#i love my stupid stupid gay family sm

[hatosaur]

How exactly did you come to love TLOU? I have my own special interests that just happened upon me, so I want to know about how it was for others. also, any other games that you like?

you've asked the golden question so strap in because this is gonna be LONG:

i first got into tlou through part 2! admittedly i didn't play the og first. i did own it at the time because it seemed like one of those games you just gotta play (and i was right) and yknow ellie's gay and i dug that, but at that point i hadn't played it but knew the plot through a cinematic compilation video.

i was intrigued by part 2, specifically because of the teaser at e3 where ellie and dina dance and kiss. though i didn't have a BURNING desire to have the game, me being down for anything gay pretty much what sealed my fate. so i bought the game and played it on my older brother's ps4.

and MAN, was i obsessed pretty much immediately. looking back, it was a fever dream, just me playing the game from the moment i woke up to the moment i went to bed, nonstop...until i reached the point where ellie leaves and i stopped playing, completely distraught, and ended up watching the ending on youtube.

i was pissed, conflicted, legit fell into a deep depression after knowing how the game ends. after that point, because as we all know the shitstorm over the game was not pretty, i lingered on both sides of the fanbase for a while. because as someone who went in for the gay and had to witness the gay be destroyed, i was hurt -- but i realized after seeing anti-tlou2 people talk about their (weird and irrational) reasons for hating the game that i didn't hate the game, i was just that. hurt.

but the game is meant to hurt. there's a reason for the hurt.

and once i looked past the hurt that i felt, i analyzed hardcore, discussed with people (this is the nicest environment to do so), ate up every single detail discovered, replayed, and then i was making art, obsessively so, writing fanfiction, and now it's been 3 years and those fictional fuckers still live in my brain to this day.

and of course, i dove into the og! i remember playing the game while my online lectures (because covid lol) played in the background.

tlou is fully my biggest hyperfixation/special interest to date. i went into how but here's more of the reasons behind it:

i've talked about this a ton before but i love that though tlou has a reputation of being a dark game and people tend to read it as being about "the darkness of humanity", it's really not about that, but love and what people will do for it, as well as seeking and obtaining a purpose, even in the world's darkest conditions.

i love that it's about found family, that joel can't help but love ellie, because at the end of the day, he's not really supposed to be the heartless person he wants to pretend he is, but he's supposed to be a DAD. i love that ellie, despite never knowing the feeling of a parent, loves joel right back. i love that despite disliking him at first, she warms to him so quickly and she wears him down with her stupid jokes and her endearing weirdness.

i love that the themes of love persist through the second game even as it drags the franchise to darker places. that these are the lengths that ellie will go to not to get abby, but for joel. i love that part 2 says, "hey these bitches unhealthy" and that despite love being their motivation (abby for her dad, ellie & tommy for joel, dina for ellie, lev for his mother), it shouldn't be driving them to those ends!!!!

.....anyway for your second question, i'm picky about games but some recurring favs are apex legends, minecraft, breath of the wild, stardew valley, life is strange (watched the playthru only but loved the story sm), tell me why, and i just started horizon zero dawn! the way things are going, i think i'll like it a lot :)

#asks #talkies #not as long as i thought lol i've learned how to not go on and on about tlou unlike in 2020

[thedeathwitchescats]

How I imagine the deities i work with

Hades- he is like the dad i never had. A gentle presence to guide me down the path I need to go on.

Persephone- like, the really cool aunt whos a bit older. Like, not the 20 yr old aunt whos fun and gives you wine, but the 4o yr old aunt who tells you to get more desert and gives you a warm hug and a gift you cherish everytime she sees you

Aphrodite- like a mom. She is like a spiritual mother I think. She is gentle and kind but will also kick my ass if I am stupid. She is warm and loving and a presence I am greatful to have

Ares- like that uncle you dont see all that often but he brings you a really cool present and shows up to beat someones ass if your dad "calls the boys." Hes like, cool but also cares sm

Dionysus- the gay cousin I wish I had. He gives such amazing vibes. Like, "Ill make time for you, whats up kiddo" whenever Im sad. But also so silly and chaotic but like, balanced loll

Asmodeus- also kinda like an uncle tbh. Hes like, "ill sit here and listen to you bitch but when your done i will roast your ass for being dumb" but also is just like a firm push in the right direction

Apollo- he is fairly new in my practice so i dont have much to say, but like, he seems very very cool loll

Sirens- also very new, but also very old???? Idk

Asteria- also like a mom somehow??? Idk. She is like a very soft motherly figure who just gently lets me have my space and gives me nice dreams and is there to comfort me when I have nightmares

Lucifer- also fairly new but very nice presence

Lilith- she is both the cool 20 yr old aunt who gives me wine at family events and also the aunt who is gonna kick someones ass if they lay a hand on me. She is very much an integral part of my practice but also isnt super like, demanding I guess. Idk i love her

#🪓 #witchy shit #hades devotee #deity work

[sysba]

– oc tag game.

thank you @stephschoices for the tag, this was so fun!!!

FAVOURITE OC: edith, obviously, i'm obsessed with her

NEWEST OC: i have no concept of time help i wanna say it's my infamous oc kate? or my hockey boy raleigh? sometimes i have a character concept but i take weeks to finally name them and develop them so i'm not sure who came first here

OLDEST OC: i've had what i'd now call ocs before, as a kid/teen, but didn't consciously make one until quite recently. i'd say the first was victoria, my oc for open heart (unrelated i miss bryce)

MEANEST OC: k i m (body count). i have ocs who kill people but kim is still meaner lmao

SOFTEST OC: gotta be zoe (originally a twc detective, now an academic who's in love with a demigod and going thru it) she's just so warm... runner ups would be reyna (wts) who's super friendly and believes in people sm, and jules (ted lasso) who went through hell but stayed kind and supporting and loving and i love her. anyways i love softies i have many sdjksdjds

MOST ALOOF/STANDOFFISH OC: it's probably rieka, my cultist mage from an og verse; they're cold and aloof on purpose :/ similarly but for different reasons it could also be crime family heir aleksei! even tho half the time when he comes off standoffish he's really just socially inept

DUMBEST (AFFECTIONATE) OC: raleigh has more cake than brain god bless him he's not very bright. freddie also here because he's average but being gay sometimes makes him very stupid xoxo

SMARTEST OC: jericho no doubt

OC I'D BE FRIENDS WITH: everyone except nathair<3 kidding kidding uuhhh i wanna say edith but she'd probably think i'm a sad pathetic meow meow so i'll say jericho. or ryuwon so i'd finally watch football.

tagging @night-triumphantt @cashweasel @narrativefoiltrope @fairmonkey @magesmiths

#yes i always tag the same ppl im sorry brain doesnt brain #misc: games #ocs #can u tell i am bad at choosing one? it's a miracle i manage to play interactive fiction

[everything-is-crab]

First of all I am sick of people appropriating AAVE, especially in an insulting way.

2) So these people have a problem when generally others find it tedious to use long or ludicrous terms (example- uterus owners, people with estrogen based endocrine system) instead of simply "women" to describe something only the female sex experiences in a patriarchal system.

But now it's "transparently transphobic" to even categorize social experiences by sex (idc if you believe sex is biologically immutable or just a social construct but if you believe there's no sexual inequality on basis of sex then you're just unbelievably stupid).

If you go through the notes you will see the brain rot there.

What actually pisses me off about this tho, and why I felt like ranting about it here, is that these people tokenize third gender culture and feminism of brown women ALL THE TIME.

(Despite them certainly knowing hijras are exclusively males and there is a history of the patriarchy's role in creating some of them but they somehow see it as gender liberation.)

If they actually found out how "afab" people (LBT- Lesbians, Bisexual women and Trans men) from our country's LGBT community form organizations only for those who are female because we recognize misogyny is sex based and how "amab" people hold more privilege, they will freak out.

They will freak out when they find out we recognize homophobia is sex based oppression too. Our laws literally specify people of same sex cannot marry regardless of gender identity, meaning a trans woman cannot marry a cis man and same for trans men and cis women unless said trans people undergo complete SRS. And the ability to pay for it is a privilege only middle and upper class same sex attracted people who haven't been shun out by their families enjoy.

It is literally necessary for us to organize on the basis of sex to get our rights.

