#i wanna say something but i won’t

[evermoredeluxe]

“We acknowledge the Wurundjeri Woi-wurrung people as the Traditional Owners on whose Country we are situated.

We recognise and respect the cultural heritage of Aboriginal and Torres Strait Islander peoples and pay our respect to their Elders past, present and future. We extend that respect to all Aboriginal and Torres Strait Islander peoples who also visit the MCG tonight.”

- Acknowledgement for the indigenous people of Australia before the show in Melbourne in Melbourne Cricket Ground (February 16, 2024) (x)

#i wanna say something but i won’t #(not something bad btw! i love that they did this!) #eras tour melbourne 1 #eras tour #taylor swift #arshia talks

[medievalwoundman]

lately my gf will just start roleplaying with me and expects me to be maguerit maida and she is a reaper leviathan and we are in love

#it would be funnier if i wasn’t about to go to sleep #that’s when she tends to do this #i’ll be lying there holding her starting to drift off #then she’ll just whisper the word ‘leviathan’ in my ear and start dry humping my leg #and she won’t stop until i put on a texan accent and say something like ‘say big boy wanna compare who has the longest tentacle #subnautica #marguerit maida

[octoooo]

Question do y’all see evil potential in this guy, yes or no

(Quick Kagaya scribble)

#very impulsive post #asking for a friend (it’s me) #I need to know #there’s SOMETHING abt him that just hdjdjdk #wanna put him in a test tube or science flask #study him all day #find the evil genes #I mean (SPOLIER INCOMING—next tag) #HFJFJSL #AAA #screaming to myself #he IS relate to Muzan (distantly) and Muzan used his evil gene #who’s to say Kagaya won’t/doesn’t either #I want him to mansplain manipulate manslaughter #better yet gets his slayers to manslaughter #demonslaughter? #kny #demon slayer #octo’s art #coconut octo (mod talking) #kagaya ubuyashiki

[booksandpaperss]

when there is someone I have blocked that’s in my byler mutual circle and I have them blocked bc they said some blatantly racist shit repeatedly while I was texting w them and then tried to make me feel guilty for calling them on it and I know my other moots would not like that one bit and might wanna know but also they might not and I can’t just msg ppl saying “hey this beloved mutual of yours is actually rlly racist” out of the blue anyways but every time I catch a glimpse of my other moots interacting with them I mentally go “😬😬 shit”

#I was rlly hesitant to post this too cuz like what if this alone stirs up drama #but they won’t see this and no one will know who I’m talking abt so it’s ok #It’s just been bothering me for awhile like bro it was so bad what they said #and like I don’t wanna send any harassment their way bc as far as I know they haven’t said anything bigoted on their actual blog #so one’s gotten hurt or anything #*no one #and then like what if they do end up saying something publically or has already and I don’t know? #ugh this has just been bugging me #defffff turning off rbs for this one

[evansbby]

Since we’re nearing the end, I would really love to hear all your predictions for POYT 5 🫣🥺

#I wanna know if I’ve written something predictable or not #obv I won’t say I have but I just wanna know hahahah #predictable isn’t bad per say #but yeah! #please do tell me!!! #the fic won’t be influenced by your predictions bc it’s practically done anyways!

[sketchncanto]

An Update!

Hi guys! Okay so I know I said I’d be posting art and reading more in the coming weeks BUT

This new job is proving to be harder than I anticipated. It’s kicking my ass to be frank. I’m being challenged in a way that I’ve never been challenged before— and while that’s a good thing, it’s still taking a toll on me (a good toll but a hard one nonetheless)

So as much as I’d like to read and draw and post every week, I can’t—at least until early October when this gig is over.

I’ll try to post here and there when I can but most likely not super often.

But yeah, just a little update for you all to know what’s goin on.

