#i ruined it everyone lmao sorry

[joleneghoul]

Worlds most fucked up thing about rdr2 storywise is even outside of story missions, 80% of the time when a stranger grabs you its to tell you to leave. Get out of here. Live somewhere else. You dont want to die here.

Or its shown in picture shows you can see all the animals die because they didnt listen to the wind. Preachers at gravesides giving eulogies to nobody about how staying faithful to the wrong people can kill a man. So many of the npc missions you come across is you helping them escape or teaching others how to survive for themselves after loss.

But all of these encounters, since they are random things you come across, are always portrayed as something you can brush off as crazy ramblings of others instead of the overlooming dread and theme of the story itself. Ugh.

Idk just thinking!

#game abt outlaws? no sorry boom eldest daughter simulator #i keep noticing this lmao but the one the recently stuck out to me in my gameplay #is that one veteran with a missing leg who just yells about how much he hates his town and how everyone left him behind then you can #talk to him and amongst other things abt disability he tells arthur he needs to stop coming around here #because its a town that will ruin you and make you stuck #and arthurs like well why didnt you leave and the guys like ''well these are my shitty people! i cant leave''. something abt that hrmm

[starheirxero]

HAVE YOU SEEN THE NEW TSAMS EPISODE YET?!!!

Bloodmoon might be coming back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I LITERALLY JUST WOKE UP AND THIS ASK SENT ME FLYING ACROSS THE ROOM OMG. WATCHED IT AND HOLY SHIT. I’M LIKE ?!?!!!!! IM GENUINELY SURPRISED HE’S COMING BACK ???? I WAS SO SURE BLOODMOON WAS GUNNA STAY DEAD THIS IS FASCINATING. ESPECIALLY RUIN’S IMPLICATION OF ALTERING THEM ???? WHAT IS HE GUNNA DO 2 THE BOYS……. IM VERY INTRIGUED

#asks #crack-a-lackin-max #honestly tho i rlly can’t stress how much i thought bloodmoon was going to Stay Dead????? #Like don’t get me wrong i am honestly terribly excited because i miss bloodmoon a LOAHT and if they return that means I can pick apart- #-their character more!!! #however to Me this is so out of left field that i’m also just like HUH AHDISNKDLC #i wonder if ruin is going 2 put bloodmoon thru the horrors tho…… #modify them 2 make them obedient is what ruin said. that is smth they have Never wanted to be and I can imagine that will be Maddening if- #-it works. but also like. this isn’t exactly a revival like it is with Lunar. Bloodmoon /died/ died. No nanobots left #A second version of being built. A new version is being built. It’s likely that the new Bloodmoon won’t have any memories #So can you imagine waking up with an insatiable urge to maim and kill and the one person you want to do it to has a failsafe to make sure- #-that you can’t do that and everyone around you seems to know you already and has a deep fear of hatred towards you? #wouldn’t that be more frustrating and confusing than the ever-present hunger? Wouldn’t that drive them a little insane? #sorry this probably won’t happen but could u imagine AHAHBSJABS #sun and moon show spoilers #tsams #bloodmoon #xero thoughts and rambles #bc of my tags LMAO

[captainpangolin]

how i look trying to explain why writing conversations about consent and body image issues and vulnerability in the middle of a smut fic will cure my trauma

#no bc it's literally me writing myself the conversation i wish i'd had #but i'm projecting onto my blorbo #the funny part is i haven't even written the actual smut yet lmao #it's literally just the foreplay then the trauma then the space where the smut would go then the flirty aftercare?? #which is honestly how all sex irl should go in my opinion [shrug] #creative writing #writing #writing smut #smut #tw smut #tw sex mention #trauma #tw trauma #fanfiction #fanfic #writing fanfic #writing fanfiction #fic writing #fan fiction #...yeah it's caphavers btw #sorry i'm making him everyone's problem lolzies #he is MY special little guy and I GET to choose how to ruin his day

[strawberri-draws]

