#i meant fuck me. oh sorry

[christakisbang]

chanlix moments i think about a lot (7/?) - channie’s room ep. 105

#stray kids #bang chan #chanlix #stray kids gifs #skz #skz gifs #my gifs #chanlixmoments #oh my god everytime he moves the lighting changes i cannot be fucked to adjust every layer im sorry #we're all gonna have to live w it ik it looks awful #anw horrible coloring aside.....this was A Moment. 3rd gif look how he perks up when he hears i made them like u said!!!!!! #sa u get a smooch assuming this is the one u meant unless another one exists w brownies that im forgetting about. if so im witholding #the smooch until u point me in its direction thank u

[lorephobic]

have i talked before about how crazy it drives me that in old bdubs videos he would super abashedly talk about his love for making things pretty? because. it drives me crazy.

at the beginning of mc4 when everyone was clearing out spawn so it was a lifeless flat plot of land to build on and bdubs took it personally and added grass and foliage once everything was built to make the whole landscape more lively and cohesive. and how hed get made fun of for thinking about little shit like that.

also when he got asked what hed be doing if he wasnt doing mc and he mentioned music (i think) and basically was super embarrassed to be like “i know its not very manly, but im super into artsy fartsy stuff”. as if that is a bad thing.

anyway im getting so emo thinking about how in hermitcraft, everyone knows and admires bdubs skill as a builder and its not ever something thats made fun of anymore. thinking about how bdubs never talks down about his own abilities anymore and instead of feeling weird about being a dude whose into artsy fartsy stuff, hes really embraced his career as a creator of beautiful things.

#sorry this post is literally so self indulgent #last rb got to me okay #remembering when i first got into bdubs and id see him in other ppls content and was like ‘oh hes silly haha’ #but i didnt actually start watching him until i saw his hc8 base and thought it was one of the coolest things id ever fucking seen in mc #i started watching his videos and the way he talked about block palettes and gradients #and the way hed try things i’d never think could work really blew me away #and hes always been like this #i remember even in hc4 with his modern house #the way he used snow to create a slope was like. mind blowing to me. #ten years after he first did it LOL #hes taught me so much about minecraft as an art medium its fucking crazy #anyway #its been a while since ive gushed about bdubs this feels really good actually #i love him :( #edit: i wasnt gonna say anything when this was a dumb little personal post but ppl are actually rbing it #so i will correct myself #in my tags when i said hc4 i meant mc4 #lol

[shinkaishoujo103]

i think there's something so poetic about adwd mc embodying life while casper embodies death and. they are in love. there is just something in there.

#how mc is so associated with brightness and light meanwhile casper is pretty obviously more associated with the contrary? darkness ectect #OPPOSITES ATTRACKS.....!!!!!! #it was meant to be #anyways dont mind me i needed to get this out of my system #saku rambles #we are literally his sunshine. but also his greatest nightmare. because darkness is weak to light right? oh my god #he is Weak to us...... #sorry fuck the brainrot. its getting to me #actually idk if this was already said so im gonna main tag yippee #a date with death

[rainymoodlet]

#gotta be honest with you all #getting through it has been impossible lately #i’ve been getting endless anons about my gameplay portions of kmik and accusations of favoritism and bias #and i just cannot do this #i was so excited for the spa arc and its completely gone #i was not prepared to take on the guilt of the actions of little pixel people #i just… i’m already struggling through every day #can you maybe not come into my ask box and accuse me of making shit up thank you :))) #i feel so apathetic toward everything #my excitement is practically gone #i don’t even think people are enjoying it anymore its just #an utter failure of what i meant for it to be #idk i go into my drafts to post and i’m not even excited anymore i just think ‘oh fuck will this be enough to satisfy #people’s wants for information?’ #and with more and more bachelor challenges being like i will not be using poses i’m like #have i made a fcking mistake lmaoooo #txt #sorry i’m not stopping kmik i just #am struggling 😌 harddd #negative //

[lynnbutlertron]