Now allow me to get candid in the tags 😶

#every new job feels like a masterclass #I learn so many new things #but GOD it’s hard #to be candid I actually cried yesterday after my sequence pitches because I felt so out of place #I know they brought me onto this show for a reason but my imposter syndrome won’t let me see that #I know that moment was probably needed to push me to be better #but damn— I haven’t felt that inadequate in a while #it just sucks when you try your best at something and your best isn’t good enough #and I’m not mad at all #I know boards get notes all the time #EVERYONE gets noted #but I feel like the notes I got were on things I should’ve known already #like basic storyboarding stuff #and it was embarrassing #I just don’t wanna mess this up and make them regret hiring me in the first place #so now I feel like I have to redeem myself in this next set of sequences I’m working on #and honestly #I don’t feel the best about my abilities rn BUT #it’s alright though.. #as they say #fuck it we ball 🤙🏼 #actually for me it’s more like fuck it we cry and ball #simultaneously #multitasking ✨🥲 #I’m okay though really #just feel like this is a pivotal moment in my career #in my life really #doesn’t feel great but I know it’ll make me a beast in the next few years #alright I’m done see you guys later ✌🏼 #chels rambles

[harapeveco]

what's your opinion about people shipping their oc with eve characters?

I think it’s cool for them to do so! They are braver than anyone else too so pls continue drawing your ocs kissing eve characters 🫡❤️

#answered ask #there’s this artist I won’t say name but every time I see their art one like ‘hell yes my telenovela started’ #bc they are so angsty good stuff 🤌 #tho hot take I do find it weird when the oc is created exclusively to be the character’s romantic partner #if they have like lore or something and that lore makes sense for their relation ship is fine #but if they are created only to be the characters partner and nothing else I find it kinda off idk #that’s just me tho if you wanna do it feel free I can’t and won’t stop you #my opinions don’t matter #reminds me of my oc that hates Seki I should go back to them…

[ellatree]

hey so like, as my last post kinda eluded to, my whole (outside view of) the world came crashing down & since no where in real life caters to my night work schedule, deciding to try and find some friends/mutuals at least to help me re ground myself beyond my small group of friends, a bit about me incase your interested :)

My name is ella, i’m 21, I live in australia and work nights so im closer to my N. American & European peeps in terms of scheduling then my own country people, I spend most of my time at work but in my off time quite like video games like stardew valley & minecraft + other various single players games (usually with mods!) i also like to watch movies & TV, youtube & just generally spend my time that i’m not at work in fictional worlds escaping reality (: i promise im also not usually this depressing despite like, my whole blog, it’s just a part of who i am and i use this space to vent mainly :) i am much more fun when im not depressed and blitzed

anyways, if you bothered to read all of that (it was a lot for someone you don’t know to tell you, that i know :/) and in some part of my weird ass life you found interest or a potential new friend/mutual, feel free to either just drop me a follow or send me a DM, either is welcome but if i don’t respond right away i probably just passed out

thank you again for reading all of this & i hope to hear from ya

#mutuals #new mutuals #stardew valley #making my permanent move to tumblr so looking for friends or others who just wanna vibe #lots of TW stuff comes up later if you get to know me so be warned but i also won’t share it all if your uncomfortable #jeez these tags are long #anyway yeah #just say hi #or #drop a follow #or something #and i’ll get back to you :) #(ps. don’t be a creep please) #(​i get it enough at work)

[rosicheeks]

Unfortunately relatable. I grew up in the church and have a lot of Christian trauma from that. I show up for special occasions for my parents… sometimes. But it’s uncomfortable from the moment I step through the door. Bigoted pastor, the self-righteousness disguising the prejudice, the political comments from the altar. Shots at young people left right and center as if the hell on earth wasn’t caused by the same older generation 90% of the congregation belongs to..

I miss being young in the choir and the youth groups and not struggling with it. It’s wild to look back at the younger version of me who was unshakeable in his faith and honestly just saddening.

I was texting my sister today about it and she said

“I 100% think ALL of us have a ton of religious trauma and everyone else in the family just doesn’t realize it cause they’re still drinking the kool-aid.”

I ran out of tag room and didn’t want to delete any 😭 seriously not lying I could write a book about all my thoughts and experiences

