Mine | One Shot | myg (m)
âž Pairing: Yoongi x Succubus F. Reader
âž Summary: Yoongi lives a quiet life. His days are organized neatly, and every week he can expect the same results. Then he meets you. Hypnotizing. Otherworldly. Strange. And his life never goes back to the way it was before.
âž Word Count: 14,864
âž Genre: Smut, Horror, Thriller
âž Rating: 18+ Minors are strictly prohibited from engaging and reading this content. It contains explicit content and any minors discovered reading or engaging with this work will be blocked immediately.Â
âž Warnings: Buckle up bitches this list of warnings is going to exhaust even me. Overall creepiness, descriptions of liminal spaces, tons of mentions of subspace-like trances, Yoongi's mind is not always his own, unexplained happenings, Yoongi being manipulated subtly, written jump scares (like three of them?), nightmares, hallucinations, the cutest and also creepiest fucking little succubus you'll ever see, Succy (succubus reader) really likes Tokyo Ghoul that should be a hint, hints at eating raw meat (bleh), Yoongi turning against his friends, Yoongi feeling sick/depressed in a couple of scenes, Yoongi is literally addicted to eating reader out soiejijrghij, explicit sexual content including, spit play, nipple play, oral (f. and m. receiving), grinding, unprotected sex in multiple positions, cum eating, switch dynamics between the two of them often, subspace mentions, fingering, ass play (m. receiving), just.... so many bodily fluids all the time, mentions of animal death (it is a cat and it's dead body is briefly described), a lot of confusion and pace changes as a style choice, Succy is literally obsessed with Yoongi so a lot of the pet name Kitty, very cringe behavior for some rando Yoongi met at a bar, ambiguous ending. I think that covers it idk this is almost 15k of pure nightmare fuel I will send you my therapists number alright
âž Published: October 30, 2022
âž A/N: If I have to write this authors note one more time because 'a wild tumbeast ate my fucking post I will scream. Do better Tumblr please stop eating my content over and over lmao. ANYWAY. SURPRISE THIS IS HERE A DAY EARLY. I have zero self-control and @gimmethatagustd told me to post it now so I really said fuck it we ball. I didn't use a beta for this one because I'm insane but I did edit it myself.... so if you see errors..... no you didn't. This one was so much fun to write and I hope you all love Succy as much as I do. She deserves the world she is very... scary and cute.Â
HAPPY HALIWEEN!!!
âž Disclaimer: All members of BTS are faces and name claims for this story. This is entirely a work of fiction and by no means is meant to be a projection, judgment or representation of real-life people. Any scenarios or representations of the people and places mentioned in works are not representative of real-life scenarios.
Masterlist | Ask
Friday nights are spent blowing off steam from work with friends. Yoongi has always lived a simple life, and he likes his Fridays like this: second person to the bar after Taehyung, a quick shot of whisky to take the edge off the day, followed by a whiskey neat and some fries from the kitchen that will still be a little unthawed in the middle.Â
Yoongi loves his Fridays at Serendipity.Â
The name is a bit of a joke, Jimin says. He inherited the old, rundown bar under another name from his abusive father after he passed away. Mysterious circumstances, the long-term patrons mutter into darkened ale and frosted mugs. Still, they come despite Jimin flipping the name. It was the only thing Jimin could afford to flip, the floors still the same sticky concrete that collect vomit, spilled beer, whiskey, and perhaps a little piss.
It's an ugly thing, with the vinyl stool covers splitting open to reveal guts of yellow foam, and countertops that need another layer of lacquer to fight the chipping from heavy mugs being slammed down every time Seokjin gets into an argument with one of the regulars. Yoongi tries to avoid the bathroom as much as he can. Jimin spent two weeks cleaning it and stocking it with a nice care basket with sprays, cotton rounds, and other products, only to have someone puke in it on the first night.
Yoongi doesnât care that Jimin named the bar as a bit of an inside joke. Yoongi knows in his heart of hearts when he sees you that this moment is serendipitous.
Because when Yoongi sees you for the first time, the world ends.
Not really. But it feels that way the moment he turns at the bar. Perhaps heâs meant to see you â or perhaps it was by your design. He tilts backward when the door opens, searching for any sign of Seokjin who said he would be there in a few minutes.
And there you are.
Lights dim. The world takes on a muted feeling, like the two of you exist between murky, brackish water with something lurking just beyond the clouded space that he canât quite make out. The roaring voices of the bar fade softly into the background until itâs just a buzz of pressure between Yoongiâs ears - or maybe thatâs not right. Maybe itâs the buzzing pressure of awareness pressing on his spine and eardrums.Â
It isnât pleasant but itâs not⌠uncomfortable.Â
Itâs impossible to look away from you. He tries - tries to remember where he is. A bar, perhaps? Not this weird, opaque space where the only thing he can make out is the rogue on your lips, a spark in your eye, and the way you walk forward. No. Walk isnât the right word. Glide might be more appropriate, he thinks.Â
As you near him, Yoongi breathes in sharply. Something like cedar mixed with jasmine and amber makes his head spin. The world tilts and Yoongi begins to slide on its new axis until suddenly, the mist surrounding him shatters as his foot comes into contact with the ground, knee buckling under his weight as his hand flies to the bar to hold himself up.
He fell off of his stool.
Yoongi almost doesnât believe it, except Taehyung is laughing so hard next to him that Yoongi flushes furiously. He slides back onto the stool, brows furrowed and head ducked down to hide his rapidly glowing red ears and face from you.
But then you speak, and Yoongi cannot fight the urge to look at you once more. Itâs an instinct pulling him from blushing furiously in his lap to stare at you.
âHi,â you murmur. Yoongi is a fish out of water, mouth parted slightly, heart racing. Jasmine. Cedar. Amber. Itâs all he can smell. His head swims, mind foggy as he tries to string together words. âIs this seat next to you taken? Itâs the only one empty.â
Is it? Yoongi canât tear his eyes from you, but he could swear Old Ass Han had been sitting there before you walked in.
Old Ass Han is the least annoying of Jiminâs customers and sometimes Yoongi doesnât mind when Old Ass Han rambles about his late wife. Yoongi has no idea how old Old Ass Han is, he just knows that he was ancient even when Yoongi studied as a high school student tucked in the far corner of the bar.
âUm, yes?â Yoongi says and it comes out like a question.
You grin at him and the world ends a second time.
Pleasure-laced fear shoots down his spine. Your teeth are white and straight, but he swears for a split second they were razor sharp. He shakes his head, dispelling a little of the floating feeling as he says, âOf course. Yes. Please sit.â
Yoongi holds his breath and averts his eyes as you slide onto the stool next to him.
Itâs suddenly too loud in the bar, a cacophony of voices and chairs scraping against concrete. Yoongi can still smell you, making the world rotate awkwardly as he spins on his stool to find Taehyung staring at him, brows raise and barely concealing his laughter.
âI donât think I have ever seen you fumble like that,â Taehyung murmurs. He loses control of his laughter and tries to hide it in his cup of cider. Yoongi flushes and angrily stares into his whiskey, hyperaware of you leaning on the bar to call the bartenderâs attention. âI mean â she is â holy shit I never believed in faeries or witches before but there's no way sheâs human.â
Yoongi opens and closes his mouth. He tries to find a response to Taehyung, but his tongue feels heavy in his mouth and something tingles along every hair on his arm and neck, a sense of awareness as you lean on the bar, speaking to the bartender.
Again, your voice haunts Yoongi in a matter of seconds. He feels the need to turn and look at you again, but he doesnât want to be weird. Heâs already fallen off the stool once, and he doesnât plan on further exacerbating his humiliation.
So, Yoongi remains facing Taehyung. Clutches his whiskey glass with shaking hands. Tries to take a breath â it comes out shaky â to calm himself. He has no idea what kind of delirium is threatening him every moment youâre next to him, but he wants to fight it - tries to fight it.
âAre you okay?â Taehyungâs brows twitch, mouth pouting. He ducks his head slightly, trying to find Yoongiâs gaze, but the older keeps his eyes fixed on the wood grain bar. Yoongi wants to look at you again. So bad. Wants to ask you your name. Wants to memorize the curves of your mouth. Wants to memorize every stroke of color in your eyes.
Want want want want.
A sudden throb pulses in Yoongi. He doesnât know where it comes from, but he feels it bloom inside of him, unfurling with warm petals of want want want want.
The urge to turn and look at you gets stronger.
Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck â
Yoongi grits his teeth. Feels pressure at the back of his head, like there are featherlight fingers pressing into the base of his skull to urge him to turn around and look at you again. His muscles constrict and he feels himself start to turn, hips beginning to swivel in your direction, arms rigidly placed on the bar as if to fight his lower half.
When he doesnât turn to look at you, Yoongi swears he imagines the light press of fingers turning into a steel grip. His eyes start to water and he clenches his teeth, feeling an immovable force on him pulling, dragging, tearing - and he lets out a small gasp, the grip on him so strong that he -
âYoongi,â Taehyung says again, voice firmer. Yoongi looks up this time, eyes soft and round, face flushed. Thereâs a little sweat collected on his brow, and Yoongi feels a dull throb at the back of his head like a fading migraine. âWhatâs wrong?â
âUm-â he cuts himself off and clears his throat. The pressure on his head is gone, but the menthol-cool, awareness of you is not. âMaybe too much to drink? Itâs been a stressful week, I think I knocked these back too quickly.
