesis of the keyblade wielder mission statement.

Lauriam is someone who was made to struggle against the destiny that was written out for him with a neat pen and ink, and someone who was doomed to fail in every regard. He could not save his sister, he could not defeat Maleficent, he could not help Ventus, he could not keep his memories when thrown into the future. He couldn't do anything about it.

I realize this is all rounding back around to "the inherent tragedy of prequels" but it's true.

...and yeah that's basically it. I have a lot more thoughts about this guy but I feel like if I write anymore I'm just gonna sound completely incomprehensible bc I'm very tired. Thanks for reading, and don't forget to sparkle on

#Rosie rambles #lost the plot a bit but I think it's decently comprehensible #kingdom hearts union x #khux #kh lauriam #lauriam #kh marluxia #marluxia #character analysis #meta #i think

[painfully-unoriginal]

Let's have a party

There's a full moon in the sky

It's the hour of the wolf

And I don't want to die

I'm so happy

Dancin' while the grim reaper

Cuts, cuts, cuts

But he can't get me!

I'm as clever as can be

And I'm very quick, but don't forget:

We've only got so many tricks!

NO ONE LIVES FOREVER!

#puss in boots #puss in boots the last wish #my art #think i kinda lost the plot on this one so the tone is a bit confused #hoping maybe maybe maybe u can kind of tell what i was going for??? #conceptually puss is having a good time dancing n shit oblivious to the danger that is completely surrounding and enveloping him #the song also celebrates that we only have one life so we should enjoy it in spite of the fact that it will eventually end #so there's that as well #color wise i was trying to emulate those scenes where everything went red LMAO

[introspectivememories]

i've decided that i dont care about max verstappen domination anymore. i am swinging back around to it being funny. by how many seconds will he be in the lead in the next race? 45? a whole minute? maybe every other car on the grid will just break down and then max can do all 50 or whatever laps by himself. ferrari will still find a way to fuck charles over.

#this is the attitude i am choosing to take. it will be funnier this way. #the ferrari bit is a joke. i am (hesitantly) optimistic about this year. #2024 charles leclerc wdc will happen. i am in church actively praying for it. #f1 #max verstappen #charles leclerc #also im taking bets now #do we think max will win all 24 races? or just like 90% (22 races)? #or like lewis hamilton will come in with a steel chair and manage to take his 8th? (<- i am actively praying for that) #or!!! logan sargeant finally gets the power of america on his side and comes in as surprise contender for the championship? #<- this has no chance of happening. i just think it'll be funny. #or!!! halfway through the season charles transforms into lightning mcqueen and he wins the last half of the races thereby causing a tie #leading the fia to call for a tiebreaker match between charles and max in texas except charles gets lost in la on the way there and i end u #finding him and we fall in love and he charms my family until the paps find him and we have to reluctantly part ways but then he wins!! #and comes home to me. (<- i have described the plot of cars. charles please come home the kids miss you.)

[summer-fire]

Muppet ass bird movie

#the boy and the heron was good! visually stunning #however. I think it falls into the same trap that everything since ponyo and arietty has fallen into #which is too many elements. the ‘rock’ was unnecessary. it should have just been more of a… crazy wizard guy found some way to alter the spo #spirit world/afterlife on his own? I think the element of accepting new family members was a bit lost. #the heron wanting to bring him to the spirit world would have been a bit more impactful if he had been the g.grand uncle in disguise? #parrots were a really fun element but using them as the end-villain was not satisfying #there was a chance to have the main character decide the end of the plot but that was just taken away from him #cursed with never remembering character names. but the plot I was expecting was a bit more mature with the pregnant aunt being asked to give #up her child to be the next wizard or something. like that’s why she was brought there. because the main character resisted so much so they #took the next youngest of kin to raise in the spirit world #man. that said the scenery surrounding the first pelican scene until they get the fish is like. directly from many dreams I’ve had

[slugandthorn]

The coolest gender thing in the 2009 Japanese video game persona 3 100% how hard they coded shinjiro as the dead mom