#I relate to all of this so much #and it’s so sad how many people truly have religious trauma #I still find myself lucky and privileged cause I know there are stories MUCH worse than mine #it’s really hard cause my parents still think I’m a Christian #honestly at this point I have no clue what i am #even if I end up still being a Christian that doesn’t help or heal all of the years of church trauma #but the hard part is still acting the part for my parents #growing up I always tried to fit into the good Christian girl mold #cause I know that’s what my parents wanted and I didn’t want to disappoint them #but once I started smoking weed and they found out? it went all downhill from there #their perfect angel fell from heaven #and I feel like ever since I haven’t been really their daughter…. I’ve just been living on the outside looking in to everything #it hurts looking back at all the years I spent brainwashed into believing that was the ONLY faith #it genuinely makes me sick to my stomach thinking about the fact that I went to a pro life rally #the thing I was talking to my sister about was how mental health was never talked about in the church #when I started dealing with it and went to my parents or the pastors or any adult really and told them what I was dealing with #wanna know what the first thing they would ALWAYS say? well have you prayed about it? the way they treated mental illness was that it was #YOUR fault cause God is punishing you for something…. that you need to pray or go to church so then God will eventually take it away #and the thing is I don’t necessarily blame my parents (which kinda sucks cause I want to blame someone) #but honestly it’s just the environment they grew up in too… like I’m 99% sure my dad has dealt with depression his entire life #but won’t get diagnosed or anything cause they always believe faith has something to do with it #which makes me incredibly sad cause I just think about how much my dad has suffered and how he didn’t need to #^^ I was typing this out when I was late to my family gathering hahaha but then I think my sister called or something so I had to stop #sorry this post is all over the place - I swear I could write a book about religious trauma #yesterday went ok surprisingly but today? TODAY is going to be so much worse #sure I’ll make a post about it later but I guessssss I should go to bed now? it’s 2am and I have to get up at 5:45 🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃 #and I have a fuuuuull day of fun Christian festivities while I’m dealing with all of this bottled up and unresolved crap from my past #please don’t get me wrong I love my parents and like I said I don’t blame them - they did their best #it just really sucks wondering what my life would have been like if I didn’t grow up in the church or in a super religious family #I wonder if when I told my parents I was depressed if they would have instantly brought me in to get help

[eatyourdamnpears]

“elevated ANA levels are usually markers for an autoimmune health condition!”

well, not when the rheumatologist you see is completely invalidating about it and your rheumatology blood panel comes back negative for anything!

#I can accept that maybe I don’t have a disorder like lupus or ra that they were testing for but like #the fact that out the gate he was just like ‘‘yeah some people just have naturally elevated ANA levels it’s usually nothing’’ #like SIR???? #I’m sitting in your office because I’ve had elevated ANA levels for over a year now and I cannot function in society due to my health issues #it probably IS something #I don’t know I wanna see if I can see another rheumatologist about it but what would even be the point? #no one wants to see me anyways because of my chronic Lyme diagnosis it took FOREVER for this guy to just see me #it’s at a point where when my doctor needs to refer me to places she leaves that off whatever she sends to them because otherwise #they won’t see me #like the only reason I haven’t seen a neurologist yet is because the ones I get referred to all refuse to see me #they can’t outright SAY that #but I remember my mom constantly checking to see about the referral and the receptionist basically said it in a way so it wouldn’t be #like grounds to sue for discrimination or whatever #even my mom tells me in appointments like this that I shouldn’t bring the Lyme up unless absolutely necessary #and every time it does come up the vibe instantly changes #like I don’t get it??? why do doctors hate me??? #anyways yeah and I don’t know if it’d be a waste of time to see another rheumatologist because of the results I’ve already gotten #but I also can’t find them anywhere in the MyHealth app when I swear to god I had access to them before so?? #I don’t know. I’m sorry I’m complaining. I just remember the time my doctor first brought it up to me and how excited I was #to finally have a lead on what could be happening inside my body and how to treat it #and then I get crushed when I realize that it doesn’t mean shit to anyone #I’m just having a hard night tonight #and no one wants to see Ethel Cain with me either and I’m just sad about that #and my depression is all fucky lately #everything is so big and loud and overwhelming and I’m so tired of it #vent tw

[transtrucy]

i loooooooooooooove a breakup fic

#I’m not writing one but i COULD BE #Sarah and Rey used to be horrified bc I’d be like what if. ren and ellil break up. #there’s something so fun about it ok i like angst #a lot of times they’ll end up back together but also what if they DONT #chatter #I won’t say what ship I’m thinking about so I don’t get yelled at #if you wanna guess YOU have to consider breakups. good luck!

[oswhys]

Hey could ads on tumblr not play music or sounds when I don’t event click on them? It would be great if ads didn’t constantly run while I’m using the app either. I’d also like it if ads didn’t just shove their way onto my screen on top of posts. I understand the need for ads, that they “need” to make money. But this website, this app, it’s bothersome enough to use with the constant horrible changes to the UI and policy that it doesn’t need literal pop up ads.