Despite all this fucking bullshit, we're being asked to focus more on trans people than on "love is love". That India's LGBT activism is not trans inclusive enough (I hate these stupid white bootlicking libfems sm) because our activism doesn't look like the West's.

Ik op is not Indian but the amount of both Indian liberals who fall for this bs....although Indian radfems are not less guilty of indulging in bootlicking white people and Western activism, both responding in bad faith to each other while knowing absolutely NOTHING about their own country's history and activism regarding gender and sexuality. My views are still very different even according to Indian LGBT activists' beliefs, and yet I have more respect for them instead of fuckers like you who think online content creation is fighting for "queer rights".

Like girl, our activists were fighting even during a time when terms like "lesbian", "bisexual", "queer" etc were not known and used here. Ik for a fact you were introduced to gay and trans activism via Western media but I swear we have our own history and community and you do NOT need to nod your head to whatever these idiots say.

How can you believe this bullshit despite coming from a country where female infanticide occurs because daughters are seen as a "burden" to their fathers?

Postmodernism along with US cultural imperialism is a fucking disaster.

#I have come across hijras who believe they are privileged compared to women and that the female sex experience is different from theirs #and I don't even like how hijras talk about womanhood at all but they are genuinely so much less worse than trans people who follow Western #gender ideology #desi lgbt #lgbt india #desi feminism

[intertexts-moving]

HIII HI HII im glad ur afternoon is going good :] TELL ME ABOUT UR ADVENTURE TIME WATCHING !!!! what ep are you on!! whats been ur favorite so far!!! whos ur favorite character!!!! the girlies (me) need 2 know . i keep seeing ppl post about adventure time again and its making me SO happy i love this show sm

HIIIII HI HI!!!! okayyyyyyyy if u insistttt i will tell u about my adventure time watching (pretending to sound soo put upon and not like I've been thinking about it every single minute of the day) <3333

ok ok i'm not that far in actually!! i decided i don't want 2 binge it super quickly i wanna like. Enjoy the experience & have it be a Thing. so im only watching a couple eps every night w my gay little beverage & snackies & it's very nice :] i'm just at the end of s1!!

i love love love the tone of it so far... they do really good at all these silly stupid adventures still having like, genuine emotional weight to them?? like i find myself being genuinely distressed at the little jiggly creature thing that got sick without its family... the ice king just like wanting a little robot kid.... so well written!! also the subversion of the classical "kid in an adventure story who has to do his leveling up and getting powerful first and at the beginning theres all these whedonesque deflationary humor bits where they wind up to do something cool and fail humorously " thing is good i think. finn is definitely going to get an Arc and im so much more excited for an arc that's something other than Getting Good even though that's also fun sometimes !!!!!! i keep going "wait that's IT??? no catches???? ..ok!! baller!!!"

& my faves so far arrrrrrre. finn & jake. obviously. and lumpy space princess & the weird tadpoles that were wizards and lived in the frog & gave them magic powers. & marceline ofcourse :]]]

#& also i like the ice king lots he's so losercoded.... man!!!! all of the characters r so good!!!!! :]]]] #mac tag! 🦈 #... in the world's most predictable move: guy who loves rituals & routines & traditions & such decides 2 make a routine out of a fun thing #they like doing. hehdkfkfjggd

[that-was-a-bit-stupid-of-you]

warning: a silly little rant by ava about how miserable she is and rory gilmore isn't

rory is so lucky when it comes to guys man

like sm guys tell her she's beautiful and intelligent, when on the other hand I get mansplained to a bunch of times in convos where I clearly know more than them like????

also she gets every guy she likes to like her back- woman tell me your secret (don't let it be blue eyes god)

and her grades???? Top tier. How does she do that?? Ik she studies 24x7 but that amount if attention span is astounding, my adhd could never

and her family is so rich omfg (not her mom but the rest of her fam)

like girl I literally have to give up on my dreams of going to my dream college I wish I had rich grandparents to pay for mit and princeton

and she's so pretty- like honestly everytime the camera focuses on her its like 💖🌟✨✨ 👁 👁 ✨✨🌟💖

alexis bledel makes me gay okay-

homegirl has everything- smarts, looks, confidence, attention from everyone she wants attention from, an awesome mother- the only thing she doesn't have is a good dad or a functional family tbh, but hey neither do i

people are just drawn to her man, she is genuinely the least relatable character (don't get me wrong I love her she's my child) also she gets sm support from EVERYONE around her. An entire town is devoted to The Rory Gilmore and her Intelligence and Kindness and Absolutely Perfectly Wonderful Existence and she has friends who would kill for her (paris) and die for her (lane) and every guy she likes is in love with her- literally head over heels okay

The farthest I've gone is being friends with the guys I like that's it

and did I mention her grades? God I just- the attention span. Come on. There is no way that is possible. Like, she can control when and what to give attention to??? She can control her brain?? Is this a neurotypical thing or am I just stupid?

And she's rich. She doesn't have to give up on her dreams. She doesn't have to forget about ever receiving an email or letter from an ivy league saying she's accepted cuz that's reality for her cuz she's rich asf

Im so jealous omfg, I love rory but she literally has the perfect life wtf

yea that's it

#dont mind me my uterus is releasing blood it's making me wanna stab something #also did i mention logan's hot? cuz he is #gg #rory gilmore #gilmore girls #done with my rant #rant post #personal rant #personal

[coffee-at-annies]

3, 11, and 18!

3. Favorite musical artist / group you started listening to this year?

That I discovered this year? That’s hard. I’m not sure I discovered much music this year that wasn’t new releases from bands I already liked or singular songs. My most listened album of the year was fob cause I’m specific and sm(f)s came out in like January. My song of the year for the second year in a row was one I discovered late last year and fell in love with. I’ve listened to all of 3 songs from the artist tho.

Jukebox the Ghost was probably last year or the year before when my partner introduced me. They’ve tried getting me into The Family Crest but it’s never been the right time for an adhd hyperfixation deep dive. I got back into Matt Maeson after seeing him live, but that was my second time seeing him so he’s not new. I got super into Sammy Rae and the Friends for a hot minute after seeing her live but I first found her during quarantine looking for songs for the moss playlist. If you’ve got a moment, listen to the song I’m gonna link. It’s good. Sammy Rae described it as for the girls and the gays.

I could maybe claim Sub-Radio after Stacey’s Dad went viral but I’ve had flashback in my Spotify likes for a while so connecting the dots was just what got me to listen to more and also follow them on YouTube. If I had to pick a single that isn’t from one of the artists I’ve listed it’d have to be Drink Water.

Maybe the obcr of Some Like It Hot counts? That came out this year. I’m only obsessed with it since I saw the show live right before Christmas last year and then had to wait months for the obcr to come out so idk if it counts.

11. Something you want to do again next year?

Answered that one here with a lot of small joys I’m looking forward to repeating.

18. A memorable meal this year?

I’m trying to think of a meal that was worth remembering. A place that was worth going back to. My first instinct is my mom’s 60th. We splurged and she got reservations for the place up on Mount Washington. The one that overlooks the point. We weren’t close to the windows cause my grandmother can’t do steps and it was rainy but it was a lovely celebration.

Oh! God this is the dumbest fucking story but it’s certainly memorable. So like I’m sure you’re probably vaguely aware that I decided I wanted to be disappointed in new and interesting ways after the Pens let me down so thoroughly last spring that I decided to fuck around and become a Pirates fan. What you probably don’t know bc I didn’t do much lbing is I watched a stupid amount of Pirates games. What you’ve probably forgotten is the Buccs had a ridiculously hot start last season. 20-8 in the month of April. One of those games was actually two - rain reschedule meant it was a double header. My best friend spent the day taking his black belt test (I forgot if he’s second or third degree now but he passed!) and wanted to go out to celebrate. There’s a new-ish chain crab place in the waterfront where the TGIF used to be. The bestie isn’t a sports person at all but my sister and I are so we asked for the tv to be switched to the game. The second game of the double header was one where the Buccs scored 16 runs off the Nats for a final score of 16-1. Watching them light up basically every Nats pitcher who hadn’t pitched in the earlier game while systematically demolishing an order of crab legs was just an excellent experience. Was the food memorable? Eh the crab is fine for a chain. The meal itself was very very fun. Like exactly what you want when watching a game at a bar/restaurant. I won’t say platonic ideal but like the vibes were certainly right.