Wednesday doodle 🪦🥀🌙

#my art #fanart #wednesday #wednesday fanart #I love her 💫 #doodled this on my phone with my fingers lmao #my pen is a PAIN to charge and my iPad charger broke? but not really #like it molded to a single charger and now only that one works #anyways #finished the show and I have Many Thoughts #fave characters were Wednesday eugene Enid #plus Enids cringe fail bf + siren girl #oh and obv the rest of the Fam tm #everyone else tho I was like 👁️-👁️ #literally could not care less for Tyler or Xavier lmfao #like they could be interesting if their potential wasn’t wasted menfnsndmme #idk #Tyler could’ve been cool but he was so eh I’m sorry #and Xavier had so much potential but like every bit of romance he had ruined it for me #anyways wenclair solos

[px-0]

gonna come in here and preemtively let all of you down real quick: as someone who liked Kuma before he was relevant again. i miss when Kuma was a weird cryptic bitch and i dont like how Oda retconned everything he did to make him a soft sweet baby Im Sorry

#i get into this on my twitter all the time #but he showed up to thriller bark #roasted all the strawhats #SHOT FRANKY POINT BLANK IN THE FUCKING CHEST #BLEW UP LIKE 25 PEOPLE #AND FOR WHAT #FOR HIM TO BE LIKE ‘noooo im a pacifist hee hee <3’ #i have one piece opinions that will make you piss fucking blood im sorry everyone lmao #i miss when he was morally gray and weird. #i think the quickest way to ruin a character is to make him a dad because that will now be all of his character and personality. #im not saying he cant still be good and THINK what he’s doing is good but #again. thriller bark. he was a fucking creep the whole time and we’re just gonna drop that???? #ARGUE WITH THE WALL IDC

[treesbian]

i feel insane i feel so insane. i feel so goddamn fucking insane. feels like my sisters won't allow me to even be civil to them anymore every interaction ends up with all 3 of them insulting me and when I tell them shit like "you're being mean" or "i don't think that criticism is coming from a place of love" they just try and justify themselves and insult me more. no one is on my side but I'm so so convinced that if an outside party came and observed what was happening they would see i'm being bullied. maybe i am insane. maybe there's a reason no one is on my side. i know i'm not perfect but goddamn. i love them so much and it feels like they hate me. i can say the world's most neutral statement ever and one of them'll have a snide and insulting comment about it and then everyone acts like i'm being unreasonable if i react. and again if i call them out and i say "you're being mean. do you not see what you're doing? you're being mean." they all just get excused bc apparently me having a hard time with filtering what i say and having debilitating executive dysfunction is "traumatizing" and their bullying is a trauma response. and they won't let me even fix my behavior bc if i say something that contradicts my past behavior they'll be like "oh so NOW u care about that. you don't actually care 🙄" can i do fucking anything. can i do fucking ANYTHING.

(through gritted teeth) my big sister's coming back from washington next week. next week she's coming back from washington. i think she'll be able to recognize what's happening, right? like if they do it in front of my parents then they'll probably do it in front of her too. but ofc my parents don't care. they are actively against my side in this.

#talk tag #the other day my godsister said i love myself more than anything else and the only thing i actually care about is being right #and i said 'you're being mean.' #and she just said 'it's true :/' #also in that conversation i got accused of ruining birthdays #apparently. my baby sisters birthday was ruined bc i called her a hypocrite about smth to do with juice... #like she was getting on everyone else for drinking some kinda juice and then she asked me to get her some of that same juice #and i made a joke calling her a hypocrite and that apparently ruined her birthday. #i didn't mean to hurt her feelings and i am sorry that i did. but. hm. #and then i apparently ruined my little sisters birthday bc i defended polyamory as a valid relationship type that can work out #and be committed. but everyone got mad at me bc they think commitment and exclusivity are the same thing #so polyamory apparently is inherently non commital and can never work out for everyone involved bc of that. but that just... isnt true #and i was calm the whole time i was making my points. ppl being angry when they argue doesn’t make their points less valid but i think #'polyamory is fine and works for a lot of ppl u just gotta communicate' is SUCH a silly take to get mad at. mind your business!! #they get very mad at me very often and it is usually bc i said smth to the tune of 'don't be a dick' #and sometimes it's for literally no reason and they get angrier when i react #my big sister's coming home soon. she'll be home next week. maybe she'll see. she at least wont be actively against me. lmao