âYou do look sort of flushed.â Taehyung raises his brows. âMaybe water?â
âYeah. Yeah. Water, please.â
Taehyung asks for water when the bartender returns with your drink. Yoongi doesnât look at you, though he can see from the corner of his eye youâre looking at him. He grits his teeth and stares at the mismatched, colored bottles behind the bar. None of its top-shelf â Jimin certainly cannot afford it â but it doesnât need to be.
A glass of water appears in front of Yoongi in time for Seokjinâs arrival. The pressure in Yoongiâs skull doesnât return, and the tingling along his nerves like an electric current dies down a little. He still feels shaken as he sips the water, freeing up the dry feeling on his tongue.
Seokjin nestles between Yoongi and Taehyung, ordering himself a drink. Jimin appears around the bar this time, finally done with his bookkeeping in the back, and slides a beer over to Seokjin. Yoongi watches the way Jimin smiles at them before his attention falters and slides to you sitting next to Yoongi, making Jimin blink rapidly a few times.
Irrational irritation flares in Yoongi for a split second. Though his attention is on his friend and watching Jimin reacts to you sitting in Old Ass Hanâs place, it occurs to Yoongi that he doesnât want anyone else to compete with him.
Not that he stands a chance. But for once in his life, Yoongi wouldnât mind being the one to take someone home. Why canât it be him? He saw you first. Youâre sitting next to him.
Just as Jiminâs eyes glitter, turning to half-moons as he smiles at you, Yoongi spins in the chair, giving you his full attention. Your eyes turn to meet his and Yoongi is falling into them, no end in sight.
âHi again,â you greet, voice velvet. âYou have pretty eyes.â
âAll right, hyung,â Jimin murmurs. Yoongi isnât looking at Jimin, but he can hear the smirk in his voice as Jimin retreats to their friends.
âThanks,â Yoongi murmurs. He allows himself to drink you in. His head begins to buzz like heâs had too much whiskey, his tongue heavy and cotton-fuzzed in his mouth. âYou have a pretty⌠everything.â
You have to know how beautiful you are. A deity beneath silk-smooth skin. But you duck your head, a shy giggle leaving your lips. You have the decency to look shy, averting your eyes, lip tucked between teeth.
Perhaps later Yoongi will be embarrassed by the honesty. But right now, itâs all he can do to keep his heart rate normal. You are incredible to look at. Taehyung was right â perhaps not human.
An unnatural glow hums under your skin. Your eyes are vivid, drinking him in with a spark that Yoongi swears echoes a deep flame in the pit of his stomach. He wrestles with himself, his hands fighting a magnetic pull to reach over and brush his fingers across the canvas of your skin.
Yoongi wonât be able to stop if he touches you. His thoughts repulse him â youâre a stranger. Someone he doesnât know. Someone his mind is begging to violate. He fists his pants, flexing the muscles of his hands and willing the strange pull toward you to go away.
He doesnât even know your name and Yoongi feels like Pandora, watching you with coveted desire and shaking, greedy hands. Fuck he wants to pry you open and see what treasure lurks beneath the surface.
âWhatâs your name?â You ask him. You stir a beverage straw in your drink â an Old Fashioned. His lips twitch in a smile at your taste in drinks as he offers you his name. âYoongi,â you repeat back. The way his name melts in your mouth like sugar entices him. âCute. Youâre cute.â
Yoongi flashes you a shy smile, echoing yours. You share a laugh, his rough and scratchy as he chews the inside of his cheek nervously, yours light and floating. It echoes in his ears and Yoongi loses his sense of self, thoughts drug-laced with only you.
And then your lips are on him and once again, Yoongi swears the world around him has fallen to destruction.
Itâs hard to remember the order of events. Yoongi doesnât care. Your mouth is sugar-sweet and hungry, licking into Yoongiâs open-mouthed kisses as he presses you against something firm. He wants to melt into you, your skin like fire under his seeking hands, your breath delicate and soft against the empty air of what he thinks is his apartment as his lips attached to your neck.
Even your skin tastes sugared. A delicacy for him. For his mouth only.
Mine. The word echoes across his mind, but not in is own voice.Â
You writhe underneath Yoongiâs hands. He squeezes the flesh of your lips, tongue snaking out to lick a broad stripe of skin up your neck. Your fingers card through his hair, tugging slightly, just enough to make him groan against your skin.
Yoongi is painfully hard. His cock throbs in his pants, the material restrictive and making the ache so much worse. He grinds his hips against yours, mouth sucking viciously at your collarbone, the top of your cleavage, anywhere he can taste you.
âFuck,â you whisper, your head thudding against the wall behind you. Panting, you hike up one of your legs, wrapping it against his waist to pull him in tighter to you. Yoongi whines as you connect your mouths again, tongue and teeth, and spit as you grind against him. âI want you so fucking bad.â
âHave me,â he mumbles sucking your tongue into his mouth. You moan, deep in your chest. He swears for a second itâs like a growl. Thinks nothing of it. Just pushes against you hard, cock pulsing. âWhatever you want.â
âPlease.â
Yoongi never wants to hear you beg again. Or maybe he doesnât want you to stop begging. He canât make up his mind as he pulls you toward a room â his room. Yes, youâre both in his apartment. Thatâs his slate grey couch that youâre stumbling past and thatâs his sheets that you fall backward against.
Licking his lips, Yoongi takes a moment to look down at you. Youâre splayed out for him, unfurling in his sheets. He knows tomorrow morning theyâll still smell like you â jasmine, cedar, amber. You look divine, a flower unfolding delicate petals, open for him.
Only for him. Mine.Â
You wrap your legs around Yoongi, pulling him flush to the edge of the bed. You release him and press your feet to the bed, knees resting against his hips. You blink at him through fluttering lashes and starry eyes. Heâs never seen anything like you. He never will again. He knows it. Â
âGod damn youâre beautiful,â Yoongi murmurs, the words slipping through his lips, unrelenting.
The stars in your eyes vanish. Yoongi recoils, seeing the fathomless black threatening to eat him alive. He begins to pull away, terror shooting through his chest, sharp and angry. You squeeze your knees against his hips, nearly shattering him. Your mouth is a gash of red with rows and rows of black teeth, churning and churning.
âDonât speak his name here,â you hiss, words slithering in layers of many different voices. âNever again.â
Yoongi blinks and youâre blushing as you look up at him, knees splayed like butterfly wings, open for him. Just for him. He smiles at the way you giggle and hide behind a hand. âYouâre so sweet.â
âYou are beautiful. I swear it.â
âTouch me.â Your voice drips honey-sweet on his senses. âI want to feel you, Yoongi. Please.â
There is a prickling sensation like fear at the base of his spine but Yoongi canât remember why as he smiles at you lazily, dipping down between your legs. He props himself above you, hands planted on the mattress on either side of your head to cage you in.
âAsk me again.â
âPlease. Please please please-â
Yoongi swallows your begging tongue first, delving into your luscious mouth.
Itâs been a long time since heâs been in his room like this with a partner, much less with someone who looks the way you do, but Yoongiâs hands are confident as they sweep up your sides, pulling the fabric of your shirt up with his hands as they go. You lean upward, letting him pull it off you before it flies from his hand somewhere in the room.
The lights are off in his room, but a silver shaft of moonlight spills through the window to paint you silver. Your eyes reflect the light as you drink him in, his hands brushing up your arms, warming your skin as he traces them to your tits, palming them generously over your bra.
A sigh escapes through your parted lips, red lipstick smeared artfully from the clash of mouths and tongues. He dips back down, tongue hungry for your sugar-warm taste and the liquid heat of your mouth.
Yoongi is dizzy. Heâs a little off balance as he breathes you in. Your fingers pull through the strands of his hair, hips canting upward as he reaches around to unclasp your bra, peeling the unwanted layer from you.
Heated, shameless eyes meet his. You tilt your chest toward him, eager for his mouth. He doesnât miss a beat, placing wet kisses over the tops of your breasts, more tongue and spit than lips, leaving a slick trail to your right nipple. Yoongiâs mouth is possessive, sucking your pert but between his lips and flicking it lightly with his tongue, looking up where your lips part in the moonlight to let out a soft moan.
It spurs him further, plucking your nipple with his teeth, pulling any sound he can from you. He gets a loud whine then and you wiggle your hips under the weight of where his waist is pressed into yours. Grinning, Yoongi repeats the motion, giving a generous suck before pulling away with his teeth, gentling scrapping your peak.
âFuck,â you whisper. âFeels so good.â
Yoongi trails chaste kisses from one nipple to the other, giving it the same attention. He snakes a hand down your body, fingers dancing across heated skin to pull at the zipper on your jeans. His hands tremble, making it difficult to free the first button.
Reluctantly, Yoongi pulls his mouth away from your breast, a glossy strand of spit connecting his mouth to your swollen skin as he looks down, using both hands to pop the button on your pants and tug violently at them.
âThese jeans are the fucking devil.â
âYes,â you murmur, so quietly that he can barely hear you. He gets them to your ankle, yanking one more time and tossing them. He loses your hushed words in the rustle of clothes hitting the floor when you whisper, âI am.â
âHmm?â he asks.
You silence his question by pulling his shirt over his head, leaning to capture his exposed chest with your tongue and teeth. Yoongi stands between your legs, head falling tilting toward the heavens at the worship of your mouth.
Deep groans leave his mouth. You bite more than you kiss, but Yoongi likes the way your mouth leaves a trail of little teeth marks, your mouth pinching his flesh before your tongue soothes it. You have him trembling, nearly making him double over as your hand presses over his clothed cock firmly, applying the pressure he needs.