End of the Year Asks

#asks answered #a-corn-field #hi corn #I’m not being specific with the restaraunts but I’m gonna assume you know the neighborhoods I’m talking about

[wally-franks]

hiii hi im here with my liddol hcs for u... looks up at u with my big sad wet eyes. this is my silly little au ,,, i love urs tho n would love to hear the angst bcos. theres so much angst i left out too fjrjfhie

ok so WALLY- little guy but absolutely not stupid. like he knows whats going on BUT hes just. a little silly sometimes. low braincells but can piece stuff together and is careful. carries a knife with him. does not want to get into trouble (excluding pranks ofc. loves them) uh. 147cm, transmasc, and pan. his hat is very important. i actually just finished making his hat but thats a different thing fhjrjf

talks a LOT and has a gossip group with norman n susie. but its all in good fun. n u know thomas is him boyfriend. they pretend to be Mortal Enemies but at home they r so so soft... they must put up a front at work because they are scared of how they'll look in front of other ppl. if only they knew that probably like 2 ppl total in jds were cishet fbjrj,, he has that audhd and his silly little catchphrase is everything ok.

thomas- too tall bites him. i mean. ahem. 183cm and bisexual. very closed off from people but will not hesitate to confront people. very touchy about the machine cos its his "best creation" or whatever. ok stupid college boy but go off ig. (i love him sm)

basically just there to get work done. he acts smart, looks smart, but hes "stupid"... not in the way of logically stupid, he is just very silly sometimes. also he smokes. i mean have u HEARD his voice (affectionate) he has 5 older brothers n his family is very sweet i think. gnaws on the thomas plush part twenty million

and finally SAMMY- very very stressed so he yells a lot BUT he does a softer side in private. he just needs to front as mean and irritating with everyone to keep his image up :(( grr squishes him very hard. transmasc and gay bc. he just is. does not like joey but then again in my au nobody really does but thats ok<3 back to sammy the babygirl. he is 168cm and his "partner" is jack... but we all know... the silly... also probably helped johnny learn the organ/piano. because it needs to happen

if u want 2 know more or have any questions my dms are open >:3c sorry for th ramble!!! fjrjeh

Hii!!  I'm so sorry this took so long to get toooooo. I had to inhale this text for a bit and let it sog into my brain xD I always need a bit to take in muchhhhooss information (nothing bad btw just me being me hehe)

AND YEAHHH.. I should maybe talk more about angst. But at the same time I'm like. Naurrrr... Naurrrr... I really live by "there's always so much negativity and sadness in this world, no need to add more to it" SO I ALWAYS HESITATE SHARING ANGST AND SAD THINGS!! CUZ I'M LIKE!!  WHY BE SAD IF I CAN HAVE FUN STUFF WITH STUFF THAT MAKES ME HAPPY </3 + most of it is just killing and torture anyway and euhm. Those tend to trigger ehm negative stuffs in me anyway :') Mostly just hallucinations and shit thoughts but!! You know, when there's a good time to share some of that stuff, I will!! :3 or maybe I share more about my toon Alice. She's a bit more tame about with that stuff. Anyhow. This is about YOU and not me. Soooo I'll go now through your stuff >:)

Wally being like that is true, that really fits to him!! He's just a silly that takes his his time to piece stuff together and that is okay :3

And OMG, mine also carries a knife around :D I just think it makes so much sense for hi to do so.... He's encountered moving ink puddles before, might just aswell carry a knife til. I feel like it also makes more sense after we saw his hat and a knife at artists rests (+ the April fools video hehe). Also, him being transmasc and pan is so funny because my old version of wally used to be exactly that aswell!!  :D I changed that though, but again something very fitting for him. I loev your wally. He's so silly. AND SMALL!!!???  like damn OMG I didn't expect him to be that tiny. I could just launch him /lh

(Wally being a little gossip girly pop is so funny and real HAHAHA )

Thomas's and Wally,s relationship being like that is exactly how I envisioned it xD I love that for them so much.

And.. DAMN!! IM ALMOST AS TALL AS THOMAS BOY!! I thought yours would have been MUCH taller. Guess I was wrong. That's so interesting.

Also yeah... He definitely smokes. He smokes so damn much, probably several packs a day LMFOA. It's not to miss with a voice like that xD. You'd have to be insane to not think that.

Besides, BIG FAM FOR THOMAS ALSO MAKES A LOT OF SENSE!!

SAMMY BOY!!! SAMMY BOY!! I've been so keen on hearing about him!!!!! Wa'hh!!  We love publicly intimidating and soft at home Sammy I love that so so so so so much waghahahhhh!! And he's also way smaller than I thought,!! Another suprise here :D but nothing bad. Just me being like woah??  In taller than him. ALSO, HIM AND JACK BEING A THING?? YAY!! I LOVE SAMMY AND JACK TOGEZHER WJAJAJAJ AND OHOHOHH JOHNNY MOMENT. JOHNNY MENTIONED *POINTSSS*

AND YEAH I'LL LET YOU KNOW IF I WANNA KNOW MORE. AND DON'T BE SORRY I LOVED THIS SO MUCH.. ERMMMM. IF YOU EVER WANNA TALK MORE ABOUT YOUR JOHNNY *twirls hair* I'd love to know what he's up to in your AU. Where he's mostly at!! Mine is first at the music department but then gets moved down to lacie and Bertrum, so I'd love to know where yours at!! And his personality too. That's the thing that interests me the most!!! Giving a character who has no info at all jngame a personality is always so cool and interesting to see :D everyone has like their own way of seeing and imagining characters.. I'd die to know how yours is!!!!

#long post #ask #reply

[drawing-way-outside-the-lines]

➖ Mature content, 18+ ➖ check the trigger tags each time ➖      

Chapter 8 - Runaway. Episode 2.

Evan: *With teary eyes I read the sms from my sister, she had found Andy, he was okay, and she told me where they were. A place I had visited with Andy not so long ago. Why didnt I think to go there yet? I had just assumed he was in town, not in the outer part of it. I quickly sms'ed her back, just a quick 'stall him, I will be there in 10!' and as I slid the phone back down my pocket, I leaned against my bike as the sobbing emmerged from deep inside me. 5 minutes later when I was all cried out, I got back on my bike, dried my eyes and set in the direction of where Lily and Andy were located.* Andy: *He looked up at me with red puffy eyes as I walked towards him and Lily, they were sitting next to each other in the tall grass, he didn't say anything, he just half smiled apologizing, although I didnt think he had anything to apologize for. I slowly sat down next to him, observing him for a short while, to see if he had any bruises or cuts, and finally he spoke, soft and hoarse, it was easy to tell he had been crying and screaming a lot* I'm okay… you dont have to look at me like that. I didn't do anything stupid, and I didnt touch alcohol or any other shit like that. I'm dealing. *He blew a bit of extra air out his nose in a laughing manner and lit a cig* Lily was good company *he winked at her as she smiled to him.* Lily: I tried my best *Her voice was as always calm and caring, and she chuckled softly as she tussled his mohawk, making it messy and even more sexy than normally, which made it hard for me not to smile. She had arrived few days before, to make me aware she had digested me being in a gay relationship, and she was okay with it. And as she said 'now we just wait for the rest of the family to follow'. I had smiled and nodded, but in my heart I knew that wouldn't happen any day soon.* Andy: *He leaned his head on my shoulder, and wrapped an arm around my arm closest to him* I missed you.. Evan: *I gently kissed his hair, sniffing him in as my nose got burried in the now black mohawk, whatching the gentle blue shine in it, which the moon so beautifully played with. It was a great color for him, and although he had only had it a few days, I had already gotten used to it. But that didn't mean I didnt miss his electric blue hair he had had since New Years* Andy: What are you thinking of? *He suddenly looked up at me curiously* Evan: *I chuckled silently* You. As always. Andy: *He chuckled softly and I couldn't help but notice my sister was smiling as if she was watching two puppies playing. Which naturally made me blush, and in return she only smiled even more. And if that wasn't enough, Andy noticed it, grabbed my chin and leaned up to me to plant a soft kiss on my lips, almost whispering as he spoke again* I'm sorry I scared you. Have you been crying? *He tilted his head and looked concerned, then sighed deeply and pressed his hair against my chest, grabbing on to my half open black blazer jacket* I'm so sorry, I just needed to get away, I felt like I was going to explode. It's hard to explain. I felt something inside me I hadn't felt for a while. And I didn't know how that would turn out, so I had to get away from everybody. Evan: *I frowned a bit and looked questioning at my sister, but she only shook her head in return, indicating she didn't know what was going on* Andy: *He let go of my jacket again, and twirled a finger around a strand of my hair* so what did you think about me? Evan: *I chuckled softly, this was one of the moments where he was almost like a child, so soft, so innocent, so pure. I couldn't help but love him a little bit more, wanting to take him in my arms and protect him from the world. I smiled softly and brushed a strand of the mohawk away from his forehead, speaking in a lowered warm voice* I was thinking how proud I am of you. That you didn't hurt yourself, or anything else along that line. Andy: *He nodded softly* I'm trying to do better. Evan: *I smiled softly in return and planted a gently kiss on his forehead* I know you do.