#tumblr #my stuff #sorry I just can’t stand it anymore #I can’t use that app without turning down my volume otherwise an ad will start playing music super loudly #I won’t even talk about what the did to the dashboard #we all know that was a terrible decision #they’re just trying to do a cheap cash in #but as much as I hate Twitter it’s not going anywhere and most people aren’t gonna leave #I’m sure tumblr saw a lot of traffic from Reddit and Twitter users moving but not as much as people in here like to think #and while tumblr also has a few other problems with it #some which I’m afraid to say because I don’t wanna get banned #these ads and other frankly idiotic UI choices are something we’re all aware of #no one uses tumblr live #put the post button back where it belongs #make it easier to make posts this new shit is waaaay more complicated than it needs to be #they just… make choices that don’t benefit anyone #and the profit off of people buying shoelaces and stickers and check marks and blazes #where is the money going? #cause it’s not going into making the site and the app user friendly #also if tumblr is gonna be here acting like a small business that needs its users support to stay running #maybe don’t commission arts every few months for a new app logo #I like the idea of it and I think artists should get paid for their work #but while I know tumblr doesn’t need the money the staff ACT like they need it #I don’t want to sound harsh but you guys shouldn’t waste ur money on check marks on fucking tumblr #you’re kinda throwing away money #because they’re not gonna use your money to improve the website/app #the reason we even have the plague that is tumblr live is that they want to make money off of you #tumblr isn’t a social media site #it’s a testing ground for advertisers #we’ve known this for years

[designernishiki]

I wanna flesh out a yakuza oc but every time I think about it I end up thinking about an oc of mine who already Exists who’s not a yakuza oc. but is, in fact, an oc who is a yakuza. and that fact is genuinely completely unrelated

#he existed WAY before I started playing yakuza or knew really anything about it #actually he contributes to why I got into yakuza to begin with. cause when my friend first showed me y0 I was like ough… my character #grew up in this exact environment and culture and structure and etc (son of a patriarch) #so it was legitimately a good reference for his background and stuff #I kinda wanna talk about him/his background more on here but. like i said he’s. not technically a yakuza oc #and he can’t be because he. canonically. has PLAYED yakuza. like the games EXIST cause it’s just a normal real world type universe and #I won’t get into all this much but he ends up in the states on the dl for Reasons. accidentally ends up with a son when he’s 22 (son’s #mother being significantly younger but again we’re not gonna get into THAT mess). ends up seeing the first game being sold somewhere in nyc #and is unable to restrain his curiosity about it (as an Actual Yakuza) so he ends up getting his son a ps2 for his birthday partly just #as an excuse to buy and play yakuza 1 because he NEEDS to know what’s in it #something something it ends up being a weird bonding thing with his son who’s definitely too young to be watching this game being played #(he was born the same year as haruka so he’d be like. 8-9. also already a concerningly violent child with many issues but. anyway) #something something he ends up disappearing out of the blue from the states when his son is 12 but the pastime still sticks for said son #from then on. so uh. yeah weirdly significant that these games Exist in this story/universe bdsjhfdfjnd #idk why I’m avoiding saying his name. his name’s asura. he’s a year or two older than daigo (born 1974) and his family’s supposed to be a #pretty powerful one in the tokyo area and he was supposed to be a nepo baby sorta like daigo except he’s not Technically an only child- he #has a much younger sister. but obviously she wasn’t gonna be considered for taking over their father’s seat nor would she want to #she wants absolutely nothing to do with any of it and changes her last name pretty soon after moving to the US to get away from them #no beef with her brother or anything she was just treated absolutely horribly and disgustingly by older members of their family growing up #ANYWAY I should stop talking bdshshcbsnnf I didn’t mean to infodump all this the lore is just. deep with these guys #Asura wasn’t even made to be a particularly prominent character or anything it’s his SON who’s a Bonafide Main Character and asura’s ties in #the story are mostly related to Him. (though his sister is also a pretty prominent character so there’s connection there too) #rambling #also one more note. yes. the timing and location of where asura would’ve first bought yakuza 1 means that it would most likely be the #infamous original english dub version. which is hilarious to think about #especially because his son’s mom (I keep calling her that because they weren’t really in a Relationship they just co-parented and lived #together a little less than half the time. it’s complicated) Did Not Approve of a game that Adult around their kid. so she would not be fond #of walking in the room and hearing TEN YEARS IN THE JOINT MADE YOU A FUCKING PUSSY #luckily she was so young and considered her son a lost cause and a burden as it is so. she complained but didn’t really do anything about #it. I mean shit she was like. only around 24-25 I think. but yeah

[violettssims]

ummm ok hi guys, damn it's already been a month since I was last active huh 😅 I didn’t even realise it had been so long until I saw the date of my last post...