Itâs not enough.
Every part of Yoongi feels exposed. Even half dressed, the world is brushing against him raw, every touch of your hands like pleasure and torture, every fan of your breath like the coldest breeze on a hot summer day.
None of the sensations make sense but he feels high â higher than that time he and Jimin took shrooms at that one festival in college where the lights had whispered secrets of the forest to Yoongi and where he had tasted something beyond what he could describe.
But under your carnal touch, Yoongi knows that is nothing compared to this. Nothing compares to the way you work his jeans down to his midthigh, too impatient for him to kick out of them before youâre dipping a hand in his briefs and taking his cock into your hand.
âHoly fuck,â Yoongi gasps, nearly toppling backward. Your grip is firm, strokes deft and confident and oh my god he might come like this.
You lean up to teeth at the pulse point of his neck as your tongue darts out to take a firm lick. âThere is nothing holy about me, Min Yoongi,â you murmur against his neck. He shivers, eyes rolling behind closed lids as you speak. He can feel the trace of your incisors, sharper than he remembers against his skin.
Stars dance behind his eyes. You pull your hand away from his cock, making him protest. You hush him with a bite against his shoulder, sharp enough that he thinks you break skin. He doesnât open his eyes, letting his world sweep from under his feet as you turn him and knock him onto the bed.
When the feeling of spinning stops a little, he blinks his eyes open to help you peel his clothes the rest of the way off. Youâre fully naked and Yoongi doesnât know where to keep his eyes. The swells of your breasts, marked with bite marks and spit from his mouth, the curves of your stomach and waist as you climb atop him, predatory and eager, or the glistening slick of your thighs where youâre dripping for him.
âCome here,â he demands. Heâs dying to have you on his tongue, knows youâll taste saccharine. He grabs your thighs harder than necessary, zeroing in on your pussy as he pulls you toward his mouth. âWanna fucking taste. Bet youâre fucking delicious.â
You hum in delight, a lethal smile on your face as you crawl up to where he wants you, knees firmly on either side of his head. Yoongi lets out an appreciative noise. Your cunt is sticky and glossy for him, the perfect meal.
With gentle fingers, he parts your folds gently to reveal your slick, clenching hole and needy clit. Yoongi is eager, a finger trailing up and down your warm slit as he lets out a moan.
âFucking wet,â he whispers before leaning up for a long, slow lick.
Stars explode behind his eyes. He hums in delight, shivering at the taste of you, heady on his tongue. He repeats the motion a few times, flattening his tongue for a slow-drag, appreciative lick up your cunt. He feels the way you drip into his mouth, spill on his chin and he canât help but curse, at how addictive this feels.
You moan when he dips his tongue into your entrance, gathering your essence on the tip of his tongue before he drags it soft-slow up to your clit, circling your bundle of nerves lazily. Yoongi pulls your clit into his mouth with gentle lips, feeling the way it pulses as he sucks gently.
The sounds you make above him spur him further. He alternates between sucking your clit delicately and butterfly-soft tongue flutters, watching your mouth go slack as you watch him. The more you drip into his eager mouth, the greedier Yoongi gets, fastening his entire mouth on you and sucking harshly.
It becomes sloppy and imprecise. Yoongi canât decide where he wants his mouth most. He canât remember ever feeling this lightheaded from oral, much less giving. But heâs starstruck under you, sucking and sucking and sucking â fuck he doesnât know if heâs even taking breaths.
âFeels so fucking good,â you whisper, a hand going to knot in his hair. His scalp tingles pleasantly where you hold onto him, his eyes fluttering shut. Your hips move slowly over his face. âFuck keep going.â
Pride swells in his chest. Your voice is airy, breaths short and stilted and overwhelmed as he eats you vigorously. His fingers dimple your skin, pressing into the meat of your ass as he rocks you on his tongue, jaw slack, tongue flat for you to let you fuck yourself on his face the way you want.
Yoongi feels you drip down his face, hears the wet-smack of his mouth against your cunt. He moans. Buries his face further, letting you grind yourself on his nose, chin, mouth lips, anything. He doesnât care, sticky-coated to the jaw, so fucked out from pleasing you that he almost blacks out when you cum.
Something happens.
He doesnât know how to describe it â itâs like for a moment, everything goes dark. Perhaps he does blackout. Perhaps he wasnât breathing. He canât remember. All he knows is that between one heartbeat and the next, thereâs a moment of pure darkness accompanied by a laugh that chills his spine.
And then your mouth is on him, spit and cum making the glide of your mouths sticky-sweet.
Yoongi sucks your tongue into his mouth, pressing his fingers gently to the back of your head, pulling you closer closer closer. He just wants you closer, his stomach burning with a sudden hunger for you. He feels on fire, skin too-warm where your chest slides against his, sweaty and flushed.
Sheets stick to every part of him. Heâs aware of the sweat that slides down his neck, a cool finger of relief as you press him further and further into the mattress. He feels like heâs sinking, entering a new domain where heâs no longer in his room â he's just with you. Somewhere. Anywhere.
Your fingers claw at his hair, pulling the strands to pin him to the mattress as you lift yourself, looking down at Yoongi. He blinks, stars in his eyes as he starts up at you, looming. Glowing. Beautiful. His hands are on your hips, a sparking current humming just beneath the surface of your skin.
You feel alive and vibrant.
A moan escapes Yoongiâs mouth, pleasure rolling through him as you grind your cunt on his throbbing cock, warm and wet. His eyes flutter, Yoongi squirming under you, legs kicking and twitching as you tease him. Just the glide of you on his shaft makes him shiver, the pit of his stomach clenching.
âPlease,â Yoongi rasps. His fingers dig into your hips, begging. Pleading. Desperate. âPlease please please please.â
âYou look so pretty when you beg.â Your grinding increases and the room spins. His hands fall from your hips to the sheets, fingers fisted tightly in the fabric. âYouâre so beautiful, Yoongi. My Yoongi. Mine. Mine mine mine.â
Your words are lost on him. Thereâs only the firm touch of your hand against his cock, gripped tight at the base as you lift yourself. He feels his cockhead catch on your swollen entrance and he lets out a strangled noise. He doesnât know if he can stop himself from cumming. He is bursting at the seams with heat, an inferno so intense he swears that the world catches fire as you slide down his cock, warm and tight.
âShiiit,â Yoongi hisses. He takes a deep breath and holds it, hips twitching where you straddle his waist, letting him suffer beneath you.
âFeels good.â You lean forward, hands pressed to his chest to support your weight. Yoongiâs eyes flutter open. He blinks at you through wet lashes. The room is so dark he can only make out the barest features on your face, but he sees your eyes clearly. Looking at him. Watching. Hungry. âSo good,â you repeat. âSo fucking deep.â
Nails bite into the skin of his chest. He feels his skin smart. The hot bead of blood that forms. He doesnât care, watching as slowly, you lift your hips, your walls hugging every inch of Yoongi. He lets out a shaky breath, hands settling on your waist. He plants his feet in the bed, angling himself better as you reach the tip of his cock before sinking back down.
Heaven and hell. Yoongi wavers between both, gritting his teeth to keep from coming, to keep the feeling of you gripping him tight going. He doesnât want it to end, it feels so good but itâs wonderful agony, fighting the curl in his stomach, the twitching of his abs, the threat of exploding.
Yoongi's eyes are drawn to where you fuck yourself on him, sticky arousal turning silver in the single shaft of moonlight that spills across the bed where youâre joined. He canât look away, entranced by the wet smack of your ass on his thighs, the way you just fucking take him.
It lights a fire in him more intensely than the solar flare that threatens to send him spinning into his orgasm. Yoongi growls, digging his nails into your skin, half-moons on smooth flesh as he grits his teeth and fucks up into you. You gasp, nails raking down his chest as he jostles you. His breath comes out as stilted hisses behind clenched teeth.
âTouch yourself for me,â he grits out. âWanna feel you come all over me â please.â
âGonna,â you pant, head falling to his chest, claws leaving pink lines on pale flesh. You slide one hand down his body, making him groan as he fucks you with abandon. You gasp, hand working your clit between your writhing bodies. âGonna come.â
âPlease - for me.â He thrusts hard, thighs trembling with the effort, holding his breath as his muscles squeeze. He can feel you tense, pussy clenching so tight he curses and stops, letting you pulse around him as you moan and an unintelligible string of curses that sounds... like another language. âFuck, just like that.â
Yoongi feels himself come apart. His universe shatters and he floats among the stars. Weightless. Happy. Tired. He feels nothing and everything, a soft frequency of... something dancing along his skin. A soft buzz. Pleasant and warm.
He doesnât know how long he exists in that space. He can still smell notes of cedar, jasmine and amber. It's stronger now, with a touch of something else... something burning. He leans into the smell and it wraps around him, soft hands around his middle and petal-soft lips against his cheek.
Yoongi becomes vaguely aware that itâs you curled into his side, nose hidden in his neck, chest rising and falling against his arm. It grounds him a little. Brings him back into a dark room that is too obscure to be sure itâs his bedroom at all.
As he drifts off into sleep, he remembers the feeling of your tongue against his neck and nothing more.Â
-
Cedar. Jasmine. Amber.
It wakes Yoongi up. His stomach feels empty. His hands seek your warmth, palming your ass, pulling your hips flush to his. He doesnât open his eyes, content to feel your heat. Again, something like electricity thrums under your skin, tickling his wandering hands.