#unicornmanes #Evan Thompson #Andy Shaw-Thompson #Andycorn #Lily Ophelia Thompson

[leafpool-loves-ashfur]

I posted 45 times in 2022

35 posts created (78%)

10 posts reblogged (22%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@firealder2005

@alollinglaughingcat

@burning-thistles-bt

@meadowfoxglen

@vadvivon

I tagged 44 of my posts in 2022

Only 2% of my posts had no tags

#warrior cats - 24 posts

#burning thistles - 24 posts

#burning thistles au - 22 posts

#warriors - 16 posts

#warriors au - 14 posts

#warriors generations - 12 posts

#warrior cats au - 12 posts

#fireheart - 9 posts

#lgbtq+ character - 9 posts

#lgbtq+ - 8 posts

Longest Tag: 140 characters

#honestly fire is always so supportive of his sibs. oh ur dating a kittypet? cool. oh you left for shadowclan? cool. oh u want to commit murd

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

bi power couple

Firestar and Sandstorm are both bisexual in Burning Thistles! and in canon probably lol

their relationship in BT is slightly different - not filled with as much initial hatred since Firekit was clanborn, but that doesn’t mean there’s not any tension between them in the early days, considering Auntie Frostfur liked to fill Sandpaw’s ears with whispers of Firepaw’s parentage

they’re very much in that “oh my StarClan you guys are basically already mates just ask each other out!!” phase in BT currently lol

also i think it’s funny that Sandstorm is friends with Creekflower (mostly bcus she’s friends with Fireheart and Cherryfur) even tho she thinks Creek is a traitor/stupid for getting with a kittypet (also think it’s funny if Sand had a brief crush on Creek too lmao)

16 notes - Posted June 3, 2022

#4

did anyone ask for Evil Frostfur? No? Well take it bcus I’m obsessed with her.

Yes this is from @firealder2005​ and I’s Burning Thistles AU once more (I’m also obsessed with it). well, technically this event doesn’t exactly happen as seen in the video (it’s more exaggerated here, also the collar is more symbolic than a real object Frostfur got her paws on)

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18 notes - Posted June 9, 2022

#3

gay gay homosexual gay

gosh ngl Feathercloud from @firealder2005 and I’s fic Burning Thistles is by far my favorite character to not only write but to just... his personality, his story, his hardships, his family, his lovelife... I love it all sm i swear, and he’s not even a main character even vsjfsdkfjs but my love for him makes him one <3

Featherkit is one of Runningwind and Dappletail’s canonical kits- the deaf tom-kit who ‘wandered away’, but in BT he is Runningwind and Redtail’s son with Dappletail being his surrogate mother, born alongside his sister Crickekit :)

the amount of angst and fluff i can shove into this boy is incomprehensible

20 notes - Posted May 17, 2022

#2

thems

video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-MQvzd65jKY&ab_channel=LollingCatto

24 notes - Posted February 8, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

 why did i do this to myself

yep its a Burning Thistles Friendship Map as of Chapter 101! ...well, and a few spoilers, technically, but shhhhh. they’re minor anyway lol. i made sure not to do the big spoilery ones ;)

betcha cant identify every character here lol (i feel any avid BT fan could name 31/32 of them, bcus that 32nd one is a curveball whose only been important in like... 1/101 chapters. and prob only mentioned in.... 5/101?)

anyway here’s all the names, have fun putting them to faces: Fireheart, Sandstorm, Cherryfur, Creekflower, Oliver, Airleap, Morningflower, Onewhisker, Copperleaf, Dawncloud, Grasswhisker, Silverstream, Lightningfur, Mousefur, Runningwind, Darkstripe, Longtail, Dustpelt, Ravenpaw, Barley, Runningbrook, Ashheart, Cinderfur, Tallpoppy, Mistyfoot, Graystripe, Gremlin, Brackenfur, Feathercloud, Cricketheart, Scraps.

so there are also a lot more characters in this “friend group” but i tried to only hit the major ones. but just to have the full scope here, I’m gonna list every main-main character’s friend group. this means NOT including kin, so no sibs/parents/niblings

Fireheart’s: Runningwind (BFF), Darkstripe (ex-BFF/brother-figure, still wants to be friends w/), Sandstorm (crush), Cherryfur (friend through his sis Creekflower), Graystripe (apprentice), Cinderpelt (apprentice), Brackenfur (apprentice), Oliver (through Creekflower), Mistyfoot (apprenticehood friends), Stonefur (apphood friends, not as strong as Misty’s), Cinderfur (apphood friends), Onewhisker (apphood friends)

Creekflower’s: Cherryfur (BFF), Sandstorm (frenemies through Cherryfur/Fireheart, who are both friends w/ her), Brindleface (queen friends), Runningwind (through Fireheart), Longtail (mutual hatred; through Cherryfur) Mousefur (through Sandstorm), Oliver (mates), Oliver’s kittypet friends (through Oliver)

Lightningfur’s: Silverstream (BFF), Mousefur (ex-BFF, no longer friends), Rippleclaw (supporter), Sedgecreek (Sedge has a crush on her; she hates Sedge), Beetlenose (supporter), Mallowtail (supporter), Grasswhisker (thinks Grass is annoying but also Grass is her step-mom technically), Vixenleap (supporter/through Grasswhisker), Shadepelt (supporter), Greenflower (supporter), Mistyfoot (through Silverstream) .... (really Lightningfur has no friends at this point since Silverstream’s death)

Airleap’s: Morningflower (platonically raised kits together; his first WC friend), Onewhisker (friend; One probably thinks of Airleap as his closest friend), Ashfoot (friend), Deadfoot (friend), Runningbrook (friend), Whitetail (friend), Ravenpaw (mentorly towards him), Barley (through Ravenpaw), Sandstorm (from the mission/through Fireheart; he doesn’t think they’re friends but Sand feels defensive over him bcus of what happened), Tallpoppy (same reason as Sandstorm), Cinderfur (same reason as Sand and Tall but less so)

Copperleaf’s: Dawncloud (QPR mate/BFF), Cinderfur (BFF), Ashheart (friend), Tallpoppy (friend/Dawn’s BFF), Whitethroat (through Tallpoppy), Wetfoot (through Tallpoppy), Badgerfang (son-in-law/mutual respect), Flintfang (mutual respect), Fernshade (mutual respect)

Darkstripe’s: Fireheart (ex-BFF/brother-figure, still wants to be friends w/), Runningwind (ex-friends/kinda still friends but distant), Cherryfur (mutual hatred), Longtail (apprentice), Dustpelt (apprentice), Tigerclaw (idol), Onewhisker (apphood friends that grew apart)

Feathercloud’s: Graystripe (kithood friends that grew apart), Ravenpaw (ex-mate/crush), Brackenfur (BFF/crush), Gremlin (from mission), Scraps (from mission), Barley (through Ravenpaw), other WC cats (through Ravenpaw)

Spottedleaf’s: Yellowfang (most trusted), Mudfur (sympathetic to her), Bluestar (admirance; now weakening), Brindleface (rekindling friendship), Frostfur (formerly; crush), Tigerclaw (only slightly; formerly), Whitestorm (kinda awkward friends now)

