#i need time

[wordsofwisdomandsoul]

#conflict #my feelings #being honest #boundaries #healthy boundaries #vulnerable #words #growth #healing #hurt #feelings #i need time

[firesnap]

When I was in law school I was struggling with the worst depression and anxiety combo of my life. I hated going to school, I hated studying, I hated how trapped I felt because I'd paid all that money and hated everything about what I was doing.

I started putting on vods of people playing Minecraft while I was studying to distract me from how frustrated I was. I put on Wilbur Soot, admittedly, because he was a cute looking guy with a British accent and then I fell in love with his content.

I remember the late night streams with a guitar and relating to how, hey, yeah, that's me too. I get it. The things that keep you up at night and that parasocial relationship with a screen that can't answer you back was a strong pull.

I followed his content casually when I was finishing school. And then Covid happened. I got more invested. DSMP happened. I finally gave in and started watching streams live. I gave in and joined fandom.

I made friends. So many friends. I've traveled so much. I've met people and listened to so much music and gotten into arguments with strangers and slept on people's couches and sat in the fucking dessert in August. I don't regret a moment of it. I loved it.

But I can't support someone who is a dangerous person. I won't speculate, or make this about him, other than to please use common sense. The same reason we all critiqued another's creators fans for sticking by him applies here.

I've run an update account about this guy for a while now. Through the nature of looking up articles, finding clips to share, and asks and submissions we receive, I end up with a lot of info I never wanted. But I can't ignore what that information tells me about the person I've been supporting.

I feel like this is an active grieving process. I skipped denial pretty quick, but bargaining has happened. Parasocial or whatever, but so have tears. Anger. So much anger and disappointment. Fear about the relationships I've built and a growing emptiness of feeling like a hobby and community I've loved is now just gone and that it's For A Good Reason. Guilt because someone was hurt, truly hurt, and supporting them has to come first but I am also just. Sad.

Quiet, aching sadness over the loss of not some dude whose content I watched, but every other little thing I'll miss about being around and always having something to look forward to and people to laugh with me about it.

Please be patient. Be kind. Pay attention to red flags and support those trying to work through their own abuse and neglect. I'm sad now, but they need support more than any fan of a band ever would.

#i don't know what's going to happen with this account #i need time

[riosnecktattoo]

Manny Montana as Carver in Westworld 4x03

#westworld #manny montana #westworldedit #mannymontanaedit #carver westworld #hbo westworld #mine #myedit #Tay's Trash #CONTENT #like i coulda made another bunch of gifs from this ep but im restraining myself #HE LOOKS SO GOOD #the jacket! #the boots!!!!! #he musta had fun switching from sweetheart to evil robot man #evil robot carver was SEXYYYYYYYYY tho #he really died TWICE in one episode lmao #this whole look on him #his shoulders..... #i need TIME

[markanddebbie-protectionprogram]

Oh wow i hate it here actually i win at some points but at what cost?

#THIS IS A HATE CRIME TO MY SHIP VISION MY SHRINKING VIOLET IS SOOO OVER WTF THIS WAS SPECIFICALLY DONE TO HURT ME 😭😭😭 #this #aside from s2 ep4 #will be the longest time I'll make a moment by moment post i jusst #wow #aside from school #that type of comeback is INSANE #i need time #invincible #summer.txt

[kcmonohilly1]

I have the 'children' but not the parents... I need help with the colors or I need as many votes as possible!!!

@zkylearnstherope

@wallymolly8you

@extraterrrestrial

@tulipsempai

@lakedo

@bloogers-boogers

@bugsyboo-bb

Help me make the mother!

#trending #not my shit #alan becker #gacha club #stick figure #oh no oh no #i need time #pls help

[sealer-of-wenkamui]

Having a full time job is the worst thing that's happened to me, but i also wouldn't have money to live/insurance if i didn't, i hate this. And i can't stand living with others so that's also not an option. I don't want to waste my life like this, I don't have the time i need for my passions (ART) even though i don't go out or see people or anything to save time (not that its even safe to with the pandemic). I'm so behind on all the things I want to do even though I literally cut out sleep as much as physically possible to save time...