Your mouth catches his. Pulls him further from sleep. He feels his skin ache from your teeth and nails the night before. Feels the weight of something inside of him that wasnât there before, although he cannot put into words what it is.
Even in the morning, your mouth is sweet. Gluttonous. You suck his bottom lip between your teeth, nibbling softly followed by a light giggle. He smiles into the next kiss, sloppy and filled with too much tongue but he lets you taste him.
Yoongi swears there is an echo of your taste from the night before. Itâs enough to kickstart desire in him, detaching his mouth to plant kisses down your neck. Chest. Stomach. His tongue licks a trail down your velvet skin.
In a shuffle of sheets and skin, you lay back for him, pliant. Heâs awake now, pressing your thighs open, teeth nipping the tender flesh. You giggle and the sound makes him pause, lips pressed to your leg, eyes looking up at you in the dim light of the morning. Or night. Itâs hard to tell what time it is, here with you in this bed.
Glowing eyes look at him. Round. Soft. Curious. You watch Yoongi with rapt attention, lip pulled between your teeth. Spread. Eager. Ethereal.
Yoongi drops his gaze, groaning when he sees how fucking wet you are. He pulls you closer, sliding a hand under your ass to provide support. Curious, he brushes his thumb up and down your folds, collecting your essence as he does.
âSo swollen and wet,â he mumbles, morning voice deep and scratchy. âYouâre always so ready to be eaten, hmm?â
You nod. âPlease, Kitty.â
The new nickname makes him pause, thumb resting on your clit. He can almost feel your cunt throb under the pad of his finger as he applies a little pressure, watching you whine and kick your legs a bit. He grins.
âKitty?â he asks as he resumes playing with you. His thumb dips into your hole, ring of muscles clenching around him. His grin spreads as he pulls it away, watching you fight with the loss.
âYou have- ughhh â cat eyes. Pretty. Soft. Smart. Kitty.â
He hums, dipping his head forward to give you a single kitten lick. He shuts his eyes and sighs heavily, your taste heavy on his tongue. You taste just as good as the night before. âCute,â he murmurs, more to himself. âI like it, baby.â
Yoongi doesnât wait for a response. He presses in, tongue lapping at you hungrily, refusing to let you drip without his mouth for another moment.
-
Greedy.
Youâre greedy. You always are. Yoongi isnât sure what day it is. It might be the same night as when he brought you home or it could be the weekend or it could be next week. He somewhat remembers the taste of a meal. Some cool water. But he doesnât recall when he made it or when he showered.
He only knows he showered because he smelled the mint soap on your skin a few moments ago when you had your mouth attached to his throat.
Now, your mouth swallows his cock whole, throat pulsing around him. He curses, fingers twisting in your hair as he listens to you choke. Feels your drool dripping down his thighs. You relent, pulling back with a slick sound. He looks down at you between half-moon eyes, lashes fluttering.
Youâre a vision: bruised lips smeared in spit and cum, chin covered in slick, watery, round eyes that blink up at him, innocent despite the fact that you rub the flushed tip of his cock against your abused mouth.
âFuck,â he swears, watching your devilish tongue snake out to lap at his dark tip. âFucking cock hungry, huh?â
You nod your head, trailing your tongue along the bottom of his shaft, taking time to suck slopping kisses to his skin. He canât look away, even as you pump him lazily with your small hand, ravenous little mouth sucking coyly at his balls.
His fist tights in your hair. You look up, tears spilling over rounded cheeks. You look angelic at that moment, weeping before him. He nearly busts right there.
âDoes Kitty like when I do that?â You ask softly, voice almost a whisper. Your voice changes, heâs noticed. Sometimes coming out dark velvet, other times tangerine-sweet. âAm I a good girl, Kitty?â
You always call him that. He wasnât sure about it at first, but with a mouth full of his precum and neck covered in his teeth marks, Yoongi thinks you can call him whatever the fuck you want. Heâs never seen a creature so drunk off fucking him before and heâs no better. All he wants to do is fucking live in you.
âSuch a good girl,â Yoongi promises. He holds your head with one hand and your chin with the other, pulling your bottom lip down with one thumb. His touch is soft and reverent. You preen for him, smiling around his thumb as he slips it in your mouth and presses on your tongue. Feels the spit and god knows what else there. âCome on, baby. Suck.â
And you do. Yoongiâs eyes roll back in his head. He falls backward on his bed and it feels like he has passed through a portal to somewhere else. He floats. All he knows is your mouth, unforgiving. Your tongue, sinful.
And when Yoongi comes down your throat, and when you pull off of him and smile at him with the slow drip of it, Yoongi feels like heâs in fucking heaven.
-
Monday he calls out of work.
Crunching numbers at an accounting firm seems like hell in comparison to where he is now. Youâre bent over the kitchen counter, drooling on the granite as he slowly drags his cock through your drenched heat. He ignores the spilled glass of water next to you. Instead, he watches himself disappear deep into your cunt, collecting cream on the base of his cock every time he pulls out.
Yoongi senses you looking at him. You are, eyes intense and heavy. Your gaze shifts so often he can barely keep up â thinks maybe he imagines the way you go from soft, round-eyed sweetheart to a siren-eyed vixen.
Itâs the vixen look at him now. And as though you can read his mind, you slick your tongue out of your mouth, bubble gum pink and eager, eyes dragging down to where he works himself in and out.
Yoongi pulls out slowly, running a finger along your arousal smeared along his shaft, and leans forward, thrusting in hard. You pant, tongue still out and eyes focused on his as Yoongi delicately places his cum-slick finger in your mouth. Presses your cream on your tongue.
Your lips close around his finger, tongue swirling around the digit as you shut your eyes and hollow your cheek, gently sucking your arousal until thereâs nothing left.
âYouâre so fucking hot,â he whispers, in awe of you.
And you are. Thereâs nothing you wonât do for him. Nothing Yoongi wonât do for you. So he slams into you, deep deep deep, and grunts until youâre coming around him for what feels like the hundredth time since heâs met you.
-
Yoongi startles awake. He blinks away a dream that he immediately cannot remember. His skin is clammy and his sheets stick to him all over. He kicks them off, heart hammering as he jumps to his feet, trying to get away from the bed.
He doesnât know why, but he feels danger near him with every slam of his heart.
For a few moments, heâs in total darkness. He canât make out the shape of his dresser. Or the pile of clothes in the hamper. He canât see any light filtering through the window. He knows thereâs a streetlight out there â why isnât the light streaming through his curtains?
Panic threatens to seize him. He takes a deep breath and presses the heels of his palms to his eyes, rubbing fiercely. He opens them, bursts of starlight blinding him until they fade finally and he can see.
Thereâs a shadow in front of him, all razor teeth and red eyes.
Yoongi screams, flinching backward. He topples over and feels weightless like heâs falling through time and space. The moment of fear stretches out long â too long â and for a second he thinks he will die. His heart is beating too hard in his chest, his mind is screaming too loud, and the adrenaline threatens to crack him open and spill out on the floor.
He hits the curtain behind him and fists the fabric, ripping the entire rod and holders down backward as he goes. Streetlight pours into the room. He thrashes, blind and screaming among the now ruined curtains, the curtain rod, and drywall dust.
Yoongi frees himself, grabbing the rod to defend himself against the creature in a last-ditch effort to live.
Grey light saturates the room. Thereâs no shadow creature with teeth and red eyes. Thereâs just you in the middle of his bed, the reflection of the street light turning your doe-eyes to glowing coins. Youâre in a t-shirt of his, soft and crinkled, hair messy. Lip trembling.
âKitty?â Your voice is small. Almost childlike. âKitty are you okay?â
The panic beat of his heart slows. He swallows down nausea and realizes his shaking, the remaining waves of adrenaline taking their toll. Yoongi lets go of the curtain rod and nods, pressing his head into the wall.
âIâm sorry,â he rasps. Throat dry. You move on the bed â more of a prowl â and you flick the lamp light on. Warmth rushes into the room and with it, relief. âThank you.â
âWhat happened, Kitty?â
âA nightmare. I got up and ⌠I donât know. I thought I saw something.â
You sit on your knees. Hands in your lap, one palm splayed on your thigh, the other lifted toward him. Beckoning. Open. Warm. Safe. He peels himself from the wreckage by the window and walks toward you, feeling as though there is a string between you and him, tethering you to him. Reeling him in.
When Yoongiâs hand touches yours, exhaustion bleeds into him. Safe. He is safe. You smile and there are no razor teeth. Just kiss-stained lips as you shuffle backward, pulling Yoongi back into the bed.
âCome sleep, Kitty.â
âOkay.â
Carefully, he turns off the lamp. The streetlight floods his room now, but itâs comforting, the grey wash of the world enough that he can see anything creeping in the shadows.
Eventually, he falls back asleep with the slow drag of your hand back and forth across his forehead, and your mouth pressing gentle sucks to the side of his throat.
-
âWhere are you going?â
Yoongi almost smiles at the pout on your face. You stand in his kitchen, brows pinched, mouth furious. Youâre in another one of his shirts â there is nothing else for you to wear. His grin spreads as he comes around the counter, placing his messenger bag down.
Somehow you seem so much smaller in the daylight. Yoongi swears when youâre riding him in the early hours of the morning or when he has you on all fours fucking you deep into his mattress, youâre a force to be reckoned with. A fierce creature feeds on carnal pleasure only. Â
But now in the light of day, with your bottom lip jutting out and scowling brows, Yoongi thinks there is nothing more adorable. His perfect baby. You reach out, opening and closing your hands and he laughs.