Honestly I’m not sure where/who to talk about this with but I’ve been thinking to myself after watching both seasons I kinda like mr b more in season one? Don’t get me wrong, I enjoyed the mr b//scudlertron scenes in both seasons, but for some reason I think mr b (and also scudworth) are funnier/better in season 1. I don’t know if this makes sense but like what do you think… am I just fuckin crazy or

NO ANON YOU ARE NOT CRAZY!!! Thank you for coming to me because honestly you make a very valid point

I literally have no better way to describe it .. they kind of made him less silly in season 2.. they tried to focus a lot of his humour on shock / weird shit and kind of abandoned him in other places (like a lot of episodes in season 2 he didn’t play a role at all, or if he did, it wasn’t exploring his character in a way that wasn’t LOL NUTS AND BOLTS LIKE HIS BALLS) and it’s kind of :/. Idk. Yes he was a lot more of a minor character in season one but he was a lot more . sweet and just a funny guy. don’t get me wrong i love how much attention he got in season 2 (especially episode nine AGH) and the crazy shit him and scudworth got up to but they did not capture his small sweet robot butler energy like in season 1….

It’s weird . Also visually he looks a bit different and i miss the cute and janky looking screenshots of him. There are quite a few where he just looks Silly looking and i miss it 🥺

Dunno if this is what you meant but this is kind of what i’ve noticed??? but don’t get me wrong i do love all of the development he got in episode 9 and other cute little bits./. but it is not the same!

#Take a shot every time i say silly #Sorry it’s literally the only word i can describe him with JFSHFH #so sorry if this is not what you meant and i’ve just gone on a random tangent that doesn’t make sense #Please tell me if i’m fucking crazy overanalysing it lol #rambles #ch #clone high #mr butlertron #ask #Oh also scudworth is a whole different can of worms #I’ll discuss him probably maybe if anyone asks FJDHF

[glimblshanks]

I rewatched the season two final recently and Mariner literally like,,, slides up to Ransom while telling the bridge crew about Freeman's transfer and steals his drink and sips from it and he just takes it back like it doesn't even bother him, he doesn't seem grossed out by it at all. Is this just normal for these two? Are they really truly 'share drinks without asking' levels of comfortable with each other? It's making me insane

#lower decks #beckett mariner #jack ransom #marisom #someone had to CHOOSE to animate that you know? #I mean I'm sure whoever included that in the show #meant it as a like 'oh look at Mariner being a pain in the ass and taking his drink' sort of thing #but I'm sorry if my Platonic Coworker I Didn't Like Very Much came over and took my drink during a work function #and drank from it in front of me #I would be Having Words About That #and I certainly wouldn't be taking the fucking drink back afterwards #like what are they doing? #this is not platonic coworkers behavior #also the way she sits right up against his side #and he doesn't move away #but he does kind of aggressively remind her that he's her commander before taking the drink back #like it gives 'these two people are keeping a relationship on the DL and she forgot to put on the act for their coworkers for a minute' #idk I KNOW I have shipping brain worms #I know I'm reading into this too much #but I didn't catch this scene at all my first time watching it and it's making me crazy #like hello??? I can't be the only one seeing this right?

[ef-1]

girlhood

#i have to fly out to capetown to see mother and im literally debating if i could land in the morning and leave at night on the same day #like. anything longer than that is going to ruin my year. #when she called and did her “katherine. you have to be here on the 10th” i literally sobbed in my bed for the rest of the day 😍😍😍 #not dyeing my hair black for a year and its getting lighter and lighter everyday and i look like her again #and my therapist telling me “you need to do things for yourself.” but like can i? sorry that woman traumatised me and i actually cant :) #like everything i do is informed by her #I'm going to go and just like everytime the only way to keep my sanity is to mirror her. talk and sit and speak and read and eat like her #and its such a terrifying experience bc i remember that im capable of emulating her viciousness and maybe i am my mother's daugher 🤢🤢🤢 #and im going to come back and its going to take fucking months for me to feel like myself again #“oh you look so beautiful just like your mother” i hope you DIE lol !!! the fact that my conception of beauty was shaped by her #growing up with this cruel beautiful detached woman and realising that at the intersection of beauty and wickness is a lifetime of pain #and still being so desperate for her approval- for any metaphysical proximity to her that i felt elated when #people would tell me i look like her. that it meant i was also beautiful like her and maybe she'll love me a little for it #but now i know for a fact that i do look like her and it makes saliva swell under my tongue - that moment right before you throw up- #when people mention it 😍 #last time i was in capetown my optic neuritis flared up (and i know for a fact it was that it was ms-stress related from having to see her) #and i thought i hid it so well even though i had near constant headaches & lethargy until she said “katherine give me the red notebook” #and i knew that she knew all along. it was so acutely humiliating standing there and knowing she knows i cant see which one is the red one #and she tilted her head and said “whats the matter? do you not know what red looks like?” #im never going to have kids. my mother and i read eachother so well it can only mean im never too far removed from becoming her #lol!!!!!!!!!