#so im at least gonna buy myself nice things with money but ugh i dont wnat more money i want TIME #I need TIME

[evenceflux18]

This really wasn't another content more rather, a sad one because another family of mine has been taken away and I saw how this little one struggled, I tried my best to revive her back but sadly she did not able to survive her sickness

I felt shit and devastated, added that there's a big storm here, we could even gabe her a proper burial, I was frustrated today that I just want to cry until I tired myself out

Sorry for the sad update, I really don't want this to happen either, I was just so fed up that fron 2020 - 2023 there's always another member of my family was slowly taking from us away

I hope you had a wonderful time with my Stepdad and my Dad from the heavens, Rosie💖 We'll miss you😔

#sad thoughts #sad post #sad news #i need time #random posts #artist update #unexpected #devastating

[n-znm]

listening to Take Me Back To Eden:

sometimes:

but then again:

but also:

#i need time #sleep token #tmbte #take me back to eden

[sunrise-on-the-shore]

i need so much time to process the information i have encountered today. i'm gonna be away for a bit.

#sunrise thoughts #i do not have the stability for this. #call me a coward and an imbecile who fell to parasocial relationship stuff i get it i get it #also people keep saying to not speculate but they're doing so so much speculating and i'm so confused and lost #and i'm aware i should watch shubble's stream and such #but i am not stable at all. i am not capable of watching something that will deeply fuck me up. #i'm not ready and i don't think i will be ready for a LONG LONG while. #if you follow this blog or/and you're my friend you know why. #i am so so sorry for shubble and what she went through is horrible and i'm so fucking sad for her #but i cannot process some of the information that's happening right now. #i am aware shubble has decided to not share names for her safety which i very very much understand. #and i know when i say this it's extremely selfish and so fucking bad but i am begging i am genuinely begging #that everyone who seems to have 'guessed' who the abuser is to be wrong #i know it's extremely bad to say #but i am entering denial mode of the grief processus right now. #and like i said. i will need SO much time to process things. #i've had such a massive special interest on this man's content since 2021. it is my strongest special interest ever. #a literal pillar of my life is crumbling down in a completely unexpected way #so please don't yell at me for not being able to watch this stream and such #i need time #plus the topic is very very sensitive to me for personal reasons too #anyway. that's all i will say. and i said way too much already.

[liesofasilvertongue]

Hold up hold up hold up hol—

#nah nah nah nah nah nahhhhhh #wait a min #i need time #brendan brisson #thomas bordeleau

[lorde-taciturno]

I need to watch more sentai episodes so @cupcakes-are-ours can have more content to reblog

#i need time #and like motivation #presented by lord taciturno

[certainlynotlost]

the horrid urge to write "and they lived happily ever after" and start another thing issssssssssssssss urging. they haven't even kissed yet, get it together

#someone pls invent more days #i need time #i need knowledge #this is about my prongsfoot fic #also about the terrible exam #in a roundabout way #how about disappearing forever #i am not #ok

[wastingspaces]

i have experienced the entire range of emotions while listening to speak now (taylor’s version)

#i want so badly to love better than revenge #but it’s just not hitting like the stolen version #the changed lyric?? the whole production of it?? #i need time #some of the songs just don’t give the same energy that the stolen ones did #taylor swift #sntv

[bbyquokka]

skz replay comes out next week ?!?!?!

hello. excuse me??

I NEED TIME TO PREPARE

#im not READY #I NEED TIME #however i know that i will NEVER BE READY FOR THIS #HUH #i swear it feels like a week ago since they announced skz replay #WHY DOES IT FEEL SO SOON AND SO FAST ?!?!?!?!?!?!!??!?! #. . ⇢ [nemu.txt] ˎˊ˗ ꒰ 📝 ꒱

[syrupgirl]

i’ve got a two week break coming up soon so hopefully i can fill it w more planning and possibly writing for that infamous tey series i keep blabbing abt. If any of u have any q’s abt it send em in and it might just give me some inspo you never know :p

#holidays can’t come fast enough #neteyam x reader #i need time #and sleep #lots of sleep #avatar #avatar 2 #avatar imagine #neteyam series #she speaks? #avatar way of water #my mighty warrior <3

[rrrozi]

the moodboard for endwalker msq

#god this was overwhelming #i need time #at this point im just speechless and still sobbing