#i wanna kill myself actually

[alicornze7]

The pacing is a wee bit weird but this took 2 whole days so bear with me here

(oh God it's even cheesier than the first post)

The aftermath

#She let the puppy out in the cold:( #i'm delusional #i can't draw creases and hands for the life of me #this was funnier in my head #I guess the lineart improved #A bit... #I wanna unalive myself rn #this was so rushed story-wise #The shame is killing me #This is what I get for being an introvert ig #And also attention seeking twerp #Alr enough yapping here's the actual tags #tadc comic #ribbun #gangle x jax #jax x gangle #tadc gangle #tadc jax #they are an old married couple<3 #You could suggest some tags in the replies if ya want;-; #Not like anybody reads the tags anyways #Yes I am determined to make this my biggest post yet #And yes I have no idea how to do comic compositions/layouts

[lotus-pear]

Low quality magical girl chuuya nakahara as requested (i literally just finished madoka magica last night and it was BRUTAL)

Bonus dazai reaction:

He died of laughter

YIPPPPEEEEE MY PACKAGE ARRIVED GIRLY ATE THAT LOOK ONG WHY DOES IT MATCH HIM SO WELL BRO COULD TRANSFER TO PMMM AND NO ONE WOULD EVEN NOTICE😍😍😍😍 i think every time i see chuuya in a dress society heals a little more and years are added to my life. also god bless ty for actually using a reference he looks so babygirl girlypop ALSO not madoka having like most cutieful design literally ever????? the poofy skirt the hair ribbons the bows waaaaa she's so adorable you did her justice😭 also love dazai's reaction lmao

#ALSO HOW DID YOU ENJOY THE SHOW OMG. WHO WAS UR FAV. WASNT THE ENDING SUCH A FUCKING PLOT TWIST???? #RAAAAAHHHHHH I LOVE PMMM SM #NEVER FORGET YOUR ROOTS #ACTUALLY KILLING MYSELF THAT SHOW MAKES ME SO ILL #I CAN AND WILL TALK ABOUT IT FOR LIKE. YEARS. #LIKE ASK ME ANYTHING. IF U WANNA TALK OFC. SINCE U JUST FINISHED. #lotus’s asks

[reggiestein]

ugggghhhhhhhhhhhhhh dies. dies. dies. dies. kisses him on the mouth. dies.

#im so madly in love with him im insane. the way i want him is unreal like actually. i want to hold this long cute freak in my arms #so sorry i haent been posting its mostly been oc x canon or. another type of art idk if yall would wanna see so i just dont post it😁 #im 18 btw i can make stuff like that and post it💪💪💯💯💯 im so awesome. but uh also its 90% oc x canon sorry💪 #i draw him both the same and in so many different ways. god i want him so bad its INSANE IM CRAZY #but idk sorry for not posting more🤕😝 i wanna post more angel food cake #i have so much more lore for her that i just have not posted. like at all. please future me make a character sheet PLEASE.🧍‍♂️ #ok normal tags #licorice cookie #cookie run #my art #lico tag #crk #if we dont get more content of him soon im killing myself #please i have like 2 TIKTOKS AND THATS IT PLEASE GIVE ME SOMETHING I CAN LOOK AT A LINE OF DIALOGUE PLEASEEEEEEEE🙏🙏🙏🙏🧍‍♂️

[cowardlycowboys]

starlet

#wow it doth be me #i was pretty yesterday unfortunately my smile was not unfortunately I'm actually really ugly these days and i wanna kill myself over it #love this for me 👍 #bear with me for these and remember when i was real pretty and just pretend I'm that pretty in these

[jinx58062]

just because i carry it so well… doesn’t mean it’s not heavy…

#i wanna lose weight #2024 #weight loss #mental health #3d relapse #eating disoder trigger warning #i hate my body #s3lf hate #tw self destruction #tw sui ideation #mentally fucked #tw depressing thoughts #tw depressing stuff #sorry for being depressing #depressing shit #anxitey #bingedisorder #actually mentally ill #i hate it here #i hate everything #toxic love #toxic family #toxic parents #toxic friends #toxic relationship #toxic people #tw sui talk #tw sui implied #the virgin suicides #killing myself