Frostfur’s: Willowpelt (formerly), Spottedleaf (formerly), Redtail (formerly), Whitestorm (formerly/strained politeness on Whitestorm’s end), Tigerclaw (reluctantly/formerly), Speckletail (BFF; starting to strain)

also everyone hates Grasswhisker and its... kinda sad. like, hello, she’s a victim... yeah she’s been really mean, but truly it’s been out of fear and desperation for Thistlestar to love her and only her just like she loveslovesloves him (why can’t he just love her? why isnt she good enough? her mind cries). like Airleap was the only one who was like “Hey wait a minute-” (and now everyone hates her bcus she was mean to Airleap... by blaming him for murder)

42 notes - Posted June 22, 2022

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#posting for aesthetic reasons only #numbers make my brain go brrrrr #tumblr2022 #year in review #my 2022 tumblr year in review #your tumblr year in review #random #spam

[dykewithafatpussy]

💕💕���💕💕jill 💕💕💕💕💕

general Jill Valentine headcanons

these are just my headcanons for Jill bc i love her sm and im bored/procrastinating writing other stuff <3

warnings: none

Jill is def a member of the lgbtq+ community, i feel like she doesnt use a label however. an unlabeled baddie if you will

i just feel like shes got other things to think about

her favorite color is blue (i mean is that really a headcanon tho)

likes cuddling

isnt a very good cook but wants to learn

just never has time

likes movies just doesn't really like horror

not bc shes easily scared, she just thinks they're stupid especially after consistently living through life threatening events

will watch them tho if theres nothing else on

i feel like shes not much into video games but will play if one catches her interest (shes played at least one version of animal crossing)

likes music, listens to all kinds but primarily likes rock. she listens to newer stuff as well. whatevers playing on the radio

likes animals, i feel like shes def a cat person, mainly bc i feel like she'd be kinda uneasy around dogs given the life threatening events she's lived through

likes flannel pajamas, she looks like someone who likes flannel pjs

doesnt like social media much

i mean she has an Instagram and Facebook but only uses it to keep up with friends and family.

likes working out more than dieting, so she has an intense workout schedule so she doesnt have to worry about what she eats

i love her so much, and i am very gay

#jill valentine #jill valentine headcanons #jill valentine my beloved 🥺 #resident evil #resident evil headcanons #resident evil 5 #resident evil revelations #resident evil 3 #fanfiction #resident evil fanfiction

[relax-and-read-on]

I’m going to try and be as held together as possible. But the Primarchs are BROTHERS. Yes, the astartes are a whole another can of worms. But they’re brothers. Why? What is with the incest in this fandom? (I’m totally for lgbt I’m aro ace myself and a fanfic writer.) But this is just why?

Well, I fully expected someone to come at me eventually about this, and I thank you for actually being very polite about it! I'll try to explain myself as much as I can. I will only speak about myself and how I see it, it might be different for others.

First one all: Imo, genetically, they are not any more related than two random humans plucked from different continent. It's canon that Big E mixed up many string of DNA to make them. I do headcanons some of them as closer, genetically. Alpahrius Omegon are obliviously twins, and I like to Imagine Corvus and Konrad as such too.

Second: Culturally, again, imo, most of them don't see each others as brothers. They grew up on different planets, some with actual siblings and foster family, and only became into contact with each others as adult. Im pretty sure that canon Emperor simply decided to use a "family" structure to control them more easily, creating a sense of loyalty in them and not just going "hello im a weirdo who made you in a lab and then accidentally lost you around the galaxy".

I actually think it greatly vary, how the boys see one another. Magnus definitely see Lorgar as his brother, but if my memory is right, never gave a shit about Konrad. As a result, calling someone "brother" with meaning feel like a very deliberate choice for them.

Third, author intent: warhammer was created in.... An area were representations was, at best, minimal. Now I know it's the imperium and all, but they still somehow managed to sneak in some really awful queer coding. Fulgrim being so obliviously lgbtq+ and being the one to fall to the demon of sex and lust? (I know, slaanesh represent other things, but the link is here). Lion being LITERALLY named after a queer poet and having his entire concept being into hiding and secrecy? It suck. It really, really suck. So, I queer up some more of the characters. I make Corvus a transwoman, turn Ferrus into a gay icon, and let Leman be the bisexual horn dog he always deserved to be.

Fourth... Well, this is a bit more shallow, but: it make for great story. Literally almost everyone that is a big name in warhammer is freaking related, unless you move to the guards (Wich I do, god I could write love letters about the guards). As such, if you want to add romance to a story, and I do enjoy solid romance, and sex, and drama, you will quickly run into some issues of just... Not having enough unrelated character. Wich suck!!! I want more normal humans to have SM bf!!! Heck I want xenos to date the big dudes!!!! One of my fav ship is literally Yvraine/Guilliman yall

Im also terrible at dealing with oc, I don't enjoy writing them most of the time, and they feel extra cringy if I try to ship them with a main cast.

Fifth point, kinda related to the precedent two: something, having the boys being in love make a better story. The absolute tragedy of Fulgrim killing Ferrus, and then realising what he has done?? The pained betrayal of Sanguinius, after realising that Horus was utterly lost to Chaos? Beautiful. I like those things better with a flavoring of romance, but I fully respect someone who think it's more poignant to write about family members experiencing that betrayal.

Sixth: I write mostly to cope. I have a lot of pretty serious health issues, and suffer various shade of ptsd. I have experienced very personal and awful things before, and worked frontline in healthcare during the worst of the pandemic. It might seem like a strange way to justifie it, but going feral and posting outrageously sexual and stupid things really does help me relax and deal with bad things in my life.

And finally, the one that is the most important to me: they are fictional. They are literally plastic figurine that I can walk around on my table and can make them kiss in pretend if I want to. I could also take their mini, grab some greenstuff, and decide that, my Magnus is now "Sir flying mc pants, level 5 wizard of birbs and stupidity" and paint him green.

I have fun imagining them fucking or falling in love or eating spicy tacos or singing at eurovisions (and yes that post is coming), because it bring me joy, and I don't see it as incest. They aren't real. I can literally decide to not make them brother in my brain, just as I decided that Colchis should be based on Algeria in all my hc, or that Vulkan should not be chucked in black paint.

So yeah, that's why I write what I write!!! To be honest tho, you came around at a bad time, rn almost everything recent is peak horny posting lol. My mutuals do seem to enjoy it??? Good for them?????

If this is still distasteful to you, that's totally ok! We all have different tolerance level for fictional content. There's plenty of things that I avoid, and I don't mind at all if people block me! Your comfort level is more important than exposing yourself to potentially triggering content.

#warhammer 40k #warhammer #wh40k #warhammer community #meta #primarch #wowi i wrote a novel again oops #i can never shur up can't I

[raiko101]

Lovely Writer Episode 10 Notes

- THE MOMS AND THE AEROBICS CLASS WAS SO FUNNY I-

- Aww we love supportive brothers

- Sib’s parents and the Bonsai tree was really nice

- YES HE DESERVES TO BE FREE

- Is that matcha tea or just green tea? Either way it looks good

- Also how does the tea taste different like wha-

- I KNEW GENE’S DAD WASN’T ACTUALLY HOMOPHOBIC

- He should’ve handled the situation better but honestly he deserves so much more.. I feel for him

- Nubsib driving to the house after hearing the conversation is just.. mwah

- Also someone pls write a fanfic of that scene from Nubsib’s POV cus I would very much like to read it

- Family pls give them some PRIVACY they wanna kiss

- Jap fanboying over them tho

- Tiffy he’s NOT GAY

- Why was Tum rapping like I had to pause the video and wrap myself in a blanket to process this

- Not complaining though keep going dude

- Help my iPad is about to die

- Aww look at them being domestic hubbies

- FINALLY THE FACE MASK SCENE AHSHD(IDJDJD

- My domestic hubbies awh 

- They placed not one but TWO advertisements in the cafe

- Yes Nubsib pay for them 

- NOT THE 20 BOXES OF CAKES

- I love Hin sm 

- Nubsib I understand you want to help Gene write but this is not the right time 

- Gene getting tickled was so wholesome 

- His laughs are my new therapy 

- When did Kao get his own sunscreen brand?

- B- B- BEACH?!!!?!?!!!??