#.txt #i got soooo mad in the car driving home thinking about how his drug addiction is essentially the classic anime heart condition. #in that the only side effect of the suppressants is that they will kill him. like? #i realized for the longest time i had assumed the chest pain and sweating came from the drugs but thats. castor. obviously. #it doesnt affect his mood or his awareness its like a mood stabilizer pain relief pill? #its so odd that hes framed as like. being addicted to illegal street drugs. BY THE NARRATIVE. #when its more like hes on the most insane experimental medication that they wont even test on like. rats. #also im not fact checking any of this before posting. so i might be lying about things. #idk if it was all of strega that had trouble controlling their personas but like. chidori was because of the Experimentation. #and shinjis just like. mentally ill coded. in a bad way 😭 #The inability to regulate a mood/stimuli to the point where he can be unsafe to himself or others. #broad ass symptom of disorders that are not treated well. its also interesting that its not brought on by a specific event. #like the childhood fire is there. but you have akihiko right there to directly compare it to. and hes arguably more effected by it all. #and he seems to be coping well 10+ years on like some coping mechanisms are kind of weird (protein) but nothing super out of the ordinary. #so the problem is really the october 4th incident which was just a pure honest to god accident. #the fact that it gets covered up as a car accident does feel like the best like. emotional equivalent. #because it being shinji being unable to control his persona his true representation of himself and it resulting in death is sooooo bleak #and it weighs on him for 2+ years of being suicidal and unhoused until finally he goes through with his suicide by martyrdom. #i lost the plot a little bit on the gender situation with the vague allusions to fraility when story convenient #acting as dorm den mother and cooking and sewing long hair jacket sillhouette reading like a dress #was referring to that before mental illness took over. woman under the influencing this anime boy. #long way of saying i think he should have a over the shoulder ponytail when hes older. and he should have a mood disorder.

[copiasblair]

something i did like about my original story for my ship was the idea of us getting stuck together in a place for an undetermined amount of time being the only way we would actually broach the tension and confess feelings so i'm trying to cook up a way that could happen in my lore now ehe

#because originally it was getting snowed in but since we already live in the same place in this continuity #it has to be something a little more close quarters and also isolated from others #i was thinking getting lost or something in the catacombs/dungeons/some type of underground tunnels etc #- that are underneath the ministry for like. a good few hours #but is that too morbid? or just the right amount of morbid #also i don't do well with tight enclosed spaces i am claustrophobic #and so part of it is him having to comfort me which i think inadvertently makes him let down his guard around me a bit #also this would be when i would find out that he's part of the emeritus bloodline #since it's kind of a secret #he mentions his brothers off hand and i'm like ''oh! you've never mentioned having brothers!'' #and he's like. kicking himself #i just have to figure a plot pretense to get us stuck together #because i like that as a trope and also i think we're both too weird about it to actually confess #unless we were stuck having to acknowledge the connection between us #what do you have to say doll?

[gravesaint]

since we’re bashing watcher today, my two cents is that they talk about h*rry p*tter way too much

#this is semi-joking semi-serious #but they talk about it pretty frequently in a positive light #it’s a free country you can talk abt whatever u want I’m not about to cry for censorship #but when your platform is as big as theirs. mm #I don’t think they’re being purposeful with it but it is annoying with how often it happens on their shows #ANYWAY not to have real opinions about famous people but today feels like the best day to say it #I am sad about the announcement I like their content but whatever man #my stuff #also a LOT of stuff theyve been talking about on their podcast lately has been rubbing me the wrong way #its nothing crazy but the past few months its just become increasingly obvious that they are very. LA #if that makes any kind of sense #idk they just seem to have gotten a bit big for their britches #again not in any real awful ways just in ways that make me feel like theyve lost the plot a bit like theyre in their own little bubble #anyway im not putting this in the tag cause im not that serious abt it they arent my friends im just chattering on my blog amen #NO clowning im just talkin

[mindhowyougo]

been thinking more or less nonstop since last night about the finale and i'm no closer to knowing how i feel about it

#at the risk of saying something controversial i think russell lewis is maybe kinda not good at wrapping plotty stuff up? #like there's the emotional side with thursday and morse and that's one thing #but just like in deguello i'm left a bit underwhelmed with how the conspiracy plot itself ends #that peter williams was the rando biker: cruel irony ofc but do i buy it? do i really feel anything about it? #if lewis wanted to do that I just have this nagging feeling there was a better way #also: i was a little shocked at how little jakes was used! why bring him back if not to have him play more of a role?? #blenheim vale was HIS past! he gets a little wet-eyed standing on the grounds once and that's it? #didn't he give up peter williams? doesn't he have enormous guilt about that? i just... argh idk #also what about the other lost boys from neverland? they'd started digging themselves. do they not have anything to say when the news hits

[distorted-graffiti]

HI im unfortunately thinking about lolirock again. heres my oc i made on a whim who i’ve inserted into my “mephisto lives” au. i dont completely remember everything about the lolirock worldbuilding and magic system so feel free to correct me about any inconsistencies between canon lore and oc lore.

(closeups under the cut because tumblr decided to nuke image quality on mobile)

the minos gif isnt part of the reference sheet i just think its funny

#undescribed #i just thought itd be interesting to make a non-princess oc but i think i lost the plot a bit in the process. #vayne is not a sparkly cute magical girl unfortunately #ALSO? i think the dynamic i came up with for her and meph would be funny. #guy she saves from a big pile of rocks is actually the henchmen for the man who caused her parents to leave. #extra guilt for meph unfortunately #lolirock #lolirock oc

[wakeupthemembersofbylernation]

No, because when this is all over, this honestly will have to be studied and analyzed for generations…

Grandma/Grandpa, you’re a ST fan, right? What were you doing in the lead up to Byler becoming canon in its groundbreaking final season?