[grey-has-rusted]

what they don't tell you about life is that it's hard. woe is me

#ramblings #yes. i logged onto tumblr just to complain. #i have not been having a good time irl </3 #guys am i cooked? i wake up everyday with a heavy sorrow in my heart. #i am sad all the time even though i enjoy the wonders of life. #i laugh and smile and talk and learn. but im still sad. #it also doesn't help that i have psychotic tendencies and episodes #'go for a walk. that's a healthy coping mechanism' bro i can't even go outside bc i will get lost and walk for hours and almost- #unintentionally kill myself #it sucks. it all sucks and i say things that don't make sense either. apparently. allegedly. #i just want a functional brain. i would be so unstoppable if it weren't from my brain maybe i could actually function like a normal person #and hold down a job and be consistent with my hobbies and passions and actually maintain friendships #ong ive been so lonely too #i haven't bothered making friends anymore bc i know i won't be consistent and i dont wanna waste anyone's time #that's just really unfair #and i rely so heavily on videogames and fiction to get me through the day #bc it makes me feel less lonely. yeah i know i sound lame 💀 #anyways- see y'all in another year when i remember tumblr exists

[lxving-whxre]

I wish more daddy dom shit was obviously catered to mlm or nblm people. Like there’s stuff out there for that but the tone is always different

#I still wanna be your little sweetheart doesn’t matter that I’m a man #I actually have a lot I could say about sexism and gay porn. lol uhm #.personal #.daddy #part of me wishes i could make posts sexuality breaking posts about men without like knowing someone is gonna interpret it as #like of course they like you you still have a pussy #if anyone sees me as not a man i’ll fucking kill them <3 #maybe i should make myself trans supremacy posts… for healing #now im thinking about girlcock and drooling. great

[mulletmitsuya]

please support the global strike in solidarity with palestine

#this is actually the only platform i haven't posted about palestine #but please do whatever you can to support it #i was gonna do this on my main blog because i didn't wanna disturb peoples timelines with non fandom related stuff #but people are being bombed and it won't do much to affect your day #i'll be sharing more posts from now on because it's the least we can all do #please share these posts as well #also tumblr supports israel btw #don't use your money on the app #they're spreading pro israel propaganda and also muting things that have to do with palestine #my blog could get affected bcs of this and ofc i don't want my blog deleted (idk of tumblr can do that) but again #people are being killed #remember to boycott!!!! #i'm so late to this and am greatly dissaponted in myself for not posting on this app considering i have a high number of followers #but i'd rather start now than still be silent #silence is compliance

[hellshire-harlot]

hahahaha I loooooove when adhd makes me the literal biggest failure of a daughter in the world hahahahahahahaa

#I’m gonna fucking kill someone #myself? Someone else? WHO KNOWS #I JUST WANNA BE NORMAL #I FUCKING HATE HAVING ADHD #ADHD vent #adhd #actually adhd #Starting to wonder if I’d be better off dead #rant #venting #I just hate how much of a fucking chore it is to function. Everyone else does it so easily so WHY THE FUCK CANT I #I CANT EVEN DO THE ONE THING NEEDED TO SAVE MYSELF #IM USELESS IM USELESS IM USELESS

[brundledfly]

Logging in again to say that I got a notification from an events/tickets app saying that I had been offered one of the dir en grey tickets I got waitlisted for months ago. Meaning that my turn in line came up and I had a chance to buy resale tickets. But the window to claim my spot closed at 8:15 AM and I didn’t see until I woke up around 10 AM. It was for a two-day pass to see them perform Ouroboros and Withering to Death in London and I would’ve gone into credit card debt to fly to fucking England and see this shit without a second thought. I missed my window of opportunity. I’m gonna kms goodbye

#I am not actually going to kill myself im just being dramatic #I wanna see a visual-kei-associated band at least fucking once and I’ll never see buck tick #because mr sakurai fucking DIED!!! #so I was like okay it’s gotta be diru #I waited MONTHS!!!!!!! #I wonder if I remembered to put myself on the Berlin list #fuck was it even Berlin or another part of Germany. idk #or Poland or something idc

[raylangivins]

I cannot describe to you the absolute glee seeing this announcement has filled me with

#ON THING ABOUT ME IS I WAS A HARCORE UNCUT GEMSHEAD IN THE YEAR 2020 #YOU WANNA TALK ABOUT MEDIA THAT GOT ME THROUGH THE PANDEMIC #MINE WAS A VERY SPECIFIC FRAME FROM THE MOVIE THAT I CANNOT DESCRIBE TO YOU BECAUSE OF SPOILERS #BUT IYKYK #I WANT THIS TO KILL ME OF HEART ATTACK AT THE IMAX CINEMA #it hasn’t actually been announced in the uk but it said international locations will be announced #anyway if it doesn’t release in the uk I’m going to kill myself at the a24 offices #old man yells at cloud