[evilkitten3]

it would have been really funny if if madara was a woman. not for like ship reasons or feminism or whatnot; just bc it would be thematically appropriate for obito's reveal if it turned out he was late coming back from the dead bc he was helping out granny (with world domination)

#naruto #naruto shippuden #uchiha madara #uchiha obito #kakashi: you're... obito? #obito: yeah sorry i'm late lol grandma needed me to resurrect her #madara: *having the time of her life fighting hashirama's corpse* #kakashi: obito have you considered that you may have a problem #obito: incorrect! i haven't had you in years #gai: i have #kakashi: that's. not what he meant by that #obito: OH OBITO I MISSED YOU SO MUCH I DIDN'T JUST REPLACE YOU WITH A NEW RIVAL IMMEDIATELY #kakashi: obito you've MET gai. he's been my rival the whole time #madara: you see obito! hoes ain't loyal #kakashi: WHAT THE FUCK DOES THE WORD ''RIVAL'' MEAN TO YOU PEOPLE

[vacant2007]

#sorry the weevils in my brain have decided that if we stop making shitty art today we explode #weirdcore #traumacore #traumacore edit #tw traumacore #ventcore #vent edit #actuallytraumatized #actuallyabused #actually traumatized #hesitant to use this vocabulary but this is meant to represent what im......increasingly certain is the experience of splitting #in a bpd context #i keep trying to run from the bpd thing so hard like its been a long cycle of that and me scrambling for other answers but #its getting harder and harder to deny and im in hour 25 of this current splitting 'episode' or whatever #and im like okay fuck you maybe. maybe i should look into that #makes too many things make sense im just terrified of the hatred ppl hold for cluster b folks its so vile #vent #my stuff #my edits #OH shit right um #cw animal death

[unholylevitation]

Mlynar reminiscing about his baby girls and his father in his upcoming skin.....very normal about this

#SORRY BUT???? EXCUSE THE FUCK OUT OF ME??? #they were like: yes thats right everyone Mlynar's father was there he CHOSE to be like that he was NOT led by example #inSANE #he's like 'kids? yeah I was a kid once. oh...you meant the kids I raised...' #I need this skin specifically because Toland is in the background #Czcibor being back there is a huge plus too like Mlynar is really feeling the weight of his sword in that shot huh #arknights spoilers #mlynar arknights #you are my beloved lame horse that i refuse to shoot

[unexpectedbrickattack]

Woe, oh woe... if only balding, anxious and overweight italians existed... so i can satiate my desire to give them a big sloppy kiss

I will tell u a secret…the world is so vast, SO beautiful…that they DO exist…but u gotta go to Little Italy in nyc (source:me)

#answered #spicy hot #or various scattered pizzerias in brooklyn and the bronx #queens not so much and staten island is full of racist white ppl #manhattan has everything (little italy) so thats a given #everyone in my inbox and notes being so bad !!!!! #i am SO sorry u cannot give this man real sloppy toppy !!!! #Oh wait this said sloppy kiss fhfhjfbdkd #WHATEVER the sloppy tag stays there #I MEANT #im tired!!! i said sloppy too many times and it fucked me up!!! #I MEANT SPICY HOT TAG THE SPICY HOT TAG CAN STAY #😭😭😭