Anyways, I’m not sure what happened... I just kinda got busy and was feeling a little exhausted from engaging on social media so I had to go spend a bit of time just catching up with irl friends and getting fresh air outside! What have you guys been up to lately? Tell me tell me !

#personal #yeah unfortunately I’m still playing the sims so #(unfortunately for me HAHAH) #my back and shoulders were in a horrible state from spending too much time in front of the computer #moderation was never something I was born knowing apparently #don't wanna say hiatus or semi hiatus or anything #but probably won’t be on here as much but still gonna keep this blog and will still post occasionally #miss talking to you guys so much though #i really hope you've all been taking care #v

[salsflore]

#lord i hate feeling bitter — and i especially hate feeling this way over my sister #but it stings a little bit when you’re never the one they want. it’s always my sister. #i love her and i know she doesn’t see me as any less or anything but it does something to you when everyone talks about how great your #sister is. how proud they are of her. she gets recognized on the streets and i’m the one made to take the photos of her. how pretty she is #its especially awkward when my mother chimes in with “but mika’s pretty too!” and like ahh just stop #i do get to reap the rewards of her fame so i’m not complaining much but it just sucks a little when i realize i probably won’t be as - #- successful as she is. even before she started working she was a good student ! n now she’s supporting the family #and her career is growing. it’s just a pity i’m so unremarkable compared to her lol #my mom says my sister is proud of me too but. what for? i’ve got nothing going on anyways #how often my relatives brag about her and knowing her and i just ahhh. so embarrassing to feel this way #i remember that one time she made me stream bc she was feeling unwe and i just broke down in tears afterwards because i was so horribly- #-bad at the game. and people just kept looking for her and eughhhhh so embarrassinggggg!!!!!!!! i don't wanna think about that #💭 #vent #negative

[boltgunkiller-archive]

saw brittana s2 era being related to are we still friends by tyler the creator

#juno speaks #oh my goddd… #“are we still friends? can we be friends?” #when you apply the locker scene where santana says britt staring at her is causing her to forget her locker combo… ohh #because britt literally says “did i do something wrong are you mad at me. i miss being close” (not a direct quote but that’s essentially #what she said) and like. my god. because during the s2 era they heavily drifted due to santana’s confession. it wasn’t the confession itself #that drove them apart #more so santana’s own decision to distance herself due to her fear of rejection and #since she got rejected #her subsequent bitter behavior to deflect from what happened and the embarrassment and shame she felt not Only bc she admitted to liking #girls. Liking BRITTANY. but also bc she didn’t even get what she wanted in the end and now people may know and now BRITT knows so she can’t #just go back to being normal and she’s stressed and hurt and upset and she just doesn’t wanna talk to anyone #she just wants to be straight and normal and she wants things to be normal but she can’t handle the idea of facing brittany at all so she #just drifts away from her so brittany desperately tries to fix things and become santana’s best friend again #they’re a two shot they’re best friends they need each other they went from inseparable to not even speaking outside of maybe glee club #it’s got an effect on the both of them and brittany wants to fix whatever happened and go back to being close but santana won’t even tell #her what’s wrong so she has to figure it out for herself (“can we be friends?”) #the song essentially repeats those two lines a lot but they can be applied to more than just that locker scene too #you could apply them to santana denying dancing w brittany/wearing the lebanese shirt because she’s denying brittany’s attempt to not only #fix their relationship but also help santana accept herself. she can’t accept that and all brittany wants is for them to be friends but #in that moment it seems as if santana won’t even accept that they ARE friends #and then in 2x19 she doesn’t accept that well now that artie isn’t in the picture they COULD be more than that (“don’t say goodbye” lowkey) #like santana’s just so closed off it seems like they’re not friends and they can’t even be that and they could never be more either #auuvuh… does this even make sense… losing my mind #gleeposting