[mattodore]

"show off your music" tag 🎧 using this spotify app

this looks so sexy... anyway thank you for the little tag @machinegrl

tagging @wldestluv-rs @fizzytoo @rottengurlz @lucidicer @woohooincoffin @omgkayplays @void-imp @helltrait @raiiny-bay if any of you want to do it as well <3 no pressure tho obv!! also if you've already done this pretend i didn't tag you dkjnhk haven't scrolled very far back on my dash yet

#river dipping #playlist #gold guns girls is a song olly sent me bc it reminded him of matthias <3 so i spent hours listening to it #if it weren't for the repeated lines mentioning women i'd put it in his playlist but alas............... he is a gay man fdkjndjf #on my knees asking ppl to send me more music that reminds them of my ocs btw. i'm so normal abt it... :) #also........... god......................................... #listening to futile devices and thinking abt theo is enough to kill a person where they stand #i would know. typing this from the grave if you were wondering #famous last words / i'm a liar / silver / lemon eyes are all songs that if i'm listening to them i have to sing along. like i have to. #like it bursts out of me and then i'm banging my fist on the floor. like. literally. like actually. #ESPECIALLY i'm a liar. it makes me want to die and it's in the echthroi story playlist. god. #PLEASE TAKE ME HOME . BAM . WRAP ME IN A TOWEL . BAM . THE MARKS ARE ALL GONE AND I'M FEELING MYSELF AGAIN . BAM BAM BAM BAM BAM #CRAZY . IT'S JUST SO FUCKING CRAZY #lemon eyes turns my brain to mush too because it's SOOOOOOOO matthias coded. #like especially early on in mattodore's little situationship when theo was just. so jealous. like caustically so. #hush now baby there's no need to cry let me wipe away those lemon eyes...... #all your worries such a waste of time... you can't even see how much you're Mine. . .... #I BET YOU WANNA WALK AWAY RUN AWAY LOOK AWAY TURN AWAY HONEY YOU CAN'T HIIIIIIIIDE #LEMON EYES YOU'RE MINE. YELLOW EYES ALL MINE. #YELLOW I WILL HAVE TO BITE YOUR TONGUE. . . SONGS THAT MAKE ME CLAW AT MY OWN SKIN

[teknikolor-walters]

the urge to overshare on the internet vs. the fear of being a burden to my friends and worrying yall

#sighs. sighs #i. uh #im sorry #i love u all #so much #none of this is your fault #i just #you know when i said today was my origially planned date but i wasnt gonna do it #yeah #well #that aged terribly #i dont know #i think there are a lot of benefits to me killing myself but i dont wanna traumatize anyone and i dont want anyone to mourn me #i wish i could just fade away #have nobody remember me #if i do stop being a fucking coward and actually go through with it. just rmember that i love you. so so so fucking much #you guys are some of the best people in the world #dont ever forget it #cicadas vent tag

[oatbugs]

lmao looking at her insta highlights was a mistake

#i feel worse WHY DOES SHE HAVE TONED MUSCLES UGHHH #also my confidence has gone down a tiny bit bc why is she hanging out w all these cool ppl #how is this girl simultaneously a lawyer and also has her social life on max like give me a break #thered a photo of her walking around in heaven either before closing or after opening shes sooo #HOWEVER. i just had a call w her yesterday that made me realise my idea of romance is more romantic than her idea of romance #but also that she doesnt want to do smth super romancey on a 3rd date which according to my friends is fair but according to my heart #it is not. like why are u on a date if u dont wanna do anything romancey at that point just hang out w friends #odd of her to say that too considering our first two dated were quite romantic . anyway #yo this cafe is playing persian music nice. anyway yh #also she makes being middle eastern so gay yk the goodbye fake cheek kiss thing we do . where u like . kiss the air on the sides of the #persons face when ur saying goodbye. ygwim . yeah she doesnt do the fake air kisses she gives u two tender kisses like . anyway #i discussed the stuff she does w my friend and like why r her words so aloof and her actions so...not . and my friends reaction was #basically this is fuckboy behaviour. apparently he used to do that to girls ?? like tell them he rly liked them #and be all charming and romantic even tho he rly wasnt invested at all and he mostly wanted to hook up. like ok #im gonna kill myself then. why would u stroke my hair w my head on ur LAP THEN. WHAT IF SHE TURNS AROUND AND IS LIKE #oops it was nothing #....ill kms actually. no i womt. but anyway #also got added to the gc w the other lecturers givjng talks on the 6th so its getting more real #my friend was like did u do the script yet :))) . almost died shes so scary i love her . but . fuck two exams . crush. talk. ucl cambrdige #three conferences aaaaaaaaaaaaaAAAAAAAAA im so anxious i dont even feel anything atp #......I HAVE NO MONEY!!! TO TOP IT OFF #my crush and i are both iranian (aka born w extremely expensive taste woven into our genes) but i wanna like #treat her w the entire 2 quid in my bank account ig ♡♡♡ #crushposting