[pancakehouse]

i just think they are always on the kitchen floor you know what i mean. like they’ve lived in this shoebox flat two months now but can’t be fucked to buy any furniture all they’ve got is a scratchy red sofa and some bookshelves and as a table they’re using a flipped-over cardboard box that’s got peeling tape and ‘records books other shit’ written on the side in blue marker it’s waterlogged and has mug rings on both sides and that’s all they have so they’re just sitting on the kitchen floor sleep-rumpled in pjs eating their toast in the morning and sitting on the kitchen floor in silence after moons and missions covered w dirt and blood and bruises and some nights they’re sitting on the kitchen floor passing a bottle of cheap liquor between them and they’re laughing and listening to records and sharing a joint and the window is open w a breeze coming through and also sometimes they’re sitting on the kitchen floor eating cereal in the middle of the night w their knees touching sneaking little glances at each other and other times they are fucking on that kitchen floor and other other times they are just quietly saying i love you. on the kitchen floor.

#r/s #also sometimes the kitchen counters too. those too. #sorry sorry this post is just my every waking thought lately it’s just like #pls ignore me it’s not me it’s the kitchen floor it’s the notes that were meant to be for the siken prompts i never managed to finish its #literally . like they’re just on the kitchen floor havent you ever sat on the kitchen floor w someone you love eating cereal in the #middle of the night do you even. do you even know what that does to a person do you even CARE what ive been feeling #fucking christ!!!!!!!! #anyway was sitting on the kitchen floor last night eating indian takeout on the phone w my best friend who lives across the country it #just does something to a girl. #oh also s keeps little pillows and blankets on hand bc the hard tiles hurt r’s joints .. if u even care ..

[maddy-ferguson]

Is it just me or do some Bylers reach way too hard to defend Mike for things he was objectively wrong for? Like the rink o mania thing is a perfect example, Will was not being bitchy (onscreen) at all to Mike until the argument where Mike was the one who started it by blaming Will for not telling him about El’s problems. Mike was being a huge asshole there, which even he noticed and said Will didn’t deserve the way Mike treated him. He then apologized and Will accepted it because Will knows that Mike was genuinely remorseful and that he wanted to be best friends again. I hate to say this bc 99% of the time it is deeper than it looks but for this I just don’t get how you can watch and think Will was actually in the wrong.

i do enjoy a good reach and i get not wanting one character to be 100% in the right and one character to be 100% in the wrong in an argument and i don't even think mike was 100% in the wrong at rink o mania but when you back up a bit...what did will do wrong exactly lol.

do we agree with mike that he was a douche for...not telling him that el was being bullied? nonsensical. he didn't even know she was lying to him before the airport.

was he wrong for barely talking and basically sabotaging the whole day? a day el said was supposed to be about the two of them, making will third wheel and feel like shit just like in the beginning of season 3 and for months before that? right...because that makes sense.

was will in the wrong for not calling mike and for making it sound like it was his fault they didn't keep in touch? this one i can get behind but he would have let that go (the painting being a welcome gift doesn't scream resentful) had mike not made it clear that he wasn't interested in anything he had to say by...rejecting his hug, agreeing to the whole day being about him and el, ignoring him save for the vomit green joke, And not calling for months. if the first three hadn't occurred maybe will wouldn't have felt the need to defend himself when mike started a fight because he didn't tell him his gf was being bullied like he's their couples counselor or something

it's like you said mike literally starts the fight and then deflects (twice) and Then he apologizes...idk!

long-winded answer but how exactly was will being a dick lol. i know he apologizes for being mean to him and for pushing him away in the van scene but when exactly on march 22, 1986 was will mean to mike. i can see the pushing him away because he didn't call but he said he deserved the fight and admitted to being a jerk to el (literally HOW. when) and wouldn't let lucas apologize to him in season 3 so i'm not taking his self-deprecating martyr word for it SORRY

it's especially funny when you remember that mike trying to call will is a THEORY