- Nubsib looks so good in that muscle shirt

- I can sense the people simping for Nubsib modeling in that surf board

- Awh Gene supporting Hin

- No worries beb you will publish your novel eventually

- YES GET THAT BURST OF INSPO

- Why is the sunscreen so clear

- Up is probably holding in his laughs so hard during this scene

- YES VENTURE OUT INTO THE OPEN SEAS YOU STUPID GAYS

- Pls they’re so in love 

- Finally Gene isn’t hiding his laughs anymore 

- I’ve been waiting for this moment for so long

- Wh- HEY WHOS THAT

- Ugh it was getting too calm

- The teaser looks spoopy oh noes

So basically this episode was a rollercoaster and I love hate it here

#lovelywriter #lovely writer #lovely writer the series #lovely-writer-the-series #thai bl #thaibl #boys love #bl drama #mlm #these cuties are killing me #clingy bebs

[mizunetzu]

Hi! Could you do relationship headcanons for Iida? (preferably male reader but gn is cool too) Thanks!!

YESYESYES FINALLY IVE BEEN WAITING FOR AN IIDA REQUEST ESPECIALLY A MALE ONE YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW MUCH I LOVE IIDA I LOVE YOU SM

also I never did headcannons before so if it’s weird please don’t @ me LMAO

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Headcannons - Iida with a male s/o

⚠️ warnings - none

Pronouns - male, he/him

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(y/n) was the one who confessed, despite iidas complaints about being a man (even though y/n was one too ykyk)

He prefers to keep the relationship a secret, despite your protests.

You were a person who didn’t care who you loved, as long as they loved you proudly and unconditionally, so that was a slight problem.

Yeah no that slight problem kinda grew into a big problem.

You two would barely do anything coupley like you hoped, because it was “immodest to demonstrate pda in a place of learning”

No one had a clue that you two were a thing

Not even you sometimes

You were a very touchy-feely dude, as you would greet everyone with a hug (well-most people. Bakugou would flame him if he got even one arm around him) but Iida, being Iida, deemed it  inappropriate so you didn’t hug him much.

You thought that that would change now that you two were an item but honestly you didn’t know what you were expecting.

Iidas a very perceptive guy, so when he noticed you started to gradually withdrawal from your attempts of affection, he began to feel a bit left out.

He’d watch from his seat as you walked in the classroom, cheerily bolting up to people and giving them hugs and pats on the back, just to greet him with a curt “good morning, Iida.” And a bow.

Ouchie his feelings.

Evenually, after a week or two of being touch starved, he started to realize how much he missed you wanting to hug him or hold his hand.

But since he’s super duper dense sometimes, he doesn’t know what he did wrong.

Well not until some of the girls in the class were talking about what they would want in a relationship, and they asked you what you would want.

You said you wanted someone to be seen with you and still act proud about it, like “yeah that’s my boyfriend right there!” Oh and-lots of pda for sure.

It wasn’t till he “accidentally overheard” your little conversation with the girls that he understood why you were being so distant.

The next day at school, when you walked in giving everyone a good morning hug, Iida rose from his seat and walked towards you.

You were in the middle of giving Kaminari a hug, so when Kaminari saw him looming over you, he back away kind of scared but like-ready to laugh if something stupid happened.

You were lowkey confused as to why he let go, so when Iida turned you around and grasped your face with one hand and held your arm with the other you were like oh shit.

“I...don’t mind if our relationship was more public anymore...”

iida was bLUSHING AND HE WAS LIKE LOOKING AWAY AND STUFF AND MY HEART UGH TAKE ME NOW

You, and the whole class were shocked and silent, making Iida even more embarrassed and wondering if he did the right thing or not

But when you buried your face in his chest and hugged him with a muffled “good morning” iidas heart went aAAAAAAA

The whole class never thought that Iida would be dating someone

Especially a guy.

Especially a guy.

When you pulled away you were smiling at eachother but the moment was ruined by the class drowning you with questions like “iida-kun, you’re gay?” Or “Hey-(y/n’s) dating Iida??”

After that whole encounter Iida promised he’d try to return your affection as much as possible

But oh boy is this boy shy to affection

He’d be a super sweaty blushy mess when you two would walk to lunch holding hands or when you gave him a suprise hug.

He usually would have a problem with pda, but since he didn’t want what happened before to happen again, you two made a compromise that you could hold hands and hug *to a limit*, but no kissing.

Cuz that’s immodest and whatnot

Whenever you guys had partnered work, he would always partner with you unless partners were assigned.

He claimed it was because “me and (y/n) have a great work dynamic! It-it would be most efficient!”

But this dude just wanted to hold your hand under the desk or secretly and quickly hug during hero training 🥺

No matter how long you hold his hand or hug him he’s still super flustered and extra hand choppy

He can’t get used to it the poor babey

Your first date was at a super fancy restaurant, and sure a few people stared at you two but if someone bother you two for being two men on a date he would not hesitate to recipro-burst their ass to space

After that prepare for many many, many study dates at his or your house

His family loves you, thought they don’t know you two are dating, since Iida wasn’t really to come out yet

Your family however, knows you two are dating and adores Iida aswell. (Don’t worry Iida they’re good at keeping secrets)

When Iida did come out though, his family was silent until tensei rolled up (I’m sorry-whEELCHAIRJSJS) to him and said “you have every right to be, Tenya. I support you.”

His family each took turns telling him they supported him and Iida kinda...broke down crying in a disheveled mess.

Poor babey

You know cuz he broke down crying onto your chest until he dropped to the ground LMAO

After that, nothing was really holding down your relationship, so you two were such a force to be reckoned with.

Aah 💙💙💙

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[kuiinncedes]

PROMPT LIST? cheerio!tina & skank!quinn, angst #37, quinntina ofc

yes prompt list!! sorry this took so long, thanks sm for prompting sim <33

some pre-notes: first that wow this got long again 😂 2398 words (before probably some edits in the tumblr post editor) *oops i did it again*

1 2 3 these are my other three (very short) “installments” for this “verse” i guess 🤪 i wouldn’t say it’s required to read them tho i think everything is pretty understandable 🥰

this also got a little anti rachel lol 🥴 and anti schue but like yeah and i think that’s it 😗

Angst 37: “Lie to me. I don’t care what you say, just lie to me. Make me feel okay again.”

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Glee club has been going well… all things considered.

Including the fact that Quinn’s crush on Tina only grows, that Rachel Berry still doesn’t seem to warm up to her and Kurt’s presence in the choir room, that the teacher really kind of sucks and apparently only Kurt and Quinn see it, that most of the other members are still wary around them - around Quinn.

But not Tina. Tina, who’s one of the most popular girls in school, not actually head of the Cheerios but probably the most well-liked, and there’s a reason. Tina is the first to welcome her and Kurt to the glee club after their audition, the first to make an effort to befriend them. She talks to Kurt about fashion, and Kurt is hesitant to bring down his facade but Quinn can tell how much he loves it, how much he’s missed talking about something that brings him so much joy. Even with his temporary and purposely limited wardrobe situation, he’s talked Quinn’s ear off about the things he wants to do and wear in New York City; she doesn’t understand much of it so she’s glad Tina does.

And she talks to Quinn. Tina actually talks to Quinn like… like she’s a person, just another student at this school, not Quinn Fabray, half of the most cold and closed-off duo that walks the halls, ex-most popular girl in school, Quinn Fabray with an unspeakable history, unspeakable in that Quinn will have consequences for those who speak about it. 

It’s dramatic, she knows. But it’s part of her untouchable image at this piece of shit school with its horrible students. 

Not Tina. Tina’s not horrible.

(Get a grip, Fabray.)

It feels like she and Kurt are on the edge of a precipice with glee club. Tina likes them, Blaine is nice enough to them (Kurt seems to like him, too), Rachel isn’t very welcoming, everyone else mostly ignores them. (Which is fine - preferable, really.)

They sway in the back, they sing, they do their part. And Quinn has missed singing, so it’s not all bad, she supposes.

But Quinn can feel the tension, the others’ hesitation whenever she and Kurt walk in to sit in the back, their unspoken thoughts, loud in their silence, their barely hidden glances.

She feels like she’ll tumble from the edge with one push.

One day, Tina sits beside Quinn and she can’t stop her jump of surprise. Tina just shoots her a small smile and moves her chair a bit further away, but Quinn finds herself wishing she would scoot the other way instead.