âWork,â he answers gently, pulling you toward him. You donât fight him. You never fight him. Yoongi is always your top priority â youâve made that obvious. He smells the cedar. Jasmine. Amber. His head swims and for a moment, he forgot what you asked.
Moments like this with your skin touching, that high-frequency current that is unfamiliar but feels so good â Yoongi forgets himself. Every time he touches you, heâs somewhere else.
His phone rings and he remembers heâs supposed to leave. âI have work.â
Your scowl gets worse. âWhat am I supposed to do?â
âWhatever you want.â
âI want to be with you.â
He laughs, pressing a kiss to your forehead. When he pulls away, youâre almost snarling, gripping him like iron. He sighs and squeezes your hips for reassurance. âIâll leave a little early, yeah? For you.â
âDo you promise?â
âOf course, I promise.â Your lip wobbles and he leans forward again, nipping you. âGet some sleep. You woke me up very early this morning, hmm?â
You donât answer, but you loosen your grip.
When he gets in the car, he sees the curtain in his living room shift and he grins. Cute.
-
Work drags. Yoongiâs in a bad mood. His coffee is extra bitter. The water tastes off. The fluorescents in his office are too bright, prompting him to turn them off. When he begins auditing his clientâs monthly spending, the numbers swim on screen.
Yoongi takes his glasses off. Puts them back on. He swears that he sees symbols and that the screen glitches, flashing between letters and numbers and⌠something heâs unsure of. When he rubs his eyes, the screen is just numbers in an Excel sheet.
Sighing in defeat, he glances at the clock. Itâs only been an hour.
âFuck.â
He pulls his phone out, thumb hovering over the screen. Your contact information is in his phone, right? The silence in his office is deafening. It presses in on him as he stares at his phone, unseeing. Why didnât he have your phone number? Shouldnât a boyfriend have their-
A knock at the door startles him. He drops his phone, mumbling an apology as he bends down to get it before righting himself and looking at his director.
âHow are you feeling?â
Yoongi shrugs. âA little off.â
And⌠itâs true. Yoongiâs head hurts suddenly, a migraine slamming on the confines of his skull. His too-bitter coffee burns in his stomach. The back of his neck feels too hot and his hands shake as he puts his phone on his desk.
âYou donât look too well. Maybe take the day?â
Yoongi nods. Sways a little when he stands up to retrieve his things and turns his computer off. On the drive home, the headache recedes a little. He grips the wheel tight, taking deep breaths as he tries to steady the feeling in the pit of his stomach.
In the drive, Yoongi takes a deep breath. The pressure in his head is gone and his stomach doesnât feel as rotten as it did twenty minutes ago. He makes a mental note to look up his symptoms when he gets inside â perhaps he has the flu. It wonât do to feel this way before his clientâs quarterly financial reports are due.
Thankfully, when Yoongi steps into his house, he feels much better.
Feels fine as he drops to his knees in the entryway, tongue buried hungrily in your cunt as he presses you hard against the door, drinking in every drop. Above him, you tremble and cry, begging him never to leave again.
When you cum on his tongue, creamsicle sweet, he thinks he never will.
-
Pain shoots up Yoongiâs foot as he stubs his toe making his way to the bathroom. He can barely see in his room now that he has fixed the curtains â and put blackout ones at your request â and the floor is covered with his shoes and chargers and boxes of snacks you keep in his bedroom like a nest.
He has never in his life seen someone with an appetite for junk food like you â especially sweets.
Yoongi opens the bathroom, the gentle, white glow of the night light casting a dull halo against the whitewash walls. He glances in the mirror and his heart launches into his throat. His hand slams against the door for balance and a moment of terror bleeds him dry when he sees the shadow behind him, white teeth flashing and red eyes.
Whirling around, Yoongiâs hand shoots for the light, painfully jamming fingers against stucco. He manages to flip the switch while his heart pulses in his throat, terror working its way through him like an injection straight into his cardiovascular system.
Light spills into the room, so bright that he flinches, closing his eyes for a second. When he opens them, thereâs nothing. Itâs just his messy room, covered in clothes, empty and half-full bottles of lube, a generous amount of junk food, and you.
Asleep. Soft against his pillows, lips parted slightly.
Breathing a huge sigh of relief, Yoongi chastises himself and shuts the bathroom door. A few splashes of cold water from the tap do the trick, calming him down and cooling the red splotches of anxiety blooming on his neck.
When he returns to bed, your hands seek his warmth, making grabbing motions even in sleep. He indulges you, sliding closer. Tucking you into his chest. You hum in your sleep, that vibrating feeling that lives just under your skin ever-present.
Gently you lean forward, mouth seeking as you press your lips against the soft spot under his ear. He shivers as the innocent kiss turns into a soft suckle, pulling skin between teeth your tongue pressed against his flesh. But you donât wake up. You seem content to lay in his arms with the gentle pull of your mouth against his skin, smelling like cedar. Jasmine. Amber.
And he falls asleep, moment of terror forgotten.
-
Yoongi has a problem.
Time management was always one of his strong suits. As someone who lived an organized little life in an organized little home, he thrived on order, repetition of days, and knowing what to expect each day.
Except now Yoongi never remembers what day it is. He hardly remembers how he spends his day. But what he does remember are moments with you. Bodies against bodies. The press of his fingers in your sticky cunt. Your curious fingers, pressing into the tight rim of his ass, pulling out orgasms so deep that it takes him hours to move.
Now, youâre pressed against him on the couch, eyes fixed on the TV. He watches you and you watch the screen, completely focused on the world of Spirited Away. His lips twitch in a smile and he yawns. You snuggle closer to him, nearly attached. Itâs second nature to you, to fasten yourself to him. He doesnât mind, pressing a kiss to your forehead.
When Yoongiâs phone rings, it interrupts everything. You immediately hiss, looking toward the ringing device on the counter. He canât remember the last time his phone rang but he begins to lift himself off of the couch.
Your fingers dig in. âFinish the movie.â
Itâs a demand. He laughs as your brow pinches. âIâll be right back, let me just see who it is.â
âWhy?â
âWhat do you mean why?â
âWhy donât you want to watch the movie with me?â
Your voice has grown small again. Not the sultry purr he is used to in the middle of the night when you mouth at his cock, hard before heâs even awake. Not the demanding crack of a whip when you order him to come.
This voice is tiny, a soft thing that immediately draws him to look at you. He cradles your face, your big eyes looking at him with tears rimming them. His stomach drops and he hushes you, thumbs brushing back and forth.
âFuck â baby why are you crying?â
âWhy donât you want to watch the movie, Kitty?â
âHey, Kitty wants to watch the movie.â He croons and you pull yourself into his lap, arms going around his neck and winding in his hair. He keeps a soft grip on your face, eyes searching. That thrum is just beneath the surface, like a beating heart. âI just have to answer the phone, baby. I still want to watch the movie.â
You shake your head. âYou donât.â
âOf course I do.â
It isnât often that Yoongi upsets you. He vaguely recalls one time when he left for work, you had been a bit sad. But ever since heâd started working from home â wait, he works from home? He shakes the question from his thoughts, saving it for later.
It isnât often that Yoongi upsets you. He vaguely recalls one time when he left for work, you had been a bit sad. And now you sit on his lap and he hates himself for the way a tear slips down your face, turned into a diamond from the reflection of the TV.
âIâm sorry,â he murmurs, heart aching in his chest. He leans back. He pulls you flush against his chest. You tuck your face in his neck, your favorite spot to nuzzle and he feels the gentle tuck of your mouth, the tiny suckle of your teeth against his neck. Your comfort.
It isnât often that Yoongi upsets you. He vaguely -
He doesnât remember. What was he thinking about? He doesnât know.
Yoongi loops his arms around you and squeezes you tight. And his eyes flutter shut, suddenly tired and lulled to sleep by the gentle pull of your mouth on his skin.
-
âCome look at this cat,â Yoongi laughs, crouching down on the back porch. The tabby rubs itself between his legs, purring as it twists figure eights. âItâs so friendly, baby. Come say hi.â
Night sky stretches over the city. Itâs colder outside â almost Halloween, maybe. Yoongi lost the calendar in his house and he only turns the computer on if he has to sign on for work, which he rarely does these days.
You peek from the door, looking at the cat rubbing its face on Yoongiâs hand. He looks up at you and smiles. Youâre swimming in a sweater of his, though your legs are bare. His mouth waters at the thought of tasting you again â he canât ever get enough, licking the sweetness from between your thighs only to finish by fucking himself into you until he blacks out.
The blackouts happen more after sex now.
âHeâs sweet,â Yoongi promises, holding out another hand to you. âLike you.â
Tentatively, you step outside of the door. The floorboard creaks under your step, drawing the catâs attention. It happens so fast that Yoongi falls from his crouched position, sitting abruptly on the floor. The cat lets out a terrible sound, somewhere between a horrible yowl and a hair-raising hiss.
A blur of claws and teeth, Yoongi yells as the sharp talons catch him, letting the cat go. It becomes a streak of fur and screeching, vanishing from the yard.
You rush to him, dropping down to hold his scratched hands, blood surfacing.
âNo!â You look up at him, holding his hand gently to your chest. He feels the strange hum, the heartbeat that⌠isnât a beating heart as much as a constant buzz. âAre you okay, Kitty? Youâre hurt.â
âItâs okay.â He smiles. The fear in your eyes is heartwarming. You love him â he knows this. He feels it. âSorry it startled you.â
-
Autumn sun beats down on Yoongi as he goes to peel logs from the stack of firewood in the backyard. As he jogs down the steps, he slows, frowning. Thereâs a dead tabby at the foot of the stairs, broken body and dark blood smeared underneath.