#i know mike is self-deprecating too. this isn't about him💖 #i know even byler being endgame is a theory but #and i GET IT like even if it turns out mike DIDN'T call he's not the devil or anything and i knoww why he acts like he does but when you #look at it from will's pov his behavior makes no fucking sense if he cares about him even a little. like why would he reject that hug lol #you could say him rejecting the hug was because he felt like they weren't friends anymore because will didn't call him and like sure but #then how is will not allowed to feel like they're not friends when mike doesn't call AND rejects his hug AND makes him third wheel all day #you can even say it was because he was like oh will gay can't make it obvious that i'm in love with him but that's just beyond the #realm of possibility to will. do you know what i mean? of course he's gonna think he doesn't care about him and doesn't even wanna hug him #hello after six months of not seeing him because he in fact didn't want to hug him. rejected the hug and made will feel like he was the #only one who wanted to be friends just like before #and really can you blame will for not calling when even without taking the fact that he's in love with mike into consideration the last #time he tried to show this friendship meant a lot to him he got shut down like crazy and was told that he was acting like a kid #i would've wanted mike to make a little bit of an effort too after that tf #and i know why he didn't call if he did in fact not call i know all that will isn't a tumblr byler he knows none of that not calling + not #hugging + agreeing to you not being important to the day + making you third wheel = not caring about you is not a crazy leap #if you wanna do the will isn't a perfect angel who is always 100% in the right thing (which i respect btw) i don't really see how #rink o mania helps your case I'M SORRY #you just will never convince me that it was 50/50 #ask

[cleromancy]

i absolutely do not vibe at all with any red hood steph concept ive ever seen because fucking nobody engages with it in any depth its just 🤔🤔 steph is basically the same as jason right? people who dont like jason online say so so it must be true~

like i need you first of all to walk back several steps and understand two major things about utrh and stephanie brown here. the first is that steph got into crime fighting in the first place bc she wanted to ~spoil~ the crimes of her c-list supervillain father. the second is that the core of the tragedy of the red hood is that batman is supposed to be his fucking dad.

so if you do want to do a red hood stephie concept here which. to be clear is not something i am INHERENTLY opposed to. you have a couple options to make it potentially coherent but you need to actually be deliberate and clear about what youre trying to do with that concept. you need to step away from jasons tragedy and look at hers and figure out where exactly her anger and hurt are coming from and who exactly theyre directed at, as well as what specifically in your au concept it would be so different than the canon one where when she comes back she wants to do pretty much the opposite of what jason wanted when *he* came back.

and. crucially. if the difference is the relationship she has to bruce being different you actually do need to show not tell that dude. im sorry but if you just *tell* me that in your universe that steph has a more deep and meaningful relationship to bruce i 100% always am like "ill believe it when i fucking see it". like, she has parents of her own and while that doesnt preclude having a more signficant relationship with bruce (see: timmy)... you really do have to do the legwork or it looks like youre just writing them out and asking us to take your word for it that Of Course steph wants bruce to adopt her, hes batman! gag, retch, spew. do notdo this.

FRANKLY in a reverse robins concept i vibe way more with steph as red robin than anything specifically her getting the dumpster costume from whoever you do put in the red hood role. (frankly x2 i still think if they really truly had to do the storyline they did in canon where shes still trying to do bruces dirty work for him and hires assassins to kill tim to ~make him better~ lmao she should have been the one who wore the Bad Robin uniform before tim got it instead of fuckin ulysses i just think it would have been more coherent and also funner for me personally)

anyway if you link me a red hood steph concept here and it sucks or does any of the things i Just finished critiquing i will be very irritated and i will not be polite to you about it. just as a fair warning.