Tina keeps sitting by Quinn, and Quinn has no idea why.

She ignores the way her heart speeds up a little every time she makes eye contact with Tina, the way Kurt smirks knowingly at her but then returns to staring at the back of Blaine Anderson’s head, the way she can’t stop letting her eyes wander over to Tina every time Mr. Schuester starts talking about something she has no interest in (which she admits is very often).

Kurt had said glee would give her the chance to talk to Tina. And he was right - she’s made conversation with Tina multiple times (mostly initiated by Tina, though), and she would say they’re friends. Tina has said they’re friends and she definitely didn’t freak out to Kurt about it.

Kurt she called me her friend holy shit -

Inside voice, honey. Your gay is showing.

Shut - we’re literally outside. Let’s talk about you and Blaine.

Nope, fuck you, walking away now.

Kurt - wait! She - but she called me her friend - Kurt -

Besides Kurt, Tina is probably the person she’s closest with. Which still doesn’t say much - she’s not close to anyone besides Kurt…

But she wants to be, she thinks as she watches Tina perform an upbeat solo, a song she doesn’t recognize, but she watches her - how alive she looks, how good she sounds. It’s not like Quinn hasn’t heard her sing in the months since she’s joined, but if she had it her way, Tina would be the only one singing in this entire group. (She would insist on highlighting others, though, so Quinn adds herself and Kurt to that list. Not that they would ever get a solo.)

“All right, guys,” Mr. Schuester says. Kurt nudges Quinn with his elbow to get her to pay attention, and she shoots him a half-hearted glare. 

“So that was everyone who signed up to audition for a solo at regionals,” he continues. “I’ll let you know who we’re featuring by tomorrow. So I’ll see you then!”

“Who do you think is gonna get it?” Kurt asks as they leave, walking out to the parking lot. 

“Um…” 

“Right, I forgot, you’re too busy staring at Tina to know what’s going on in glee.”

Quinn scoffs. “I know what’s going on in glee.”

Kurt gives her a questioning look.

“I do! Sure, I didn’t know about the auditions, but I know Rachel’s probably getting the solo, even though it should go to Tina.”

“Anyone could tell you that.”

Quinn shoves Kurt lightly, a smile spreading across her face as they get into his car. Quinn’s been spending more time at Kurt’s lately - Quinn’s parents don’t give a fuck about her - they did the bare minimum allowing her to stay when she was pregnant and they’ve used up all their good parenting cards, it seems. She’s infinitely grateful for Burt Hummel, because if the kids and some of the teachers at school are going to treat her and Kurt like shit, at least there’s someone in their corner.

-

Completely unsurprisingly, Mr. Schuester announces Rachel as the soloist for regionals the next day, after years of the same thing, from what Quinn has heard.

Surprisingly, Tina isn’t in the room. Although, Quinn thinks, she wouldn’t be either if she knew what the outcome was going to be. And everyone knew what the outcome was going to be.

But Mercedes pushes back against his decision anyway, Santana complains, Blaine and Brittany try to placate, Kurt watches Blaine, Rachel jabbers about her destiny as the New Directions soloist or something, Quinn sits and wonders about the empty chair next to her. (She also wonders what would be the easiest way to get Rachel to shut the fuck up.)

She’s not paying attention, letting everyone’s arguing fade into the background. She barely registers Rachel saying shrilly, “We’re supposed to be a family!”

“Not much of a family when you’re the only one who can have anything good!” Mercedes snaps.

“I bet you wouldn’t react like this if Kurt or Quinn got the solo! Like they would even deserve it! At least I belong here, they don’t even - ”

“Would you shut - ” Mercedes starts at the same time Santana yells back, “Quinn doesn’t need a family, she’s a mother!”

And she knows - Quinn knows - that Santana just does this, she says shit and hurts people and this is just that and it’s whatever but -

Suddenly Quinn is in sophomore year again, hearing the taunts of her classmates behind her back and to her face. Suddenly she’s in sophomore year again, somehow invisible in the halls but also the only person anyone was looking at, pointing at, laughing at. She’s in sophomore year again and teachers do nothing to help her, no one but Kurt bothers to notice anything but the fact that she’s pregnant. And they laugh, and they taunt, and they stare.

She’s a mother. 

There it is. There’s the edge of the cliff that she has been fighting for balance on in this stupid club for months. 

Like they would even deserve it.

They don’t belong here.

And Quinn’s falling.

“I need to go, meet you at your car,” she says roughly to Kurt, who it seems hasn’t been paying attention at all, more focused on committing to memory the details of Blaine Anderson from halfway across the room. Quinn storms out and the arguing continues behind her.

Quinn slams the door to the bathroom as she barges in and all at once, sees that Tina is here (Tina is here?), realizes that she herself is crying, trying not to make noise and she just throws her bag on the floor and sinks down against a wall, hands around her knees and head leaned back. It’s too fucking much.

“Quinn?” Tina asks gently, so gently and Quinn watches as Tina kneels down in front of her. “Are you okay?”

Quinn wipes at her face, laughing harshly. “Yeah. Fine.”

Tina looks at her, not moving but just watching her. Quinn thinks it must be uncomfortable for her to kneel on the bathroom floor in her Cheerios outfit. Quinn thinks that Tina shouldn’t care about her, she should just leave, save her knees from the cold tile.

She doesn’t leave. 

After a moment, Tina says, “Hey, so, you don’t have to tell me anything… but I’m here if you need to.”

Quinn’s not actively crying anymore, grey smudges on her fingers where her makeup was wiped off. Her face probably looks like a nightmare, but she’s too exhausted to care. She leans her head back again and fixes her gaze just above Tina’s head, at the ceiling, the harsh bathroom lights piercing her vision through the tears in her eyes.

“I just - ” I guess I’m talking, she thinks, “Santana said something dumb about me being a mother and that’s what I heard sneered at me every day for months and even now still… and I’m not…”

Quinn trails off, looking at Tina again who nods, encouraging her to continue. She swallows and averts her gaze again.

“…and Rachel said something dumb about Kurt and I not belonging and not deserving it but she’s Rachel and I don’t care about the shit she says - I usually don’t. But her saying that - ” she scoffs. “Newsflash, Rachel, we don’t fucking belong anywhere.”

That was painfully made obvious sophomore year, with Quinn’s exit from the Cheerios, from popularity. It was obvious when no matter what, she couldn’t get it back, any of it. It was obvious when she and Kurt were the only ones to really notice each other and help each other. It was obvious when the only choice they had, the one they took, was becoming this and isolating themselves. It was obvious when the only chance they had was each other.

As if she needs someone else to tell her that, to rub it in.

It’s been building up, she realizes, this feeling, the hatred, the estrangement and isolation. She wonders if Kurt feels the same, how close he is to the edge, or if he’s even on a precipice like she is at all.

Quinn’s falling, she doesn’t know when or how it will end and she just wants -

“Lie to me,” she says to Tina, teeth clenched and voice tired. “I don’t care what you say, just lie to me. Make me feel okay again.”

Falling, falling, falling - 

Quinn thinks bitterly that she should be used to it after her falls from popularity.

Tina takes her hands gently and squeezes them in reassurance. “I know this might just seem like words, and I’m not lying - you do belong. Both of you. You belong in glee club. You belong here.”

Quinn just swallows again, letting the words wash over her, and in the back of her mind, the part that’s not thinking about - everything, she marvels at the fact that Tina is holding her hands, and Tina’s skin is soft, and Tina’s words and actions feel genuine.

Falling… slowing.

Lie to me.

“We don’t belong. Everyone hates us,” Quinn mutters.

“I don’t,” Tina says, smiling a little. “I know we can be pretty difficult, the glee club, but we really don’t think that. Rachel might - if I’m being honest, I think she’s the one who doesn’t belong in glee club, for a multitude of reasons - but it really is supposed to be a safe, welcoming space. I’m really sorry we haven’t been able to do that for you.”

Quinn shrugs. “You have,” she admits softly. 

Tina looks like she doesn’t know what to say to that. Quinn pushes herself up against the wall, a little awkwardly, hands still intertwined with Tina’s, who squeezes again. “I’ll talk to her,” Tina says. “Rachel. I’ve been getting fed up with her shit, anyway. I’ve been needing to talk to her.”