âWeird,â he mutters, rushing to get some firewood. âIâve never seen cats here before. Poor thing.â
When he goes back inside the house, he sees you sitting on the counter. Spread. Finger tracing up and down glistening folds, swollen cunt begging for his mouth. Yoongi drops the wood. He zeros in, licking his lips as you spread your legs a little wider.
âWhat a perfect fucking pussy,â Yoongi grins. âThat for me?â
You nod. âPlease, Kitty.â
Yoongi forgets about the dead cat.
-
âI want candy.â Yoongi looks up at you, brows raised. Youâre standing in the middle of the aisle at the grocery store, chewing your bottom lip as you look at him with hopeful eyes. Yoongi immediately softens. Feels his heart flutter. âIs that okay?â
âSure.â He looks up at the aisle names. âItâs three aisles over. Can you get what you want while I go back and get milk? I forgot.â
You hesitate for a moment, a moment of fear on your face. Before he can brush away your fears with a simple kiss, you take a deep breath and give him your bravest smile. He preens, proud as you give a confident nod and dart off in the direction of candy.
Yoongi is impressed by you. Leaving the house is hard for you â always has been. The two of you mostly stay inside, locked in your little world. Yoongi likes it that way. Loves knowing after dinner youâll be nested on the couch, watching him with inquisitive eyes and asking him to put on a new show or to continue the anime youâve been binging.
Every new experience for you brings stars to your eyes. He loves that about you â loves the way you go awestruck while watching old anime that Yoongi adores, or the way you hum and spin in circles to music he shows you.
Yoongi remembers hearing once that people live many lives. He thinks that if thatâs true, you must be in your first life, curious about everything. Surprised by the world. And he gets to watch it over and over, the way you grin when something startles you or when you furiously pout because you donât like something.
Grocery store trips are new for you. The first time, youâd been stitched to his side, refusing to separate from him. Cagey and flashing mean eyes at everyone. Now, though, Yoongi doesnât worry as he pulls open one of the glass doors in the cold section, looking for milk.
âYoongi?â He turns mid-reach for a carton of milk, the cold air hitting him in the face and turning his cheeks pink, glass frosting with the humidity rushing into the fridge. Taehyung is standing behind him, hands shoved into pockets. âHoly shit it is you.â
Yoongi gives Taehyung a funny smile, pulling the milk from the fridge and adding it to his cart. âWhy wouldnât it be? How are you?â
âDude, how are you? You donât answer anyoneâs calls, I heard you started working at home from some sort of illness, and you refuse to answer your door when we come by.â Taehyungâs face is picture-perfect concern, brown eyes fixed on Yoongi, bottom lip pulled between his teeth. âWhy canât you tell us whatâs going on? Itâs been weeks.â
âWhat are you talking about? I talked to you two weeks ago.â
Taehyung cocks his head. His brows furrow and an unsettling feeling flips Yoongiâs stomach. He remembers the call exactly. Recites their conversation back to Taehyung, but before Yoongi can finish, his friend is shaking his head.
âWe never had that conversation, Yoongi.â
Taehyung takes a step closer. Yoongiâs heart starts pounding. He remembers talking to Taehyung. He had been standing in the kitchen when his phone rang, and you had handed him his phone. Yoongi remembers because he had been half-paying attention to the conversation, transfixed by the way your eyes caught the light and the way you watched him catch up with Taehyung.
But⌠another thought swirls in Yoongiâs mind. A vision of you slamming the phone down on the counter, shattering it. Yoongi begging you to stop â stop something Ââ and then your soft lips on him.
He shakes his head, setting the thoughts free.
âWhatâs going on?â Taehyung asks, moving past his cart to get closer. Yoongi backs up. He doesnât know why, but itâs automatic. He feels panic surge as Taehyung pauses. âAre you sick or-â
Maybe he is. Yoongi knows he talked to Taehyung and yet⌠doubt wiggles into his mind. Eats at it like a worm. There feels like there is a box somewhere tucked in the recesses of his memory, shielded and without a key. If he applies pressure on it, he gets a headache.
Licking his lips, Yoongi places his trembling hands on the cart. Looks at Taehyung. Sees the pleading in his friendâs eyes. Yoongi opens his mouth to ask when Taehyung thinks they last spoke and -
âKitty?â
Your soft voice cuts the anxiety in half. Yoongiâs thoughts ease as you appear a few feet away from them, bags of candy in hand. Your doll face morphs into unease when you look at Taehyung. Yoongi wonders why that is â youâve talked to Taehyung plenty of times. You encourage Yoongi to call him.
âYou?â Taehyung asks. The vehemence in his voice startles Yoongi. âYouâre still around? Jesus Yoongi, have you been shacked up with some girl you met at a bar this entire time?â
Words have consequences. Taehyungâs immediately has an effect, your expression going from soft and sweet to something that makes Yoongiâs hands grip the push-bar on the cart tightly.
âHe has nothing to do with it.â Your voice is a layered hiss. A tingle slides down Yoongiâs neck â familiar and dangerous. He has the sudden urge to bolt, but his feet are rooted to the ground as you advance, putting yourself between the two men. âYoongi hasnât been feeling well. I wouldnât expect you to understand.â
âIâm one of his best friends!â
Taehyung is one of his best friends. And Jimin. And Seokjin. Yoongi remembers sitting on a stool at Serendipity, listening to Old Ass Han tell him some superstition about female demons who snatched one of his sons in the middle of the night. Jimin had laughed so hard and made Old Ass Han so mad that Jimin covered his tab for the night.
It was such a funny memory that the next Halloween, Jimin had dressed up as a sultry, female demon. Yoongi vaguely recalls laughing with them into the night, especially when Jimin picked up a guy to go home with that night.
Yoongi is full of those memories â at least he was. He thinks he is.
The little place in his mind that feels inaccessible cracks a little and Yoongi winces, a headache splitting him open. He clutches his temple as a bolt of pain lances through his skull. Then your hands are on him, gentle and cradling his face. Youâre saying something but he canât hear you over the high-pitched ringing in his ears.
Colors dance across his vision as Yoongi squeezes his eyes shut, trying to pant through the pain. The pain doesnât come from that tiny little box in his mind â it comes from somewhere else. Pulling him away from whatever is hidden there, in that dark little forgotten corner.
Suddenly, it becomes too much and darkness swallows him whole.
The last thing Yoongi remembers is the gentle kiss of your mouth on his neck.
-
Yoongi has a problem.
Heâs getting headaches all the time. Sometimes he wakes up in the middle of the night with them, sharp pain digging behind his eyes. It always worsens when he tries to recall the dreams he has before he wakes up â he knows he has dreams. Theyâre on the tip of his tongue. But the more he thinks about them, the more he tries to draw up what he imagined, the more the pain grows.
The bed sinks as you crawl in next to him. Itâs too hot in bed. Sheets cling to Yoongiâs skin. He feels like thereâs a furnace under the mattress, burning through and making everything sweaty and sticky. He shifts a little away from you â your body is always warm, skin heated with the thrum of energy beneath the surface.
Cedar. Jasmine. Amber. Your scent swells as you tuck yourself close to him. Not touching, but Yoongi can sense you there, an awareness tingling along his skin. Itâs happened a few times, where a second awareness blinks an eye open and Yoongi feels on edge. Like there is suddenly an instinct inside of him that has awakened, one he is unfamiliar with.
That awareness yawns. Blooms at the back of his mind, where that same throbbing ache has settled. Yoongi tries to steady his breathing, but he can feel his pulse against his pillow, thumping faster and faster as your cloying scent muddles his thoughts.
You donât say anything. You donât reach out and touch him. You just lay there, silent and omnipresent. Yoongi squeezes his eyes shut, and for the first time in a very long time, he wishes that you would go to the other room and watch TV. You love watching TV. Sometimes he finds you sitting in front of it on the floor, knees tucked to your chest, chin on top of your knees while you watch a variety of shows.
Though it seems you have settled on Tokyo Ghoul as your favorite.
âKitty?â you whisper. He holds his breath. Perhaps if he pretends he is asleep, youâll go to sleep too. Long beats of silence stretch between you, filled only with the sound of Yoongiâs measured breathing. âIâm sorry.â
He pauses. âHmm?â
âIâm sorry.â
Yoongi swallows past a knot in his throat. Every muscle in his body is clenching. His fingers are fisted in his blankets, and heâs curled into a ball. He doesnât remember feeling so braced. He tries to relax, letting himself melt in the bed a little.
âFor what?â
âYou⌠need space.â
He doesnât need to turn around to hear the tremble in your voice. You sniffle a little. The lamp on his bed flickers, catching his attention. He watches the flicker of the bulb as you cry softly behind him. He wants to turn around â wants to gather you in his arms and tuck you into his chest and yet⌠he doesnât.
âA little,â Yoongi admits softly.
âOkay.â
Licking his lips, Yoongi steels himself. He rolls over in bed to look at you. Youâre buried in one of his hoodies and the blanket he likes to sleep with on the couch. He can barely make out your cherubic face. Your round eyes blink at him, pools of light in the darkness of the hoodie and blanket.