[bbqhooligan]

probably the best thing about having fuckin TWILIGHT in my roster of Mental Illness Emergency Contacts is that every time i get back to it its a wakeup call. embarrassing✅ cringe✅ bad writing✅ racist, mormon propaganda✅ should be left to rot like harry potter etc✅ but im still over here like "okay but the comfort i felt while connected to these characters" BITCH YOU NEED HELP

#mypost #its actually worse than yugioh. i can indulge in Cringe (good) but not Cringe (TERRIBLE) #id be all for it if it was like. a normal fandom thing. i BEEN doing that. but my twilight thing is...like a cry for help #for example while i posted about yugioh i was studying and going to class. well. some of it #now im in my twilight phase for 3 weeks and im barely doing my laundry and washing myself. GIRL HELP #SMEYER CURSED ME (is severely depressed and escaping into the long lost warmth once felt with these books and characters) #im genuinely unwell #bella swan save me. bella swan. save me bella swan. #who wanna kill me

[lecliss]

Sakura gets a second point for being the first to complete the tree climbing at being better at chakra control, but at the same time it just feels like she was made good at it so no extra training segment time would have to be put into her getting good at it and it can be all about Sauce and Nart. Idk that feels too pessimistic but also could totally be true.

#she takes on a very 'obsever' role. like kashi is the teacher watching over them. but sock is the watching and commenting from the same #perspective of nart and sauce and also the viewer unlike kashi. cuz he provides a lot of exposition and whatnot in his inner monolgues #and its like. of course the girl is just the observer who watches alongside us as the two main boys grow and develop #AND I DONT WANNA FUCKIN BE PESSIMISTIC ABOUT THIS BUT GOD ITS IMPOSSIBLE!!!! #but her whole character so far is 'i hate the class clown. im book smart. i diet and im in love' #and the way i see it is. 12yo girl TRYING to fit into the femininity she sees in the world around her so she forces herself to be like this #but she has inner sock who speaks what she really feels showing that she puts on quite a front and isnt really much like that at all #and you expect her to grow into wanting her to truly define herself. and she does with getting stronger and training under tsunade and #learning medical ninjutsu so she really finds a spot for herself. she does!!! but then she KEEPS hanging onto the love nonsense #and admittedly there are moments that push a very obvious trope of thinking she likes sauce cuz hes cool but finding out that the real 'gem' #is nart so i definitely understand where n@rus@kus are coming from #but then she just STICKS with sauce until its the worst ship possible and its an utter mess of 'ill never give up on him' #EVEB DESPITE HIM TRYING TO KILL HER!!! THEN THAT FUCKING WORKS OUT!?!?!? #AND TOO THIS DAY SAUCE STILL NEVER COMES OFF LIKE HE ACTUALLY LOVES HER #IM SORRY BUT ITS TRUE. SARD WE ARE GETTING YOU BETTER PARENTS. ON GOD!!!!! #so she just hangs on to this one little thing that she SHOULD have gotten development for to move on from BUT IT NEVER FUCKING HAPPENS #so its like half her development never fucking happens and thats why it #s such a fuckinf mess!!!!! #i fucking hate this show. i need to go back to watching mike's dino game vod. what am i doing here????? #i did this to myself btw. i didnt need to start yelling about that but thats just how it is with nart #start thinking about something good and then it reminds you of something related thats bad and now its like. yeah this shit sucks #remember when kishi said he regretted not making hina the heroine???? we could have lived in a better timeline. #but if i say that i will get assassinated #anyway. #sock count #personal