[unusualshrimp]

..... i think my problem was that i stopped writing for myself and started thinking "but what would the Cool Popular tumblr people i like think about this fic? Would they agree with the characterization or would they make mean vagueposts about it? Am I accidentally writing something that will end up in a List Of Tma Fic Tropes That Are Secretly Problematic post?" when some of the most fun i had was when I was writing for me and hoping it would reach like three(3) other people who were also looking for that specific weird thing

#tbh im happy for the people who had a nice experience in the tma fandom but i fell in with the Wrong crowd lmao #imagine being in *this* fandom and turning it into a panopticon situation...... sir this isnt the place #my experience with the fandom SUCKED #i had to sit and watch as Popular Writers said things like btw im the only one who can characterize Tim and Danny properly 🥰 #everyone else is wrong 🥰 #and LONG posts about if your jon in fanfic can make tea he's problematic!!!! if you write jon not making tea that's ALSO problematic #if you call jon stupid you didn't Understand the show if you defend jon's actions you didn't Understand the show #like. none of this matters. how old are we all #also dont even remind me of the ****** nonsense that completely ruined my ability to write.. i abandoned that fic and never wrote again #like. some of the ppl there were genuinely MEAN and that's it. idc how much you're the Only One Who Understands the text #and the Only One Who Understands problematic tropes - you're mean to people. plain and simple #sorry for putting this on everybodys dash im just processing.

[unfo11owmelol]

I hope when the newest FE comes out, that marth's eng voice actor can be PURGED it is so ugly compared to his JP voice aaa!!

#Like I'm sorry but he really does ruin marths image U_U i think many can agree that his eng voice doesnt suit him #infact his popularity definitely went down due to it lmao #Marth's was everyone's favorite melee boi and his jp voice even gets sampled in lofi tracks & youtube intro/outros??? he was an icon #then lowenthal came in and the fanart and discussion visibly plummeted lol.... #i mean. theres also more reasons for it than just him---but like...Marth’s popularity really did retract when he was around lmao

[thotsfortherapy]

bruh I had a social for my club and my housemate ruined the vibes so bad like. The way I feel like I need to send out a mass apology for their behaviour now :////

#cy says stuff #personal #idk man they are an asshole and they were making everyone very uncomfortable #and it's like idk what to tell you you are being mean. i don't care if it's in the context of a game no one is having fun anymore #they literally made my other housemate cry because of how aggressive they were being about it #like how can you not tell you are literally ruining this for everyone bro #my friend texted me afterwards like YIKES and we were looking at each other like 👀👀 the entire night so that was reassuring #but yeah this is why I'm literally never home anymore because they are so draining to be around and all they do is cause problems LMAO #i will probably have to have a conversation about it but it's very difficult because I've already tried setting boundaries so many times #and if I didn't live with them i would literally cut them out so fast #last time i tried to set boundaries they were like ugh I'm so sorry but it totally wasn't a representation of who i actually am #like i was just having a really bad week :((((( #and I'm like that is not an excuse to be awful to your friends #if you are only a good friend when you're in a good mood and then take all your negative emotions out on the ppl around you #but yeah it's also hard because i genuinely do not want to continue this relationship but I'm renting with them at the moment #so I'm just avoiding them as much as possible #just like 🙄 it's so annoying #venting #rant

[deityofhearts]

telling my roommate that I hate winter themed items (not all of them, but most of them) was a mistake because she keeps showing me winter themed items now and going “hey. look :)”