âI didnât mean to make you cry.â
âOkay.â
He softens. Itâs not so warm in the bed anymore, so he reaches across the space, finding your hand clutched in the blanket. You let him pry your fingers open and he traces your palm. âJust a little space, okay? I can sleep on the couch tonight.â
You shake your head. âNo.â
âBaby-â
âIâm not tired.â
Your voice is firm. He knows that voice â itâs the one that precedes a tantrum if heâs not careful. He nods, pulling a hand away and sighing, closing his eyes. He is tired. He realizes just how tired he is.
âGood night, Kitty.â
-
Most days itâs easier to placate you.
Yoongi feels like he is worn at the edges. Hot water runs down his neck, his back. Relieves a deep ache that has begun to grow on his bones, pained turned lichen. He feels like a watercolor painting with too much liquid medium, running at the edges and blurring across a once-beautiful canvas.
Sleep comes every night, but Yoongi still wakes up tired. He misses meetings even though he has been working from home for⌠however long. He doesnât know where his cell phone is. He lost it somewhere in the house â doesnât need it much.
Water drips onto the floor as he steps out of the shower. He watches it run down milky legs, soaking into the towel. Steam permeates the air and slicks across the mirror, Yoongiâs reflection as opaque and bleary as he feels.
Yoongi heaves a heavy yawn, wiping a hand across the steam in preparation to shave. When his eyes look up at the three-paneled mirror, a shadowed creature with rows of gnashing teeth and red eyes is behind him.
A scream rips its way out of his throat, the terror is so awful that Yoongiâs knees buckles. He hits the tile hard, head smacking the cabinet. His world explodes into color as he blinks the stars from his eyes, scrambling with damp legs, slipping uselessly on the steamed tile as he backs himself into the corner of the wall and sink.
Thereâs nothing there. Just an open doorway.
For a few seconds, itâs just Yoongiâs heart pounding so hard that his stomach roils. He fumbles for the toilet, flipping the lid and rolling to his knees to heave the contents of dinner into the bowl. He gasps for air, stinging his vomit-burned throat as he throws up again. Stomach-churning. Lungs screaming.
When he flushes and settles against the bathtub, he hears the TV in the living room. Cool air drifts in from his bedroom. He closes his eyes and takes in deep breaths, counting in for seven and out for seven. Thereâs the soft patter of your feet on the carpet, and he can sense you in the doorway.
His spine always tingles when youâre around.
âKitty? Are you okay?â
âDonât feel good.â
âOh kitty,â you whisper. He keeps his eyes closed. You slide closer to him and your hands are warm. When they touch his face, he feels a little energy pour back into him and he opens his eyes. Youâre the most beautiful thing heâs ever seen, still. âIâm sorry.â
âWhy sorry?â
You chew on your lip. âIâm sorry.â
It feels like you say that a lot these days. Yoongi nods his head and closes his eyes again as you lean forward and press yourself to his side, giving him a gentle kiss.
-
The headache is bad. But he has to know. Lays in his bed writhing in the sheets.
Ithurtsithurtsithurtsithurts.
Memories crack across his mind, each one hurting more than the last.
A creature of shadow. Blacking out after sex. A dead cat that hadnât always been dead. Your innocent eyes. Your angry eyes. You smashing his phone to pieces. A doctor forging him a medical note. Blood on your hands and face as you came out of the doctorâs office.
-
For the first time in a long time, Yoongi has energy. He feels more himself. Clearer. He gets up early in the morning and makes himself coffee. He sees you lurking near the fridge, throwing him wary glances. Youâre a little more worn than usual: sallow cheeks, bags under your eyes. Your eyes are as starry.
When he asks you whatâs wrong, you donât answer. You duck into the bedroom and shut the door firmly behind you. He stares, a little confused and hurt before sighing. Youâre touchy sometimes, and on the days like this where youâre more like a feral cat than a preening girlfriend, he knows to keep his distance.
Yoongi shrugs and tosses the sugar packet in the trash, frowning. There are empty bottoms of foam that are stained red - meat packages, he realizes. He doesnât recall having steak at all this week, but perhaps youâre thawing it in the fridge for dinner.
He shrugs and goes to his office, leaving you to your devices.
A morning meeting kickstarts his day, and Yoongi forgets about it.
-
Yoongi has a problem.
Youâre worse. You donât want to come out of his room and you wonât go near the light. There are harsh lines around your eyes and he swears your teeth are sharper. More lethal. You wonât sleep in the same bed as he is.
Worst of all? Yoongi feels great. Feels like perhaps it was just a depressive episode he was in. He no longer feels like he is melted together at the edges, barely hanging on. But it does mean that heâs getting frustrated with you.
âFeral,â he mutters as he walks into his office after you snarled at him and then proceeded to cry because you wanted him to take the day off. âSometimes I swear she is feral.â
-
Soft lips wake Yoongi up in the middle of the night. He stirs, feeling a tingle run down his spine. He can smell cedar, jasmine and amber and smiles. Youâre pressed against him, mouth seeking his delicately, though there is some urgency behind your kisses.
Yoongi opens his mouth to you, an invitation. You suck his tongue into your mouth greedily and arousal shoots to his cock, your mouth doing wonders on his tongue. Fuck he knows you like to suck him off like that too, all greedy and sloppy and spit-slicked.
Your hands pull at his shirt and you kiss him with more fervor, lips becoming teeth, moans becoming hisses. When Yoongi rolls onto his back, pulling your hips on top of him, the dynamic changes.
A gasp escapes his kiss-bruised lips, eyes flying open as you mark his throat. Harsh stings of teeth followed quickly by lavish licks of your tongue. Itâs messy and you leave a trail of spit dripping down his neck, making him squirm underneath you, cock tight against his pajama shorts.
âFuck,â he moans when you suck that spot under his ear he loves. âGreedy devil.â
âYes,â you shoot back, voice firm. Your hands seek his, pulling them from where they massage your ass to pin them above his head, your grip iron. âPlease.â
Thereâs no way sheâs human.
Taehyungâs words flash through Yoongiâs mind when he looks up at you. Your pupils are dilated, two black disks that absorb the barest hint of light in the room. He shivers, afraid of falling into your dark eyes and never finding his way back home.
Have your eyes always been that soulless? No, he thinks.
âPlease,â you say again. âPlease let me have you.â
He frowns. âYou can always have me.â
You shake your head. âNot always. Too much. I take⌠I take too much. But now not enough. I justâŚâ Your lip trembles and where you hold his wrist begins to ache. He whimpers and you hush him, your fingers loosening a little. âI just need some. Not a lot.â
Itâs hard to understand what youâre asking for. Yoongi is lost in the sensation of fluttering in his stomach and the way blood rushes through his body. He feels high when you dip one of your hands below the waistband of his pajamas, taking a hold of his cock in your hand, thumb brushing precum from the tip.
You always take care of Yoongi. His eyes flutter shut as he feels a steady static build in his brain. Your touch is careful but deliberate, each stroke of your hand and squeeze of his shaft sending him spinning. His hips twitch under you.
When you shift down his body, he lifts his lower half off the bed, kicking at the sheets and letting you tug his bottoms down. Heâs shaking and eager, unable to look down at you when you take him fully in your hand, tongue tasting the stickiness at his tip.
âFuck,â he whispers. His hands are still above him, twisted in the pillowcase. He leaves them there, helpless as you tongue the head of his dick before sucking it into your mouth. Your tongue is gentle and your mouth is warm, the barest of sucks making him whine. âDonât tease me.â
You hum and the vibrations make him speechless. His head rolls to the side, mouth parted, panting as he sees stars. You suck him eagerly, messily. He hears the wet pull of your mouth, the choked cough of your throat when you take him in deep and swallow.
Gentle nails scratch down his legs. He feels like heâs disconnected from the rest of the world, a single strand tethering him as he floats. He babbles as you take him in deep, a hand reaching down below his balls, a single, shy finger pressing against his tight rim.
Everything inside of Yoongi goes taught. He comes immediately and without warning. Spills in your mouth and the world fades away. There is nothing where he goes. No memories, no thoughts, no anxiety. Itâs just Yoongi and he feels good â the kind of warm from a bubble bath laden with creams and salts.
Eventually, he comes back down. Opening his eyes, Yoongi sees you blink down at him. You smile, brushing light finger strokes over flushed cheeks. He grins up at you, elated. Hypnotized. Youâre so⌠he doesnât know the word.
Thereâs no way sheâs human.
That phrase makes Yoongiâs smile falter. You are exquisite. Shrouded in darkness. Yoongi feels the press of unfamiliar air. When he looks beyond you, thereâs just darkness. There is nothing. No light streams in from the window again. There is no soft hum of the nightlight in the bathroom where he usually leaves the door open now.
Itâs just you.
Yoongiâs heart begins to speed up, panic rising.
You kiss him softly. Itâs sweet and his anxiety melts away. Feels the weight of you on your hips, wet pussy dripping on his thigh. Youâre being patient, which surprises him. Usually by now youâre needy, grinding your cunt on his thigh to seek friction.
âI want more,â you whisper against his mouth, fingers pressed into his cheeks. âWill you give me more?â
He nods. You lick his mouth, sighing contentedly as you roll your hips on his thigh. He moans, feeling the glide of your bare folds against his leg. You are always so ready for him, eager to take him. Easy to please. Excited to take what you want.
Shaking above him, you bury your face in his neck. Yoongi slides his hands from their position above his head, resting one hand on your thigh and sliding the other between your legs. Sticky arousal greets him, his fingers brushing up and down your cunt as you stop grinding, letting him take control.