Oh, um, I was actively part of a side of the fandom that actively tried to fight back against Mike’s sexuality being anything other than straight, going so far as to actively accuse Bylers of staging a grand and elaborate conspiracy nothing, honey. Don’t worry about it…

#will byers #byler #mike wheeler #i think mikes a bit fruity #milkvans have lost the plot

[i-will-physically-fight-you]

Going to therapy is great because you can rant to your therapist about the untapped potential of Star Wars Sequel Characters for ten minutes and they are a captive audience forced to hear your very reasonable valid points and you can do this instead of talking about your issues hope this helps <3

#kat talks #no one irl will ever listen to me that rey poe and finn were decent characters that had POTENTIAL #kylo ren is a bit of a lost cause im afraid #(by that i mean the sequel trio had more personality and plot motives in the first movie than he did so he'd need a lot more rework) #I still cry and scream internally that they were still cowards about hayden christensen and wouldnt let him show up to tell kylo ren off #i still think that was a major thing about kylo ren's character that WOULDVE BEEN INTERESTING #like imagine worshipping your grandfathers literal worst sins only for his force ghost to show up and tell you off #SUBLIME #anyways the way I watch sw is I stop at Force Awakens #and im like 'wow what a fun what-if story after rotj its so sad they never made more movies after it :)' #and THATS HOW IT SHOULD BE WATCHED #thank you for listening to my ted talk #(and also rogue one was great definitely included in the sw movie rewatch between rots and anh)

[akkivee]

COULD YOU GIVE A RANKING OF THE 6 DIVISION EPS FROM WORST TO BEST PLEASE 🙏🙏🙏

it’s my personal opinion!!!! putting that out there first lmao!!!! i’m extra so i also included quantifiers to rank lmao so from best to worst!!!!!

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#vee got an ask #themes is just how much i’ve been given to mull over both in plot and characters #what can pretend will be important in canon what’s important in rhyme anima canon art and sound direction that kinda thing #characterisation is how in character i think they are #fun is how much fun i had watching it lol #and song is if the rap was a bop lol #bat’s and fp’s are technically tied lmao osaka lost a point on themes since as nice as it was watching rosasa rise and fall animated #it was a rehash lol and i also felt rei was a Bit weird lol #mtr made up for it’s surface level writing compared to others with 🌈fun🌈 #bb was great set up!!!!!!!!!!!! and that’s about it lol #rip the mtc episode lmao

[yeonban]

Yk at this point I might as well write the novella length post I've been meaning to about Dan Heng and how he used to view Jing Yuan vs how he views him now

#muse: dan heng. #The more I look back on the storyline; the more details I find about JY's importance in DH's life from the moment of rebirth til now #It does amuse me tho that DH used to be on the dislike end of the spectrum bc he was always left in the dark about his sentence #but it made me sob when in his voicelines he said that (after a while) he understood that the banishment was actually a mercy given to him #and it's making me so :') to think about how DH was about to leave the Luofu the second JY went to recuperate bc THAT'S #when he no longer felt safe on the Luofu. when JY wasn't around anymore. I may have lost it a bit at that scene I fear #(double that when in Jingliu's quest DH was about to pack his bags and leave again when she told him JY isn't there/is busy w smth else) #like JY went from being sb DH mildly disliked to being sb DH canonly feels /safe/ around and I can't even describe how much that means #The scene above is just one of the MANY reasons why he's warmed up to JY as fast as he did but it's def one of my favorites #JY: I can't guarantee your safety. I hope you can understand #Also JY bless his heart: (joins the fray to guarantee DH's safety against assassins even tho he's still recuperating and barely standing) #Their dynamic is so close to my heart NO MATTER in what light we look at it. And Blu only made my brainrot worse w our plotting

[torchickentacos]

someone smarter than me, please figure out why wally and drew are both may's green haired rivals. like is that just an arbitrary coincidence. probably. idk

#like what are the parallels i'm missing here #i need to reread rs pokespe so badly but schoolwork. #damn it #i DO think ag wanted to follow rs games/manga a bit more closely but ultimately didn't #probably bc of iirc changes in staffing and a general lack of planning in ag as an entirety #plus rs pokespe at least is. intense #ok i mean some specific game aspects did make it in!!!! like the stone corporation and all #........i have so many projects but my next one i won't finish is a comparative timeline of rse games/ pokespe/ and ag #because ag just kinda. fucks off in its own weird direction #which so does pokespe but in a . better way i think #rs pokespe fucks off in the direction of thoughtful plot #ag fucks off in the direction of ?????lost in the woods again yay oh hi harley ok battle frontier time wooo pyramid go brrrr flying :))) #many thoughts....