#deity dialogue #mean to me #okay so like I have a winter bday or like actually I’m p sure it’s fall but it’s December so close enough #and I have received winter and christmas themed gifts and now I just kinda hate it #maybe i don’t want a shirt with a giant snowflake like what lex showed me #I am once again thinking about one of the worst most soulless gifts I recieve which was when on the day of my birthday my aunt and uncle #left me in the car with my cousins whilst they ran into the hallmarks tore for a couple of minutes #then we got to my Mimi’s house and they presented me with the following: a silver circle charm with a P on it a card with a peacock on it #and like one or two santa shaped chocolates. #and i know. I know they bought those from the hallmark store #and it’s like #did y’all forget did y’all simply just care that little about my birthday? lmao #then again my aunt and uncle have ALWAYS done the best fucking minimum for my birthday so am I really that surprised? #my bday was always combined with christmas and my birthday gift for years was five extra dollars on Christmas #I remain pissed fuck them #sorry this is me complaining about my bday #we can only hope this year doesn’t suck #last year was actually p close but I still ended up sobbing so not really #may this year be a much happier birthday or else because if someone or something makes me fucking cry on my fucking birthday one more time #I am straight up going to lose it I’m going to snap and I’m going to ruin my birthday for everyone else #if I can’t be happy on my birthday then no one can <3 #I really hate my birthday and each year I become more bitter

[nooradeservedbetter]

x

#i was scrolling down ig procrastinating my work and i saw a lot of old valentine's day posts #and one of those in particular is from a person that i casually dated for a short while and we didn't part on good terms #and a lot of it was my fault and i can admit it #and i am happy they found someone truly #we weren't made to be honestly #it's not about them #it's about me feeling sorry for myself #moving in another country in the middle of covid w the trauma of spending march 2020 in milan... fucking destroyed me #destroyed my social life and everything #i didn't use to have problems socialising and making friends or dating around #i had a friend here and she'd been a friend for years and she hosted me when i first came here and idk i think it ruined our friendship #last time i saw her we were in a group of people and she mostly ignored me to talk to another person for all night #and i tried to converse and organise things with her and this other person #stuff that we'd talked about alone and she'd said yes and suddenly it was no because the other person didn't want to #i left that night crying on the fucking ubahn lmao #i just want to move cities and start again from scratch because i feel like bln is poisoned for me rn #i feel so alone and unwanted by everyone and i hate it

[peofun1]

the problem with yasuo leagueoflegends is that he was like. tailor-made in a lab to be exactly my shit. from the tragic backstory to the guilt and angst and the cool sword like he’s just everything I could ever ask for in an edgy sword dude

but then in practice, in The Actual Video Game League of Legends, he’s a fucking menace no matter which team he’s on and the person playing him is always the most insufferable asshole you’ve ever seen in a PvP video game (which is a pretty high bar) and I’m filled with rage the second I see his face in champ select

#the other problem is that i don't even like playing him #so I can't even become the asshole yasuo main to everyone else #anyway sorry for league posting #my wife is finally playing the ruined king game #and it's making me remember that i would be obsessed with yasuo if he wasn't such a nightmare to play with/against at low ELO #not that i even play league much anymore but yknow #ramblings #league of legends // #don't really want this in the tag lmao

[4giorno]

finally, chuuya is here 😌💖

#he was only in one scene but he was already perfection LMAO #was the song that played his theme? it was rlly good regardless #i know its weird to say 'finally' since its only episode 9 but ive been going THROUGH it #when youre someone who watches the anime that i do you really forget how much #the typical annoying or straight up disgusting anime tropes or concepts show up in anime #The Certain Three Ppl in the agency suck SO MUCH that im unironically rooting for the villains LMAO #you might think 'there are so many ppl in the agency and not just them' but no doesnt matter #those three ruined it for everyone else im sorry to inform hfkghdjfkfkddk

[notfenharel]

in honor of the tenth anniversary of That christmas, i will be returning to merlin hell

#i cant believe its been ten years oh my god #it ruined my christmas lmao #so sorry to everyone