#i just don’t

[thattheater-kid]

Figuring out that I was aplatonic made so much sense.

I’ve never made a friend on my own. All the friends I’ve made approached me and made me their friend, or I met through friends. I’ve never felt a desire to have friends. Even as a child I never felt I needed them, which made adults think there was something wrong with me and peers think I was stuck up, thinking I was “too good” to be friends with them. I was seen as a mean person. Adults pulled me aside to ask me why I was by myself, and I told them I didn’t like people. I told them I didn’t want to be around people. I said there were more important things to worry about. This got me sent to school counselors, who would ask me why I pushed people away and didn’t want friends and I didn’t have a reason. I enjoy my friends’ company, but I don’t miss them when I’m away. I never understood why it mattered so much, even as a kid. I always preferred to be alone, honestly. I thought for the longest time it was related to being autistic and ADHD, and maybe it is to an extent, but I simply never liked people and never had a desire to be friends with them.

I’d already known I was aroace. I never felt a desire to have sexual or romantic relationships. I never saw a point. I felt no attraction towards anyone and had no desire to. My life was enjoyable without it. Once I learned about aromanticism and asexuality, I understood that that was what I am.

However, aroace spaces put so much emphasis on platonic love that I never felt like I really belonged in the aroace community. I felt like I was still weird and gross. I felt like a freak who was destined to be alone, someone who could never be fulfilled and would always be missing something. I felt like a freak in my own community because I felt no love. I didn’t feel platonic love or attraction and frankly didn’t want to.

I found the word “aplatonic”. Someone who feels no platonic love or attraction. Now I understand that’s who I am, and that’s not a bad thing. My life is no worse without love. I’m not missing something. I still live a fulfilling life. I’m still human.

#by extent I also feel no desire to form queer platonic relationships with anyone #this is no hate to aroace people who do feel platonic love and do value it #I just don’t #and feel that we shouldn’t put so much emphasis on it #and use it as some way to justify being aroace #as if feeling no love is bad #aroace #aromantic #asexual #aplatonic #triple a battery #aroaceapl #aspec

[frnkiebby]

I have an unhealthy obsession with this specific photo

and now you have it as a gif~🎃

#enjoy #bc me fucking too #again it’s one of those things i’m not gonna do ANY kind of introspection on #bc i don’t need to nor want to know why #i just don’t #we’re just gonna let it be a thing #jfc #dumpster fire here i come #frnkiebby #raverfrank #frank iero #mcr #frnkiero #mcrmy #frnkie #mcr5 #my chemical romance #my chem #ilhsm

[blade-that-was-broken]

“Branch?”

John’s voice was soft and patient, almost a little hesitant like he was talking to a scared animal. Branch wasn’t sure if he should be offended or appreciate the quiet. He just stared ahead with a deepening frown, his oldest brother - wow, Bruce wasn’t his oldest brother - looking at him with all the calm in the world. He wasn’t bothered.

“You’re going to have to step of the brake if you want to go anywhere,” John continued, mildly amused.

He was sitting in the passenger seat of their grandma’s vehicle. There was no one else around. Branch was sixteen and was barely in the class to learn how to drive. His grandmother couldn’t drive very well, much less teach someone like Branch but then his oldest brother who he practically didn’t even know existed just showed up one day. Next thing Branch knew, said oldest brother offered to try start with him. To try and start teaching him a few of the basics. Their grandma jumped at the chance. Part of it was to give him a step up in learning how to drive. Part of it was probably because Branch didn’t have any friends or interact with anyone. So there Branch was, gripping the wheel with almost white knuckles and putting half his weight into the foot on the brake.

“I know.”

“Why are you so nervous?”

“I’m trying to control thousands of pounds of metal,” Branch muttered like it was obvious. Which it was. Cars were dangerous and he wasn’t looking forward to having to drive them. “I could hurt someone.”

He could see John’s soft smile in the corner of his eye. If nothing else, this was amusing to him but Branch didn’t seem to see it in a condescending way which was strange. “Buddy, we’re in an empty parking lot.”

“I know.”

“Do you want to go home?”

“No.”

“Are you sure you want to do this?”

Branch paused, chewing on the inside of his cheek. “Do you think I can?”

He didn’t hesitate. “Yes.”

“You sound so sure.”

That was kind of incredible. Branch and John barely knew each other and he had been so quick to have this kind of faith in him. He believed it too. There was something about the way he spoke about most things, with a confidence and assurance lost on Branch, that made the younger simply believe him.

“It someone like me can learn how to drive a tank, then you - who is leagues smarter than me or anyone I know - can drive this dinky little car. I promise.”

#soldier on au #do you understand how much I love them??? #like screaaaaaaaaaaaaaammmmmmm #they’re very special to me #in pretty much all my aud #but like guyyyyyssssss #Augh I don’t have words #I just don’t #okay I’m done now #gotta go back to work lol

[chelseasdagger]

i’m at work and a guy just body shamed me and sexualized me in the same sentence. i wanna go home

#i’ve been here 1.5 hrs and this is great #context for those wondering #his son had to lose some weight for a wrestling meet and talked about how it’s hard since his son is naturally thin #he then goes ‘i could lose some of that’ and rubs his stomach since he has a bit of a beer belly #i chuckled a bit cause he laughed and then he motions to my chest and goes ‘you could lose some of that too’ #i have a pretty large chest. but that still hurt #and then he follows up with ‘yeah my wife lost like 15 pounds but i think it all came from her boobs’ in a disappointed tone #i just don’t #why comment on people’s bodies #i’m already struggling with stuff and now this at a place i didn’t expect it and so sudden #i just wanna go home

[fever-dreamer97]

So Unpopular Take…I don’t like Toga.