#still kind of mad about this one time the topic came up and someone linked me a rh steph bc 'shes so sexy in it' #i was like bestie does the term gay man mean anything to you. and they were like #'oh sorry im asexual so i forgot that when some people say sexy it means they want to Fuck them' #... #like can you walk me through any of your logic here. why sexy was the adjective you used in the first place instead of like #'interesting'. 'compelling.' 'charismatic' even #why are you acting like im the weird one for assuming you meant attractive or swoonworthy being the main draw of the character. #why am i supposdly the one who made it about whether or not *either of us* wants to fuckthe fictional character. i wasnt even thinking that! #i truly madly deeply did not assume anything more than that you meant attractive when you said attractive #lmfao. #this wasnt even the only time that shit has happened to me. please do not do this. #i would love to say with confidence 'you wouldnt say shit like that to a lesbian about sexy men' but frankly i do have a sinking feeling+ #that they would #whatever. none of that was the fucking point #the point is jasons evil era doesnt work if u just copypaste it on steph shes a totally different character the context is totally different #text #dc

[munamania]

i dont wanna be a dick and act like i have no responsibility in this but after a point dont u think if all you ever say to ur friend is Omg you never make it out why dont you ever come out with us you bail all the time youre such a flake etc. dont u think that person (me) is like. not gonna feel so inclined to. be there

#like. yeah i was bad last semester i get it. and probably i shouldve tried at least once or twice to push thru #but i was so exhausted. and every time they would bring up hanging out it was on my longest days #and when i casually brought this up they were just like Well we have long days too. Okay! #and i love and miss these friends and i know for the most part. or at least think. theyre just teasing #i hate being seen as the flake like any time i do have to be like Oh i cant make that or Shit im sorry i have to bail #i try to offer an alternative???? and they never compromise on that. how is that fair like im not just outright rejecting u all the time #not to mention most of the time last semester it was always gonna be somewhere super easy for them to get home and far from me #im not like constantly holding this against them btw but i feel like they're holding it against me and i dont have any more apologies in me #anyway. that said. if theyre somewhere really expensive and far from me tn and i get out of work early #i. probably will not make it. lol! if theyd be willing to come a little closer to my place to one of the dives or some shit thatd be great #and like im not doing much today until class and work so really like. i WILL try. but i think they could sometimes not go for the most #expensive and inconvenient option as well. and these r all things ill say if it becomes like a problem problem or smth #but rn im not gonna be a dickhead and shit on their plans #but also! ok whatever im not gonna keep going on i just feel shitty im not 100% better from being sick and im just frustrated #about having to fuckign grovel over and over and over. i meant it the first few times now im just like #u could try not to be an asshole to me for five seconds too. like. i am very clearly not someone trying to secretly stop being friends #w yall. things happen #abby talks #and maybe this is an esp sore spot bc like ive certainly had some of you bail on me or be flaky or whatever before. and i didnt throw #a fucking fit to your face about it. probably bc it actually did feel more mean spirited sometimes #OK im sorry im not trying to make my friends sound evil and its mostly just the one and like im working on forgiving her for it cause it #was years ago but also like christ!

[nonbinaryaubrey]

imagine if you tried to reconnect with your old friend group after 4 years but then one of your old friends died and the other one moved away. which then ultimately lead to the rest of you dying. and you got trapped in your old friend's dreamworld, meet your other friend who died four years ago and then finding out you are going to lose all of your old memories slowly by being stuck here. would that be fucked up or what?

#playing forever au #MORE CONTEXT PROVIDED IN THE TAGSS i guess. readg. #omori #sorry if this makes NO fucking sense i dont know how to explain this AU #ITS BASED ON MY REVIVED MARI LORE FOR CONTEXT #this was the post neutral ending au i was talking about .. #its i guess meant to be one of the bad conclusions to the revived mari stuff. #and probably the worst possible follow up to the neutral ending. yknow. everyone dying. #IM SOSO SORRY THIS SOUNDS EDGYYY IM AWARE. i want it to be more tragic than anything.... #but i dont know how to explain it so it comes across as more edgy suffering bullshit </3 SAD. u gotta trust me on this one im trying #uhh context to how i came up with this. playing the hikikomori route with a friend and seeing basil at the picnic blanket -> remembering- #that at this point in the timeline his rw self is.. prrobably already dead (cant remember) -> lol wouldnt it be funny if he got trapped- #in headspace like how mari did in my AU -> remembers the neutral ending on the sunny route and how everyone saw basils body -> oh no. #aubrey.txt