âKitty,â you beg, words muffle in his neck. He grins, eyes half-lidded as he plays with you. âPlease, Kitty.â
Yoongi sinks two fingers in your greedy hole, feeling the way your walls flutter around him. It doesnât matter how many times he buries his fingers, cock or tongue in you â every time is divine. Feels like something holy, taking him somewhere else.
âFuck yourself on my fingers,â he murmurs, pressing a thumb to your clit. âCome on, baby. Wanna see you make a mess on my hands first.â
âWant your cock.â
âFingers first, baby. Come on, you can do it.â
A growl rips through your frame. Yoongi stills under you for a moment, heart skipping. But then you move your hips and he hears your soft breath. Feels the drip down his hand. He grins, feeling you swallow his fingers as you work yourself on him, his thumb circling your clit lazily.
Nails dig into his thighs as you lean backward, spreading yourself for him. He can barely make out your figure in the darkness, but he can see the swell of your chest, the line of your neck as you toss your head back, his name falling from flushed lips and floating up to the ceiling.
When you come, itâs wet and loud. He hums, pulling drenched fingers from your legs. He surges forward, surprising you and moving you backward, letting your head bounce near the foot of the bed as he cages you in, stealing a kiss.
You wrap your arms and legs around him, clinging and whining and rubbing against his thigh again, begging sweetly. No one has ever wanted Yoongi the way you do. Ever. He cannot recall a single time someone has been as vigorous in their pursuit.
It makes him hard again, the rush in his veins igniting once more as he slides into you. He pushes in to the hilt, settling there for a moment. You clench around him, clawing at the back of his neck and thrashing under him. Begging for more. Always wanting more. Swearing you just need a little more.
Yoongi sets a slow pace, stroking deep with a purpose. You gasp every time he fucks all the way into you. He grins against your sweaty neck, tongue licking a stripe up your salty skin. You turn your face and catch his mouth with yours, swapping more spit than kissing, moaning into one anotherâs mouths.
An orgasm winds tightly in Yoongiâs stomach. He feels it at the base of his spine this time, a second sense tingling as he picks up speed, slamming into you until youâre crying under him, babbling again in something that sounds like a language but isnât quite.
âFuck, fuck fuck fuck ââ He grits his teeth and the moment he comes, you squeeze him like a vice, shouting and pulling him into an orgasm so hard that he feels himself fall on top of you, the energy leaving him as quickly as his orgasm had gathered.
At some point, he falls asleep.
-
Hell on earth is waking up battered and torn at the seams. Youâre out in the living room, enjoying an early morning episode of Tokyo Ghoul again. He hears you giggle at the TV and he lifts his head in the shower. The rush of the hot water is loud, but the sound of you laughing is in his head.
It always feels like youâre in his head.
Yoongi stumbles when he gets out of the shower. His feet are heavy and there is pain behind his eyes. The throbbing kind that makes him turn the lights out and shoot a text to work telling them he needs a sick day. How many sick days has he had this year? He has no idea.
Yoongi stumbles to the mattress and collapses into the sheets. Everything feels heavy like he is made of glass bones with the weight of the world threatening to break him.
Sleep comes and goes. It doesnât make him less tired. Yoongi places a hand on his forehead. He is not over-warm, but he wants to cry, the ache in every muscle so real that it takes him several tries to say your name.
You appear immediately, hovering at the edge of the bed in his hoodie, wrapped in a blanket.
âAre you feeling sick, Kitty?â He nods and you sniff. âIâm so sorry, Kitty⌠do you want some water?â
Yoongi nods again and you vanish. He rolls onto his back, groaning. He reaches for his phone. The screen is cracked from some incident or another, but itâs mildly legible as he searches his symptoms online.
When you come back with water, he thanks you with a sweet kiss and smiles when you lick his nose affectionately before darting out of the room again. He hears the show start again.
Carefully, Yoongi tries to sit up a bit. The water is cooled with two cubes â just the way he likes it â and it helps staunch the thirst. He drains the entire glass, but still, he aches with exhaustion that has no name.
Every combination he can think of brings Yoongi undesirable results. He has the fatigue of many different illnesses, but not any of the others. Mono seems the most likely, but still, it doesnât feel right.
Yoongi considers and then types a new search: constant exhaustion after sex.
The results make him roll his eyes. He knows heâs going to get several ads for erectile dysfunction medication, but he scrolls anyways. Maybe heâs just fucking you that hard. But he does remember blacking out after sex and⌠well he never feels great the next day.
Slowly tapping through pages, Yoongi sighs. Thereâs nothing that provides much thought beyond Yoongi knowing heâs had too much sex. Youâre a starving little thing, constantly wanting â
A word catches his attention: succubus.
Yoongi snorts when he opens the article. Itâs a weird string of evangelical stories and musings, and overly sexualized depictions of female demons with generous breasts, shapely figures, and cute little bat wings.
The succubus needs sexual desire and energy to survive. He scoffs and wonders what heterosexual male wrote that dream.
Repeated sexual activity with a succubus will result in a bond being formed between the succubus and the host.
âRomantic,â Yoongi deadpans, scrolling up to close out the article. But a drawing catches Yoongiâs eye - a shadowy figure with rows and rows of teeth and red eyes. âHuh.â
Clicking on it, the page loads to a Reddit thread. Yoongi curses when he has to download the app, but his fingers move of their own volition, tapping across the screen as he creates a login and reopens the thread.
There are streams and streams of comments and links on the thread, a little overwhelming. As expected, it sounds like most heterosexual men overly-sexualizing women or asking about roleplaying â and yet, thereâs a thread with a lot of upvotes that he clicks on.
Loss of time. Constantly exhausted. Nightmares of shadow creatures following me. Yoongi licks his lips, feeling his mouth go dry as he continues. Blackouts after sex. Not able to remember life before meeting entity. Dead animals â
âKitty?â Yoongi flinches, dropping the phone on his stomach, hand covering his chest as his heart pounds in his ribcage. You blink in surprise, cocking your head where you stand in the doorway. A sense of dread draws a slow finger down Yoongiâs spine as he stares at you. âDo you want to come watch with me? We can put on Spirited Away.â
Loss of time. Constantly exhausted. Nightmares of shadow creatures-
âKitty?â Yoongi has waited too long to reply. He nods his head and clears his throat. He wants to laugh at how ridiculous heâs being, shoving the phone away from him as he slowly peels himself out of bed. You grin and hold out a hand. âThanks.â
-
Like a cat, youâre curled on the couch. Yoongi gives you a wide berth as he walks to his office. Night has passed into morning, and the flash of the screen lights the way as he opens the door, slipping through a tiny crack before he closes it softly and firmly behind him.
While watching movies, Yoongi could not help but think about the thread he had seen. He doesnât turn the light on, too afraid of it showing under the door and tipping you off where he is.
Fear settles in the pit of his stomach. His hands are shaky as he wakes up the mouse, the computer light nearly blinding in the dark room. He jams the settings on the keyboard, turning it down a bit as he settles into the chair, taking a few breaths.
It feels ridiculous. Youâre his girlfriend, not a sex-craving demon. But Yoongi finds the thread again anyways, clicking through and going back to that original subthread of people claiming to have survived an encounter with a succubus.
Time doesnât seem to pass as Yoongi reads. He leans on his hand, eyes burning as he clicks through story after story.
Met at a bar â she was the most beautiful thing I have ever seen. I never remember going home with her, but my life was suddenly consumed by her. I lost my job and my friends. Felt good at first, but started getting headaches any time I would try to remember something. And she was always around, always lurking around every corner.
Yoongi clicks on to the next one, stomach flipping nervously.
- I ran into a friend and she swore we hadnât spoken in months. I remember talking to her but it felt like⌠they were false memories. Like I didnât really do those things. It was strange, but I forgot again after a while.
Taehyungâs face flashes in Yoongiâs mind. His palms get sweaty as he navigates the mouse, leaning closer toward the screen. A nervous beat starts to drum up in his heart as he pours over the words and the accounts of others.
The evidence is damning, but it canât be possible, right?
Yoongi thinks of Old Ass Han telling the story of his son being swept up by a she-demon. Yoongi doesnât think the story is very funny anymore, and the thought of Jimin dressing up as one makes him nauseous.
Carefully, he navigates to another thread.
I was lucky. She didnât want to kill me, but she was constantly hungry for more energy that I didnât have. She would get cagey and feral, hissing at me and hiding in the dark, like she was weaker in the sun when she wasnât fed. I would find packs and packs of meat rotting in the garbage like she was trying to get her fix elsewhere.
I hope that you take this thread seriously. They are real. And while they look and talk like people, they arenât. They might grow attached to you, but they donât love you. You are a meal â and if your succubus is only feeding off of sex, itâs only a matter of time before they need more.
Think Jenniferâs Body, people.
Yoongi has never seen that movie before. He clicks away from the thread and pulls up the trailer. It seems a little ridiculous, but he gets the idea. Sex, eat the guy, move on to the next. But you certainly have never tried to eat him.
So Yoongi clicks back to the thread and searches for something new. How to get rid of a succubus.
He leans back while the page loads, switching to a white screen. This bright, the monitor reflects whatâs in front of it, Yoongiâs round and tired face, pale from lack of sleep, and a looming shadow behind him. His stomach plummets and he goes rigid in the chair, frozen with fear.
Yoongi smells cedar. Jasmine. Amber.
"Kitty is looking at bad things,â you sniffle. Your shadow grows in the computer monitor and Yoongi swears he sees the white flash of teeth before his world turns red. "I loved you, Kitty."
788 notes
¡
View notes