Okay, I feel bad that she had a rough childhood and she is a good villain character.

But it was not normal to drink blood as a child, I don’t know why I’m supposed to feel bad for her on that. I feel bad that she was misunderstood when she was trying to show love.

Also she kinda gets on my nerves on acting like she’s some victim all the time.

For example, when she was mad at Ochako for not listening her questions during the war. Girl, you just killed an innocent old woman for blood, like you did multiple times with people throughout the show.

I’m sorry but I just don’t like her. I feel bad for the child Toga but not this grown ass Toga who is killing people left and right.

EDIT: I think I accidentally misused the word Hot Take as in Unpopular Take so I fixed it. My bad, I’m in Gen Z but I’m a complete grandma when it comes to slang lol

#a bit spoiler-ly but not a lot #i feel more for Dabis backstory than hers tbh #I don’t mean to rag on toga lovers either #love the character that you love #I just don’t #anime #bnha #my hero academia #boku no hero academia #mha #boku no academia #boku no hero #bnha manga #urakara ochako #toga himiko #ochatoga #BNHA 392 #BNHA 391 #bnha spoilers #mha spoilers #bnha manga leaks #bnha manga spoilers

[a-dorin]

sorry guys but i don’t give a fuck about bad batch

#i just don’t #sorry!

[halfghostwriter]

In case anyone was wondering why it’s taking so long for me to update Little Baby Man Vacation:

I have the start

I have the end

I don’t have the fucking middle part

AND HERE COMES EXECUTIVE DYSFUNCTION WITH A STEEL CHAIR!

#I know how most of the chapter is going to play out #it’s just the fucking. middle. and every time I sit down to write said middle #I just don’t #like I’ll get this shit done but goddamn #probably delete later

[aeterna-auroral-avenger]

#tb polls tumblr #adulting #work #jobs #struggle bus #the struggle is real #nothing is wrong #I just don’t #that’s it #I just don’t today

[aerynwrites]

Do you ever just like not vibe with someone so hard for absolutely no reason.

And then feel like a dick because of it?

Bc yeah. Same.

#like??? #idk why I don’t like you #I just don’t #@this one new coworker of mine

[oliver-queen-apologist]

you're so real for your batcat opinion! it's so rare to see other people who just like don't really care about them. like yeah sure they make sense, yes they're important to each other, no they don't interest me at all. they're both more interesting away from each other imo

fr tom king spent YEARS pushing them down my throat and acting like it’s in any way realistic for them to get married. it’s treated on the same level as clois in terms of dc’s merchandising and such so it’s really like impossible to escape from when you don’t like it.

#ask #this is no shade at all to the ppl who like them #i just don’t

[blorbo-place]

Watching Nimona for the first time, avoiding all possible spoilers.

I already think it’s this bitch who did it

#nimona spoilers #nimona #I don’t like her #I just don’t #look at her #she looks like she eats the flavorless Cheerios with skim milk #and LIKES IT

[imtherainbownow]

GUESS WHO JUST PASSED OUT AND HAD TO LEAVE SCHOOL BECAUSE HIS BLOOD PRESSURE WAS SO FUCKINF LOW HE COULDNT STAND AND HIS LEGS KEPT FUCKING GIVING PUT ON HIM!!

A reminder to at least fucking eat something small otherwise you Will Not Be Okay(tm). Among other things I could also feel my damn heartbeat and my body was trembling so so badly. I was told I was also pale.

#tw disordered eating #I don’t eat lunch or breakfast #I don’t know why #I just don’t #it’s habit #I feel like shit if I do eat #I normally ignore the cues by flavored or plain water #I don’t know how to stop #I’m deep into it..

[lovekenney]

I don’t notice when characters change “I miss pilot episode britta” she didn’t go anywhere? She’s right there?

#I just don’t #community nbc

[the-martyrfication-of-the-matron]

I have the urge to make an au but I KNOW WHAT THE AU IS BASED OFF OF AND IT MAKES ME FEEL SICK

#as in I had an idea for a superhero au but ik the idea comes from a Voltron superhero au #that I read religiously and won’t state the main ship in #I don’t #I don’t want to talk about my Voltron era #I just don’t

[rosicheeks]

.

#heavy fucking sigh #they finally uploaded my case online #the total amount I have to pay is $368 #my heart fucking sank #idk what to do #idk how I’m going to do it #I want to fight it but also know the court is going to probably laugh in my face #and then I’ll have to pay more fees and fines #I just wish I could go back and redo that entire day/situation #I seriously have no clue what to do #genuinely wish I could find those fucking state troopers and talk to them #I just #don’t understand how someone can sleep at night knowing they ruin people’s lives #I just don’t #I’m going to try and figure out how to deal with this without telling my parents #cause once I do I have no clue what will happen #I’m so fucked #why can’t I ever catch a fucking break #shut up rosie

[shit-sorry-fuck-mybad]

I never thought Jamie would be my favorite character, I really thought he was gonna be the comic relief, the guy who’s an asshole and that’s just funny, I didn’t think he would be relevant to the plot, but Jamie Tartt has the best character growth

I think I never related to Jamie, which is like my whole thing with this show, I relate to the characters which makes me emotional which makes me love them, characters like Ted and Colin and Roy and Rebecca, I never found something major in him to relate to, but that just gave me a completely different approach to him and I think that’s the reason he’s my favorite, I can just look at him from outside and analyze him

Phil Dunster is a fantastic fucking actor, and I’m sad to see the show end but I’m also so happy for Jamie, for going all the way to where he is now

#ted lasso #Jamie tartt #also I’m not saying people can’t relate to Jamie #people do relate to him #I just don’t