“Okay,” is all Quinn can think to say, quietly uttered, her voice a little choked. “You don’t have to - ”

“No, I do,” Tina says. “And I want to. Mr. Schue lets her get away with way too much.”

Quinn huffs a laugh and Tina grins slightly, then withdraws her hands and pulls them through her ponytail, suddenly looking almost nervous. Quinn drops her hands in her lap and plays with her rings. Now that Quinn’s calmed down, her proximity-to-Tina-Cohen-Chang-induced nerves are back in full force. 

And maybe she isn’t falling anymore.

“Why weren’t you there today?” she asks after a moment.

Tina’s lips clench into a line. “Knew Rachel was getting the solo. I don’t know, I didn’t want to deal with that today, you know? Three years of the same shit, I’m just tired of it.”

Quinn hums in understanding. She can imagine.

“Are you okay? What do you say we… get out of here? Go somewhere?” Tina asks a little awkwardly, wincing slightly as she stands up and extends a hand for Quinn. She takes it and lets Tina pull her up.

“I’m actually… going home with Kurt, ” - but going somewhere with Tina - Kurt will understand - “actually, yeah, sure. I’ll let him know,” Quinn answers, not letting herself doubt the decision, pulling her phone from her pocket and quickly typing out a text and sending it to Kurt, who immediately responds.

omg did u actually talk and get a date with tina cohen chang

Quinn replies, fuck you, i’m leaving bye

are you okay?

yeah, fine i’ll talk to you later

ok have fun on your date ;)

yeah 🖕

Tina bounces a little and shoots her a smile when she puts her phone away. “Awesome. There’s this coffee shop that I think you’ll love - ”

“It’s not the Lima Bean, is it?”

Tina laughs. “Of course not. Barely anyone knows about this place, at least from school, so I really love it there.”

Tina grabs Quinn’s hand again and they head out of the school, Quinn ignoring how she can feel her pounding heartbeat against Tina’s skin. Hopefully Tina doesn’t notice.

*****

some notes for after 🤪

ok so i don’t really know why i used the “she’s a mother” line and idk if i’m just overthinking it but i’m not saying that scene was bad or anything ?? idk lol it was just on my mind i guess so i put it in slkdgfj (basically,, not related to the canon scene lol i just like adding canon lines 😗)

i think the point i was trying to make if any was that quinn doesn’t really have any family (in this au) so yeah it’s kind of a sensitive point

i did say this was very similar to my previous werewolf!quinn and vampire!tina fic but i’m okay with it now tbh,,, you know like it’s an alternate universe and they just help each other in all universes :’) yeah

i would love to continue this but i don’t have the best track record with that lol so we’ll see 😂

#quinntina #glee #glee fic #my ficsssss #prompt fills :)) #no one: me while writing this (and the vampire werewolf one): kuinn kuinn kuinn kuinn kuinn #kuinn isn't even like my favorite friendship lmao why haven't i written kurtcedses dlkfsdjgkfj #i feel like other people who take forever to answer fic prompts do so bc they're working on it the entire time #whereas i just wrote this in the span of like an afternoon and evening and i'm posting it askldgjkhsdjf #i also keep thinking about how it's so fun to write quinntina ??? it was so hard to think of things for the two klaine prompts i got #and i ended up just going canon mostly #but with quinntina i'm just making shit up 😈 idk lol it's great #mostly thinking about that bc my two klaine fills were like 500 words or less ?? i don't remember #and this is my second 2k+ word fic for a quinntina fill aksdfjkgdjsf anyway #ugh i had stuff i wanted to say but i'm lazy so that's it lol #*screams and hits post* a;sldhgfkaldjsfgk #oh shit forgot to tag #asks #porcelain-nightbird #<3 #hell yeah i got one more prompt to do lol

[homieswithhades]

DIVERSITY WIN !!!!!!! THE GAYS FUCKing WONNNNNN !!!!! EP 11 🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈

holyshitsholyshithsolyshitlholy SHITTTTRT SO MUCH FUCKINF SHIT HAPPENED IM SCREEGIDBDB

ok i need to scrub through the episode again

EVERY1 PROTECTING JEHYEOK FROM CRONY 😭😭😭😭😭 they love him sm its insane ❤❤

hanyang and lieutenant paeng 🥲🥲🥲 so sweet

Jehyeok getting the 140kmp/h fastball, hangs up after requesting to call jiho, joonho IMPLORES him to call but he doesn't, asks kaist abt the inmate service, we r made 2 think he sends jiho flowers when ITS ACTUALLY SOME OTHER GUY CONFESSING TO HER AND HER NOT SAYING NO and it turns out Jehyeok acc sent baseball equipment to schools.... an emotional rollercoaster (cannot remember if all tnis was in this ep or ep 10 my bad)

HANYANGS SARANGHAE AND LIEUTENANT PAENG GOES BACK TO TUCK HIM IN PROPERLY PLEASE I WAS IN TEARXZZZBSB

jehyeok/joonho banter (romantic)

hanyang/captain yoo banter (???? flirting??)

hanyang: "mentally im 50 years old" BITCH ME TOO 😭😭 also captain yoo not inchrested in girls!??!?!

captain yoo realising hanyang is in fact, gay: 🙁😧😳🧐

HANYANG SAYING I LOVE YOU TO JIWON................... AND THEN THAT WHOLE FLASGBACKDN.......... BITCH MY HEART WAS IN MY FUCKING THROAT I CSNT BELIBE THEY DIDNT SHOW THE KISS PROPERLY !!!!! my.... my pining gays.... *holds them gently* and jiwon made the first move too..... 😭😭😭😭 literally sobbing crying throwing up chewing glass rn

joonho and sim 🥰🥰 so cute 💔💔

joonho stepping up to the inmates too?? so sexy of him

god...... jehyeok saving Lifer after Crony set the incinerator on fire........ that shit acc shook jehyeok to his core my guy was SO distraught and rightfully so jesus christ... joonho immediately granting jehyeok the ability to go all around the facility and taking full responsibility for everything.... jehyeok looking just absolutely scrumptious

tje. .r..hr..... the. hmmm. the scene. innthe showers...... many many many thoughts.... 1) strip in front of bestie whos eyes LITERALLY POP OUTTA THEIR SOCKETS 😭😭😭 he was like dontlook down dont look down dont look down dontlook- 2) beat the everloving SHIT outta yerman 3) joonho dragging jehyeok off yerman and begging him to stop, jehyeok screaming 4) overall impeccable scene so insane

now. now this scene..... got me tearing my hair out 1) joonhos "knock knock" 2) "are you the hulk? put on a shirt" "i dont have one" *JOONHO KNOWS THIS, GIVES HIM AN NEW FUCKINF SHIRT* IM SCREAM 3) the banter... the reassurance... the support... 4) "the guard spoke very favourably of you. hes good-looking too." ??!?!?!?!⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️ THAT WAS SO OUTTA POCKET????. AND JEHYEOKS SMILE!?@??$;$;@; THE LONG AND SOFT LOOK HE GAVE JOONHO?!,#;#;#^ 5) joonho deflects his feelings by calling jehyeok a psycho. jehyeok says "do you think im that stupid? i knew you were there. thanks. i mean it. thank you." and to top it all off, more pure deflection from joonho. also jehyeok looks like :3 when he smiles and it shatters my heart

joonho and jehyeok plot to give Lifer wild roses but jehyeok forgets the meaning and sings a song instead 😭😭😭 (the meaning was longing for family 💔💔)

ALSOALSO ALSOOOO minchul reading jehyeoks horoscope and it saying "you will recieve what you desire most and you will get good news" nd then captain yoo says "what does jehyeok desire most..." and THEN IT CUTS IMMEDIATELY TO JOONHO STANDING IN THE DOORWAY IM GRINDING MY TEETH INTO DUST WHAT THEBFUVKFJSBSHJA

all the clubs want jehyeok ☺☺ good 4 him ❤❤🥰🥰

jiho tells jehyeok to fuck off. hopefully he takes that advice !

fuck me that ep was the best one yet.... literally we won gays we won!!!! injecting hanyang backstory directly in2 my veins

#hades watches prison playbook #edit after watching ep 15: that last sentance I said #imma km.s